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I had many dreams today, but I will write down only the first and the last one.

I am in a house in the mountains with my mother. Suddenly I remember something about a "complex". The complex is a principle, which is most important in life, and you have to investigate it. However, the complex has the power to make every human forget about it, so you have to try really hard not to lose sight of the principle. Most people forget it, and are forced to life in oblivion.

This dream has a nightmarish feeling, but I feel like I had the same dream a very long time ago. I like how the "complex" has many similarities to lucidity in dreams.

I am at a Go tournament, but there is a long tunnel which leeds to the currently running Wacken festival. The tunnel has yellow walls. I arrive at the stage, people are waiting for a band to perform. I see someone I know at the front, and go to see him. I shake his hand, he asks me what I am doing here. I tell him that there is a tournament going on. The band starts, but it is hiphop. Almost everyone leaves, me too. But I take the wrong tunnel back, I arrive at a place which looks like a monastery area. I decide to find the way back to the tournament above ground. The sun is shining, I have a walk through some woods, until I find a playground. Kids in native american clothes are playing around. I aproach an adult looking over them, and as him in which direction the big tunnel is. He tells me, and I start to walk this direction. On the way, randomly start wondering if I am dreaming. "How could this be, I can remember everything what happened, everything is vivid. I can even remember what happened in the previous dream."I realize that I am dreaming, but wake up.

I lie in bed, and do not move. I do some DEILD techniques, and decide to roll into the next dream.

Still lying in my bed, I open my eyes. I see my room, but it is dark. I clap my hands and say "light". It gets a bit brighter, but somehow, I didn't see my hands clapping, I only felt it. I try to get up, can feel everything, but my vision stays the same. I try to correct my vision, but somehow it is stuck. I think "maybe my eyes are open for real, but the rest of my mind is stuck in this dream. I think about the whole weirdness of the experience, and wake up.

I had four dreams tonight, the first one I do not remember very well, it involved some nightmare-stuff. The 4th one I do not remember at all, maybe the third one was too important.

I am on the playground in my old neighborhood, it is daytime but the clouds are obliterating the sun. My brother made a base in some bushes, there was a rood made of cardboard. As I move closer to it, rats come out of it, running in all directions. I feel disgusted and leave the playground, looking for my brother.
I see him far away, and we go home. At home we prepare for school, I notice that I have missed quite a few latin classes, and a probably a test too. At school, I go into a classroom where my latin class is. There are 4 people, the teacher and 3 students. The female student applauds at the sight of me, probably because of my long absence. I remember her as a lively girl. I take a seat, and the teacher starts telling us how he was worried about me and even considered looknig for me on lunch breaks.

I am in a russian museum with my family, someone is telling stories about the pictures, but I do not look at them. Music is played too. My brother asks what time this music is from, I look at a sheet of paper in my hand where some year dates are mentioned, and reply to him "mostly classical music". We get to the end of the room, there are two people playing a duet. The left one is playing piano, the right one a weird instrument. He is holding a box-like thing, and smashing with his hand on it. But nice sounds emerge the box. He is spinning and bashing it, springs are whipping around the box, really weird. But I am amazed at his skill, because he noticed me and started playing while looking at me and talking to me.
Old people which seem to have an important status come to me and ask me how the military career is going. I mention that I quit my plans of becoming a high-rank in military, and all of of them are disappointed. Later, the owner of the museum asks me to come with him. He too is shocked that I am no longer in the military, he planned me to be a wellknown doctor at his musem. He promises me all kinds of benefits if I accept in being a doctor, but says he cannot afford to pay me much for it. Suddenly he collapses on a bed, nurses are running to him and checking his status. One of them tells me that he has a big disease, which makes him like this. They drop him in a big box on wheels, another person is already lying in there, a woman. I take the box and ride them along the corridor. I am now not riding the box anymore, I am pushing a wheelchair with the woman sitting in it. I am now thinking about her, if she is having funin her dreamworld. Suddenly I get a rush of ideas, maybe I am too a person trapped in his mind, or in a coma, what is real? A man appears, the woman gets up to him, they both look at me. I see her face clearly now, it is beautiful but sad. I ask her a question, but I cannot remember it. She answers with a sad cry: "Why are them more important to you?"

I had one long dream today, but I cannot remember it. But a short one I remember clearly.

I am at my old neighborhood, on the playground. More than 20 brachiosauriuses where standing in line and singing. They are 3 times as big as a human. There is a man around which looked like a circus director, he said that the dinosaurs are singing for donations on AIDS-prevention. They were really lively and happy, I take one out of line, pat him. Then he gets back into the line. I suggest to the director that it wouls have more impact if the dinos were running around town and singing. But we end up agreeing that it is too dangerous.

After two nights of sleep deprivation, I had a long sleep tonight. I had many dreams, but can't remember them well, possibly due to me being on the verge of getting sick. But I will try to write the lucid dream down as good as I can.

I am Lisa Simpson, sitting in a car. Marge Simpson is driving, and we have a talk about some serious issues, but I cannot remember them. Later, I am walking along a path covered in flagstones, everything around the path is nature. I am wondering about karma. "Karma is like going on this path, sometimes you go small steps, sometimes big ones." I notice that I am dreaming now, it is very clear to me. I remember Nomad's tutorial for expanding dream time, so I go on and try to stabilize the dream. I look around, hear the wind and trees around making noises. I try to feel my body, I can sense every part of it. I bend down to reach for a flower(daisy) near the path, and smell it. The smell is not strong, so I lick it, it tastes bitter. I get up and proceed to walk on the path, amazed by the realness of everything. I have thoughts like "So now my dream will last very long.", and suddenly I wake up.

I have bad recall right now, due to lack of sleep and energy. But I want to write this dream fragment, because it is the second time I dream about a group game, where running in circles is involved.

I am running in a big circle with other players, some are running clockwise and others counterclockwise. Big rubber bands are lying on the floor. I pick as much of them as I can while running. Then I try to catch a player which runs not the same direction as me with a rubber band, causing them to fall down. This seems to be the object of play. I notice AB and NG playing, they are on the other team.

Weird as always.

I had a LD again, but lost lucidity halfway through the dream.

I am at a house in my old neighborhood, my mother wakes me up by phone. She asks something like "did you have breakfast today at school?" I think a bit and notice that it is 13 o'clock and I should be at school right now. I say that I am not at school, and my mother gets upset and says "no wonder your brother hadn't have lunch either, go to school right now!" I leave the house, and see my mother coming at me.
I realize that I am dreaming. My mother senses this somehow and says "I don't care that you are dream-" I interrupt her and say that it doesn't matter, it is only a dream. I wander around my old neighborhood with her, dark clouds are covering the sky, and it is raining. I see a truck, and try to shoot him with energy, but I notice my doubt in the attempt and fail. Next I see a military truck, and I try something different. I point at it with my hands, making a soundeffect, and wait for the result. After a while the truck stops, making a sound because the motor died.
I end up at school anyway and buy a sausage. I am somehow tired and show it off. My mother is there too, and soon my brother arrives with CM. They buy sausage too, and are talking about something. I clearly remember the phrase "Since HM died...". But then I start thinking about Go (boardgame), and the sequence of moves goes in my head on its own, like it always does.
I am lying in bed and thinking about Go, noticing that I am dreaming no longer. My brother mentioned only the letters H and M, no real name. I am wondering if this is meaning something, although I cannot find a person I know with the initials HM no matter how hard I think about it.

Daytime, I am in a city with my family. I am allowed to go around with my brother, so we decide to look for video games. We follow small paths, and then my brother says he knows a shortcut. We enter a shop from the back, inside my brother is asking if we could pass this shop. The shopkeeper agrees, my brother passes, but the roof is so low, that I can't pass. I excuse myself, and leave through the back.
Next thing I remember is that me and my brother are playing a mario game, the 2D-kind. It is in color, and has elements of MetalSlug in it. This goes on for a while, then the game is 3D; I get owned by a certain type of enemy, until I realize that I have to jump on him 3 times in a row, without letting him rest.

I am at a house with my mother(not IRL), she is crying for her other son. The family situation comes to my mind. The father left with the son, to make him his successor, but the son was no good, so the father took in another disciple. The three of them are on their way to us, the doorbell rings. My mother opens the door; the father looks like Kevin Spacey, the disciple looks like Keanu Reeves. The son looks gloomy, and has glasses. They come in and everyone has a seat in the living room. The father refuses to talk with the son. I get the feeling that originally he wanted me as his successor, but I refused.
Time flies by, more people are in the house now. Outside is a snowstorm, communication systems don't work anymore, everyone begins to worry.

I am outside the house with a black guy, he wears jeans and a muscle-shirt. There's no snow, the weather is rather good and sunny. I exchange a few words with the guy, then I turn around and go to the street.I realize that I am dreaming, I look at my surroundings, everything looks real. Rubbing my hands, I look at the sky and say (or think, I am not sure) three times: "Lass mich größte Sehnsucht fühlen." I wait for something to happen, sadly no feelings arise in me. But at the sky something weird happens, the clouds are moving irregularly and I see a weird light appearing shortly. I turn back, the black dude is still there. I think "why not have some fun with him", so I run across him and jump on a nearby roof. I provoke him to do the same. He says it is easy and follows me. After a few jumps, I think about flying. I spread my arms wide and start to float across a field of grass, ca. 2m above the ground. While flying, I think about what would happen if I made other movements with my hands, but the dream fades.

I succeeded in remembering a lucid dream task, the outcome was kinda boring. I will try it again, when I am more expierienced.

I have the feeling that I forgot most of my dreams, but anyway:

It is nighttime, I am at the back of a big house. To get to the entrance, I have to climb a big ladder, but there is the problem. As I go further up, my vision vanishes, and I have to climb it with feeling only. I get scared, but don't freak out. The ladder doesn'tseem like a normal one, it has ropes where it should be solid and other things. I am trying really hard to not fall down. After a while I decde to get down first and look at the ladder again. It doesn't seem too high anymore, so I climb it again with confidence.

I am arriving in a small village with a bus, it is daytime. But the sun is not shining, the sky is gray. I look at a map, and spot another village in east direction, not so far away. I begin my journey, pass by a forest, and a great field. I can see the village now. I go to what seems like a market square, and look around the shops. I notice the smell of a kebab shop. I am looking for a place to "save" my progress.

It is nighttime at a beach. I suffer from wounds, I think I got stabbed by a knife. I somehow find three people: the one who stabbed me, JD and NK. I do not know why, but I take my knife out and slice them all up. Later, I am in a tent. I treat the wounds of everyone with herbs. Outside of the tent is a sandstorm going. JD is sitting outside on a stone, he regained consciousness. I go to apologize to him. He does not mind the fact that I stabbed him, but he gets angry that it was in thethorax area. He says that this is dangerous, I remember that he is studying medicine right now (IRL). I go back to the tent, it got bigger. I look inside, NK regained cconsciousness too. He wants to play Go with me. He seems like he did not notice his wounds. The one who stabbed me is still lying in there.

I am at school, but in a world of warcraft setting. I go outside, and an arrow hits me, shot by N. I am a rogue, so I use stealth, and suddenly everyone is running away from me. I have a knife, (more a thick-blade scissor) and chase after PT.

Didn't have much sleep today.

Woke up in the middle of the night, it annoyed me, but somehow I managed to stay calm and try a WILD. I opened my eyes and was still in my room, but I had this dreamlike feeling, so I thought it was a FA. But I couldn't move, So maybe it was only SP. Well, I just slept in. I don't remember any dreams.

One of my friends, can't remember who, was fighting with a strong opponent, until I charged in and decapitated the enemy with a big sword, kinda like the one Guts from Berserk wields. Apparently I was related to a strong warrior, thus able to win. After the fight I ride a bus a few stops.
Can't remember more.