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Morning of June 6, 2010. Sunday.

Dream #: 15,875-07. Reading time: 20 sec.



I am in the lounge room of our present home in the evening. I am aware a stranger is in our house and had been in our kitchen and opened our refrigerator. When I am in bed, I notice Mr. Bean (Rowan Atkinson) had fallen asleep on our couch, holding a teddy bear. I am annoyed by the imposition. (The couch is in the wrong orientation. It faces south instead of north.) I consider it may be someone pretending to be Mr. Bean (though I remain uncertain).

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One recurring FA lately: I wake up and there's a fishtank next to my bed. One of the fish--a chubby, cartoony-looking orange thing--has escaped and is swimming in the air over my bed. I gently grab it (often taking several tries, since it's slick and I'm trying not to hurt it) and drop it back into the water.

Wow. Best dream sex ever. Raging 69 with someone I should pro'lly not be dream-banging....but what the hell, that was nice.

So I just had this long, strange dream. I was on some kind of Jane Leakey style mission to live amongst the animals in some kind of nature preserve (oddly enough, I think it was in Iraq, though the place itself had no connection to Iraq). There was lots of beautiful scenery with water running over colorful rocks and greenery spread around here and there. The thing is, though, the animals had developed this really involved culture within this nature preserve. The one thing I remember really clearly is this elaborate garden being built and maintained by squirrels, at squirrel-scale. None of them talked or anything, they were just engaged in this really complex group activity, like little squirrel-monks or something. The whole dream was really beautiful, while at the same time there was this sense that the place was endangered and I might be the last one to see it.

New LD!

It started as an anxiety dream at work, with people piling up in the restaurant and nothing ready. Then I realized it was a dream (this kind of anxiety is a dream sign for me). A DC of a guy I knew in college walked in, and I spent much of the rest of the dream telling him this was a dream. I did use a technique from the boards: at one point I insisted so excitedly that I was dreaming, I almost woke up, so I closed my eyes, spun around, and thought "Higher level lucidity," and when I opened my eyes, everything was more vivid and solid.

I also had a dream that I was sitting at a coffee shop having a live discussion of last night's "Nature of perception" thread

I had another weird, dark, plotted-out dream, where I was a young guy who had just bought a house. It was a quiet suburban neighborhood full of plastic-looking landscaping and identical houses, but the neighbors would babble nonsense and shoot at each other with shot-guns. Another neighbor just filmed everything with a big movie camera. I was outside snooping around, and the former owner of my house appears, ends up stabbing me in the shoulder with this huge knife, and him and the camera guy take me back to the house, where they keep me as a hostage/slave for the rest of the dream.

I also had a dream set in my hometown at some indeterminate time, maybe seven years ago. I ran into this girl I haven't thought of in ages. She's probably in pretty bad shape in waking life...last I knew she had a degenerative disease that required the periodic removal of chunks of her intestines.

(Update: thanks to Facebook, I now know this chick lives an awesome life driving race cars and jumping out of planes in Colorado )

Just 1 last night:

I was hanging out with my sister and my mom's ex was there. I remember at one point he was passing a bowl in the other room, and the cat carried it into the room where sis' and I were talking, and tapped it out neatly in the ashtray. My sister and I laughed. "Now if we could just teach him to pack it," one of us joked.

A lot of herb in the dreamworld lately...this usually happens when I quit smoking in waking life.

Oh, I forgot this dream from yesterday:

My bedroom window is right by my neighbors' backyard. Their autistic son, Larry, must have been out there shouting nonsense (as is his habit) while I was sleeping the afternoon away, cuz I had a couple FAs where I looked at the window and he had climbed up my building and was trying to get in the window. It was kind of funny when I remembered later.

1. This one was long and detailed, covering several days of dream-time, with some on-the-ground action, some movie-screen views of other characters, and even some back-story. It all took place in the little town in PA where I grew up. It started with the story of Altrip Jones, a man from my town who went out and made a fortune in the city, then came back and built this weird monument of a public building, with huge, white marble gargoyles jutting from the corners. It was some kind of culture/community center. So I saw this as if in a documentary, then I was back in my hometown, but a weirdly prosperous version where this guy had infused all this money into it.

2. I'm attending a funeral in my hometown, and it's a big family gathering, but it's a dream family, not my real family, and pretty much a dream-town, too. Mostly I'm interacting with two little brothers who have never met me before, because I've been away that long, and I"m working to protect my little uncle (real person) from professional assassins, including a 40-something Gene Hackman. These guys really like to rapel down buildings. I'm not resisting them violently, just tracking their movements and evading them.

3. At some point, I'm taking a walk with some dude I don't know, and he lights up a j. We turn a corner and here we are at a big, sandy beach (nothing like this in my real town). We pass it around and a few people join us, then security comes sniffing around, so I have to evade them and end up alone way down the beach. I start running back toward the crowd (now leaving--it's night-time, and they're closing down the beach), then realize it would be much faster to glide over the sand, then think "Well, why don't I just fly?" So I'm flying down the beach, and I stop and think, "Wait a sec, am I dreaming?" The dunes and everything look pretty real, but I do an RC (my first ever deliberate RC--thanks DV), which for me is kind of a karma-probe to see if objects around me have history and depth--dream objects are more transparent, have less presence than waking objects, even if visually identical. So anyway, I'm lucid, but everything stays pretty solid. I walk around and come to a pliant barrier where the beach just stops, but recalling some stuff from the forums, I try to dissolve or push through, and manage to get my hands through, like pushing through saran wrap. I didn't get to do much else before I woke up. Still, that's two LDs in a 10 days, after many months without any. Whoop!

I was snooze-alarming before work, so I noticed right away when I went from laying in my bed to being in a room full of people. I looked around at all the dream characters, and decided to talk to someone, so I went up to the cutest lady in the room (who else?). She was very friendly, and shortly things got down and dirty. My lucidity was spotty from there on, then I woke up rather happy.

This was also last week. There was stuff leading up to it that I don't remember, but...I was on a freeway curving out over a large, still body of water with some trees growing out of it and lots of greenery along the banks. I didn't have a car, but was just gliding along the road at very high speed (a common dream sign for me). I was going so fast I flew off the road and was heading for the water, and for a second I flashed back to a childhood falling-off-a-bridge-and-drowning dream, and got scared, but then I thought "this whole situation seems familiar, I'll bet I can get out of this." So I slowed my fall, and looked around for a place to land. There was a stump sticking out of the water, and I aimed for it but missed, and I was still losing altitude, so now my legs were dragging in the water. I made another pass, and now there was a statue growing out of the stump, like maybe a statue of a saint in robes with one hand stretched out, and I missed again but saw a tree closer by, and got to that (waist deep in water) and climbed up out.

So, I figured out I was in a world where I could slow down and control a fall, but didn't figure out it was a dream world.

Nightmare (1st vivid dream after I joined this forum)

This was last week, and I didn't dwell on it, so my recall is so-so. My nephew (he's 3) was kidnapped, and I was communicating with the kidnapper through this guy at a pharmacy-window. Dude let me know that my nephew was being held with a bunch of other kids by a pedophile ring with one guy in charge. Somehow, I managed to find the guy, and turned him over to the cops. I was feeling all frantic, like "How bad was this for my nephew, how are we all going to deal with this?" Then I was with my sister, and when I ask how my nephew is, she very calmly tells me that on the way back from the pedophile place he crawled out the car-window, and she tried to hold onto him, but he flew off and died. My sister was really calm, but I totally broke down, reviewing the situation and thinking maybe I should have killed the pedophile-guy when I had him, but that wouldn't have helped anything, and OMG my nephew's dead, his life got so bad that he killed himself at age 3...etc.

I woke up just numb, and it took a minute to realize that this world where my nephew was dead was not the world I was now in, and I wasn't even relieved, just numb. This is how nightmares are for me on those rare occasions I have them: here, have some intense emotional trauma, no wait, ha ha, it was just a dream.

Ok, i haven't journaled in here for a while because i've not had many Lucid's lately, a few here and there but not very many. Mostly due to lack of sleep and being overworked but anyway here's the Lucid i had last night that blew my mind.



I began the dream sort of floating through a very colorful nebula in space. I started to notice a large black dot in the nebula and i thought that surely this wasn't a planet in side of a nebula and started to question things in my mind, one being if i'm dreaming. After a glance at the brightest star (which always seemed to be behind me)I became fully Lucid, probably the most lucid i've been in a very long time. I spoke aloud "I am Dreaming, Increase vividness, I am in full control" and the "Universe and all the stars and space debris and solar winds and everything answered my commands by attaining an increase in sharpness and contrast and clarity. I then focused on the planet in the nebula. It was small, probably 5/8 the size of earth. I flew down to it and landed on it. The surface was a grey color with whites and dark browns. I noticed it had some small hills around me and nothing larger than a couple large plateaus, no mountains. I declared "This is a new world and i will it into existence!" i closed my eyes and felt a powerful wind sweep around me, and then accompanying the wind i felt the ground get extremely hot under my feet, and i opened my eyes and i was standing in a valley that had been shaped with hills to the sides, i could a waterless riverbed running through it ending in a large lake bed. I looked up into the sky and raised my hands and began slowly closing my hands, the more i closed them the harder it became, i noticed that small wisps of clouds began to form in the sky and they slowly gained in size and the sky went from a clear night sky to a blue and purple tinged sky but you could still see the nebula through it. The cloud wisps turned into cumulus and stratus clouds. The cumulus clouds began to turn grey and my hands finally clenched tightly closed. I opened my hands quickly and as they did so did the clouds release rain onto the land. I lowered my arms and a grin crept across my face, i was creating a planet and giving it life. I then laid down to rest, the ground was wet and muddy but it was soft and now malleable. I laid there on my back looking up into the sky and saw that there were three bright stars in the nebula that gave the planet it's light and the nebula itself was visible through the sky. I laid there and waited for night to come, i watched the river fill with water and then begin to fill the lake. In the sky you could see this large "Dust and debris" cloud move in front of the stars which gave a "lighter" version of night to the planet. The material was debris orbiting the small planet. By the time the debris had moved away from the sky the river was filled with water and the lake was a beautiful color teal. I looked at the ground i was laying on and noticed small blades of grass growing in patches in an outwards direction from where i lay. I touched a single blade and it grew into a flower, and budded right before my eyes. I smiled and looked up to see the entire area was covered in grass, and flowers with different types of flowering trees here and there. I stood and walked over to the lake and saw small, very tiny creatures swimming in the water. I knew these would some day be fish and there would be other animals amongst the trees and grass of the ground. I tilted my head down and saw a pile of dust at my feet. I grab a handful and let it sift through my fingers, as it flowed through the wind it began to come together and create a female like humanoid. The skin was grey and cracked like the ground and she didn't seem "real" she looked just like what she was, a pile of dust, a statue made from it. I thought to myself of the things man had done to earth, and how much more wonderful earth could've been without man, and a tear ran down my cheek for this thing, but i knew it would do the same here, so i leaned in and blew on "her" cheek and the dust slowly blew away into the wind and settle amongst the grass. I knew the planet could sustain itself now and decided i needed not stay so i shot my eyes to the sky and with a thought i shot into space and away from the planet and into the the darkness of space.

I awoke pretty ecstatic about that dream, and jotted down as much as could come to my mind.

In this dream i simply spent it in my room practicing my dream control over psychokinesis.


I had a false awakening to begin with, that's when i noticed some things were missing on my dresser and became Lucid. I reached out with my hand, sitting up in my bed, and waved my hand in front of my vision. As the hand left my vision the missing items were replaced. I then reached out with my right hand a directed it at my deodorant spray, holding my hand out until i could almost feel the solidity in my hand then i slowly lifted my hand and watched as the deodorant rose in correlation with the high of my hand, it was slightly rocking side to side but just barely. Satisfied with the results so far i decided to up my attempt and lift two things with two hands. I reached out for my deodorant again and with my left hand i reached for my wallet. i lifted both with ease. I decided to try and progress even more, so i reached out with one hand and had my hand made into a fist. I quickly opened my hand and spread it wide and did a psychic push. Instead of pushing the objects off the dresser i pushed the dresser out the window. I laughed and decided i would pull myself out of the dream before the cops came or something.

Ok, so in this lucid i was first dreaming about being just a robot. I woke up, thought about how it'd be cool to be a Transformer and concentrated on that as i fell back to sleep...



I opened my eyes in my dream to this city that looked alot like new york, but very badly beat up from what i took as the other robot shooting purple blasts of plasma at me. Some buildings we're on fire and for some reason that's what unlocked my Lucidity in this dream. I looked at myself and i was side swipe off of Transformers 2. I guess this comes from my old passion for roller blading. I started darting and dodging the plasma shots and looked down at my blades, they began glowing hot with energon, so i scissor cut right threw the building i was standing behind started slaloming between the smaller buildings and flipping over a few, still dodging the plasma bursts. The enemy never transformed into anything other than a robot so i don't know if it was a decepticon or not. The closer i got though the heavier he laid on the fire power. I eventually got close enough to swing my right blade at him a lance his head from his body. I stood straight up and kind of dusted my hands off, that's when i looked down and noticed his eyes had turned into a timer! I quickly transformed in my car mode (and here's where it got weird) and began speeding away, dodging cars and chunks of burning building lying in the street. The way i was driving though was a lot like flying superman style but anchored to the ground. I could actually feel my tires rolling over the asphalt and the air rushing over and under me. After i got about six or so miles away i transformed back and stood up looking in the direction i was fleeing, only to see that the explosion was an implosion that engulfed most of the city and the bubble stopped just a couple feet shy of me and then the bubble and the portion of the city inside the bubble and a large amount of earth under the bubble winked out of existence.

That's when i decided i'd had enough of the dream and pulled myself out of it.

I've posted a thread regarding this and here is the journal entry for it:

I had been meditating for about two hours, yesterday on the subject of finding others dreaming while i myself am in a dream state. I finished my meditation and prepared for sleep with my nightly routine. I laid down and began to WILD.



I opened my eyes in my dream and was sitting at my dining table eating. I noticed i was "eating" but nothing was on my plate, that's when i became lucid. I stood up and noticed i indeed was in my home and everything was as close to how it should be as i suppose it could be (nothing caught my eye as out of place) so i decided to step outside. It was night and i decided to go try to find others asleep in there beds. I walked down my driveway and onto my road. I began walking down my road when i noticed a strange feeling coming from further down the road, which distracted me from my task at hand. As i neared the end of my road a shape started to pull itself together from the darkness at the end of the road and it formed into the shape of a man and began walking in my direction. I became suddenly frightened and shout "leave my dream!" and raised my arm into the air to wipe my hand across my vision which is how i wipe away DC's most of the time if i don't want them there. That's when the shadowy character shouted back "This is my dream, I am the dreamer!" and he raised his left arm shot a bright blue lightening bolt out of his hand an it struck me dead center in the chest sending me flying backwards threw the air and when i struck the ground I woke up panting and sat up.

I spoke with some DV members on here as soon as i woke up and got some opinions on it. I've made it a goal of mine for 2010 to find this dream Hi-jacker (i believe it to be another dreamer) and battle him/her in our dream.

If I complete this goal it should make for an epic battle if both of us are Lucid and in a peak state of dream control!