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31.10.2010

Under a huge storm. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

A better night. Three dreams.

First:

I was playing a game over the PC. I was in a different home and I was with my dad and other people. Suddenly, I heard the wind and a big storm approaching.
I ran to the kitchen and I saw a huge storm on us. The wind was hitting very hard the windows and I saw a lot of water. The whole house shook a few times and I was afraid it would break.
I heard a few thunders so I decided to shut down the computer. When I approached it, it was frozen. I tried to reboot it but it did a lot of odd things.

Missed dream signs:
- My dad.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Astral Project.

30.10.2010

I can run over the water. (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

One dream recalled only. I have not been working hard to record dreams!!

I was in a hotel and I decided to go to the pool. There was an old man standing in the middle of the pool (on the water) I realized I have never walked on the water but I felt if I ran, I could do it. I ran to the pool and successfully reached the other edge of the pool without sinking.

A friend wanted to race me over the water and then wanted to rest. There were various DC looking and I felt very good.

Missed dream signs:
- I could walk/run over the water.

What I would have done if lucid:
- Astral Project.

All I can remember is something about going somewhere important, having to do something important and a lot of people were counting on me to do something but I can't remember who or what. Also dreamt about the ex, talking to her again and (for some reason) talking about getting back together - scares me, I completely hate her but is this a sign that my subconscious doesn't? I really hope it's not the case - however talking to her seems to be a reoccurring dream sign and I really just want to forget everything but its like my subconscious won't. Maybe next time I'll remember to RC and it will lead to a LD and I can change my surroundings. Maybe my recall will get better. hell, maybe i'll win the lottery.

Chipped
Clarity: 7/10
Importance:8/10
Sleep: Good
Sleep Position: Unknown

I have some family visiting, and I accompany them to the airport when they leave. I consider just dropping them off, but instead accompany them right through the gates right up unit they board the plane. Thinking there might be a faster way out of here, I go a little ways past the the boarding corridor and see a door that says "Pilots Only". Not wanting to intrude I turn around right away, but an airport employee spots me and tells me to freeze and calls security. He makes me show him my I.D. and tells me to wait until security arrives.

I think he was very full of himself for someone who talked tough then turned and ran. But I don't want to stick around to be treated like a criminal, and get out of there as quickly as possible. I regret having shown my ID, because now they know who I am. I exit the airport, and run across the parking lot into the street.

Somehow I end up in the middle of a large section of undeveloped land owned by the airport. It's all muddy as I make my way across it. Military men surround me and drag me into a little shack of a house where two airport security begin to interrogate me. One of them sticks me with a needle and injects me with something. I scream out that he has no right to do that, and he stammers something about it being a preventative vitamin shot. He doesn't sound like he knows what he's talking about, and I say "You don't sound very convinced of that". He partner tells me it was an RFID chip.

I'm livid about being chipped and storm out of there. Now that I'm tagged, they don't seem to concerned about letting me leave.

Oh that dream makes me mad just thinking about it. If it wasn't for all the army guys with guns around, I would have killed those two airport jerk offs. I do not want to be chipped ever!

Kinda did a DEILD this morning, but my lucidity was... Iffy at best.

Had something t'do with a grocery store.

But, I have a whole cornucopia of goals for November, which I am calling the 'Senses suite'.

Novembers goals
Sight
-Look upon something truly unexplainable.
-See my subconscious's undiluted form.
Sound
-Remember an entire conversation in a dream. (That's longer than a few words.)
-Listen to a song.
Smell
-Smell a flower in a dream.
-Smell something that shouldn't have a scent.
Touch
-Pet my cat in a dream.
-Give someone a hug.
Taste
-Eat something.
-Drink something.

Pretty general, but when I manage to fill out the list, I might try a few more goals.

I can't even remember what happened in the dream, but I know for sure it had something to do with JO.

I haven't been posting my dreams to my DJ lately for the reason being they are too random, non interesting, and irrelevant. I really don't feel comfortable showing them to the general public (no offense to anyone) but I will start posting my dreams again once they start being a bit more well normal. Thank you.

New guitar song:

House wtf.

I'm in some strange house that is a lot like a base of some kind. For some reason I think a bunch of giant snakes are going to take over the place so I run up some stairs and enter this large area outside on the roof.
I look behind one corner and see the tail end of a large red snake... It's bigger than a boa. So I run a ways and turn another corner and see a gigantic red bird... It's like twice my size and it's coming after me. I see a crumpled popcan and throw it at the bird, and then the bird chases it LOL. I enter through a window and make my way downstairs. And I know this place... like the back of my hand. anyway i enter a large room and I'm humming Spring from Vivaldi's four seasons... and everyone starts humming along their different parts it's like an acapella symphony. I wait and then chime in at a soprano line but eventually near the end there' a high note i can't reach so I shrug and leave the room.

I wind up on some country road walking towards my brothers house.

Asuka

A vague dream about me and asuka in our house... I don't recall many details.

Asuka is gonna die???

I'm walking with some familiar people in some town. We find a bench somewhere and begin writing some contract about our association. The waking life version of asuka arrives, everyone is skeptical at first at her being in our group but they eventually allow her to sign the contract. She walks away and then I leave the group and enter a building like a school.

In the school I fly down into some dark place. My guides, dad and brother is there. I have this weird white energy stuff in my hands. I find a place where I've been storing it and put it in the place that I fel best. I go to the darker place again where my guides are and sit down. They ask me if that's all the energy i could find. I said for now it is, and it better be enough or Asuka might not make it... I then hang my head feeling sad.

Epic Fail at fooling me.

At first I'm with some guy i know from a construction crew.... He's drving me to someplace... for some reason my dad thinks he's trying to fool me. But i say it's ok. I'm in the back of his truck and he drives me to someplace like my house. There I'm on some computer talking to asuka... but the asuka I'm talking to on chat isn't saying typical Asuka things... more things like K would say. I realize that K is trying to impersonate asuka over chat. Thise pisses me off and I want to type something mean like, "just fuck off enough is enough,". But for some reason i can't figure out how to type what I want to say.

I run around the yard and people are there with all kinds of letters. I pick up the letters from them and try to organize them into my message.

Weird Bitch.

I'm at my inner world house in my backyard. Asuka is behind me.. I think and she's wearing a pink coat. My dad and brother are trying to get a ladder on the roof. They resort to trying to throw the ladder over the roof. In one attempt the ladder gets halfway on the roof and then slides back and hits my dad in the face. I'm like, "Shit are you ok?" ut he doesn't even flinch and tries again. He throws the ladder on the roof and it just slides down on the other side of the house. Nomad flies through a portal on a metal surfboard and rides the slanted roof and jumps landing beside us.

Missing Time

I wind up at some other house with some people I know. I am taking a nap in their living room when some short girl with tanned skin and almond eyes starts making out with me. Definitely not asuka... anyway there's a vague impression of having sex.

Fa, and I'm in the living room with the girl and her 10 children. She says that we are to be married and I will help look after her children. all the children run up to me as the woman leave the room to check out their new "dad." They start interviewing me. I am talking to some really fat girl and asking her if they really are all the woman's kids. She says yes and asks me if I will feed them all. I say yes, but due to my budget they will be eating considerably less than they are use to, so there will be times where they will be slightly hungry. The girl asks if that means that she will die of starvation. I tell her no, it just means she's going to lose some weight.

Missing time

I'm in the same house and bunch of guys are over. I'm looking for the woman and wondering when she will leave to my house with me and the kids. Some guy keeps telling me to shush about it, i get the impression the other guys aren't supposed to know. I head towards outside, I go down the stpes toward the door and spot the woman walking past me but she doesn't even look at me.

I'm outside and she comes out a second later with a woman in a pink jacket... The woman starts yelling at me saying, "I can't believe you made out with me and gave me all your germs." Like it was my fault.

I say, "Oh no bitch... it was you who went and seeduced me. You started kissing me.... It was all you." She looks like she's losing the argument but then ignores what I said. She starts pulling my arm violently and her freind grabs the other arm. They drag me across the front lawn and the other guys are coming out of the house. I can't tell if it's to watch me get beat up or to join in on beating me up.

Weird

I'm driving with some guy and someone else near didsbury. We decide to go on a dangerous climb.

Later I'm swimming underwater with these people... and we go through some hole and wind up in a cave. It turns ut the whole lake is contained in a gigantic blue rubber thing and there was ways to get out and just be underneath the water and be dry. It looks pretty cool. We also go around and explore these caves.

Mixing drugs.

I'm in some chem lab mising all these white substances. I am trying very carefully to get the proportions right.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

20:30 GMT – sleep

Planes crash
Two airplanes crossing the sky right above my head are clearly going to crash one into the other a bit further ahead. I m with my dad who starts running to see it and I grab my camera to film it when it happens. I think we’re maybe being morbid and cold-blooded but the fact is there’s nothing we can do to prevent it from happening.
When we reach the crash site, we only see smoke and pieces of metal scattered all over. Later I learned a few people escaped alive but not when it crashed on the ground – they had been rescued when the plane was still on air, by some team who entered the plane in distress and gave some parachutes to selected people. They couldn’t save everybody – maybe not enough parachutes and I tried to imagine being one of the persons being left behind and the despair these persons might have felt.

Cousins
Staying at some place and waiting for my cousin Cris to join me there. She arrives all excited about a new job she has. Later, our cousin Rui also appears and strangely the crush I had for him as a child, rises up for no reason at all.

Storm
I’m at some apartment in a strange circular building on the outside, which funnels down in a spiral with inner verandas and terraces on the inside. It’s a very stormy weather outside and I close down the windows and shutters and it gets really warm and comfy inside. When shutting the last window I see someone outside who is either in danger from the storm or with whom I want to talk, but either way, I decide to go outside on purpose for this person.

Wounded horse
When I go outside, the building becomes a hill with green grass and lavender and many forest animals roaming around. No more stormy weather. To go faster to the bottom of the hill, I fly there. Other people are trying to do the same and fly up or down, but they are flapping their arms and look exhausted, so I try to show them how to simply glide effortlessly. When I arrive down there I encounter a huge biodiversity and also lots of animals which are alive, others that are dying and others already dead. I see a horse with a wounded leg and I really want to help but don’t know how.

2:30 GMT

Stalker
Now I’m in a same kind of building as before, but this one goes underground so to go from top to bottom, I have to go down a spiral staircase so I just jump all the floors to the (under)ground level. A guy who’s down there gets absolutely amazed by that. I then mingled with people but notice that he is following me. He finally stepped into my way and asked me if I was such and such person. At first I didn’t know what he was talking about but then I realised we had met before many times already and we had a world in common. He was totally obsessed with this idea we were soul mates. And he was cute and all but I didn’t feel anything special for him at all. He was getting touchy and holding my hands and I had to tell him I have a boyfriend, but he wasn’t letting himself be discouraged by that, so I had to escape from him.

Mafia war-like game
I disappeared in the crowd and found a group of faces I recognised from prep and high school. They were among a group of people organizing a game which I joined. Each individual or couples were given documents and/or objects representing a company or a business. Then we had to either steal, buy or merge with other companies and the person with more businesses in the end would win. The game could go on for days and people had to go around doing fairly normal lives in this common space (building) where there were a cantina, a gym, rooms, and everything else we needed to hang there.
In the beginning I was stealing documents from the most naïve persons, but then I started feeling bad about it and decided to instead make friendship with them and establishing agreements to merge or buy. I decided to only be aggressive to those who were aggressive to others. As aggressive and violent players were forming alliances between them, the game was getting more serious, because they would step on no matter whom to get control of others businesses, like a mafia. I had made merges, but in all agreements I kept the ownership, because I was stronger than my partners and businesses would be safer with me, but I was also being badly hunted down because so many businesses were concentrated on me. As a lonely wolf, I thought the docs would be safer with me, but only if I was not caught, so I was mostly hidden and attacking these bad guys whenever I had a shot. I managed to steal the documents of one of the biggest baddies’ group. Then they were infuriated and hunting me down and I wondered when the game would end, because they were taking it extremely seriously and would resort to violence if they'd catch me.

6:00 GMT – wake up

★★★☆☆

I finally got to move away from Saskatchewan, so I'm happy about that. Haven't really been concentrating on my dreams, though.

Also, Halloween is the best holiday ever.

10/31/10



An angel and I talk economics.

"You gambled my soul away in a poker game?" Bobby growls, his voice growing louder with every syllable.

Balthazar raises his hands in a peaceful gesture, as best he can while I have him held up by the collar of his two piece suit.

break

"Look at that man over there," says Balthazar, pointing across the street. "What do you think would happen if you said to him, 'Give me your soul, and you can have anything you want in the world'?"

The sun is shining down on us; the crisp autumn breeze brushes leaves through the gutters. The man pulls his overcoat more closely around himself, hurrying his steps towards the church on Eleventh.

"He'll say no." I say in a low voice, my arms crossed over my chest.

"He'll tell you to fuck off, is what he'll do. Pop culture's done more to harm the trade than religion ever did. He probably doesn't believe he has a soul, and he still won't sign it over." Balthazar takes a breath, grins. "Look, the trick is to ask for something smaller."

The man is out of sight, now.

The trick, apparently, is to plan for the long term. Get someone to agree to a small price, a small favour in exchange for their needful thing. These agreements, they're bound to the bloodline. If the man doesn't pay back the favour, rest assured that his children will.

Chances are, we'll get our soul eventually.

break

When Dean comes to, he's leaning against a concrete wall in an underground parking garage. He doesn't know exactly where he is or what he's doing there, but he knows it can't be good.

Dean stumbles up the exit ramp, blinks a bit against the cool night air.

Click. Look up.

Sam's at the top of the ramp, pointing a gun directly at his brother.

"Sammael," says Sam Winchester, his voice cold.

Dean fades to black, and I smile up at Sam.

break

In which I try to solve a puzzle involving time travel.

Standing at the ticket counter, drumming my fingers impatiently against the arborite. The ticket-seller has my passport in her hand. She glances at the name, up at my face, at a poster I can't see behind the glass, and her face goes white. She hands me back the passport, slides two tickets under the glass, and tries not to meet my eyes. I smile and thank her, and I take my thinks and walk into the parking lot.

I open the driver's seat door to an Oldsmobile, my parents' car when I was younger, and start the engine. Zoe is sitting in the passenger seat.

"They're already onto us." I tell her. "Buses aren't running, cops'll be all over the place within an hour. We have to drive."

break

And now it's real life, and I tell Zoe I'm leaving Calgary. It's two years into the future, and I've been in one place too long.

break

"Where are we?" I demand. My voice is quiet, but the threat is there.

Daniel smiles, suddenly nervous. "This is one of the last human settlements on Earth."

"I'm waiting."

"From your point of view," he says slowly, "I suppose this is the future."

Zoe stands quietly behind me.

break

I step through the sliding metal doors, out into an oasis of footpaths and greenery, quiet places for meditation and training. Above us is a dome, given away by the subtle waves in its surface, the way it refracts the light from the bright skies above. Beyond the dome is the endless desert that the earth has become.

break

"When you say this is the future," I ask Daniel, "Exactly how far do you mean?"

He hesitates. "Well, it's been at least... it's been tens of billions of years."

He's expecting me to freak out, but I simply nod, having had my suspicions confirmed. "And physiologically, humans have remained the same for the last... tens of billions of years?"

Daniel frowns, and looks at me, searching. "Physiologically? You mean evolution."

"And there have been no significant changes." I state, daring him to contradict me. "You know what this means?"

"Someone's been breeding us."

Scare Factor: 2/10

Bunch of HI about talking to L on MSN. Just various questions and what not.

Frag about going to someones house, when we went inside, I was trying to decide where to sit, but I ended up adjusting all of the seats in the living room. Ended up having hypnopompic SP right after. It had me thinking that something was on my arm, when in reality it was just the way the fan in my room was hitting me.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

21:30 GMT – sleep

Japanese stuff again
Remember anime girls, kimonos and being in some sort of wooden kiosk, asking for directions

22:30 GMT

Dream within a dream
With mom, aunts and uncles at my father-side grandma’s house. Telling mom to hush cause others were asleep. I go to front door and I’m thinking of how I had so many dreams (usually nightmares) about this house and this door (not able to close it when a werewolf or thieves or ghosts were coming, etc). But now that it is just fine, I close it, I lock it and consider I’m putting a stone over this ridiculous fear I had. Then I go to sleep and I have a dream within a dream.
As I lay down on the dream-bed I think about Nighthawk and how I should invite him to go out some of these days. I visualize ourselves going to the movies, holding his hand. Then I fall asleep in the dream and I dream I’m really at the cinema. He is not there but I recognize many other people in the audience, including his brother. I engage in conversation with some persons nearby and then try to say hello but he is some rows to the front.

Sex with unknown lucid dreamer
Then the cinema auditorium transforms into a cliff with carved platforms serving as rows. First I feel vertigo, but then I become lucid and loose fear. I have the feeling other DCs are actually dreamers and I sense that some are even lucid to.
I cooperate with someone by sending objects through the air by telekinesis. Then I meet this guy who is showing me proudly some trees he created – they are beautifully arranged, almost like a forest ikebana. He also feels melancholic because he is aware they’ll only exist as long the dream takes place, but that ephemerality only makes it more beautiful. We vibrate at same wavelength and we connect immediately and I feel crazy attracted to him, so we end up making out and it evolves into hot steamy sex. Noticed that he had captivating eyes and a really deep look.

2:50 GMT

Meeting my guru
On some huge empty building with pink walls and no one around. I am lucid and playing some tricks like swelling the walls or closing them in. When I closed the walls in I saw movement through the tiny slit left between them and I open them again to see what is on the other side. It’s just a tiny rat but then I also see mirrors, lots of mirrors, which weren’t there before. I see my face reflected in detail, but then the mirror becomes non-reflective and my image becomes just a blur. I look for another mirror but before facing it I think about what I want to do so I can jump through it right away. I remember I wish to meet my main guru again. When I jump through the mirror I feel the dream fading, but I hold on and then I find myself in a similar building, but this time it is full of people. I go around and ask people if they saw my master. Many don’t know but one guys points vaguely ahead. I then find a young Tibetan monk but he doesn’t speak a word of English. I keep going to end of the corridor and then turn right to another corridor. Then I find a room with 3 people sleeping on mattresses on the floor (futon-like). I hear some muttered words in German between 2 people there and then realise the 3rd person is my guru. He raises his head, looking sleepy and surprised. “Here again?” – he asks. I see his face and it is clearly him at the beginning but sometimes it flickers and becomes a bit different, so I’m not totally sure it’s him or mind projection. He looks groggy so I say I didn’t mean to disturb but really wanted to see him. I tell him I’ve been a very bad disciple but will do my best to compensate. Dream starts fading again, but I hold it.
He lays down and I just lay down by his side, saying I will not bother him with questions for now, but just being there close to him, being able to touch his robes, is already good enough.
Later when the sun has risen we’re outside with the two other persons that were also sleeping on the room (2 german ladies) and they are the three working with plants. My teacher is discoursing a lot of information about different species of plants they are tendering after and I just listen and watch. Then the dream fades.

7:00 GMT – wake up

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

23:00 GMT – sleep

Fragment: Sexual content, two guys (must have been interesting)

01:30 GMT

Fragment: Earthquake, falling bridges.

3:00 GMT

Flapping kimono wings
Escaping some place through the window, while wearing a kimono, which doesn’t help. End up in a field and decide flying away. At first use my kimono long sleeves as wings and then realizing flapping them is not helpful and decide to just shoot myself through the air (bullet like), as I normally do - much faster, less exhausting.

Intro to a game
Then with some group being introduced to a game. The leader is speaking Japanese but there is translation for those who wish and I choose French.

Thinking about dreams
Sitting in almost perfect lotus position and meditating an thinking how dream practice is having “real” effects, even physically.

6:00 GMT – wake up

Why you should NEVER live in New Orleans-
So I found myself living in a run-down version of my current house. My entire family was there, and my mom said we were living in New Orleans. Then all of a sudden it got dark out, and out of nowhere, people surrounding the house started firing at us. We all dove to the ground and trying to not get hit. However, my mom got hit. This went on for what seemed like hours. They tore down entire walls with bullets and it was a miracle we were alive. So the next day we set out rebuilding our house and then suddenly it was nightfall. As soon as I saw it was dark I hit the ground and, sure enough, they came back and were shooting at our house. Almost nothing was left that time, but then all of a sudden:
I found myself in completely 1st person. It felt really weird all of a sudden, and then I realized I was lucid. First lucid ftw? I looked in the closet next to me and found a rifle and my ghillie suit (Note: I actually own a ghillie suit. It was a gag gift that is a ton of fun) But as soon as I got my suit on, I felt myself falling back into the dream. I tried to stay lucid but I couldn't, and before I knew it I was back into the dream again.
So then I found myself outside of my house, plotting revenge on the shooters. It seems they terrorized not only our house, but a HOUSE OF ORPHANS. Can I really dream of bad guys or what? So I begin planning how to get rid of them. I found a little blue print which explained that there was either two ways I could get rid of them and leave New Orleans. I could either 1) Agitate a giant dragon (Which apparently, there's one in new orleans) and get it to follow me to their hideout, and then burn it down or 2) Get into the hideout and attempt to trick one of the guards, then set a bomb in there and leave. I opted for plan number two, and asked my dad what he though. The weird thing was, I was talking to Queen Zukin on my laptop and he came over just as she said something that isn't quite family appropriate. So I never got his help. Right after that I woke up.

Hotdogs hate me (But I still love them)(Frag):
All I remember in the dream was I was attempting to eat hotdogs but every time I attempted to eat one it would shoot out of my mouth. I went through at least 20 hotdogs trying to eat just one. Pretty sure I was at a barbaque.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG

23:00 GMT – sleep (huge headache, after 25h of no sleep and jet lag - supposed to be 7 am)

Japanese house
On a big house with sliding doors like Japanese houses. I’m worried because I left the garage door open. Then... forgot the rest.

3:30 GMT

Make up sex
My friend Zilla and her new boyfriend are not so happy together, but she is trying reconciliation, so I leave them both in a room, expecting there will be make up sex, but when I come back later on, the guy is leaving with an angry face, so I assume it didn’t work. He had actually left her for good. Then I go inside the room expecting to find her there and give her some encouragement, but i instantly step on a condom box still closed. When I get up again I see another couple lying in bed and they look totally surprised at me like “WTF are you doing here?”.

Sexy boss
Sitting at the end of some large office meeting table, on the boss’ chair and all my employees gathered around, so I figure out I'm the boss. But instead of making some speech about workplans and deadlines, I just opened a box I had in front of me on the table and took out some lingerie from the box and asked my employees what they thought about it – If it was too sexy? Too revealing? Should I wear it?

6:00 GMT – wake up