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I was having a very happy time in a deep LD, but it was early in the night and I can not recall much of it. So, if anyone says you can remember lucids as if you were awake, must not experience the same things I do. It had a very artistic feel and I was traing with transforming objects by putting my hands on them and then watching as my will morphs the item. The only part truly worth reporting is a part where the object I was morphing became white power in the shape of a large log. I did not make that happen. The energy that is glowing has an amazing feel. I could put my hands out like you would warming your hands and I could feel something coming off of it.

Vacation
I'm in a vacation house / bungalow kinda thing. There's a toilet a few metres away from the front door. The toilet is out in the open and I'm using it. People keep walking by. To poop like this is one thing, but it's gonna be really weird to clean my butt with other people around. The water level is high, causing the area to be flooded. I'm still sitting on the toilet, but I'll have a floating turd issue later. Eventually I have a conversation while still on the toilet. Someone tells me about a job that he has found for a friend of mine. The job comes with housing and variable pay, depending on performance. The guy asks me if I know what that means and I say I do. He hands me a sheet of paper, maybe 2, with info on it. I take it, trying to keep it dry. I finish up on the toilet and don't even wash my butt. I'm in the water anyways. Floating turd. I try to push the water in a direction away from everyone. There's a little girl with her mom present.

I enter the house and smell sausage. I walk into the kitchen and look around. For some reason I'm checking to see if all the stoves are off. Two of them are not. I turn them both off. More people enter the kitchen and I casually mention it to one guy, who becomes pissed off at 2 guys. He gives them a warning card. One more and they're out. Didn't I get one of those earlier on? I kinda dismissed it. Who is this guy to think that he can kick people out?

There's a brown paper bag with bread in it and a mouse/rat. I take the bag, wanting to put it somewhere far away so that the mouse/rat won't bother us. I start walking away from the house. I'm careful of how I hold the bag, grabbing it lightly with my left hand. I don't want to get bitten, cause I might contract diseases. Eventually the mouse/rat almost escapes, so I just chuck the bag away.

Visa
I have left Indonesia and went back home to the Netherlands, together with my mom. Now I'm lying/sitting on an L shaped couch, when suddenly I realise I have a major issue. I didn't get stamped out of the country. That means I'll be slapped with an enormous overstay if I ever enter the country again. What are my options? Perhaps I can arrange it here? No, I think I need to go back to Indonesia and do so before my visa expires. I need to do it before the 18th of December. Daaamn this is going to be expensive. Right before Christmas too. Somewhere during all this, my friend San walks in and sits down on the couch. He asks me what's up and I tell him I'm kinda busy with figuring out this stamp thing. He asks me questions, but this is really not the moment for it. I'm flipping through my passport to find my latest visa and stamp. Some pages are semi see through, which they are not supposed to be. They have a blue colour. Their appearance is slightly similar to a MYR 1 bill, though darker blue.

Fragment
» I walk by a cupboard or something alike and see some pills for my friend Fer. It's her medication.

» I'm outside in the evening. I'm in a well known party street, I think on Bali. The place is deserted though. What the.. is it because it is a weekday? Nahh that shouldn't matter. Further down the road I do see something.

» My friend Fi asks me how I'm doing with the girls. I tell her nothing is going on.

Still no sleep for over 2 weeks now. I'm going non stop w/ cleaning & duties of all kinds that it is surreal. I had to wreck the grand kids room in my house cuz the Dish Network guy needed to go through that room & I had to move heavy shit for him cuz he was too fat to fit under my house. After which I could've saved time by not dealing w/ that aftermath of cleaning if only my daughters had told me the kids weren't even going to be here this year. I'm sorry but those installation guys need to fit in a fucking crawl space. Then yesterday I had some sort of emotional breakdown in the middle of making Thanksgiving dinner yesterday. I'm in so much pain, utterly exhausted, I'm sad my uncle just died, one of daughters didn't come & none of my grand kids came. I'm just fucking glad it's over. All of those who were there did understand though in the end & were grateful for all I did. Of course I get to do all of this again for Christmas, how exciting~ (eye roll) I'm still in so much pain I just can't explain it. I know I need another surgery but my last surgery from last December still isn't paid off. I'm not doing jack shit today. Okay, I'm done w/ my banter. Going back to watching tv & doing a whole lot of nothing.

I was driving my car to school. It was early morning, there was an unusually dense fog all around. I was driving carefully along a road in-between two villages. For some reason I sidetracked to a forest road and instead of driving through one village I drove all around it. I looked at the fuel meter and it was nearly empty. I wanted to take my phone and call parents to bring me some fuel, but battery of my phone was empty. Then my car turned into a lift powered by electricity. I drove some further.

I am in a musty old public house. There is an old storeroom that is boarded up below, we go down and I remove some of the boards covering the entrance and squeeze through. Inside I retrieve some bottles they contain a golden liquid also a bottle of wine which turns out to be very rare.

On holiday I am at water resort, it is made up of a series of swimming pools, some under cover some in the open air, connected by ladders and water shoots and troughs leading to different areas.
I am stopping on this level, even though older people, mainly woman are making there way up to higher levels I am feeling very weak and can hardly move. A small boy is wearing a big overcoat and I wear one too. We go to wear a blind girl with long dark hair cascading almost like a Medusa except she is beautiful, despite not being able to see her eyes.
I am then in a classroom which is very dark and full of fear as there are bullies there. I find out that the blind girl was blinded by them. In this world you can get away with hurting people as long as you do not kill them.
I am back in time to when the injury first happened and the girls is in a room. Her face is covered with wrapped bandages but her hair still cascades around. I sit in the room with her and read her books and talk to her to keep her company.

It begins at my old house. I've already been in this dream for an hour or so but it's mostly lost.

At my place, Chris has just decided to have a tinder girl over. I get cheesed cause of how shit my tinder game is, so I decide to do the one thing I never did at my childhood home. I sprinted upstairs, ripped open the window, and climbed out onto the roof. The roof was strange. It was soft and steeply angled so I could fall off. After sitting for a while I decided it was too strange to contiue doing. There was another one of thoses rare moments where I closed my eyes while turning around and the dream became entirely sensation based for a few seconds. I went downstairs and out the front door. I decided I would walk to the beach at Queens (does that exist) and just take the day off on the beach. I tried to teleport myself there but no luck.

As I walked down my childhood street I realized how amazingly vivid it all was. A pale blonde girl in a white car pulled up to the house next door and parked perpendicular, so strange. I told her she'll get towed and she didn't care at all. Must be Chris' girl.

The street was so beautiful. The trees once again pulled over the road, sheltering the place like one big cozy pavilion, an insulated time capsule where it all stood frozen. Every garden and yard was so lush, and the colours so vivid it was like a professional colour grade was happening in front of my eyes. As I approached the end of the street, my insanely hot neighbor came out. She was an absolute MILF, proabbly based off of visctorias secret angels, but rocking the mom jeans instead. She saw me and gestured around at how beautiful it all was and we started chatting about just how amazing this neighborhood is. She was enthralled with our chat and invited me in. Her house was absolutely incredible. All beautiful wood and massive high ceilings like a church. There were many floors all in one open concept, hard to explain. We walked through the house and then came upon the hot tub and abck deck. She looked at the tub, turned around, smiled, and said "Let's get drunk".

Fuck yes.

I fly downstairs and grab my bathing suit, I guess I've stayed here before. Kitty is chilling on the stairs back up, and I start petting the shit out of him since I haven't seen the little guy for a long time. I woke up petting my cat. Comfy dream.

Achieved a lucid dream via SSILD and an internal mantra of "I will have a lucid dream". Ended finding the dream character I was looking for in the description that I imagined/expected and hugged her tight. Didn't have the joy of completion that I would have liked but better than another failure.

After that, I don't remember what else that happened in the dream. On a side note, finding things to do in a dream is a bit difficult because there are so many things to do yet I only get one delicate opportunity every 24 hours to try and achieve that goal.

This is not a dream but something memorable that I wanted to note in here. This morning I told my friend I was on my way to go run and "soar like and eagle". My husband leaves 20 minutes before me to walk and I try to catch him. I caught up to him and walked with him for a little bit and for some reason I decided he can keep walking and I was going to run around this big baseball field and try to catch him again. He went straight and I turned left. As I was running around this field I noticed an eagles nest with an eagle in it and I was watching it and then turned right to make my way around the field, as I was running down that street something occurred to me to look to my right and as I looked to my right up in the air only about 20 feet came a huge soaring eagle with tree branches in his talons and flew right toward me. I felt a connection to it and immediately rememberer my comment that I was going to "soar like and eagle" as I watched him go over me he dropped one branch that fell right in front of me, and carried the rest up and over to the nest. It felt so dream like AMAZING!!! I feel so charged right now!

There seems to be a fine line between dreams and reality. I am really noticing a lot of similarities in my dream/real life. I look forward to what is next.

Lots of dreams all night long.

+ fighting on a river with a bad guy lobbing "magic?" balls at me

+ yoda overpowers bad thing and traps it in a rock structure and starts crushing the rocks, he stops because he feels bad. I see the (alligator?) evil thing emerge from the rocks

+ little odd beasts rolling on the floor, kicking a tiny "ball" around, for them this invents soccer, I think

+ ping pong [DREAM SIGN] tournament: the net is too high/tall, it's specialized, they are playing with strong spin. I think if I practice this I could play with strong spin, too, and surprise the people who used to beat me

+ in a cage/cell, there are evil black dogs there pulling people out. The dogs or the people when pulled out start to come uravelled like they're made from stacked frames of metal. If you refuse to go out with the dogs, the alternative is that you will have your feet impaled with long iron hot spikes and it will hurt a lot.

+ in the back of a car with girls travelling up the hills to CH, I'm having semi-lucid thoughts, thoughts about dreaming [faceplant!]. Arrive home, there's lots of pizza [DREAM SIGN] around to eat, my wife takes a bite with my fork, I pull my fork back a bit too forcefully/impatiently from her and I think she'll get mad but doesn't.

+ driving on snowy roads, pulling into a forest clearing where a party is happening, rough/tough guys are gathered around and are toasting someone with lots of shots.

+ [fully vivid (awareness, visuals, tactile), long, stable] Walking through corridors with oddly slanted floors, around corners. End up in a room with a girl in bed and ST ensues. She's naked & lying on the bed, I'm kneeling at her head, and I start a long, slow, stable, erotic oral trip from her head and slowly work my way down to her (ahem) and spend some time there. Then I notice that the door to the room is open and there's a girl in the next bedroom (white/blonde hair) just staring at us. I say "I'm sorry, I need to get up and close the door". The peeping Jane doesn't want the door to close, she opens it and now she's sitting at a desk just outside the door to the room. I get angry and go speak to her firmly saying "I'll come talk to you when we're done, but for now LEAVE US ALONE!" and return to the ST girl. She's now fully dressed and wants me to continue, I want to protest and say "but the view is part of the fun!". I say it's time for me to get some attention. The ST girl goes to take a shower. I realize I can't recall taking a shower, I may have a stinky butt & (ahem) so I'd better go take a shower, too. On my way out of the room I spy my things strewn about on the floor and I realize I can't remember where my instrument case is, do I need to go find it? I walk through the oddly slanting and narrow corridors, but all the bathrooms are busy. I come to one room and there's an odd woman there I open the door look in it's not a traditional shower more of a sauna and I go in with quick views of that woman again and I'm trying to wash my butt and I'm digging around in there and I pull out chunks of the typical stuff there and it's really sticky and I'm trying to wash it off of my hands and I'm having a hard time doing that. In the meanwhile there are two girls outside the door which has a window in it not providing for any privacy and I'm now trying to wash my (ahem) but it feels really odd like it's swollen in a strange/bad way and I look down and it does not look or feel familiar: some parts are too large and some parts are too small.

I'm trying to get back to the room and the ST girl so we can continue. I can't find the way back. I'm back outside again in a snowy environment and now I'm walking on top of a snowy hill and I see dad's with kids and the dad's are working with shovels to shape the really hard-packed icy snow into a nice trail for their kids to sled down. I walk around the lip of this hill and find myself drifting backwards through the air, I expect at any moment to hit a tree. Some kids are talking with their dad asking "Will the snow still be here when we get back from Paris?". I'm then standing/climbing up a mountain of toys (hockey games?) which are slipping out from under me as I climb, I catch a glimpse and I realize I'm at a particular intersection of streets a few miles from my CH, I catch a brief glipmse of a park [FALSE] below me down the street. There are some girls here lying down and I goose them a bit and lie on them but I'm focusing on getting back to my beloved original ST girl.

Back in the ST girl hallway again there are people walking past me. One of them I think is her, I can't tell for sure, I look at her face and it's partially familiar, she notices me but walks past me, I take hold of her right arm and turn her towards me and ask, "is it you?" She indicates yes, but says (as means of explanation of why we can't be together), something like "(there is?) a husband". I say "Oh," disappointed, and let her go. I look at her hands as she leaves and I don't see a ring. I realize she probably is referring to the fact that I'm married and I feel a bit guilty.

1. We had some kind of party for work and it was at a lake in the early evening and it was already starting to get dark. I was was wandering around looking for where I was supposed to go to my party and I was alone and in heels walking with my heels sinking in the grass wishing I had sandals when I looked down at the ground sandals appeared and I slid my feet into them and they fit perfectly, and they were cute :-). I heard someone screaming and crying on the other side of the lake and looked over and saw an ambulance lights. A man walked by me and saw me looking and told me a little boy had just drowned over there...my heart sank and being I lost my grandson to drowning I just felt this horrible sensation and wanted to leave when I realized this is a dream and I needed to continue, this would be moving past this nightmare.... I continued on and found my party. I am shy and not big into parties and I am there alone. Not sure why I am there so I asked why am I here? I didn't get an answer but a guy who retired from my work a year ago who I barely knew walked up to me and asked if I needed someone to hang out with because I looked so uncomfortable. I looked closely at his face and it was him but his eyes were not his eyes. These eyes were familiar to me and suddenly this sense of peace came over me. I could feel the love pouring out of him and I got all tingly. Then when we were standing along the lake watching fireworks the man was standing in front of me and he was now my size and I could only see the back of his head, I pulled myself up close to him and just wrapped my arms around him and held him from behind. Great moment.
2. I had this short clip where I had this long electrical cord and I was untangling all of the knots. I was giggling saying story of my life lol.

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Long time no lucid dreams, so I decided to try WILD again. I've always been really bad at it, but why not keep trying. Woke up at 2am and decided to read a few articles from Deep Lucid Dreaming - Wake up in your dreams for a happier, more creative life. Learn how to lucid dream and transform your dreamlife After 20 minutes I put my phone away, lay on my back and started with meditation. Must say this time it felt like ages, I was waiting for my usual hypnagogia to kick in but for a long time, nothing. Then finally the usual stuff started to happen - voices, sentences, scenes.... I remember this fat guy's face showing me some medieval painting... I was excited because I knew that my body was falling asleep. Now at this point I usually fail to balance it and just doze off. But this time I tried really hard.



First thing that materialized was a cute girl with long hair, wearing khaki shorts and a shirt. She was standing in front of me ... then I noticed I'm waiting in line for something, it looked like a typical american high school. My boyfriend is in the line behind me. No doubt this is a dream. I'm not overly excited, I'm juts pleased with the outcome.

I'm thinking the girl is really hot and my boyfriend might like to look at her butt too. I grab her, lift her up and put her behind me, so she's standing in front of him now. She has the softest skin and gives me a confused look, but she's smiling.

Now there are two muscular guys in front of me. They look like twins, only one has blond hair. Immediately as I see them I realize I don't like them one bit. They're all muscles, gel in their hair, I can actually smell their cheap cologne.

I am normally a very peaceful person. I hate bullying and would never do it. But now, being lucid, I feel like I can experiment. Especially since I find them both so unlovable.

They are both like two meters tall and they're minding their own business. I push one as hard as I can, he barely even stumbles. And I shout at him (which is SO unlike me) "What's your problem??"

He turns around (at this point I am really curious as this is probably my first interaction with a dream character where I am fully focused on him) and gives me the same confused look and a soft smile. He doesn't say anything, just stares at me. I don't know why but that really irritates me. Maybe because it's so boring, he's like a dummy.

And then I start. I pick on them, I say ugly things to them, I'm trying all I can to see how they react and to get even the slightest hint of emotion or intelligence from them. But they just stand there, let me do whatever I do to them, smiling like idiots.

I remember at one point I pinch one and shout "You like that, bitch?!" No response.

I proceed to take off their pants, hoping they'll get embarrassed. None of this feels sexual at all, it's just me messing with them.

So now they stand there with their pants off and the stupid smiles on their faces. I grab the pants and decide to run away and hide them. My boyfriend runs with me. We get home and hide the clothes in our wardrobe. I feel disappointed that they didn't even try to chase us.

My boyfriend starts folding his own clothes nicely, just arranging the wardrobe and stuff. "I'm so glad we are in my dream and not the guys' dream," I say. Then I get a bit worried, wondering if this is really my dream and not someone else's dream. What if I am a dream character and don't know?

I look at my boyfriend who's still folding his t-shirts. "Are you dreaming?" I ask. He says he is not sure.

"Well, what are you doing now?" I ask him again. He looks at the t-shirt in his hands and thinks for a bit and then says "I'm stacking coal. .... I guess that means I am not dreaming."

I start giggling because I find it so adorable that my dream boyfriend can't tell that he's dreaming and considers stacking coal his usual daily activity. And then, of course, I wake up.

I am living in a fairly big, yet very underpopulated city in the middle of the desert.
I walk through the streets with a DC who mght be my father though i'm not sure as he didnt look like him.
Food and water was very scarce so when I found a cactus I got ready to cut it open for the milk inside.
While I was about to get my hunting knife out of my pocket I noticed that I was constantly getting hit by small objects on my body which felt similiar to, -and made me first think that it was- a hailstorm.
Then I remembered that I was in the desert so it obviously had to be a sandstorm which it then ended up beeing.
A group of 2 guards (looked similiar to the guards in the new Dishonored game) approached us and ordered all civilians to immidiately return home because of the storm.
When I was about to move to return home my head felt incredibly heavy as if my whole body was getting pushed down by a tremendous invisible force.
At first I thought something was wrong with me, then one of the guards shouted for everyone to get down to the ground, which was an order followed by everyone around, all guards as well.
Then the sandstorm became massive for a moment and I couldnt see anything except brown all while there was a incredibly deafening weird sound was in the air.
When it subsided I remembered that my over 90 year old grandma was sitting in her living room on the second floor of a building and I became very worried about her so I immidiately got on my way to check on her.
While on the way the other DC I was with kept lagging behind as if hurt but he assured me he was fine so I kept moving and was soon on my way alone.
While in transit to my home I somehow learned that the oppresive deafening sound that glued me to the ground was caused by something absolutely massive (in the dream I thought of some enormous creature older than mankind. I dunno, maybe Cthulhu) becoming free in an ice layer deep under the earth (dont ask me why there was a huge ice layer right below the desert).
I saw a cut open model of the earth zoomed to a big layer of ice where inside was a huge purple crystalline structure, trapped for aeons.
I had the feeling a very meaningful revelation and change for the world was about to begin.

Then I returned home and saw that my grandma was completely fine and didnt even notice anyting strange happened at all.

1. I was sitting in a desk inside of what seemed to be a rather normal classroom when I decided to do a reality check. I look down at my tattoo and see that it is really fucked up in that it just looks really messy and that many parts of it have peeled off. "Holy shit, what the hell" I say out loud in a rather highly distressed tone. Instead of realizing that I was dreaming like I normally do, I become worried. Suddenly my friend Emily walks through the classroom door and comes to my desk. "Don't worry, I can fix it" she told me. With that she got on her knees and somehow got one green, orange, and black marker. She then proceeded to draw my tattoo back in with these 3 colors, with which she randomly alternated between. I remember just being really concerned with just how stupid it was starting to look. Sure, she had filled it back in, but it looked even more messy than before.
Parts of the letters on my tattoo were in the color orange and green, instead of the black they should've been. On top of that, Emily had managed to smear all of these markers all over my tattoo so that now it could've passed as a kid's drawing or something of the like. "All done" she said. "Okay thanks" I replied. With that she then got up and walked out of the classroom. "Jesus Christ this looks horrible. I wonder what people will think when they see it" I thought to myself. Just then something inside of me made me want to turn around, and so I did. At the back of the classroom(I was sitting on the first row of desks all the way up front) I saw A, and she was already looking at me with a wide smile. Immediately my heart started pounding and I was filled with emotions of joy as my stomach was filled with butterflies.
I get up out of my desk and walk to the back of the class where A is sitting. I see an empty desk right next to her and sit in it. "Glad to see you again" A said with bright eyes. "You have no idea" I told her as I failed to contain my smile. "Hey, what's your snapchat? I want to add you" she told me. "I don't know, but I'll show you my snapcode so you can add me that way" I replied. A already had her phone out, but I didn't, so I reached into my pocket and got it out. As I turned it on to open up snapchat, something messed up and I remember it taking me a minute or two to actually open up the app. Once I did, I went to my snapcode and showed A, and she scanned it and added me. I remember mentioning my score being around 22,000, and A told me hers was 30,000 or something like that. But when I went to look at my score it only said 2,002 or something like that and I felt a little ashamed(lmao).
When I looked at A's score she only had 3,000. We sat and continued to talk for a while longer, and once again, I made her laugh a lot. At one point I remember her looking me in the eyes with the most beautiful smile I've ever seen(God I mention this so much, I know) and she told me "I can tell we're going to become really close" and then she giggled. In this moment I couldn't help but adore her giggling, but I also felt a wave of happiness come over me because of what she had told me. "For so long", the thought echoed in my mind.

Note: my tattoo is now showing up in basically all of my dreams every night, even the ones I don't journal. Also, she is starting to show up in my dreams at least once a night. I'm making progress and damn does it feel good.

I was in a big, air-conditioned dark room, where someone was giving a presentation. Numerous people including me were sitting on the floor watching the presentation. The presenter asked for volunteers, and me and someone I recognize as a childhood friend got up. We were given a mathematical matrix on the screen and apparently we were supposed to use that as a clue to move to the front, with the people sitting blocking our way and modeled by the matrix somehow. My friend knew how to do this but I didn't, and he beat me the first time. The second time I just guessed my way to beating him. I told him it was dumb luck and he was amazed, because he had solved the matrixes.

My dream transitioned to me using an elevator. It went down to a fabricator unit of some sort where the elevator door stayed open as the box was moved around and machines cleaned and painted it while I was still inside. Then once the box was put back I noticed that the elevator had gotten bigger and people were now inside with me. There was an adult Blank overlooking a young schoolboy with a broken nose lying on the elevator floor not responding to anything, but still awake. The blank told me about how the schoolboy was punched really hard in the face and we should all make sure he's okay. The blank also said he was a cute kid. The other person in the elevator was Darth Vader but he didn't do anything interesting.

I got out of the elevator into a bleak corridor that reminded one of parking lots or abandoned office buildings. I only took a few steps before Slenderman appeared in front of me, so I ran back to the elevator and closed it. The lights went out in the elevator as it moved, and we all went to sleep inside it.