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Only fragments thanks to my obnoxious alarm clock. I was waiting, with a group of other people. I think we were some kind of club. I think we were waiting to go home, but I could be wrong. The leader, a woman I think, casually left early, but we had to wait longer. I think two of them were kind of like "trusted members" to whom she delegated some of her tasks, but this could be false memory because the "leader" made me think of someone I used to know in real life (interpretation mixing with memory). I also think I remember a phone, one of those old early 2000's ones.

I was at a prom. I finally finished my school and decided to go to that prom. It was a dull and boring party, one girl tried to know me closer but all her efforts failed all the time. The room was a bit dark, there were two long tables with food and drinks. People were often going out, I sat with two dudes I knew from previous school, they were there for some reason. They were selling something to others. Suddenly it all was empty, I went outside to check what's going on. One entrance was heavily crowded so I took another one and met with people. They took sprays and roamed around, painting everything around. I took one spray too and followed them to know what they are planning. When we were passing by my car, I was afraid that they'd paint it. It was really dirty. I joked to one dude that if they'd paint it, the spray would fall out with mud. Then we entered a church and they started spraying it. I couldn't do that and left the church immediately. Then I heard people talking about me, I wanted to go inside and shout at them, but I decided to leave. I ran down a sidewalk and met a little boy going to church. He asked what happened, and I told him that they have desecrated the church. I ran onward and met another group of people. They were aggressive, shouting at me. I thrown a spray at their direction and hit one of the girls in head. I quietly said sorry and ran away.

Next day I woke up somewhere in an alley close to school. I felt weak and had really strong headache. I heard strange noises during attacks. I needed sugar to stop these attacks. I went back to the ball room and met a receptionist. I said that I forgot something and had to get back. I went to closest table and after some sugar.

Fireworks
I'm in what seems like my mom's living room with some of my best male friends. One of them is apparently the inventor of some very popular fireworks called the draaitol. I never knew this. How come he never mentioned this? He starts playing around with fireworks in the home. At one point I'm afraid he might set the place ablaze.

Money
I'm in a restaurant with my best male friends. We have just finished our food and it is time to pay. The bill is in IDR. My meal is IDR 22.something. I look in my wallet and spot the green IDR 20.000 bill and put it on the table. It takes a while for me to realise that I haven't paid enough. I should also pay a beer which cost ~ IDR 44.000. I go through my wallet again for more money. I am IDR 10.000 short. Either the dream changes, or my mind is playing with me. I'm suddenly thinking in euro's. My part of the bill is ~ € 66. I tell my friend that I can either pay the remaining € 10,- later, or I can give him IDR 100.000, which is about € 10,-.

Only Non-lucids but my recall was interrupted by life yet again. Meeting with my sister n law & her husband so we can decide the next step for her living arrangements due to her Alzheimer is increasing rapidly. It's very emotional & am not looking forward to any of this. I basically can't think much of anything else.... I actually had to go swimming today to just not think about it for a while.

I'm trying to collect items to bring to a fund raiser, and a woman with blonde hair approaches and tell me about a family at the school that is going through a tough time and may need some assistance. I try to be polite as I listen and multi-task. I turn back to the conference table a group of people are at, and the woman's hair transforms. I approach the double doors, and realize I'm dreaming. I turn to the group at the table and fly toward them. I tell them we're dreaming, and continue to fly through the doors and new a new building area. There is a massive glass wall on the first floor, and a great view to a beach at sunset. The sunset is an awesome amber color, and the sand as well as water is visible. I fly up into the room, and see people arranged in small groups, laying down on the gray concrete floor and holding conversations. Some reggae music by Iration comes on over the speakers
and I'm really enjoying the scene. I fly around all the groups, but don't jump into any conversations; it feels a bit strange to. I decide to fly down to the beach and fly over to the glass. I see a group of three below me as I approach the glass, and take in all the faces. The dream gets a bit blurry and I wake up.

I enter a restaurant and speak to the two women who are at the front desk. I need to use the bathroom, and they direct me toward the back of the restaurant. I enter one of the back rooms, and I find myself in the bathroom. I turn and face the doors, and my awareness begins to come through. I tell myself it's a dream as my hands come in front of my field vision and I phase through the doors. I think about exploring a bit, and want to come up with some new dream ideas on the spot rather than try the same goal from the previous dream. I remind myself it's a dream, and I should just enjoy and explore the environment. I look left to the set of doors which leads to a large room and realize it's probably the kitchen. I decide to check out what the chefs are cooking. I enter, but nobody is in the room. I look around to see if I can find anything interesting to try, and remind myself to stay grounded in the dream. I walk forward and see some french fries in an oil cooker, but decide to not go for these. I pick up a pile of french fries on a paper towel to the right of the oil, and continue exploring the kitchen area. I take a few bites of the fries, and the taste is pretty good, but not quite like real life.There are many metal tables throughout, and several metallic freezers in the area to my right. I check out one of the fridges, but as I open it the dream fades and I wake up.

02.07.2016

(Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was running through the woods with Astrid, we were being chased by zombies (fast, smart zombies). It was getting dark and if we didn't find a place to stay at we would die. We saw a small town in the distance. We ran towards it, and went inside a huge house. I thought it was a mistake choosing a house with so many windows and doors. In the first floor there was manure all over the floor and it smelled bad. We wre clearing all the rooms but didn't find anything until the last one, there was a cow. The cow started mooing really loudly and I had to stab her in the head or it would attract more zombies. The zombies had reached the house now and were trying to get in. We ran upstairs and ran into a 3 zombies. We ran away from them and went inside a room each, next to each other. More zombies came in the house and started trying to open the bedrooms were we were hiding. I managed to lock my door using a belt and knew it was a matter of time before they got into the bedroom where Astrid was.

I remembered I had my stone mask (I was playing Majora's Mask last night) and wondered if it would work; maybe if I wore it they wouldn't be able to see me. I put it on and opened the door. Three zombies came in and smelled around, but they couldn't see me. I stepped out the balcony and saw that there were 3 zombies waiting by Astrid's balcony door. I pushed them off the balcony into the furious sea below. A huge great white ate them as soon as they landed. I rescured Astrid and we left the house.

I knew who was behind the zombie outbreak and where he was. He owned a huge casino in the same town. I packed my weapons and drove there. I parked my car, it was a blue civic coupe with stars painted on it. It was day time by now. I went inside the casino but noticed that security were following me. I exited through a side door and decided I needed a new plan. I was looking for my car but it was gone. I thought maybe I forgot where I parked, so I walked around but to no avail.

02.07.2016

(Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was with my parents, my brother, Gerardo and Carla (family friends), and their two kids. We were going to drive to Edmonton. We had rented a van but we still had more people than seats. Surprisingly, my dad didn't care. We got in the van and looked for the place in google maps. I remember it being close to the main UofA campus, but it was a house in the middle of a small forest.

On the way to Edmonton we stopped at a small market. They had weird candies such as dead bees dipped in honey, roasted cockroaches, grilled cow eyes dipped in caramel, etc. I grabbed a bee dipped in honey and ate it. The lady warned me that if I bit it I would get stung but it was too late. My jaw stating hurting a lot and started cramping. A tiny ball developedin front of my ear lobes and it hurt a lot. My jaw was closing on its own so hard I thought my teeth would break.

02.07.2016

(Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was in Ft. Lauderdale with my brother. We were walking along the highway, both carrying our suitcases and Suit bags. I had brought a black suit for some reason and was regretting not bringing the blue one. We stopped in a store and bought stuff to go to the beach. On the way to the beach mom called us and we told her we'd stop at Alvaro's (my cousin) place. His apartment, a small studio, was one block away from the beach. My cousin seemed high but was very welcoming, I wondered were his Siberian Husky, Ace, was and he instantly came. His eyes were very light blue and his brown coat shined, I thought he was the most beautiful dog I had seen.

02.07.2016

(Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Juan Vi and I were going on a trip with Dani, probably a rock climbing centre. We were trying to recall what our last trip together was before San Diego. We erroneously concluded it was the Orlando trip in 2012; forgetting we went to Daytona when I was in Miami last year.

7.02.16

After few days without recall, I had another day off and a chance to morning nap for a WILD.

Took a nap yesterday afternoon, then bed 12:30am-7:30am.

2x300mgs Alpha GPC 7:30am
2x4mgs Galantamine 8:30am

Sofa 8:30 am - woke up at 12pm.

Sleep mask, my pillows at little less steep incline so I was more laying down than normally. Normally I'm more sitting up. But didn't wan't to be disturbed with my mouth opening, I thought being more in laying position will help with that. I think it did.

I heard my watch chime at 9 am. I was still not asleep, but was getting some images and this incredible green-yellow ocean with purple-black waves rolling over it. I get this yellow-green thing sometimes and it never ends in a lucid. So I tried not to focus on it, rather wanted to see the infinite 3D blackness behind my eyelids. I kept feeling as if I was in sensory deprivation tank. My body was so light, but when I thought about it, I did feel some contact points with my sofa. But I still felt almost floating and being disconnected from physical body. It was very pleasant.

I finally turned to my left side, remembering how last time this turned into a lucid. As I did, I started getting some geometric HH that were blinking very fast. They were all on white field. I used to get this long time ago, this illumination as if from the backside.

Started feeling my head buzzing in the top back part and somehoe I entered a WILD.

I don't remember any transitions between different scenarios. All mostly just one long event, lasting about 45 min.

1. Tried the June TOTM again. I pulled some what looked like cat hair out of my butt. Second try was even more hair, then some dried up p**p. Not very imaginative, haha.

2. Was flying up higher and higher, thyrng not to think about how hard it is. Wanted to hitch a ride on some industrial containers that looked like luggage containers for airplanes. They were hanging on a rope being pulled on another horizontal rope. When I got closer, I heard some dangerous, large machinery sounds and I had no idea which tunnel the containers will come out of. I didn't want to get slammed by them so I left.

3. I wanted to get laid so was looking for someone. Didn't see anybody, so I remembered how I used to climax from climbing on poles. I found me one of those and I climbed and climbed...

4. There was more activity similar to the main theme, but don't remember any more details. I know I had some non lucids after this.

I was working on [something?]My mother wanted me to help some woman clean houses in WA state.
I could see a field near the ocean, with a series of identical 2 story brick homes facing the beach.
My right shoulder hurt. Someone suggested selling my shoulder muscles as implants, because people did that apparently. I looked at my hand and my fingers were dirty.

I woke up sleeping on my right side in a weird position and my shoulder hurt. Fell back to sleep after reading for a while.

I was traveling with my mom, dad and little brother- my brother was only 5-6 years old and my parents were young. We stopped at a brick apartment/hotel. We were only supposed to be traveling for 1-2 nights so I didn’t bring a change of clothes, only a couple of different shirts. We had dropped off our things at the hotel and I was trying to barricade my dog inside so she could see out of the window but not get out or destroy anything. My dad wondered if the lady managing the apartment was trustworthy. She looked like an old boss of mine. I was at the car but decided to go back inside to grab a sweater or something. I encountered the manager opening the door to our room or the house as I was trying to, and I wondered briefly if my dad was right to suspect her, but she seemed nice so I didn’t worry too much. I think I decided to grab my dog and bring her with us.

I briefly remember being in a car with an old schoolmate, someone I haven’t thought about much at all in many years. Weird.

My dad was driving, it was very dark out, and he didn’t have the headlights on. I was in the backset with my brother, mom was in the passenger seat. I screamed, ‘I can’t see!’ and my dad turned on the headlights just in time for us to see he was veering off a bridge/cliff. He almost corrected it, but the back end of the car had fallen off and dangled for a moment before tipping. We were falling but we couldn’t see what was below us. I had hope it wouldn’t be far, but the longer we fell, I realized we would all probably die. I held my mom’s hand with my right hand but I could only see the hint of her blonde hair in the darkness, and I held my little brother’s with my left hand, I told them I loved them and tried to stay calm. I woke up.

Another fragment—
I asked my dad where my dog was. Then I saw a car parked in the middle of the road ahead of us.
It was daylight, sunny. I saw my dog jump out of the car, wearing a red harness-type device. It was mesh and covered much of her abdomen, and one of her hind legs were stuck in it, so she couldn’t run or walk properly. I ran to save her, but she kept running from me. I finally grabbed her and my dad intervened and was rough with her, pushing her in the face. She bit in in defense, and it was bad. I felt very angry with my dad for treating my dog so violently. I yelled that she had never bitten anyone before and it was his fault. I worried he would tell and she would be quarantined or taken away from me. My dad looked upset, but stoic too. I eventually asked him he was ok. The bite was on his thumb and it looked deep.

Thoughts:
This all seems pretty straightforward, I didn’t feel safe with my dad. He also treated animals rather callously, although he did love them. As far as the first dream of my mom wanting me to clean houses—maybe I feel like my mom wishes I were more conventional and responsible.

+ I'm back in B near the university, I come upon a HS friend (BeDo) and I think he won't recognize me because of my weight loss. I know that I'm not really here, or that I don't live here any more, I'm really happy to be here for a visit

+ driving on road with scenic vistas, hills over water, there is a very picturesque winding road just ahead of us, we stop for pictures in middle of road, we're blocking cars in both directions, a car is waiting ahead of us to come by in the oncoming direction. He waits a while then squeezes by on the left. Another oncoming car (red sports car?) comes by and barely squeezes by on the left. We have the emergency blinkers on, I'm nervous about having stopped here like this in the middle of the road.

+ in group of kids, sitting on floor in room, one boy has his legs painfully and firmly sticking into my groin: I move his legs, it's hard to do, they're very stiff, he complains "you're HURTING ME" then afterwards "you HURT ME" and he's very aggressive and then the group of them turns violent against me. I retreat into a bathroom because I have to pee but the sliding door does not close, I go into another bathroom and open the door to look out and they spray me with water which hits my forehead

+ in a professional-looking kitchen I appreciate the huge burner on one cooktop, the woman says "It's more of a stove" I turn on the burner and appreciate the thickness of the flame, and I compare it to our normal cooktop at home

+ I see female cousin KR and I reach my hand around her head and pull it to me and kiss the back/side of her head through her short hair. I reach to male cousin PR with massively swollen (10x at least, they're HUGE) right hand and right foot wrapped so I can't shake them, they're wrapped in tons of white gauze. He says he got poison ivy. I'm impressed with my cousins' property that they are going to the event they support each other. Later I'm walking back outside and I think my cousin PR will be impressed with my weight lifting progress: we'll have a conversation about what I'm lifting, I'll say a number, he'll say "pounds?" I'll say "no, *kilograms*!"

+(f) something about a woman riding or skiing through water at high speed?

+ walking through the hall of a small/medium restaurant. I look at the tables, people have food in front of them. Some of them have very large stuffed dough-covered dishes that are sliced open, and the hot oozing insides are leaking out onto the plate at a constant rate without slowing down

This was one of the most interesting and incredible dreams of my life.

The city of Purgatory. Run by the jews, inhabited by those who are too fearful or decidedly unprepared to pass into the afterlife, a strange and beautiful place has been built up in what was supposed to be a brief waiting room before one goes on the final journey.

It was my birthday and there was a series of parties, ending with us going to see a movie. We were top row so I went down to the bottom where an old lady tried to kick me out of a seat just to have power over a stranger.