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I haven’t been on in a long, long time, but I’d really like to work on lucid dreaming again.
I’m going to start by dream journaling, like I used to.

I can’t remember much, except for a dream fragment.
My freshman year English teacher was congratulating two members of the senior class on their “early marriage”. She said that every year, at least two students would get married before they graduated.
My boyfriend had an expensive looking camera, and he was photographing the couple. I was sitting next to him on the grass, while the couple walked down a carpet rolled out on the lawn.
I accidentally got in the way of one of his photos, and he asked me to move.
I laid down on my back on the grass, and he laughed and said he didn’t mean I had to do that, just to scoot out of the way.
That’s all I remember.

I enter a bar. A bunch of metal dudes enter as well. They go to another room somewhere upstairs. Then my dad is with them, or at least they know my dad. They say something to me from the other room. I reply and try to find them in the building, but find nothing. The building is all wooden corridors smeared with blood, and burning naked corpses hanging from the ceiling. Monsters start appearing everywhere. I knock them out of the way with a makeshift club as I keep looking for my dad.

I am in an apartment, and know that some people are going to come in. I attempt to climb out of the window, but they come in too quickly and I am unable to get away. I go with them and they bring me to a city. The city has beautiful architecture and oil paintings. It feels very old. The people still won't let me go.

Points:
Full non-lucid: 1 point

I am in some sort of dormitory where I decide to do an RC (not sure why). I realize I am dreaming and look around for a little while, but the dream ends quickly.

Points:
Lucid: 10 points
DILD: 5 points
Reality Check: 5 points
Total: 20 points

This morning I found myself at Gyeongbokgung palace again. When I got to the entrance I realized I was just in street clothes, and I remembered that I was going to try to show up in hanbok from now on so I crossed the street and found the store from my first dream about the palace. Luckily everything was the same and I was able to get the same dress without paying for it.

As I waited in front of the palace I lost my lucidity. Eventually some girl came up to me and asked if I wanted to go shopping. I said yes, and we went into one of the palace's museums and starting looking at and buying souvenirs. Somehow I had a purse that I didn't have in the beginning of the dream, and inside it I had a lot of Korean money. The money was really detailed and accurate looking. I bought some hanja writing pens (basically pens with little paintbrush tips), a cute notebook, a puzzle, and some multicolored chopsticks with Korean written on them. I don't know what the other girl bought.

Morning of May 4, 2018. Friday.



My dream starts with the very common liminal awareness of my physical body being in bed as I sleep, but I do not attain viable lucidity.

My dream still renders a bed as my dream’s setting, though the location is unknown and undefined and I absentmindedly perceive it more as serving as a table upon which to play the card game. In fact, even though I am aware of playing Gin Rummy with several other people, I do not ever actually see them. I am on my left side (as I am in reality as I sleep) looking at the several piles of playing cards, some face up, each pile with a few cards, some spread out more. I am trying to remember what I need to do next.

However, as my dream self in non-lucidity has neither viable access to the unconscious nor the conscious self identity, I remain uncertain of the rules (even though I have played Gin Rummy in real life numerous times). I gather up all the cards to shuffle them and start to deal them out, but then I consider that this is probably wrong. My dream becomes more abstract and I soon wake.

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This dream was a result of watching “Think Tank” (a television game show) with Zsuzsanna, when a question about Gin Rummy was asked of one contestant and he got it wrong. It is interesting how the simplest random event can integrate into the dreaming and waking processes, but is there a real reason in this case? The question was about the highest-ranking card in Gin Rummy, of which the answer is “King”. I suspect that this correlates with potential liminal dream control in the dream state for a few reasons. One, the presence of the dream state indicator (me being on the bed). Two, my passive dream self allowing the preconscious to modulate rather than a thread of my conscious self identity taking control of my dream. Three, this dream is of the type based on thinking skills correlation, to induce synaptic gating for triggering consciousness.

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Date of Dream: SUN 6 MAY - 2018



Dream No. 323 - Separated Sections

Dream 323 A - Power Outage (Lucid Dream 17)
The dream started with me being at my house. For the first scene, I was down in the garage. There was a person that resembled Dreamy WB; in fact it was Dreamy WB but I have forgotten her appearance. She came up to me and asked me to help her find the lifts. She said that she had to leave in order to help a sick person. I wandered down the cellar and things felt strange to me. In real life, it's just a tiny corridor that stops at the end but in the dream, there was this whole new area to the side of it.

I strangely felt aware that I was dreaming but I couldn't quite put my finger on it. I turned left into the new dream area and indeed I found the lift complex in a completely different looking environment. There were a lot of people at the lift complex, including my parents. So I saw this strange looking Dreamy WB off into the lift and then stood and hesitated as I felt I had nothing left to do. The scene changed.

I was now in the main part of the house, no distorted features, right in the middle of the night. It was dark inside and so I decided I wanted to turn the lights on. I went up to a light switch and it wasn't working. I thought further, “is this a power outage or am I in a dream?”. I went to the another light switch and it didn't work for me; so indeed I worked out that this was a dream. Also, at midnight in real life, lighting in the dark is usually almost black but in the dream, the quality of lighting was blue, so I could still see my surroundings.

I walked towards the bathroom to do further reality checks at the mirror. I looked in it and grossly enough, I had this rubber-like snot hanging out of my nose... Heaps of it. I gave it a clean but I won't recap the method I used. Then I said things to myself, quietly talking to myself. I actually recited the dream tasks I had set for myself. I said something like, “Hmm, ok. So... Um... I've got to get Murray back, Logan has to be penalised and then Kevin will be receiving a penalty as well. I've got to check Logan's mail but I can't do any of that because she's not here”.

Then the most creepy reality check took place, I lifted my hand up to the mirror to see the arrangement of fingers but this arrangement was bizarre. I had nine fingers on my right hand!! It was arranged so I had two layers of four and then one finger randomly sticking out in the place of the thumb. This finger arrangement felt so real that it actually scared me so much; I gasped, jumped and never wanted to lift my hand up to the mirror again.

I found that I had to clean my nose further and so I had to lift my hand up to the mirror again. This time, it was the usually un-normal six fingers. Whenever I touched something with my sixth finger, it would hurt; like it was actually reality and my mind was telling me that my sixth finger shouldn't be there. No matter how much I thought about the dream tasks I had to do, I just couldn't motivate myself to actually go and do them. Soon enough, that dream had ended.

Dream 323 B - Grandma Has Kittens
I don't remember much of this dream. From what I can remember, my second grandparents were at my house. Indeed grandma was at her normal age, in her 70s, but she was pregnant! I was actually thinking to myself, “You're past menopause so how on Earth can you be pregnant?”. She didn't have human babies though, she actually gave birth to two mixed coloured kittens, a boy called Tommy and a girl called Jessie. The dream didn't show her giving birth but the kittens had suddenly appeared and then she went back to looking like normal.

My dad was also there and my grandma was his mum; so Tommy and Jessie were actually my dad and uncle's new siblings! Only my uncle wasn't aware of this because he wasn't in the dream. I spent some time playing with the kittens but I forgot what I did with them specifically. That's all I can remember about this dream.



Dream Tasks
- Get Murray back as a regular DC/DG (Achieved? No)
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? No)
- Have Kevin M receive minor penalties either from Dreamy WB or myself due to general carelessness (Achieved? No)
- Investigate where my SML postage has gone (Achieved? No)



Dream 323: Results (Competition #3)

Dream 323 A
Competition Night: 5
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes

Dream 323 B
Competition Night: 5
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 32.0
Calculation Details:
- Help someone in need, non-lucid (1.0)
- Reality Check, Light Switches (5.0)
- Reality Check, Weird Finger Formation In The Mirror (5.0)
- Become Lucid (10.0)
- Was induced via DILD (5.0)
- Full Non-Lucid Dream, 323 B (1.0)
- 5-Day Recall Chain (5.0)

+ Previous Total: 8.0
Total Accumulated Points: 40.0



Although my ambition to achieve tasks was foiled again, I find the events of 323 quite interesting. The backstory is that yesterday, my throat was feeling sore and so I thought I was on the way to getting a cold. In the first scene, Dreamy WB actually came up to me and said that she had to leave the dream world to help a "sick person". In hindsight, she was sacrificing the dream version of me to stop my physical body from getting sick. The reason I think this? This morning, I didn't get worse and rather, my throat hurts less. Additionally in hindsight, I could have gotten to Murray, even without Dreamy WB. The only thing that's a must with Dream WB at the moment is the penalties.

Thought I would start drawing my dreams...

Created Saturday 05 May 2018

Got a DILD to note. There were a whole bunch of other dreams, but a kind of discomfort made recollection difficult.

Several intended and unintended WBTBs before this dream.

Dream 1 - Magical May 2018 Competition

Scene 1 - Inustrial Communal Place Brief Awareness
The visuals were blurred. I was an unknown wide facility, metal plating covering much of its walls. There was someone chasing me, or at least someone I was avoiding. So, while floating around, I kept near the ceilings, occasionally phasing through the ducts up to higher levels. Later, I found my brother, Alvaro in some communal bedroom. Got briefly aware. Immediate transition.

Scene 2 - Bare Diminutive Awareness
The visuals were blurred. I was home, showering upstairs, dim twilight peeking in from the window. Noticed the bathroom looked absurdly spaceous, retriggering lucidity. I made my way downstairs to the lounge, where I shrunk myself, first down to 1 foot in height, then even smaller. I then looked around, expecting to find unknown DCs to mess around with. Things destabilized. Took a moment to rub hands and concentrate. Transition half a minute later.

Scene 3 - May 2018 TOTM Advance Task I
The visuals were clear. I was at the lounge again, only back to full size. I step outside, but not to my neighborhood. Instead, I found myself at the lounge area of a beachside resort. A vast, round wicker canopy covered the place, the surrounding walkways, and most of the nearby shops, and also concealed a clear blue sky above. Seeing passerby's got me worried of my apparel (or lack thereof, given the whole shower thing above). An unnecessary concern, as I found I was already wearing pool shorts, a dark blue tanktop, and running shoes.

I started recalling the TOTMs, settling for the ice cream one. After some searching, I found a flower growing near an unkempt bush behind a trash can, the bloom akin to a deep violet trumpet creeper. Through telekinesis, I plucked the flower, and kept it hovering over my hand. I then tried changing it. Initially, it transformed into formless darkness, before finally settling into a large glass full of white ice cream. I ate a fingerful, but could taste and feel nothing, just a faint blandness. Both the food and environment were deteriorating. A half minute of concentration fixed as much. This time, the ice cream had a slightly yellowish tint. I took a dab, which felt much colder and a bit coarser than normal ice cream (more akin to the low fat/fat free variety, or frozen yogurt). As for the taste, it was plain vanilla flavored, followed by an oatmeal-ish aftertase.

Couldn't think of much else better to do. So I floated around aimlessly. It took more effort than usual to get off the ground, let alone to keep balance, which I could only manage by waving my arms around like an oaf. Furthermore, I couldn't get much higher than a head above a nearby archway.

The dream collapsed soon after. I tried DEILDing back in, but lost lucidity.

Scene 4 - Where'd He Get My ID?
The visuals were a bit blurred. This depicted the life of some young, lanky manager in a print shop. Through some crazy coincidence, his former boss from his old job, a stumpy guy with glasses, was now under his employ. Though a diligent worker, this ex-boss was also quite needy, demanding constant advice and oversight.

I was later given the young manager's role. The stumpy guy started bothering me to trade personal contact info with each other, more than I was sure was needed, down to our driver's liscense ID numbers. This made me very suspicious of my current state. Well, that, and that I found my own ID in this this young guy's wallet. The dream ended before I could do much about that.

Scrap Group 1
Some guy is making douchebag comments. I put him on an Argentine Backbreaker hold, then tossed him aside when he started whimpering.

2018-05-05 - -.pdf

My dreams are in the above PDF. (click where it says 2018-05-05 - -.pdf)

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Morning of June 23, 1987. Tuesday.



I am in a completely unfamiliar region in late afternoon. I am exploring an area that seems to be somewhat like an airport, though quite strange in design. There is a high scallop-shaped platform (with primarily black, silver, and red decor, including a black carpet or softly textured floor) that people have to climb, fairly steep, but somewhat miniature steps to get up to, seemingly a bit inconvenient - and it seems people have to take all of their own luggage up to the high platform. It is probably about two stories as I believe there is at least one landing above ground-level. The steps go up from the side opposite the fan-shaped expanse. There also seems to be a semicircular railing on the highest part of the structure; the side opposite where people are mostly sitting at ground-level below. After time passes, I start to think that the airplanes are probably more like hovercrafts or flying saucers (though of entirely human design and origin), as I do not quite understand how the system works, as I reason that airplanes cannot really stop in midair at any time, which is what the scallop-shaped platform seems to indicate (that is, for flying craft to stop or hover right near or above it). I get the impression that one flight of steps may be an escalator but I am not certain. I am also considering whether or not I really need to be here, though it seemingly relates to my “mystery girl” at one point.

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Vestibular system correlation happens continuously throughout REM sleep and has been the primary cause of autosymbolism in my dreams since earliest memory. This is mainly influenced by the dream self unable to viably perceive the status of the physical body, especially in regard to the dream self discerning itself as vertical when the physical body is horizontal. The design of the platform validates this, as a seashell is associated with inner ear dynamics (balance) and holding it up to one’s ear to supposedly “hear the ocean”. The common “staircase as consciousness shift” autosymbolism also occurs here.

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Night of May 3, 2018. Thursday.



In my dream, in full lucidity, I hover in an incorporeal form above a bird nest of mostly straw in early morning daylight. Within the bird nest are about seven gray creatures, with minimal white areas, that are all joined as one mass.

Looking more closely, I still cannot determine if they are baby birds or kittens, although the form changes from time to time and I can sometimes make out legs or parts of wings. They seem to breathe as one. There is also an association with baby rabbits for a short time.

Realizing that the autosymbolism is tied in to the typical vestibular system correlation of which is inherent to the dream state itself, my focus shifts very slightly.

The creatures, still as one singular mass, rise into the air, to become a circle of only sparse fur or hair, hovering about a foot above the nest, and now of only about ten percent of the volume of the original feature. I focus on the change and I think of it as thin gray thread. It continues to hover in the air as a floating horizontally-oriented wreath made of thin thread of the color of Spanish moss.

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Date of Dream: SAT 5 MAY - 2018



Dream No. 322 - Weird And Wacky Events

I don't remember much of this dream. From what I can remember, I was in some darkened theatre room. Someone was walking around in the auditorium and as a part of the play (taking place in the auditorium, not the stage), we had to hide. I hide under one of the fold-able seats. I forgot what else happened in that scene.

In a later scene, I was in an unknown outdoor area. I was walking around when I came across my friend NN. I forgot what we did though. The scene after had gross content in it and so I will not be recapping anything from that scene. That's all for this dream.



Dream Tasks
- Get Murray back as a regular DC/DG (Achieved? No)
- Have Logan receive harsh penalties from Dreamy WB due to reckless social behaviours (Achieved? No)
- Have Kevin M receive minor penalties either from Dreamy WB or myself due to general carelessness (Achieved? No)
- Investigate where my SML postage has gone (Achieved? No)



Dream 322: Results (Competition #3)
Competition Night: 4
Lucid or Non-Lucid?: Non-Lucid
Dream Guide: None
Emergency Team: None
Eligible For Competition Points: Yes



Points For This Entry: 0.5
Calculation Details:
- Non-Lucid Fragment (0.5)

+ Previous Total: 7.5
Total Accumulated Points: 8.0



Since I'm not really achieving any "Dream Trophies" anymore, I've replaced that idea with current dream tasks. These are all the things I have my mind that I want to get done in future dreams. The task will be listed and then stated if it was achieved in this dream or not. Tasks can be cancelled if I think they are no longer relevant to real life events or if penalties have been lifted due to the fact that the person did something to amend their negative behaviour in real life.

Bad sleep, bad recall, bad opportunities for LDs...

Scrap Group 1
Playing Elona+ Custom. There's extra translated dialogue pertaining to Orphe's fate. Specifically, that he'd been trapped in some kind of time loop after unsealing that bound demon.

Browsing the internet. Wood Man's theme from Mega Man - The Wily Wars was sounding repeatedly.

Afternoon of May 4, 2018. Friday.



This entry is for presenting a more concise understanding of some of the material of part one.

Lucid dreaming does not equate to having control of the dream state or of a dream. In fact, some dream journalists express terror in dreams when they become lucid, with far less conscious self identity control than in their non-lucid dreams.

Having control of dreams and even of certain processes of the dream state does not require lucidity. It seems to be a result of understanding RAS mediation from early childhood on, to where the virtuous circle effect becomes inherent in REM sleep.

Most people have the inability (liminal space blindness) to understand that non-lucid dreams are autosymbolic, not symbolic in the conventional sense, which means that a dream’s autosymbolism, especially the induction and waking process, represents the dream state and waking process itself, concurrently. RAS mediation and RAS modulation sometimes utilize waking life experiences, but they do not “represent” them. If there is no waking life conflict, RAS personification will still have the potential to be rendered as a waking alert persona, even in lucid dreams, especially when environmental noise is present, or when biological factors need to be addressed, such as hunger or the need to use the toilet. There are also literal threads (and of course prescience and other transpersonal factors) that integrate into the dreaming experience.

I have experienced viable lucidity in dreams continuously since earliest memory with no attempt to bring it about. This means that terms such as “practice” and “skills” have zero meaning for me. Additionally, the concept of “reality checks” or “reality testing” I cannot even comprehend anymore, though I have played around with various ideas I have read since childhood. (Some people actually do this, that is, actually ask themselves if they are dreaming at various points during the day. I am not making that up.) If I know I am awake, why question it? Presumably, this is an attempt to utilize the virtuous circle effect, but all that is required by way of the virtuous circle effect is to viably understand the dream state in the first place and to study what one is dreaming and have a feasible approach to working with dreams. “Reality checks” imply not even understanding that the subconscious self is not the conscious self, or that the preconscious, RAS personification, and transpersonal interconsciousness are not, either.

The Wake Back to Bed Method of lucid dreaming may work for some people due to the change in ultradian rhythm. In fact, any change will cause changes in dream content, including sleeping in a different orientation and especially sleeping in a different house. Facing toward an open window or open door while sleeping is inherently more likely to augment preconscious mediation (and modulation) as a throwback to the survival factor of RAS modulation. A more vivid dream will likely result, not necessarily lucid, but possibly. (Sleeping in a different location may also trigger nightmares.)

Now I will look into some dream self modes based on these two entries. The more lucid, the more accurate the subconscious self mirrors and models the conscious self identity to where consciousness is perceived as existing in the dream state (though this is somewhat of a misnomer, as otherwise lucid dreaming does not imply being conscious; only holding the awareness of the conscious self).

The dream self can be non-lucid and control the dream (by way of subliminal conscious self modulation and the virtuous circle effect of dream study with the understanding of key autosymbolism). The dream self can be non-lucid and have minimal or no control of the dream due to preconscious modulation. The dream self can be lucid yet not only not have control of the dream but be in a conscious self state of terror. (I have personally never experienced this other than when my dream’s modulation was biologically premonitory, but many people have written of it as an apparently automatic process for them.) The dream self can be lucid and have partial control of the dream state. The dream self can be lucid and have full control of the dream state by way of the summoning factor (apex lucidity). The dream self can be in a state of lucid omnipresence or being the dream state itself. This is utilized by manipulating waking process autosymbolism such as doors, staircases, or deliberately jumping from a high point as well as “freezing” the perception of vestibular system autosymbolism (for example, willing the manifestation of bird silhouettes hovering in midair - the “frozen bird shadow” effect I have utilized since early childhood, as well as the obsidian owl statue or the “cobra in the hayloft” events of very early childhood).

Thank you for reading. This concludes the two-part set “Redefining Dream Control as Unrelated to Lucidity”.

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