Sehnsucht

I had a very good sleep today, and will try to write down everything I remember.

Somehow, I decided to ride a long way on my bike. My friends tell me that there is no way that I can manage such a long distance in 3 hours, but I try it anyway. But it is getting dark, and in a foredt I meet a guy with a flashlight. He offers me a deal, I would get the flashlight, and then I would be indebted to him in some way. I hesitated, but made the deal.

I am watching a video on youtube, apparently from Sunrise Avenue. At the middle of the video I somehow feel that at the same time I am lying in bed, and I feel something touching me. I can't make out the lyrics. Next thing I know is that I wake up beside a woman I barely know, I think we had sex. But I wake up with this empty feeling, as if we wouldn't even care for each other.

I wake up, and think about how I read a manga yesterday which involved cheating.

I am watching the same video on youtube again, and the same thing happens. At the same time I am lying in my bed, and something is touching me. But this time, I understand a small part of the lyrics, something like "grab hold of her fast" or "grab my hand". I instantly reach for the thing touching me, it is a hand, I pull it to me. I wake up beside another woman, in a big bed, and everything feels right. She seems to be my girlfriend, my destined person.

I wake up in a big bed beside my brother, we are in our old appartment. I tell my brother "I am dreaming", I try to make it clear to him. I fly to the window, like a ghost I get through the curtains, but I stop halfway. I get back, and want to show my brother how I am flying. At first, I try to hard, but then I begin to hover around the room, in a standing pose with my arms crossed. Yeah, exactly like Ganondorf does in Zelda-games. My brother and I are amazed, but we are too loud, my mother comes in, yelling at me. I drop to the ground.

I wake up in the same room again, and don't want to make too much noise, so I try to tiptoe to the door and close it, but fail. My mother comes in again.

I am in a school building, various people are beside me, and discuss something. They decide to discuss it in a big room nearby, and the floor gets empty.I try to concentrate on my hands, the texture, the feeling. I decide that I want to try some fire bending, but at first, only a teacup appears in my hands. I notice my brother sitting on a bench, and I try to shoot fire at him with my hands. Nothing of the sort happens, but I notice that a faint light is on my brother's face, when I aim at him with my palm. I think "Maybe fire doesn't suit me", so I try to shoot light at him with my palm. I raise my arm and form a claw with my hand, aiming at him. a white light appears on his face, the shape is blurry, and kinda like a square. Me brother says "W-What the...", I concentrate even more on my hand, suddenly the light gets very bright; the shape is now round, and covering his whole face. Now I annoyed him, he gets up and attacks me.

My father, brother and I are entering a bus. We arrive at our highschool, and enter a big room. Teachers and spectators are in the room, I think that my brother has an oral exam, and my father and me were invited to watch. I take a seat near the front, but I am blocking the view for others, so the seats are rearranged. MK, a girl from my former class, gets annoyed that I take a seat so close to her. So I get away, and she is complaining again. I get back to her, now we are arguing. But she always has a good and slightly annoying response, so I start giving her a long look in the eyes, with a smile on my face. She looks into my eyes too, I can see how lively her eyes are, and that she is confused by my action. I say "Du machst mich fertig, M" (Can't find a good english translation, sorry). She blushes and looks away. Later, I ask what subject my brother will be performing. MK says that it is Informatics, but also the game "Zelda - Majoras Mask". In front of the class, someone is playing this game now, link is in his goron form, and with a goron ally, he fights some monsters using fire. Link is close to dying, but he takes some potions and continues. I and some other spectators yell "Noob!" at the player. Time passes again, everyone took out their sleeping bags and prepares to sleep in the big classroom. MK and me are lying next to each other. I am having a dream in which I am Link, and try to mount my horse epona, but somehow it doesn't work. I wake up, still beside MK, and she says that I should stop. I don't know what is going on, but maybe I did some weird things while sleeping, so I leave it at that and try to sleep again. But this time, MK is the first one to sleep in, and starts to make weird movements. Suddenly, her feet land in my face, and try to open my mouth. But I am too sleepy to do anything, so I endure it. Other people are beginning to talk about something, MK wakes up and yells at them. Looks like she didn't notice what she was doing in her sleep. The people ask about a party. MK tells them that after the oral exams there will be a party with food, and karaoke, and some other fancy things.

I think that my recall isn't that bad anymore, but I am frustrated by the lack of conversation in my dreams. But maybe I am not good at recalling conversations, I should work on this.