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1. Invisible (LD)
I pass the group of boys in the room which resembles a restaurant. I make my way a bit further into the room, suddenly realize I'm dreaming, and I'm happy about it. There are several booths with people in them spread throughout the room and a wall in front of me which seems to block the passageway which leads out of the building. I think about what I want to do and decide against teleporting; I feel it's best to enjoy the current dream. I decide to simply head around the wall and leave the building. I enter an outdoor area in daylight which somewhat resembles a sidewalk in a city type area. There are tall builds to my left, a fairly busy street to my right, and a wide cream colored concrete pathway leading down the area. I begin thinking about some dream goals, and figure I'll play around with transformation for a bit. I decide to transform into crow form, and suddenly my body shrinks down to roughly twelve inches or so. I decide to look at my dream body to see how accurate the transformation is. I see that I have some human features including shoes and think it looks silly. I begin walking again and suddenly return to human size. I begin to see some shining lights which emanate from the buildings. There's also a small metal structure which resembles a bus stop of sorts. I walk a bit further and notice a female police officer. For some reason, I get the feeling she may be looking for me, so I decide to transform into a mouse and rapidly make the transformation, shrinking down to several inches and feeling my body take the shape of a mouse. I see two large metallic structures to my left, against the side of the large buildings, which are shaped similar to an electric razor and have several convex pods on the end. She seems not to notice me and I skid past her, moving slightly underneath one of the metallic structures. I suddenly remember invisibility from dreamviews competitions and decide to try it. I talk a few steps forward and revert to human form in the process. As I approach the officer, I imagine myself becoming invisible. I hear an interesting, loud decrescendo of a low pitched electronics, and I easily move past her without her noticing. As this happens, the dream begins to fade and I transition to a dream where I spend a solid three to four minutes dream journaling most of the lucid.

2. The Emerald Tree (LD)
I suddenly become lucid in the second story of a building which resembles a large house. There are several windows to the outside as well as an opening to the room to my right. I transition into this room and simply fly out of the house. Once outside, I look down and see a group of people in roughly their thirties looking up at me from a table. There are about five of them eating a meal together and they're smiling at me with interest. It appears that they're having a barbeque out on the deck of the house. I want to have fun and play around and say in a playful voice that I'm flying and ask if they know how. I find the interaction really funny, and they ask me how I'm doing it, staring in wonder. I tell them that I just meditate a lot, and I fly forward and to the right, past the group. I descend a slight bit, and in mid-air, and think about what I want to do for a moment. The group says something to the effect that I have a lot of skills and I'm good at what I'm doing. I turn to my right and see a massive tree in the distance. It's roughly twenty to thirty stories tall with a straight vertical tree trunk leading to a massive spherical top filled with green foliage. It seems to be emanating emerald hues, and I find the scene beautiful. I think back to the portion right before I came lucid where H was telling me what things in life are best for me. I find that this would be an interesting thing to ask the dream, so I turn to my right and ask something close to "Dream... what is best for me"? I don't get a response. I try once again, and move fly a bit in the direction of the response. I don't get a response yet again, and I see the group at the table smiling at me with amusement. I look at one of the guys and say to him in a funny playful way, "Don't say anything, guy!" I find the interaction really funny as I think he's going to mess around with me playfully. I think about what I want to do next and fly in the direction of the green foliage in the distance in an expansive area. I continue to think about where I'd like to travel to, then wake up.

Mechanics Realms (NLD) 08.10.2023

I don't know if I was lucid because I would have gone with the plot either way. I was the creator of a video game that is very similar to minecraft creative mode except the voxels are 1 decimeter and there is mechanics that allows for non grid snapped creations that work with physics simulations. The map is an infinite fractal where each voxel just has a color. Players move out from the center and claim voxels that they can then color and manipulate. Most voxels are smooth but you can instead choose to have a little stud which is like a lego stud and the voxels can rotate around them. I think it was called "mechanics realms" or something like that because the physics simulations let you make advanced physical mechanisms like zeplins and such.

When the game started out, the player base was claiming the area immediately around 0,0,0. I could see a map of the players progress sort of like r/pixel. People seemed to like the game but it wasn't catching on right away. This is where I started alternating with another plot line. Outside the game I was one of the friends of the teenage aged kids from Stranger Things. I tried to get them to play the game but they lost interest quickly. Lucas had a big basketball game coming up and I really didn't like some of the players on the other team. They were bullies. Luckily the other team sucked so Lucas won the game.

Back in the game, I added a mechanic similar to the nether in minecraft where there is a plane you can teleport to to travel faster relative to the overworld. When I came back to the overworld I was in a complex and colorful fractal like cave!

Back in the "real" world I tried to tell them about the game while hanging out. I think there was some dialogue but I suck at remembering dialogue. Then I woke up to my alarm.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~23:15 (23:30 FB) , OOB: ~07:40, fitbit score: 84 (6:34 asleep, 1:04 awake, 1:12 deep, 1:53 REM, 95%); supps: omnk
• Wakings:
  
  1. 02:07 b/r, no recall
  2. 05:52, recall? BTS right away
  3. 06:55 b/r recall

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W2/3: City Skiing
DO there are people skiing on city streets. The streets are very steep, like in San Francisco. There steep hill sections between intersections are broken up by level areas where the cross streets go across the steep vertical streets, so the steep sections are not continuous hills but have flat areas every block. There are cars also driving on the streets and I'm sort of amazed that the skiers are able to share the streets with the cars.

W2/3: Burning Building
[Some longer part of the dream, forgotten] In the distance I see a large building with smoke coming from it, it is probably on fire.

W2/3: Mega Theater/DMV near epic
Entering the Theater

I'm with a male friend and we're in line for a major performance in a theater. As we approach the main entrance, the usher stops the line and blocks the entrance with a ribbon, right in front of us. I think "what bad luck, we almost made it in." There is a huge crowd still in the lobby/entry way in front of us. I think there is space for us still in the line. The crowd surges forwards, and now there is room for us and they remove the ribbon and let us in. We join the crowd surging forwards to hurry in to the theater. We enter it, it is cavernous, a huge theater with many levels and many different seating sections. We're in the back right corner of the theater, either ground level or 2nd level. The theater extends very far in front of us and to the left, it is really huge.

Finding our seats

Everyone is rushing to find their seats before the performance starts, because once they lower the lights it will be impossible to find the seats and we'll have to leave the theater. We've moved to the left hand side of the theater, it's really confusing, I'm trying to figure out where we're sitting. The seat is marked by a combination of section, (then row and seat #?), but I can't figure out where our section is. I figure that I can bisect the search by finding the sections larger than our and less than our and then ours will be in the middle. There are sections full of seated people all around us.
[A lot more, really long dream, forgotten]
S/A meeting w/ people in a central area?

Enter the DMV

There is a really large indoor lobby, this is the (DMV?) we're here to do some administrative tasks. We enter the large area and descend to the ground floor, we need to get through a turnstyle/gate, some people (my friend?) is let through, but I'm detained and brought to an administrator. The admin says that I am denied service because of a violation, and shows a video of me at some automated robot kiosk where I supposedly was earlier, the kiosk (robot? clown?) asked me a question and I gave a flagrantly false answer. And because of this lie, they are denying me service.

I begin to make my way out of the bathroom and see another man entering. I feel I'm not supposed to be there, so I try to be discreet. I suddenly realize I'm dreaming. I don't want to be in the bathroom, so I just walk into the wall to teleport. My vision goes black and I start imagining a snowy scene, with building in the periphery comprising a small town. I hold the visual for a while, and eventually shift to just picturing snow. Suddenly, I find myself in a massive depth of snow - about six feet or so - and I appear to be in the middle of the street in The Meadow. I'm really excited and think "I did it"! I'm super happy, and all the snow is beautiful. I become excited to post the experience on dreamviews. I think of where I want to explore to, and I'm drawn to exploring farther down the road - an area I've never been. As I glide farther, I realize there's progressively less snow until I arrive at an area where it's essentially gone completely. I see several three story structures at the edge of the street and they appear to be tall houses. I'm excited to explore them, but look inside and get a creepy vibe from them. There are some items inside which remind me of the Halloween season, several black skulls and some items which makes me think that they belong to witches. I make my way between the first couple of houses into a T intersection in the pathways. I decide to turn around from this area, and leave by heading back through one of the buildings. I enter and see there's large panes of glass on either side of the back portion of the main room and an area in the middle to transition through. The area is filled with many colorful items, yet slightly macabre. I head through the area between the glass and enter an area behind the building. I begin thinking about dream goals and consider element manipulation. I try to visualize an ice shard appearing above my right upturned palm, yet it's very faint once again. I try transformation once again, attempt to visualize turning into a djinn. I notice a small increase in the size of my arms, and my body grows slightly. I then try transforming into crow form. I put some mental effort in, and suddenly my dream body shrinks down to under twelve inches or so. I don't fly, but continue moving and my body reverts. I continue into the area beyond, see a mirror against the wall and think of technology use. I imagine pulling a cell phone out of my pocket and see a faint image, yet dark, of myself in the mirror, yet don't see the item. I don't use the phone for anything however. I consider teleporting once again, yet figure I might as well enjoy the area. I continue further into a series of many buildings. In the first, several kids are gathered for some type of activity. I float upward to a second story area and there's a small lobby type area with several people gathered. One lady in front of me is on a treadmill, and I find this amusing. I leave this area and float to an outdoor area with asphalt. I reflect on how long the lucid feels, and that it isn't taking much effort to keep stable. Suddenly a large cream colored truck - possibly a cement truck - is partially on top of me and I'm knocked over and pinned under the hood. I reflect on how lucids may be exhausting for omnis. I use my strength to pry myself from under the truck. Once standing, I consider to what to do next, yet wake up.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~23:15 , OOB: ~08:24, fitbit score: 84 (8:00 asleep, 1:10 awake, 0:37 deep, 1:01 REM, 91%); no supps
• Wakings:
  
  1. 01:13 b/r, no recall
  2. 05:14, b/r, recall, 1 hr BTS but finally BTS; recall fairly vivid with decent presence, noticing things, thinking about them
  3. 08:24 OOB

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W2: Bathroom Pod
In an indoor space, house maybe, or a dorm, I need to pee and I enter the bathroom, which is a round room right about 2-3 meters in diameter in the middle of a corridor. It has sliding curtains on each end, and I slide them closed on both sides. At the top where the curtain meets the wall, there is a latching mechanism that locks the curtain in place. I flip the lock (down? up?) (it's like a light switch, a vertical lever) on both pieces.

W2: Sports Announcer Room
I'm getting a tour of a large complex, like a sports stadium administrative area, or a (old?) school. We're in a room that I think is used by the sports announcers when they're giving the play by play of the games. It's a sort of messy/decrepit area. My vision focuses on a wall where there's a blackboard. The blackboard is not clean, there are signs of previously written things there, or a template that is used over and over again, I think it needs to be cleaned. On the wall are signs of left-over posters (?). The guy giving the tour says that "it will be painted" (the walls...to a grey color?).

W2: Touring the Housing Complex
Possibly a continuation of Sports Announcer, the guide and I are traveling outside in daylight along a gravel road that leads through a housing complex. The houses are to the left and right. It is a wide open area with no trees on flat ground, only the gravelly road and the houses up ahead. The houses, particularly on the left, are maid of large, brightly colored stones that look like jewels, many different colors in patterns along the front of the houses. The guy giving the tour said the houses are made of "native stone." (Go inside one of the houses and see some of the people there?)

W2: Movie Theater
I'm sitting in a movie theater. I'm in a central seat in the central back section. The theater is about 30-40% full, with people evenly spaced around the entire seating area. The seating area does not slope much, and the heads of the people sitting in the front sections will obscure the screen a little bit. The screen area is like a small clamshell theater stage, approximately a hemi-sphere. There is scaffolding in the area -- it's currently under renovation apparently. I can see the areas of the curved wall that have been freshly painted/covered with spackle. The display area left to the projector is quite small, I think. Just a few square feet.

A guy comes in and walks down the left aisle and seats himself in the left-of-center section. This is a guy "I know" and "am waiting for," in our group, and I think he should be sitting with us, and that we perhaps should signal him so he can come sit with us.

W3: LD Cream
[Waking up hypnogogia?]
DO, observing, holding in my hand a can of cream. It's used to help LDing? S/O says (or it's written on the can) "I'm 24 and it's still difficult for me." Then S/A taxation, and how the price will keep going up because the taxes will increase, while the base price of the item stays the same.

1. Music (LD)
There is a group of people in a second story area that is gathered to play music I'm in the lit up room watching them and I suddenly realize I'm dreaming. I turn around and see that back of the room, which resembles an attic type area. I look around the area, considering what I want to do in the dream, and realize I don't want to stay in this area. I head forward and to the left and decide to simply phase into the wall to teleport. I walk into the wall to my left and my vision goes black. I begin visualizing a snowy scene with some building on the periphery. I hold the visual for a while, yet nothing forms. I begin to just visualize snow. I stop intentionally visualizing, and suddenly I'm in a grassy area which resembles the field in The Meadow. I look forward and see The Dark Woods. I consider flying and exploring that area, but fly a bit to my left instead. I quickly descend into a thicket of brambles, and get caught in its snare. I keep trying to pry my way out, yet the brambles are holding me tightly. I figure it must be my waking body that I'm picking up on. I imagine myself turning into a Djinn and breaking free. I see my forearms come in front of me, and visualize them glowing with blue energy. There are faint wisps of the energy. I eventually grab a few of the parts that are sticking to me and pry myself free. I fly toward the front section of the field, and consider which direction to head in. The scene in front of me is very vivid, and light sunlight is streaming into the area. The fence to my right is still missing from my earlier non-lucid in which I moved it. The buildings in front of me, however are not the usual buildings. The one to the left is a massive, yet simple cathedral of sorts made out of wood - it appears to be quite aged and has a central spire. The building to my left is aged and made ouit of mood as well and has a creepy, haunted vibe to it. The small entryway to the left is glowing with a reddish orange hue emanating from a window. I decide not to go that tway. Behind the wooden cathedral is a dense forest, and I feel that would be an interesting area to explore I begin flying upward, however the dream is restricting me somewhat. I fight against the restriction, and see platforms above the second story offshoot of the cathedral. I slowly rise, yet wake up.

2. Djinn (LD)
I'm lucid as a dream begins to form in the blackness. I sense that a large window is in front of me, however I still feel as though I'm aware of my waking body and don't want to interrupt the lucid my moving too soon. I feel that I could lose the dream, but a burst of motivation to enter comes over me. I slowly begin moving my dream body, and a scene suddenly forms in bright vivid color. I'm in a large square room with many different cabinets in the periphery, several book shelves, and some items on top of the shelves against the wall. It appears to be a study of sorts, and much of the furniture is made of wood. It's a very pretty house overall. I make my way through this area into the next room to my right. The room is very narrow and rectangular with a window containing a view to the yard beyond. The wall is filled with a shallow bookshelf, with many items distributed on the surface. I make my way down the narrow room and exit through an opening into the yard. There is quite a bit of foliage beyond and several plants as well as a barbeque toward the edge of a concrete area. I chain link fence sits beyond this as well. I think of several dream goals, and remember conjuring ice. I turn my palm upward and imagine a large shard of ice. As I visualize, I see a very faint image, yet nothing materializes fully. I try hurling a fireball into the corner of the yard, yet nothing happens. I turn to my right and begin thinking about Djinn transformation. I take a few steps, yet the dream fades to darkness. In the void I imagine a thunderbolt coming down and my body growing, limbs beginning to grow in blue. The whole scene is very faint and I begin losing lucidity.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~00:01 (fb), OOB: ~07:33, fitbit score: 79 (6:47 asleep, 1:05 awake, 1:49 deep, 0:49 REM, 88%); MT-1, LT200, AP50, Tryp500, Omnk
• Wakings:
  
  1. 02:26 b/r, no recall
  2. 05:44, recall, no BTS? (maybe light sleep?)
  3. 07:33 OOB

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W2: Baby Decompression
DO indoors hospital treatment room. A baby has suffered a compressive neck injury, and is placed in a vertically seated decompression device. The baby is held in place and cannot move during the procedure. The baby seems happy at first. Then the decompression device begins to work, and stretches the baby to about 2x its normal height. The expression on the face of the baby moves to abject horror as it unexpectedly experiences excruciating pain. It is completely helpless to affect what is happening to him.

W2: Water Level
Tires

Outdoors, standing on some sort of boat (?) in a locks. I'm looking forwards, facing the side of the lock, and looking up. Along the edge there in a long line I see several rows (length-wise, one after the other) of old tires or buoys that look very rotten. They appear to have been under water for a long time, then the water level dropped, making them visible.

Bridge

My position on the locks has changed. I've moved to the end, on a bridge overlooking the whole thing.

Pool

I'm standing on the deck of a public swimming pool. This pool is in another state and so the laws are different and the water is a different color. It is not white, it is clear transparent. There is a staff member/lifeguard there talking about it (?). I think that in other pools, the water is blue.

Flower pot

There is a flower pot there on the pool deck. Something happens with it, there is a bet I make with someone else about it

Coins

I've paying out money for the debt about (the flower pot?). I'm counting out either 6 or 16 <foreign currency>, dropping the coins on the ground (?)

W2: Truck
I'm behind a (white?) pickup truck with vertical ladders on it mounted on its very back section, we're stopped at a stop light. There's a station wagon to the right of the truck, and a kid comes out of the wagon, it's the son(?) of the driver of the truck. The truck driver still has to work, but the son gets on to the ladder on the right back section of the truck. There is a band that moves vertically along the ladder, and as it reaches the boy and moves down over his face and body, it compresses his face and contorts it into strange shapes as it moves over his face. The the boy's mom is on the left ladder, and the movable band comes down over her face and her eyes bulge out in cartoon manner, and distorts as the band moves up and down over her face.

W2 Fragments
Doctor

Somebody (inside a a building? A parent or a doctor?) is saying that somebody else should be a doctor

Baby Dream

I'm telling about the Baby Decompression dream to somebody

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Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~00:01 (fb), OOB: ~07:33, fitbit score: 83 (6:34 asleep, 0:42 awake, 1:09 deep, 1:27 REM); MT-1, LT200, AP50, Tryp500
• Wakings:
  
  1. 02:09 b/r, no recall
  2. 03:41 (fb), no b/r, recall?,
  3. 04:46 (fb) recall?
  4. 07:20 final waking, recall
• Didn't record at night, not sure which dreams were on which wakings, putting all except first two as W4

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W2/3: Communion
In a church the communion services is going on, there are people lining up, there is a table/altar/desk of drawers. I'm holding a card of some sort (with an image on it?), and I ask the priest (a woman) if this is OK to have with me, she says no. So I put it in a drawer of the table, then I take my place withe the others and (take communion?)

W2/3: Laundry Room
In a (basement?) area of a building, indoors, it's a laundry room. I see someone with a large laundry cart (looks like a plastic garbage can like the kind with a lid that can be rolled), and I think I want to get one of these to bring my laundry down to the room, too. There is a towel guy in the room (I talk to him?), I'm trying to find the elevator so that I can use it to get the laundry cart down to the room.

W4: Sidewalk
Outdoors/city/sidewalk/daylight I'm walking on a city sidewalk near the curb, there is a group of mixed kids of different ages and adults walking the other direction. As we meet they continue past me I'm walking in the middle of them and they're rubbing up against my arms as we pass each other.

W4: Cosmetics
Indoors, dark/twilight lighting, In a department store? There are sinks and mirrors and rows of cabinets. I'm thinking that a certain cosmetic brand has reduced its produce line for kids: now there is only one model of each product for each sex. I'm at a sink, trying out the soap.

W4: Mob meeting
Meeting at night in a deserted area of a city, near a large building with a covered parking area, with mobsters [DS? Appearing a lot recently]

W4: Contraband
Backpack

I'm forced to take a stash of contraband. I want to refuse it, it's very dangerous, but they're going to check (our backpacks?) that we actually took it. I'm trying to close the zipper on the main upper large section of my old orange Boy Scout backpack. The guys who packed it stuffed it too full. The left-side zipper is broken and won't close the compartment at first, but I run it backwards for a bit then forwards again, then it properly zips. I heft the backpack on my back to feel how heavy it is. I tighten the shoulder straps by pulling down on the adjustment straps on each side's shoulder strap. Then I think about putting on the hip belt, to help keep a portion of the weight off of my shoulders. It feels comfortable on my back.

Trying to ditch it

I'm taking out all the contraband and stuffing it into a garbage bag, preparing to ditch it or burn it somewhere. There are little microfilms that keep sticking to my hand and falling back to the ground. I have the thought "you don't want to get caught with this sort of contraband, they [the prisoners] will kill you in prison by very painful torture"

1. Iced Coffee (LD)
I'm in an outdoor area near a large concrete wall with an alcove area. I'm thinking of my previous dream and how I should have gotten lucid. I hope I still have enough time to get lucid for the night. I suddenly realize I'm dreaming! I fly up a bit to the top portion of a concrete ledge set into the alcove. I float back down onto the ground level and begin thinking about what I want to focus on. I remember that I wanted to focus on something simple, yet that will help play around with stabilizing as well as scoring points in competition. I imagine a hot cocoa on the ground behind me. It's not there when I turn around, so I head a bit further in the bright morning sun. The area is fully paved with cream colored concrete and extends far to the left, and has a small area hidden away behind a wall to my right. I imagine some cocoa would be there, and as I turn there's a small drink area. I begin searching for cups, yet only see lids. I imagine that I'll find a cup when I reach into the pile and one appears in my hand. I put it under one of the drink dispensers, and dark liquid starts coming out. I turn around and go to taste it, however it tastes like iced coffee - not bad actually. I continue to head forward and the scene transitions directly into an outdoor mall area. I see escalators in front of me heading to an upstairs area, yet there are stores on the lower level as well. A young female with light skin and long blonde hair quickly and eagerly approaches trying to flirt with me and show interest. My waking memory kicks in and I turn her down ignoring her, telling her I'm married. I continue to glide up the elevators and I'm soon on the upstairs level. I think back to several dream goals a consider which to pursue. I think of multiplying, but there's nothing in the immediate area. The girl continues to follow me throughout the whole scene, speaking loudly and trying to get my attention, begging me to interact with her. I keep simply ignoring her, telling myself mentally that it's not H, although it would be a good idea to find her in the dream. I move on to my next goal: finding my dream guide. I wonder how I'm going to approach this as I turn to my right to an opening in the wall, granting a view to the large room to my right with vaulted ceilings. There are many people inside, many of which appear to be dancing. I'm thinking about how I'm going to find my dream guide, and am getting ready to shout out for him or her. I begin to glide down, but as I reach the bottom, I wake up.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~23:57, OOB: ~07:34, fitbit score: 80 (6:49 asleep, 0:54 awake, 1:19 deep, 1:41 REM), 200mg L-theanine, 510mg GABA, 50mg apigenin
• Wakings:
  
  1. 01:55 [fb] b/r, no recall
  2. 05:23 [fb], b/r, recall, Failed BTS. Got very relaxed. Several "involuntary breaths". Did MILD on recalled dreams, some relaxing SSILD. At this waking, need to immediately "surrender," "let go," and "pretend I'm asleep". No TYoDaS visualizations for now, too stimulating. Just need to get back to sleep ASAP. Lost my best dreaming cycle, although W2 was actually quite decent compared to recently. L-theanine + GABA may make for better
  3. 07:34 OOB

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W2: Billiard [DS] Performance
Outdoors, dark/twilight, some wide open space. A performance troupe is putting on a life-sized replay of a world famous billiards match. The actors are encased in person-sized billiard ball costumes and roll around and can bounce off other "ball" actors. Most of the balls are red, I'm looking for other colors. I may see a white. The balls are not perfectly spherical, more egg shaped. There is a strange structure with something suspended from up high, an object (ball actor?) is "shot" suddenly upwards and there is a sharp THWACK or ringing bell sound when it hits what I imagine to be a (slate?) horizontal plate.

W2: Instrument Performance [DS]: Mozart Concerto
Several scenes with me unpacking and assembling my instrument. I can't find a place to put my case and to balance my inst. while doing this. I don't want to do this on the floor. I need to soak my mouthpiece. There are a couple additional players: both female. I hear them playing, one of them is reputed to be quite good, she sounds OK. I see the sheet music for the Mozart concerto?

W2: Mob Bicycle
There is a group of "mobsters" (?), and a very strange "bicycle" made out of a rectangle of metal tubes (about 2-inch diameter). It is large, about 1 meter high, and two meters long. It has a strange "gear shift" device about 2/3 of the way along the top bar that is like a horizontal combination lock of separately spinning wheels. There are no wheels that I see. I'm trying to get (my son S2?) to ride it. I'm pushing it down a hallway(?) it doesn't seem to roll very well. I'm twisting the "gear/lock" mechanism with both hands.

W2: Green Guys
Big group of people indoors. There is a long counter. A group of (four?) identical looking guys, short, wearing green shirts, approach the counter, and begin to sing(?). My son is watching with me(?)

W2: Problematic Audience
Inside a lecture hall, I'm standing at the stage/front. The hall is filled with wide tables, like in a convention auditorium. Everything is on one level. There are people seated all along these tables, there are about 5-6 rows of tables and the tables run the width of the room. There's a person seated every couple of feet. I'm thinking about the people there, I see their faces. They all look older/retired. One guy in particular, to the left and in the 2nd row, I think is a known trouble maker. He's looking at me. He has gray hair. He has a sort of mischievous expression. I know that he likes to ask the speaker very challenging questions, to try to throw the speaker off his rhythm.

1. Pool (LD)
I'm in the side room, thinking about a way to evade the individuals who are entering soon and seem hostile. I suddenly realize I'm dreaming and that I can simply leave. I fly out of the room and into the night outside. I'm in the air, and weave around the side of a brown brick building, near a fence above the brown pavement below. I have a feeling of freedom and liberation. I fly upward a bit, yet the dream is a bit dim and I worry that it's going to fade if I head deeper into darkness. I ascend higher, thinking I'm heading too high and remind myself: this entire dream is me. I can do whatever I want and I have complete control I rush backward toward the ground, then float to a nearby area to he right. There's a massive pool with many tall curving slides leading into it. It appears to be a place where younger kids are playing. As I float into the area, I pull my hand in front of me and notice several knives. I feel that it's kind of dangerous having these with all the DCs nearby, and think about a place to drop them. I float through an opening in the slides and above the pool. I begin losing lucidity as I enter the water and transition to a non-lucid.

2. Crescent Moon Zazen (LD)
I head up the stairs in The Meadow, trying to be quiet so as not to disturb DCs in the room above. I suddenly realize that I'm dreaming and don't need to worry about it. I float up the stairs and onto the first floor of the main house in The Meadow. It's in the middle of the night and several dim lights are on in the room to the right. I get the impression my dad is on the computer in the room to the right, and don't feel like engaging him, so I float the main hallway. I suddenly want to practice zazen, and figure I might as well do it here. I turn to my left and notice several Christmas decoration in the back of the farthest room. I sit in zazen, and as I meditate, I notice several Christmas decoration including a small Santa and Mrs. Clause in my field of vision (1). I'm really enjoying the experience, and I want to hold it for a little while. I get up from zazen after about thirty seconds or so. and float outside through the door. I don't want to teleport right away. I decide to practice more zazen, and sit cross legged. As I begin meditating, my body floats into the air ten feet, then fifteen or so. I see the moon through my half open eyes, and begin to rotate while meditating to get a good view of it. Instead of the typical cosmic mudra, I use the gyan mudra, placing my hands on my knees. I leave meditation and drift toward the street. I'm thinking about what I want to do and look down the street toward the other houses, but decide I don't want to head toward the other houses yet. I think about my goal of finding my dream guide. I land and stand in the middle of the road shouting for my dream guide. Nobody appears, yet several black cars begin coming down the road. I ask them for my dream guide in a loud voice, but about three total simply swerve around me. I turn around and see a figure in a dark, full body space walking toward me down the street, and he looks hostile. The outfit somewhat resembles a character from HALO. I punch him hard in the chest, then go to shoot a fireball, yet the visuals are wispy. I reach out my hand and catch him in a whirlwind. His body floats up about four feet and goes into stasis in a horizontal position. I punch him super hard in the groin and feel... I won the battle. I decide this is a waste of time so I start heading down the street. I want to practice object multiplication, so I look to the side of the road to my right and see several small plants. I try to multiply them, yet nothing happens. I then figure I might as well practice element manipulation alongside object multiplication. I stop the ground hard with my right foot and see how the small quake creates small crack throughout the street. I try to multiply the cracks by willing it, yet nothing happens. I create another small quake, yet am unable to multiply the cracks. I head down the street a bit further and remind myself to hold lucidity. I see a street light with a bright light shining, and take in the visuals noticing how stable it is. I consider teleporting, yet don't want to risk losing the dream. The dream begins to fade.

Notes.
(1). The decoration are the same as the ones my family used in my childhood.

Legend

Colors: Lucid, Semi-lucid, Non-lucid
[comment from waking] in angle brackets
(comment / clarification from dreaming) in parentheses
Abbreviations: DS = dream sign, CH = childhood home, S1/S2 = sons, S/O = someone, S/A = something about, [f] = fragment, b/r = bathroom trip, Wn = waking #n, BT = bedtime, OOB = final out of bed time in morning, DO = Disembodied Observer

Summary of the Night

• BT: ~23:35, OOB: ~07:39, fitbit score: 86 (7:05 asleep, 0:47 awake, 1:14 deep, 1:15 REM), med right before bed
• Wakings:
  
  1. 01:59 b/r, no recall
  2. 05:05, b/r, recall, Super long BTS. Probably 1-1.5 hours. Possible light sleep, but felt awake. Took off blanket, cooled off, put it back on later. Physical relaxation pretty simple, but mental relaxation harder. SSILD cycles to direct the relaxation help somewhat. Need to find a way to release the mind faster.
  3. 07:27 final waking, excellent recall

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W2: Camouflage Cars
Outdoors, I see what I think are army cars driving by me. I notice that they have white and black spotted camouflage. I think they blend in well to winter. I watch them drive by me. Then I see a large field of people walking towards me, hundreds of people. Many are carrying a Ukrainian flag. They walk towards me and past me as I stand in their midst.

W2: Political rally
Observing a political rally. They're talking about their plans? They're rallying against a new law? [Vague/forgotten]

W3: Boat cruise [vivid, fun, interesting, decent presence]
Inspecting the naval vessels

I'm outside on the water (on some ship?) observing a large vessel sailing from my right to my left, I'm quite close by. It is colored naval green/gray, and I think this is a naval / military ship. There are others. Then I see that they are moored all together, I'm looking at them all from the stern, they are sort of knocking up against each other. Then I have a close up view of the stern of one of the vessels. It is covered in military equipment. I'm looking for gun emplacements but don't see any, what I do see are very intricate guidance systems (that are used for aiming missiles/guns?). There are a lot of wires leading all over the place. The guidance system looks sort of like a gun emplacement but there is no barrel, but what seems to be two long telescopes or microphones set in parallel about 2 feet apart upon a swiveling stand. I imagine (see/hear?) that there is a female black navy guard who's job is to say "don't touch things" or "get off the boat", and that she is located in a high place so she can see everything going on at ship level.

Cruise Begins

I'm standing on the back of a medium sized boat. It is a boat taking people on a cruise to nearby sights on the bay/ocean. I am a sort of stowaway, I don't have a ticket. I'm standing on the rear left corner of the ship on the "bumper" that is right at water level. There are other people (official passengers) standing to my right on the bumper. I look down as the ship is moving, and I see the churning water from the propellers right there next to me. I think it's quite dangerous, and that anything that falls into that water would be sucked in to the propellers from the (Bernoulli) forces and chopped up. A girl wants to go by me around the perimeter of this bumper so I step aside, and she goes around and there is a bar there and she makes a drink (?), then comes back?

White Sand Lagoon

Then I'm observing the water: we're now motoring through a narrow channel, just a few yards wider on each side of the ship, and it's very choppy, like a rushing river, I have some thoughts about this scene. Then we're located in a large, calm lagoon, the water is still and clear. The bottom of the lagoon, about 20-30 feet deep, is shining bright white sand. I didn't know that there was any white sand like this in this part of the world. A girl (same one from earlier?) says: "Let's jump in" ("Let's do a cannon ball?"). I'm a bit hesitant, but I decide what the heck, and I jump in. I think, this is ocean water, so it will be salty. I open my eyes to look around, I see a small sea creature (like a jellyfish) and I again admire the bright white sand on the bottom of the lagoon. I surface and spend about half a minute trying to brush my bangs out of my eyes. No matter what I do they keep falling back immediately, obscuring my sight. After this goes on for a while I sort of laugh, I think the situation is amusing. The girl is still there.

Buffet Party

Inside the ship in a large party room, there is a party going on. A lot of people. There is a buffet of various food dishes there. I go to one with the girl and look at it, it is something like chunks of turkey meat with a lot of toothpicks on top. I'm studying this for a while, I'm trying to decide which toothpicks are new and which ones have been used and placed back. I say it's always hard to figure out which ones are new. The girl says it's easy: the ones lying horizontally are used, the ones standing vertically are new. I pick up a vertical one and take up a piece of meat and eat it. A (small boy?) criticizes the dish as being non-vegan (?), and I answer by saying "it is excellent protein!"

W3: Taxi ride [fairly vivid, present]
Start the ride

I've just gotten in to the taxi (at the airport?). I'm sitting in the back seat. I see a small (like 2-seat) propeller airplane taking off on the runway, heading right for us. At the last moment it pulls up and takes off flying over us. I expect the driver will eventually ask me where we're going, but he doesn't. I have a lot of trouble speaking, I feel like I can't communicate my thoughts. I say "Can you go to Pe...ky?" He says "sure!". I know that that is not my final destination, that I have to go further. I'm wondering why I need to take two different taxis/modes of transportation, can't this guy just take me to my final destination? I ask and he says yes, of course. I was wondering if it would be too far out of his way. Might as well go with just one trip. Then we're driving through the intersection next to my CH, I recognize it, but don't say anything. I feel like I should get off here but I don't want the driver to know where I live.

Lovely trees/flowers

We're driving on a street, up ahead in the distance I see a huge rhododendron plant/tree. On either side of us are flowering trees/vines, there are many colorful flowers. I comment on how lovely they are. I think they grow so well because of the warm weather here.

End of trip

The taxi is now a mini-bus and we're pulling in to a courtyard that is the front yard (vastly expanded) of my CH. (Roundabout?) Some people get off, and I'm a bit slow in getting off and the driver closes the door and is about to drive away, I call out "Wait! I'm getting off here." My taxi driver is a middle-aged white man seated behind me and to my left. I ask him "Do you have a <business card, in foreign language>?" I also think, hey I have to pay this guy, and ask "how much do I owe you?" He says "no, don't pay me, you'll pay next time". Instead of a business card he hands be a small piece of paper with some scribbles on it. His name is "Mihu."

DJ Critics

I'm seated at a table outside (indescript location), and I'm shuffling through papers looking for a fresh sheet with room on it for me to dream journal. I can't find any places on any of the sheets. The pieces of paper are all separate. Then I find a place and write a few words (?). There are two guys there, they are critiquing the phrases I've written in the DJ. One guy says the words have "No grammar." I am a bit offended but I know that I'm writing just key words/phrases and that they are not grammatical, but I do not want them to know it's a DJ so I keep quiet.

LUCIDD LD#292 False Awakening

I find myself lying on my side in (a) bed. I do a nose pinch and I can breathe!, I'm lucid. I feel myself lying there. Then in a second I feel a "wake up buzz" (REM Atonia ending) and I'm in the same position awake in my waking bed. [very short, but it's lucid! I'm counting it. Lucid is lucid!]

I was browsing YouTube when I came across this now-defunct collab YouTube channel by two guys from Groningen that was called BROERS (In my dream it was, the channel actually exists under a different name, but my memory couldn't place it) but because there's a really crazy Dutch podcast called BROERS, I went to check the channel to discover that it was now renamed BLIEP (Dutch for bleep), probably to prevent copyright troubles (funnily enough there's a phone company called bliep* as well) I check the YouTube channel and, to my surprise, it has the 2.0 channel layouf (beta channel as it used to be called in 2009) from 2009-2012 (or 2011 I forgot) before they came up with Cosmic Panda and every current ugly design that they have.
Confused (and excited) I try to figure out how these channels have the old layout again, I come across this account of a Dutch guy, then come across the channel of his girlfriend, who has an English speaking video where she talks about her boyfriend, who's nentaly ill, and her own mental health.
Next thing I know I'm walking past an industrial area with the couple, kinda similar to the IKEA area in Utrecht as well as the IKEA area in South Berlin (both 030) the boyfriend is walking steps ahead because they're on they're way to an isolation chamber for their mental health. Meanwhile I'm talking with his girlfriend in English, she tells me that she met her boyfriend abroad in the UK, I ask her where she's from and tells me that she's actually Dutch to which I reply with "Leip!" (which is Dutch "slang" for crazy)
We then arrive at the isolation chamber, which is a tiny gym room covered in mats. We sit on the mats while I'm still joking around with the girlfriend. The boyfriend angrily yells "You guys annoy me!" before walking to the door to let more people in.
Me, who suddenly realises that we're in the isolation chamber, tells the girlfriend I'm gonna wait outside so everyone can concentrate (and I also don't have the concentration myself to sit in a small room full of strangers in silence for lord knows how long)
I walk out the room into the hallway, the interior of the building is similar to that of a kindergarten, doctor's office, or just a local wellness center as the halls had dry beige walls, bookshelves witj this books, and benches. Kinda like the hallway of my old primary school when I studied there in the mid to late 2000s. I walk around and the hall is apparently also a sauna as a bunch of middle aged blonde Dutch women are sunbathing in their short, light yellow bikinis on the floor.
I'm trying to find a place where I can sit to wait for my friends, where I can still see them leave, but also make it not look like I'm peeking at the sunbathing women who are in the same area as the room I'm paying attention to.
I bump into a sauna going woman and she goes "Sorry, Cesar chocolate milk!" while giggling before introducing herself as "Elvira van der Voort" (Not a real person as far as I know, any person with that name is coincidental or how they say that in movie credits) I then introduce herself with my first and last name as well (which I rarely do unless necessary) she starts laughing and pointing at her teeth as she realises my name is actually Caesár. I then realise she may not have called me chocolate milk because I'm black as I suddenly have a flashback of me drinking chocolate milk before leaving the isolation chamber and the chocolate milk brand apparently being called Cesar. I try to check my teeth, but suddenly realize I have trouble physically opening my mouth, I then wake up as I had about seven hours of sleep.

I’m reading through profiles posted on a website. For one, I read, “My story does not begin or end and has no need to stop at these David’s bones.”

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I’m going to a gym or similar. Everybody there is trying to work out some cryptic puzzle. The phrase “traveling in the tail of a sound” is a hint.

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I’m attending a class in a floating city where all the buildings and such look like clouds – almost certainly as a person other than myself. It’s a group of a dozen or so students led by a teacher. There’s a nocturnal atmosphere. Up until this point, I’ve been behind the rest of the class, but something has clicked for me since the last time we met. All of us are supposed to race to find a certain ship (airship, really, although it wasn’t described that way). I start out strong and have a lead from the beginning, and I actually make it there first. (This part is sort of video game-ish.) We do a couple more rounds after that; I take even more efficient routes, having a better idea of the city’s layout, and again make it there first. The third time, which works a little differently, I make it to the ship so far ahead that I actually have time to untie it and bring it around to where the others are still struggling to get past a certain obstacle.

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The next dream from that night is explicitly video game-like rather than implicitly. The dream involves the party going down to the underworld to rescue a comrade. This is a fairly routine occurrence, although enough of a bother to where it’s still better to avoid having to do it. This is the first time it’s happened in this game, so we get a special introduction to Fancrow, who is putting in a special appearance as lord of the dead. Fancrow is an older man, short, Caucasian, with white hair and a beard, wearing a blue uniform trimmed in yellow – just how he looked in the previous game. There are a number of little references to his role in that game, where he was a side character: there, you have to win a duel against him to get [handwriting illegible]. I’ve been given to understand that he just lets the dead person go the first time, and also the first time it happens after a solstice passes (which is yet another little reference). But nothing is happening. In addition to the action playing out, there are a number of interface elements visible, including one with a grayed-out sword. That means that we haven’t yet recruited the party member who would be really helpful in this situation.

It’s also possible for the deceased themselves to trigger their own release, and the dream then cuts to the PoV of the person we’re here for, who’s in the process of doing just that. She jumps onto a flying vehicle, which instantly plummets since it’s set to the gravity of the lower realms. As it goes down, a bad smell becomes more and more prominent – associated with the place itself.

The dream cuts back to the scene with Fancrow, where something is happening. He’s being hit with small objects in advance of the party member breaking through. Things are looking good now, but I’m still angry at Fancrow for taking my friend away, so I take advantage of his distraction to punch him. But he isn’t taken off guard. He just mirrors my action and grins. I know that now I’m going to be the next one to end up down here.

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To help RD, I go to a place that looks like an abandoned mall to complete some kind of puzzle that involves getting the air to flow into a certain place up high, which is necessary to accomplish something. There’s no place I can stand to get it there directly, so I have to use the extremely larger flowers growing high up on vines there to redirect it. This is a timed puzzle, but I manage to complete it quickly, mentally directing the air along the right path. RD is happy about this. We are part of a small group, and because of this, she will be able to provide the space for us to do something later on. Possibly related, although for reasons that are now unclear, later on, I'm running through mental projections of rat experiments, one after another, changing the conditions as certain aspects become clear so I can get another step closer to figuring out what I want to know. I do tens of thousands of them, although each one only seems to take instants to run start to finish. It seems as if all of this is necessary since I'm trying to actually figure out the causation of something rather than just navigating outcomes.

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I have, in connection with (dream-)siblings, made something that had gotten very popular. I'm getting invitations from people all over the world wanting me to have adventures with them. I could travel anywhere in an instant, but that somehow makes it seem less interesting. And what I really want to do is just to get back to the newest musical project I'm working on.

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I'm with a group of people in a small city, chasing after someone. We split into groups to surround them. Something will end when we catch this person, and I want it to be over really badly. I experience the landscape of the dream as having harmonic connotations – in the area where I am, specifically, ones indicating tension. There’s no audible music playing, just a sense of information being perceptible as part of my experience of the dream.

(July, mostly)