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3 October 2016

I will never be able to recollect how I came to be part of a dance troupe let alone how a felt about it. But here I was, getting ready to go on stage and perform with these guys in a dance competition. The Prize? Well I have no fucking idea. The whole thing was rather hazy. I have vague memories of a fictional character that I came up with a while ago. I don't want to share too much about her so for now, we'll just call her Courtney. Courtney was financially backing our dance troupe but I don't remember interacting with her or even talking with her.

Later on in the dream I was observing a Superbowl commercial wherein a phone was being advertised. The phone could be used by leaders to keep a close eye on the working class and keep them in line. In the commercial I saw a coach using the phone to oversee his football team. The team's color was orange and the coach was dressed in nearly all orange. He was a huge asshole and he also owned a store. He was at this store instructing an employee in how to do something. The instruction he was giving was convoluted and overly complex. I do not remember the exact task but it was very simple and did not require such a deep briefing. As he was talking a display of CGI imagery starts to appear typical of that of a Superbowl commercial. Then the coach nonchalantly said "Got it?" before walking away. I do not remember anymore details other than the fact that the commercial took place at night.

With younger sister I entered an old and rusted bus. Driver took us through some woods into an old village. We left the bus and wandered around old cottages. It was cold afternoon and it seemed like it was going to rain. I looked at trees all around, they were quite beautiful. I was intrigued by some strangely shaped leaves. Then the forest disappeared and we found ourselves in some chamber, there was a pedestal with many buttons on it. I stared at it, wondering how it works. Then I recalled that I've seen this chamber before and tried one combination. I pushed buttons to try different set, but it turned on traps. Arrows shot from openings in walls that were put in numerous places, then a robot with appearance of black haired woman in red dress moved and tried to hit us, but it had movement restricted to just one track.

Last night bed at 8:30 or close to 9pm. I'm off today, but I got sleepy and I want to keep my sleep schedule anyway, so I can WILD in the morning.

Had this dream before 1am

I'm in New Zealand. Something like an exchange student, only I'm not a student. But I'm in a family I don't know. The woman is getting me things, showing me rooms. It's a long and detailed dream, but don't remember much except this:

They take me to a large room to meet the elephant. The animal is huge. All black with short, shiny hair. Kinda like beaver hair, just a bit longer. Very dense, black, shiny. I'm standing in front of him and I am a bit sad for him. I'm thinking how I always wanted to touch and elephant's trunk, when he starts moving his trunk to me and he touches my hand with the tip of it. I feel that he is old and smart and I appreciate his touch.

Jay-Z has come to town, and it's a big fucking deal. He's sold out this massive stadium in the park, and there are like 400,000 people waiting in line. At the rear of the stadium is the hood entrance, a spot where all the local gangsters line up and are let in based on how hard they are, and how good at fighting. There are some weird dudes in line that must be superheroes ar something cause one is in a big moth costume and the other guy is filthy frank. I was in the gangster line, and was with the moth guy, right when they were about to stop calling names. I got to the front of the line, and they called the guy directly behind me. Fuck that noise. I start leaving and they're done calling, when they suddenly say my name. I've been called on as security, to defend the one entrance to the building from all of these hoodlums. I stand in the door and everyone asks me if I'm cheesed for not getting picked, but I say that 'I was picked to protect Jay-Z from all you boys' abd I had the highest honor. I left on a motorcycle given to me for this role. I was hanging out with some random girl and talking to her about how much I've lost my memory (which was because I was in a dream, dammit) and then realized I was late for the end of the concert where I had to go give the bike back and meet Jay-Z to get my thanks. I spent like 10 minutes trying on different clothes so I would look like a neon gangster but I was too late so I just left.

04.10.2016

(MILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I woke up 5 hours into my sleep and studied for 20 minutes, then went back to bed. I lied on my back and repeated I would become lucid next time I was dreaming. I tried laying attention to HIs but kept waking up each time I did.

I was in the middle of a dream and became spontaneously lucid. I had a FA in which I was in my parents' bed. I tried getting up but was really heavy and fell. I had another FA, this time I was in my bed. I got up and did a RC, I was still dreaming. My body felt as if I were spinning. I remembered Dolphin's advice on imagining I had just finished spinning and waiting for the feeling to go away, it worked.
I walked down the stairs and saw it was bright outside. I opened my door and it still was day time. Something made me look back inside, and when I turned around to step out it was night time. I cursed myself and then looked back inside and then outside, it was day time again. I was on top of a small building. It looked like the assassin's bureau from AC I. Michela and Cali were there. I lost a bit of lucidity and asked Michela to help me fix my phone's brightness. I kept trying to remind myself I was dreaming. I looked at my hands and arms and it looked really vivid and real. I took off and started flying.

I think I fell into a non-lucid dream

I only got 3 1/2 hours of sleep so no good dreams to report.

1- Just an image of a drawing of a bird that was black ink on white paper and the bird was in 3d and facing me. It appeared to be watching me. As I stared at it the paper with the bird floated away.

2- Another was a fragment of a dream where there was a German lady speaking to me in German, at least I think it was German. It was just one sentence and I tried to remember what it sounded like but that poofed away when I woke up. Swell oon ????? She was light blonde short curly hair and had glasses. Wearing salmon capris with a white shirt and was floating like she was lounging on a couch. Whatever it was she was saying to me, she was trying to get me to listen.

I sure wish I could get back to interesting dreams.
With dreams like these it is no wonder I am always feeling like there are messages in them. I used to have long dreams that were so good I could have written a movie.

+ in some room [FA?] in bed with wife with sliding glass door [DS], outside are train tracks, 2 locomotive trains arrive simultaneously, both moving right to left. Our door is open, and people are streaming off the train, I want to go to the door to close it becaue I don't want people coming in our room. I get up and go there but go outside. Wife comes after me and before I can tell her not to close the door she closes it and it locks behind her. Now I'm standing on the platform in just my underwear and I'm furious at her for closing the door behind her and tell her so.

+ at workplace with [unknown] colleagues, I notice a donut tray, boy it looks good, I take a small pastry and eat it. I come back to that area and now a lunch platter is spread on the ground. I'm inspecting the packages. One of them is like bento box, strangely shaped

+ looking at CH back lawn (green) from deck talking to Asian girl, I tell her "this is my home! I grew up here!" [finally, some location awareness in the dream!] then I show off by jumping from the deck to the lawn (it's about 20 feet down) and land, she's amazed, I think of saying "yeah, I'm kind of like superman" but decide against it

+ LUCIDD 208 LD#208 tree on the hill, streams, picnicking groups, climb hill hard dirt path climbing, woman in the group above me which is getting up to leave mutters an excuse for leaving, s.l. "because ... blah blah...dream". Dream? That gets my attention. I do a slow, careful, thoughtful nose pinch and yep, I'm dreaming. The dream ends/transitions after that and I lose lucidity. [Shortest LD ever , but I count it because I had high awareness for at least a moment, and completed the affirmation that I was dreaming].

+ volleyball game, several points, I flub a couple serves and let a ball pass that was in bounds, some balls were out, the guy who serves following me also flubs a serve so I don't feel so bad

+(f) some guy is talking, he's a fishing guide, then I'm imagining swimming frantically in murky water trying to evade sharks.

+ wine tasting: woman ways "grey (?) [meaning white] wine is my favorite!" I say "white is my favorite too, but so it red, I like all types!"

+(f) floating in a boat with a girl up a tight/narrow waterway and sneaking a bite of sushi before our scheduled meal at our destination

+ gathering talking with groups at tables, a guy I'm talking with leave and sits at another table (picnic style bench table) and he's angry at me for dissing him but I yeah, OK, let's talk all night, "we can eat ding dongs, dildos, and ho hos" and think "oops that was a slip of the tongue"

+(f) in semi-darkness arriving at some parking lot place with lots of people, I notice a narrow parking place next to a driveway

+ in a tent swinging above the ground sorting my shirts and my sons's socks

D1: Non-luicd: I was w/ a group of spiritual people & we are having a group session. The topic was on
people who have "seer abilities". Each person was talking about their abilities. But I kept getting vibes from the woman on my right that were distracting. I could tell she was lying for some reason. Then Meesha Cat woke me up to be fed.

D2: Lucid: This was an Armageddon setting dream. There is a girl who insists that the group should help her find her canary. I then became lucid & tried to think of the TOTM tasks but I can only remember the one about holding our head & think it's creepy so I just go w/ the flow of the dream. I see the cage & am helping her look for the bird but I'm insisting that she should leave it because it will make noise & draw attention to us. I'm trying to rationalize to her why it is so dangerous but as soon as we give up looking we hear the bird screeching. Our group anxiously is arguing about the bird & our safety. I'm telling them that their arguing is drawing attention to us & pleaded for them to stop but it's too late & our hide out is rushed by the police state officers. We manage to get in a car & the arguing escalates again. We hurried into another building which looks like the capital building. We no sooner get inside when we hear a loud explosion & we now have a hole in the room we are in. I can see professional looking people in the other room w/ suits on but they don't know we are there. They are looking out the windows & panicking. But soon the people w/ me are making noise again w/ more arguing & they start to figure out that we are there. But they no sooner are trying to alert the other people in the next room, that the building was stormed by the police state officers & are being dragged out. I then woke up. This dream was so fast paced that I was having trouble stabilizing it so I just waited to see where I could do more but it just ended too soon. Yet I did feel good about it becoming lucid regardless.

The first part of the dream took place in a very barren environment, kind of resembling Mars. I was there with a few others (not in space suits). They were planting seeds to grow vegetables, perhaps in an effort to terraform the place? I asked what one guy was planting, and got excited to start doing it myself. I think we were near the mouth of a cave? We were 'colonizing' this little valley, and even though it was dry, barren and rocky, it felt like our new home.

Then we found what I think was a gravestone inside this shallow cave. I knelt down next to it with another person. I put my hand on the stone, to telepathically learn more about it. I waited a while for "the visions" to start. The information appeared in front of me as text on a HUD (heads up display). The first tidbits of info looked normal, she was a woman, middle-aged. But then, the "screen" showed that she was demonically possessed. "Associated with Lucifer: 100%" or something of that nature. I instantly knew we were in trouble, as we had woken something up.

Next scene I'm in a very dark basement area. The narrow halls were dug out of the rock. It was very hard to see. The demons were already manifesting, and I knew we had to get out of this confined space, before they found us. We were going in circles, so I pulled up a digital map (like in a video game) and navigated to the exit this way. I think I guided two more people (kids? women?) and urged them to flee with me. On the upper floors, the building looked more... building like (no carved out of rock), but it still looked under construction. Large demons (10 feet tall, easily) pop up out of nowhere, slightly reminiscent of Hell-Knights from Doom 3 and 4. They charged at me, and all I could do was flee, and 'kite' their attacks. At some point I got tired of running, and tried fighting back. There were these large 'orbs' floating around. They looked like giant soap bubbles. I jumped to grab one, and tossed it at the giant demon. It hit, and to my surprise, the demon died! I possibly proceeded to whack a few more of 'em this way. That is, until I got to their "boss". He was a large, shapeless "blob" of skin and gore, with a human face sticking out of it. It's hard to describe, but it was really gross. I tried reasoning with it, but it didn't work so well. While trying to talk to it, I touched it... but this made its face morph into a horrible abomination, which was a sign I was making it angry. So yeah, we ended up fighting. It shot those "bubbles" at me, which I intercepted mid-air and threw back. Sadly, the bubbles did not damage it. They just bounced off. I think gravity was a little weird (lighter than normal) because of the aerial acrobatics I had to pull off to catch those bubbles, and throw 'em back before hitting the ground again.

The outcome of the fight was undecided.

Was a long time I logged a dream, previous morning I remember to record my dream though! Here it is

My dad and sister had the idea to go north Finland, they wanted all 3 of us to go there by car. Once there it started to snow and their idea was to start go south through some forest.
I was very worried about internet not working there, as I need to hack within 24 hours for my Sojourner medal in Ingress - so I don't lose a day (again) and have to start over, however dad didn't really care about it.
At the evening when we were going to sleep we got into some place that looked like my dads house (where I currently live irl), my dad had his own room, my sister had her room (guestroom now) and I had mine.
However, my sister didn't want to sleep in her room somehow, instead she was going to sleep in my room. I just wanted to sleep because I was so tired, but I couldn't because she wasn't ready to go sleep.
Then one of her friends called her, and her friend was so loud. They were in the kitchen emptying the dishwashing machine, talking and made noises. I got pissed off and told her to go sleep in her own room.
But no she didn't want to, instead they decided to go sleep outside my window.
I tried to fall asleep yet again.



The end

Odd

I was eating a pot of soup filled with big Lima beans,leaves and beef on my bed with my hands. There were people visiting and I asked my mom if she wanted to hear about the dream I had. The dream than shifted and I appeared in my living room where I saw the family get together. There I saw cousins and people I don't know interacting,cooking rice and having a good time. I recognized it as a dream and liked the plot but than I saw a dc on the floor who looked like my cousin but also had features of someone I didn't know, acting strange."Hey.Remember me? We haven't seen each other in a long time"she said to me. "Yeah. Ofcourse I remember you"I said in a somewhat sarcastic tone.She than started talking about something and was about to go downstairs wanting me to follow her but I stopped at the top and pointed out a part of her face that looked like it was burned and she got a huge scar.

She than covered where it was with her hand and said "sorry".Afterwards changing into a blond girl with a bun and a blue/white ice skating outfit. Instead of looking 16 she now looked 10 years old.She than walked upstairs and went to my older brother's room where I followed her. She mentioned that she had a problem with something and started doing stretches. I was starting to think scary thoughts so I decided to help her warm up by holding her foot so that I would distract myself from the bad thoughts.I than told her that if she wanted her problem fixed to get a dream guide. She thought it was a good idea but didn't know how to go about it first. The dream than shifted and I was now on my bed looking up at the ceiling near the door. There I saw a dark skinned boy looking at me. I than heard a man say that he was tired of watching over me and that it was the boy's turn. The boy had trouble getting in the room though. I told him to just focus on me instead of the wall and he got through but I woke up after that.

Hug

I was on my bed and thinking about Eye. He than came through a portal and sat next to me on my bed.I hugged him than took notice of another dc that was sitting on my bed.I didn't really have a lucid goal so I just stayed there hugging Eye for a bit.He didn't talk so no dialogue for this dream scene.Afterwards the dream changed to a non lucid dream where I was at the supermarket doing a shopping competition with my family.

(I didn't draw the pic)

It was a sunny day at school, but at the same time, somewhat gloomy. I was walking with my friend, Pierce, and greeted one of my other friends, Cadence. Me and Pierce walked into the school as we instantly had a diabolical plan. I told him that he should go to the nurse and say that his stomach hurts, so he could go to the bathroom, while I would be at the bathroom too. I finally gave him the signal as he walked into the Nurse's Office. I quickly sped to the bathroom when he was there. "How'd you get here so fast?" I asked. He rarely just shrugged and said, "I dunno." I went into one of the stalls, as I got on a green tie and vest, a purple jacket, and painted my face white. My hair turned green in the process, as well. We both laughed maniacally as we grabbed shotguns stashed near the toilets. I smashed open the window with the butt of the gun, and glass flew everywhere. I nodded as we hopped out, but soon ran into walking people. Out of pure sadism, I shot at them, but was sad to see that the guns had no ammo or gunpowder. I thought, out of my lucid state, to make the gun at least do some kind of damage. When it did, I pulled the trigger on the citizens as they dropped to the ground, paralyzed and unable to move. I don't know why, but I suddenly felt so incredibly happy and evil, as I laughed like a madman at seeing the petrified men and women on the ground. Pierce tapped me on the shoulder and said, "No time, we gotta go." I agreed as we ran off to a nearby building, possibly a storage for cars. We walked to the third floor, and aimed for guards at a bank. The plans for our heist were starting to become more and more powerful, and we got out long muskets with scopes on them. I was disappointed to see that when I shot, it did absolutely nothing. I became angry and distressed, as I pulled out two shells that were actually batteries. Because of my anger making the dream less stabilized, I did not realize that I was holding a musket and two batteries. Out of complete madness and insanity, I grabbed a knife and stabbed an innocent man coming down the stairs many times, trying to search for any ammo on him. I grabbed his body and stuffed it in a crate. Suddenly, my stomach dropped and I realized that my master plan had been foiled by a lack of ammo. I told Pierce that the heist is off, so we just went back to the school bathroom. He got out of a white tuxedo he was currently wearing as I walked up to the mirror. I flipped a knife out of my pocket, the one that I previously used to kill the man, and placed the blade on my face, a couple centimeters away from my ear. I slowly cut it across, reaching to my mouth to my ear. I felt nothing but a mere scratch, as cold blood streamed down my face. The bathroom faded black, and I started hearing voices, presumably Joker catchphrases, like "Why so serious?" and "Frowning is overrated." As the voices ended, I looked at myself dead in the mirror, face paint and everything still on, and said, "Let's put a smile on that face.."

My dream slowly ended, as I appeared in a new one. This time, I had no scars but what appeared to be red lipstick. My green hair was slicked back and I was wearing a white tuxedo with a black tie, the almost to exact same style my friend Pierce was wearing. I was in a black and white Bugatti as I drove across an icy forest, laughing like a psychopath as I ran over trees. I felt absolutely great, overwhelmed with power and happiness. My dream ended, and I woke up..

Sooo full of Joy today! My dreams last night and the visions which confirmed and expanded on what I've been learning... I also need to draw this stuff
The experience of intelligent infinity... and then straight into another teaching dream!! lol Let the new cycle begin!
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First part of the night, I'm my dream triad.
Over-soul male/female I'm playing with and looking at the thought constructs of the last month. The shapes/time/tunnels and the paper I wrote yesterday. I'm doing this in the void.




Wake and can't breath!! (Asthma first attack since last big growth in 2008-9) Get inhalator... I know some things happening between heart and throat centres(Or I'm bath shit crazy.... either is awesome

Lay down and get visions+my old poetry+love+joy+realisation+understanding and everything pouring into me.



I laugh, and cry at the beautiful game of being a human I'm playing!

The simplicity of it all... Scale, Micro-Macro, as above so below and vice/versa
I'm the ocean in one drop of dew... part of it all but ever so small... but I'm not small -- I'm ALL!
I'm reverse engineered...I'm surrendering to my re-membering that I'm all that is and all that is is me....... and it's so beautifully simple the only time is 'now' the only 'venue' is here. We are the start and the end, the Alpha and Omega the snake eating it's tail the torus the infinity sign. 'We are'
We all ready are what we are looking for, we all ready are what we are waiting for! <3 and it's like being lucid in your life!

Sooo fall asleep again, in a sea of tears and laughter and joy.


The dream (Hazy recall as my mini controll master Zak - Woke me demanding I get him an ipad)

Setting... A school... it's a sleep/dream school and it's full.

I've been 'called' it's time now. (I also know everyone in the school me/teachers/students are also me)
My recalls insane!! I can see my dreams of this live and other lives... I know I've been working on these issues in other lives too (I'm mentally a bit miffed with myself it's taken me to 40 in this life to put it back together lol)
I have full recall of 'past/other' life dreams in this school.... though the ones I can access most readily are the lives I've re'memberd into my current working awareness.
The school has a wired name it's a jumble of letters.. there is a special unit??

I'm asked by our teachers to speak.... I am in a room filled with loads of 'other selves' I stand up in the middle of them smiling (I'm so confident and full of joy)
They are all talking among my other-selves. I wait watching patiently amazed and in love with them all.... eventually an elderly black male notices me smiles back and motions to the others too shhhhhh.
I smile and I start to talk when I do I'm amazed, my voice is so loud and clear I don't ever really remember talking in my dreams certainly not like this, it's almost like the first time I've properly herd my voice.
They are all stunned that I've been there all along and they didn't notice me.
I'm amused and I teach/learn learn/teach with the other me's.
The Elder (me) teachers are impressed too they know I'm way beyond this class but I'm content and happy to 'be' 'here'.
They start me on the same 'level' as 'we' have stuff to share I'm loving it and getting a handle on the symbols used in this school... the language used to interpret is a little different from what I'm familiar with.
I'm paired with another female at a yellow level.. We all know I'm way more than yellow (because I'm also the teacher and the classroom ) but yellow is a fair place to start and I'm excited!
I start 'work' I wait, learning my approach from the other me's what they are doing that's working or not. When I try it comes naturally It's fun and such a joy working with the other me's
I get my first 'field' trip with a quiet female, we have soft fabric buckets (to keep symbols, tokens and experience in)
We are clambering up over smooth rocks to our right.... heading to a place were we will work threw together what's in our buckets. I notice that my buckets nearly empty but hers is very full of stuff... I take her bucket from her so she can concentrate on the climb and enjoy the view.
Zak woke me before we got to the bucket sorting

First dream

It was a sunny day, with whole family we gathered in some kind of big party. I took my younger sister to dance, we did utterly bad but had great fun.

Second dream

I drove to school, it was on biology classes. First I had an exam - I was talking about tRNA transcrption and post transcription modifications. Then I finished exam wih a really good grade and went to take a seat - there was a huge and comfortble pillow in the classroom for some reason. I lied on it for a while, then mid-lesson I left the school, chasing some people. It was a cold and rainy day, they broke into some house. I got there quickly and took a look at building they destroyed. After a short while teacher came after us. I ran inside the building, but made jut one tep too loud and she found out I was there. I hid under a table, but she found me. She asked "Have you seen anything?" I replied "Nope, nothing at all." And just sprinted out of the building back to school.

My clothes changed and I looked like homeless, there was some tv reporter talking with people outside the school. I entered it and had to find something on first floor. I took moving stairs, but someone was intentionally blocking the way at the end. I pushed him and got there, but he caught my arm. He was so strong that I couldn't do anything, but yell that he should throw me down. He did it, but I went back up and beaten him black and blue, punching and kicking.

The the school changed into some safe haven protecting people from devils which I called scabs. Time stopped, I saw these devils drag people in flames. I ran around and making gestures as if I played and electric guitar (which resulted in sounds of such guitar actually playing) and it made scabs disappear in a cloud of smoke.

Horrible

Well no, let's say that every experience counts, but this is by far the most disturbing and weird I ever had.
Preliminary information: I woke up in the night, being awake for one hour and half and then tried WILD.

- dream (lucid): I have no idea how but I got lucid. I would not say that it was because of the WILD because I lost continuity... But eventually I got a sleep paralysis, of I dreamt about having one, and then I thought: that's it, I'm dreaming! And I got lucid. As soon as I got lucid I had the most devastating lucid high I ever experienced: an explosion of colours and then matrix style computer characters. I was feeling my brain exploding and my blood like boiling (and no, I don't use any drugs ). I tried to summon a woman but it didn't work out at all (I could never get summoning right but this is my biggest failure). I was periodically rubbing my hands like advised by Laberge, what a weird feeling! I tried watching my hands and they were somehow looking bigger. I was in my bedroom with my girlfriend next to me, I got confused on the fact that I could be awake. So I tried by checking the reflection in the mirror: it worked perfectly. Even the feeling of the bed and the sound of my hand touching the bed, absolutely realistic. I eventually get stuck in my confusion, my girlfriend whispered "you're crazy". I give up.

After a while I wake up thinking how stupid I was to waste such opportunity. I should have tried other reality checks, I should have explored the dreamworld around me, I could have flown. I did nothing, just stayed in the bed and reality checking on the mirror. Meh. But OMG, what a crazy feeling.