non-lucid

17.08.2009

Time lapses going to a concert 2 (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

im at J's old house with my brother and sister. S is getting a new roomate so D and i are helping her clean up her room. at some point im getting ready to put some of her clothes in a closet i pat D on the back and tell him its nice to have the three of us together. i start to choke up when i say that i really didnt think it would be but its nice.

*jump*

i wake up on a couch having a dream about having sex. i walk into the dining room and Mike Tyson is there getting a blowjob in front of everybody. i go disembodied and im watching it go down. i meld into Tyson and now im the one getting the blowjob. im getting ready to cum and the girl stops. S.L. looks at me perplexed and says "youre not going to finish??" im embarrassed to because now its totally me, there isnt anymore trace of Tyson in me. so i finish on the floor. instead of an all out toe snapping orgasm, i just let myself release the back up. i grab some paper towels from the kitchen and clean up my mess.

*jump*

its daytime and im inside of a different house watching a football game with my family. Aunt K is in the kitchen with her daughters and kids and theyre all cooking some food. (this is now really blurry, lots of stuff happened in the house)...

....i walk by the couch and Uncle D is there and he starts telling me about how he cant eat certain foods. he says he recently went to the doctors and his cholesterol is through the roof and he could keel over at any time.

*jump*

its daytime and im in the back yard with a bunch friends and were having a party. theres a fire pit, lots of beer and food, a swimming pool, music, and a swing set.

*jump*

were all sitting around the fire laughing and having a good time. im telling some really terrible jokes and joking about how im bringing the 4th grade back.(terrible stuff like saying female dog instead of bitch was extremely funny in the dream) were all laughing really hard and being loud, the mood and energy around the camp fire is great. then i ask if were being too loud for the neighbors and somebody says yes.

the energy bubble collapses instantly, its now dark outside and everyone is just sitting there around the fire pit like a bunch of zombies. it feels like we all went from zero to stoned out of our minds in an instant. very heavy vibrations coursing through me.

i get a vague memory of smoking with the 2 people on my left earlier in the night by the swing set.

*jump*

im still in the bark yard at night and were all drinking beer and getting ready to eat. there are people in the pool now. my friend S.H. is getting chased around the party by a tall brunette. shes not his girlfriend so he doesnt want anything to do with her. hes acting very shy like a grade school boy and shes being persistent. at one point S.H. walks by the pool and somebody in there drags him in. i turn around to laugh with somebody and when i turn around S.H. is getting tossed out of the pool. he lands pretty hard and i wince. he lays there for a few seconds and then gets back up slowly. he had all of his clothes on and hes soaked.

*jump*

were out front and its night time. we see a car whose body is a ping pong table driving down the street erratically, swerving this way and that. it stops somewhere at one point and my friend S.S. sets a couple of tennis rackets on top of it. we go and do something(have the party in the back yard???)

*jump*

were out front and the ping pong table car is driving away with our tennis rackets, 2 old ladies inside. were all laughing and thinking its funny until it rounds a corner and we realize its not coming back.

we hop on a many person bike to chase after it. im sitting on the back pedaling but facing backwards. im pedaling as fast as i can trying to catch the car. my face is going through all these different contortions as im pedaling because of how much im straining. i entertain the though of quiting because i must look like an idiot to the people on the other many person bike thats off to my right and alittle behind.

i have a birds eye view and i see a downhill slope coming up. i tell the person in the front to put the bike in 6th gear so we can make up as much ground as possible on the way down the hill. she does and were flying down the hill, everyone is pedaling even harder now. my vision is now back in my body and i tell the person in front to keep it steady because i cant see where im going.

thoughts of the bike crashing and me getting seriously injured are running through my head and im feeling the different injuries i see myself getting but i push on, let go, and trust the person driving.

now were going up the other side and the pedaling gets tougher. we have to drop down to 4th gear but we keep going. weve almost caught up to the car, were a few feet away but cant seem to close the distance.

a disembodied voice says something to the effect of:

"if youre as close as the diameter of a nickle....

...thats sometimes good enough?"
...you give up?"
...you push on?" (i cant remember what the voice said.)



i dig down deep and pedal even faster and we catch the ping pong table car.

right off the bat the lady driving the car is a huge bitch. the car is just a ping pong table now, and its inside of a basement with all of us. instead of just 2 tennis rackets on the table, there is a ton of our stuff. S.S. and the driver start talking and getting buddy buddy. the situation has turned into kind of a gift exchange where everyone is trading different things. at one point a little girl is getting alot of the things so i start giving some things(a pack of oreos is one i remember) to a chubby little boy to help even it out and make him not feel so sad.

*jump*

(this is going to be hard to explain: im at a place that is different places depending on where my attention is. its my friends moms place, the backyard of the house with the fire pit, outside courtyard on a college campus, none of those, or all of those combined visually(if not visually, then energetically))

*just now as im writing this out, seems like i was always in the backyard with the firepit, the other parts would meld themselves into that dreamscape. the amount of crossover was directly proportional to how much attention i was directing at a person. the more attention i put on someone or what they were saying, the more my fire pit dreamscape would resemble the place where that person was.*

im sitting around in a circle in fold out picnic chairs with some people. the circle from my perspective is:

on my left is M's mom, after that M, then a black college friend of hers, a white guy friend from college, and immediatly to my right is a blonde haired girl from her college.

M is talking with her mom about her college classes and how thats going. im focusing on M and her black guy friend mostly and her mom just a little bit. *so i can see the college dreamscape behind M and her friend, and i can see M's mom's back yard barely off to my left behind her. *

M's mom is talking to M about that and other things in her life and asking some questions. *im focused mostly on mom so my view is moms backyard mostly and a little smidge of the college campus in front of me*

M answers and the view shifts

M's mom realizes that when M goes to college that shes only a few miles away. she starts to get pissed that her daughter doesnt come and see her more often. *while this is going on, i see a 3d map that overlays what i was seeing and shows me where moms house is in relation to the campus*

i zoom in on the campus

*jump*

im sitting in a circle on the college campus with everyone. M's mom asks everyone what kind of computer programming experience everyone has. M says C+, black friend says C++, white guy says C+++, blonde girl says C+. the blonde girl is looking at me and im thinking that it would be great to impress her because i really like her. instead i say i have absolutely no experience programing at all, and in fact i just downloaded visual basic 2008 to teach myself and try and write a dream journal/mapping program.

*jump*

its daytime and im outside of the firepit house on the street with my friend L and a few other people. were waiting to go to a concert. L's friends and a bunch of other people are supposed to meet up with us so we can all go. a bus pulls up and her friend start getting off of it. theyre all christians. all of the women have on a ton of jewelry. im thinking how sickening it is that theyre so materialistic and im wondering what L sees being friends with these people.

i see my friend R.R. walk by and i wave. we talk about C.M. dying last week(really fuzzy). everyone starts to load up into robs truck(there are hundreds of people getting ready to squeeze into the backseat of a Ford F-150. i think it sucks that i wont be able to fit. the blonde college student and i look at the bed of the truck and get in.

*jump*

weird 2 dimensional post cards are swimming across my vision. they show me and the blonde getting into a shopping cart to go to the concert and were goofy looking cartoon drawings. the cards show us as we ride down the road and hit a bump and get tossed around inside of the cart. then each card thats goes by me has us in different states of undress. eventually i see us end up having sex on the cards.(i could feel whatever was going on in the cards even though i wasnt doing it, just watching it happen.

*jump*

its after the concert and im back in the fire pit house. were all talking about how great of a show it was, comparing experiences. a guy walks up and introduces himself as Stevie Ray Vaughn(he looks like my friend G). (im thinking NO WAY!! youre dead. and i still didnt get lucid) he says how it was awesome watching the show because he had bought all of the tickets in one section so he wouldnt be bothered by people.

i think thats a dick thing to do so i tell him(impersonating my buddy M.M.'s voice) i cant wait to go on tv next week and tell everyone what a big dope he is for doing that. he morphs into M.M. and is asking me about my job interviews that i had last week. he has the days i went wrong and when i correct him he has a surprised look on his face. he tells me he sent some food to my boss from me and it might have been spoiled. im thinking how messed up that is when i wake up

EOD

15.08.2009

Time lapses going to a concert (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

im at my old house with my brother and sister. D is searching through the house for something. they were both out getting drunk and stoned and was late picking his son F up. he gets in trouble with F's mom and cant see him.

*jump*

im at a bar after after seeing a concert drinking a beer and wanting a cigarette. D is there hanging out with a group of his friends. he gives me a smoke and i say thank you. i walk out of the bar and it exits to the 13th street side of my high school. i walk north along the side of the build towards the parking lot so i can wrap around and go into the school from the entrence by the cafeteria.

i try going up the wrong side of the stairs and a group of young kids is coming down so i stop. F chastizes me for trying to go up the wrong side of the stairs. i lie to him and tell him i was just waiting for him. we both walk down and the stairs have turned into the black rock retaining wall that was in front of my grade school. we get to the bottom and he gives me a short hug. i ask for another one for my brother since he wont be seeing F. as i pull him back and get a bigger hug, F says "i love you brother."

*jump*

D is looking around the house for something. my sister comes back in the house and ?the kids? are all gone. Aunt C walks in to check on us and see how were doing being alone. one of us asks where mom is and Aunt C tells us that mom isnt here because shes going out to have a three way with some people. then she says something like "girls night out ya know".

*jump*

mom is in the kitchen heating up some of the leftovers we made earlier.

*jump*

J is driving me around in his truck, were going to get concert tickets. i start thinking that i left my wallet in my bdu coat back at the school/bar so i ask J if he can float me. next thing i know im pulling my wallet out of the cargo pocket of my tan pants. we start talking about Victor Wooten and how awesome it is that were going to get to see him again. we talk about how amazing he is to see live, how many times weve seen him, where weve seen him at... i tell him about the time i saw Victor open up for DMB in 2007.

im wanting a smoke so i ask J to stop by a gas station for me. hes driving his big truck and we pass by a gas station, instead he pulls in front of the doors of a building.

i walk in and its a small convenience store. there is a russian looking guy behind the counter. i ask him if he has any pall malls. he says no. i ask about marlboros. he says no, we only have one brand. he goes into the back to get them and i start walking around the bar(the inside of the building is now huge, instead of a little counter, there is a huge wrap around bar that he works at).

he comes back and has a box half full of half full cigarette packs that are opened. he tells me theyre $2 a pack since youre only getting half a pack. and id have to get ticket vouchers to buy the smokes. i ask him why he sells them like that and he tells me that customs looks through all of their stuff to make sure that they arent smuggling anything into the country and its easier this way, less hassle.

as hes telling me this im looking at a tv that has a news program on it.

*jump*

im disembodied watching the news like in an IMAX theatre. im shown footage of russians killing russians. i see tanks, fires, people with bazookas in the back of flatbed trucks, people with machine guns mowing people down. over the footage a voice is saying that theyre killing all of these people to help clean up their country.

theres been some sort of huge global event.(i have a small echo of a deja vu like feeling as im watching the news that its about aliens showing themselves to us and thats why these people are reacting the way they are) the news cuts around to different world leaders and generals praying to their gods after such an amazing experience. theyre all talking about how there way is the right and only way, there god is the only god, and theyre explaining theyre working through god(implying theyre the only one) and thats why theyve reacted the way they have.

the voice thats narrating is a lawyer and i think its kind of ironic thats hes telling the truth. the lawyer/narrator is saying how its funny how full of themselves the leaders and generals are, and isnt it weird how with what has happened that youd think they would know better than to react the way they are. theyre out of touch?

as im shown all of these different people quickly, i make out that all of them are famous actors, and that they all have beards when normally they dont.

*jump*

i turn around from the tv back towards the bar. the russian clerks 2 daughters are behind the counter now as well. the russian clerk(whos changed appearence now) hands me my 2 ticket vouchers for the smokes so i can hand them over to his daughters, he also hands me a beer. im drinking it and look over at J. his beer is finished and i get the feeling he is annoyed with me because hes been waiting so long. i hurry up and down the beer, leaving an inch or 2 of it left in the bottom of the bottle. i walk out with J without getting my smokes....

EOD

13.08.2009

Surveying the Land (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

im back at the field i was at a few nights ago. i walk up to the barn and see some horses. i pet one and hop in the saddle on his back. im riding him around the yard waiting for somebody. the other persons horse tries to run away so i stretch my hand out and send the horse some calming thoughts. the horse stops. i probe the reins, find the right frequency, and pull the his reins to my hands. im sitting there waiting......

*jump*

im riding my horse down a street ive been on before thinking how funny it is that im doing that......

*jump*

im going down a trail on the horse with somebody. we come to a stop on a little rise where i can see really far into the distance. the vista in front of us is a 3D representation of part of my map. i start explaining to the other person about the dreamscape mapping that ive been doing and how its progressing. off to the left i can see some mountains that ive been to quite a few times before and im explaining some of the different dreams ive had there to the other person. at one point im tell them about one spot at the top where i love to just sit still and take in the view.

EOD

23.08.2008

Meeting a stranger (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

my dream took place in a dreamscape ive been in a few times in the past. its kind of like a military building but most of the people there arent in the military. kinda hard to explain but since the last time i was there a few new things, like a little cafeteria/bar, have been added. i woke up a few times last night but each time i fell back asleep id go back to the same place. the last time went back in it was towards the end of the work? day there.


meeting a stranger

i walk through the lobby as a beautiful blonde woman and an older woman(she felt like a mentor/motherly figure to the blonde) with shoulder length dark and curly hair are walking in. as i pass them the blonde and i smile at each other and the other lady handed me a flier that talked about an upcoming conference of the Red Bear Clan. the chief was supposed to talk about how his people could move forward in and better their lives.

i walk outside and go sit on a tailgate of a red? truck and read the flier over. i see the blonde outside and i see her walk up to the other lady and say something. she walks over and sits on the tailgate next to me. we start talking and she tells me about either growing up in portland and living in san diego or vice versa. i say "san diego? are you in the navy then?" she tells me no and asks me why id ask something like that. we both answer together with something like "it would explain why you cuss like a sailor."

we laugh and then i tell her about how i used to be in the air force and that i moved to portland after i did my four years. she has me write down something in pencil. (a phone number maybe?) i write seven numbers. the top 3 were 602. below that i wrote the last 4 but the first 3 of those 4 were too light to read. the last number was either a 1 or a 7.


EOD
i woke up with the feeling that i could find her on myspace so when i got a moment, i searched her out. i typed out san diego/portland in the search and there she was. i sent her an email telling her about the dream to see if she remembers anything close to it. i dont know if shes into dreams or not so i figure a random message on myspace from a stranger talking about sharing a dream with her will freak her out. ah well, i had to ask.

07.04.2007

Kill Bill vol. Sam (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

im in a house and people are trying to kill me. ive got a long, black handled/scabbard, katana im wielding. i go in to different rooms of this house and different people come in to attack me. i kill quite a few of them. the wounds i leave in people are startling free of blood. just open wounds like they were zombies or something.

at one point i go into the bathroom to take a leak. i hear a commotion outside of the door and i look out and see a couple, two asian people, outside. i think, great i need to pee and these guys are going to try and kill be. i go use the bathroom with my sword still in my hand all the while hoping i dont lop my manhood off in the process. its a delicate procedure.

i finish with answering my call of nature and then i head out of the bathroom door to answer my call to arms. dream starts fading away as a raging battle ensues.... EOD

14.08.2006

Into the mind of a child (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID


im in a concert hall down in the pit. im disembodied, floating over all of the different instrument sections. the trumbone section isnt all that big and there are alot of seats next to that section that are empty.

*jump*


im sitting at a table with some other people i dont recognize. im looking at a little boy with dark hair. his eyes are closed and hes bobbing his head and scrunching his eyes in time to music only he can hear. im watching him compose some music. as i sit there watching him im thinking that this is what it must have been like to be around beethoven or mozart. my eyes are drawn to his pencil and im wondering what hes composing.

*jump*


im back in the pit, and now i seem like an extension of his will. for a moment im in 2 places at once: watching him write on the paper, and being in his thoughts. as he writes on the paper, im writing on different instruments in the pit. all of the seats that were empty next to the trombone section are now filled. i go around writing on different instruments. EOD

11.08.2006

Fast forwarding the sky (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID





im walking through my old neighborhood at night looking up at the sky. the moon is huge and has red poch marks all over it. it kinda looked like all of the darker areas of the moon were red but the lighter ones were still the same color as a normal moon. i commented in the dream that it kind of reminded me of jupiter.

all of a sudden the moon starts moving rapidly through the sky all the while going through months and months of moon phases. new moon to full and back again numerous times in the span of only 15 or so seconds. a few eclipses are even thrown in there for good measure. EOD

18.07.2006

Rescued by a couple of Greys (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

rescued by a couple greys

i was outside in my grandmas side yard looking at some clouds on the horizon. a sense of this cant really be happening comes over me as i watch a large, dark, soot and ash filled, cloud come crashing down from the sky. i see it land amongst some trees and on top of houses and i have the thought, wow, the end of the world must be here.

i run into the house and start shutting all of the windows. its started to rain and tons of dust and smoke are starting to get into the house. i get all of the windows in the living room closed and then i go into the first bedroom down the hallway and do the same thing. these windows are facing the direction the ash clouds were rolling in from so i can see all of the soot and ash fill the air and the really strong air currents swirling it all around. im franticaly closing the windows and im starting to choke a bit on the dust that has creeped in the house.

i get both windows closed in that room so i start going to the next bedroom. as i come out of the door i make a right and i hear what sounds like children talking in a language i dont understand. i can see little shadows in the hallway that are coming from one of the back bedrooms. i get a bit scared thinking theyve finally come to take me away.

i walk back into the room i was just in and kneel facing the door. a calm spreads over me as i realize i dont have anything to fear and theyre here to rescue me. a few seconds later two grey aliens come into the doorway. i wave to them with a huge smile on my face as they come into view. one of them motions for me to follow them. i get up and walk after them towards the back bedroom. one of them slows down and i stop to scoop it up and then continue on my way towards the bedroom with a grey in my arms. the dream fades to black before i reach the room with the thought that i wouldve liked to have seen where theyre taking me. EOD