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These nightmares have been going on for almost two years now. I am nineteen and i shouldnt be scared to go to sleep. ive tried it all to see what is causing these dreams. ive tried going to bed early, not smoking before bed, meditation, no tv before bed, not eating before bed ect... im so tired of this happening to me. i feel like im going crazy. ill wake up screaming, crying and throwing punches. My boyfriend shook me to wake me up cuz i was talking, crying and moving so muchh in my sleep. i dont really have recurring dreams often. they are normally different. but they are very violent and gruesome. i remember all my dreams when i wake up some i will forget and some i still remember til this day. Ive had a dream where i was stuck in this house with women and children and we were hiding and i was confused on what we were hiding from and i found out by looking out the window that men are finding us and killing us. i saw a guy sliting a pregnant womens throat nd cutting out her baby nd seeing them kill all of us in awful sick ways. they found some of us nd lined us up and we had to fight the men for our lives and even if we won we still had to fight more. it was so scary. i woke up screaming body mary. one where my mom kept a serial killer as a like pet thing and was convinced it couldnt get out of his cell and did and starting murdering everyone. another where it was a world war nd i went to kill a bad person and when i did she laughed and said youu cant kill something thats already dead. i jus dont understand why im having these dreams. i look online all the time to find ways to stop them or why they are caused. many people laugh at me and say "youu have the weirdest dreams" they have no idea what these dreams do to youu. i wake up in pain from dreams. how is that possible?? theyre not real but yet i feel pain from them. my family believes that ima hypocondriac and i worry over everything. which isnt the case. i have these night terrors and i cant even express how bad they are. unrealistic things shouldnt feel real. its hard to live with. i have dark rings around my eyes and im always tired because i never had a good nights rest in two years. i wish people would take me seriously. my boyfriend said that hes gonna get me a dream catcher... i dont even know if that would work but if i do try a spiritual way to get rid of these ima make sure its made with the real stuff not like going to walmart and getting it. i got this site to see if i can relate to people nd maybe people have found ways to sleep with this kinda disorder and to tell my story and keep track of my dreams so when i go see a psych. i need help with this. noone i know understands what im going thro. they jus tell me they arent real... i know they arent but they arent the ones trapped in these crazy awful dreams. and i wouldnt wish this on anyone. i feel hopeless in this situation..
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Thanks for reading this rant.
<3 Shana.