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Woke up after many hours of sleep, and as falling asleep again, I get an HH of me walking. I'm in a building and it's very dark, but still can see. My first instinct is to get out. But then I remember that I wanted to go into the dark places. To confront my fear and to see what it is. So without hesitation, I turn and start walking towards some other rooms and to more rooms after. The dark grey turned into black, but as I went to it, I could still see a little bit. There was nothing, just empty rooms. I am not scared, mostly just curious.

Date of Dream: FRI 13 APR - 2018



Dream No. 309 - An Injured Patient

I don't remember much of this dream. From what I can remember, I was injured by something but I forgot what it was. I think it was due to the fact that Logan from SML was causing metaphorical harm and this manifested in a physical injury. I ended up having to go to hospital and the staff there confirmed that I was in a critical condition. When Logan found out that I was really badly hurt, he came to see me at my bedside. That's all I can remember about this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None



Dream 309: Competition Results

Competition Night: 12
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Estimated Length of Dream (Lucid Only): N/A
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

Points For This Entry: 0.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)

+ Previous Total: 6.0
Total Accumulated Points: 6.5

Working at a desk, i'm day dreaming then look at all the stuff I have to tidy up. Loads and loads of stickers of dogs Oo. A teacher comes over to me and tells me she knows i'm not needed for assembly as im expecting a phone call from my mother. I wonder what she is talking about. I go to ask her then wonder what day it is and where I should be. There are a load of people standing there so I ask them, but they all look puzzled as none of them know what day it is. I am awoken by the phone ringing.

I couldn't reach something so I used dark powers to get it. This looked quite cool, shadows/black dust swarmed together either side and picked up the object. Very like Valkyrie Cain's Necromancer powers (If you've read any of the skuldugery books).

EXT. FAIRGROUNDS - NIGHT

I run my hands over a scale model of a city park on a hill. Fuzzy green grass, modern white architecture. The model is partially mushy and partially solid; my hands slip through the atomic lattice in some places but encounter rigidity in others. This serves as the dream sign, I suppose, because I am lucid. Except this time I don't remember the aha moment of recognition, only a constant knowledge of my conscious state. (Is that good?)

I see my doppelgänger and run to him. He does not particularly resemble me, but I know somehow he is a second "instance" of myself--congealed from the implicate order, the collective unconscious (however these things are done). I grab him by the shoulders and exult, "I'm dreaming! And I'm going to dance with a pretty girl!"

I leave my double standing bewildered on the fair grounds and begin dancing in place to conjure up a partner. It takes a while but eventually she's there. She is shy and doesn't want to dance at first, preferring to remain seated. With gentle persuasion, she rises and I lead her by the hand to the speakers where the music plays. There are no other dancers, but I waste time looking for the perfect patch of pavement on which to begin dancing with my new girlfriend and we never get started because my alarm clock wakes me up.

I curse the clock. But the lucidity and purposeful dreaming lasted a relatively long time compared to earlier dreams. I'm improving my stability!

Lesson: In dreams, as in life, don't waste time waiting to find perfect conditions—create optimum conditions if possible, or make do with what's available in the moment.

Not much to note, so I may as well pile on two days worth of dreams.

Log 1077 - Zamasu's and Gowasu's Dialogue, Angry Time Stop Suplex, Unexpected Guest, Warehouse Humming, Private Mail Service, and Breakfast Chemical Plant Zone Scraps
Created Wednesday 11 April 2018

Scrap Group 1
Watching Dragon Ball Super. This was mostly clips of Zamasu and Gowasu arguing about the role of mortals.

Working in my old job at the gas station. One of my former bosses, Tony, was busy at the register. I offered to help there, but was told to man the coolers instead. Later on, when the store got super packed, I noticed a thief sneaking out. Enraged, I stopped time, during which I ran after the guy to suplex him. I was almost aware, but the dream ended too quickly for me to act on as much.

At home upstairs. There was poor lighting. Later on, an unexpected guest barged in the room. Think it was my brother Anton's old friend Yusef?

Outside a warehouse during late afternoon. I start humming Desert Ruins Zone from Sonic Lost World.

At a gas station with several others. I found a poster advertising private mail service.

Wandering in a live version of Chemical Plant Zone from Sonic 2. My brother, Norm, and nephew, Aleph, were there with me. There was a long sequence of us getting shot into a series of corkscrewing air ducts. At one point, we fell into a vat of assorted food stuffs, which were then funneled into a conveyor belt below. As we got drained, Norm gave indications to hit various levers in the perimeter. We then got safely filtered to a shallow channel, which we escaped. Furthermore, our tampering resulted in some foods combining into what Norm referred to as "breakfast hotdogs", which were just hotdogs topped with scrambled eggs. My brother and nephew seemed to enjoy the food, but I found it a bit salty and rather predictable in flavor.

Log 1078 - TF2 Imbalance and Cat Teacher Scraps
Created Thursday 12 April 2018

Scrap Group 1
Playing TF2. There's something about imbalanced classes, and of hamburgers.

Supposedly working as a teacher in a (elementary/middle?) school. There's an odd but nice looking brunette co-worker, of whom was not only cripplingly shy, but also vocalized exclusively in cat meows. And yet, she was somehow superbly competent at her job, enough to draw great envy among the rest of the staff. Various other teachers harassed her during lunch by literally taking her meal right out of her hands, but she was much too timid to even be frustrated by that. Later, something about climbing a mountain.

Before bed I read a lot of the old Task of the Month and Task of the Year posts. It was really inspiring and set a good example for me of remembering dream goals when I become lucid.
(((personal infoz)))Round 1 of Dreams

I am not sure when it was, but at some point, someone said, “17, Thanks for noticing this.” Maybe something to do with an address.

Cooking

(((PERSONAL INFOZ))) was in this part. There was some kind of cooking area. Someone wanted me to bring over all of a certain kind of food for cooking. (((personal infoz)))

Long Day

I dreamed that it had been a long day. I was in the (((personal infoz)))gymnasium with (((personal infoz))) as the teacher. It was around 8 P M and I hadn’t eaten yet that day. And they were still pushing us to keep doing stuff. I got mad about it. (((personal infoz))). (((personal infoz)))Fish

I was out in the water. (((personal infoz))) told me that it was okay to catch one fish, but if I wanted a different fish, I would have to replace it. My hands got all cut up from the fish. It must have had sharp scales. I remember looking at my hands and the skin was cut off really badly, leaving a lot of red parts exposed on my hands. I was wondering how to make them better.

Doctors

Something about doctors saying how to cut the skin. I pictured cutting off the loose skin with a little razor. (Wait, wouldn’t I want to repair the existing skin, not cut off more?) The doctors were talking about a “0.777 razor” for this job. I was also looking into different band aids.

House

The doctors were trying to build some kind of house out of something like cards. It was like a card house but not quite. (((personal infoz))).

Notes

I took my 100mcg of Huperzine-A before going back to bed. I think it’s day 5 on that. And about 1000mg of Choline Bitartrate a day, split between some at breakfast, and some at dinner. Choline said to take it with food so I’m following that instead of having it on an empty stomach.

Round 2 of Dreams

I slept, but couldn’t think of any dreams upon awakening. That seemed weird, but the rest of the night turned out great.

Round 3 of Dreams

This dream chain was really cool. I was a little dissappointed with my recall once I finally woke up in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness though. It seemed so vivid, but once I woke up, I struggled to remember it. That sometimes happens with really long dreams.

(((personal infoz)))
Upstairs

The regular dreams began upstairs at (((personal infoz))). In this part I went into my Dad’s room to ask him something. I told him the lamps were too bright so he turned one off. He asked me if I still had all the “photos from Rome”. I assumed he meant the childhood and family photos from the bin in my room. “Yeah, I still have those.”

Blanket

My sister was on the floor in my Dad’s room doing the D C Quad Stretch. She was doing it all the way down on the hard floor. I was like, do you want some cushions? Are you going to count your time? She said she didn’t need to because it wasn’t difficult for her. She also did some kind of movement with it. I was really impressed. I need to be on a bed to do that stretch, with pillows under my back. Then there was a part about (((personal infoz))) being stronger than me. I was looking up how much I could bench press. At first, I guessed 150, but then I guessed, probably 135 or less, due to my shoulder. So I imagined what it would be like if my sister benched more than me.

(((personal infoz))) said she had a stone blanket. It referred to her comforter being very hard. I understood her in the dream but I don’t understand as well now in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness.

Ringing #1

I was laying in my bed, thinking through those dreams. Then, the ringing started. The high pitched ringing I have grown familiar with as I’ve had more “phase” experiences. I felt particularly afraid of an ominous prescence because I participated in some threads about night terrors. But I found I was easily able to get out of my body. As I was exiting my body, I remembered that expectations had made a difference to me in the past. So I tried to create a positive expectation. I even thought of having an “inner smile” as I separated from my physical body. My idea was to “appear” in a gym, and lift weights. That’s been something I wanted to do. So I tried to picture that.

Home

Well, I “appeared” in my room anyway. I didn’t think to check if my physical body was there, so I don’t know if it was an O B E or a dream. I went right for my room door and opened the handle. Turned it and opened it. Went out into the hallway.

Next I jumped down the whole 14 stairs of the stair case. I wondered for a moment if I was in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness, but when I landed softly, I was sure I was in a dream or whatever it was.

As I jumped down the stairs, I was repeating two affirmations. One was “I’m Lucid.” The other one was “I’m (Something)” But I forgot the exact word. I think it was not directly about dreams.

Encounter

My Dad was coming down the steps. I wondered if it was my physical Dad or just a dream of him. And I wondered if he saw me, or if I was a ghost. He didn’t seem to see me. Then, I saw myself coming down the stairs! I wondered if it was my physical body, or a dream of it. Then I wondered how my physical body would be up and moving if I were not in it! It didn’t seem like my self saw me, so I just said some nice things anyway, and went out the front door.

Flight

When I stepped outside, the whole scene was very vivid and complete. It wasn’t like the dream collapsed when I opened the door. There was a whole big world out there. I flew up with ease. (((personal infoz))) house had a big opening in the middle, and sparks were flying. I assumed they were working on a car. But I thought it was (((personal infoz))) from next door to us at (((personal infoz))).

Techniques

I tried two things. One was I used an affirmation. “My Lucid Dreams last long and remain stable.” I said that out loud a bunch of times within the dream. It seemed to stabilize things a lot. The other thing was I tried to put my fingers to my forehead, to instant transmission myself to a gym. But, it wouldn’t work. When I opened my eyes, I was still flying around my neighborhood.

Ferrets

I remember I flew around some more houses and roof tops. I think there were more details I forgot. Eventually I got to a part where I was in this warehouse kind of place. There were tall white stacks of shelves with some white covering. If I was regular size, they must have been 30 to 40 feet tall.

There were big red wood drawers sliding autonomously towards the shelves. Giant ferrets were living inside the shelves. I was worried that the giant shelves were disturbing the ferrets.

Meg

I met a woman in the dream named Meg. She was the boss of this warehouse. She had dark hair and a yellow shirt. (She was not anyone I know from waking life.)

I had a lingering sense of fear in this part. I didn’t really know where I was. I felt like I was in somewhere that was supposed to be off limits.

Bed

Eventually I returned to my physical bed. I thought through all that had happened. But, it wasn’t over! I heard some voices and some ringing, and slipped out of body again.

Dad

The voices seemed to pertain to something with my Dad. So I phased through my door like it was air, and through his door like it was air, to go into his room. Maybe I needed to protect him from some spirit thing. The T V was on in his room. I didn’t look around much. I kept on the move a lot during these. I felt weird having gone into his room, so I quickly went through another wall or ceiling. I think he was sleeping.

Attics

I am not sure if this is all in perfect chronological order. But next I think I flew up through the ceiling. I expected to go through an attic, then up to the sky. When I got up through the ceiling, I roosted on the floor. The attic room was all white, definitely not like our physical attic. There was a white styrofoam square in the middle of the floor.

Keeping on the go, I tried to fly up again. But I passed into the same room again. And again. It was dimly lit.

Person

I decided to surrender and just explore this little room that kept repeating. I put my face close to the panel and took a good look. It looked like a human face. That made me think that I could summon a person. (((personal infoz)))I transformed the panel into a person. I interacted with the new dream figure a litte bit until the dream briefly ended, then started again from that same room, only with me by myself again.

I remember thinking that maybe “summoning” the person worked because we both wanted to meet at the same time. I was thinking of them as if they were another lucid, dreamer.

Room

I was still in that room. I looked at the floor and stuff. It was kind of grey. I think there were some bright colored orbs on the ground, like the plastic pellets I saw in the woods.

Warehouse again

I forgot if I appeared there from flying around more, or if I returned to my bed and then another dream began from there. But I was in the warehouse again. Now there were more people besides “Meg”. (This Meg doesn’t pertain to anyone I know in waking life.) I felt like I shouldn’t be there. I hid behind the 30 to 40 foot shelf things with the ferrets. I hoped that I would be a ghost, and even if they looked at my location, or stepped over me, they wouldn’t notice I was there.

Exit

Eventually, I got caught, while trying to leave. I was looking for an exit. But all the corridors seemed to go on and on. One exit door seemed to appear. But “Meg” caught me as I went through the main room.

Caught

She was like, “What are you doing here?” And seemed prepared to call some security guards. I was like, “Please don’t make me be in trouble. I just want to get out. I don’t even know how I got here. I will leave right away. I didn’t see anything.”

Protein

She told me to follow the corridors, making a turn at every poster that showed “Protein”. That made no sense to me. I tried confirming the directions with a hand movement, but she wouldn’t help me any more. On the way out, I saw a kid with a candy wrapper on something he was eating. There were other children there too at this point. It seemed like a school thing.

Bed

I appeared back in bed, still in the “phase”. I heard more ringing and felt scared again. Going out of body didn’t seem to work. So I kicked around, running in place, unable to fully separate. Honestly, I didn’t really want to continue. I had been dreaming for so long and it was time to do some dream recall. The odd thing is, when I’m in “the phase”, its hard to think of the dreams I just had. So if it ever feels unusually difficult to think of what I just dreamed, that’s a sign I could still be in the “phase”. Like if my brain doesn’t seem to work. I might be in a different brain wave state.

Recall

There were some moments in this dream when I considered stopping to try to write out the dreams, within the dream. Or at least doing some dream recall affirmations. But I didn’t really want to! I took it for granted that I’d remember it all.

Voice

The last thing I experienced of the “phase” this time was this voice talking. I was trying to recall my dreams even while it continued, but I couldn’t concentrate while it continued.

Recording

When I could tell the “phase” finally ended, or almost did, I quickly flicked on my recorder. I wonder if this dislodged anything. I probably could have thought of it if I stayed still, but my brain didn’t seem to work. I couldn’t think. When I snapped on the recorder, it seemed like a snapped out of the “phase” prematurely. Oops!

Fragments

At one point, I tried to fly through something, then got stuck in it. I think that was when I was in some danger and part of me was still poking out the wall. So I felt fear in that. I forgot when that was so I just tacked it on here.

Sight

At one point I experienced sleep paralysis with my eyes open. But I think it was just a dream of it. Because I woke up with my eye mask on. The room looked kind of blue. I was afraid, and closed my eyes again, not wanting to see anything scary.

Notes

(((personal infoz)))Round 4 of Dreams

I didn’t do any yoga, just straight back to bed. But I told myself, if I fidgeted at all, I would have to get up. If I fidget just once, I have to get up and do the yoga stuff. Not as punishment but because it would mean that I needed to tire my body out a little. But that helped me stay focused as I went to sleep. I actually didn’t move after that. (((personal infoz)))That was a huge success since fidgeting at night is usually my downfall.

Missing Details

I forgot a ton of details about this dream. Don’t know why. I stayed perfectly still and thought through them as best I could. But it was a really long dream and I guess I came back from it disoriented. I know I was lucid, and flying around some places. But I only remembered the following parts clearly.

(((personal infoz)))Room

I got to this room I had been to a few times in the dream. There was something about money in there. I had been dreaming of astral projecting there or something like that. I remember that it was someone else’s room. I had messed up their stuff a little bit, thinking it was a dream. Then, I started to think it wasn’t a dream. I was like, what have I done?! I will need to buy all new stuff so that I can replace everything before these people get home. I remember the bed was made of these slatted things. And I had turned it around 180 degrees. And the cushions didn’t line up right. What a mess! I did a finger palm test, and it didn’t go through. Oh, no! I thought. I must have dreamed of being here for so long that I physically transported here!

Mom

My Mom said she was going to go hang out with her friends some more. Only, it wasn’t my actual Mom. It was just a dream figure of a small woman. (((personal infoz)))In the dream context she was my Mom.

Not Gentlemen

She said she would go upstairs to hang out with her “friends”. I went up after a little while to check on her. Two really tall guys answered the door. One blonde haired guy, one with black hair. I asked them, “So, are you guys (((personal infoz)))?” They said no. But then I asked, “Oh. So you’re my Mom’s perfect gentlemen friends then.” They were like, “Well… No.” Which pointed back to the first option being true, but they had denied it.

Sad

I was like, “I can’t judge any of you. But I feel sad. Or dissappointed.” But I was aware those were my own feelings to deal with.

Walkway

I walked down this walk way and it showed me from a top down perspective. I remember walking around some people, but seeing myself from outside. I felt pretty lost.

Platform

I got to a group of people who said I need to keep trying to progress in the game. The dream took on a video game feel. I had to get past my sticking point in this video game to free my Mom. I was supposed to ride the platform around and find something, but I hadn’t been able to yet. I decided I would look up a walk through.

Waking up

I was really surprised once I had woken up. I stayed perfectly still and eventually, little bits of the end of the dreams came up. I like having long dreams, but only if I remember them!

Round 5 of Dreams

This dream chain really redeemed the whole night. I used the same technique as last time for falling asleep consciously. I told myself if I moved at all, I would have to get up and do exercises. So I stayed still, and felt myself “drop in” through the levels of consciousness. I didn’t enter the dream consciously at first but it led to a dream chain. I remember a little “dream flash” in the beginning, which gave me some confirmation to hang in there.

(((personal infoz)))(((personal infoz)))

I was at (((personal infoz))) getting jars or cans of olives. The ones I needed were out of stock. I asked someone to show me where they would be but the ones on sale were all gone. There were just some glass jars with water and only a few olives at the bottom. Black olives.

(((personal infoz))) came to the aisle, with two children. (((personal infoz)))She was with two little girls. They had melons tied up in strings, presumably not to lose them. (((personal infoz)))The little girl had a balloon. She was supposed to not let it fly away. She was supposed to keep it tied to her or to the cart. But she said, “Don’t worry, I will just hold it.” But then it flew away anyway. I remember seeing it fly up the 30 or 40 feet to the ceiling. (It’s a tall store in waking life too.) It had a little black string.

Breast Stroke

I am not sure when this part was. But I remember the feeling of doing a breast stroke. I might have been swimming, or doing it to fly.

Tigger

Tigger appeared in one part. I forgot when it took place. But the rest after this are in order. There was this robot thing with a blaster arm that appeared twice. In this scene it pointed the blaster arm at Tigger. Tigger moved, and the robot didn’t follow it. Tigger was looking at himself in the water. Then his nose and stripeys fell off. He jumped in after tham and probably swam through a tunnel to safety.

Missing pieces

I recalled about 90% of the dreams. But there was like 10% I forgot. So, before I continue with the rest, that I remember very clearly, I want to acknowledge that.

Computer Lab

I appeared in a computer lab after thinking through the previous dream a little. I knew it was a dream some how.

I was at a computer. It needed a password. The mouse pad was this circular thing, off to the right hand side. I remember trying to find it at first, and being confused.

I felt like I was older, and all the dream figures were equally older, like it was 30 years in the future. I talked with a woman sitting near me. We made eye contact. I remember knowing it was a dream as we spoke. I forgot what we talked about. We commented that we both had gotten older.

That dream gently ended.

(((personal infoz)))

I reappeared in the same computer lab, only now we were all our current age. I saw my friend (((personal infoz))) over at a bench. I approached him as if to say, it’s a dream, what do you want to do? (((personal infoz)))I asked him what year it was. He said 2017 53 B or 2017 63 D or something like that. Not just a year but also another identifier. I got the sense it meant 2017 but in a parallel universe? The dream faded out gently again.

Hearts

I appeared back in my bed, in the “phase”. I rolled out of body again like I did many times throughout the night. I could just tell that it was time to roll out. (((personal infoz)))I got out onto the floor of my room. I think it was just a dream. I knew I was dreaming at the time. I saw a little old fashioned box T V on the floor. It lit up the space under my desk. On the screen was a woman wearing sunglasses. Heart shaped sunglasses, colored dark black. She had dark hair. (((personal infoz)))That part gently faded and I appeared back in my bed. Not done yet!

Heroic

In this next part, it was almost an exact repeat of the previous part, (((personal infoz))) and except for the content of the T V. This time I watched a movie of a man who looked like (((personal infoz))) to me at first (but then I realized wasn’t) pulled a woman along kind of forcefully with his left hand. He punched a wall with his right hand as he walked, making a big hole. I knew it was a dream, but I was in watching mode.

Then, 5 super heroes burst in the door! Presumably to rescue the woman. That was nice. What really interested me was, a few days ago, I dreamed of these broad shouldered, tiny headed alien creatures that came into my room. And they seemed more ominous. But in this scene, there were five broad shouldered, tiny headed characters, and they seemed very heroic. So maybe they were heroes in the other dream, too. Only I judged them by their appearance. So if they make another appearance, I will see them as good guys!

He’s Gonna Jump

After that scene faded I appeared in a hotel room made of grey stone. I was like… “Wait. This isn’t my physical room. I’m in a dream again!” It was kind of dim. I went towards the window, thinking I would fly out.

I opened it up and looked out. There was a beach below, full of people. My vision was dim. I looked down and felt that if I jumped, I would go crashing to the ground, and really feel all the pain. Even though I knew it was a dream, I still thought this dream would have physical gravity. I was very convinced of this.

As I stood at the window, I heard some life guard types of people start shouting. “He’s gonna jump! He’s gonna jump! Stop him!” They thought I was going to jump to my death.

I was like, “oh, no, I don’t want to deal with this.” That wasn’t my plan but I fore saw a bunch of authorities coming up the building to detain me. So I thought of how to avoid that, even though it wouldn’t have been that bad, since it wasn’t my intention any way. Just a mis understanding.

Looking out on the beach, I wanted my vision to be clearer. I said “Increase Brightness” aloud, expecting it to get brighter. Sure enough, it did. Every time I said it, it was like pressing Alt and Page Up on my computer with F dot Lux. There was an orange tint, too. I could see all the people far away down there on the beach, much more vividly. I guess it was some kind of resort.

That part faded and the dream shifted to a new location.

Ampharos

I appeared in front of (((personal infoz))) in the snow. It was snowing. I could feel the cold of the snow and the wetness. At first I didn’t fully know it was a dream. I think I tried a finger palm test or just logically decided it must be a dream. Then I had to take off my eye cover.

I sleep with an eye cover on. Actually I use a head band thing and some extra rolled up shirts for total darkness. It creates some sensations along my face and my eyes that sometimes translate into my dream. I will dream my eyes are covered in a similar way. Once I remove the eye cover in the dream, I can see again. Earlier in my L D career I was afraid I would be removing It in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness but so far that hasn’t happened. I think over time my concerns about my physical body moving when I go to move my dream body have lessened.

Anyway I took the thing off and I could see again. But it was still dim. I said “Increase Brightness” out loud again and that worked. Nice to have some consistent dream control there.

For the first time all night, I thought of trying a Task of the Month thing. What came to mind was to summon my favorite Pokémon. It’s an old Task of the Month but I had never finished it. So all I did was, sitting there in the snow, I said, “My favorite Pokémon will appear.” And snapped my fingers. I felt pretty confident about it. I remember clearly hearing the sound of snapping my fingers, too. Here is a little curve ball but I didn’t decide my favorite Pokémon ahead of time. I don’t think I have a particular favorite. I have too many favorites to even fit on one team. So I figured I would let the dream choose for me.

I walked up towards the street. It was raining. I considered attempting to change the weather, but decided to let it be. I walked down the hill along a side walk. I almost thought the Pokémon summon didn’t work.

Then I saw a bike riding up the hill, towards me. Not to run me over but it was going to pass me on my left. I was like… “Is that an Ampharos on the bike?” It moved fast. My reflex kicked in and I grabbed the yellow thing off the bike seat. The bike continued on, moving just fine with no rider.

What did I have in my hands? It was a stuffed animal Ampharos. It had really soft fur. Yellow fur with black stripes and a white belly. I remember its antennae things. I wasn’t entirely surprised that the dream gave me an Ampharos.

(Commentary: In the original Gold and Silver games, back in 1998 or whenever it was, I didn’t know anything about Pokémon game dynamics. I caught the little sheep Mareep and trained it because I liked Thunder Shock. It evolved into Flaffy but then I was really amazed when it became an Ampharos. I was like, wow. This is an amazing Pokémon. And it must have had good I V’s in the game because it would always deal so much damage. Also the steel types were really difficult for me. I didn’t know what type advantages were, so I just thought Ampharos was like a top secret super powerful Pokémon that could even beat Skarmory. I saw an Ampharos recently and it reminded me of all that. So this Task of the Month was great because it connected me with a really happy memory of my childhood. When Pokémon was still magic, and not just E V’s, I V’s, base stats and type selecting. And when I cared more about what Pokémon I thought was cool, not their base stat total or move pool. And when I could just enjoy a Pokémon for what it was without grinding for natures or breeding for odd egg moves. Also I thought I was the only person ever to have found it, same with Tyranitar.)

So anyway I stood there on the hill squeezing the stuffed animal Ampharos. It felt so soft. I looked at it really closely and it was vivid.

Then it occurred to me that I was still dreaming and I could rush off to another task! The dolphin ride thing came to mind. I reigned myself in and said, hey, let’s just do one per dream. I think that is because it can create more of a quality experience. So I tried talking with the Ampharos, but it didn’t say anything.

I noticed it had a wooden circle thing on its bottom, maybe that it was sitting on. It reminded me of the rim of a basket. Cars drove lightly by on the road. The dream gently ended and I was back in my bed.

Notes

I stayed perfectly still and recalled the dreams in my mind. Little by little, more parts came back, until it almost made a complete picture. I was very happy about this dream chain and it ended the night on a good note.

I wanted to note that as I was falling asleep before these, I also endured some hunger sensations. I sometimes feel hunger sensations at night. But that, plus an itch on my nose, was probably one of the most uncomfortable parts of staying still and falling asleep more consciously.

Overall Notes

(((personal infoz)))I got up around 6:30 thinking it was later. I wound up feeling really tired around 2:45 and laid down. Next time I looked, it was 4:50. So that’s a great nap. Sometimes a nap during the day helps with dreams and recall the following night. I felt a lot better after the nap. The dream drawing is good and I am getting stuff in my dreams that makes me want to draw it, more and more often again.

Wow, this is about 6,000 words. I finished typing it around sun down but also had more stuff to do today. Plus that nap. So it didn’t take all day. But I like transcribing it this way for now. If it gets to be too much work in a day I will have to figure something else out but for now its O K.



(((personal infoz)))

I’m an observer watching a scene unfold on a boat—but really, it’s more that I’m looking at it and the people on deck while being aware of the situation playing out there in a more abstract way. There are some documents I need for traveling on this boat, and I’m not sure if I have them or if I need to go through some process to get them.

The scene shifts—I’m now exiting a bus. But instead of winding up outside as I had expected, I’ve simply stepped onto another bus. I quickly take a seat behind the two women who entered ahead of me and wonder where this one is going to take me.

The scene shifts again—this time, I’m waking up in the back of a car my parents are driving. It feels as if I’m younger in this one. We’ve just stopped by a building I recognize as the one where my father’s workshop is. That means we’re not far from home now. I fall back asleep.

The scene shifts yet again—this time, I’m in a grocery store. And this time, I know it’s a dream, although I still seem to think the last bit with the car was waking reality. I think it would be best if I sleep for the remainder of the trip, and so that means making sure this dream lasts.

I look around. There don’t seem to be anyone here but me. It's reminiscent of the specialty grocer’s down the street from my old flat on Svornosti. That means there should be a counter over in the corner where I can get some coffee.

I go over and find the counter is there, and that there’s somebody behind it. There’s nothing displaying prices, so I just put down three bills, possibly dollars, which seems like a more than fair price. But the woman tells me I have to make the coffee myself using the machine there. It’s an odd contraption, like no coffee maker I’ve ever used, but after messing around for it a bit, I get it to pour some coffee out - Turkish style, with the grounds at the bottom. I drink it. This isn’t a conscious attempt at stabilization, I don’t think—just something that struck me as a pretty good idea—but it may have had that effect, as it’s normally hard for me to stay asleep so late in the morning.

I consider where to go from here. Perhaps home, where the car was headed—only I have no idea where I am right now. But if I fly, perhaps I’ll see some familiar landmark from the air and be able to find my way from there. And to fly, I’ll need a high place to launch from—so it looks like I’m headed to the roof.

In the meantime, I’ve noticed six or seven wolves between two shelves on the upper story, which is a sort of balcony over one half of the store. They all trot off in a single direction as I watch. Are they coming after me? But I wasn’t planning on sticking around here in any case. I climb a shelf and phase through the ceiling.

I now find myself in a room lit by a warm light. A long mahogany table laid with bright red dishes is some distance off—set for an elaborate meal, it looks like. It's quite pretty. I continue on my way, climbing another shelf and jumping through the ceiling.

This time I’m in an attic-like room near a big calico cat that, in typical feline fashion, seems entirely unimpressed by my unusual method of transportation. But it’s about then that I wake up.

I also wake up remembering something else—not something I heard, but words that seemed to be impressed on my mind. It went something like: “Use the gifts you’ve been given, human.” I don’t know who said it—perhaps it was the cat?—but it seemed somehow independent from the rest of the dream, like it was taking place on a different level. Good advice, in any case.

12.4.18 - (Happy Lucid Dreaming Day, everyone!)

Hi,

They were short dreams, but I had 5 of them by chaining dreams. Following is a summary. I had been awake till 6AM and decided to sleep as I was starting to feel a bit drowsy. I get ready and lay down to meditate. I had apparently unintentionally preformed a WILD while meditating without having slept beforehand.

I felt fatigued and heavy as I try to get up from the bed. I knew spontaneously it was a dream. I have trouble opening my eyes fully to look around. I just feel my surroundings with my hands and feet. The heaviness subsides and I'm able to open my eyes to look around. I do reality check by looking at my hands and nose-pinch anyway just to make sure since it was a replica of my bedroom. The dream was still not clear as my REM dreams. Since it was Lucid Dream Day I decided to just explore my surroundings and interact with dream characters. I focus on stabilizing a bit more. I head out of my room and hear noises in the living room. I hear my nephews. They were watching TV. My mom was talking with my brother. On the TV the kids were watching Dragon Ball Super. I didn't recognize the scenes, but I look away as I didn't want to be distracted. I approach my mom to ask where Kana was. I have this tendency to go in search for my deceased SO whenever she's not there. I pause, this time I decided I'll just take in the dream as is and just explore. I ask mom if she's going out and she replies that she is going out a bit later with my brother and sis. She asks me if I want something. I say no and walk towards the balcony. I was resisting my temptation to ask for Kana. I look around wondering what to do in this dream. It's just a typical day. The dream starts to collapse and I let it go.

I stay still as the dream dissolves and chain a lucid dream.

I am outside on a street. It was night.This dream seemed a lot more vivid. A cool black car catches my eye. I decide to follow it thinking it'll get me somewhere interesting. No, I'm not a stalker. I try to follow close by, but I was starting to attract attention as I began to run on the sidewalk. I become invisible and disembodied thinking I'll materialize when the car has reached it's destination. The dream immediately collapses.

I chain yet another lucid dream.

I'm in a house. It was similar to my grandmother's house. I was by the living room and there were several books scattered about. I walk out the front door. Now it was different from my grandmother's place, there was no lawn or even a gate to the house. Instead there was a house with steps just outside. I think of asking Kana to come for a chat. I notice cat on the steps sleeping, it had white-gray fur. I decide to go pet it. The dream fades just as I approach it.

I was getting a bit frustrated at these unstable short dreams. At least it could have lasted till I pet the cat. I decide to try just one more time and chain another lucid dream.

This one was not very visual. I am in a lush park. I don't have enough coordination to walk, so I jump ahead to move. I keep holding on to stuff to stabilize. There is a bit of bounce to my jumps as if the gravity isn't that strong. I let go and decide to just go to sleep when I'm no longer able to feel the dream environment.

That's about it. Not very fulfilling. However, I had a very vivid lucid dream with my usual depth after sleeping and some non- lucid dreams.

Kana wakes me up. I get up on my bed thinking I actually woken up. I do reality checks even though Kana being there was enough. The tests fail. Its as if i am awake. I get tingly all over. I touch Kana's smiling face tearing up. I notice there was a radiance about her. I ask her if I was awake and still able to see her. She pokes my forehead playfully and says "Don't get ahead of yourself. You are not that intuitive yet. This is still a dream, but I'm keeping it stable for us." I look around confused resenting we are not "together" again. I got my hopes up. Kana takes hold my hand and presses gently. "You know, just because its still a dream doesn't mean you are settling for anything less. You humans still have a lot to learn about the dream state. Cheer up and lets do something fun! What do you wanna do?". I cling on to her with a hug and end up having a breakdown.

I get too emotional and wake up. I felt guilty. It must have took this enity who may or may not be my Kana lot of effort to keep the dream that stable and i messed it up. I was not sure if i wanted to share this dream because it was too personal, but here it is.

I recall flirting and eventually making out with a girl who reminded me a lot of Sophie, a girl from a Facebook group I (used to) moderate.

I remember floating around a space, and pushing myself off from something.

I got lucid , thought of calling up N ,first I grabbed the phone , then for some reason I pointed my two fingers like a pistol or radio , and raised to my ear , I associated it with a means to communicate , and it worked. Soon I heard her voice saying she doesnt know who I am or why am I talking to her. I wanted to explain her what's happening, but mom suddenly came in saying she left something at home so she came back for it and kept talking to me until I couldnt talk to N. Then I tried again once she left, and called N again, she popped up in the door talking to me once again I was like jesus christ mom go ..

Then I woke up to a noise

Tbh I don't really think that it was N herself,but I still tried to call her to see what happens, I should've asked her to open a portal to me lol

So in the dream I was in the military at basic training or something similar. There were a few dozen of us and we all had decided to play a prank on the sergeant. We were all wearing military uniform, we had camo face paint on, and we all had nerf guns. As the drill sergeant came around a nearby fence we all started shooting him with the nerf guns. He was mildly amused but made us all do push-ups for doing the prank.

In the dream I had three friends, two guys and a girl. The guys were both constantly flirting with the girl, and they both liked her, but I knew the girl well enough I knew she only liked one of them. She would act very nonchalant about everything, which made them flirt with her more. It was a little amusing to watch because I knew which of the guys she was into, and that they were both flirting with her, but they both thought she liked them and had no idea that the other was going for her too, despite us all being friends.

On a bit unrelated note, the dream ended in some sort of class that I had with one of those boys. None of us in the class were paying attention and most of us were pretty bored. My friend asked this other guy if he can go get him a hot dog and asked if I wanted anything. I said I would go for a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. So he wrote something down saying "just so you don't forget what to get us", and then handed him a note. When the guy came back he had three pbj sandwiches made with hamburger buns on a plate in one hand and a hot dog on a plate in the other. He handed us our food, I said "thank you", and then he put down the note that my friend handed him on the table. The note said "Justin is a man, Julie is a woman". I am guessing that Justin was the name of my friend, but I didn't know what this note had to do with getting us food. I took a bite of my hamburger bun peanut butter and jelly sandwich. It tasted pretty good, basically what you would expect a well made sandwich with good peanut butter and jelly and really soft white bread to taste like. I don't get to taste things in my dreams very often, so this was a treat.

Im in the queue waiting for the teacher to come ots grey outside and everything looks normal. Theres this new very pretty girl in our class thats rubbing my back slowly, so I look at her and she goes away to the toilets. Were going away from the building but the rainroof thing seems to get closer and closer to the ground. Its not the roof getting closer to the ground but me getting bigger. Were on the playground now and Im about 15 meters tall. Everyone is laughing at me and all of a sudden I realise, Im in a damn dream. So I go to the other school building and shrink again. My dream control was very very limited.
I went in the building and started roaming the hall to check for the girl but no luck on the way a teacher asked me. Are you asleep and I said no because I think she wanted to know if I was lucid and shes my worst teacher Ive ever had. After a while I go back outside and start flying. The flying was way better than last time and worked pretty well. This time everyone was clapping and cheering all over the place as if I was the most famous man on the planet. I flew to the big building and 30 were climbing up to the top. I went and flew around it and hid for a miment trying to change my cloths but drream control was too limited. I just went with it and flew a couple of times across the building and high fived a guy. But he grabbed me so I took him straight to the ground safely which was a struggle. I went back out and I didnt hear anyone cheering anymore I looked and there was a giant piece of road on the place where they stood, I accidently did that... i went back down and everything was different.
There were a lot of soldier. Like were in thus military quarantine thing. I saw a gate that was pretty old and flew trough. Im on a car and went in. Guess what. Chewbacca, old princess "layde" and hans solo were in the front. Im in the back they started driving at full speed till we crashed. Im in spectator mode viewing my dead body with a sort of timer. I thought okay this is the end of the dream but no. The timer finished and Im in a new body. Im at a beach, still lucid and there are these mermaids. Theyre trying to kill me and they got me stuck, after a while of fighting and my company got captured to we defeated some and made a sort of golfbal machine to shoot us out. The end. Feeling sensation of waking up.
Quick notes:
Con: almost no dream control.
Pros: I was very deeply in so I wouldnt be waking up anytime soon and I met chewbacca.

Nothing much to report on the days leading up to day 61. Exams really did a number on my 'mental stamina', so to speak. I was too mentally drained to even think about my awareness practices. I didn't even remember any fragments along the way.


Day 61:

Fell asleep at: 11:30 PM

Woke up at: 6:40 AM


Dream 65: Who Turned The Ego Off?

I'm walking through a dark, gloomy version of the band hall. The lights were either not on or emitted some putrid shade of green. My friend shows up wearing a tank, look like he's been working out. Immediately I start judging myself, feelings of inadequacy loom over me.

I break away from the conversation, and head towards the restroom. What I instead see is again a dark, twisted version of my surroundings. There's a HUGE row of bathroom stalls, but all but a few of them are unoccupied. I walk into the unoccupied one in the middle, and the dream ends soon after that.

I find myself walking down the staircase to the basement of my M--- house. It occurs to me that this is a place I only visit in dreams—and so I must be dreaming right now.

The room is dark, so I try to brighten it up a little bit by clapping as if the lighting there was the kind that responded to that. But that doesn’t seem to help, and the visuals, though still vivid, have an indefinite quality to them that tells me the dream isn’t very stable. I decide I’ll cut the visuals off altogether to stabilize it through other senses, but wake up first—right around the time I ordinarily wake up, which explains the instability. I seem to have completely lost the ability to sleep in nowadays.

10.4.18