Glimpse Into a Mad Mind

Ok I think I woke up in sleep paralysis again last night, but I'm not sure. I woke up for something, then drifted back to sleep. I believe I woke up again and was staring at the backs of my eyelids. I thought I heard the rustling of a plastic bag along with the voice of my stepbrother call my name. But when I heard it, I immediately thought "Don't look. It isn't real." So I kept my eyes shut and sure enough I started feeling waves of strong vibrations which got more intense, then died down, then got intense again, and so on. I thought I must be in SP and tried to put myself in a dream. It didn't work, and I eventually I got up. Thing is, I was thinking like I normally do when I'm awake and I thought I got up and moved, even though I really didn't. How much do you want to bet that if I looked at my hands when I 'got up' that they would blur or melt away or something and I would be in a lucid dream?

But when I got up for real, I questioned that maybe I just dreamt the entire thing, but the vibrations felt so real and my thoughts were clear. I told myself "I must be in SP". I'm not sure; what do you all think?

This dream is one I had quite a while back. I remember it pretty clearly because it was so out of character for me. Here we go, short and sweet:

I was in a narrow field that was bordered by woods on both sides. (It's a real place, by the way. It's behind a friend of mine's house). It was dark but I could see everything clearly. Across the narrow field was the wooden part of a tractor's trailer and it was full of hay. (It's used for hayrides during Halloween time) Standing in front of the wagon is Tom Kaulitz, the guitarist of my favorite band. So I stroll up behind him...and begin violently beating him unconscious with a rusty shovel I don't know why I did it, but I did and I won't forget it XD

I feel awful for hurting him. So much so that when I have another lucid dream, I'll find him and apologize XD

So I've decided to start a dream journal. For my first entry, I will describe a recent natural lucid dream, which I don't get very often at all. So it was a pleasant surprise.

I was in one of my classrooms up at the teacher's desk. The teacher was either an actual teacher of mine or my mother; I think it kept switching between the two. I was talking to her, and suddenly thought something along the lines of "Wait a minute, I'm dreaming. Holy crap, I'm lucid! I gotta post this on DreamViews! ". So then I decided to see if I could control anything. The teacher was talking, and I wanted to talk, so I thought "Stop talking now. Shut up." And the teacher stopped talking. I'm not sure if it was really me that did it or if she just finished her sentence but I felt pretty accomplished.

Next I was walking down a corridor (the whole place looked like the Hogwart's castle) and I thought "Ok so-and-so will be standing around that corner when I get there." It didn't work, but I guess I didn't really expect it to since I've never tried controlling a dream before, even when I did have a natural lucid dream. The dream ended with navigating an extensive tower full of staircases. Then I woke up.

I'd say it was a pretty successful dream. I've been remembering a lot of dreams lately and I'm loving it, except a few of them have been really scary