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Don't remember much... I was at school talking to someone about something. We were just chatting and I realized that Mrs. B. was there.

Also had some other fragment, but I forgot it.

I often dream of writing in my (paper) dream journal, just after waking up. I am mostly asleep but thinking that I should be writing. I keep my journal and a pen right next to my bed so that I can write my dreams down right away. But often it is dark, or I am really tired and don't feel like writing.

So today I again dreamed that I had written down my dreams, but actually did not.

I only remember this:
There were 5 people sitting in desks (school desks, perhaps), in a circle, facing one another. I'm in this circle. But I don't remember what I was doing.

Conclusion: I need to find a flashlight and put it by the bed. I also need to make a greater effort to wake up and write.

Wednesday, October 20th, 2010

Non Lucid

I don't really remember much, except that I was in a college, that looked surprisingly like my old tech school. I remember going into some persons room, and hiding in their closet or something, it's really hazy. Then I remember having a big bag of dank weed, like a pound bag, but in my mind I thought it was an ounce. I think I smoked a bowl or something, still in the closet, then I heard a knock at the door. At first it was the person who's room I was in, but then it changed into the guy who's weed I smoked, and he sound pissed. I got really scared, and went through the back screen door (which just happened to be there) and I started running. I got that feeling that you get in a nightmare, you know, that feeling of dread. Then I woke up.

Dream Sign

This was another night full of dream fragments, only a couple of which I remember. One had me playing basketball in an arena and on the other team there was some anime girl in lingerie who was bragging about how good she was, though I wasn't impressed at all. Not much to remember from that dream lol.

The other had me feeling really stressed out because I was running late for school and we were having an important exam that day. It was nighttime and I was getting in my car to head to class. For some reason it felt like I hadn't been to that particular class for a very long time, and I was worried that because I missed so much, I wouldn't be able to pass the class. I'm going to take this as a dream sign for me because I have had a few similar dreams where I felt like I had gone weeks or even months without showing up to one particular class, and feeling worried that when I finally did go, I would be so behind that I wouldn't be able to pass the class.

Sadly this is all I remember from these fragments. I don't remember ever getting to class or anything. Just thought it would be important to write this down since I think there's a dream sign here that I should pay attention to in the future.

dream started with me inside my grandmothers garage and army trucks filled with russian soldiers driving by and stopping. they weren't killing anyone but they were taking food supplies and kidnapping people. i ran inside with my brother and got my grandma to safety. we hid inside one of her rooms. dream ended soon after that.

I had just gotten out of school and a few friends were playing basketball. I know I suck at basketball, but subconsciously I knew it was a dream because I even said it'd be fun to play dream basketball. I still sucked though. I saw a few volleyball nets set up and asked if they wanted to play. They started walking towards them and I wanted to take my car. It was sort of flat on the ground. Like when you see the wheels go horizontal and then it's a hover car or something. I get it and start the car, it raises a bit. I look down to put it in reverse and where it says the letters normally aren't there, I somehow managed. One of my friends yell to me to raise it up, he tells me to shift it right, it's an automatic car. It works. I'm driving and I notice it's a church I go to. I'm doing 40 in a parking lot and slowing down enough for the speed bumps. I get to the other side and see some family members. I just get out and ignore them. Walking to the nets I count we have 6 people, so I yell to play 3 on 3. Then I woke up.

Earlier on the night I had a false awakening.

I got out of my bed and opened the garage door to see my mom in the back of her car. I just go back in and try to go back to sleep. The dream house was similar to mine, but much larger and the door to the garage was facing a different way. My mom comes in to talk to me, she thinks I have a problem with my mind. I go on to explain for the hundredth time that I'm fine. She calls me abnormal. I get frustrated and tell her that my mind if normal and most of the people's minds in this world are abnormal. She gets mad and hears a sound because she goes to close my door and in a very scary way, tells me to hush. I woke up with intense emotional feelings, and wondered if this could be considered a nightmare or night terror, since I haven't had nightmares for a very long time. I just pass it off as my dreaming ID's intense feelings and go back to sleep.

I remember going into a store where they sold guitar supplies. I was going to buy some sort of plastic things that go over your fingers for fingerpicking. I decided not to buy them for some reason. Later in the dream I remember checking facebook on my phone (Ive never used facebook on my phone irl) and seeing that Jimi Hendrix died on this date some amount of years ago. I remember the date was December 4th.

I planned to not record my dreams this night. I just wanted to get a solid night's rest. So no recall in the first half (the usual reason). And for the first couple dreams I didn't write anything down. By the last two, I realized the dreams were worth writing down so I did so.

"Do Nothing"
Lucidity: C
Vividness: C
Control: C
~0800: No written notes, so this is spotty from memory. I don't recall how I became lucid. The first thing I recall is doing a nose plug RC. I'm sitting at a campfire circle. It's dusk. It seems like I'm in the giant doorway of an abandoned factory or airplane hanger. A few other DCs are around the fire. They look like migrant workers. The scene made me think of movies like The Motorcycle Diaries and Mi Mejor Enemigo. I remember my plan: "Do nothing", practice reality checks, focus on all 5 senses.. For taste, I lick a rock on the ground and it tastes like dirt! I vaguely recall that I did things for the other senses. I think I had double vision and that frustrated me. I try to talk to the DCs but I don't recall they said anything.

fragment
~0915: C. No written notes, so this is from memory. First thing I recall is a false awakening. I sense there was more before but no detail. I'm in my own room. I get out of bed and look at the time: 1:30pm. Crap, it is really that late? I get up, take off my Zeo headband and dock it in the bedside unit. It gives me a sleep score of 42. Really? I thought I slept better than that. Wake up for real. It's only about 9. My Zeo score for the night ended up at a more respectable 83.

Unfocused Lucid
Lucidity: C
Vividness: C
Control: D
1100: Just a few notes so this is mostly from memory. I'm in a classroom. It's a art or shop class so all the students are standing at work tables. In the dream, I seem to be distracted or sleepy. The teacher is a woman and there are one or two girls sharing my table. The first thing I recall is the teacher scolding me for not paying attention. So I become aware of what we are supposed to be doing. We have a piece of paper with a drawing on it. On top, we have a piece of tracing paper and we are supposed to trace the drawing under it. The drawing is an architectural sketch of a colonial era boat, I think. So I start tracing but there is a time limit. The teacher is nearby, watching me. She thinks I won't finish in time. The other girl at my table is done and she is also watching me. I feel nervous but I act confident. I think we do two tracings like this. The next task is to trim a large piece of meat. It's really thin, more like a the hide than the flesh. The tracing paper has become butcher paper. I move to a larger table and spread this gross sheet of meat over the paper.

Skip. Now I'm outside in what seems to be a school campus but it's unfamiliar. I'm walking up a grassy hill. There are many other students around. It's bright daylight. I see a girl who I recognize as a high school classmate, Beth. I'm not sure but I think this must be what made me lucid. Her hair is weird, kinda like dreadlocks but also kinda like bananas. Anyway, her face is recognizable. Lucidity and control are low at this point. I don't RC or stabilize. I just march up to her, say hello, and demand a blow job. She starts doing it but soon turns into a weird creature and I stop.

I walk away and I'm starting to get my wits about me. But lucidity, vividness, and control are still pretty low. I try to think of my tasks. The only one I can remember is flying barrel roll. I hesitate because my recent flying has not been good. But I can't think of anything else to do so I jump and spin. It works! I'm able to hover horizontally a few feet off the ground and a spin multiple times. (Wikipedia tells me that this is actually an aileron roll, not a barrel roll) I fly around spinning for about 30 seconds. Maybe I popped out to third-person a bit. My lucidity was fading away.

Skip. Now I'm in a building. The school gym or theater maybe? Maybe I lost lucidity for a while and then regained it here. A troupe of clowns is performing a circus-style act. I am in a corner back stage, near the exit. I see a door but I want to try walking through the wall. I try a few times but fail. I try to convince myself that I can do it. I know this is a dream and that I can walk through the wall. But no luck. Dream ends. In retrospect, this attempt at control was too forced.

Dream Within Dream
1130 C. This was a combination of false awakening and false memory that made it feel like a dream within a dream. I sense that I am out of town for work (this is the false memory). I'm staying in a hotel and I'm sleeping and dreaming. In the dream, I am in a WWII-esque battle among the ruins of a bombed city. I'm with my childhood friend Collin. I only have a tiny pistol in this big fight. I see an enemy across the way and fire a few careful shots. The gun is very inaccurate but I manage to hit him in the head. Everyone is happy and celebrates me as the hero.

I have a false awakening in a hotel room. In the dream, I think that the war scene was a lucid dream and I remember the two real previous lucids. So I congratulate myself for 3 lucids in the night.

Skip. Now I'm back in my apartment. Combining the war dream, the false awakening in the hotel, and the false memory of traveling for work, this all creates the dream within the dream phenomenon. So anyway, I'm home in my apartment but it looks totally different. I sense that, as I returned from traveling, my roommate has just left. I see that he has left a bunch of books and devices about lucid dreaming. He is just starting to pratice having lucid dreams. I go in the bathroom and see that the faucet has been left on just a drip. But over several days, the drip has flooded the room with an inch of water.

19.10.2010

Distant Castle(Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm floating down a desert river in an inner-tube. The never changing sky is bronze and gold on the horizon, panning into star speckled black skies. I float through and around tall, rust colored rocky crags. I feel the light autumn wind hit my face with a slight chill that signals the first of this season's cold fronts is on it's way. I'm accompanied by an unknown person, a dream character. They float along with me down the river, fearing the possibility of waterfalls. I assure this person that we will survive regardless and suddenly begin to recall flashes of a past memory: I'm jumping off a tall cliff top and diving head first into the icy water below, I feel the water sting my face with force of impact and low temperatures. (Note: This is a memory of a past lucid dream. I was not aware of this fact until after I awoke.)

I explain the experience to the fearful person, I tell them of the pure exhilaration I felt from free-falling from such a height and they start to calm down. Just then the crags start to decline and level out and we see a waterfall ahead. We topple over the edge and though my companion lands upright with little fuss, I fall on my side and out of the inner-tube. We float on for a little while more until we float into the ocean and the waves wash us ashore. The moon shines brightly and soft wisps of clouds pierce it like ghostly spears. It hangs just over a tall castle that sits on a mushroom shaped island that is raised high above the water. I take in the sight and it send chills down the back of my spine, leaving me breathless. A crooked and skinny path of rock and dirt that is extended from the shore reaches out to the front entrance of the eerie castle. We make out way towards it and once inside we are greeted by the band, MUSE. They are holding a rehearsal concert on the main floor of the castle and allow me to stand and watch the performance from the windowed control room opposite the stage on the back wall.

Didn't sleep much and had to rush off to work after getting up.

Some of my family was at my house and I was watching the football game. It was the packers verses some random team. There were some pretty good hits, and the score ended up being 10 to zero. My brother stopped by and said "are you guys ready"? My sister said yes, and I threw on some last minute clothes.

We headed to a house that was apparently owned by some relatives I didn't know about, and my sister and I were outside. They had about four dogs, all of them were huge, and they were nice to us. I remember one slobbered on my hand, and I let it drip down on his face and told him "you see, this is how it feels".

All of a sudden all the dogs left at once, and I heard some noise coming from around the corner. I looked, and there was a bear in the yard. The dogs were barking at him, and the bear was growling. I wanted to help out, but not without some sort of weapon. I looked around and saw some lighter fluid and a shot gun, but the gun had no bullets. My sister told her kids to get back, and I kept looking around for something I could use.

The neighbors were shooting pellet guns, and I knew that was out of the question. I headed towards my cousins house, and asked them if they had any guns. The lady is taking her sweet time to find it, and she comes up empty handed. I hear the kids and my sister screaming, so I rush back over there, and I see the bear has one of the dogs wrapped up, and it's pounding away at it's head. Each swipe the bear makes, flings blood tens of feet in the air. I'm so mad, but I can't do anything.

I was giving some speech to a guy and a girl about how we're going to make it out alive. I told them to do the best they could do, and that should carry on into our performance. Other than that I initiate the action, and they follow.

I got into my old school delta 88, and charged in. Some guy fired a RPG at me, and I turned the corned just good enough to make it skip off the side of my car and blow up behind me.

I also remember a frag involving chatting someone I thought had left for good.

I was on the cellphone talking A, and she wanted me to go to the military grocery store with her. I was asking her which one and she said, "all the way up in Canada". I remember having some kind of cellphone problems. It either had to do with dialing the number or my phone itself, but I was also supposed to meet D there.

All of a sudden I'm at the parking lot, and I see one of the house keepers from the hospital. She's telling me some short story about how her husband didn't notice that she did something with her hair, and I gave her a hug, and kissed her on the cheek and said "don't worry...he's probably just a little stressed right now or something". I went inside, and I saw A, and greeted her with a hug. She was ready to go, and I asked her what did she need to get. She told me she was going to go down every isle, and I got kinda worried. D also showed up, and I was like "oh you know A" right? He said yeah, but he wasn't sure...like he saw a pic of her of my FB but thats about it.

I walked around and saw my bother there, they were already in line, and needed someone to do something, but their keys were missing, and one of them was talking about how the breaks were bad on the car. Everything sounded like a series of mishaps. D tapped me on the shoulder and ask me if I wanted to come with him. I didn't hesitate, and we walked up to this archery game. It used Styrofoam targets and blunt tipped wooden arrows. My first shot was directly at the bulls eye, and my last one was was so awkward because the arrow itself was too short for the bow. Several arrows broke as we shot them, and we needed to pull out and keep the good ones. Some guy who worked at the store came up and said "good rack". After double checking that only broken arrows were left.

While we waited on him to return with more targets and arrows, I looked outside and saw Dr. K. She was trying to talk to some soldier who was ignoring her. It was really windy outside, and I noticed there was desert everywhere. Things weren't adding up....I looked back outside expecting to see more desert, but it was green. I saw mandy walking around and I stopped her and asked "where the hell am I"? She told me the location, as she conveniently had a map with her. I understood that, but what I didn't get was why I was on a military base with civilians from back home. Also supposedly this base was back home. I rc'd....it didn't fail, but I failed to notice the lack of pressure with the nose pinch. I did it again...same thing. I started thinking about all the people I've seen since I got here, and knew non of it was adding up. Then the dream ended.

Method: WILD
Recall: average
Lucid Ability:4
Vividness: Average
Dream Length:short

I get out of my bed, and head to the living room. I immediately think about plan B, but interestingly enough two versions of my mother is in the living room. Scratch that, lets get out of here. As a matter of fact, lets look for Walms. I jumped up on the roof and yelled "I'm coming for you". Charged up a black hole portal, and threw it on the ground, but something wasn't happening right. It looked like cooking oil when it hit the ground. I stood on it anyway, and nothing happened.

NOTES

Dream Battle Tournament

I battle Walms.

We go to the Dream Warrior Planet.

Thunderdome.