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I am in a zoo in a room that prepares food for the animals.

Six legged mammals break out, and I see them run past the window.

Like yesterday, several short dreams mostly late in the morning. I woke up more times and recalls some other tiny dreams and hallucinations but didn't write them down.

Fire Breath
0328: D. In a movie/video game. Stars David Duchovny and Jennifer Aniston. Though sometimes I sense the female character is my mother. Fighting hordes of evil demons. I choose one weapon and it's fire breath. It's super effective. Something about smelling like Patchouli oli.

Frisky Girl
0449: C. I'm in a hotel room but it's really big. There are four queen-sized beds lined up. It's dark. I'm on one of the center beds with a laptop, playing some classic game. A couple stumbles in and gets on the other middle bed next to me. The girl is Asian, the guy is middle-eastern or Indian. They start having sex. I feel a bit awkward. I watch for a bit, then turn away. I turn off the screen of the laptop and try to sleep. They finish and then the girl jumps on my bed. She's really friendly and frisky. She straddles me. Again, I feel weird but start to go along with it. The other guy doesn't seem upset. The girl and guy push our two beds together. But the guy lays in his bed while the girl lays with me in my bed. I'm showing her something on the laptop. Then I want to turn it off but I have trouble pressing the right button.

WBTB 60 minutes, B-Complex vitamin

Chasing Game
0753: D. Watching Ben play a game. He runs around a sports track chasing a monster. He is a deer. It's overcast and the ground is covered with snow. He quickly taps one button to speed up but he keeps accidentally pressing the Start button which pauses the game and breaks his rhythm.

Stationary Tactics
0835: D. I'm in the game Counter-Strike. The old one. The map is Office. I'm CT. I think I'm just playing with bots. I don't move. I just stand in the spawn and wait for the bots to find me. When they do, I headshot them with my pistol.

fragment
1102: F. Some cultural debate about Europeans?

This happened completely by accident!
oomg thanks!!!!!!!! i dont care hah this is important to me. --- First of all I guess i should add, I've NEVER tried lucid dreaming or done any techniques to obtain it. This just happened to me by accident tonight the reason im posting is because my mind is blownnnnnnn. I just a crazy dream I had my first Lucid dreamtonight!!!!!!!!!!!
I was about to fall asleep when my friend called me and was like hey see if i left my wallet in this dudes car after the party last night.
I was like ok and started to try to sleep again i remembered and texted the guy about the wallet, then this girl texted me again as i was falling asleep.
I texted her back she replied once more and i then got a text from the guy with the wallet haha.
So then I rolled over and just tried to sleep i guess.
I feel like I should have had a jumping awake dream, because i almost notice a few patterns about my dreaming state now that I've had this dream.
a pattern that I've had jumping dreams or falling when i keep texting and waking myself up rite before i fall asleep multiple times.
Or for instance, I have never been able to consciously wake myself up.
I've also never been able to realize that it was day time in my dream and that I know it's night time in real life.
So anyway, idk if I was just thinking and eventually crossed into the dream state,
where your sort of daydreaming then realize ur dreaming and jump awake.


But anyway I was long boarding down a semi familiar parking lot in an apartment complex. I had two long boards.
I was riding them like one foot on each vertically. like I had them longways.
I was riding and it felt completely normal to have two long boards and be riding them like that. I then like went into a parking garage or something, and Inside was a station wagon.
I kinda wanna say I got creeped out by it or maybe I didn't want to run into it so i got off and started long boarding in a different direction,
I then was outside again on the other side of the garage, when i encountered a slightly chunky, tallish guy in red.
I don't remember the exact chain of events here.
I think I was totally creeped out by him and like did a spin kick to him and it kinda pushed him back a bit but he was virtually unharmed,
and quickly recovered.
I turned to run away, with an almost invisible friend who was with me (after fighting for a sec).
He would sometimes be there but when I think about him, he wasn't there and would appear and help me fight the guy in red.
As I turned the same man in red was behind me. He sort of appeared.
I sort of just realized I was dreaming, I think because of the illogicality of the double man in red. So about the chain of events,
I don't remember if he appeared and then i decided to kick him because i knew i had control of the dream,
or if I was creeped out. Kicked him then realized.
But anyway one of the guys came at me and in a split second I realized I was dreaming,
and sort of made a mental command for him to stop. He instantly froze.
The other guy came and I did the same thing. Then I got this crazy wavy feeling inside me, almost like sleep paralysis,
if i could imagine what it would feel like to have it. I almost felt like maybe I was waking up into sleep paralysis,
even though I've never had it, but it was more like i felt like the cover of fear and loathing in Los Vegas.
I felt like a pulsating wavyness inside me. All throughout my physical body,
but i felt it in the dream and more of a reality distortion waviness.
Almost like in movies when someone wakes up from a dream they see that visual wavy rippling effect.
I have no idea. But I felt that physically and visually sort of.
I felt wavy and like an incredible surge to wake up, like I was being ripped out of the dream.
Like I was still fighting the jumping awake feeling.
Like as i kept realizing my consciousness within the dream I felt as if it was triggering me to wake up.
An inner sensation invigorating me to wake up.
I then maybe opened my eyes slightly or maybe caught myself just in time.
It was almost like i was rising out of the dream but had time to think about it.
Not alot of time but it was like instead of jumping awake i had a chance to barely catch myself.
I remembered something about, thinking of an object in real life or something,
I don't remember what i thought about but I thought about fire or something
and like I sort of was sucked back into the dream or never fully left.
Then I was back at the dream, it was like the setting I was in originally on the front lawn of the apartment building,
but I think the red guy was still frozen or gone. But I still remembered I was awake or re realized again,
and I got the wavy feeling but i kinda overcame it.


So then I was like well if I'm in a lucid dream I can do anything.
So I was like " Ninjas!" I said a verbal command which I felt symbolized the image I was simultaneously creating my head.
I imagined a detailed dojo and a little squad of ninjas. It took a split second to create this image.
then there was a sort of outdoor monastery or kungfu place, with high walls and mountains peeking over them. and a squad of ninjas in the middle. Then I thought about fighting them, since that's why i created them. DUH! haha and they came at me in a sort of characterized manner.
I began fighting. But I'm not sure if I actually was fighting or if i assumed I was
because I almost feel like moving made that wavy feeling come back.
So I was fighting and if I ever started to lose or get hit I just said stop.
Thought a command at the same time. everyone would stop.
I think I either don't remember part of the dream or lost control for a sec,
because I was kinda cornered in a bathroom with all the ninjas masks off.
But I was only fighting one.
I said stop and he stopped and i started to walk out,
but became distracted and for a split second he started moving again but i reiterated the stop command in my mind.
Anyway, I then realized that i had been dreaming for 5-6 minutes probably, and i sort of felt the ability to lift my head.
I tried, and it felt possible, but my head felt heavy, and I'm not sure if i was even moving it.
Even though I only tried for a split second.
Then I sort of just decided it had been long enough and I should wake up
and like got the feeling again and like woke up, but then I wasn't sure if I was awake,
so I had an instinct to look at my hand to see if it was real for some reason.
Then I remembered hearing something about like reading stuff,
and it looking weird or being like indistinguishable or a different language seemingly.
so I looked at my clock.
as I was sitting up and looking over, I saw my phone charger on my pillow or a portion of it and jumped because i thought it was a bug.
So I'm not sure if i was awake until that point or if i was awake before.
So I looked at my digital clock and realized it had been an hour ( if not 2). and I could read it and i felt awake.
But i wasn't sure still kinda. so i sat in awe for a minute thinking about what just happened,
as a mind safeguard so I feel uncomfortable passing it kind of.
This dream also felt distinguishably different.
Then i was afraid to sleep for a while but I finally went back to sleep around 7am and had at least 2 more dreams, one of which involved my girlfriend which I'm taking a brake with.

Ok so I finally had my first ever lucid dream since I've been keeping my dream journal. Here's how it went: starts out in my house nothing too unusual going on my foster mom and dad are in their room laying down and I'm walking around the house, in the living room there is a large woman working a bar that sells some delicious cakes, she seems to like me but I'm more interested in the cakes, when there's is only one left she tell me she can't sell anymore so i go to my sisters room and find my friends psp. Finding his psp in her rooms bothers me because i'de been asking to borrow the thing for ages and he wouldn't let me so i pick it up and start battling (He had the new birth by sleep kingdom hearts game; fitting for something in the dream world.)eventually i go into the game and start running around, though it's no longer kingdom hearts its more mario/zelda themed and i have a sword, Somehow i run into my friend Butters in the game and he wants to try a sword trick he's figured out we do the trick and somehow i think the trick is relevant to a reality check so when it causes me to appear back in my parents room from the start of the dream, i realize hey it worked and start walking around the house seeing if i can gain some dream control. I try to make some grapes appear to see if i can do it and there are like three, another interesting thing to note is that my friend came with me from the game back to the house (along with a few others) but in the transition he turned from Butters in the game part to my friend randy once we got back to my house.

This has been my longest lucid to date. The dream itself felt like it lasted probably around 30 minutes or so, but reflecting on it, it feels so much faster than that.

I don't know exactly when my lucidity hit me, but I just know it did. However, prior to being lucid: I was in some lodge like area with someone I didn't recognize. out of the blue I was told that Iron Maiden (and more specifically Steve Harris) would be arriving momentarily. I turned crazy with anxiety. The moment they arrived I asked them to sign whatever I had, and they ended up signing my Zero shirt. I don't remember much else, except at one point I couldn't walk and collapsed to the floor because I was so filled with joy.

Somehow, the dream transitioned to a concert arena. Like I mentioned, I don't know exactly what triggered lucidity, but it happened. I started walking around trying to meet people. There was a loot of people obviously. I remember walking through a crowd at one point and I saw a completely original face of a girl-- not one from my memories-- and she just stood out. I don't know why, but I felt she was another dreamer, somehow in my dream. She looked just as confused as I was to see her. I walked up to her, held her close and whispered in her ear "I'm Markus. Remember this moment." as I leaned back to look in her eyes they widened greatly, and she simply dissipated-- maybe she woke up, maybe I'm crazy and it was all me from the beginning-- who knows!

I went back to a seat and sat down to see if my dream would make Iron Maiden perform. and they did. a strange moment followed where a row behind me, several people started singing the lyrics to a song (I can't remember which), but they were horribly monotone. I also remember it wasn't one of my favourite songs. After this occurrence, Maiden went off stage for the encore part and the crowd was restless. I realized it's my dream, Maiden doesn't get to have a break! I shouted "Play another song!" and bam, they were back on stage, playing music again. I listen to a lot of music, and one thing I've noticed about my mind is I really have songs engrained in my brain. when I'm in dreams, I can have music playback to me just like an MP3 player. I kept shouting "Next!", and Maiden would switch to a completely new song. it was exhilarating. Eventually they finished and I decided to walk around and check out the crowd some more.

somehow, in the midst of walking around the giant rows and rows of chairs, they started to shrink more and more until there was about 2 rows of chairs, and the setting changed to my room. I didn't want this to be where I was, because any time I'm lucid and it's in my room, I end up thinking about waking life too much which ruins my lucidity and wakes me up. I've tried the spinning method before to change locations, but I've never been successful. Until now. I thought of traveling to a Forrest type location, and spun and spun. I could see the faint imagery of trees and clung to it. I was teleported to one of the most visually stunning landscapes I've ever seen.

It was a majestic looking country-esque location, seemingly in the middle of nowhere. Rolling grass fields in the distance, and closer to me where two houses, both with interesting log-cabing-esque looks to them. I went past one into the 'backyard' per say (there were no fences or boundaries)..and saw an amazing view. The season was somehow a mix of summer and fall at the same time, and it was gorgeous. Trees had no leaves, but there were many of them--and all across my field of vision, these strange sunflower things were floating around-- I'll try and recreate an image. It was as if the heads of the sunflower plants were just floating from the sky, and it was beautiful.

They looked roughly like this (sorry for quick and sloppy photoshop) :


I kept walking through this beautiful scenic field until I came to a mountain. I gazed up at it, and already knew what I was going to do. I thrusted up from the ground and took flight. As I flew over it I was speechless..I started loosing altitude, but I realized it's because I was too focused on trying to fly-- I just had to know that I could fly. and it picked up again. After that, I remember mumbling to myself "You are the one, neo" (I'm a huge nerd). I came upon a city scape quite fast and landed in it. I remember I was changing a bunch of things completely on the fly-- the city seemed to have a lot of police and SWAT members in it for some reason and it was giving me a bad vibe-- so I just willed them away. Poof. gone. The city also looked kind of dark itself, like it was build some time ago, not like slums per say.. but just old. I decided to change that. I said "lighten up these buildings" and they were transformed into newer looking gray skyscrapers. I kept changing small things here and there until I was distracted. I realized I should probably have some sort of goal, and was put off that I didn't know what the DV task of the month was, because it would have been an excellent time to do it. Shortly after I spent time thinking about goals, the dream collapsed and I woke up.

This was my longest lucid to date. It was absolutely astonishing. I cannot wait for more.

I'm at a desert palace, and I'm strapping a knife and sheath on my right leg. Once I get it fixed, I started searching around for treasure. There was a pool that had gold pieces scattered throughout that I almost jumped in. At the last second I noticed it had crocodiles in it. They had a random pattern to them, and I got the hell away from the water. I asked this old guy who was near me about them, and he said they were mechanical. Then he went on talking about all this other stuff I didn't care for.

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

When my 6:30 alarm went off this morning, I was still sleepy, despite having gone to bed just after 10, and I felt somehow sure that I'd have at least one dream that I remembered if I slept in for another hour, so I reset the alarm for 7:30. Luckily, before I fell asleep again, I remembered that REM cycles take 90 minutes, so I reset it again for 8:00. [I'm not entirely sure in what order I had the following dreams, nor am I sure whether the first one took place before or after the 6:30 alarm, but here they all are.]

I open my eyes in my bedroom and immediately notice that the light fixture in the center of the ceiling has a square cover over the lightbulb, like the light over the shower in my real bathroom, not a round cover like it does in my real bedroom. I say right out loud, “That light is wrong, so I must be dreaming! HELLS TO THE YEAH!” I get out of bed, but then stand just inside the door for a few moments, trying to figure out whether or not I can still breathe through my nose while pinching it shut. It seems I can, but only a little bit. Confused, I give up trying to figure it out and leave the room to say good morning to my mom. She's there, just like normal. I go back in my room and, still hopeful that this might still be a dream, try to walk through one of the walls. Again, it doesn't work; the wall and I are completely solid to each other.

The Dream King is talking to me. [Not the one from The Sandman; it's the gryphon from the Rankin-Bass version of “Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer.”] He says something along the lines of, “When you summoned us for fun times earlier, you bounced and lay down. The next time you do it, could you lay on your back first so the palace doesn't get shaken around?”

I'm in a park somewhere with P. We have to go through it to get home. There are all these dogs running around, and she protects me from them just by knowing how to act confidently and politely toward them. At some point, we end up riding bareback on a horse through the park. I can feel the horse's hair. Eventually we get to an escalator and start riding up it (yes, still on our horse). It goes up into an enclosed chamber with animatronic figurines in it, designed to look like the riders of the escalator are coming out of the mouth of some giant creature. There is some kind of audio narration playing, thanking us for visiting this attraction. When we get to the top of the escalator and exit the chamber, we're on a street.

The 8:00 alarm went off for real, and I recalled all of the above. I went out of my room and talked to my mom.
Me: I just had a really confusing dream. Is this the first time I've come out to say hi to you this morning, or the second?
Mom: The first.
Me: I thought so. That's what I dreamed about.
After I'd confirmed it, I started feeling happy and proud about having another lucid dream.

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Meta-commentary:

The WBTB+MILD technique seems to be working well for me, at least giving me interesting dreams with good recall, if not consistently giving me lucid dreams. I've found something that works for me, though, so I'm going to keep it up. I was making the effort with my MILDing again last night, but I could be putting even more effort into it. Also, I had my cardboard-square bracelet on for most of the night, but I think I took it off when the 6:30 alarm went off because I was tired of wearing it. I'm not sure, though, so I can't say whether or not I was wearing it when I had my lucid dream. Finally, I shall have to remember not to rely on the nose-pinch RC so much; it served to confuse the issue rather than to clarify it. Next time, I'll try the finger-counting method.

Its starts with Wishbone walking around Oakville. He got picked up my someone who WASN'T a dog catcher. Latter that day when Joe came home. He discovered that Wishbone was missing.And with David and Sam's help all they discover is Wishbone's collar (and that was AFTER they had checked the Shelter 2x). When Joe came home, he ate some new cereal he got (despite the fact he had several open cereal boxes in the cupboard). Than he wanted to head out the door again. When Joe was outside and near a truck, he got inside. The next day Ellen notices her son hadn't come back last night. SO Sam &David go over to the Talbot's house and when Ellen is cooking pizza, David&Sam talk and they said they saw someone on the other side of town who had Joe's build all they heard was something about a cave and meeting someone there. Ellen really doesn't want them to "tackle" this problem alone-but she does tell them to be careful.


In the next scene we see Sam and David hanging upside down in a cave. They hear talking and they recognized Joe's voice but they also notice its more "flat" or not-normal (and that's has nothing to do with the helmet he's wearing). and they see him take a bag (that was moving a lot). In the next scene we see him on the steps of some fancy building trying to sell puppies. Sam&David calls to his name when he's on the steps and he takes the puppy back. And there was a bit of a chase scene since Joe want though a soccer game (accidentally scoring), interrupting a American Football game and came to his senses when he got to a playground and took off his helmet. After this everyone is back home.

I dreamt I was in a parking lot helping people unload some sort of work vehicle. Once we were finished, I went into a car and started masturbating for some reason. I wasn't finished when I was asked to help with the last of the objects left on the lift. After, we started smoking marijuana mixed with cocaine, which sounds in hindsight like a terrible idea. It sped the dream up and then I woke to my alarm.

In another dream, I was with my ex. I remember being split up with her in the dream, but for some reason, we were fooling around. We were trying to avoid her ex from noticing. After I finish pleasing her, she starts to work on me, but I wake before anything happens. At least I was gentlemenly even in my dreams.

No recall.

Dream 1: My sister is going on the bus. However, my mom decided to go inside for no obvious reason. Later, she asks me to join and I do. From afar, I see kids my sisters age that look a little familiar. Once the work is done (?), I ask the bus driver to drop us at the next corner.

Dream 2: My mom bought me Magic the Gathering cards even though I stopped playing for like a year now. She gave some to my dad aswell, but my father doesnt like them. The deck is full of Land cards with the symbols from pokemon.

Dream 3: In a pretty short dream, I see Cameron and Mitchell from Modern Family.

Dream 4: Me and my handicapped friend go to school. He asks me to do an image of a belly button for when he comes back from school. At his return, I have about ten, but he doesnt like any of them.

Ok so i took a 100mg of b6 last night and tried to wild. I failed the wild again, but i made progress. I hit SP in like 10 minutes. I just need a mask for my eyes because they keep opening up. Anyway heres my dreams.

Lucidity-0
Vividness-7

There is a ritual in my elementary school where vampires spread some blood on the floor and then kill a whole bunch of people in the room. I'm a vampire in this btw. There is usually 15 people and around 10 vampires. We are about to start the ritual again when morality hits me. I think that this is insane. Why are we doing this to innocent people. I continue along with the ritual. Everyone puts blood into this guys hands. He puts it into the middle of the room. I then walk to the blood. Then unritualisticly, i throw the blood to the other side of the room. The vampires swarm around it trying to get a taste. I tell the rest of the people, some of which are friends to stab them in the back of the head. A vamp tackles my friend. He has a pen in his hand and stabs his back neck. The vamp glows gold then disintegrates into nothing. The people in the room rush the vamps killing them, then leave the gym. I walk out and along the way hear from my old boss something along the lines of," why would you betray us". I say back,"because two of those people were my friends. I can't do this anymore".

Heres another dream. This one is just odd to me.

Lucidity-0
Vividness-6

I'm somewhere either at a parking lot at school, or at mcdonalds. I pull out my laptop and this girl walks up. She's pregnant. I know her from school, and she already had a kid, and really was a MILF. But she walks up and says hi. Then implies that we are dating and have been for a while. I just go with the flow and say yaaa, sure. Someone walks up with a friend who starts talking to her. The other person leans in to me and says you know shes in her second trimester. I go ya, sure.

Lucidity-0
Vividness-5

I'm hangin with my friend and his brothers in a car. He is rolling a joint. I mess around and put half the weed in a bag in my mouth. For the rest of the dream i'm spitting up weed in large amounts. It tasted odd.

Lucidity-0
Vividness-5

My friend is watching some sort of weird porn. I tell him to turn it off. He can't even see it because its on a wall behind him. After a while he wants to play some Company of Heroes. I say sure but don't really feel like playing.

Lucidity-0
Vividness-3

I remember a dream of me driving into a parking lot. Then going into a store. I wish i could remember more.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! I meditated for twenty minutes before bed last night, and it felt great! I focused on my breathing and tried stimulating the "chakra pathways" a bit. I don't want to start storing energy before I'm fully "warmed up" yet. Anyways I also took some B6 and omega-3 just before bed. Two hours later I woke up from one of the worst nightmares I have ever had in my life.

2.14: My nightmare
I don't know where I am, but I cannot move. I get these flashes of raw emotions from every direction and from what I can make out, I'm lying in a bathtub and I'm dying. The sheer terror of it all makes me scream at the top of my lungs and my voice amplifies tenfold by the bathroom walls. I black out...

I wake up a few moments later and the same thing is happening. I notice the bathtub is filled with money and there's a shotgun nearby. I still can't move and it's all very frightening. I black out again...

I don't know how many times this happened or for how long, but it went on for a LONG time. When I finally wake up and could move again, I was exhausted. The shotgun is still there I notice but it's not a normal shotgun. "It makes your memories go away. You won't die if you shoot yourself in the head with it" I think. I decide to leave it where it is, and I send a text message to my friend Jonas. I check the time: 22.00. "Damn, I've been sleeping for like 24 hours" I say to try to stabilize myself. I am still very groggy and I fear I will go back to that horrible state. I call my mom on the phone and she answers. I tell her what happened and expect some sympathy. "Oh well, you continue sitting by the computer!" she tells me like it's the computer's fault. I wake up.

4.00: Fragment
*I'm drinking different kinds of whiskey with my sisters and my brother. We're measuring the liquid with large syringes.

7.30: Fragment
*Something about outdated milk-based drinks. There's fudge, strawberry and something else. Only one of them was good enough to drink.

Amount of sleep: 7½ hours

Food before bed: 150mg B6 and 2 omega-3 pills

That's it! I was pretty shaken up by the nightmare and I couldn't go back to sleep for like 40 minutes. Anyways it was a cool experience, but I don't want to have that experience again. A dream within a dream, in which I am having a Sleep Paralysis.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Holy crap! I just remember that I dreamed about deodorant, ice cream and train. But I cannot recall what really happened. I lay for at least 10 minutes in bed, not moving but I couldn't recall something
To find the root of this "No-recall"-Problem, I will write down from now on how much sleep I had. I'm convinced that I didn't got enough sleep.

This dream was not lucid.

I stood outside a two-story apartment complex at night. The aprtments were connected from the outside, not by an inside hallway.

I walked to a stairway up to the second floor. As I did, I thought about how lucky I had been to miss the rain. But, I thought, my mom would be going out in the rain tonight. So she would need an umbrella.

I ran on all fours along the balcony. It was now raining hard, maybe even thundering. I came to "my mom's apartment." The door was closed, but I kept rushing at it, unaware. I suddenly got a hold of myself and pulled back.

My mom stood to my right, outside the door. She may have had a bunch of stuff all around her, like a mattress, blankets, etc.

I now saw a weird picture book about a baby Disney character (Goofy, though I called him Pluto) in a diaper. "Pluto" had been trnasformed into a baby and was being taken care of by Goofy (who really was Goofy).

I stood out on a streetcorner in a clean, desolate area of town at night. I got a call on my phone, which was an old cell phone.

I avoided answering the call, because I was trying to avoid certain people. But I looked at the phone and saw the caller was "Bomb." I thought Bomb was my brother, so I thought I'd answer the phone. But I then thought that I could be mistaken. So I let the phone ring.

I then wondered if my brother had called to tell me something bad had happened to my mom.

As I crossed the intersection, a big SUV headed at me from my left. It made a huge u-turn in the intersection and then in an area that looked like a culdesac. It felt like the SUV was trying to hit me. But then it was gone.

I was walking along the sidewalk and came to a curtain made of white sheets. Some shortish man held the sheets up for me.

I walked through. It was daytime, a little grey, in an area like a river on the back end of a southwestern city. I stood by a truck with a cop.
The cop was taking care of some final details, probably with an investigation of the site. I got in the truck. I was now holding a bunch of papers and accordion files in my lap.

The cop got in the truck. We drove down the road. Another cop waved at us. The first cop stopped the truck.

The second cop (dressed a in red flannel jacket) started talking with the first cop about some investigation being done on a mass murderer woman, who had possibly killed all her family except her husband.

I now felt I was somehow related to this woman, and that she would be coming after me. I felt like a little kid.

We drove on a little further. It may have been night. We came up to an area littered with a bunch of household stuff, including a baby-sized mattress.

There was some relief for me in this scene. I may have felt like the woman had been caught, and that she wouldn't be trying to kill me after all.