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August 13, 2010

No recall from before the WILD attempt.

WILD attempt unsuccessful... got a little too relaxed Fell asleep listening to ninja's subliminal mp3

Back to bed by 6am, and mantra'd to myself: How does my body feel? <- Noting this because it seemed to have worked That or the mp3... not sure.

The mirror - Lucid - 4/5
It's night time. I find myself walking up to a line up of cars in a drive thru. I randomly get inside a car at the pick up window. In the driver seat, there is a chick highly reminiscent of Mimi from Drew Carey, except she was as large as Peter Griffin from family guy (and also lacked a neck).





The other girl in the passenger seat was fairly nondescript. So anyways, the order is somehow wrong, and we go inside the restaurant. The restaurant is a bit shaky, and it starts melding into a school. And now, we were in the girls' classroom. My friends started talking absolute nonsense. It sounded like their tongues got all swollen. During this bit, I gradually started getting lucid, and by the time they started talking in tongues ( ) I was fully lucid.

I leave the room and I pass by the guys' classroom. I see Darren in there, but I'm not quite ready to do anything about that yet. I have two goals to complete first. A mirror and a unicorn. I walk to the end of the hall, where I tell myself there will be a washroom. "When I open the door, there will be a person-sized mirror for me to step through in there," I tell myself. Believing it, I opened the door. The bathroom was deplorable (as they often are in my dreams), lacked toilets... and mirrors. Ugh... Alright... let's just snap my fingers and summon one. I tried snapping my fingers, but for some reason, it wouldn't work. My fingers felt all swollen and floppy, and they just wouldn't snap. I looked at my hands in frustration and found my middle fingers looked like carrots (skin coloured carrots, mind). "You're fucking joking!" I said, out loud.

The forcing of control caused the dream to deteriorate. I remembered Mosh telling me about using senses and I remembered my own experience about interacting with the dream environment, so I immediately touched the door to the washroom and started rubbing it. It brought the dream back. I continued to do that until it felt solid again.

I turned around, and there was a small mirror on the wall, now. It'll have to do. I took it off the wall and flopped it on my head. It didn't quite thunk, it had some give. "Perfect!" I thought. I closed my eyes and started bringing the mirror down over me. Past my head, my shoulders. Around my waist, I told myself when this is done, I'll be in an enchanted forest, for the unicorn. I brought the mirror down through my feet, and stepped out of the back side. Still in the washroom. I sighed. This dream is being ridiculous. I also had to rub the walls again, because it was being shaky again. I remembered Mosh saying something about using all his senses. I smelled the washroom. It smelled like cleaner. I licked the door ( :sick: ). It tasted like nothing, but had the same texture as it did for my hands.

I need to find some other way to reach the unicorn, but I got slightly distracted. I realized I was wearing my nightgown (same as WL), but my flannel pants and undies were missing. I thought, "Oh fantastic, let's summon Darren now, then!" I stared at a wall. "Darren? Can I see you?" I asked, using the same trick I used to summon Danny, my DG. I turned around. He's not there. This is some of the worst control I've had in a really long time...

Alright, well, I remember seeing him earlier... I left the washroom and poked my head into the guys' classroom. A bunch of faces stared at me. No Darren, though.

I went out to the common area... scan, scan... no Darren. I began to think any of one of these guys will do... But no! I firmed my resolve. It's Darren or nothing! I realized he wasn't going to be in this dream, so, lets go find the unicorn.

I left the building, and found it's still nighttime (hooray for dream continuity! Sort of). I started jogging and remembered, "Well, I'm dreaming... let's just fly." At my side, was my purse, from WL. Good, cos I was using it for stabilization. Oh right, at some point here, I was playing around with throwing an object in the air, cos it kept coming down slowly (which amused me, apparently ). Also, I remember seeing the supervisor vehicle from work, and a bunch of guys were piling into it like a clown car... Let's just ignore that. Anyways, I kicked off the ground, flew a bit and sank. I kinda figured this would happen, though, cos I'd been having control problems all dream. I rubbed my purse and remembered to set a point on the horizon to focus on while I fly. I kicked off again, and fixed my "point" on the stars. I felt it connect with my third eye, and flying was now no longer an issue. I shouted into the night, "I summon a unicorn!" My voice sounded like laryngitis. The dream also started destabilizing again, too. I do remember seeing a unicorn come at me, but it kept fading I rubbed my purse again. Nothing. I rubbed my hands. Nothing.

When I woke up and looked at my clock, I realized I probably wouldn't have been able to save it anyways... I'd been asleep about 90 minutes, so the REM period was probably up.

I tried my mantra again, but I seemed to lack focus this go-around...

Hugh Laurie
A dream hanging out with Hugh Laurie. Not much else going on here.

July to August

I've dreamed of work at least three more times since the end of July and now. I hate typing out my work dreams, plus I don't want to mention names. This post is mostly for my tags and to yell at myself for dreaming about work.

I want to LEAVE work, not live in it in my dreams!

My husband and I are riding in the back of a car. Our friends Mark and Sharon are in the front and Mark is driving. Mark asks me if it is always so difficult to raise girls and I tell him it is not easy. It seems like we are in England as it is cold and we all have coats on. I am wearing a heavy black velvet jacket buttoned up to the neck. (Nice jacket). We go into the house and walk into a country style living room and I leave my bag in front of the fireplace. The fire is lit and it is warm and cozy. We then go out to a large tented area which is set up for a big event (possibly a wedding) with many round tables with white tablecloths. I see a woman that I know (not in real life) and go up to her. She is cooking a tomato sauce type of thing with slices of tomatoes in it over a single burner (what is it with me and sliced tomatoes ). I think it seems odd for her to be cooking such a small amount when it is obvious that many people are expected. I then see a lot more food being brought in, in large metal containers.

My husband is surrounded by a bunch of servers and he at a round table exlaining to them the correct way to pour drinks and which glasses are for which drink. They are all very attentive to what he is saying. I then realize that I need something from my bag and go back into the main house.

WILD

I listened to binaural beasts...

after SP set in, I tried to roll out of bed... felt my energy rocking... THIS IS A DREAM i said...

can't remember shit.

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NOTES

weird mixed religion

church

we bow to a scroll

sing cheesy songs

my dad likes it more than my mom

(my dad's Asian, my mom's White)

I say: THis is a [I]hapahaole[/I] church!

(Slang for half-White and half another race)

July 21, 2010

Synopsis: Yucky school food again. A frightening flood threatens to drown me and my sister. Gotta get ready to evacuate asap!

Note: I had this dream on my birthday. Just going back in my little journal and trying to log in my entries here.

Flood on my Birthday!
What am I waiting for? The lunch line is so long and I just want a bloody salad. The people in front of me are soo slow. I peek over their shoulders and I see the lunch ladies are also serving pasta and bread. Like so many other lunch line dreams, the food is going real fast. But I just want the salad.

Later I meet up with my family. Me and my sister have moved into our first new apartment in New Jersey, and mom was dropping us off. Our folks say goodbye and drive all the way back south to Texas. It seemed kind of nice at first being so far away from the rest of the family, until I started watching the news.

A terrifying flood has risen 1000ft!!!! (is that even possible??) And it's coming this way! I look out the window. It's dark outside but I can already see it's flooding pretty bad. It's at least three feet high already. Me and sister are on the fourth floor. We may be way high but the flood is rising fast, and who wants to be trapped in a flooded city?

We have to leave this damned city!

I quickly run into my room and toss everything I can think of in my backpack. It's too heavy and I'm pulling out my hairs trying to decide what to leave behind. (I have so many sketchbooks and journals!). I toss my sandals, they're probably useless with this flood.

Sis is just watching TV casually like nothing is wrong. Hello! 1000ft high flood! Sis yawns and just says "I give up, were going to die. Oh well."

"I wanna live!"

I quickly come up with a plan in my head. I'll have to trek in the deep water on foot, probably for miles to reach the next city. But I know the way. I strap my backpack on, I'm ready to leave without my sis - and then there was a knock on the door.

It's my parents.

Mom came as soon as she found out about the horrible flood! Wait a minute, how did they drive here when the water was already too high? I look out the window again, and like magic, all the water is gone. Oh that's nice!

Mom however did not make my dream magically safe with her mommyness.

Later on everyone was getting settled for sleep. I change into my pjs and head for the kitchen for a glass of water. I walk into the dark living room. When I notice the silhouette of a man next to me, lounging for me!

I run back into my bedroom terrified, I want to scream but I can't. Sure in dreams there are some frightening monsters and demons you run from. But there is something about monsters that can exist in the real world, rapists, murderers, that invoke a much deeper fear in me!

I'm so terrified of the invader I want to cry.

But somehow the invader gets trapped into my closet. My sister opened the closet door just too wide, and he escapes. He was like smoke. And just like that he was gone. I woke up shortly after.

Me and my mother were at a thrift shop and I was looking at the vacuums to buy for a friend but they were all over one hundred dollars but when I looked in my wallet I had more money than I thought.

August-13-10

Yay!
I guess it was all just up to WBTB timing. (I took a quick reset/break from polyphasic, and tested this) This happened around 6 AM after 3-4 hours of sleep.
I "fell" into the dream, and landed on a snowey mountain in my back yard. It wasn't really my back yard, but it was behind my house. The surrounding area was very dense with houses but there was no one else in sight. I took it slow standing up and starting to move around and I felt the dream stabalize. It was a nice feeling knowing that I had created all of that. Unfortunatly I'm not very skilled in holding my lucidity. After the snow started to blow away from the top of the mountain I yelled "increase lucidity!" and it sort of worked, so I then yelled "this is my dream! Increase lucidity now!" and it worked a bit better. So I willed the snow back onto the mountain, and it worked. I tried to progress on to plan b (you know ) and I very quickly lost stability and a little lucidity. I "woke up" into a FA, which I'm pretty sure I caught (because I'm making it my habit to check after every time I awaken) however I very quickly lost conciousness after that. I guess it was kind of my fault for embarking on a task that I knew would knock me out. Next time I plan on exploring more, maybe flying around, and trying to talk to DC's. Also I need to learn how to get rid of this foggy feeling to my dreams. Potentially for my nap today?

First I had a FA:

I woke up and started eating breakfast and doing the daily routine. I saw on the clock that it was 9:30 and went to call RE and tell her that I was sick and probably shouldn't come. Then it ended.

After, I had a nap:

I started off in some snowy place, and I was watching some people struggling to get on this icy block.

Then the scene changed, and I sort of realized that I had just lain down for a nap, and so I was lucid. At this point the scene had changed, and I was watching some DC throw webs at the ceiling like spiderman. I decided to try it to. I did the motion and the webs came spurting out. But I didn't have enough time to jump before the scene suddenly changed.

Now I was at home. I thought about my LD goals and decided I should try dream healing on my leg. I held my hands around my knee and felt warm energy flowing. Then the skeleton of my knee flashed in front of me, and I saw gold light wrapping it. After that, the dream ended, and I was thrown into another non-lucid sleep.

Well, after a day full of reality checks and a watch of Avatar before bed (you know, for lucid dreaming inspiration ) I was decently set up for some good dreams...except for recall. It still stinks after going so long without working on it. Oh well, I'll get better again.

I'm actually not sure if the RC's helped me out any last night or not. I know they will as they become habitual, so I'm not disappointed, but to be honest, I can't remember any of my regular dreams. So maybe they did help and I went lucid and totally don't remember it; I don't know.

But, at 6:00 I woke up to my WBTB alarm, and that's when things took a turn for the better. I went for a WILD this time, and it half-worked. I went right into a dream, but I wasn't completely sure of if I was dreaming or not. I was looking for confirmation either way, but never once remembered to RC.

Before long, I was caught up in a group of DC's comprised of both people from real life and fictional characters. I cannot recall exactly what they were doing, but I believe they were looking for something very important, and although they weren't enemies, there was a lot of competition to see who would find it first.

I only had to go with them a very short while for it to sink in that this was a dream. The terrain was weird, for one thing. We had moved along from a very realistic looking place to something like a video game from the late 90's. And then of course the Na'vi in the group were kind of a dead giveaway

Knowing it was a dream, the DC's bore no weight on me anymore and I didn't care to stick around their group any longer. I just stopped and took some time to feel things around me, and before long the realism of the place increased tenfold and I grew more lucid as well.

What happened next is mostly uncertain. I feel like I did something first, but at any rate, I ended up in a false awakening and lost lucidity. I was back in bed, lying down. I thought the lucid dream was over and I had woken up, so I got out of bed to get ready for the day. But no sooner had I opened my bedroom door than I was standing back amidst that group of DC's, and it hit me again that this was a dream. Unfortunately, this time I didn't think to even feel things, so my lucidity was pretty low. I never thought to leave the DC group and do more interesting things. Instead, I just went along with them and showed off all the things I could do while knowing that physics didn't exist.

It gets really hazy after that...I remained lucid for a very long time and did a lot of stuff, but eventually I lost it again and the dream continued on non-lucid for the remainder of the dream.

When I woke up I had been asleep for over two hours, and I'm sure about an hour of that was lucid...too bad it wasn't very high lucidity, and my recall wasn't so great. But at least I'm making progress again!

I remeber a few things, one of which was the best lucid dream yet (still not quite there).

1. The mailman came and dropped a package off at my back door. He rang the doorbell (our back door doesn't have a doorbell) and my dogs started barking. They ran out the door and started chasing him. He jumped into the pool. One of my dogs ran down the stairs and jumped into the pool to chase him.

2. I was in the city with a woman (don't know who). She was trying to convince me to buy something for her. I went to the nearest bar and got a drink. () Once I walked out of the bar I realized, "Wait...is this a dream?" I checked my surroundings and deduced that it was in fact a dream. I didn't rub my hands together or dream spin because the dream was so clear. But I got so dang excited that I woke up. This is my first dream where I remembered part of the dream prior to realizing that it was a dream.

3. I remember looking in the mirror and seeing that I had a beard. I thought "I really need to shave."

I dreamed I was swimming underwater. I can't remember using any breathing devices or anything. My friend Lawrence was leading the tour along with a few other people. Everything is tinted hazy blue.

We come to a narrow hallway with a large door at the end. The guys start moving towards it when I see a glowing parrot looking fish. I'm immediately told not to touch it because if I do it will kill me. So I evade it and we are helped through the gate.

Once through we are in an even larger area. There is a fairly narrow hallway sort of area that leads up s set of shallow steps and those steps lead into the wide open reef we came to see.

As we walk up the narrow steps I am stopped all of a sudden and someone points out a little hole in the base of the steps bi am told not go touch it because if I do it will come unplugged and suck me backwards and shoot me outta the room. That's good enough incentive for me to be careful.

With that in mind I continue forward and am constantly on edge not to touch anything. I see s semi large floating egg, about 12" long float by and I ask one of my guides If I'm allowed to touch the dragon egg even I'd just to save it from floating down the stairs and outta the room. The guide says no and as I watch the egg float by it flashes back and forth between the image of a fish and then back to the image of the egg.

For some reason Lawrence ends up getting way ahead of us and it's making the guides nervous. I tell them that I want to go back and they point towards the door at the end of the steps. I go to it and open it and then immediately I see the red parrot fish that kills on touch. It is alone in the vast blackness. I change my mind about leaving and turn back around.

I dream that a small group of people and I are heading down this steep forested hill. We reach the bottom and realize there is no true way out except climbing back up the other side of the bowl we climbed into. Before we do I take time to notice these absolutely gigantic trees that seem to tower over everything and while I do that I notice the spiders.

The spiders are gigantic and they have weaved a giant web around the entirety if the forrested bowl we walked into. I scream bur our leader ignores it and begins to climb up the side and past the enormously fat spiders. I'm frozen with fear and decide to follow too late. They take the spiders by surprise and manage to make it through a tiny hole in the web. The fat black and bulbous spider crawls over to the hole and seals it up. I am stuck.

I remember a fragment of a dream.

There was a party. It was at a pool. I did not know the place. My cousins were there, along with other people that I knew, as well as a lot that I didn't. It was crowded, but not uncomfortable. Everyone was happy and partying. Someone was tossed into the pool with his clothes on.

Conditions:
Fell asleep: 2:00 am

COMMENT LUCID NON LUCID DREAM SIGN

Ok, I had a pretty interesting non-lucid lastnight/thismorning. My 3 year old brother was at a park riding a/his bike and he wasn't even peddling. Missed dreamsign is missed. So he popped a wheelee(spelt right?) And well... once again, missed dreamsign is missed. So then he was going so fast that one of his wheels popped off. MISSED DREAMSIGN IS MISSED argh lol. but then he kept on going on a unicycle. missed dreamsign is.... oh you get the point! this whole dream was just one huge missed dreamsign! oh well... it tested my dream recall to its limits though.

As always when I experience a dissapointement, life gives me a little consolation Although I didnt manage to LD again this night, I did beat my record of Most Dreams in a Night. 4 is now the record to beat

Dream 1: I am on a black street in my neighborhood. I know exactly what street it is, its close to the cycling road and the park. I go by bike sometimes. Anyway I see Philippe (again) who tells me to come play with them. There is also Justin, Olivier (the black one) and Amelie. Justin proposes we play a game where we have to press with our thumbs as fast as possible. It hurts.

Dream 2: I register in a class at school to learn more about and sing like Billy Talent. As I look for the classroom, I notice I am the only student of that class. Up a big set of stairs, M.Dugré and a female teacher are waiting for me. M.Dugré pulls out a weird paralelogramme with blocks inside. There is a single block missing. He asks me what the signification of this object is for the band. I have no idea. He sighs in despair.

Dream 3: The whole dream is centered around screamers. First we go to a park with a big screen. My mom tells there is a pikachu screamer here. I do like usual and hide my eyes and ears. The park has a new screamer every day, and for some reason we always come back. Later my mom convinces me to watch it as it is not scary at all. It isnt, really. After the creepy music that begins, all you see is a pikachu that falls next to a Marill. Not bad. Then the next time we go, the creepy music starts and everyone yells. But not me Im hidden. Then the park manager tells us that the daily screamer is cancelled before it scares kids (go figure). If you want to get your daily dose of being scared shitless, you must go to a huge manor at night. Nice. I decide to stay with my uncle but since its my dream and the plotline doesnt go forward if im not there () I still end up on a boat to the manor. As soon as we get there I feel like ive been there before, either with school or at Quebec with my family. Except now its pitch black outside. Luckily, the dream ends before I get the chance to go in. This was NOT a nightmare. It was a regular dream with the addition of something that would scare me in real life Had I watched one, it probably would have turned into a NM.

Dream 4: Short since it was at 7:15 in the morning. I am in the house when I see a big orange ball. Theres a big crack in it so I decide to put my head in it. I can still breathe through just fine. I walk around the house and watch out not to hit things. I also go on the patio and downstairs. Not long but counts as a dream

Type: regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

I was behind a square piece of hedge on the lawn of a rather modern-looking house; the exterior was saturated tan stucco with sienna brown accents, and the driveway was two flat slabs of yellow-tinted concrete. The location must have been set in a desert because the sky was blue and there wasn't much grass on the ground. I could see everything around me, even though it was fairly dark outside.

I was looking at a man who was walking along the driveway. His name is Hank, a character from the AMC series Breaking Bad; he was wearing a black jacket, slightly baggy, and blue jeans. I saw a flash of a salmon-colored shirt underneath, where the jacket was unzipped. He looked the same as the image below, but obviously with different clothing.

The car was red and fairly rusty; it looked like a van made in the 80's with sharper corners and less curves. There was a thin panel of polished wood placed horizontally around the vehicle as an accent.

He got into the car without opening the door; instead, he slipped through the open window which was slightly larger than it should've been. He turned the car on with an exaggerated twist of his arm, turning the key, and began to back up. I moved along the hedge as the car backed up, and then pulled out a cell phone. Without dialing any numbers, I immediately began to speak into it. "He's here," I spoke into the phone.

A pigeon appeared beside me; it was light gray and had black speckles all over its wings, as if someone had dusted it with pepper. It had the same cell phone stuck to the side of its head, without being propped up by anything. But it didn't speak, it just walked along the ground and disappeared on the other side of the hedge.