Sehnsucht

I can remember 5 dreams today, and in one of them I was lucid.

I am in my old home with my family, and we are waiting for guests. DS and FH arrive, and take a seat in the living room. AS comes by too. Me, my mother and her are talknig in the kitchen about something. Another guest is arriving, it is the big sister of AS, LS. I say "did you bring your whole family?" We let her in, and soon after this her parents arrive too, with two pets. It was a big black dog, and a big brown bear. Everyone goes to the living room, but I stay with the pets wondering what to do. I decide to pet them both, the dog gets really friendly and follows me to the living room. While not really taking part in the conversation, I pet the dog even more, he seems really satisfied. After a while we lock the dog and the bear in the bathroom. AS has gone to the library, I am afraid that she will hunt me down and force me to read the book.

When approaching big and dangerous animals like big dogs I always remind me that I have to be and feel friendly towards them, because animals can feel this.

I arrive at what seems like a battlefield, or Counter-Strike-Map. We are in a building. It looks like a paintball game or something similar is taking place. The people around me encourage me to help them, so I ask a guy above me to give me some weapons. He asks me which ones I want, I say "duals and a big one". He throws down 2 revolvers and a big things which looks like a gatling. All the weapons look futuristic and ancient at the same time. I can hardly manage to carry the gatling, but after trying to find out how it works without success, I drop it stick to one revolver. I see an enemy movement which indicates a rush attack, and yell "They are coming!" Everyone gets alarmed, they ask "Which direction?", I reply "From below" and run there first. CM appears, I shoot his left leg. No real bullets are coming out of the revolver, it is like a bullet made of air. CM admits defeat, MK appears and I hit him in the stomach.

It is night, I am at my old neighborhood, with another person. The person does not seem real, or not like an individual, more like a form. I get lucid and start running towards the street. The person follows me, we talk while running. I tell him that this is a dream, and ask him if he remembers the last dream we were in. He nodds. We arrive at the street and I attempt a really big jump, and while in the air, I feel like flying, so I begin to hover. I look back at the person, he remained at the ground, looking at me. I find it hard to manage staying in the air, I fold my hands and suddenly it is really easy, and I get higher and higher.

I wake up in front of a computer, which is still running. I am wearing a bathrobe. I am wondering what that dream right now was all about, but get distracted by the computer. I try to look at a cinema site, but there is nothing interesting on it. I leave the computer and head for the exit. I am at place I never was before, looks like an apartment. I am here with my cousin and her father. I go outside to catch some fresh air, my cousin follows me. It feels like we should talk about something, but neither me or her start to speak. We head back to our rooms.

I really wake up, cursing false awakenings. But I manage to sleep again.

I am part of the TV-Show "Boston Legal", me and Alan are preparing for a showdown in the courtroom. Alan informs me that the other side is quite tough and hard to handle. We enter the room, it looks nothing like a courtroom. We take a seat at a table, many people are sitting around desks and waiting for something. Finally, someone stands up and says "May the chess championship finals begin!". Many people gather at the middle of the room, spectating the game. But at other tables there are people too, playing chess or Go. I am excited because Go is being played too, and look for an opponent. I even recognize players from my hometown, I greet TN, my old teacher. The first one I approach doesn't want to play with me. But I take a seat at a free desk, and soon another player arrives. I know him too. We start to play, and after a while, strange things happen. Stones are at positions where neither of us played, so I accuse him of cheating. Then, the Go-board is too large, and little figurines move around.

I can't reconstruct the game I played in the dream, but it seems to me that one sequence we played in a corner was accurate.