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I wrote down my dreams but I'm just too exhausted. Deep cleaning the house today in preparation for Thanksgiving dinner at my house. We bought a 50 inch tv, new stand & upgraded to the Hopper3 w/ the joey. It's finally time Mike & I got something for ourselves. We always buy for grand kids & other things but we finally put ourselves first. Screw it if christmas isn't as big & flashy as usual. Now the kids can reap the benefits from all the movies/netflix, etc. We are tired of being at the bottom when my husband busts his ass to work over 60 hrs a f****** week & feel like we can't buy ourselves shit. Good for us! I'll post my stuff tomorrow during my breaks of cleaning like a mad woman again.

#501-DILD-4:00AM

Well this should make up a little for the last few LDs; really vivid and stable.

I am in some strange house back in town. I see my Father and and wife milling about. Then we are in a car looking at the house. Neighbor's are outside staring at us. I think how this is all wrong. We live out of town now. I hate this. Then we are back in the living room. I am still perplexed why I am living in town, but then it dawns on my that this has to be a dream.

I immediately remember the lucid task to put my head through the floor. I kneel down and take a moment to stabilize visually. I pay close attention to my hands and the carpet. The texture is very vivid and the color is something like faded dingy mauve. It looks like someone needs to vacuum or, perhaps, shampoo. I go ahead and start pushing my heading into the floor. It feels a little like jello then solid wall. I try several times and stop when I realize and I not thinking about it the right way. This is more like phasing. I think to reach through like its an open window. Suddenly, There is an electronic whoooomp sound and a space opens up for my head and I peak into the sub-flooring. Of course, it's pitch black so I snap my fingers and create a flash light with my index finger. ET phone home? I am a little shocked how well my dream control it. Darkness it always a struggle for me, but everything is now brightly lit.

There seems to be a space of a few feet deep in here and directly in front of me is a mirror. I look into it and see my face is just a skull is with frame around it. I giggle at the oddity and then look around some more. The area is dirty with a few pieces of scattered trash. I try to take mental note of each piece but quickly realize it's a waste of time.

I stand up and now my head is poking out the top of the roof. I go ahead and climb up and see one of the neighbors taking out the trash. I tell him he's not my real neighbor and that I don't live here. He asks why and I say that it's because I don't like him. Then for some reason, I jump down and hit him with both feet. As I do, he grows like Jake the Dog and pushes me back up on the roof. Everything is getting weird and I realize that I am loosing focus. I decide to go ahead and wake up so I don't lose lucidity and forget the dream.

11/20/16
20th November 2016

Just a quick entry…

(private part of lucid)

I walk up to a DC that I take to be my wife as a toddler!



I go to pick her up and she becomes an infant that I hold in my left arm and call my son over.



My son is now an infant laying on a surface and I cusp his cheeks in my hands and I am amazed at how real he feels and it feels like I am experiencing him as a infant once again! Very special experience!

It was night, pitch black all around. With younger sister we were up a hill behind our house where we were building a shop. We already had one storey done, which we usd to sell stuf. We turned lights off and went back to our house in compete darkness. My sister fainted and I carried her back to house. When we were reaching the entrance, I felt a horrifying presence approaching. Suddenly I got punched in my face. It pained quite bad, despite that it wasn't a strong punch. I knew that it was a ghost that attacked me. I ran with my sister back to my house. I left her in living room and entered my room. Then I saw an enormous orgy.

Been really sick for the past few days and had no dream recall at all, at least until this morning. I slept from about 7:00am until about 11:00. I've been taking a break from lucid dreaming but once this illness runs its course I plan to return to and re-evauluate my chart and meditation method. I think it had potential.

I dreamed I was outside a small house. (It looked rather like a strange combination of houses, my grandmother's, my great-grandmother's and my cousins.) But I'm going to ignore the details because the house phased between various characteristics of all of them in the time that I spent there. In the dream, I am motivated to, for whatever reason, build a cobblestone path leading up to the front door of the house from the street.

This proves difficult, I do not have enough stones to make a proper path. The path tapers as it runs up the lawn, going from some respectably large and well placed stones to a couple of very small (maybe softball sized stones) as it reaches the front porch. At some point during the dream, the lawn truncates into a steep incline and I must dig away large amounts of dirt to build a sort of ramp that the path can be laid on. At another point, my path somehow ends up lopsided and looping around into the neighboring houses driveway. But eventually I end up creating a semi-successful pathway, despite that by the time I finish, the entire lawn is a patchwork chunks of grass from all the moving of earth I had to do.

Eventually I finish and I am satisfied. I become anxiotous realizing that I have just done a serious job changing some stranger's lawn. (as the house was still an unrecognizable conglomeration of familiar places, but as far as I was concerned, still a stranger's.) Chances are when they return home, they will find me and I will be punished. I consider running away, but consider that some neighbor has probably already seen me through their window and could identify me.

Before I can decide a course of action, a white SUV with golden rims around the wheels and a golden grill on the front pulls up. My maternal grandmother steps out, and the SUV drives off. This causes me to become lucid, seeing as she has been dead for about five years and I have pegged her appearances as a dream sign. One unusual trait of her is that her eyes are a milky bluish-white, as a blind person's would.

She explains that I am one of the few people she is able to visit since her departure from earth. (She has appeared in previous dreams, implying this.) I reply to her, saying that is most likely untrue and that the likelihood is that she is simply an image created by my subconscious and not really the spirit of my deceased grandmother. She gets a powerful temper from this, proceeding to say that she will run me down with a car. Then going into the garage and getting into the same baby-barf-green minivan she owned while still alive.

I get rather frustrated with her, this seems like an overreaction to say the least. The minivan revs into gear. Fully lucid, but still having faulty confidence, I brace myself for the impact. The van jumps foreward suddenly. I push into it with my arms, crushing the face of the car. I then proceed to punch clean through the hood with one arm. I feel around and grab hold of something. (I think it was a cylinder of the engine) and tear it from the car, throwing it with inhuman force into the sky. (It didn't come back down.) Whatever it was I tore from under the hood of the car, It stopped the car from running. My intention was not to cause the projection of my grandmother harm, and the negative implications that entailed, but simply to disable her means of assault. (so, success.)

I told the projection that my grandmother was never one to lose control of her temper, and even less likely to resort to such a violent means. I begin telling her so and she changes mindsets, getting out of her crippled vehicle and becoming very apologetic for her behavior. I lose the dream around here.

1. My friend had cancer and just found out he is all clear. He was in the car with me and I knew it was a dream because he lives in GA. He handed me this box and I said NO. I cannot take that. He said it just means he is grateful for my support during his rough time. He opened it up and one side was a praying child angel on her knees and the other was a grown up angel and both had a little chocolate diamond in the middle. I was aware that he did this because he was very thoughtful and could not say no, but I felt guilty taking it from him. I still loved the symbol inside the dream.
2. I was at a house with lots of people when I saw a shadow of a man smoking a cigarette behind the curtains that were blowing. I was very aware I was dreaming because I knew noone in this room. I pointed at the window and walked into the room. I waved everyone inside, when the man came crashing in with a gun. I had everyone hiding behind the bed and I tried to act like I wanted him, and he put down the gun and I walked him out the door and locked it. We walked down the hall and the man evaporated. YAY!!!!!

I was in San Diego for the GIS event when I seemed to be walking all over, I wished I had had a skateboard because that would be much easier to get to and from the hotel, when a knee walker appeared. I didn't think I was lucid but just wishing but after it appeared I realized I must have been lol. The knee walker was what I used last year when I had my foot in a boot. I decided to keep that and roll on down the streets. It was very convenient lol.

I was in my new apartment and my best friend (I'll refer to him as Steve) was there too. I don't know what we were doing there but I noticed that in the corner of the room there were multiple guitar amps. Since I play the electric guitar, I wasn't surprised at first, until I realised Steve's amp was there too. At first I was really happy because the amp I brought to my new apartment broke down and I could therefore borrow Steve's amp. However, I then realised another amp which I recognised as the large amp I own which should've been at my parents' place, not at my new apartment. I then realised instantly I was in a dream, but I then started explaining to Steve why this situation was bullshit. I explained that my amp isn't really here in waking life and that the dream messed up by placing it there and I showed Steve that I could confirm the dreamstate by counting my fingers. I counted five at first, but looking away and back to my hand I noticed that my middle-finger was now only half-sized, looking away and back I had four fingers and repeating this once more I had three fingers. I then exclaimed that I confirmed the dreamstate and I then went out to do stuff [CENSORED]. Don't judge me

Anyway the lucid part of the dream felt really long. I know the dream lasted about an hour and the majority was spent lucid (as far as I can tell). I seemed to kinda doubt my ability to control the dream however, as some things I also tried to do didn't really work and I felt like I wasn't powerful enough.

I dreamed that I was another person talking to myself who was sitting with my dad at a cafeteria. I talked about the end of the world and other things, which my dad scoffed at. I reminded him that our world was plunged into apocalypse and had only recovered, which made him go quiet.

1. I was inside of some sort of college building sitting at a table with A. I remember just thinking "I can't believe she's really here." Everything about her was just how she was in waking life. Her smile, her eyes, her soft voice, her personality; everything. We sat and talked for what felt like a really long time and I remember us just really connecting again like we used to a while back. At one point we both got up from the table and started walking around. Somehow we got on the topic of our ages. "You're only one year older than me Cory" she said playfully. "Not even that A, it's only a month remember?" I said as I teased her over her mistake. "Well I'm 18 and you're 19" she told me. I agreed even though her birthday is literally a month after mine and is coming up soon.
I remember that we continued to talk a while longer while walking out of the room that we were in, into the main area of the building. "You never told me what you were majoring in" I said. "I'm majoring in business and I'm going to transfer to U of H after Lonestar" she told me. "Holy shit, we're majoring in the same thing and transferring to the same college. I'm definitely going to make her mine" I thought to myself. As we approach the exit of the building I ask, "So do you want to go on a date?" I asked her. "You know how I feel about that Cory" she replied. Just then I remembered how she had just recently broken up with her boyfriend so I realized how she was feeling. "Don't worry there won't be any feelings. It'll be just us two getting food and nothing more" I told her. "Okay fine" she said with a bright smile. I always fell in love with her smiles; especially the way her eyes smiled with her. I just couldn't couldn't get my mind off of how beautiful she was.
As we continued on our way out of the building I remember making her laugh a lot. At this point I was just so happy to see her again and everything was perfect. As we walked out of the building we came to some sort of marketplace with tons of food places. The sky was overcast and it was a little cold, yet all around the marketplace there were torches lit. This just made everything more dreamy than it already was. For some reason I turn around and look back at the building. When I turn back around she's gone.

"she is like the wind."

20.11.2016

(DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I kept waking up during the night due to noises outside our room. I think this made me a bit more conscious during the following dream.

I was home, being taken hostage. There were several people taken hostage as well. We were lead upstairs and lined up in front of a wall. I knew two of the people in front of me; they made me realize they wouldn't shoot me but I had to pretend to be shot. They aimed at us, and shot. I dropped to the ground along with the people next to me. Some were bleeding, I wasn't hit. I stayed still and waited for them to leave.

I stood up and realized it was all a dream. I pulled out my double helix sword in case they were downstairs, but they were gone. I saw Fiona, and then turned around and got really happy when I saw Tonka. I ran up to him and hugged him. His texture and smell were exactly the same as when he was alive. He looked old, the way he did during his last couple of months of life. I decided to picture him younger. Now there were two Tonkas; one old, one adult. I once again tried to imagine him even younger, and then there were three. Old Tonka, Adult Tonka, and young Adult Tonka. I hugged them all and wished I could take them back with me to the waking world.

I went outside and Fiona followed me, while Tonka(s) stayed behind. I took off, it was night time with the sky displaying a beautiful tone of purple. Fiona looked at me from the ground. I made her levitate but she didn't know how to control her flight. I grabbed her and started flying around holding her, she was extremely light compared to her 100lbs in waking life. We circled the neighborhood a few times and then came back home. I saw my mom and my brother seated in the backyard. They told me to be careful.

I lost lucidity and can't remember how the dream continued.

19.11.2016

(DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was staying in the MR Hotel with my gf. I woke up several times during my sleep and was able to fall back asleep right away. At some point I woke up into SP/HIs. I waited a bit and tried to get out of bed.

I stood up and plugged my nose to confirm I was dreaming. I walked towards the window. Carolina was asleep behind me. I opened up the curtains, it was daytime. I got close to the window and felt the cold air outside. I phased through it and landed outside. I tried to remember what the ToM was but had no clue. I remembered the October one, and put my hand in my pocket as I walked across the street. I pulled out a pink dildo and laughed. I shoved it into some random DC's mouth and found it hilarious. There were dozens of DCs walking around. I walked towards a tent and had a FA.

It was evening, I went to my car that was parked in my backyard and turned the engine on. The car started driving backwards on it's own, and I stopped it just before hitting my house. Mother went out of house and started shouting at me. I drove froward, barely passing backyard gate, then I reversed, crashing with something and breaking front window. I finally parked the car and left it, mother said that she wanted to place something on wheels.

Yesterday I had a power issue in my house so I just was able to say only that but here my dream from yesterday where I needed to pee before I fell asleep but I was so tired I fell asleep anyway.

Non-lucid: People are in the beginning stages of turning into zombies I think. That is the close I can figure out but they didn't look like they were injured in anyway but they had become very violent & distant & just plain were acting weird. I was in a nice bar that served food too. Also there is a big park outside. We are stealing food by slipping in through a second entrance through the huge bathroom in the back. This repeats a whole lot. I continuously feel like I need to pee but I just keep going on these trips even though a bathroom is right there over & over. This was a long dream w/ us going through the park & back to the bar like place. (Meesha Cat woke me up so, that was that.)

Today my dreams were just to hard to hold on to. I'm just becoming so busy that I'm exhausted but only get small amounts of sleep. Friday we wrapped up helping our son by a car & took it too him at school then we all drove back to our house where we had went to buy a new tv & stand which is our gift to ourselves & for the grand kids so they can now watch Netflix & DVD's w/ it. Most of today will not be much rest either. More preparing for family for Thanksgiving & my poor husband went to work for his second 6 day week w/ crazy overtime.

I dreamed that I was a mattress that became sentient after a mad scientist infused his evilness in me. I move around by having my soul pick up my body and carry me around. I walked towards some scientists and they found me funny. They discussed about the circumstances of my creation and wondered how a mattress can be evil.