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key: not a dream non-lucid lucid dream

Okay well I have to write this down, but I didn't have it last night.

I'm standing in the back of the church I went to for most of my life, I moved and never go there anymore, but I don't think about my presence at the church. I see one of my friends, Meaghan, in the church with us and she's wearing a knee-length light blue dress with a flower pattern. I think to myself that her being here is unusual, because she's an atheist. I wonder about it for a little while but don't become lucid. She goes to my dad and shakes hands with him as she starts a conversation that I can't hear.

I can't remember any of that certain part, but I remember this next part in the same dream :

I am standing at the top of a staircase at the church, not a very large one, but a staircase. I am with Meaghan again, but this time we are with our friend Jade. I sit down at the very top of the staircase, my feet on the first step going down. Then suddenly Jade is behind me with her hands on my shoulders, I feel her trying to push me down the staircase.
"You've got to try this, Jesse!" she says, laughing.
All the while both Meaghan & I are yelling "No! Jade stop! Stop!!". I'm grabbing the railing on both sides of the staircase, fighting against Jade, because I don't want to be pushed down the stairs. Then she succeeds, and as I am falling down the stairs the stairs turn into a large red slide, and the scenery around me changes from the church to a playground on the outside of the church. I come off the slide and Jade is standing near the side of the slide (LOL. SIDE OF THE SLIDE.), she's laughing and says "Now that wasn't too bad was it??" I start laughing and say, "No, it wasn't!"

Another remembered part in the same dream:

Me, Meaghan, and Jade are in Wal-Mart. It's nightttime. We pick up random objects although we have no money. We're homeless. I see Christmas objects all around, and I somehow know that it is dark and snowy outside. We run into a woman with a cart and a Wal-Mart vest -- she works there. We tell her we need these things from the store, but we have no money because we are homeless. She starts crying and says how it's only part of the Christmas feeling to help homeless children. She sets us up a large airmattress with warm blankets for us to sleep on in the backroom.

I really enjoyed this dream, I'm not sure why. It was interesting, and memorable.
Again, not sure why...

Missed Dream Signs:
-It's July, not December. The snow and Christmas merchandise made no sense.
-Meaghan is atheist, and she's at church with me.
-I am not homeless..
-The staircase inside the church was not an actual part of the church.

Oh I wish I would of become lucid....perhaps next time...

So I figure this can't be all bad, what with convenient tagging and other features and such. Carbon copying from dream journal, go!

7:00 AM awakening time:

-First part of the dream I'm with my sister and mom, sister's playin' the vidya and mom calls me to help her move furniture

-Later, I was a father, with a wife and two kids. We were moving from slums to slums, because we were being chased by the Asian mafia. We don't want our daughter (age six) to know. Our son (age 14) found out, though my wife has some mental deficit, some automatic repression which prevents her from acknowledging the cause of the mafia's dissent with us, but she is very aware of the danger. so we pack. we pack and we are silent, segmented. Are we being watched? Would they bother monitoring us? We have a plan to escape. I'm staying up all night, nerves a wreck, clutching at every outlet for comfort, thirsty for normal conversation, giving long hugs to my little girl during midnight water trips, coaxing them into midnight snack trips, eager for that added two minutes of family contact. My wife and son believe me, when I say I know where we're going. The truth is, I know they'll never let me leave. Let us leave. This hackneyed plan is only a gesture, all I can do to show that my character does not stem from dogged compliance with this situation, but the drive to do what's right. My last lesson...

We don't get very far at all. I'm on the porch with our last box. We were going to leave at dawn. An agent steps on my foot and is about to say something clever. I tell him to shut the fuck up. I'm crushed, alone. My last lesson...

We're at our new home, mother and son resigned to slavery, daughter introduced with all manner of sinister as to what's in store for her. Only half of our belongings made it here. The rest go to pawn shops. Three agents now, and I recognize them by face. They're here to give me punishment. They taunted me; they were sure I wasn't armed. Of course, I was sure they weren't watching when we packed. I bided time for strategy, but that soon caved in (caved in like my survival rate, judging by the way they talked). By a staircase and a toolbox, I wrenched out of their grip. I shot one down in an instant, turned to shoot the one behind, shooting twice in one fluid turn, so that both shots were at sloppy, thoughtless (no revenge, no regret, only instinct) angles. The third man is terrified. he has a round face and rounded teeth, and a swoopy bowl haircut which makes him look none the less ugly. I make a terrible error: I think. His gun won't fire, he makes no excuse but I'm sure I've seen the shells fly out on an earlier day. I try and bribe him in a tone that asserts confidence, but a vocabulary so honest it betrays the status quo. A door opens from a floor above. I know this well-groomed tan man. I shoot the nervous round-face, and my bullets bounce off his chest. My gun isn't forming a good seal with the bullets...? The bullets are too small...?

The man from above tosses at me some trash, contemplates his pistol, reholsters it, shuts the door as I glance at the flash bomb beside me. As the light envelopes, I can't think about my family at all. Only this. This is death, and it lasts a few seconds, and there's no pain, just a powerful thump to all of my body. Then that is gone. What now? There's the warehouse, and the flash, and I'm

a 19-year-old girl, staring at a sleeping 19-year-old boy, light filtering through the curtains.

Note: My first goal for the night, the one I used my WILD for, was to go meet MoSh and then we were going to go back and view a dream he had a while back where he was speaking to don Juan. In this dream don Juan had told MoSh he had a message for me, but I would have to find him first, and the instructions for finding him were in that dream if I could get them. Other goals are the same as other nights. I fell asleep with my light / sound machine and slipped into an unusually vivid WILD…

I was in MoSh's inner world. I surveyed my surroundings and saw everything looked like it always does, nothing seemed out of place. Sometimes it is difficult to keep the beginnings of these dreams separate since the dreams where I go to get MoSh before doing anything else are starting to merge together in my mind. I found MoSh, and we went through a portal back to my inner world.

MoSh and I emerged from the portal into the living room of my house, the first thing I saw was a cat running when we appeared suddenly. The cat, Amber, peeked around a corner as if to see if it was safe to come out, and seeing it was MoSh and me, she came back out right away. I booted up the laptop that was sitting on the couch and logged into the dream journal program right away. I searched through the list of MoSh's dreams and found the correct one, which was labeled "Don Juan At My Picnic Table," and clicked on that one. Everything was working smoothly as the hologram started up and we were transported to a virtual recreation of MoSh's dream.

I looked around the area, nothing was remarkable, what I was looking at was a park of some kind with a picnic table there, MoSh was sitting on one side of the picnic table with what appeared to be an Indian shaman sitting across from him. The present day MoSh and I got closer so we could hear what was being said. I actually sat on the left side of the MoSh at the picnic table, and the present day MoSh was beside me, and there was a dark specter floating over the shaman… wtf? There was no dark specter… the day was bright and sunny, a great day for a picnic, and there was no sign of anything creepy… except for the dark fog seeping out of the… gopher hole?! That wasn't dark fog… it was a cute little gopher baring it's razor sharp fangs as it tore the head off of a small lizard and swallowed the thing whole… um… ok… my mind was running away from me a bit here… I focused my attention on the shaman, who I knew right away was don Juan, and listened to him and MoSh talking to each other.

Don Juan was talking to MoSh about getting a message to me regarding how to find him, when don Juan said that he took a glance to MoSh's left, directly at me, as if he was looking at me. But that couldn't be, this was a hologram, it wasn't even like we'd traveled through time to view it in person. Don Juan's gaze strayed to the present day MoSh and then returned to the MoSh he was speaking with. MoSh said something about me not having the power to reach don Juan, but don Juan said it has nothing to do with power, what I was lacking was the belief in myself, I have too much doubt about myself to find him, which I thought was odd since I was now sitting across from him… I snickered, which somehow seemed to get his attention again… don Juan looked at me for a bit longer this time, I had the distinct feeling I was actually being watched, so I silenced myself, I wasn't here to interfere, after all… but I wasn't here at all! I put my attention back on don Juan right as a large black form with huge razor teeth reared up behind don Juan and was preparing to bite his head off, or that's what it appeared to be… I instinctive stood up and yelled at don Juan to look out, and right at that time don Juan leaned over to pick something up from the ground… the creature's teeth clamped down on nothing and the thing dissipated into the air like smoke.

After that, the other MoSh was still not paying any attention to me, the present MoSh was looking at me strangely, and don Juan also seemed to be watching me… was this not just a hologram? Were we actually there? I didn't have any answers to those questions for certain, but it definitely looked like don Juan was responding to my actions… so now I just straight out asked don Juan if he could see me, was he actually looking at me like it appeared he was looking at me. He didn't say anything, but he focused his gaze right into my eyes briefly before looking back at the past version of MoSh. So he was seeing me! I had no doubt in my mind of that now, somehow he was seeing me, which would indicate this was not just a hologram.

So the dream went on this way, the past MoSh and don Juan spoke a bit more, don Juan said something about telling me things then I could write them down… at the same time as I was seeing don Juan and MoSh talking in a park I was seeing someplace much more disturbing, a dark and dreary place with strange mutant creatures crawling through the shadows, often coming out and feeding on one another… I couldn't hide a look of 'yuck' when a smaller creature jumped on a larger one, tore into the stomach of the larger one, ate the soft tissue within, then ran off leaving the larger creature still alive, but inevitably dying an unpleasant death, and making the most horrible noises as it died… this caused me to not hear all of what don Juan and MoSh were saying to each other, but don Juan seemed to find my reactions interesting, as he looked over in my direction several times. Smaller ant like mutants, mouse sized ants, came out and began eating the creature before it had finished its slow demise, creating the loudest and most horrible cries of pain yet…

Once the pathetic creature was dead I was able to return my attention to MoSh and don Juan, the latter of the two was looking back at me… I saw movement off to my left and looked over just in time to see MoSh disappear from the picnic bench, that must be where he woke up, and now there was something else there… sort of a version of MoSh, but it had razor sharp fangs and teeth, talons on his hands, and the eyes of a goat… meaning his pupils were horizontal and square shaped, looked really kind of creepy. That version of MoSh hissed at me like a snake and then made to bite me with his sharp fangs, I held him back from biting me, and then he disappeared just as the normal MoSh had done. I looked over at the present day MoSh, and he was looking over at don Juan… hadn't he seen what had just happened? Hadn't he seen the really creepy version of himself? I was getting the idea he hadn't, which seemed really strange that he could have missed it…

Don Juan was looking directly at me now, no longer trying for the illusion that he couldn't see me, it was obvious to anyone looking that he was looking right at me… both of him were looking right at me… There appeared to be two of him, one lying barely beneath the surface of the other, creating a somewhat blurred image of him… I wondered if there was another don Juan within the inner don Juan… I looked closer and could see there indeed was, and another… and another… and another… and then I stopped looking deeper because it was starting to give me a headache… like looking into infinity. I felt like the dream was going to slip away from me, but that was the last thing I wanted to do… I looked away from the many dimensional don Juan and looked at my own hands, trying to stabilize my dream, and I did a double take… I had talons?! Or at least one version of my hands had talons… another had long red fingernails, another looked normal but had blue skin… ok, enough of seeing all of this, to stabilize the dream… I closed my eyes and used the time dilation method Allura showed me, and as I dilated time the dream stabilized.

With the dream stabilized, I looked back up at don Juan, I asked what the message was that he had for me. He said nothing for a short time, and then, "The fact that you are here proves you already understand the message." I was sitting there looking at him with what was no doubt a blank look, the different versions of don Juan were responding differently, one was snickering, one had no expression, one was frowning, one was outright laughing his ass off, one was shaking his head, one was nodding, one was… ok… that was too many don Juans again… I was getting disoriented. He asked exactly what I thought I was seeing, I figured he meant the fact I was seeing many versions of the same thing, so that's what I answered, that it was different versions of the same things from multiple planes of existence. He said I was only seeing a few of the many ways that things are, but let's see if I was really seeing anything at all…

Before I could put meaning to that, however, the scene around me changed. I surveyed my new surroundings and saw I was standing in a forest clearing (barren desert landscape) where there was one person there beside myself. That person looked like an Indian shaman (weird crazy old man) with long white hair hanging down to about the middle of his back (sticking out in every possible direction) and an old wizened face (with wild colored paint all over it)… I was seeing two versions of this person at the same time…

Version One:
I was in a barren desert landscape with very little sign of life anywhere, and the crazy looking shaman was staring at me with an insane look in his eyes. I focused on him for a bit, not sure what I was supposed to do about this situation, he attacked me with a wind spell, he formed a tornado and basically sent it at me. I jumped out of the way and flew over to the other side of the crazy shaman, looking at him to see what the best course of action was… and his spark was something I couldn't miss, so I would heal him. The song I thought I needed to use was Touch My Heart, so I focused on that while evading another wind attack, this one had wind blasts compressed so tightly that they were like spears, the song played through and golden energy flowed through the shaman, I had directed the spell to match the shaman's own energy. The song finished playing, the shaman looked normal now, he nodded at me and was gone.

Version Two:
I was in the forest clearing, there was an Indian shaman looking at me with a calm expression on his face, he also had an evil glint in his eyes. I wondered if he was up to something, I thought there was something strange about his aura, it seemed ice cold. I heard him chuckle, and then there was an explosion of activity as animals charged from every direction attacking me, they seemed to be under the shaman's control. They were innocent animals, I didn't want to hurt them, so I took to the sky to avoid an assortment of birds dive bombed me from the sky, to free the animals I would have to deal with the shaman quickly. I searched him, I figured I would find the spark, but I saw nothing… could that be? I looked a little deeper, still nothing, I looked as much as I could… I was attacked more, and I had still seen no sign of a spark in this man. Since I could see nothing to heal in there I just went for straight defending myself… He was attacking me with a staff that had a blade on each end as the animals continued attacking me from behind, I saw no choice but to counter attack with my Witchblade sword, and I ended up killing him. Once he was dead, the animals dispersed, then I saw a ghost rise from the body and both were gone.

Ok… now things looked normal again, what had that been all about? I was going to say something to don Juan, who was there in front of me again, but I didn't get a chance to before everything changed again. I was inside a room now, that looked like the interior of an old type building that might have been used by native Americans… There was yet another shaman standing in front of me, he had long braided gray hair (long black hair pulled back into a pony tail) (I couldn't see his hair because of a hood over his head)… I was seeing three versions of things now…

Version One:
I was looking at the shaman with long gray hair that was in braids on both sides of his face. He attacked me with fire, forming a fireball in each hand and throwing it at me. I countered the fire with a blast of ice, to extinguish the flames so the place wouldn't burn to the ground with us in it… though this man was attacking me, he had a spark… so I would heal him. A ring of fire formed around the man, expanding to burn all in its path including me… I focused on the song Touch My heart, which felt right for this situation, and the healing energy flowed through the man. He nodded, then disappeared.

Version Two:
The shaman had long black hair that was pulled back into a pony tail, his eyes were creepily red and looked a bit crazed… He was attacking me with ice, throwing icicles at me like spears, I shattered them with my Witchblade sword while checking this guy for a spark, which I saw burning inside him, so I focused on the healing spell that felt right, and that one was the song Frozen by Madonna. The song played and golden energy flowed through the shaman, having the intended effect. This shaman also nodded his head and then disappeared.

Version Three
I was facing a shaman with blood red robes on, his face was mostly concealed within the red hood, but I could see his eyes, and they were burning like they had fire in them… it sounded like he was growling from inside the hood. I'm not sure if it was real or imagined, but I thought I saw fangs inside the hood, the light glinted off his fangs… He was attacking me with dark energy, it looked like his base energy was dark energy, he was throwing balls of dark energy at me. I deflected the energy balls back at him and he absorbed them back into himself. Now I could clearly hear he was laughing at me… I was about to start fighting him, but no… he also had a spark… I needed another healing spell… I focused on the one that seemed right for the situation, and that one was Until It Sleeps by Metallica. The song played through, and the healing took its effect as in the previous two situations. My Until It Sleeps spell was using dark energy, which was clearly the shaman's base energy, and the spell had automatically matched that energy. The stable dark energy flowed through the shaman, bring about the healing effect. Once healed, the shaman removed his hood, nodded his head, then disappeared.

I was now back in the park with the present day MoSh and the don Juan from his dream. MoSh was looking at me strangely, I wondered if I had been gone very long, I wondered if it had even been noticeable that I had been gone… I looked over at don Juan, I was going to say something, but I didn't get a chance before five spirits appeared, the five from the shamans I had encountered, they were all standing in a circle around don Juan. One by one, the shaman spirits merged into each other until there was just one left, and he was no longer a spirit, he looked very solid. And don Juan seemed to know this man, it looked like they were friends. I wondered who this new man was, I wondered how he (they?) had known don Juan. The other man turned around and disappeared into thin air as he walked away, and then don Juan turned back to me. I was wondering what the message had been, I asked him… he said that if I was to examine the events of this dream more closely that the message hidden within would become clear to me. He said now it was time for me to wake up, I had been doing a lot of dreaming in just a single hour of sleep… just an hour? I wondered if that was possible, and then I woke and found I truly had only been sleeping for an hour…

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nomad's apartment

All i remember was being outside an apartment building and remembering that Nomad lived there. I was walking around and doing something i forget.

fight.

Brief dream where I'm outside some buildings. theres a young boy and a man there. for some reason i don't like the man. We somehow get in a small fight. I try to hurt him but the restrain myself from doing so.

Basement

I'm in a basement. My room is all messy and there's clothes all over the floor. I go into another rooma nd it's filled with some construction guys. they seem rather rowdy and I don't like them.

Later i am looking at a japanese newspaper. I flip through the pages and see a colour at. The title says "MoSh Moon". i see a picture of manga. In it i see a cartoon version of myself sitting on a couch at night time. beside me is a Rico suave dude. Beside him is Asuka, who's smiling. In the picture i Look unhappy, my head is reasting on my one hand and I look sad.

Kung fu

Vague dream of going through section 7 of the tiger and crane kung fu set. This is the section with crane beaks. I remember doing a series of movements and then switching the movements with the opposite sides of my body. making pecking motions with my hands.

Note from the author
Hey guys. I've had a couple of very personal goals of mine come up that I would really like to focus on. This includes attempting some shared dreams with both my brother, but also my best friend. The ones with my brother are top priority, as they are leading to something else much bigger. We are trying to get a message across to another brother of ours who we lost contact with, some time ago.

While I won't devote ALL my lucid time to this (since that'll likely burn me out, and I like to do fun things, too), it is rather the top priority at the moment. Don't worry, Kraftwerk and Mosh! I haven't forgotten about you, I just really need to focus on this, now that I've got a fairly decent amount of monthly LD totals rolling in...

July 29, 2010
Jack and i entered someone else's apartment. False memory told me it was our old apartment, but it didn't look like ours.

I needed to have a shower, so I went into the washroom. There were towels all over the place and in the tub.

I started throwing them all out on the floor. The door was slightly ajar, and i started feeling a little horny. I clued in at this point that I was dreaming (probably because of the random, sudden horniness). I thought maybe someone could walk through the door right now...

A very average looking guy came through the door. He'll do I guess, it is just a dream. "Take off your clothes, we're going to have sex!" I told him. He looked shocked! "Oh, get over it, it's just a dream," I told him

He seemed alright with that, but then his looks changed. He became old, bald, and was missing teeth. "Ugh," I thought. "Change back, change back!"

Then, Jack comes in. He starts quizzing the guy on having sex with me. He's not outright asking, and the guy is dodging the answer. I was trying to will Jack to go away (poor hubby!). Then, I could work on morphing him into something hotter...

The dream dissolved, but I managed to chain back in, sort of. I was still lucid, but in a new room. I was staring at a phone and I remembered my goal of phoning Naiya for the DV TOTM.

I held down the 3 on the phone for speed dial (I have you all on speed dial!). "Hello?" a girl's voice answered.

"Hey, Naiya, it's Serenity."

"Hey, what's up?"

"I'm just calling to remind you to dream share with Walms."

"I did that already!" she answers.

"Oh. Alright then, talk to you in chat later!"

"Bye!"

That was short... Right then, well, having not satisfied my dream horniness, I thought about another guy coming into the new room I was in. This one was so much better with very nice abs and arms

Dream ended before we could get down to it though, and I couldn't chain back in.

I woke from the previous dream and rolled over in bed. I had to go pee… damn. I didn't want to take the time for that, I'd just had a dream and I needed to take notes on it before I forgot anything. I sat up and grabbed my dream book, using my cell phone as a light, I took a couple rapid notes. Blake, moon bus, you're dreaming, bullshit. Ok… hopefully that would be enough there. I got up to go use the bathroom, patting the cute little kitty on my bed as I made my way around the bed in the dark. It seemed darker than normal. I opened the bedroom door to head for the bathroom… and there was someone standing there! I jumped about three feet, very surprised to see someone there at the door. I tripped over some crap on the ground and fell backwards onto my bed, great… there's an intruder and I fall backward onto my ass… not a good start. The guy in my doorway didn't hesitate at all, he seemed to be in a hurry. He called me Raven, said something about being in a hurry… the cat on my bed meowed… the man seemed to be staring at me for a bit, then he reached out and grabbed hold of me and pulled me through a portal. My first reaction might have been to resist, but in spite of the greeting, I wasn't sensing hostility, so I didn't resist.

The man and I emerged from the portal in a desolate place, the only visible life in the area were a group of individuals right around me, one of whom was the man who had grabbed me. I looked at the others, one of them was a beautiful white dragon… that one caught my attention so much that I didn't really notice the others as well as I could have… the dragon was pure white and so beautiful that she almost seemed to be glowing with light energy. I was staring at her, I had the feeling it was a female, when the man who brought me there said I was dreaming, do a reality check, and choose a better form unless I intended to meet Xildron as a cat… I finally recognized the man I was talking to, it was Walms, and apparently this had something to do with healing Xildron, so I would be using a healing spell on… wait a minute… hat he just said something about meeting Xildron as a cat? Who was he calling a cat? I looked down at my own hands… um… paws? Wtf? I was, indeed, a cat… not a panther… a kitty cat… so I transformed into my Assassin form, not needing to do a reality check to realize this was a dream. Walms said something to a couple of the others and then he was gone.

Ok… so what now? I looked around at the others there with me, none of them looked familiar to me, but they were clearly my allies now. I scanned the area for Xildron, and I found he was really quite close, he soon came into view, he was a dragon, and what a dragon! I can't really describe him, but here goes… I might be able to come up with a pic for later… he was a large dragon, shiny black scales that looked like flawless impenetrable armor, huge wings that looked like they were made up of many faceted jet black gems, four arms that ended in huge razor sharp talons, and heads… one, two, three, four, five… no more time to admire the dragon, he was attacking. I took flight and evaded the initial attack, as did everyone there with me, I remembered that I wasn't really here to help with the fight, I was here to focus my energy on the healing while the others took care of the attacks, so I just evaded the attacks and saved my energy to use on the healing spells I would use when the time felt right. Right now if I used a healing spell I knew he would just block it, and it would be a waste of energy. I could see the others had erected a force field of some kind around all of us, maybe to keep Xildron from leaving? Maybe also to keep enemies outside the force field from coming in, it appeared Xildron really did have an army out there trying to get inside to give him backup…

So I was staying out of the way as the fight was going on, which seemed like kind of a waste not to be helping in some way, but I didn't want to deplete my energy fighting when I would probably need it to heal Xildron. So instead of attacking Xildron, I used my first healing spell, I focused on Silver and Cold by AFI, and its effect of drawing some of the unstable dark energy off of Xildron into myself. I was getting large amounts of the dark energy now, it certainly wouldn't deplete my energy, I would have more than ever, and I was focused on stabilizing the energy as I received it. At first I thought Xildron was going to respond to my energy drain, but he was quickly occupied by attacks from the others. Unstable dark energy was something Xildron had an abundance of, and I was well into a third rendition of Silver and Cold before it started to become too much dark energy that I was absorbing, I would have to get rid of some of it somehow because I was having trouble keeping up with stabilizing it all. I couldn't safely do that here, though, because while my allies, Walms' kids, could absorb and use the dark energy, Xildron could also absorb it back into himself which would be counterproductive to the healing process. I absorbed more of his energy until it was at the point where I couldn't control any more, and then I did a quick portal, focused on locating a Templar base. The portal opened…

I emerged from the portal right over a Templar base, I could see the Templars below me going about whatever no good business they were currently up to, but I didn't take the time to watch the Templars for long. Instead, I just released a massive blast of the unstable dark energy on the Templar base, focusing it out as a blast of black flames that took the form of a huge fireball. The fireball descended on the surprised Templars, and before they even had a chance to fully register what was happening, there was a massive explosion of dark energy and their base was left as nothing more than a large crater in the ground. I wasn't sure if any of them had escaped, but if they had, they were surely looking at the crater gong, "What the hell was that?!" I had no time to survey the destruction of the Templars, I went right through the portal back to Xildron, which I hadn't even bothered closing when I had first arrived.

The fight was still going on when I got back, and it made me wonder if anyone had noticed I had disappeared for a bit there. I closed the portal and went back to draining excess unstable dark energy off of Xildron, the less energy he had to fight the others, the better. Since I had vented a large portion, I was once again having no difficulty stabilizing the dark energy as I received it. Xildron seemed to finally be weakening, the attacks of the others were getting through much more often now. It looked like they were trying to restrain Xildron, most likely so he would be unable to block the healing energy so easily. I saw the beautiful white dragon again, flying in towards Xildron, she was using some light energy to try to bind the huge black dragon. The others moved in and managed to immobilize Xildron, but it didn't look like they would have him immobilized for long, I got a telepathic message to heal him already, the message was from a woman, she said she didn't know how long they could hold him.

Ok… need a healing spell… but Xildron's base energy is dark energy, so the spell would have to just stabilize his dark energy, not purge it out, if anything it would be helpful to purge out any incompatible light energy for now… The first song I thought of was Touch My Heart off of the Devil Hunter Yohko soundtrack, but that normally uses light energy… so what if it normally uses light energy? Feed dark energy into the spell, it would use dark energy. All of those thoughts flew through my head in just a second or two, then I was focused on the song Touch My Heart and also on feeding dark energy into it. The song was playing loudly in the desolate land, spirals of energy erupted around Xildron… he tried one more time to get loose from the others before the spell had him surrounded in healing energy, and I saw one of Walms' kids, a male in a human form (I don't have them straight, so I'm unsure of this one's name), was hit by a blast of energy and knocked out of their formation, he was slammed to the ground where he made a large crater. I focused as much stable dark energy into the spell as I could do, and that energy, a dark flow of energy that looked like the normal golden healing energy with the one exception that it was dark instead of light flowed into Xildron. It looked at first like he was going to try to block it, but maybe he saw it was energy he wanted, or maybe he just didn't have the energy left to resist, but the healing energy got through.

The healing song was over now, and the others I had been fighting with were standing around Xildron, who was still an impressive looking dragon even though he looked a bit worn out. I looked to see if I could find the one who had been nailed by Xildron during the healing, but I couldn't see him. I wondered if he had been forced to leave before the fight was completely over. I also wondered where Walms might be, he would surely want to know that the healing spell on Xildron had been completed, though there would be no way of knowing for sure that it had worked until Xildron recovered at least some of his energy. He seemed calm now, but he might just be tired… The feeling I had was that the healing energy had done its job and Xildron would be ok now. I didn't have a chance to even try to check to see what effect the healing might have had on Xildron, this was the point when I woke.

This is a dream i had in a morning. It seemed very real but a little strange. Can't understand how i missed the fact that in the middle of the summer people were skating but still. The ski was a light blue with no trace of any clouds on it. I was with some of my friends just talking but out of the sudden we start a race. A skating race that is. The skates were nothing more than some small wooden planks with some leather straps on them . The prize was a girl, apparently the girl of your dreams. Nobody talked about the finish line but i already knew where it was going to end. We start. I am in the middle trying to go faster but i end up running. After dodging a car headed our way i get pushed backwards by one of my friends. I try to reach them but it's too late. The race is over and i am the 6th or 7th. I get there i saw the girl. The thing is i actually rarely talk to her irl and haven't seen her for a year or more. She looks in my eyes , but then somebody says hi, i answer and the dream fades. At that point i began to realize i was dreaming. And talking about this i recalled another dream. Well , actually just some scenes but good enough for me

This took a few days to write up. I can't remember if I became lucid at a point, although I might have become semi-lucid.

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I'm in a courtroom, although I'm not part of the jury or part of the trial. I think I know people involved, but I'm not going to be called up or anything. I look around the courtroom and everything seems normal. I notice characters from a friend's comic-in-progress and I don't think this is out of the ordinary at all.

It's some kind of custody battle, and I can't remember a lot of the trial. At some point, the judge called a recess and I headed to the bathroom. I was in a stall and I heard two girls talking, and when I was in there they left soon and a man and a woman came in with a little girl. The girl kept making flowers and vines appear. The parents noticed this eventually and told her to stop. At this point I came out of the stall and the girl made a rose appear on the corner of the sink. I remarked "She's clever, by making pretty things she makes it harder for people to tell her to remove them." The parents gave me a look, and then left. I finished washing my hands and left.

The outside place is no longer the courthouse. It looks like the inside of a haunted house - the walls are painted somewhere between camo and jungle. I start walking, but I stop after a few steps. There are bumpercars of a sort running through the hallway and I break into a run to get past them. Then I see carosel horses in front of me and I notice there is blood on their muzzels. They look mad. I decide to not get near them, because I don't want to find out why they have blood on their faces.

I get past them but I feel a tug on my pantleg - I run past just in time and I see people in a train waving their arms around. They tell me to come over to them, but I feel like this isn't a good move. It seems wrong. Before I can make a choice on whether to run or not, I wake up.

This is copy pasted from my LJ. An older dream, but one very vivid, and a bit gruesome at the end. As I say in my title, do not read if you are squeamish about animals getting hurt.

Dream #1:

I'm driving to work and see bunnies on the side of the road. It's day time, and I think it's summer. There's a ton of them laying there and hopping around. I stop and get out. They aren't afraid of me. I go over and sit in the center of them. They are white, with brown ears. I pick up a baby bunny. I pet it and set it down, then I pick up a smaller one and pet that one. I see a big yellow hump in between the bunnies. I squint my eyes at it and it rises and rushes me. I stop it from hitting my chest with my free hand and it bounces back and disappears. It was a baby toy chicken; I remember the black dot eyes and the orange bill.

Dream #2

Later, I'm walking down a road in a trailer park. It isn't my park, but another I don't recognize. It's midday and summer. For some reason, I want to find a kitten. A couple strolls by. I can't remember the man, but the woman is older. The woman is holding two tiny puppies, both are white and fluffy, but I don't want to pet them. The woman holds them out to me, but I walk away. The next street over, I find a white cat a little girl is holding. She won't let me touch it.

Dream #3

I'm at work and some things happen that I can't remember, but I take a break and go to the bathroom. I change into my Subway shirt and pajama bottoms. Two girls enter and talk about something, but I ignore them. They leave. A man then enters and I think nothing of it. I discover I'm on my period. I walk out and wash my hands. The man is watching me. He's Asian. I wash my hands; there's blood on them. The man says nothing.

I leave the bathroom and go outside. It's dark, early morning. A cop is parked near Panera Bread, but he's just sitting there. I have my notebooks with me. They are blue. I go to the grocery store, Hiller's Market (it's a part of the same mall Panera is). A man joins me. He has blond hair and is also carrying notebooks. His are blue as well. We enter and the man says he's going to get us a good seat. I nod and follow. The store is set up backwards. There is a high school there for a write in and I think I can work on my NaNoWriMo novel finally. The students have long tables in the produce section. The tables are covered in newspaper. The students notebooks and the chairs are red. For some reason, this makes me realize they aren't writing for NaNo, but they're there for another reason. I feel sneaky now, and wonder if I'll be caught.

Man comes back and says he found us a seat. I go with him and set my notebook on the table. The students ignore us. I'm hungry. I say I want to get something to eat. Man says okay, I'll wait here. I leave and get caramel apple hard candies, fruity hard candies, and a few items I can't remember. I want a drink. I go to the deli counter because they have drinks there. They have a meat case, but the back is set up like a Star Bucks. The tones are gold and brown. There are gifts on shelves. I decide the drink would be too expensive. I never pay for my food.

I meet the man again in the aisle. He is worried because he thinks we're not supposed to be here. He makes me worried too. Then I see Hugo from LOST, a younger version. He looks angry and runs off. I know he's telling on us. I say to my friend that we should go. He agrees. Then an announcement breaks over the PA and I know it's Hugo again. He says some things I can't remember, but at the end he curses us with a 'were' curse. Instead of wolves we'll turn into lizards. We leave and my companion runs away. I start walking back to Panera, worried and thinking I need help. Two girls come by and tell me that I hurt her, and it's what I deserve. I have no idea what they are talking about.

Dream #4

I'm driving around an apartment complex. It's fancy, and I can't find a parking spot. The sky is overcast and it's daytime. Many spots are open but I don't want them. I finally park on the lawn. Two black men in suits are watching and talking among themselves. They say nothing to me.

I go into the complex and to the second floor. There were no stairs. I see a registry in the center of a big room, and a door beyond it. The registry is wooden, and the place to sign your name flips up instead of to the side. The registry's full of black and white vintage photos of women. There's many of one girl in a bikini, different poses. I think she's pretty, but I know she's dead. I take a picture out and I hear a click. The door is open, but I can't find it now. A women enters. She is dressed in a lab coat. She says right this way. I follow her and I'm dressed in a maroon salon gown with white trim. I try to button it in the back, but I could only find one snap. I'm naked underneath.

In the lobby, there are two doctors dressed in blue surgery scrubs. They are talking to each other. The woman says to take off all your jewelry. I take off several gold rings, one gold necklace, and gold earrings. The men watch and joke that the boss is "cracking down".

The woman wants to take blood, and I follow her to a desk with a weird machine on it. The machine looks like the face of a ounce scale without the gray knob in the middle (I use them at Panera for weighing meat). She says to stay standing as she pokes my finger. I watch as she takes a drop and sets it where the gray knob should be. The dial spins. She seems annoyed with the results, and she wants to take more blood. She says to sit down this time, so I do. She jabs my thumb twice and ends up with too much blood. This time, she seems satisfied. My finger never touches the machine.

Then she says that I have to see the grindroom before I can treated. (I think this stems from the last dream about the curse). I say okay, but get a weird feeling. She leads me down a long hall to a room full of bunnies and cats in glass cages. The woman leaves. I think the animals are cute, but I hear a awful grinding sound. There is another woman in an apron; she has cats on the metal table in front of her. The cats are all different colors, but the one that stands out the most is an orange tabby. The woman has a bloody saw in her hand and the cats are squirming. I see a huge pit next to her with whirling blades. The blades are all bloody. I start to cry because I know what she's doing, but I never stop her. Nor do the cats try to fight back. There is no sound at this point. None. She starts cutting them up and throwing them into the pit. I cover my face and run from the room, sobbing. I remember thinking that this was a test, and I didn't know if I had failed or not.

I woke up then, and yeah, I was bawling. After I calmed down, I laid there and recollected. Then I got up and wrote it all down. Still a little shaky from the last bit and every time I think about it I want to cry again.

Type: regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

I was in a large, futuristic building with white walls and large screens everywhere. There was a large smooth hole drilled out in the floor; it was only a few inches deep but it was enough to reach the lower level. I peered down into this hole and saw a landing pit for spaceships. There was a large metal "H" track, almost too large for the ships; I noticed this as one was traveling along it. The ship was white and had a large hull, as well as a flat circular piece on the tip of each wing.

I also remember seeing Spock, but that's the extent of it.

INTRO:
For the past 2 nights, I 've been having this dream. Now I'm a lucid dreamer, but every once in a awhile something weird enters my dream and sortta like try and to mess it up but I always have to fight it out of my dream. But this one is different, like my dreams are trying to tell me something, but I dont know what. Oh yeah, somethimes my dreams are like a tv show, like a cliche' sometimes.

The Black Cougar:

My dream started off in the woods, of course it was dark, it wouldn't be fun if it wasn't lol. But anyway, I'm out in the woods with my trusty companion, mans best friend, my dog yogi, he's a pit-bull/boxer. We're walking back to my house by cutting through the woods, but it's not like a National Park Woods, just a ordinary park in Philly. Then, me and my dog heard a noise to the far right, yogi started growling and then i could see yellow eyes, in the dark between some trees. At first I thought it was a ninja lol So I told whoever it was to come out and fight me. It just roared and dissapeared. Yogi calmed down and we continued walking back to my house. We came to a corner of the block from were the park was, the park is big mind u, and I live right across the street from it. We walked down the block to my house, my dog ran up the steps, waiting for me to open the door for him, then It felt like I was being watched.... So I turned around and looked at the woods again, witch is directly in front of my house, and I didn't see anything. I turned back around and was about to open the door when I heard that same roar from earlier, I quickly turned around again and yogi started growling. I looked into the woods once more, but I couldn't see anything, yogi still growling by my side, I kept lookin but I didnt see anything in there. Then I started to focus, and then I saw it. It was a long black figure, I could see it looking up into the full moon aand roaring again. It looked at me with its bright yellow eyes, then ran away.

And that was my dream from last night. But I dont understand it. any suggestions?

Two dream fragments:
- Myself and a few other guys were fighting our friend Carl, who is an OL in NFL. We fought in a wrestling ring surrounded by a steel cage. Carl beat us without much effort; after the match he was talking smack with a cool, calm, and confident demeanor.
- I'm backstage at what feels like some sort of contest/competition. I see some of the other competitors and start hamming it up, doing wacky dances and pointing at everyone as I enter the room. I eventually start doing some breakdance moves in an effort to impress one of the girls who I found particularly cute. I'm spinning on the ground and eventually find that I'm sliding around on the ground as if there were absolutely no friction. I end up sliding through some doors and around a pillar, shouting "Still going!" the entire time.

Type: DILD.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

CAUTION: Contains spoilers from the 1996 film Primal Fear.

A movie character makes an appearance in my dreams once again. I can't believe I forgot what my old dream goal was though, especially with the level of lucidity I had.

EPIC FACEPALMZ

At the start of the dream, I walked through a door and into a science lab that had cream-colored tiles, no grout, and pure white walls. This lab was clean and uncluttered, but perhaps that was because all the shelves were up against the walls, facing outwards into the room. Beakers, flasks, and textbooks lined the shelves in a rather unorganized fashion. In the middle of the large space there was a courtroom-like setup, although it was much more simplified, as I have drawn in the image below.

Every chair was occupied by a person, and there were two to a table. Most of the occupants were dressed in suites and ties, but a few were dressed more casually. Unlike a regular courtroom, there was no judge at the front of the room, only the defendant and the prosecutor sitting at the same desk. The defendant was to the left, and the prosecutor was to the right.

The defendant was Roy, probably on trial for feigning an illness, but I didn't know for sure. I knew what I was coming in there for, though. I was going to get him out.

The door made a slight squeaking sound as I opened it further and stood at the back. A few of the people sitting in the chairs turned around to see me, but then turned around after a brief look. Roy looked at me, interested in what I was going to do. I briefly gestured to him to ignore me for now; and as I did, I became lucid. I was still standing at the back though, knowing I wanted to further complete a dream goal involving Roy. But I couldn't remember what it was!

The rest of the room went quiet and froze as I thought hard as to what it could have been. I spent the rest of the dream trying to remember.

The exact moment I woke up, I remembered.

Woke up twice not membering any dream but when i finaly fell asleep i had a long vivid dream about the disney haunted mansion ridde. The ride in my dream was much different that the one in real life. To enter the cart you had to to do a back pedal for about ten feet trying to catch up to the cart. Then you had to dive into the kart with a stranger. I went on the ride two time. The first time the ride sped very fast into a hallway where i heard lot of deep dark voices and as the voices got deeper the light became darker. When i got into the next room everything was brighter and neon. I remember seeing bright dolphins that were trying to scare people. When i was entering the next rooom a mummy poped out of a coffin causing me to fall out of the kart. I feel down for five minutes and i landed in the next room with tons of people doing various activites. I saw a friend and asked him what he was doing. He said that he was getting a tatoo and I decided to get one to. It wasnt a standard tatoo, it was a green machine that you put a sticker in and you put a body part under it so it could burn that on your skin. I did this twice. one on my left wrist. Came out poorly. And then on my face, of two and a half stars. After getting that tatoo it teleported back to the entrance. i repeated the previous activites but couldnt get the tatoo again.

29.07.2010

From the theme park, to the mafia building and home. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Tonight I recalled five dreams. A very long non lucid dream recorded. Some of the dreams had a lot of evidence to become lucid and a lot about the topic, but this is the fourth day without lucids! So tonight it will be a must lucid!

Fifth:

I was going to a theme park with my wife. I think it was the Port Aventura theme park.







We enterted and we paid a female employee working behind a booth. I had to evaluate the service of the park, its cleanness and how fun it was. I was getting paid for this. I rode a few attractions and walking around for a bit. My wife advised me that we had to evaluate the second entrance booth employee. We had to get out and pay again for another ticket. I did not feel like having to exit the park, waiting the entire line and entering again.
We exited through a back door. No one was around. We saw there was a huge line to enter the park so we joined the line. However, the line started to move fast. We got next to the entrance. I told my wife, "See, is not that bad!" My wife complained that we still needed to wait and I told her, "Well, it's very touristic place!"

I was next to the booth and I was going to pay. The female employee said, "Two entrances?" I was about to say yes when my wife said, "Four!" I said, "No, two entrances." My wife repeated she wanted to pay four entrances. I stared at her trying to remind her we were evaluating the place and we could not pay more than two entrances. My wife told me she did not want to be cheap. I wondered what was going on until I saw two female DCs. They were made up but old friends of my wife. I told her it was not looking cheap, but we were not allowed to purchase more than two entrances or the project would be rejected.
My wife started to talk with her two female friends leaving me on the back. As I was not interested on their chit chat, I was thinking on my own business. I found a platinum coin and place it into my pocket.

I saw a building and entered it. Inside it was like a house with multiple stories. There stairs were very tight, but the only way to reach the higher stories. I remember walking around the entire building. It had a big indoors parking as well. I met with a friend and he also found a platinum coin, but it was shaped more like a pyramid and it had small squares attached to it.







Inside this building there was like a mafia. There were some armed guys that wanted to rob all these coins. I was worried if they would find out I owned one and they would kill me to get it. They spotted my friend with it and they followed him. I went into a room were I saw two DC. I shared with them the issue I had with the coin and she advised me to disguise. She suggested me to become a gal so they would loose track of me. I though it was a good idea.

I just asked them if I could not live there in the building. I loved the apartment I was while talking with them. It was huge with a lot of furniture, big windows and much more. I said I wanted a front door to keep the people from the stairs out of my apartment. They told me it was fine to place the door in there.
I disguised myself like a woman and talking with a guy about renting the place. He told me the building had a pool bar, a beauty salon and a spa. He offered me to go to fix my hair, put some make up on and do my nails. I realized I was not dressed like a woman yet. I looked at my chest and realized I wore no shirt, so they would know I was a guy.

I started to look for some female clothes, but I only found skirts. The skirts were semi transparent, I found some colors such as yellow and blue. I realized I needed something not transparent, I was only on my shorts so it was easy to spot I was not indeed a girl. I walked some stairs without luck. I could not find a thing. I realized that I could go to my apartment and put some of my wife's clothes on. As I was leaving, I saw Arlette, a co-worker from the Pata Negra store. She said, "So. When are you finally going to fix my computer? Let me know!" I though she spotted me, however, I realized she was over the phone. I looked at my phone but I had no voice mail, so I found out she was looking for another computer guy. I felt bad and unsuccessful. As I was walking to my home thinking about what I just witnessed, I saw some Chinese guys acting around some tables. A lot of people was watching their show.

These Chinese people had like wooden figures with different shapes. These figures had several iron tubes attached to them. The actors were hitting this figures with iron sticks. They were trying to balance the figures in the air. I could hear the iron sticks clashing with the wooden figures. No figure fell to the ground. People appeared to be enjoying the show.

I wanted to pick up my brother at a indoors pool where he was getting skilled.







I wanted to give my brother a few bucks and I also wanted to tip the body guard. As I approached the pool I saw the body guard jumping back into the pool. I called him and he replied, "No. no!" However, he got out from the pool. I tipped him and he was very happy about it. I gave the cash to my brother and left the pool.

In the corner of the pool, there was standing a very hot female body guard. She wore a sexy black swimsuit. She pointed out to another woman, probably just a customer, and mentioned that the customer was hotter than her. I did not agreed. I was about to leave the pool and the hot body guard told me she sent me something to my e-mail and I needed to check it out.

I arrived to my place. It was way different from waking. I saw the computer and saw the e-mail. I saw something like the Devil, but he was in goat form, he was not red and he was like lying down, most of it was like a skeleton. I could read a comment that said, "His body is really harmonic" I was uncomfortable about the image, however, I also spotted the topic of the pic. It said, "The body of the Dark Saint of Ice and Fire." I closed it up and erased the e-mail. I totally did not like it.

I saw a website that triggered holograms from my computer screen. I saw the seven symbols of the chakras and it read, "The Chakra system." The symbols were spinning at a slow pace and the overall image was moving as well. Next to this image, I saw the words "Astral Projection" and "Spiritual Travel." I saw also the moon and it read something that I cannot recall. After this, I woke up.

Missed Dream Signs:
- Port Aventura (thousand miles from home)
- Finding a platinum coin.
- The stairs were tiny.
- The show from the Chinese guys.
- The holograms.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Probably follow the dream drama from a lucid perspective.