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This isn't exactly a dream, but I felt like It was worth posting.

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I was having trouble entering my inner world, or at least perceiving it. I decided to re-form it. The ocean where the lone island once sat had become a desert. I found the Desert scene slightly boring, so I changed the sand into a seemingly endless gold-colored plate with circular rune-like markings engraved into it. a circular elevator rose out of one of the round grooves near me, so I got in and descended one floor. Inside everything took a futuristic steel-bunker look. as I enter, I can feel the entire plane becoming riddled with tunnels being built by my subconscious, becoming a labyrinthine structure.

I go back to the surface and add a holographic Jungle with holographic animals on a whim (later I was attacked by a holographic jaguar but I just stunned and absorbed it). Going back downstairs, I rode the elevator several more floors down and created a portal room. The portal itself was held in place with a large machine on an elevated platform. The portal gave the entire room a blue glow as it gently pulsed and sputtered. Beneath the platform, there was a computer slightly off to the side of the staircase leading up to the portal, intended to set or change the location the portal is set to go.

I typed out the word, "Denn" on the screen, as it was the first place to come to mind. After I pressed "Enter" the portal immidiately started glowing orange and pulsed more rapidly, changing it's output location. I saw some white, medieval-looking buildings through the portal. I decided not to enter at that point in time and shut down the portal. I noticed what appeared to be numerous portal rooms throughout the complex, each with a small faint glow, so I shut them down too.

The objects of my dream body I can feel in waking life.

Small Black Canister- Right Hip: Unknown function, Obtained in a dream when I was a Predator (Alien vs Predator) A group of humans were trying to get it across a death trap lake, I agreed to take it to the person it was intended to go to, the person was across the lake. Possible training of some kind.

Four Pointed Gem- Forhead: Created by me while I actively participated in the Denn RPG, The key to my reploid form.

Angelic Sword- Back: Obtained one knight when I felt as if there was a demon in my room before I went to bed. I prayed for help, and an angel put a ward around my bed. when I woke up the next morning, the angel had gone, but the ward was still there, upon further examination, it was a sword, I've carried it ever since.

Blue Gem: Wrist/Hands: Stolen from a corrupt... something. somehow I obtained it, and an army was sent after me. I woke up after fighting for awhile, it was a blue gemstone dangling from a chain bracelet. I converted it to gems on my palms, but they don't like to stay that way, so I just leave it as the bracelet usually.
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Didn't remember any dreams last night, well I did, but I don't remember enough to write down. I remember waking up in the middle of the knight, wanting to dream about the girl with black hair, and going back to sleep before I wrote anything I remembered down. I think I was in the same place as the dream, "Inconsistency" before I fell back asleep and forgot everything.

I just realized who that girl is that pops up in my dreams every so often.

The first time she showed up was in September of 2009, the sixth dream I wrote in my dream journal. It was just a fragment, but I still remember that she had long, black hair, and a coconut bra on, she was a waitress of some kind.

The second time she showed up was during the period when my beliefs were changing, and I was having dreams about the catholic church coming after me and fighting over me with my new belief system. I had been held captive in the bottom of the sea in a sub, I believe she had short black hair in this dream. the dream seemed to last for weeks, and we became good friends in the dream by the time we escaped.

A possible third time she showed up was in dream number 30, where I sensed parasites at the bases of both of our spines. at this point I had stopped putting the date on my dreams for some reason.

She disappeared for a long time until dream number 74, where I remember a fragment of her, "Beautiful woman with straight black hair laying in bed. She smiled and did that cute anime head tilt." where I fell in love with her.

my goal for the next few days or weeks was to dream with her again, and I think I did, in dream number 77. I wrote down this:

It was pouring rain. there was a building in front of me, it appeared to be a stop for travelers on the road. I went inside. there were quite a few people inside the building, but one person stood out, a girl with short straight black hair. she had a stern look on her face, and appeared to be the leader of a bunch of neir-do-wells. I saw a target in the room and decided to do some target practice. I pulled out a revolver and started shooting at the target. after a few rounds I got bored. Most of the room had cleared out, but the girl was still there. I convince her to hang out with me.

The dream skips to us in walmart. we are shopping and talking in the aisles. eventually we start talking about her homeland, and she starts crying. I don't know what to do, so I just let her cry. I assume she was treated less than human, and don't press the question further, but it convinces me that she is more than just the leader of the freaks that follow her around. I felt much closer to her after she finished crying. we left the store, but forget something. and returned. my alarm clock went off, so I forced my self awake, I should have said something.

possible sighting in dream number 143:

I am on a pathway I often walk when going to school, the stars are out. There is a woman with me, we look at the stars. I see myself as an angel with black wings, hovering above a large body of water. I land on the water and stand there. I snap back to the pathway looking up, the woman is lining up with the constellation, she says that it is my future self. my attention is drawn to a flat, rectangular box being drawn in the stars. She was going to show me my past self, something about a caveman, but I woke up needing to go to the bathroom.
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She occasionally shows up in my dreams as a female companion, the last time I think she showed up was in the voodoo shaman dream. I believe her name in Mizuki, but that's just based on a name that I thought of that stuck with me, I don't believe I have heard her name from her. I looked up the meaning of Mizuki, and it means, "Beautiful Moon" in Japanese according to the internet.

Sorry about the lack of updates, I have been sleeping with my computer turned off. It's great for increasing the vividness of dreams, but I've only been dreaming of sex for the last 3 days. As a personal rule I don't post sex dreams. Just wanted to update anyone who happened to follow my dream journal, thanks.

My current dream goal is: Draw the symbol on the ground and see what it does, I have a hunch it has something do do with either a portal, my dream guide, or both.

Wish me luck

Damn that was annoying, I'm walking around my house and suddenly I'm thinking about my underwater inner world, then I'm in it.

The armored figure had a lot of friends, I had caught glimpses, but I didn't believe it, I was exploring the ocean floor, there were apperantly dead armored figures everywhere. they came to life, I gutted one of them after I opened its armor with an exploding ice crystal. I knew there were too many to fight, the were all relatively powerful, I switched to reploid form and Jetted to the surface of the water, they grabbed my feet and tried to pull me down, I yanked them out with me, as a giant spherical mass of enemies. I threw them out of the shield, attached thrusters to them, and forced them out a portal that I think went to the moon. I now have a headache from closing the portal behind them, and the worst part is there may still be more of the fuckers.

NOTE: this is not actually a dream, this is what happened to me as I was falling asleep last night, so I guess the closest It would be would be hypogogaic (spelling?) imagery.

While I was falling asleep, I felt as if I had some energy blockages that would prevent me from reaching the town of Denn in my dreams, so I decided to investigate. I turned my mind's eye inward to examine the source. there appeared to be a relatively large monster blocking a portal or an opening of some kind. It realized I had noticed it and took a combative stance. I was in reploid form, because I had planned on visiting Denn. I charged in and slew it with a bit of effort with my energy blade. Then, seemingly out of nowhere, smaller enemies started appearing, they seemed to be shadows of some kind. again, I attempted to slay them with my energy blade, but their wounds would regenerate instantaneously, and there were a lot of them. they begun clinging to me, latching on with some sort of bear hug. I carved and slashed, but it was ineffective. I returned my attention to my physical body, still vaguely aware of the internal struggle. then I got an idea. I focused some energy, and siphoned it to my mind's eye body (i guess that's what you would call it). I used the energy to create a ball of light above me before they were able to suck the new energy out. they turned to ash. I tried eating the ash, but it was tasteless and dry... gross. I spat it out and willed it into the portal/hole thing in the wall that was being guarded. I immediately regretted this decision, as I felt it run down my spine, it was a very creepy sensation.

Unfortunately I have no dream recall from last night, so I'm not sure if I actually was able to visit and defend Denn or not.

This isn't a dream

I looked at my yahoo email today, and there was a new folder called "Notes" I clicked on it, and inside of it was an email from myself without a subject. the email said "Tablet PC" this creeped me out.

I changed the folder name to "Damn Templar's" and deleted the email. after that I thought better about it, deleted the folder and changed my email password.

I'm probably doing exactly what they want by posting this, If they wanted to spy on me, I'm sure that they wouldn't change something in my email, oh well.

this wasn't a dream so much as me going through my memories.

I was laying in bed, sorting through my matrix of memories. I found myself in the area where I store the memories of my ipod's email.

there where 3 memories sorted in "actually happened" (for lack of a better way to describe it) that I know for a fact didn't actually happen, or are impossible.

One of them was a message when I opened the email, it popped up and said, "Email cannot be opened"

another one, when opened covered my ipod in blood splatter.

the third memory was a bit more disturbing to me, It appeared to be a message from my subconscious, I didn't even have to open it, the mail description said, "You are engrossed with yourself"

I'm not sure if it read engrossed, or obsessed though.