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(more jetlag dreaming)

In which I show off in front of people I knew as a teenager, then turn into a child...

I'm in my childhood home once again. The dining room is a giant swimming pool. The only light in the room comes up through the water, a greenish glowing light that casts wave patterns on the dark walls. The room echoes with a bubbling sound, as if we are listening to an aquarium filter.

S is sitting at one edge of the pool, leading a meeting about something very important. A couple dozen people are sitting on underwater benches as if they were all in a hot tub. They have clip boards and are taking notes. S is making a presentation. I should be in attendance. I feel guilty for arriving late. There are a few other stragglers and she calls us over without naming any of us individually. I know she's done this so that I'm not singled out. I walk around the perimeter of the pool, but I don't see a place for me to sit. I will have to join someone else. I look at the people gathered, hoping to find someone who will let me sit with them. I don't know or trust any of the gathered people very well; I have not seen most of them since I was a child. S has stayed in touch with more people from our home town than I have.

After walking most of the way around the pool, I finally settle on DWG. The alternative is to draw attention to myself by acknowledging that there is no place for me to sit and causing a scene by making others move. Even though S is a very close friend and the meeting is important to her, I feel like I can't do this, so I take my chances that DWG will accept me. I haven't seen him since we were teenagers, but he's still looking hip and attractive. Most of the other men present have a frumpy middle-aged look about them. I dive into the pool, swim over to DWG and slide up to rest in his lap. I lean back so that my head is against his chest and my arms are draped across his legs. From the outside, I look casual and confident, as if DWG and I have an existing relationship. Internally I'm hoping he won't reject me. I'd be humiliated.

He plays along. He accepts me as casually as I approach him. He puts his hand on my chin and turns my face up to kiss him. It's electrifying. I'm happy that we still have so much chemistry decades later. I know that the public display is inappropriate, but I'm also enjoying the attention. Of course the mature part of my personality knows that no one cares what we've been up to since high school and that making out in a meeting is annoying and selfish, but the sneering and self-absorbed side is satisfied to show off. We are beautiful. Our lives are interesting. High school was worse for us than the rest of them, but we've made it well into adulthood without their dullness. And now we're alive with sexual electricity.

Everyone else disappears and the dream just becomes a typical sex dream except we're in the water so my body feels light in his lap. I'm facing him now and his hands are on my hips. But when I look down at his penis, I see that there are feathers sticking up, like a comb, on the head. He notices that I'm surprised. He says, "that's why it's called a cock".

Now we are on a school bus. We are younger. DWG pulls up his pants and I sit next to him on a bus seat. I look out the window at a cow pasture and see a bull mount a heifer. I look back at DWG, but now he is JAB. This makes sense because we are children. I look down at my shoes with delight- they dangle above the bus floor. JAB tells me that I've missed my stop.

I grab my backpack and walk towards the front of the bus. The driver is Ms. L, as obese and brash as ever. She's smoking a cigarette and thumping her hands on the steering wheel to Don't Mess With My TuTu, blaring with static from the portable radio sitting on the dash. I tell her that she's passed my house without letting me out. She responds that it's my own fault. If I hadn't been sucking on a boy's face, I would've noticed.

She stops the bus right there in the cow pasture and tells me to get out. It's only a mile or so home, and I know the way. I climb over the barbed wire, but my skirt gets hung and tears. I slosh through the muddy field with a torn skirt, kicking the crawdaddy mounds along the way.

In which I help a dead girl find her remains and lead two living girls to a seance...

We're in the main hallway of my childhood home. A young girl is with me. Her blonde hair is pulled back in a ponytail and held with a scrunchy. She's leading me around the corner from the foyer and into the carpeted hall to the bathroom where she will show me where her remains are hidden. She can't touch anything herself since she's dead already. I open the bathroom door as she directs, and she points at the base of the tub which is made up of two porcelain squares, caulked together. I've never noticed that they are walls to hollow compartments. The girl insists that I push on the square to the right, and the compartment opens, revealing a baking tray with rectangular pieces of pizza. I look more closely and see that these pieces of pizza are her bones.

I walk into my parents' room where there are two other girls, but these are alive. The dead girl insists that these two living girls are key witnesses to her murder. We must only convince them to walk down the main hall and into the dark living where a medium is holding a conference of ghosts where they must testify. The girls are reluctant to trust me, and they are terrified of the dead girl. As I'm trying to persuade them, Buster runs into the room with the pizza-bones in his mouth. I wrestle the remains from him, but they are already destroyed. The dead girl and I rush to the bathroom to see if there are any remains to salvage. Most of the evidence is destroyed. The dead girl starts to cry, and I feel guilty and foolish for leaving the door open. Since the dead girl is a ghost with no material substance, I can't comfort her. I just watch her cry. I'm useless.

Then the two living girls peer around the corner into the bathroom. Seeing the dead girl cry, they feel less scared. She is their age, and they are compassionate. The bolder of the two enters the bathroom, and I explain the situation. She gets down on her hands and knees and looks into the empty tub compartment. She reaches her hand deep inside and pulls out a small human jaw bone, intact with a complete set of teeth. It's more than enough remains to both identify the dead girl and to use as evidence at the ghost conference. Now I've only got to convince the girls to follow us into the living room.

The thrill of the mystery motivates them now, but they are still afraid of what awaits us in the living room. It's dark, so all we can see are the candles and swaying figures. We can't tell who is living or dead. I assure the girls that it doesn't matter which are the ghosts and which are the living as they are all harmless people who only wish to work for justice. But as I'm saying it, I realize that I have no idea if this is true or not. I could be leading these two girls into danger. I'm surprised at myself for being so reckless with young children. It doesn't seem right, and I pause at the front door of the main hall. I realize that the responsible adult thing to do would be to grab the hands of the two living girls, throw open the front door, and run- leaving the poor dead girl to the ghosts where she belongs now. But the two girls now are excited by the thrill. Rather than being terrified, they are now tantalized. They've fallen into a pattern in which the bolder girl claims that she is not afraid and will go ahead. The more timid girl urges her on but stays behind herself. The bolder girl, though she's just as scared, refuses to lose face and so steps forward. The more timid girl follows, holding her hand. And like this, the two girls step into the dark living room. I should have taken control of the situation like a grownup but instead I stand with the dead girl and just watch them.

A medium is holding a seance. The room is full of ghosts. It's cold and dark. The two girls start to tell their story. Immediately, the house starts to shake. I hear a bell ringing and my heart jumps.

I get out of bed and walk into the dining room. The bell rings again. I pause in front of the table and look around. I'm disoriented. I try to assess where I am and what is ringing. I think to myself, I'm alone. I don't know anything else. I don't know where I am.

Suddenly, my mother-in-law steps past me. I recognize her, but I'm still disoriented. She tells me that she'll get the door. I still stand there, disoriented. I understand the words. I realize that the ringing is the door bell. But I don't really understand what is going on. My husband walks in. I realize I look foolish. I try to explain that I'm so sleepy that I was confused about the sound. The words feel heavy in my mouth. I can tell by the looks on their faces that I'm not making sense. I decide to shut up before I talk in my sleep. I turn around and walk back to the bedroom.

Had a lucid this morning via the fundamentals of lucid dreaming. Dream Journal, Reality Checks, WBTB and MILD.

This was a part of before yesterdays dream.

I was laying on a bed somewhat aware it was a dream but I felt kind of odd. It felt like there was a little girl and older women(30s?) Inside of me. "I feel like I'm three people"I said out loud. But just as I was about to get up the dream shifted.

I was mindlessly watching a scene unfold in a Inyuasha setting. It was morning and there was people in indigenous garments with patterns sitting by a bar table and observing their clothes. The scene than went to Inyuasha who was sitting near the tree next to kagome who looked like a mesh of kikiyo and haru from Rurouni Kension. But when sango came back with Maroku, kagome got up and shot an arrow on a ivory treasure on the ground. She than began to cheer on a man who was trying to complete a challenge. "Kagome? She never cheers anyone on. She's not acting like herself today". The group than continued to watch her concerned.

Nightmare

I was in a house with two guys who were running around and messing up the place for fun. Suddenly I ended up coming across a pill bottle that could talk and wanted me to overdose on it. I stopped it from flinging pills into my mouth, than it took its own pills and began to lose conscience. I told the guys that since I was lucid I would revive the thing and make a happy ending. One of them seemed excited about the outcome but than the other guy went to the kitchen and began chopping fish clumsily while laughing. After I revive the pill thing, the other guy joined him and while they started chopping nothing one lunged at his wrist and the other at his own stomach.The place than began to be slightly flooded by black liquid as the bigger one pressed his ripped wrist towards me to feel. Uncomfortable by their excitement I tried to change their personality but the dream shifted.

I was now looking at a lamp thinking I had woken up. But in the lamp wire a blue ball of energy began to flow. Seeing this I became scared that a fire would ensue. I unplugged it unsure if I would get electrocuted than felt the room temperature get hotter from an angle. Hearing the ambulance scared me more.

Another false awakening happened. But when I tried to turn on the lamp the light switch broke. I than looked to my side and saw a big wooden dresser and another bed to the side of it. Looking to the slightly open door I became frightened and asked to wake up. I woke up after that.

I went to bed really early last night, around 7:30. Woke up at 4, watched some TV, fell asleep on the sofa while hoping for some HH or a LD, then moved back to bed.

Laying on my stomach, still thinking of LDs, I felt something coming on. Started pushing my face in the pillow. At first it was just a normal pillow but after a few seconds, it gave way and I was pushing my head through it. I knew I'm in transition.

My legs started to rise higher and higher, while I encouraged the sensation. It was weird and so super cool, and I knew it's not natural for my body to bend backwards in my back area. I enjoyed it very much. Thank you!

I recall two fragments. The first one is more extense:

- I was in the top of what it looked a transmission tower. I think it was in the building process, and we were working to finish it that day but idk why i was working on it since i've never done that. Also the tower had a great altitude, maybe it was the tallest in the world. From up there you could see people on the ground as if they were ants.

It was something like this:



But i was up there with no security harness and i had to climb down since there were no stairs. I realized at that moment i was freightened to altitude but that wouldnt help me to go down, where i wanted to be. Since i knew i would be better off down in the ground than up there, and that it was more dangerous to stay there than go down, still freightened i began climbing down. It was weird but for some reason i wouldnt let go of the fear, and at those moments i was paralized at least for a few seconds, thinking about fear.

In reality even though very high altitudes kinda scare me im not that freightened, and im ok with normal altitudes. But now i see this is one my major dream signs.

I dont know how but after a moment i was in the ground. It was night and i was in a fantasy city, like if it was a Disney movie. Fat guys, like from comics of capitalism, came out of houses and made shows like if it was a musical, it was really weird. But i was cool since even though i didnt become lucid i knew there was something odd, like it wasnt real or it was like a production for a movie or something similar.

The second fragment:

I was in a dungeon maze. It was well built, but it was dark. I had a torch but its light was very weak. Suddenly i found myself in a pit with a lot of monsters (bugs) attacking me. I could survive a wave of them but i had to get out of there soon.

Hi everyone!
I had a dream last night.

I don't remember much of it, but I remember part of it. I was walking with someone, not anyone I recognised, but I got the feeling that the two of us were friends walking home from either a group activity, or perhaps shopping, as we were carrying bags with us.
Part way along the walk I noticed a person following behind us. On second glance he was carrying a grenade..! I was instantly panicked, and tried to get us to move faster. The person behind us was right on our tail though, and he suddenly pressed the button on the grenade. I knocked him down the hill with his bomb, but unfortunately he grabbed my friend's leg, and took her down the hill with him!

I then woke up, or so I thought.. I got out of bed like usual, and began to move over to my door. While I did so a shadowy figure followed straight behind me!

Then, I properly woke up!

no memory of my dream, but i remember having a false awakening at "3:00", pinching and trying to breathe through my nose and actually being able to, but waking up instantly once realizing what that meant. for some reason, i could only breathe through one nostril.

dreamt that i was playing a 3d game on a handheld. the game took me on horseback to a forest. in the game i was a samurai.

i looked away from the screen and i was in a completely white walled classroom. there was a teachers desk and a chalkboard. desks were sprawled without care. my friend since 6th grade, R3D, was in a desk that was aimed towards mine next to me.R3D challenged me to a pokemon battle and i noticed all the other desks looked as if we moved them out of the way just to be together.

back in the game, i opened my menu to a Pokemon Black version 2 type menu with a full party of 6 Pokemon. my favorite pokemon, Lucario, was there and i distinctly remember having a psyduck and snover but for some reason snover had no feet or legs.

i determined that i then only had 2 good useable pokemon.

i told R3D "im probably gonna lose"

at the same time an acquaintance, 3R8, and the girl who always hung out with him, and someone else came in through from the right side of the room.

side note: there were 2 windows showing pitch black outside.

the group sat behind us. 3R8 crossed his arms and leaned back. his girl sat, rested her arm horizontally on the desk rested her head on her arm, and positioned the other one so her elbow met her opposite hand and her corresponding hand rubbed the back of her head. she sat there smiling at me. then, R3D proclaimed to 3R8 "yeah, i know pokemon better than you"

3R8, looking annoyed (or maybe cocky), said "R3D, you dont know anything"

as i turned back to my game, which had exited out of the menu somehow, i heard R3D try to somehow correct 3R8 by saying"no, i know..... geometry" and the group collectively groaned.

BACK TO THE GAME HOWEVER! i was in the forest and came across the main villain for the base version of Wizard 101 (the 1st version) and he took me back to his castle. i saw around his castle for a bit from the outside and then i saw him on the opposite side of a drawbridge . he was putting sticks and boards of wood on it. the drawbridge closed and there was an anarchy symbol on it.

i heard the voice of a little girl asking "is that necronomicon?" twice, but she seemed to be omnipresent because i heard her coming from everywhere, but she was nowhere to be seen.

the Wizard asked me to gather items for him, and i accepted his quest

i ended up in a field.

as i was about to sprint into the distance to the open grassy plains with a clear blue sky on a sunny day, i paused the game. tried to fix the controls, but the menu was now more like monster hunter Tri. and despite the game system being a handheld. there were guides for wiimote controls.

Had a dream that i was in the CoD. BO2 Drone map and camped in a building. i was looking down a reflex sight with a red dot reticle.

well, considering im starting my recall back up, its no surprise that i dont remember much about this dream, but i did have two.

1st: i saw the coconut hair guy from Stranger things in a ghostbusters outfit. we were in a dark room and he was really petrified of something. the atmosphere in the dream was ominous as well.

2nd: i was doing something on an electronic device in a cramped room with about the size of a capsule hotel. my sister was with me in her pajamas and was positioned in a really awkward way in which my right elbow couldnt help but jab at her lower back. she mumbled something about not putting my elbow in her butt . the atmosphere in this dream was a sort of awe about the room and weird about my sister.

Fell asleep at: 10:43 PM

Woke up at: 6:00 AM


Dream:

Looking up random crap on my laptop, I begin to have thoughts of deja vu, "What if this is a dream?" I thought to myself. "That's ridiculous." I also pondered. But, I had to confirm my suspicions somehow. The internet is already a weird and, frankly, terrifying place, anything that seemed odd could be interpreted as 'expected'. So I just told myself I was dreaming, and I was.


Nothing specifically tipped me off to the nature of the dream itself. I just went with my 'gut instincts', luckily those gut instincts were correct. People didn't act like they should in the dream, places that I had never even seen before were just outside my neighborhood, but I digress.


I got up from my bed, when I realized that my vision was utter garbage. I told the dream to improve my vision, but to no avail. I try again, no dice. I went towards my desk and grabbed a comically oversized and uncomfortable pair of glasses, which helped a little bit. Then I try to fly. I begin to vibrate aggressively for a couple seconds before blasting through the roof. Somehow, I end up back in my room, unscathed and just as anxious.


My sister and her boyfriend open the door. I tell my sister ecstatically, "(No I'm not giving her name away), you're in a DREAM!!" She rolls her eyes (Of course), and her boyfriend just sorta shrugged it off. My other sister is also there, but for some odd reason, she's pregnant (This isn't the case in waking life). We walk out on the town upon my request.


There's this security guard lady who's checking people into a large building. She lets everyone else go and I go last. I try to phase through the gate, ubt she checks me in just as the gate opens for me. So, that didn't go so well.

We wind up in this train station/mall type area with a boatload of people all around. I try to follow my sister and her boyfriend through the crowded building, but increasingly lose distance. Then, out of the blue, a lady carrying a bazillion shopping bags and an overloaded shopping cart, all of which say "That's The Joke", comes barreling by.

I wake up right after that.



Notes:

1. This is actually the first extended lucid ream I had. Ever. It lasted about 20 or so minutes long and I didn't need to perform even one reality check along the way.

2. I kept the same level of lucidity throughout, and just sorta went along with the dream. I think it might've been a layer 2 or 3 lucid dream, which is astounding for me.

Inspired by my desire to somehow rid myself of my sleep-mumbling habit, in light of having to share a room with someone for the next year, I return! I hope to use lucid dreaming to find my dream guide and try to find someway to solve this, among with all the other wonderful things that come with lucid dreaming. Also, my newfound interest in horror films and books, being able to lucid dream may come in handy should I find myself at the grips of one of the serial killers I read about each day.

I am not yet in the habit to doing reality checks yet. I usually do reality checks by pinching my nose and breathing through it, or trying to push my hand through my other hand and looking at my fingers and such.

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I was going to see a show that Ethan and Hila was holding at a very large amphitheatre. The theatre had many red seats ascending. I met them, also.

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After watching a YouTube video about 'gang stalking', I dreamt of gang stalking on another level. These huge government co-operations had set up huge Hollywood-like sets to completely control and manipulate their victims. The victims because they were aware that they were being stalked were drove to insanity because they were unable to escape it. It was as though they were in the Truman Show. The victim was forced to suicide, sadly. The entity that gang stalked the person then moved on to get ready to control their next victim.

[dream signs]: Celebrities

I was riding a bus, but it was really more of a school bus. There were children there too but I really only recall one inparticular. She was young, maybe no older than elementary school. She had brown hair and it was in pigtails. We were sitting at the back of the bus, she across from me. And she was being really hyper and throwing stuff (candy or trash I cancan't remember) and I remember saying something to her and she gave me a hug. It was the kinf of cute little hug kids give you when they think you're the best person in the world.

I don't remember much about this dream. I just remember that I was outside of building along a coastline. It was the hour of Twilight and music began to play in the background. This girl sang along with it. She sang "Do you have what it takes to kill me?" over and over again. She was daring me to kill her or at the very least, daring me to try. I never figured out who this girl was or what her deal was.

Here's the music I heard. It's not the greatest, I just kinda threw it together: https://soundcloud.com/ghostchild191/untitled