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23.08.2010

Lots o' fragments (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Really bad night. I can wait to finally become stable again with my business. Just fragments from various dreams:

- Sunny.
- Pizzeria.
- Assigning jobs.
- Cutting the pizza.
- Computers.
- Birthday.
- Several DC.
- Dragon Ball
- Goku and Vegeta.
- Picnic.
- Several scenery changes.
- Feeling good.

Missed dream signs:
- Unknown.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Unknown.

The last night I had one of those dreams where you can´t really separate dream/awake even though you most definitly ARE awake. In the dream world I was sitting on a bench waiting for my bus to go home from the city. Right next to me are the children of my dearest friend M.H. She´s not directly visible, but her children really interacts with me. We talk about some strange twig or a drawing they´ve made. Anyhow we find out that we have something in common that I didn't know before.

And here comes the weirdness; During parts of this dream I actually believe that these children and their mother are in my room next to my bed...and that my room in fact is this bus stop! They sort of mix and in my tired head I can't really distinguish between these. So occassionally I actually sit up in my bed looking for the kids in my room, embarassed that I don't have any clothes on me!

The above phenomenon happens a couple of times/month...this time it was during full moon, but I don't know if there´s any connection??

Date: Aug.22/23 Sunday
Time: around 8:40 am

Description: To start off I want to explain something. I had this as my very 1st lucid dream to date that I can remember. I had another more lucid one right after this with more details and events and more control, but I will post that at a future time. Most of this is straight out of my dream journal by my bed. I also apologize if it doesn't seem like there weren't many details, the dream really only lasted about 1 minute.

Dream: The dream starts off with me looking at a stack of ps3 games and on top of them are ps2 games, I can't remember any of the titles but I think the very top ps2 game was NHL 2003. As I look at the stack I rotate them to see their spines. The games are sitting on my wooden brown desk at the center. I am sitting on my knees on the ground, and I notice my nephew on my computer struggling to play the ps2 games (pcsx2 for anyone that knows the program). So I tell him to move over so I can go to set it up. He gives me this look of frustration as he looks at the clock in my room, which I think (he never tells me, but I assume) that he has to go soon, that him and his dad are leaving. I tell him "Chill dude, it takes an hour to setup anyways." As I look at the screen and see some text, the text onscreen seem to shift and shake (that could of been my eyes, kind of like the shaky vision you get from drinking to much alcohol) and strange runic symbols appear. At that precise moment I yell out "HOLY CRAP, I AM DREAMING!" My stomach goes to butterflies and I get really excited. I fall backwards, and the scene starts to zoom out, I get the feeling you get when going down hills on a roller coaster, and now I am in a black void so to speak, I instantly remember the spinning technique that Laberge created. To re stabilize the dream, it works for a moment as I zoom back into the dream, I notice someone was sitting to my right, the lights were off and the glow of the computer screen was the only light source, I don't know who this third person was, my suspect is my nephews younger brother. I don't know. Now I zoom back out as soon as I touch down in the scene again but I kinda of lose consciousness so to speak. Now I imagine myself spinning, now a new seen appears where I am high above a city with lots of buildings, they all have a purple glow about them, I can tell it is night time, cause I see the windows have lights coming from out them. I am above the city, but again lose consciousness again (I mean everything turns pitch black) and I shoot out of my real bed, it takes me a moment to collect myself as this was the most intense thing of my life.

Other details: One extra detail I need to say, is once I went lucid, the feeling of being there was so real, except for it feeling like my body was kind of heavy or light, gravity on me seemed way different.

So there it is, I hope you guys have comments, I am interested in what you have to say about the experience, and it was an experience cause I really was there, it wasn't a memory of a dream, I was there!

Taken straight from my workbook! I had a weird night, I had flashlight troubles and had to replace my flashlight with a new one from the closet...
Without further ado, here was my dream that I recorded:

My dad and I went to the eye doctor. I was very frustrated that we went, Because I hate eye doctors and that whole business and hate having glasses. My dad and I were picking out frames just like the day before. I stopped being able to control myself and stormed off. I saw myself third person walking on a balcony flight of stairs that you would see in a typical building in Kiev. We went home but not by my dad's jeep. By train. As we climbed on top of the train, I looked at a map of a Wisconsin park. It was a big park with a lake in it and a bridge across the lake in the form of an obtuse angle. The first part of it was straight bridge. The second part was a very intricate web of different polyhedrons and through the center were the tracks. The map showed different points around the park, mostly angle vertices of angles found in the park, such as the one on the bridge and the angle that the shore made with itself as it went around the lake. It also showed angle measurements and distances from random points around the park. Then, as I looked up from the map, I saw myself in third person again, sitting atop my train with many other people. I also noticed that there were now three tracks side by side and two more trains pulled up beside us. It was a train race. The train on the left went over the land and grass and the two trains on the right (including mine) went over the bridges and along roads. It was a longer course but it was paved. The offroad course was very short but dangerous. All our rails disappeared. The race started. Our trains went really fast and the two right ones went onto the bridges. The view switched to third person. I remember feeling that this was very fun and exciting. The offroad train tipped, fell on its side, and then vanished. The other train lost its acceleration somehow on the bridge and the caboose unhinged and stopped as the rest of the train sped on. The scenery changed to a western spot and suddenly that train appeared on my left. I saw people from that train jump off, and start pushing the train from behind and very fast. They kept up with our fast train. I had a button that made our caboose go really fast, like a turbo. I pressed it. After a while, we were still tied (with the people still running) so we called it a tie and stopped the race. All the people became mice. Our train stopped at my school. I saw myself in third person once again walking with a few friends from swimming. They don't go to my school. Then, the scenery changed to a hotel. One of thee girls had gossip about what another one of my swimmer friends did at work that was bad. I wanted really badly to know it but she wouldn't tell me. The two girls entered their room. Us three guys entered our room that was opposite theirrs. The hallway was covered in golden paint and other shades of gold and red. It was beautiful.

Missed things:
Going to eye doctor and doing things there (I had just done the same yesterday)
The Kiev style stair thing.
Go home by train
3 track side by side, train race
No train tracks
Scenery shift to Wisconsin from Ukraine
Weird map
Awesome bridge
Fallen train disappearing
Scenery change to Wild West
People pushing train very fast
Button for caboose turbo
Mice people
School turn into hotel
Swim people in my school (they go to a different school)

It is the first day of school. I look into the music room to see if it is my first class. I see Nevin inside but I'm still not convinced that it is the band class. As I walk a bit further down the hallway I see Robert getting out a trombone.
"Robert playing an instrument? What the hell?"
"Fuck off."
I start heading back to the music room because I know it is my class, and on the way I meet Maya.
All of a sudden me, her, and some other person are walking down Trajan's road to my house. Maya looks different and has a different personality, but I still know it's her. When we get to my door she doesn't want to go inside. The other person heads up into my room. I convince her to come inside and then I sit down with my parents to eat dinner (something with pre-grated cheese on it). Maya is acting really strange and goes behind the counter and stands behind my mom while we talk and eat.
There is a volunteer night for sailing but everybody's invited, so me and Maya head down to the basement to pick out some alcohol. We find some Jack Daniel's on the shelf but I notice that there is ice in it. I realize that it must be my father's. Instead we find some hard liquor in a turquoise bottle that is olive flavored and for some reason that sounds like the perfect thing to bring, plus nobody will likely notice that it's gone.
The party is on the same strip of the harbor that the Thunderchild docks at, but there is a bungalow on the water there.

1. I was in a movie theater watching Avatar. My dad and sister were in the row in front of where me and a friend sat.

2. I found out that if I step on a tile on the floor of my classroom, then the corresponding tile in the room next door would light up. I started stepping on all of the tiles in the room to mess with the people in the other classroom.
Days without lucid dream: 9

1. I'm dressing in my room to go to my old high school. I'm indecisive, and wind up taking clothes with me into the school bathroom. I change several times, but the bell rings when I'm in a long-sleve shirt, shorts, and gym shoes with long socks. This is an ugly combination and I have a minor panic attack as I have to go to class.

2. I'm walking the streets of a generic city with my mom. Together we enter a Jamaican-themed hotel, where a steel-drum fronted band is playing a tropical tune. My mom steals the bass and rips off a solo, then throws the bass to me. I miss, and the bass crashes to the floor. We leave and go to eat, and I am rude to her as dinner conversation continues. She reaches a breaking point and tells me tearfully that she's hidden three divorces previous to my dad and my own conception.

I thought I would just upload some of my dreams I have recorded in my DJ. Also a few past dreams I had when I was younger.

Mythic Date: Unknown; Lucid: Yes
This dream is one from the past. I was this strange creature, blue, with colorful designs, bipod like. I was in this strange world, blue skys - littered with clouds, beige rocky canyon with very shallow water running in it, like a tributary but the water was a bout 2 inches deep. Very warm. Waterfalls pouring into a shallow pond/lake. I remember seeing a female version of my species, whom I felt VERY attracted too. Like your first love or true love, this was the affection I had for her.

I remember a ship dusting off and departing from the the world, and me and my counterpart had waved a goodbye as it left. I assume it dropped us off on this to colonize/repopulate? seeing as how we were the only species of our type on it. I remember seeing kids, for some reason I think they were mine so im assuming I have good relationship skills. This was one of my favorite dreams, the feeling of deep affection for someone is like none other.

Slenderman Date: 8/17/10; Lucid: No
I'm not sure if any of you are familiar with the Slenderman but this is my dream about it. I was in this Halloween looking town, dark with reds and oranges and blacks. I see decorations of witches and pumpkins. I'm in a group of 3 people. Me, an attractive woman with red dyed hair, and the Slenderman. Suddenly my dream switches settings.

I'm now in an underground bunker, that seems run down but not derelict. It is populated with humans and it seems to be a commuter town. Water is draining from plumbing pipes that are sticking out of the cracking/breaking walls. I now switch over to the attractive woman. I remember sitting in bed with a drape over the side, it is very bright and I remember talking to the Slenderman. Now I switch roles again and I am the Slenderman. I seem to be thinking of evil intentions but not acting on them.

Technicality Date: 8/22/10; Lucid: No
Im using my laptop. The setting is my room. On my laptop I'm using BitTorrent for some reason. I appear to be downloading some program that doesn't exist.

I'm now in my old town that I moved from. I remember my neighborhood and how nostalgic it is. Nothing more after this.

Pokemon and Civil Wars Date: 8/23/10; Lucid: No
This is a strange one. I'm not sure why I even dreamed about this. I see Team Rocket from Pokemon. I mean, the original Team Rocket, Jesse and James. It appears to be a live action reenactment of the show, but the actors look just like the anime characters. They were having a talk at a dinner table and discussing over something. Then the live action actors turned into the anime characters as the dream went on.

Now I'm waking up, preparing for classes for college. I'm taking a shower but now my friends are in my house, talking and planning to do something. I change my clothes and walk downstairs to my deck. I look outside and see the Civil War happening in my backyard. I see a Confederate man and a Union man fighting. At this point, they both lose ammo, pull swords out and slice at each other. The Confederate wounds the Union soldier and then he executes him with a primitive pistol. Suddenly, the British from the American Revolution start charging at the Confederate and they kill him. I dont see blood or anything in this.

Nightmares and Death Date: Unknown; Lucid: Yes
I had a nightmare of being chased by rabid dogs. Huge dogs. I remember being bitten and not feeling the pain, but I felt shock and panic. I finally thought to myself "ENOUGH!" and the dream stopped in its tracks. I then proceeded to dream about more relaxing dreams. I've never had a nightmare since.

I remember being on the Empire State building. I'm looking over the city, although its just a few skyscrapers and nothing more. Next thing I know, I'm falling, though I do not feel the experience of falling. I hit the ground, but instead of waking up, I wind up in a white room. Nothing but white. I cannot detail the size of the room but for some reason it seems big, unfathomable.

I-Phone

I was at my family home in Masterton. My brother had left an i-phone there. I took it with me, he wasnt even at home so I didnt think he would mind. I ended up at my old school, the old principle was there and he was very old. He wanted to say something to everyone so I helped him to the front of the auditorium. He started talking about i-phones. One of the kids in the audience pulled out his i-phone and started showing everyone a movie or something. The principle was impressed and I think he wanted one. The it ended and I was waiting out by the corner where I used to wait to be picked up. It was night time, my mate came over and started talking about some mushrooms on the ground, I told him they wernt the right ones and would make him sick. I started telling him about the new mushroom patch I found at home but was careful not to tell him too much as he would definatly go pick them. I told him how we took too many and lost our minds on them. I then realised it was daytime, I was sure it happened way too quickly so I RC'ed and my pinky finger didnt pop out of my hand! Dammit the first time this RC has every failed me! I ended up having an FA and writing down my dream only to wake up and do it for real haha


Drizzt

I only remember a fragment. I was Drizzt Do'Urden and thats all I remember. Gutted cos this dream would have been apic as fuck!!!

Dead Grandparents - LUCID #6

I was playing golf with some old people. It was more like I was caddy for my grandpa (Papa). Everyone's clubs were white and ceramic like. My wife grandparents were there. Art broke his club and I saw wood under the white. I took a shot but there was some sort of arm that batted my ball away. I though I hit to hard. Next thing I know Art it driving the next hole. Everyone was impressed with his shot. I feel bad because I messed up. I let my papa take over. He has a long put thanks to me. He misses. I feel really bad. Then I see my grandmother(Nanny) She is have a hard time walking. So I run to her and carry her to the next tee. We are over looking the golf course but I am mostly watching her in the corner of my eye. She says with great emotion "I love you so much... I am dead". Then everything clicks. I say, "I know. It's OK.I am dreaming". Then I get that familiar head rush I get when I become aware. I ignore it. She looks at me funny. It was a look of awe, excitement and puzzlement.

We are now in a living room. There is a couch full of people. I don't really look at them because I see my Dad in a recliner and my Papa is next to him. They are watching TV. The TV is very loud. I still know I am dreaming so I freeze time. The TV is quite my dad is froze with everyone else. My Papa is looking at me with that same look that my Nanny had. Then everything unfreezes and the TV is loud. I get annoyed and wave my arm over the room. Quite again. I point to my Papa and mouth the words: "Its OK I know. Come with me"

My dead grandparents follow me outside to the front porch. I can hear loud traffic and I have to talk over it. I don't seem to mind. Now I am getting a proper goodbye.I feel this will be the last time I will dream about them. I hug them and tell them that I love them so much and I am sorry that I did not take the time to be with them when I had the chance. I am crying but I notice that my dream self is not really shedding any tears. My voice evens out and I begin to tell them that I should have been there when I had the chance but my words are getting jumbled and I start having a hard time to tell them what I want to say. I am fake crying again but I know now that it is just my emotions trying to express itself so I let it go. The traffic is really loud now. I am still hugging them both. Then I feel the dream fade and before I could react I am awake. I wonder if I will ever dream of them again.

I am helping dad in the garden. I sneak away for a smoke. I think he knows. I put it out and pretend nothing happened. He says nothing. We have the dirt ready. We have railroad ties as build up. He finishes the rest with large stones and something that looks like a fireplace. I quit, thinking he is nuts. I watch as he finishes. we start filling in dirt. He asks what I think. I point to the fireplace thing with the fresh dirt in front of it. I tell him it looks like a grave site.

★★★

Baphomet

My and Waking Nomad are our Shadows selves. We are riding Wolf motorbikes. We are dressed like Bikers and whipping chains around. We are Attacking a large red Devil guy and he has the name Baphomet above his head.

Music

I am listening to a piece of music and I get pulled into the music. now i am in the dream of the song Cruising along in a truck that's driving down a river. I make the truck transport all over the place... The whole dream was pretty abstract and hard to describe. A voice in my head says that this is what the architecture of music looks like.

Dog WTF

I am outside in some place running away from giant dog like thing like you see from the Avatar movie. I find a mound of dirt hidden behind a log. i hide there and one of the dogs crashes into me and then keeps running.

I get Transported to my house. Asuka And data are there. Asuka is merged with H again WTF? On the table are pictures of Cacophony. There's a before and after picture of her. the after one she looks normal without any wacky hairdos. In the picture she smiles at me and we have a conversation like i am talking on a webcam with her.

Wrong room

I am with my brother and Asuka in some weird building. We enter a room where a certain meeting is to take place. something like AA. At one point I ask where the washroom is and I realise is aw my brother already go into one. I leave the room after a while and enter a big hall that's a high rickety bridge that I try to cross.

I was a witcher like in the video game. I have a group I am traveling with. We were in a building exploring. I went back. I used a metal pan as a mirror to look behind me for some reason I don't remember. I was cautious. I walked slowly and carefully. I could hear my foot steps and nothing else. I made my way to a room. there were others witchers there. I had a brief discusion. I opened the door and looked out. I could see werewolves lurking about. We subconsciously agreed to attack. I charge forward while drawing my sword. I cut and slash and kill one. the dream changes to 3rd person as if I am playing a video game. I touch the screen on the next one to attack. No mouse. Killed it. I switch back to 1st person. I see the others holding a evil zombie like girl upside down by the legs. There are two girls the same. two witchers on each. Someone keeps saying look at the pretty bikini girl. The girls are wearing bikini underwear and miniskirts. being upside down I see all. Someone pinches up a part of the vagina. I know I must kill but I cant. I walk to the other and and someone puts a blade deep inside her vagina to the hilt. I am disgusted and saddened. I turn to the other. I reach out for her and she shrinks into a barbie doll. I throw the doll to a big stationary monster. It is a blob of flesh with stubby arms, no legs and all teeth. It grabs the girl and eats her head first. I can hear bones crunching and flesh tearing. I wake up suddenly.

I was with some boys and Tempi's younger brother. (who may or may not exist) Tempi was a kid and there was this room. She was moving his bed out the the room and through a window that went into another bedroom. She was giving away his bed to her friend. He was so upset.

#1: non-lucid

I was at a lock on the waterway where my dad works, with a friend of mine. We're sitting on the grass, and she has a tiny turtle that she's feeding pieces of bread. I go with her as she carries the turtle over to the side of the lock and puts it down in the water. She tears off pieces of bread and throws them into the water. The turtle is eating them, and small fish swim up to eat too. More and bigger fish show up, and for a moment I see a piranha. I'm afraid that if she stops throwing bread, the piranha will start eating the other fish or her turtle.
Even bigger fish start coming up, the water is completely full of them, big bass. My mom shows up, and takes some bread from my friend, and tosses a few pieces onto the concrete beside the water. I ask what she's doing and she says that she needs to get dinner. A huge bass flops up onto the concrete, and starts flipping itself further from the water. There was grass in that direction before, but now there's a long, but shallow, empty swimming pool. It was full of dirt and dead leaves, and the fish landed in it and stopped moving.
I cross to the other side of the lock, and see a bunch of oyster shells stuck to the side, just above the water and clustered up high, and most of them are empty. The ones that aren't are still open, and I can see the pink skin inside breathing. There's a sign beside them that says "a clam shell contains air and 14 breathing mechanisms."
I look across the lock at my friend, who has coaxed two sea lions up out of the water, and holding some bread up above on of their heads, trying to get it to reach up its nose to eat

#2: lucid
When the dream started, I was going through the mail in my kitchen, and found that I had been mailed a magazine. Inside the front cover was a message that said "if you want to know more, meet me in Vaughn" and there were instructions on which bus I should take, and a finished with "More instructions will follow." It was signed Deb Graves, who was a strange woman that I met(in real life) at a gallery opening recently. I was reading this message while sitting in my living room, and when I looked up my mom was on the couch with me, and I showed her the message.
She took the magazine from me and seemed to read it, but when she looked back at me, she just started berating me. My mom acting like that is actually a pretty common dream sign for me, and it prompted me to do a reality check. I looked at my hands, and wasn't entirely convinced, so I pinched my nose and I could breathe. I stayed calm through the realization, and immediately started rubbing my hands together and looking around me, which brought the details of the room into focus.
I didn't want to stay with my dream mom, she was still yelling, so I left the house. It was too bright, I needed to stabilize, so I bent down and ran my hands over the grass, which was wet. My mom had followed me out of the house though, so I started moving down the street. I was trying to will her away, tried to tell her that she wasn't real, I wasn't really sure how to get rid of her, but nothing I tried worked.
She started trying to convince me that I was actually awake. Specifically, she said, "I know what you dont know. I know that if you looked at your hands right now, they'd look just like my hands."
I started running from her, and I remembered reading a post on the forums about running really quickly on all fours. I started running on my hands and feet and it felt completely natural and smooth. I kept saying "faster, faster" and every time I did I felt my speed increase. The world was streaking by.
When I stopped, she was still right behind me. I decided to try to fly. I closed my eyes and imagined what it would feel like to lift off the ground, and then it was actually happening. I started to drift upwards, and I was feeling thin and light, like I was transparent. I tried to visualize a forest before I opened my eyes, hoping that I'd be flying over it when I did. Instead I was still over the street, and my mom was clinging to my legs.
I drifted back down, set her down on the ground, and she let go without struggling. I lifted up higher and higher and started moving forwards. On the horizon, there were billowing swirls of bright yellow and dark blue, and I started moving towards them. The detail faded quickly before I woke up, but it didn't feel abrupt.