All that we see or seem, is but a dream within a dream.

well I'm sorry I haven't been on. I've been on vacation.
Right now I'm lying in bed trying to go back to sleep. I woke up cuz of my nightmare.
it was about these brothers who lured people to them nd then they'd torture nd kill them. It was awful. But I woke up nd I'm glad. Jus hope I don't fall back.asleep back to tht dream. Ha. Well I was looking online about disorders tht cause nightmares nd I saw on tht said restless leg syndrome. Well I think I may have tht. I move my leg constantly nd its mostly my ankle tht I move. I do it cuz I feel uncomfortable if I don't. I mean I don't quite understand how tht would even help produce nightmares.

So i read up on if you are sleeping wit someone or something it will make youu feel safe nd stop these nightmares. Well i fell asleep wit my pitbull boxer mix. (bullboxer pit) and i woke up cuz she moved nd slept on the floor. i didnt have a dream. well then i went back to sleep without her and i had a horrible nightmare!!
I was at these peoples house and everyone was riding quads and stuff. The kids tht lived there were like 18 and 14. i had a bad feeling about these kids but everyone thought they were great. well they trapped me in the house while everyone else was outside and raped me.while i was tryna find a way out i stumbled across these dead bodies and they had their heads cut off. It was sck! They were cracking jokes about it. and were laughing screaming ima murder youu slut. well i saw this guy riding a quad and with everything i had i busted out the window and grabbed the quad and trying to escape. They followed me and im screaming leave me alone. leave me alone!! and i woke up crying. My bullboxer pit came to me licking my face.

So i read up on if you are sleeping wit someone or something it will make youu feel safe nd stop these nightmares. Well i fell asleep wit my pitbull boxer mix. (bullboxer pit) and i woke up cuz she moved nd slept on the floor. i didnt have a dream. well then i went back to sleep without her and i had a horrible nightmare!!
I was at these peoples house and everyone was riding quads and stuff. The kids tht lived there were like 18 and 14. i had a bad feeling about these kids but everyone thought they were great. well they trapped me in the house while everyone else was outside and raped me.while i was tryna find a way out i stumbled across these dead bodies and they had their heads cut off. It was sck! They were cracking jokes about it. and were laughing screaming ima murder youu slut. well i saw this guy riding a quad and with everything i had i busted out the window and grabbed the quad and trying to escape. They followed me and im screaming leave me alone. leave me alone!! and i woke up crying. My bullboxer pit came to me licking my face.

I had two nightmares last night..
The first one...
I was in my house but it didnt feel like my house. There was something erie about it. I got out of my bed and walked out. I looke out the window and it was dark and foggy. I had this bad feeling about my house. i couldnt figure out why. I felt strange. I stood in one spot for a while. well i walked into my mothers room. She was sleeping. Well i walked up to her. And all of a sudden her eyes shot open and she attacked me. Im tryna push her off of me. Screaming why mom why. Her eyes were blackk full of hate. I finally pushed her off of me and ran to the kitchen. I grabbed a knife and when she ran at me i stabbed her in the stomache. i got on top of her and started stabbing her in the face and neck til she stopped moving. i cried and cried. With blood all over me i went into my bedroom and layed on my bed and fell alseep... Thts when the second dream started.
The second one.
I appeared at this house and there was a party going on. It seemed normal.. until the music started to replay a song over and over again.. it didnt feel right. then this guys like lets play a game and im like okayy. he holds a gun up to my face nd on the gun there was buttons and i had to guess which one of the buttons would light up. I got the first one wrong and i had to drinkk a glass of some typa alcohol. i drank so muchh tht i fell and started having a seizer. nd everyone started laughing and was like now we gotta finish her and they shot me in the head. i woke up in sweats breathing so heavy.
I hate these dreams...

These nightmares have been going on for almost two years now. I am nineteen and i shouldnt be scared to go to sleep. ive tried it all to see what is causing these dreams. ive tried going to bed early, not smoking before bed, meditation, no tv before bed, not eating before bed ect... im so tired of this happening to me. i feel like im going crazy. ill wake up screaming, crying and throwing punches. My boyfriend shook me to wake me up cuz i was talking, crying and moving so muchh in my sleep. i dont really have recurring dreams often. they are normally different. but they are very violent and gruesome. i remember all my dreams when i wake up some i will forget and some i still remember til this day. Ive had a dream where i was stuck in this house with women and children and we were hiding and i was confused on what we were hiding from and i found out by looking out the window that men are finding us and killing us. i saw a guy sliting a pregnant womens throat nd cutting out her baby nd seeing them kill all of us in awful sick ways. they found some of us nd lined us up and we had to fight the men for our lives and even if we won we still had to fight more. it was so scary. i woke up screaming body mary. one where my mom kept a serial killer as a like pet thing and was convinced it couldnt get out of his cell and did and starting murdering everyone. another where it was a world war nd i went to kill a bad person and when i did she laughed and said youu cant kill something thats already dead. i jus dont understand why im having these dreams. i look online all the time to find ways to stop them or why they are caused. many people laugh at me and say "youu have the weirdest dreams" they have no idea what these dreams do to youu. i wake up in pain from dreams. how is that possible?? theyre not real but yet i feel pain from them. my family believes that ima hypocondriac and i worry over everything. which isnt the case. i have these night terrors and i cant even express how bad they are. unrealistic things shouldnt feel real. its hard to live with. i have dark rings around my eyes and im always tired because i never had a good nights rest in two years. i wish people would take me seriously. my boyfriend said that hes gonna get me a dream catcher... i dont even know if that would work but if i do try a spiritual way to get rid of these ima make sure its made with the real stuff not like going to walmart and getting it. i got this site to see if i can relate to people nd maybe people have found ways to sleep with this kinda disorder and to tell my story and keep track of my dreams so when i go see a psych. i need help with this. noone i know understands what im going thro. they jus tell me they arent real... i know they arent but they arent the ones trapped in these crazy awful dreams. and i wouldnt wish this on anyone. i feel hopeless in this situation..
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Thanks for reading this rant.
<3 Shana.