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NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

...That night I had two dreams.

Dream 1: I was some kind of a secret agent and I was in the car with some other man. Then we started chasing some guy. Then my dream had fade out. It was about 3 o'clock. I went back to bed.

Dream 2: In my school some game became popular over night. It was like round table with green and red light. I was good at it. That day was a tournament in that game. It was in some other city. In the last moment I stepped in the bus, and then, I started to watch my dream from 3rd person. I knew that I cannot watch myself from 3rd person and I did a reality check. I pinched my nose but I kept breathing. Then I figured out that I was dreaming. I was like: OMG, THIS IS MY FIRST LUCID DREAM!!! Then for some reason I saw a picture of a jungle and I heard creapy music. I saw some text and i only recognized something like ''Press X''. I tried to wake up because music was freaking me out.Then I heard drums and I oppened my eyes. It was about 07:30 o'clock...

Tried to wild again last night. It didnt work out to well. I woke up about 5 hours after i fell asleep so i got that down but i just went right back to sleep. I think it was because i smoked before bed. I seem to sleep longer after i smoke and its hard to wake up. Guess ill try again tonight.

12/10/10 DADA Lesson 1 - Fire and Ice
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by[B][SIZE="5"][COLOR="#8b0000"] Raven Knight [/COLOR][/SIZE][/B] on Yesterday at 02:05 PM (22 Views)

Note: The plan tonight was to see why Voldemort is so interested in interfering with MoSh and Asuka instead of being focused on Harry, and find a way to stop that. Additionally, planned to go to the world where I am a teacher at Hogwarts, it is the first day of class with Defense Against the Dark Arts. Nomad has said he will show up there, possibly disguised as a desk… that should be interesting… will wait and see. Unfortunately, I was not successful in entering my WILD… even though I was using my light / sound machine, there was something wrong with my leg that I couldn't seem to get it comfortable long enough to get into my WILD, it took a long time to fall asleep at all…

I am in my own bed, but it doesn't feel like my own bed. The first thing I realize is that it isn't a waterbed, so I roll over and open my eyes to see where I am. I know something is strange, but I haven't put it together that I am dreaming yet, just that I am not where I am supposed to be. I sit up and look around the room, I am in a room that looks like a bedroom that might be found in a castle, the window looks like it might be part of a castle… I get up and look around a bit more, I open a closet there and find clothes so I get dressed, then go through a door opposite the window. Now I find myself in a small sitting room, there are a couple comfortable looking chairs and a book case with some really interesting looking books on it, old looking books, they look like antique leather bound books… I take one down and look at it, but I don't have a lot of time to do that. I feel I need to get moving, so I put it back and go through a door opposite the one I entered through. Now I am in an office, there is a large wooden desk there with some pieces of parchment scattered about, another couple of book cases filled with interesting looking books, and a few comfortable looking chairs, one behind the desk, two on the other side of the desk, and one in the corner of the room. There is a stack of books on the desk, I go to take a look at one, it is titled "Out of the Darkness" by Raven Knight. I have written a book? I don't remember writing that book, so where did it come from? I pick it up and look at it, there are many song spells listed in the book, as well as some other spells, and also it tells about how the spells can be used, their primary use and some alternate possibilities… weird.

I still have a feeling of where I need to go. This has finally gotten strange enough for me to do a RC, so I become lucid. I remember what I am there to do, I am there to teach a class on magic, of all the strange things. I can think of so many people who would be better suited to being a teacher than me… but if I am there, I have to do my best, so I use TK to move the books with me and I head through one more door positioned across from the desk, and I enter a classroom. There are numerous desks in the room, it looks like a typical classroom, and there is a larger desk in the front, though it is nowhere near as nice as the one in my office. I set the books down on the desk and look around, wondering what I need to do to prepare for the class, to make sure I don't look like a complete retard. I think for a bit, then a portal opens and Nomad comes flying through, I can hear students coming outside the door, so I tell him to do what he's going to do before they get in, or there will be a lot of questions to answer. He changes into a desk near the front of the room just as the first students start coming in.

They all come in and sit in their usual groups, Harry, Ron, and Hermione are together, Draco, Crabb, and Goyle are together… apparently it's Gryffindor and Slytherin this time, though I am not sure what year they are in. I am looking, I notice that Hermione sits at Nomad, I can't help but chuckle just a bit. So soon everyone is in their seats, many of them are talking amongst themselves, some are looking at me as if they expect me to do something, which I'm sure they do. So finally I get everyone's attention, and introduce myself, and the class, and I figure they books are to pass out to the students, so I use TK to do that. One book to each student, Hermione is wondering where my wand is, I tell her that not all magic requires the use of a wand, and we would be learning magic in this class that can be done without a wand. Someone says he thought that was impossible, I say it is not impossible, and it is important, since there may come a time when one of them is in danger and doesn't have access to a wand. I tell them that if it makes it easier to learn the spell at first, go ahead and use the wands, but by the time they have learned the spell, the wand will be completely unnecessary. Draco is muttering something to Crabb and Goyle, I am assuming it is something rude, but I choose to ignore it for now. I open the book, and I see that the first spells there are elemental spells, fire and ice to be exact. So I start off on Damage, Inc. to produce fireballs, and soon most everyone seems to be able to form a small ball of fire with their wands.

I am getting on to ice, I figure that is a good idea when playing with fire to have something to counter it, and Hermione's desk turns into a student… or Nomad turns into a student… Hermione jumps out of her transforming desk, her book falls on the floor, and she is staring in shock at Nomad, who introduces himself as Jason. Everyone is staring at Nomad, Ron mutters a "Bloody hell! How did you do that?" at Nomad, but Nomad doesn't answer, he just sits down in an empty desk. I summon up an empty desk for Hermione to use, but everyone is still shocked at Nomad's transformation. I finally tell them that Nomad has been in my class before, and that is a more advanced transformation spell we'll get to later in the class, but apparently Jason had felt the need to show off.

I take the class outside to an open field where it will be more safe to practice playing with fire and ice, and everyone starts doing that, I have created some dummies for them to target with the spells. Crabb sets himself on fire, Goyle freezes his friend in ice… which puts out the fire but brings a completely new problem… so I defrost Crabb. Draco is trying to set Harry's robes on fire, Hermione keeps dousing it with ice before it can catch… I tell Draco to aim at the dummies only, he says he is aiming at a dummy, I say he knows what I mean, and add a bit of a telepathic push to get him firing his flames at the target dummies instead of Harry. Neville Longbottom is smoking… quite literally… the tip of his wand is producing a lot of smoke, but no fire. He continues doing that, apparently trying to focus harder, until there is a small explosion at his wand that succeeds in covering his face with soot, but doesn't seem to have done any more. Draco says if Neville did that enough, he might improve the appearance of his face by burning it off, Harry tells Draco to shut up, Draco says Harry should make him, Harry says ok that he will… but I break it up before it becomes an actual fight, I don't need anyone getting set on fire here. Then I am able to give some personal attention to Neville in the form of a bit of a telepathic guide on how to do the spell as well as some positive encouragement, and soon Neville is able to form a small fireball, at which he is thrilled.

Nomad is firing ice bullets at his target, interchanged with fireballs, he is clearly doing just fine with these spells, though I was sure he would… he does something else and comes out with a bunch of candy canes… huh? I wonder where he got those, and he starts passing them out to everyone, then starts eating his own while most of the students are still staring at him. Crabb and Goyle are the only ones to immediately start eating their candy. Nomad now does his best impression of a hydrogen molecule, he is bouncing all around the field and target range like a kid jacked up on so much sugar that he can't see straight. I almost call him Nomad, then I remember he is Jason right now, and I ask him to settle down a bit, there are people trying to learn here. Nomad lands near me, gives me a big hug while thanking me, and then he creates a disc out of ice and gets on it, then proceeds to make it fly into the air and shoot a circle of fire out from the ice disc while he is riding it, it looks quite cool… Then the two opposite elements interacting with each other form a tornado. The tornado picks up a lot of dust and then finally disperses, and when it is gone, so is Nomad. Everyone is staring, getting anyone to focus now would be impossible… or most everyone is staring. Crabb and Goyle are collecting candy canes, a lot of the students dropped their candy canes in shock when they saw Nomad disappear. They return to Draco, both of them holding big hands full of candy canes, licking them enthusiastically, as happy as a kid in a candy store. Harry asks if we will be learning all of that, too… I say it is really just a variation on the spells I showed them today, and yes, we will get into modifying the spells to fit specific needs. Ron utters another "Bloody hell!" I see the class is just about over, so I tell everyone it is time to go, a few minutes early to allow them to reach their next class on time.

***

[B][COLOR="green"][SIZE="5"]Nomad's Dream[/SIZE][/COLOR][/B]

I am on the Moon in the Biodome. I walk to the magic school. No one is there. I am confused.

I focus on Raven, and I tumble through a portal, landing on my feet, and turning into a desk in a class in Hogwarts. She tells me I am late. Let's get started. She talks about using pyrokinesis.

We go outside and practice. She says to toss the fireballs around, and make them move in all directions. I get bored of being a desk. I become a little wizard boy in a black robe. I say my name is Jason.

We then practice with water, ice and steam. We make ice like bullets. We practice on metal targets at a range. I shoot alternating balls of fire and ice at my target. Raven gives us all candy canes that taste like magic. I realize I am dreaming. I stare at the candy cane. It looks so real. It tastes like peppermint and guava. I touch the hay nearby. I jump around in the firing range. Raven tells me to stop fooling around.

"But we are dreaming Raven!"

I run to her and give her a hug. "Thanks for helping me. Thanks for teaching me this cool magic!!!"

I make an ice disk and ride it in the sky, shooting streams of fire and spinning in the air. I make a fire tornado and fly around in it. The dream fades as I chuckle to myself.

NOTES:
In waking life.
I had planned to come to Raven's Magic Class at Hogwarts. I asked if it would be okay to be a desk. She said okay. Nothing else was discussed prior to the dream.

[I]I made plans with Raven to meet her at the Balancing Pools in the Biodome.[/I]

I wake up in the dream floating in the Balancing Pools in the Biodome on the Moon. Ah...

Raven is standing at the edge. She is removing her outer garment. "Oh, there you are." Raven turns into a mermaid and jumps in. Then she turns into a fish, and swims next to me. "Hey Nomad... How do you feel?"

Dark energy oozes out of me, and is absorbed into the bottom of the pond. "Ah, look, it's fertilizer!"

[B][SIZE="5"][COLOR="green"]Peace with the Templars[/COLOR][/SIZE][/B]

I float up out of my physical body. I am Cannabis Deathgawn, the Cannabis-G0d Archdemon. lulz... I am great Archdemon with leaves growing out of me. The remote viewers are watching me. My fly pods on my shoulders pop open, and millions of flies swarm at their eyes.

I laugh. PEACE PEACE! They cry. Sh... We are defectors. Sh! I look in their eyes, and scan their dream bodies. Yeah... They are orange like RV'ers, and they both have a parasite in their gut.

Hm.... I take the RV'ers to a blank room in the White Void. I hum and shoot soundwaves out of my hands at the parasites. The parasites wriggle, then break apart, flying out of the dream bodies.

"Oh, thank you! Ha! Now the government can't track us. Listen. We are on your side. Almost all of us are. They control us with fear or greed. The two of us have been trying to exorcise these damn parasites out of each other for weeks, but we can never completely perceive them. Listen, we have a message from the Master Remote Viewer who now lives on the dream plane. 'We come in peace.' Please understand that most of us signed up for surveillance, mainly to find caches of weapons and such, not to invade dreams, spy on dreams, or spy on people's waking life. Malkus is a a key player in what is to become. The best way to prevent war or to stop war is to become friends with your enemies. This is how love is more powerful than hate."

Alright. Let's smoke some weed. I open a portal to Castle Cannabis on Mars, and gesture for the RV'ers to go through I step into the Wormhole after them. There is a green dragon in the wormhole, The Wormhole Wyrm. He jokingly says his name is Puff. He smokes a long Sherlock pipe and gives me a thumbs up. He has a beard and spectacles. Ok...!

We pop out on Mars. The Cannabis vines curl and grow, glowingly growl over the black walls of Castle Cannabis. LOL The RV'ers eyes bug out. I ask them their names. They say they are Joe and Snake. I see their true forms. Snake is a hot chick. She looks like a superhero. I ask her why she is wearing that black cat suit in waking life. She laughs and says something about dulling the senses. It's like an isolation tank when combined with the Mindfold and earplugs. Interesting.

It's a fucking party, bitches! Colored lights glow under black translucent stone. Dubstep thunders from the castle. I summon three silver disks for us to ride on, and we zip into the castle. The castle is full of stoned darklings partying. When we enter they throw graffitti on us.

[COLOR="#ff00ff"][FONT="Arial"][SIZE="5"][I]Angel[/I][/SIZE][/FONT][/COLOR]

I decide I am going to summon Angel. I unzip a tear portal in the fabric of time and space. I see her in a dream dancing by herself in a club. There is some douchebag annoying her. I flick him away with my finger, and grab her, pulling her into my dream. "Nate! We're in your dream!"

"Yes. I want you to remember this. I know you won't. I don't care anymore. I miss dreaming with you. You are an amazing soul. I understand now. You are not Selene. I still love you, my Angel. I have loved you for thousands of years, and I will love you for thousands more."

I pull her close to me, and kiss her gently, then passionately. Lights explode out of dream bodies. We spin together and we are kissing on a giant lotus blossom in the sky. The lotus is constantly blooming. There are thousands of thousand petal lotus blossoms in the sky all around us. I run my hand down her back, and all her chakras open and spin. Translucent red spikes grow out of her back along her spine.

The kiss ends, and I stare into her face. Her eyes turn from dark brown to red, fully red, even the whites, like an albino's eyes, but redder. She grows fine white fur, and her face changes and becomes a deer, and she grows large antlers. White angel wings burst from her back. She wields a halberd.

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I crack my neck, and become a giant alligator man with bat wings, wielding a trident.

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We battle. The sky grows dark. We are on a desert plain. The soil is cracked and dry. There are mesas all around us. A black thunderstorm rolls in and dumps on us. KRAK KRAK KRAK go our weapons, as we strike and parry like two ancient gods.

I grab her staff, and pull her in close to me. We transform into humans. I laugh at the absurdity of everything. She looks at me shyly. We kiss and spin again. We are in one of my pyramids in the City of Nowhere. It's actually a tent shaped like a pyramid. Holy shit. We are at Burning Man. Our tent is full of big pillows. There is a huge hookah in the center. We take some puffs of it, and recline on the cushions. There is Indian music playing. I playfully draw Cleopatra eyes on her face. She puts eye make up on me. "Hey stop it."

"You look like an Indian or Egyptian god, Nomad." Her eyes grow large and she looks afraid of me. I roar and transform in Anubis.

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She is Cleopatra making an offering to me on a desert plain on a stone altar. I take her hand and lead her into my tent. I ask her if she wants to be a goddess. Her eyes grow large again, and she nods her head silently. "You are Cleopatra Selene." I place my pitch black hand on her heart chakra, and white moonlight comes out of it. White light pours out of her eyes. I become a human.

"We are we." She faints in my arms... then disappears, waking up.

I look around. I am at the Great Pyramids. AHA! Andres, Andres! I see him sitting at a desk, writing furiously.

"Hold on Nomad. I am writing in my DJ... my "notes" DJ. Just some quick notes before I forget..."

"Dude, look at me, we are at the Pyramids! We are dreaming!"

'OH MY GOD YOU ARE RIGHT!"

Andres takes off into the sky. He flies into a portal. A second later he falls out of the sky laughing.

"Dude, I just woke up, but it was a false awakening. I dream I got ready for school, then, I realized I was dreaming, and I wanted to come back to this dream, so I went to sleep, and it worked! Let's battle so I don't forget.'

Andres and I have two quarterstaffs. We flip and spin as we battle. "Dude this is awesome. Let's go to the Moon."

I summon the Moon dragons. Andres and I each get on one. I open up a portal in the sky, and we fly to the Moon. Puff is winking at the girl dragon I am riding. I feel her blushing. Weird. We land on the Moon.

"DUDE THIS IS SO EPIC MAN."

There is a strange yellow man at the entrance to the Biodome. Nephanim? "No, but I am like him. I was wondering when you were going to get here. I am Nephanim's dream guide, in a sense. I am his surrogate Sense-er."

"I don't know what that means."

"I am a projection of his from another dimension. You see, his Higher Self created me, and put me in a pocket dimension for all eternity to store all knowledge for continuity of self throughout his soul's journey through space and time. I am what's called a Soul Piece."

"What is your name?"

"I have no name. But, I am the Nth Master."

"Hmm?"

"I am creator and lord of the Nth dimension of this Urthan universe."

"Urthan?"

"Yes. Urth is actually not a planet, but a type of planet in every galaxy in this universe. This is a distinct quality of this universe."

Andres and I look at each other, then back at the Nth Master.

"You know, you all have Nth selves in my dimension, and they are all me, and I am all them. Anyway, follow me."

He leads us into the Biodome.

"Let me show you...."

He shows us the energy of all things, brilliant color... everything is swirling and moving.

'Now you see the life and death,
fullness and emptiness,
less is more, more is less,
bless the god, love the goddess.'

Suddenly Andres and the Nth Master move forward in time. The Nth Master is teaching him all kinds of strange things. It looks like I am watching them in fast forward.

Kanaloa:

[I]So, you want to know what is going to happen in 2012? That date itself is just the beginning of a New Age. It is the culmination of an End and Beginning. There we go to the Zero Point in the center of the Lemniscate, and the world is made anew. That is Dream Urth with be reborn, which will trigger many changes on Matter Earth. [/I]
[I]
The New World Order is going to make their move. There is going to an Alien Threat, a false Threat, but one in which the Entire World will fear. [B]FEAR NO EVIL.[/B] Listen closely. Everything is worthless. Everything but air, water, food, and Heat. You need nothing else. You do not need transportation or even other people. When times are dark, light a fire. You may get heat or retain heat from Shelter, Clothes or Fire, but it's all Heat. Base your life on generating and obtaining the Three Necessities: Water, Food, Heat. Nothing else matters for survival. Your air is poisoned, as is the Three Necessities, therefore, make it clean as possible.

When you humans found you could alter the Matter Earth, you shaped things, altered things with your ten fingers foolishly. You forgot your dreams, and closed your third eyes. [B]YOU FOOLS.[/B] Don't you know The Pyramids were built without MACHINES?

If you had only cultivated your psychic abilities for these past 100,000 years instead of building MACHINES, then you would be flying through the sky on waves of gravity. Now, you have introduced this Great Evil into Matter Earth, and you must pay for your sins. The machines are going to take over the planet, infested by the Mind of Nevergawn himself. There is a great supercomputer which is comprised of an international network of servers which now has the intelligence of a human mind. Right now, preparations are being made to implant This Techno-Blasphemy with the Mind of Baphomet. Japan is creating a fully human Baphomet android which will be the shell. Then Baphomet will be fully MANIFEST, AND HE WILL RULE, NOT FROM ISRAEL, BUT FROM WASHINGTON DC.

The people of America will worship this Baphomet, as he will proclaim he will save them from this Alien Threat. What you must understand, is the Baphomet Android will be a face-shapeshifter. He will be able to transform his head into that of a goat, and the New World Order will worship him in Secret and in False Truth.

These aliens come not to harm or save, but to aid. These aliens are many many races, with differing agendas, but the most powerful ones are supremely enlightened. They already know of Nevergawn's plan. Some of these "aliens" are Earthlings. They are the Sea People, and the Cave People. You think the only supreme sentience is on the surface? Fools. The animals will tell you what you need to know, if you silly humans can have the intelligence to translate what they say into Human Speech.

I am Kanaloa, the god of the sea. My domain covers 2/3 of your planet. I am more powerful than any ruler of land Earth. Heed my words or continue to suffer. You are killing me. And for that, you will starve.[/I]

****

The whole dream goes in reverse. I reverse laying down in Angel's bed.

WTF? Am I getting up or laying down? Stop!

Kronos, the god of time, looking like Mr. Gone appears in a think bubble. He laughs at me. My infinity watch begins to glow, as the floating lemniscate spins. I am in Outer Space with Kronos and the Master Remote Viewer.

The Master Remote Viewer screams savagely at Kronos.

[I]YOU HAVE IMPRISONED ME IN HUMAN FORM FOR THE LAST TIME BROTHER! YOU ARE A GOD OF LIES, AND I AM A GOD OF TRUTH, FOR I AM [SIZE="5"][COLOR="red"]INFINITY INCARNATE!'[/COLOR][/SIZE][/I]

Infinity's watch spins, as does mine. He morphs into a great golden Eastern dragon with red glowing eyes. His body forms a lemniscate. Kronos transforms into a silver dragon, with dark black eyes. He makes his body go in a circle but does not bite his tail. Numbers form inside his circle, and become 2D, like blades. Kronos whips the numbers at Infinity. They bounce off his aura, and he laughs. I transform into a silver centipede, and clamber on to Infinity's back. He lunges at Kronos. I leap on to Kronos, and bite him on his third eye. He roars in pain, and Infinity bites him on his throat. Kronos turns into a black hole. Infinity makes a golden net around him, and Kronos implodes into himself.

We transform back into humans, and high five.

[I]What just happened? .... I don't know![/I]

I am a young Hawaiian boy during WWII. American soldiers come, and begin altering our house into a base. I think they might kill me. We are afraid of the soldiers and run into the forest.

the dream skips

We are on a dirigible, being transported across the ocean. The blimp is full of war refugees, and rich White people going for a cruise.

I am served some gross overcooked bean soup made from a can. I am used to eating only fresh food. There is some chili stuff also.

They talk about a pool on the blimp.

Everyone must swim! You Hawaiians, teach these people to swim. We are in for a long voyage. These fat asses need exercise. A fat White lady protests swimming. She says she doesn't know how. A soldier yells at her, telling her she has to get exercise, and swimming is the only way on this blimp. Plus, we are flying over the ocean, so she better know how to swim if we get shot down.

People begin shouting about a UN convention protecting passenger aircraft, and the soldier says we need to be prepared for anything. These terrorists, they are animals.

I see a missile coming for us. I see a strange flag on it: There is a gold slash diagonally across it. On the top half is a Chinese flag. The bottom is a mix of Canadian, American, and Mexican flag. There is also a tiny portion that is a flag for the New Government of Central America. There is a strange gremlin riding the missile. It has the flag of Brazil across it's face.

I look at the pilot of the plane. He is an orc on in a leather jacket, leather helmet and goggles. "I'm a Russo-Americo-Jap, bitch!" he says to me. I am horrified. I pray to Kanaloa. The missile hits the balloon part of the blimp, then turns around. Before the missile hits the cabin, I leap through a window. I feel like my soul is leaping, out and my body is staying behind.

Kanaloa is a great octopus. He thrusts his head out of the water, and grabs both my bodies, and pulls them down into the sea. He smashes them together.

He pulls me into the depths. I see beachgirl swimming the other direction, and she waves at me. She's a mermaid.

Suddenly, we are in his Great Chamber, and he speaks to me with his great THIRD EYE.

[I]My son. This is all real. Please understand. This is not a jumble of thoughts created by your mind. This is another reality in a parallel universe, similar, very similar to your own. You are living the life of another you. This happens in dreams, due to the dream plane touching and encompassing all reality. See, the physical planes are just bubbles inside the dream plane. Astral planes are bubbles around the physical ones.

You see me now as Kanaloa, the god of the sea. In your Main World on Matter Earth, I exist in every squid and octopus in the sea. I am every cuttlefish, and every nautilus. The combined intelligence is my sentience. They are all my brain and my body. Beings such as I are called Manifestor-Inhabitors. Just as Lady Datura is every single datura plant on earth, I am every squid. We are all gods. You, He'e child are a god until yourself, and I am here. Every human is its own god unto itself. You have chosen the Matter World of Earth, or the Nightmare World, as We call it, to inhabit. You all have chosen to learn from the Way of Suffering.[/I]

Why would we choose to suffer?

[I]You can learn by doing, by watching, by hearing, by playing, but only learning through Suffering may you become Compassionate. This is the true Essence of Justice. When you have suffered much, you may become a just god. [/I]

Just? To who?

[I]To yourself. You are not to rule over weaker ones. That is weakness. You are not to rule over equals, because they would not allow it. And it is impossible to rule over ones stronger. Therefore you must become a god unto yourself, and completely rule over yourself. In order to do this, you must treat yourself with compassion, and justice. This is the ultimate government: The One-Man Theocracy.[/I]

My mind is being blown. A god from another universe is telling me to become a god over myself.

Kanaloa looks into my soul with his great right eye. I see many colors in his eye. It's beautiful and terrifying. He sees everything I ever have done, am doing, and will do.

[I]Darkness.... Light.... You have an even balance. But, evil you must not do. Evil is to harm others out of malice. Your crown chakra will guide your morality, and your third eye will reveal the path. Dark or light energy can be used for good or evil. The Templars of Urth use light energy for evil. The evil rulers of Earth are third eye blind. They believe Life is a Dream, which is true, but they believe their life is Their Dream, just like an Inner World Dream. They do not realize their Serial Dream is not an Inner World Dream, but a Shared Dream. Therefore, they look at others as Dream Characters, playthings to toy with, to rape and kill, and torture as they please.

There are such Humans in the Dream Plane, invading dreams to rape and kill others' dream bodies. This must stop in order for your Race to vibrate up to Higher Planes of Awareness, Enlightenment. Lucidity is a type of enlightenment. As you are expanding, your enlightenment increases, as you are more and more aware of The Great Suffering. All beings in your planet are suffering. Your species makes everything around it suffer, including other humans. You are all infested with a dark energy parasite from Nevergawn that delights in the suffering of others. EVERYTHING YOU BUY IS CREATED BY THE SUFFERING OF OTHERS SOMEHOW. You cannot help being evil.

The only way to be free is to be free. The only way to stop aiding in the suffering of others is to break free of the Network: The Money System. The purpose of Money is to control others. With money you can can tell people they do not deserve food, because you have it, and they don't. Grow your own food. Restore the aquaculture. Grown your own fish. Then no matter how much someone says you do not deserve food, you have it anyway.
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(cont'd)

Creepy, scary bugs:

I was out on the balcony and noticed a few centipedes, which were a bit larger than normal ones. I found them a little creepy. However, worse things were to come. When I went out on the balcony after a while again I noticed an even larger centipede (must have been 30 cm long and was rather thick). I got a bit of a shock and also felt disgusted. This centipede started climbing on the metal plates on the balcony. After having climbed a couple of decimeters or so it stopped and turned its head towards me... It had a gross opening which must have been its mouth. It made some kind of hissing sound and seemed to prepare to launch itself towards me. I stood there and began feeling rather anxious and did not know what to do. At the same time my mom walked out on the balcony. I pointed at the weird, mutated centipede and said something. My mom then grabbed it and threw it off the balcony, into a pillar which stood there. When it collided with the pillar a kind of cracking noise was heard and then it fell down on the lawn. However, I was sure it was still alive, since it seemed to have such a thick shell. I felt relieved that it was gone and joked a bit with mom about the creature. I told her that it had reminded me a bit of the dragon Mushu from Mulan when she threw it. Also, I said to her: "I don't think it will be lonely for long, though..." . She agreed and we meant that since "he" was such a large and strong bug he would probably find a partner rather easily.

Shortly after this incident I went outside. I saw a neighbor family approaching (two young parents with two small kids) with their stroller. At the same time I noticed a wasp flying towards me. I got a little frightened (due to my bug phobia) and even more so when the wasp flew even closer. I started hyperventilating and tried to remain still as it flew around me. After a short while I opened my eyes. To my horror it was not gone, but was sitting on my left hand. I tried to remain calm and hoped that it would not sting me. I wondered how painful it would feel if it did and thought to the wasp "please don't sting me, please don't sting me...". Then it appeared to start teasing me, because it moved around, seemed to prepare for the sting, changed its mind and so on... The family with the stroller had gotten even closer now and at the same that I was frightened, I also amused myself with the thought that I could pretend in front of the family that I was seriously allergic to the wasp's sting and therefore was in grave danger. Maybe they would not find it weird then if I looked really frightened.

Fragments:

* I see myself naked from behind and I see that I have extremely long, thick, frizzy hair growing from my butt. I feel very surprised, but then just depressed. As I am looking at it it is growing even more. I am disgusted by myself because of this and think that I remind me of an ostrich or something...

* I get an SMS from my supervisor, where he expresses some positive feelings about my work. I read it two or three times and to my surprise the text changed a bit every time. However, the main meaning of it was still the same and it remained positive. He had also put some smileys and thumbs up-symbols in it.

* I am writing down some of my dreams in the notebook next to my bed (rather much text with details), but some of the dreams I wrote down, I realised after having awakened, I had not even had.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning. Same as always, I don't get enough sleep when I'm working. I recalled two dreams from last night though, and the last one was so weird.

11.30: Bedtime

05.15: Bad review
I'm watching a guy review this coffee machine. I had some coffee from it before, and it tasted great! Monica wants one for christmas. "Tassimo" Anyways the guy shows me how it really sucks. He pours the foamy coffee on the top, and it goes down on the bottom. "It tastes so bad" he tells me. "Worst buy ever"

05.15: Spies?
I'm standing in a hallway with a guy with no shirt on (must be from Date Night I watched yesterday) and we are some kind of spies. There are cops everywhere outside of the house. The guy I'm with quickly opens the door, and takes a look. He comes back with some kind of blow dart arrows in his hand, and one on his back which he grabs and breaks off into two pieces. "This is great, we'll use these" he tells me. I grab a few of the finger-thick, grey metal bars. We run out of the door. There are cops everywhere, but they don't seem to do anything. I ram a few of the bars into them, rendering them unconscious. "These sleeping darts are very effective" I think, and we run into another house.

We go from room to room, looking for people. I have an axe in my hands, and we find someone. The person isn't to be saved, so we walk on. I spot someone hiding in a bed, and I remove the blanket. A girl is there, and I know we have to save her. This is where it gets weird. I drag the girl down on the floor, but the girl is a kitten. "I will save you" I say and raise the axe while holding the kitten down. "No! Wait!" the girl cries out. "Who made you save me?" I try to hold her down, so I can cut her head off. "Who is saving me?!" she yells at me. Just as I am about to chop her head off. My alarm goes off, and the sudden rush of fear and anger makes me change my mind. "I will not save you anymore" I say. And let her go.

05.15: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 5½ hours

Supplements before bed: 2 x Omega-3

That's it! Both were filled with some kind of anxiety. I will try to turn lucid this week. I AM going to turn lucid.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Dream 1-- CNN Reports Counter-Strike Cheaters

This dream starts out with me and my cousin talking about Counter-Strike. I am on a computer waiting for the game to load, and we are discussing how the game play has changed. Although he is talking to me, this is an instance of where I cannot see him. He is essentially a disembodied voice. He is explaining to me how there was a massive upsurge of people cheating on the game, so they decided to put video of the cheaters on the news every night when they found new ones. I thought that was really clever, and actually enjoyed playing the game.

I went into Video Game mode, where I was actually the character in the game for a while and played on this level where there are metal buildings. The roofs were rusted orange in patches over silver that was in a squiggly fashion. The ground was silver concrete, with some wetness (puddles). I think I was a counter-terrorist because my character had a black glove on and my usual pistol was a USP.

I play many rounds, killing people and having fun, but as I am playing I act like I am cheating. This is something I used to do in real life when I played, I would shake my screen (which is what observers see your screen doing when you use an AIMbot), I would toggle my mouse, I would spin, I would quick switch like 25 times after killing someone. All of these things would make people believe I was cheating after I killed them, which would boost my ego because I felt that I had so much skill that people would suspect of hacking! The real truth was that I basically gave them all the evidence to support that claim even though I wasn't doing very well at all.

In this dream, I am the character. In one round, I am on the roof of one building looking down. I see an enemy, quick switch to my pistol and then toggle my mouse to his head and head shot him. It was kind of a lucky shot given the distance, but I felt pretty proud of it actually. After he dies, I jump down from the roof and bunny hop (which is a disabled function in most CS maps) for about 4 jumps. The next round starts and I am walking along a metal fence. I see an enemy and pop him once in the face. His head explodes and I quick switch my weapons like 25 times in extremely fast fashion.

Once I'm done with the game, I am suddenly sitting to the right of a TV that looks like it's in my grandparent's house in their living room. This might make sense because my cousin used to live with my grandparents. As I am watching, the news comes on and CNN starts playing the replay of my entire session online! They show the game from my point of view, how my crosshairs would toggle before shooting someone, how I did bunny hops, and how I quick switched after killing someone so it looked like I was 'modding.' All of the evidence seemed pretty stacked against me actually, I would have been convinced had it been another person. I thought the whole thing was kind of ridiculous (funny and I was on TV for acting like a cheater really well), so I texted my cousin like "Wow they really do post it on the news haha I got busted."

Then I look back up at the TV and the news story has changed. The camera looks like it's in a helicopter flying over this large building over the sea. It pans to the right, and there is another helicopter right there with two guys in it. All of a sudden, I go PassObs and I become the camera, who zooms in on each of their faces. I see that I don't recognize either of them but they are both really happy. One guy is leaning out of the side window and the other guy is standing up through the sun roof of his helicopter. They are both white, one guy has black curly hair, and the other guy has brownish hair and he is wearing a white necklace. Somehow I think that they relate to a prize I won earlier in the dreams I had last night, which I can't remember what the prize was. I think about them and then I think about social situations in general. I come to the conclusion in my dream that to make friends the majority of the work is to make them like you, while liking them is not as important. That's a stupid conclusion lol.

Dream 2-- Winning a Prize to Meet with Brian

So in this dream I apparently wrote this paper about 5 facts of life. They were really on point and delved into some deeper truths concerning existence, but I'm so mad because they are on the fringe of my recollection and I can't fully remember them. Anyway, after writing this paper, I am well-renowned around the world, and I get a special prize, which involves me getting to meet the producer for Radio Disney. I had been working for Radio Disney for 5 years anyway so meeting with him was no big deal.

The big deal in my dream, however, was that we met in the Science building of my high school. We were in the main lobby, and he is standing up against a wall that has some posters, and a huge white board that he starts to draw on with a black marker. We talk about stuff, nothing important, and then I ask him who else is on this project with him. He starts to draw the names of everyone, and I recognize the name of the guy from Superbad, Jonah Hill, and then he gets to the end, and in the bottom right corner he writes "Kyle" in green letters (like Kyle from south park with his green hat) and then draws a line that needs to nowhere which is also in green.

My position relative to his changes in an instant, and now he is standing behind a wall of posters in the same location as before but there is no white board. I see this image of what is titled "Pascal's triangles" but it isn't the mathematical triangle that I would expect, it actually consists of these triangle intermingled inside these two human bodies. They make an interesting pattern and I think I can recall it, but the way it was drawn in the poster is actually unrealistic and unimportant in my opinion.

Anyway, I'm pissed I can't remember the prize that I won and the wisdom that I shared!!

Dream 3 (Fragment)-- Shopping Mall Realization

I am in the middle of this department store, which is loaded with females. There are white counters with workers behind them selling make up and various products. I can see all the products lining the counters right beside mirrors and lights. I also see aisles upon aisles of products for a woman to choose from. There are tall shelves that are stocked to the brim with various things from shampoo to eye liner and everything. As I am staring at all of this, I start thinking about why a woman would come here and why she would spend here money. Suddenly, I realize that women have no clue what they want. In fact, they go from moment to moment and make decisions mostly based on their emotions in the present, without using much logic at all. Their logic kicks in after the fact when they try to backwards rationalize their actions. This is why women want everything and nothing all at the same time. There is no way to predict, materially, what will make a woman happy or satisfied, and even if you get it right once, that same thing will in no way be guaranteed to work again in the future because her mood will change or the gesture itself will be less significant. Indeed, it seems that the 'meta' aspect of material goods truly satisfies the woman. If you give her earrings everyday, the first day she will be ecstatic and then her enthusiasm will slowly wane. If you give a man a massage everyday, he will pretty much be content with that reward forever. The 'meta' of the gifts are what the gesture represents and that the material goods in general represent. When women go out and buy expensive clothes and make up, they are looking to stand out and attract men. A man wouldn't normally walk outside in the frigid cold in a only a tight dress and high heels because it's fucking cold. A woman, however, might bear to stand it because of any number of reasons ranging from the extra attention she gets to only being seen in a positive light (girls are super uptight about reputation). This realization was pretty significant and it got me thinking about how being in a relationship with a girl might be easier than I thought. It's not so much about the material aspect, the physical aspect, or the words spoken or anything. It's the thought, the relationship as a whole, and the meaning behind actions! So, instead of focusing on the right words to say or something, it's more about what emotion am I trying to convey, how do I express this in terms of our relationship...

Maybe I'm totally wrong, my dreams aren't 100% reliable. What do other people think on this issue?

Dream 4-- Gendason's Magic Trick

I am in some random courtyard with Gendason, my college counselor, and a whole bunch of other students. We are talking about college. We are outside surrounded by white buildings. We are standing on top of concrete with some puddles around (what is up with concrete and puddles in my dreams?) and the sky is blue and the clouds are grey, making shadows rather than sunshine. As we talk, Gendason suddenly says Congratulations, and then, as if out of the sky, a whole barrage of booths and vendors appear.

To my immediate left, there is a woman selling necklaces and bracelets, which look pretty nice. Three people come to where I am and start talking to the vendor. This one girl shows interest, and the vendor asks her to put her address down on a sheet of paper, and the girl is like well where I live is temporary for the moment. and the vendor is like that's ok, write it down anyway. And the girl is like well I'm about to move and the vendor gets this really skeptical look on her face.

I walk away to another booth. I walk around see nothing of interest until I walk up to this booth where there is a laminated packet speaking about the truth of god. In the first paragraph, there is an underlined word, enermette, and I ask this black guy behind the counter what it means. He gives me some answer, and I respond with "wait, intermittent... inter means between and mittent means coming to send or go", when I say this Alec, a classmate, laughs and I look over at him. The black guy says "no it's a different word" but I don't want to discuss the topic any further, I just assume I am right and walk away (Clearly pointing out a character flaw). I look at this food shop where there is bags of popcorn on the poles holding up the tent, and the vendors are making lemonade and hot dogs and everything. As I look up I see this huge sign with a list of all the prices for everything, and I'm thinking that's bullshit that Gendason would give us all this just so we have to pay to eat! This sends me into PassObs and the dream fades away.

Spelunking with The Doctor
Recall: 7/10
Sleep: Great
Sleep Position: Unknown

I'm in some caverns, swimming with some guy who wants to set off a stick of dynamite. Apparently the explosion is supposed to be fun somehow, when the shockwave in the water hits us. The first time he goes to throw the dynamite, we figure it's too close at 100 meters. We back off to 150 meters, and the guy says the shock wave will probably rough us up a bit, but we'll survive.

I have my doubts that setting off dynamite in this cavern is a good idea. The whole place doesn't look very stable, and I fear it will collapse the entire cavern. Plus there are concession stands in the main area of the cave, one selling coffee and one selling gemstones.

Back in the main area, Doctor Who points out that there's something odd about the stand selling gemstones. He says it's impossible for them to have downloaded so many large gemstones into the cave. We ask to take a look at some of the gems, and I pop a large one into my mouth while the sales people aren't looking. Then I put another one into my pocket and we leave and go to our room in the cave. This girl enters bragging how she stole 3 gems, and I don't mention the two I took since she one upped me.

We notice that the cave is being invaded by little slimy slug creatures, showing up en masse in the water streams. The Doctor says they will destroy the entire ecosystem, then tells me to try feeding my gemstones to the slugs. I put a white one and a blue one in their path, and they go up to then and begin to eat the gems with loud crunches.

The Doctor concludes we need lots more gemstones to offset the slugs, but the concession stand selling them is closed. A couple of other people have a large bag of ice and a device that condenses the ice into gemstones. We take our ice gems into a cave shaped like a sloping theatre with water and fish at the bottom. The slugs have completely invaded it. We toss the gemstones into the water, and the slugs swarm them, eating them and releasing a certain chemical as they do.

The chemical cleans the water, improves the health of the fish, and causes the tomato plants on the shore to grow all the way to the roof of the cavern.

Bicycle Police
Recall: 6/10
Sleep: Great
Sleep Position: Unknown

I've been doing laundry at some woman's house, and we're taking the last load to the laundry matt to dry them. They take their car, and I ride a bicycle. As I peddle down the street, there are soem official government types in the way. I try to steer around them, but they keep moving directly in front of me.

"Get the fuck out of the way!!!" I yell in frustration. The oldest of the trio comes up to me and tries to slap a metal gear plate onto the gears of my bike for being so rude, but I don't let him. He then orders a young red headed woman to put her plate on my bike, which would lock up the gears.

I grab the metal gear plate from the redhead and the old man and throw them like ninja stars off the bridge and into the water, then begin to push my bike up the hill. I look behind me as I go to see the old man sneaking up on me. Every time I turn my head, he's a little bit closer, but freezes when I look at him. I keep an eye on him until I'm over the hill, then pedal as fast as I can so he can't catch up to me.

So, I was in the large conservatory room of some house. It was nighttime, I believe.
The conservatory had a single glass pane, which comprised the whole wall. It was more of a single huge window at one side of the house, actually.
I was non-lucid at this point. I walked into a lounge area, right next to the glass wall.
My older sister was sitting in a comfy looking chair. We spoke, but it obviously wasn't important because I don't remember what we said.

I started play-fighting with her, but I suddenly became aware of the possibility that I was dreaming.
Unsure, I stepped back and looked around the room. It was quite small now, and it had shelves along the walls, which were lined with sturdy mugs. I said something like:
"Hang on, I think this is a dream" to my sister.
I stretched out my arm, hand open, pointing at a mug. I willed it to fly into my hand, trying to exert a gravitational pull.

Nothing.

I tried again.

Nothing.

Then it clicked - I only needed to imagine the mug flying into my hand, and it would!
So that's what I did. I pretended the mug was actually flying into my hand at that moment, and guess what?
It whipped off the shelf and landed in my hand, in milliseconds.

Unfortunately, my satisfaction was short-lived. As all the possibilities of what I could do hit me, the dream quickly degenerated into me walking around the house and deleting blocks, now in a game of Minecraft.

A spark of lucidity flickered inside me:
"Must try and get back to... before..."
I thought, before that spark was snuffed out, and my feeble effort to gain control faded.

I had a dream this summer that involved me knowing the presence of a ghost, and what I thought was a sort of possession. I was getting ready for school in a different room than usual, I heard these footsteps and just immediately knew there was a ghost. I then "woke up" from my dream and went to take a shower to "really" get ready for the day, on the way I saw a half eaten sandwich, should have known... anyway, I went to get in the shower and something made me laugh, but instead of my laugh, it was a deep male laugh, a chuckle sort of, but kind of menacing. And then I woke up.

I experience sleep paralysis somewhat often. Again, a dream in a dream. I dreamed I woke up laying on my stomach and was being held down by a ghost, and then from the corner of my eye I saw these set of legs walking out of my room. But they weren't solid, but the way it looks when you look through a bottle of water. I felt like this had some sort of connection to the other dream, but I don't know.

Just the other morning I definitely wasn't dreaming, and I woke up to what I thought was footsteps, but I was in sleep paralysis, I chose to ignore it and went back to sleep.

By this time I had been reading about lucid dreaming and reality checks, and previous nights I had been trying to do a MILD, trying to revisit my grandparents at their house. This still hasn't worked, but I did begin to notice dream signs and even performed a reality check in a dream.

I get up to use the bathroom at least once a night, and I dreamed that I woke up to go to the bathroom, but the Christmas tree I put up the previous night was different, it was much smaller, my first clue, but soon after that I woke up for real to use the bathroom

The next night I had a dream that I was driving to campus with my boyfriend and another person was in the car, but I don't know who it was. I met up with some friends that don't go to my college, and we were sitting in a grassy area and I decided to hold my nose and I was still able to breathe! I told everyone I was dreaming but I couldn't control it. Another girl showed up with these tiny little snakes and gave them to me, I asked her what I was supposed to do with them and I ended up changing their color like you would see through a heat camera. I knew I was dreaming but I wasn't able to control what was happening. After that I woke up.

I'm still working on performing reality checks and becoming lucid, my ultimate goal right now is to dream of my grandparent's house and control the dream.

I'm definitely stressed about finals week and I think last night was no exception. I barely recall anything.

It was fall/Halloween time. All the houses were massively decorated and children were outside running around. I was inside attempting to throw little creepy spiders and spiderwebs out the windows but all the windows were so blocked that the spiders would get stuck in the decorations on the house. A girl from my job was there trying to help me. She was late for work and ran up the road to a restaurant.

Next think I remember is an older man, 40-50s, hitting on me and me flirting back. We started to head back to his place and I woke up.

I am a huge fan and player of hockey. So i always have dreams about hockey. This dream was about me and some team playing in front of millions of people. I had finished my shift on the ice and went back to the bench. Some black kids were sitting near me and i put down my gloves so i can fix my skates really quick. After fixing my skates i notice my gloves are gone. I couldn't skate for the rest of the game which was 11:60(time left on the clock) which is extremely weird and that was one of my reality checks. However right after i lost my gloves my dream completely switched to sitting in my car with my family and these black kids. I was really angry at them so i threatened to choke them if they didn't tell me where my gloves are. And that's exactly what i did. After the black kid started choking me, i had woken up. When i went back to sleep, i wanted to attain lucidity so i was half asleep half awake but could imagine myself in this dream again. I had become lucid for my first time, however i could not last long.