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Had a shit sleep last night. My dad's noticed so he bought me a lavander air freshner plug-in for my room. I hope it works! I should just run more to tire myself out.

Awake Non-Lucid Semi-Lucid

I'm in a lakehouse. It smells damp, everything seems to have lost colour. I walk around slowly, listening to the creak of wood. I'm on a second or third floor.

Lauren is behind me. I snarl at her, she's such a bitch. She laughs and grabs a bag from my shoulder, which I didn't even know was there. She turns to Amy, and laughs again. She's pissing me off, but alos upsetting me. I glare at her and storm towards another room. There's a man selling cookies. I grab one, and leave without paying. I ignore him when he shouts after me.

I feel like ripping Laurens fake, bleach blonde extensions out at the roots. Ugh, everything about her screams artificial.

Instead, I run down the stairs. I ball my hands up into fists and hold back tears. She upsets me just by being here. Now I notice the lake. It's the one I go to for my jogs. I smile because the sun is setting and it's so pretty. I walk along the edge, careful not to fall in.

I notice a figure, standing watching me on top of the water. I think I recognise him... Wait! I do! He's Paul (My almost boyfriend *winks*). I smile and shout to him to catch me. He grins and holds his arms out. I take a running jump off of the edge and land in them. He quickly sweeps my legs up so I don't get my feet wet. I close my eyes and he pulls me close. I can kind of still see though. *Sigh* It's so nice. But soon, he says he needs to go. So he carries me over to the edge, and I watch him leave.

[These dreams, all of which were non-lucid, are actually from the night before last. The ones from last night are private.]

I'm at a supermarket. I attempt to get money out of an ATM, but my card doesn't work. While I'm there, I run into Jenny A. [She's a real-life friend of mine.]

I'm with a group of people my own age, and we're all studying for either the A+ or CCNA exams. We're discussing whether or not you should broadcast SSIDs. [That question has come up as I've been studying for the A+ in real life. The sample questions say you shouldn't broadcast them, but they're apparently operating under the assumption that the wireless network is only there for the benefit of company employees. If it's there for the benefit of customers, then of course you should broadcast the SSID, so your customers will know which network is yours.]

I'm outside a tall office building with P. We need to get into a conference room, where lunch is being served. The way we're going to get there is by riding up to the outside window of the conference room on a porch swing being lifted by a helicopter. P. goes up first. She tilts the swing so it's not at a right angle to the chains [by flipping it over? I guess so, but I didn't see her do it] and stands on top of it, holding on to the chain to her left. [I think] I tell her that that's dangerous, but she ignores me and rides up. She has no problem stepping off the swing and into the conference room.

I don't get to enter the conference room by riding up on the swing. I have to get there by climbing up this net of ropes that has appeared on the side of the building. My mom is there cheering me on. On my way up, I can smell the coffee in the conference room. When I get to where I can see into the room, some of the monsters from Sesame Street are there. Also, Mr. Saito is one of the people at the lunch meeting. [Why is he the only one from the Dream Team who's actually shown up in any of my dreams so far? I think it's because of my long-abiding love for Japan and everything about it.]

Lately, I haven't been hanging out at my friend Mitch's apartment because I'm a rather shy person and they haven't been specifically inviting me, even though I have an perpetual invitation to their place.
Last night I went out with them and hung out with them and he was wondering why I haven't been over there in forever.

I dreamed that I did go over there, but of course everything was different. I think I remember going from outside into it, and it wasn't like an apartment, it was like a real house, and there were steps to go up to get in the front door. I'm pretty sure JC was there and Laura might have been too.
We went inside, the layout was pretty much completely different. The kitchen was too the left from the door and the fridge and stuff were further in the same direction and the hallway was to the right from there.
We were sitting at the kitchen table that was in front of the fridge, and eventually I had had 4 beers.
I had to go to the bathroom, which happens a lot when I drink soda or beer, and has happened IRL at their apartment.
I went in there, and it was very strange, there were two showers that were like public showers, with shower curtains that wrap around three sides. I remember there being something strange about the urinal(?), but I don't remember what it was.
I think someone came in there at some point, but this is about where I can't remember anything from the dream.

Not really sure what any of this means.

Haha I just can't stop laughing when I remember that dream from yesterday. It was a bit weird xD

Hours of sleep: 7h
Vividness: 3/5
Recall: 2/5 --> There are surely more dreams but I can't remember them.

I'm standing in a great hall. I'm singing very loud and with full motivation. There are a lot of people around me. They are listening to what I'm saying.I'm surprised how good I sing this song. But I don't think about for a second (my friends say that I've really got no talent xD) and keep on singing. I'm very happy and end my song.
The people give me applause, but I just see it but don't hear it. I know that after me comes someone other to sing a further song. I look to my right and see that a woman in a beautiful white dress is looking for something in a suitcase. She is really nervous and drops things out of the suitcase.
I look to my left. There is a man in a suit. There also is a priest. They are talking to eachother:
DC: I hope everything is fine.
Priest: She's nervous, that's all.
DC: I hope so... I hope that she doesn't make the same thing as her bridesmaid.
(Apparently I'm on a wedding.)
Priest: What did she do?
DC: She ran away while the ceremony.
Priest: What???? And you allowed here to be her bridesmaid? That scandalous!!!

Now something really, I mean really odd happens.

I see that in this hall or church (whatever) is a lake. There are swans. One of them listens to that conversation. As reaction of that bullshit-talk he simply starts vomiting at the DC, at the priest; than the swan swims to all the other swans and vomit at them. Finally it commits suicide by simply drowning itself in the lake.

Now seriously. WTF? My subconscious is really weird lately.

Real life Dream Lucid Dream Sign
For me to remember, dreams are 067300, lucid dreams are the color below blue, #4169e1, and dream signs are the light purple, which is up one and left one from blue, #483d8b.

First or second dream...
After I had it, I woke up. (Sigh, didn't remember to RC.) I told myself what happened in it over and over because I didn't want to go and type it, and look at me now, completely forgotten it...

Don't hurt the mermaid dream!
This dream was the most vivid I've had yet. I could clearly see all the textures on everything, the shining sun on the slime of the water creatures, my hand wasn't even blurry.
My family is buying a little beach condo. Other people are also buying this beach condo, though no one (including me) notice that this doesn't make sense. Somehow it'll just work, and the other family will be like our neighbors. The beach condo we're buying isn't even a beach condo– it's a bunch of porches of varying height connected by stairs with only a few walls, and no ceilings. By the way, the wood of the porch seemed very dark and old. It was a rich dark brown. Our family looked around, and looked at the beach, and we're all thinking and saying, "Wow!". Suddenly people in viking armor jumped out, but we weren't alarmed; the whole thing was a skit to show the heritage of the place. They had brown tall upside-down cpu-shaped helmets on and green armor that had a bump every three inches or so. They chased us around and we laughed.

Later, I walked down to the beach and saw all sorts of critters, large and small. Looking back, this whole place I was at looked like an alien world. There were crabs of many colors and other beach creatures scattered along the coast. The coast a had a very, very shallow slope– 50 feet in and only a foot deep. I sat down and looked around. There was a river to the right. Among other creatures, there was a mermaid. The mermaid was the only thing in the whole I couldn't see very well. I could see her lower fish-like part, but the rest was blurry. I got up. I noticed a weird sensation in my hand. A crab was on my hand! I could see it all clearly– the crab was green and flat, many times wider than it was thick. It was squeezing on to my hand with all of it's legs, not just holding on with one claw. I pulled him of and looked around.

There was a guy, pointing a wooden crossbow on a wooden mount (the wood was the same as the beach house) at the sea. He had olive skin and black straight hair down to an inch below his ears. I asked him what he was doing and he replied that he was hunting mermaids. I asked him to stop but he wouldn't. We kept fighting until I said, "Wait a second... That's not a mermaid," pointing at the creature he was aiming at. "That's one of those things." It was a giant, 4 and a half foot tall fat slithering thing which was about 10 feet long. It was like color 3850 in this color chart (it's in the first column, a third of the way down) with black triangular spots every few feet. It was slimy like a slug and had little stubs for limbs. It had a very big mouth and beady black eyes. It could have easily eaten a person if it wanted to. Anyway, what the crossbow was pointing at was 2 of them, about 70 feet away. The mermaid hunter left the crossbow and stood just a little bit away from where the sand met water.

He started singing the learning tape of the Barbershop song "Bicycle Built for Two" in a weird mix of tenor and lead. I listened, and noted this. He had the same weird computer-y voice as the learning tape. Suddenly he started singing lower notes, which surprised me. I had a sudden thought in my head that something was wrong. The notes grew lower and dissonant and I realized nothing in this world made sense, and I wasn't sure why. I collapsed to the ground, and woke up in fear.

That was very weird. It wasn't meant to be a nightmare but I panicked when I realized something was wrong. The thing was it wasn't as scary as a real nightmare, as if my fear wasn't amplified by the dream.

Anyway, I'm glad I actually realized something was off in a dream, even if I didn't figure out it was because I was dreaming.

PS: Gosh, I spent over an hour writing this! If I remember multiple dreams each night this will take forever!

non-dream - non-lucid - lucid

20/10/10 I was booting up WoW again (been clean for aprox 6 months now) and I couldn't wait to just get out the old death knight, play around with some random mobs and get into tanking again. During the installation there were videos of the various instances and raids, although thinking back on it they had nothing to do with the actual dungeons in the game.

Skip

My death knight or main character is on a peer system somewhere looking for something. There may be flight involved, seem to remember looking for a person.

10-19-10, non-lucid, multiple dreams

My sister Emily, My foreign exchange student Liang and I somehow all got chosen to sell tickets and this sort of weird... aquarium. This was the type of place that parents lovved to take their kids to as a fun weekend thing. We all had to sell the tickets outside of the building and once the tickets were bought the customers were allowed inside. We didn't have any cashregisters or phanny packs to put the money in so we had to use our own money to give change to the customers. Their was a huge line and all of us were very busy. One very rude lady started distracting me and trying to have a conversation. In my peripheral vision I noticed a man and his son sneaking into the aquarium! Immediately I knew this woman was the mans wife and they were trying to sneak into the building for free. After persistent begging and trying to sneak in they finally gave up. ( if this was real life I would have easily let them in! ) At the end of the day Emily gave up 200 dollars in change and I only gave up 40 somehow.

The next thing I know Liang and I are in my car in my old church parking lot. Except...he is driving? I'm very scared because in China I know he isn't old enough to drive and I'm sure he has no experience. After maybe five minutes of driving we ended up passing my dad who is just exiting a coffee shop. Somehow my dad doesn't see us and I somehow regain control of my car. After that the song Surfing USA came on the radio and as we driving we passed a bunch of beach boy scenery. As we parked and started to walk into My house Liangs cell phone went off in the car! I rushed back to the car like it was some sort of huge emergency and answered it. His parents were speaking chinese to me and I had no idea what was happening. Finally after plenty of gibberish and confusing I heard " talk to you tomorrow" and then they hung up.
As the phone call ended so did my dream.

Fable

I walked into my basement to find a bunch of black men playing poker and smoking cigars. I decided to ignore them and walk to my room. As i'm passing them one of them says, "Quit wasting your life!" I don't know why but this really got to me. I went back and confronted this man. After a very good conversation I figured out he was 25 years old and we both loved video games. Eventually he apologized for telling me I was wasting my life which was my main goal. I started to talk him about how my life was like the video game fable. He didn't understand so I took the little piece of paper in the video game case that explains the controls out. But instead of being that piece of paper it was a deceivingly big map. I rolled it open and it probably ended up about being 2 or 3 feet in length. It had very intricate detail about the fable world and how complex it was. How every area has it owns science to it. Some how the whole entire world had something in common. It also had a hidden design that brought the map together. After showing him this map we parted ways and I could tell that me and this 25 year old black man would be friends for life.

I was in shanes attic which he doesn’t even have which looked suprisingly like my attic. There was memories of my attic that I figured if I cleaned up my attic alitle bit it could look as nice as shanes which had a couch a wii and a tv. Later my friend cody came over for a party. I decided to go in my boxers and a shirt. Dina picked me and cody up in a car full of girls and we drove down my street and she took me on a route I never seen throught housese I never seren. All the streets were all fuked up and I didn’t remember any of them. When I got to the house it was small on the outside but huge on the inside with a large backward jacoozie and pool.Also I had no pants on just boxers I jumped over the jacaoozie like the guy did infront of me and we walked into his secondary house. I met a girl in there who invited me upstairs to take a test tube shot nd I said okay but then some fatgirl said she would come to cause if marvin came along hed nd saw me alon e with his gf hed be pissed I said okay nd went up. I took a sip of the shot she said it was kushed flavor but it tasted like cherry kush frozen frosty.

Note: When I fell asleep tonight I had only one plan, and that was to do some healing on MoSh since he seemed to have some negative energy the previous day. So I fell asleep with the goal of going to find MoSh in my mind, and then I slipped into a WILD.

When I entered my WILD I was already in MoSh's inner world, in the usual place in front of MoSh's house. I looked around there for a few minutes, I thought MoSh might be inside the house and in need of healing. So I started walking towards the house but I met up with a woman before I got there, I recognized the woman as Kaomea. I asked her where MoSh was, she said he was in the healing glen with the stone golem, so we would go there to heal him. I said that sounded fine with me, was Asuka coming? Kaomea said Asuka was with her right now, so let's go. I opened a portal to the healing glen, and both of us went through it. On the other side I saw MoSh lying in a bed of grass, the Crystal Golem was right there with him, and I saw Basara emerging from a portal right as Kaomea and I arrived.

In the healing glen I went over to take a closer look at MoSh, who sat up as I went over to him. He said he felt fine, he had needed healing before, but now he was ok. Kaomea told him to lie back down and let the healers do their jobs. She pushed him back down on his back, where he just lied there and looked up at her. I went to check closer, scanning his energy as I went over there, and I saw there was some dark energy still in his system, and in fact, there was a concentrated area of the dark energy right over his chest. It was underneath his shirt, so to find it I would have to remove that shirt… Kaomea gave me a strange look as I started removing MoSh's shirt. Kaomea asked if undressing was my true goal, I said of course not, then she accused me of saying MoSh was unattractive… it seemed the best thing to do was to keep my mouth shut since neither of those are true.

When I got his shirt off, there was something underneath that made all weird comments stop, it was a rather disgusting thing on MoSh's chest. MoSh did a double take as he saw that it was there, apparently he hadn't been able to feel it in spite of its size. It was a beetle about the size of a baseball. It had six long legs, each of those legs was actually digging into MoSh's chest… I reached to get the thing off, but after just touching it just gently, MoSh said that hurt! So I didn't try to take it off like that. Kaomea asked what the thing was doing there, I said it looked like it was both feeding MoSh negative energy and feeding off of that negative energy, it was multiplying the stuff. Ok, I had to get the thing off, but it was an insect… so maybe I could control the thing like I control other bugs in dreams. So I told the thing to get off of MoSh. It started to move, which apparently caused MoSh some extreme pain, so I told it to stop that, and it did. I reworded my command, and told it to get off of MoSh, but be as careful as possible, cause as little discomfort to MoSh as possible… and it obeyed. It retracted each of its legs one by one, MoSh didn't even twitch. The bug was finally off and it came over to me to wait for further orders, so I told it to go aside and wait… there must be something to do with such a bug…

So now there was just one more thing to do, heal whatever damage the thing had already managed to do to MoSh. This is where we all did healing spells, Kaomea was using an energy healing spell of some kind, though I didn't really focus on that too much since I was doing my own healing spell in the form of Touch My Heart. Basara was also playing a song on his guitar, and everything merged together to fill the glen with golden healing energy. That energy was very relaxing. The wound left by the bug in MoSh's chest closed up and soon was healed, then we continued the healing spell until everything faded from my view and I woke.

SPECIAL EDITION

Most of you probably didn't notice the removal of one of my five star entries recently. I took it down because I was using it as a base for a school project. Today, I present the result of that project in Dream Journal Format. Enjoy.

10.08.2010

The Way The World Ends: Special Edition (Non-lucid)

★★★★★

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Thoughts, silently drifting atop an ocean of blackness, play in my mind. Flashing images, darting under supple waves of nothing, form together to create new and exciting visions. Drifting slowly toward sleep, the onset of a dream is upon me. The shift into the dream-state is sudden, yet subtle. . . .

Everyone gets a test. Crap, I whisper inwardly. The answers were just on the board, but my recall is hazy, murky. I struggle, fighting through my memories like one would against a powerful current, but—realization strikes me abruptly. With great haste, I record my revelation.

“Soul: The agent that binds humanity together.”
“Biology: The genetic force that drives humans apart. Often incites violent conflicts.”

I ponder, deeply, the implications of these definitions, likening soul to an archaic ideal and biology—difference, technology—to humankind’s present outlook. In today’s world, with its holographic displays and galaxy-wide communication, hardly anyone believes in the existence of a soul. Clearly, technology has ascended to fill our need to connect with one another, making souls obsolete. And yet, something is missing, something one can’t get from behind a dim glowing screen. Without this crucial piece, our physiological differences rise to the surface, and we begin to look upon those unlike ourselves with disdain and contempt. Even the best of us fall prey to this reality.

The proof is here in this classroom full of geniuses. Each of us, raised in a world of cold circuitry and wire, place ourselves above this guest-lecturer who had the nerve to test us. More than that, none of us, save myself, are afraid to show it. One student in particular vocalizes the intellectual disparity between the professor and her students using several colorful metaphors, and I can’t help agreeing with him.

Without warning, the dream changes. Our test is over, and my class is headed back to Earth, yet no one celebrates our return. A sea of nuclear warheads is descending upon us, dropping through the same atmosphere we are. This is it: the end of everything. My peers look at me; their dark, motionless eyes stare blankly. All hope has left them.

I extend a shield of energy around those close to me as the nukes hit ground. Fallout descends upon us, drowning the air in a blood-red hue, buffeting my shield, heating it beyond the realms of human survival. The world outside my bubble is dead, and there’s nothing I can do about it. I think I failed the test.

UFO

My sister Joanna called me out to our grandmothers back porch. She pointed out a spotlight that was aiming right to the sky. She said "its pointing to one spot, it must be a UFO". I looked up and it was a UFO. Then I noticed on the ground a huge military airplane. The place looked like a desert. There were soldiers everywhere. Then the military launched a huge globe with 2 rotating cylinders around it. It flew a few feet into the sky and just hovered there. My sister knew what it was called. I think she said it was supposed to shut the UFO down or interrupt some kind of communication but I'm not sure. A military truck passed right by us with a bunch of female soldiers in it. Then the whole place cleared out. Then above us going in the opposite direction was an aircraft. Surrounding it in v formation were about 4 other aircraft in the shape of bullets, those were blue. Then you could hear "say good night Gracie" Coming from the main aircraft. It sounded like it was coming out of a megaphone. Then the other ones repeated it then they said what sounded like "thank you" I remember thinking " they must be trying to communicate with the alien"

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Charred Police Car

Started off at night. I think my car broke down again (It always happens in my dreams). Then I noticed Corey (a police officer in my town) sitting in a charred police car. I think I had a skateboard and a couple of other people were skateboarding on some rocks and I was wondering how they did that. Then I asked Corey to give me a ride. When I got in the car I think I might have asked him what happened to the car cause the inside was all charred too. Then at some point I ended up in the backseat and Corey ended up in the passenger seat. It was day time at that point. There was a girl in the drivers seat and a girl beside me in the back seat. Then I asked him how these people got here and he didn't know. I thought about it for a minute but then forgot about it.

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People in the Street

A whole crowd of old guys were standing around in the street. Cars started running them over. Then cars driving on the cross streets started running over them too, and there was a bit of an accident. I remember thinking that that couldn't be right. Then the old guy that my main focus was on got up brushed himself off and walks away. It's crazy because they were running his head over. I knew something was wrong but I couldn't quite put my finger on it.

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Crooked Cop

I was dressed as a cop walking threw the snow. I had a feeling that I was really a cop then I felt like I was just masquerading. That feeling came and went. then I went in to somebody's house. The guy in the house just looked at me. I felt weird then he left. Then the thought of robbing them went threw my mind. I casually looked around for cameras and then I got nervous. My heart was pounding as I looked threw a drawer or two. I didn't find anything. I think I was looking for jewelry. On my way out I noticed what looked like worthless antique looking jewelry on the table, then I just left.

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Sandra's Ghost (Lucid)

Me and Sandra (this girl I know) were kissing in my living room. She didn't have panties on. I was squeezing her ass. I thought it felt plump for a small ass. I remember thinking "shes hot, her ass is so soft". I turned her around and rubbed her Vagina. She brushed off her shaved pelvis for lint real quick. Then she asked for a pen. I didn't have one. She said she would go get one.

My living room suddenly was a warehouse. She was about to go look for the pen when I warned her of the ghost that was back there at the other end of the place. She said "If I see a ghost, you'll hear me talking to it" then she went to find a pen. As she turned and disappeared behind this huge crate a woman walked out from behind it with her head down (her hair was covering her face) I thought to myself "the ghost must of possessed Sandra" then some other women started coming out from behind the crates and from this one door. I thought they were all zombies coming to kill me. Thats when I became lucid.

After I became lucid I looked at the first women that spooked me and punched her in the face. I then thought to myself "don't waste your dream like this" then I punched her again. Then I told myself to do something more productive but I then ran at the speed of light to another chick and punched her right in the face too. I felt the dream fading and instead of doing anything about it I just kept punching these zombie bitches like I was running out of time.


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Death to Marlon Wayans

I was a cop chasing somebody. He shot at me so I shot and killed him. The perp was Marlon Wayans. As he was dying he told me that I was in the right cause he was about to air me out.

Then I was home and received a phone call from one of his friends warning me that they were gonna come and kill me. I was afraid. I sat there with my dog and looked at the front door. I kept thinking "my door is steel, they cant break in" then I thought "they can break down my door easily". I wasn't sure what to do. I woke up still worried about it till I finally shook it off and got up.

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Young Crush

I was flirting with a young girl, she was like 17 years old. She was flirting back. We were hanging in a house then suddenly on the beach. She was relaxing between my legs with her back up against my chest. I asked her for a kiss and she got angry and said something to the effect of "just because were are chillin, don't get the wrong idea" or something like that. Then some young guy took my place and said something snotty to me and she said something to him and they ignored me after that. I felt stupid and out of place after that. I laid on my side facing them as I was trying to find the right words to tell her she made me think she liked me and I didn't understand why she was acting this way but I didn't say anything.

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Lucid Spin (Lucid) WILD

I opened my eyes and there I was, staring in to the sky. The clouds looked cool with the blue sky right behind them. I noticed a white truck stuck in a cloud, it was just hanging there. I thought to myself "that is cool but you need to move on" Then the day turned to night. I wanted to try and make it day again so I smiled at the sky . That didn't work so I looked around and noticed a DC that was sitting in another white truck and walked towards her. I think it turned day again. I quickly felt the dream fading so I started to spin. As I was spinning I closed my eyes to see if I could change the scenery. As my eyes were closed I remembered that I always wake up when ever I close my eyes for two long. I tried to focus on the spinning and it started to get me dizzy. I didn't want to open my eyes cause I knew I would wake up. I opened my eyes and woke up.

I should of done a RC as I always do when I wake up but I didn't. It was probably a False Awakening.

10/19/10

I had a dream that I was back in my old high school.. I was getting lunch and it was odd how I was standing there looking at the food being served and my surroundings. I guess I had lots of odd experiences in that particular high school and I haven't had any high school dreams in a long long time ( from what I can recall..)..
There was this old woman behind the food bar and she was pointing otu the different foods and I was so determined to just grab a salad but couldn't find any.
I walk out of the school and see all the students lined up outside I figured they too were either trying to get back in or were waiting for lunch.
I look across the street and see where I use to live as a child and this strange feeling overwhelms me.. I felt so vulnerable and just didn't want to be there.
Instead of me walking home I walk to the corner of the block and head up to see if I would see the store I use to go to called the "milky way" ..all of a sudden it starts to get dark and next to the store was an Italian restaurant.. what is odd is from my real memories there never was an Italian restaurant by the store " milky way"..
So I walk in and there is this tall Italian man smiling holding the door open for me and I look down and see this dog at the end of the leash.. small white dog and he tells me " Here you go bring her back tomorrow.." I replied "okay I will".. I feel good walking with this dog and it is night out..
I start walking to the direction of home where I use to live as a child.. but this dog makes me feel relaxed and so much better.. weird but I didn't feel alone.
I get home and the dog is stays with me.. my dad and mom are there I still feel weird because my parents are currently divorced and have been for a long time.. there is much bad blood between them in real life.. so in my dream seeing them two together was weird.. but than again it was a dream lol.
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Suddenly my dream switches and I am back at the restaurant to get the dog again to go home.. this time the Italian man had a different dog.. looked like a small lassie type dog and it's tail was between it's legs. The guy told me the other dog ( that I had took home ) was in his house and he had that one and wondered if I could take him.. I feel this lump in my throat.. feels like I am going to cry. I told him I would love to but the dog is too small and younger dogs tend to be more active and my neighbors would not be happy about it.. There is another woman standing holding a pile of folders in her arms and she is smiling down at this little dog.
I am standing there with a book bag and the Italian man starts checking the dog's lower body.. he says " He doesn't seem good at all something is wrong.. " I told him " looks like he ate something he shouldn't have.. young dogs tend to eat whatever is in their path.." The man nodded and told me he will take him back home.. I apologized greatly and start to head up the block back home.. feeling sad wishing the other dog was there with me..

Weird dream

Lately, it just hasnt been working out. Im not writing consistently in my DJ, its been a really long while since my last LD and number 13 just isnt coming. I gave up on DILD for a while to focus on a different version of DEILD called CAN-WILD. Its basically the same but with an alarm so ur guaranteed to wake up once. Ive only got 1 DEILD so far, and I truly believe another SP/Transition experience will give me the motivation I need to keep on pushing. Until then, I wait....Sigh. Its so annoying because I have no problem watsoever to wake up and not move. I do it alot. Then I stand there like a douche and nothing happens. What am I doing wrong? In the tutorial it says:
1- You move too much 2-You are too pumped up/excited and 3- Not in REM.
I dont move, so thats out of the question. Am I excited? Not neceseraly. Not at all, actually (considering I always fail, its not that exciting). Then is it timing? Am I simply not in REM? Maybe, but the guy in the tutorial says he can turn into SP at any time and thus become lucid at will. Obviously, hes doing something very important he decided to keep for himself. That asshole. I suck at doing absolutely nothing. Its in my head, and my head's just not cooperating. It never cooperates, really. Il try to be even less excited tonight, since its the only aspect I seem to have control on. Some people say you have to visualize touching something, others say you need to be half asleep, or perfectly awake, count in your head, breathe heavily, imagine your past dreams. I say fuck you. Crisse. J'en ai mon truck des techniques de marde. Si j'veux réussir, j'va lfaire comme j'veu. Il also reajust my alarm to see if it has any effect., and I have 2 now. Wish me luck

Manuel

A very low recalled dream where Manuel and his DD are teaching me something. Can't remember what it was but i know my dream self always remembers these things. i may find myself using them in later dreams.

Long WTF dream

Started out.... I was in my inner world house... but seeing it as I did the very first time that I tried to visit my inner world. I was in the kitchen and there were asian twin males that looked like rednecks. I was folding strange sandwiches for them. I gave them the sandwiches but they didn't like them.

Then I remember being in a living room and watching TV. i was watching a show about Asuka? I think. and me and the people in the living room were jamming out songs. I wanted to play the songs with them live... but they said no.

we took off somewhere and wound up in some inside parking lot. I heard music from a band playing in the distance and then I saw a bulletproof sheild in front of the band. I saw bullet marks on it. to my left was plastic poly hanging around. I really wanted to get to the band but the people I was with wanted to go elsewhere.

We walked through some doors and wound up in a theater. I was walking down a very long hallway and was going in and out of different theaters. One was a typical movie theater. but in another that i walked in there was it was shaped all weird. I was walking along the aisle and suddenly there was some anti gravity force. Me and some woman (asuka?) were running over the anti grav parts and having fun floating from one side of the room to the other. My memory ends here.

Asuka

Asuka is pulling me down a hallway and saying that kaomea is outside and pounding on the sheild waiting to be let in.

Kaomea

Kaomea is saying something to me like "I can't believe I Just called you neevok again. What's wrong with me?"

Healing

Very vague memeroy of me lying in bed with Raven and Kaomea over me. They were doing a healing thing on me. Kaomea was asking what the bug on my chest was doing? Raven said it was feeding me negative energy. They kept talking about the bug.

September 19th 2010

Switch - Good and Evil

Awake Non-Lucid Semi-Lucid

I realise, there's a switch on my right hand. It isn't actually there, but I can feel it with my fingers. It slides, obviously analogue. I wonder what it does?

There are trees around me, along with what looks like shops. I slide the switch over to the left. Everything brightens, lines are smoother, people smile at me. I slide it to the right. My vision smudges, lines darken, the smiles drop off of their faces as quickly as they came. I set it back to normal.

I realise I have a job to do, but I can't remember what. There's a wall to my right, too high to climb. I run up it instead, and peer over. The drop below is much further than what I ran. If I fall, I die. But there are ledges, suspended over the space. Large, muscular men guard them. How can I get past?

I slowly turn the switch to the right, but not all the way. Everything darkens again. As soon as I jump down to the first ledge, one of the men grabs me, snarling, and throws me off. I don't die, I don't even hit the ground. In fact, I'm exactly where I was before, crouching over the edge of the wall. I flick the switch to the left. The men let me jump from ledge to ledge, although some look like they're thinking off throwing me off. I feel like i'm in a videogame.

When I get to the floor, I don't take very much in. There's a sofa that I walk to, and see my friend sitting there. I become slightly lucid, and flick the switch all the way to the left. My friend grabs a sheet of paper and draw a light sketch of wings on it. What does she mean? I fly onto the wall again, and face the forest. I flick the switch all the way to the right.

Instantly, I wish I hadn't. Every outline is dark and smudged, the world turns grey, there are shadows everywhere. It's as if I've entered a nightmare. The beautiful forest goes up in flames. People are marching out of it, screaming at me, holding weapons. I forget the switch and run.

Stalker

For some reason there's a shop under my school. I walk down the dark, damp passageway leading up to it, I really hope it isn't some scary cellar. But luckily, when I get there, it's not. There are clothes everywhere. I remember I needed to buy boots for the winter, and head to the shoe section. After getting rather bored, and getting sick of looking at leather, I quickly go into a changing room to change.

When I get out, I'm wearing a silky pink, strapless dress that goes down to above the knee. I wear dark pink heels to match. For some reason, I can't walk very well in them (which is odd because I can walk fine in heels. Practice makes perfect, right!?) . I budge past the people blocking my way and head out a door opposite the one I came through. I'm in a theatre!

The seats are slanted as they go up so everyone can see. But at a very steep angle. I'm so high up that if I get out of my seat wrong, imma die. I literally need to curve my legs under me to hop onto the floor from my seat. Somehow, whiles i'm puzzling over this, the show ends.

[Dream skip - A few minutes] I'm back in my normal clothes (jeans and t-shirt) and i'm walking home. Ethan calls me from behind. Shit. This guy pretty much stalks me (I'm being serious guys, LOL ) . I don't say anything. Goddammit, why am I still wearing these heels? I can't get away from him fast enough. He gets pissed off pretty fast and pulls out a bow and a sheath of arrows. Because he's so hardcore...

I notice he's got a "friend" up ahead who's done the same thing. Now they're trying to shoot me. I kick off the stupid heels and run for it. Somehow I'm faster than usual, but there's still a chance I get hit. Luckily, I don't.

Transformation

Note: This one really creeped me out. I woke up with a really awful feeling because it was a late REM stage so it was vivid too. Basically, I watched a really sweet girl turn into this evil blood-thirsty monster. Like nothing you've ever seen before. Go watch the recent Starwars Sith thingy and you'll understand.

For some reason, I think my room is a pirate ship. And it's the room in my old house, which I haven't been in for three years. I'm in my "ship" when a innocent looking, blonde girl comes in. She's smaller than me, with deep blue eyes and shoulder length hair, with a full fringe. She looks unhappy for some reason. She tells me that she needs to save her mother. That her mum's been taken and she needs to get her back. Her name is Kate. I tell Kate to come back tomorrow, and we'll go get her mother.

[Dream skip - The next day] I'm in the ship, when Kate swings in (literally, on a piece of rope hanging from the hall outside. Don't ask me why ). She's got black eyeliner on, and has gelled her fringe back. She's enthusiastic, which is good. We get going.

To move the "ship" we sway from side to side. I watch the ship from third person but can still feel my body. We go down my street and onto the road. Kate shouts at me a couple of times because apparently I'm steering wrong.

[Dream skip - Unknown] We're close to where Kate's mother is. She's slowly changing. Her hair is now long, and dark auburn in colour. Her eyes are turning a brownish shade. Shadows are lining her eyes. We don't speak. I don't trust her.

We're walking along a meadow, in the middle of a forest. Suddenly, Kate turns to me. She screams that I've led her to the wrong place. That I'm trying to kill her. Her body keels over, and she starts retching. I think she's going to be sick. Her chest puffs up, and suddenly, hair is coming out her throat. It's still attatched to something inside her. She grabs a knife from her belt and hacks at it furiously. When she's finished, she grins at me, evily. I have the feeling she might try to kill me in the most brutal way possible. Her hair is now shorter, and spikey. Her eyes are red.

Something rustles in the bushes. She does a backflip and stabs something. She drags him out of the bushes and laughs as she stabs him again and again. I stare in horror. What has happened to her? She's out of control.

[Dream skip - Unknown] I'm sitting, alone, in my ship/room. I can't get over what a monster Kate is. I still see her red eyes and sharpened teeth. Blood splashed over her, with a mad glint in her eye. I seek knowledge to how this happened. Instantly, a voice in my head tells me to look to the Corners, the Shadows. I do. I look at the shadow and corners of my ship, and hear a voice.

The voice tells me she is a lost soul. That she always has been, I just didn't see it at first. In my mind, he replays our first meeting. I stand, watching myself and Kate talk. Now I notice the way she stands. Close, uptight, analyzing everything I say. Calculating. But from my first glance, she was just someone who needed help.

Then as she swings into the ship. I thought she was enthusiastic, now I know all she wanted was blood. She was after everything and anything out there. She probably lied about her mother. She was always the murdering psychopath, I just hadn't seen it. It was all a disguise. I watch as she slowly reveals her true form. I watch her eyes slightly darken everyday, the shadows around them grow more prominant, her teeth sharpen to points.

Finally, the Shadow leaves me to dwell on these thoughts.

I look up, and her eyes are set on my. Blood is dripping from her finger tips. I know her secrets, now I have to die.