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Had a bit of trouble remembering my dreams in the morning. I wrote one when I woke up at 5ish but it came out pretty incoherent. I have no idea what this means:

And suddenly I'm tagging along as I follow someone else down what appears to me to be a dream room.

When I woke up in the morning, for good, I had to walk around and really try to remember what I dreamed about. Normally I woulda thought that I wouldn't be able to come up with anything but I managed to remember two more:

I'm visiting some sort of house out in the middle of nowhere where a bunch of people my age are living or at least partying. I'm there to visit and i don't quite fit in. I have a journal I keep with me where I write my secrets and personal stuff. This place is at the end of a very tall hill. Leah is there I think.

I remember at some point we are all in this big open hot tub area that is surrounded by nothing but glass.

So when I finally leave I forget to grab my journal and i am very worried that someone might read it. So I call Leah and ask her to grab it for me.

I'm visiting my mother on what appears to be a mostly abandoned farm. I don't think it's hers but it does seem like she is vacationing there. It sounds like something my mom would do. I walk into the dark grass and there she is tending a bunch of plants that are on a big table. She says something to me but I'm not sure what exactly.

Suddenly I'm in some sort of office building and there seems to be some sort of jurrasic park inspired ride there. It looks like one of those kid roller coasters that take you by little scenes from the movie to try and scare you. I figure I have nothing better to do so i hop on. The ride begins right away and I'm first taken to an exhibit with a raptor. I force myself to scream and laugh and to make it sound like I'm having a good time. I don't know why.

I'm taken by a few more exhibits before I decide this is too lame for me. I hope off of the ride and begin to hoof it outta the building. I don't know why I'm completely alone.

R and T were talking outside my old primary school. T wanted to ask R something but was dodging doing it by conversing in Japanese. Both of them were using really beginner language but they did it perfectly and still managed to communicate quite coherently.
Unlike some non-English dreams I've had I remember clearly that they were actually speaking Japanese and not just something that I believed to be Japanese.
Eventually they had exhausted all of their low level language and rather than become more sophisticated T got to whatever the point of her being there in the first place was and the dream sequence ended.

This is significant to me because normally I only encounter a dream in Japanese when I'm study it a lot right before an exam/assessment but this morning's had no bleed-through effect at all.

This lucid dream was really close to my 3rd one. I think my LDs are starting to get more frequent now. I am so excited!

Some notes about the dream:
FOR THE 4TH TIME! This dream seemed like a normal dream, but I felt some of it, and I remember feeling the RC. Again, I didn't have COMPLETE control over my actions. This seems to always happen in my lucid dreams. Isn't it true that DILDs aren't as vivid as MILDs or WILDs?
Anyways, here it is.

I was walking down a familiar street in our downtown. I remember it like I WAS lucid from the beginning. I thought to myself, "Well, this is weird. I thought I was asleep..?" So just to make sure it was a dream, I RCed. I was dreaming! I love the way plugged nose breathing feels. Like I said, some control. The dream was a little blurry too. Since I fell back asleep after I dreamed this and I was too lazy to write in my DJ, I can't recall the second part of my lucid dream.

I'm not sure if I tried to fly or not, but I went over to what was supposedly, my friend Mike's house.
I think I teleported or something. I can't remember. I remember being in the back of his house. I tried to remember my dream goals, but I couldn't. I simply didn't know what to do, so I decided that I'd walk around. (See, it's things like this that your not prepared for!)
I saw Mike's pool. To me it looked almost like a hot tub. Well, it was as small as one. I saw Mike and some other people, but I don't really remember them.

I turned around, and I saw this gigantic swimming pool. It could have been 14 feet deep. Um.. I guess to show off; I tried to fly. I closed my eyes, jumped up, flapped my arms; and to my disappointment I was still on the ground. I guess I just didn't believe. So I closed my eyes again, really believe I could fly, jumped up, then flapped my arms. I opened my eyes and felt myself hovering.. sort of. I was about 3-4 feet in the air. And as far as I could tell, I was gliding towards the pool.

I glided towards the water and splashed in (almost like a goose, lol). I felt the water and saw all the droplets like it was in slow motion, beautiful. This moment was also embarrassing. I think I got out of the pool, but I wasn't so sure. Just to check to see if I was still lucid, I did another RC. Ahh. It felt great. I wasn't so sure on what to do next, so I started spinning. I reckoned I would start fresh from a different place. But it didn't work. I must've needed to close my eyes or something.
I can't recall what I did after this, but there was another whole half of the dream that I had forgotten.

21.08.2010

Sexual Medication (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

this one was weird, but completely awesome. i was inside a house, inside some sort of storage room. there were two other people in there with me, i don't remember who the other person was, i just remember him/her being there. the other person however, i do remember. i think she looked like the blonde woman off of a show i saw, i dont really watch it. she was the weird boss woman off of "better off ted", but prettier. i think something was wrong with her. i had to have sex with her, like she needed it as some sort of sexual medication. she was reluctant of the whole thing, she said something like "lets get this over with, just don't even look at me ok?" either she or the other person in the room said that she had to have sex every week, for what purpose im not sure. i walked out of the storage room to see if anyone was around the house, i think i didn't want to get caught. well we started to have sex, trying various positions, but they all sucked, i think it was because i couldn't "penetrate" enough. i then said "why not try the missionary?" lol, don't know why we didn't try that in the first place. we tried that and got some very good results. she was like "there we go!" lol. lets just say that after we tried that, everything got more passionate, touchy, and she didn't seem to care what i did to her. thats all i remember, it started to get choppy after trying the missionary. it was awesome though, very realistic, tactile wise .

19.08.2010

Shooting (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

this one was pretty vivid at first, but it gets foggy near the end. it starts in my house, theres someone dangerous nearby, like a robber or killer. i have a revolver in my hand, but its empty. i started at home, in the livingroom, so i headed towards the office, i think i was walking backwards, i never took my eyes off of the livingroom once. when i got into the office, i started to make the motions of reloading the gun (i wasn't really loading it, but somehow the bullets got in there. i didn't see anything as i was still looking at the livingroom). when it was loaded i did the cliched spinning and walked back to the livingroom. then suddenly a man jumped out from somewhere in the livingroom, i was still in the dining room. i didn't hesitate, i aimed and emptied the gun into his chest. he hit the ground as i walked into the livingroom, and i started to leave the house. but when i looked back, the dead man was replaced by a seductive woman, half naked, silently beckoning me to her. i started to have sex with her, but for some reason, she was transforming into someone else. i stopped it by visualizing her, it was weird, i was controlling the dream without being lucid. then, i suddenly heared someone coming downstairs. i hurried and got dressed, and the woman was no longer there. before i had heared someone coming from upstairs, i had the feeling that i wasn't actually having sex with anyone, that it was just my imagination. when my stepdad came downstairs, the woman was gone, and i was dressed, thinking to myself "phew, that would have been awkward, someone walking in on you having sex with no one" lol. then my mom came down, and they were accesing the damage of what looked like a robbery. everything was turned upsidedown and flipped everywhere. my stepdad kept stating obvious hints that it was all my fault. what a douche

19.08.2010

Store with aunt (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

this one is just bits and pieces in the beginning, but it gets better in the end. it starts in a store, i think one similar to Walmart, but i never saw any signs. im with my aunt and some of her kids and some of my cousins, all little kids. we were all shopping together, thats all i remember of the beginning. then, somehow i got around five dollars, maybe more. i was walking around a certain section of the store, looking for a fish to buy, as a present i think. the fish area was enormus, it had fish tanks stacked up to the ceiling left and right. the fish were all too expensive unfortunately, they all were $6 and up. my dream wasn't like other dreams, everyone always says they can't read text in dreams. i could clearly see every price tag, they all had a price next to it and said "per Lb", completely normal. anyway, i continued my search for a fish, leading me into this underground, museum type aquarium. there were some people from school there, it was like a field trip or something. i remember leaving the aquarium and returning to my aunt fishless. thats all i remember.

19.08.2010

HAAAAAAA!!!!! (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

this one was funny. i was at a school, i think it was after school hours, because there was an after school group setting up for a meeting. i saw a man standing at a podium, he looked scary, i think he looked like the main character off of "Burn Notice". it was a religious group, i looked at a sign, and it appeared that the group was called "HAAAAAAAA!!!!!!" lol. strange name, i know. i sat down in one of the chairs, apparently i was in the group. after a long memory gap, im outside the school, sitting outside a smaller building, at the top of some steps. there were two people with me, people from the group, they were giving me stuff to look over, information i needed to know or whatever. one of them was a girl, i knew her from my actual school. she gave me what looked like a bible, and told me to read it and look over the notes on the sides. after another memory gap, im sitting on the same steps, reading the book she gave me, then some people pull into the parkiong lot in a black car. thats all i remember.

19.08.2010

Restaurant (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

this one starts out in a restaurant, im at the front, about to get a table. theres a guy who had just walked up to me standing there, he was a friend of some sort. he was waiting for me to get a table, but (somehow i knew) he was fretting over me seeing who he was eating with. he took me anyway and i followed him to his table, where i saw my neighbor eating with him, which i couldnt care less, im not sure why he was so nervous about me seeing her with him.

16.08.2010

Poisoned at the Farmers Market (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

this one was strange. it starts in my stepdads truck. im with him and my mom, and were pulling into what looks like a farmers market, maybe a peach farm. anyway we get out and go into this house. then after a memory gap, us and a bunch of people are gathered around the living room, eating some sort of food, i think it was some kind of cobbler, possibly peach or cherry. then all of a sudden, all of the adults in the room doubled over and died, except my parents, and this one blonde woman, i remembered seeing her earlier in the dream. there were several kids in the room also, and they weren't screaming, which was weird. then, the woman said to the kids "ok, you're free!" then she said something else, i don't remember. i then asked the kid next to me if he was gonna eat his food, he gave it to me, i then asked the woman if it was safe to eat. it was. apparently she poisoned nearly all of the adults there, like they were evil or something. thats all i remember.

16.08.2010

School 2 (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

this one was a long one, but i don't remember much of it. it starts in this cafeteria, but it was different, almost like a fast food place. i kept going up to the counter to buy stuff, the cashier lady was cool, she liked me. the only time remember actually going up there was to get some milk. when i got the milk, the lady pointed out that someone had taken a drink of it and put it back with the others, it was a plastic bottle, with a lid. so i went back and got another one, a full one. then after a memory gap im in a bathroom. its a very big bathroom + locker room, complete with shower section. im in there, but theres a girl in there too, a friend i think in the dream. we were talking, but she had to go take a shower, so she left. i was gonna follow her, because she was hot, but i decided not to after hearing her scream and seeing a fat, hairy, naked guy walk past her (they ruin all the fun ). there were other people in the showers as well i think, mostly men, so i left. then after another memory gap, im outside, theres a lot of people out there, waiting for something to happen. theres a guy sitting next to me, doing some homework, then he asks a girl near me to help him. im like "hey, why not ask me? i know math..." but he ignored me. to be fair, i did sound a bit stupid when i said that. then, the display started. it was a bunch of cheerleaders being thrown in the air, wearing some sort of fat suit, it was weird. thats all i remember.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID PRECOGNITIVE

Around 0:00 GMT

Nudist beach
Was at a beach with some friends and some people were passing by on the beach, completely naked. I commented with my friends that I didn't know that was allowed on that beach.
[It seems it was precognition, because today I received an invitation from a friend to go to a party at a nudist's beach. I don't think I'm going.]

At 2:40 GMT

Dry riverbed and fries at a snack-bar
Missed the beginning but was crossing a very dry riverbed, thinking that a torrent coming down at that moment would kill me. Some friends were waiting on the other side, which was a hill. [Then a gap] We're at a snack bar on a line choosing what we want to eat. Everybody is choosing fries. I think I shouldn't but end up asking the same thing. I remember it was around 7 EUR all together and I want to pay with a 50 EUR bill. The cashier says she has no exchange and I need to look better and find 10 EUR on my wallet. Then I struggle to get all the coins in the wallet.

Apartments with glass walls and a horse
[Then another gap.] I find myself inside a building, I'm in the hallway and the walls have horizontal glass stripes so I can see to inside the appartments. They are luxurious. Then it gets absurd and I only remember there was a horse in one appartment and my mother discussing with me this was not good - for the horse, I guess.

At 3:50 GMT

Walking house
I'm inside a walking house (ever saw the Walking Castle, from Hayao Myizaki? It was similar). The house stops walking on a hill, everything inside the house is therefore in a steep angle. My mother is the kitchen cooking chickpeas and cabbages. I look for the toilet. I find a big one,with white tiles all over. There are two condoms on the floor, apparently not used. I think I should put them on the garbage, so I pick them up. Then my former boss enters the toilet and I feel embarassed. I explain to her that I was just going to put it in the garbage but she couldn't care less. She just asks me "I need to know if you are working for any corporation." I was "What??? No." Then she kept asking questions but I don't remember anything else. It felt totally absurd and the dream collapsed.

At 5:00 GMT

A secret dream
I had a full length dream, but it's personal so I won't talk about it.

At 7:00 GMT

School/college
I'm with some more people, walking down some street in a strange neighbourhood. We're late for something and apparently I'm the only one who knows where we are going, but can't really remember what it is. I just keep going looking for something familiar. I find the place, it looks like a school. We enter a huge large hallway. Lots
of small children playing and chatting. One little girl touches my butt and I think "Kids don't respect me. They've always treated me as if I'm still one of them. Not even now that I'm almost 30 years old, they don't feel intimidated."
Later I'm in an amphitheatre on a class but no longer with kids but college students. My boyfriend is by my side and one of my old colleagues and friend of mine is in the middle of the room. He is teasing the teacher, who is what I would call a "cougar". He is being ironic about something but she takes it personally and considers he is flirting with her. She gets blushed and leaves the room for a while. When she comes back she has a bigger cleavage and she is clearly flirting with him now. I laugh.
Later I'm on the common room, lot and lots of students, they all look foreign, all blond. I sit by the side of a guy but his girlfriend looks at me with piercing eyes, so I move on. I go up some stairs outside and enjoy jumping around over a metallic structure, that seems to be some strange sculpture but kids use to play.


Another secret dream
I had another secret dream that I won't share. Sorry.

Visiting a foreign city
I'm with my father in some foreign city. He never travels with me, so he was very excited to be there with me this time and insists we must take pictures to remember that special day. We see a structure near a harbour, that is really cool to photograph but he is not getting the right angle, so I tell him to sit there for a while and I go some other way to see it from another angle. On my way I find a very nice pink building that is the Embassy of Switzerland. I still don't know what country we are, but the sign is in English. In front of this embassy, on the other side of the street, there's a kind of fence in stone or concrete and below is a river or canal. I lean against this fence to take a picture of the embassy building but a guard comes and says it's not allowed, so I say ok and move on. Almost reaching my father again I pass by a cute house with a lovely balcony or porch with beautiful plants. I try to get a picture when I see a couple inside and they seem to be arguing about something. The girl gets upset that I'm taking a picture so she starts making grimaces and poses. I realise she is speaking german, but the guy seems to be portuguese. They ruin my picture so I go get to my dad. [Potentially a precognitive dream, to be confirmed in the future.]

1. There was someone trying to break into our house. At first he just tried to go to the front door, ring the doorbell, and have me open it for him, but I saw that he had gun, so I didn't let him in. he went to the neighbors house while I debated with my mom whether or not to call 911. I decided to, but when I got on the phone, it was just a recording of "Beat It" by Michael Jackson. The man came back and broke through the window in my mom's room. I tackled him to try to take his gun, but I couldn't get it. I told my sister to get it from him, but she refused, then my mom took his gun and shot him in the head. He didn't die, so I tried to find the phone to try to call 911 again, but I couldn't find the phone.

2. I was on a pier talking to someone about what kind of sea monsters we can kill. As we were talking, I saw a big white sea monster passing by and it made a very loud noise. When it passed by, the person told me that he could kill those very easily. I told him that every time I tried to kill one of those, I ended up dying.

3. There was a paper clip (it was bent, but it wasn't completely straight) stuck in my arm. I pulled it out, but it broke off half way. I reached my hand in my arm to get the other half of the paper clip. I pulled it out, and then sewed my arm back up. I remember feeling intense pain in my arm while doing this. I don't know if I was sleeping on my arm weird, or what.

I am standing about 6ft. away from a big metal electric gate. It is the kind of gate that slides. Behind the gate is a huge forest. I realize I am dreaming and that this is my opportunity to complete the task from class. I try to reality check and look at my hands but they are not clear. I do other reality checks but none are difinitive. I decide to fly over the gate but I am unable to move. I feel like I am blocked.

I am packing my case in a hotel room. I am feeling confused about doing this. We then join a big group of people all walking in the same direction and we all have luggage with us.

It is early in the morning (about 4:00am). We are at my house. There is a bunch of women sitting in my family room and I go to the kitchen to find some food for them. I only have a few nuts which I put in a small dish. I then go to a back room and serve four bowls of soup. I drop one of the bowls of soup and make a big mess. We are then in a hotel lobby sitting at a low table. I pull something out of a drawer and eat it. I immediately spit it out.