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Dream - Lucid

So I finally slept last night. Like really slept, none of this waking up every hour bs and not being able to go back to sleep.

As a result, I guess from sleeping so hard, I can't recall any dreams from the first half of the night, but I woke up once, turned the heat up and went back to sleep and had another dream that I can only recall bits and pieces of. It was a very long dream though.

-I had some kind of surgery done that was supposed to help me to stop smoking of all kinds, weed and cigarettes. I had stitches in the middle of my right side, in between my ribcage and hips. The incision was horizontal.
-At some point in the dream, I made out with this very butch lesbian I know in waking life. We were in a giant bed somewhere, and the room was dark.
-I kept picking at and itching my stitches, and it made them feel all tingly.
-I kept on having to pull huge wads of tar out of my mouth. It started off black, but gradually turned dark purple the more I pulled out. It seemed like no matter how much tar I would pull out, there would always be more.
-There was someone in this dream that I kept trying to find, but for the life of me, I can't remember who it was.

I was at a combination of D's house, and D's GF house, and my cousins were discussing how to hook up a stage sound system. I headed to the bathroom, and there were all theses people everywhere. I was assuming they were related to D's GF. I headed to the bathroom, which had two doors, and a couple next door was having sex. I tried to be quiet. When I headed out, the scene sort of changed to a room with a window. When I looked back, three teenage kids had crawled into the window.

I didn't know who they were, but I told them to get out several times. They said they were with some gang (forgot the name of it, but I think it started with an A) and I would be stupid for trying something with them. I tried several times to tell them to leave, and they still wouldn't. One kid started going through a dresser drawer, and I ran up to him, smashed his face against it several time, and picked him up by his throat, and threw him out the window.

This was a beachfront house, so the guy fell about 30ft before landing on the ground. I was waiting for the other kids to leave after making an example of him...and the dream faded.

January 06, 2011
A man is dying in my dream. he has been gruesomely wounded in the futuristic war where this dream takes place. To save him, the head surgeon, takes the body of a dead alien and begins to assemble the nerves of the alien's body to the nerves of the man's body. i turn away to avoid puking. i begin to talk to my troops about the next battle. the setting is a large room with no floor. instead, futuristic bridges (like from star wars) create walkways. Attachment 2013

i turn around to see the progress and the man begins to slightly move his buglike alien leg. he is amazed and so am i. A large bang come from the next room. my force and i go to investigate. at the doorway to the next room, there is a small force of soldiers in crimson and black. we defeat them but they cause many casualties. suddenly, their lieutenent enters the room. it is now only me and her. she begins to walk towards me. i am backing up into the surgery room again and suddenly remember the trap on the door. i set it and lightning crosses the doorway just like in Call of Duty: Black Ops. The dream pans out and the view darkens. in white letters, "Level Complete" is seen.

i wake up. i am very frusterated because i cant remember my dream. i am in the basement sleeping under the stairs just behind the blue recliner. David (brother) and Mitch (his friend) are nearby, groggy but awake. i try to remember more, but i can only recall soldiers in red capes. my throat hurts. for some reason there is a new years day party going on in my basement with many little kids around. i decide to play some Call of Duty missions. i play a snow mission. then suddenly, i become a character in the next mission, a stealth mission. i take out the nearest guy silently then snipe the next closest. i see a house in the distance. i run toward it, taking fire. i stop outside the courtyard and kill the guard standing watch. i enter the house and climb the winding, dilapidated staircase leading to a hole blown in the building and a sniper looking down. i am confused as to why he didnt shoot me because he is overlooking the courtyard. i continue up a ladder into the attic, setting claymores along the way. they obviously dont work because two men climb uo the ladder. i kill them and then 30 seconds later, another man climbs up. i kill him. a minute later a man dressed in all black (the others were in olive) climbs up. i try to knife him but i cant because i think i recognize him. he is bald. he kills me. i wake up.

Somewhere I think I recognize from another dream.. I am walking around Brooklyn (even though it looks nothing like any part of Brooklyn) going to my mom's apartment (???). I say I think I remember where I am, and to let me lead the rest of the way. So I find the place, and I go in to the lobby and there's people everywhere. I don't remember the code to get in the next door so I use the one from work, and it lets us in. She goes on ahead, and there are a group of guys behind me. As I'm going up the stairs, they ask if I want to smoke weed with them and they start coming towards me. I'm starting to bug out because I can't find the apartment. I'm going in and out of all these areas of the building, but the place I'm looking for just isn't there. The guys are still following me. I try to call her, but M answers and curses at me so I hang up.

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I am with some friends.. I think LE, AH, and KD.. We are in a little house (maybe somewhere in St. Augustine) and there is a couch we have that needs to go outside. KD was hitting on some guy earlier that lives across the street, and I see him walking around outside. He has glowing white spikey hair. The girls want to spray paint something on his fence, and I'm insisting it's a stupid idea and not going to be worth having to clean up and fix. While they are talking about that, I realize the couch still needs to go outside to the curb. Apparently I was jacked, because I was able to carry the couch with just one hand.

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This dream seems so nonsensical: At some graduation ceremony in an auditorium with very few people.. I recognize people I grew up with in NY and people I went to high school with in FL. The people graduating are wearing yellow gowns. I am called up to get a pink bow that I'm supposed to wear in my hair. When I get up, I lose my seat, so I sit in another area. I sit next to someone who knew my grandma D. There's a huge vat of cake going around that looks like it's made of mostly icing that people are taking, and I pass it up. "Mr. Jones" by the Counting Crows starts playing and I look up and see a girl I knew in FL, MB, cleaning windows and dancing to this song and she's gained like.. 200 pounds but I still think she's adorable. I see a neon sign for a bar, still from the seat I was in, and I say "You know where to find me if you need me!" and I leave. I feel like I disappointed the lady I was sitting next to.


*Wondering why I'm always going up stairs or an incline of some sort in my dreams, and why groups of young guys are "bad"....

Couldn't remeber anything from the sleep 2 days ago but this night I rememberd something about a guy in a lumerjack shirt and he had blonde hair short cutted. It's nothing much but still something

I'm at a revival meeting in a school auditorium, only it's a circular stadium. A man is preaching. I become aware that my attendance at high school classes consists of going to one room, reading a chapter in a textbook, and then going to another room and doing the same. (A frequent theme in my dreams.) The revival preacher is saying things with which I don't agree. A protest group enters through a door in the upper section of the quadrant to my left, and I can see them waving signs and chanting. I don't remember what they were chanting, but I know I agreed with them and started clapping. People in the auditorium don't like me because I clearly am on the side of the protesters. I'm supposed to be clapping and cheering at the preacher and being silent when the protestors enter. But that's not the way I honestly feel.

I speak out during the meeting and ask why they think it would be wrong to grow a new kidney for me from my own stem cells, especially after I've given one of mine to an ailing relative. They don't have an answer other than to tell me it's sinful and selfish for me to want one. Then when they're done ridiculing me to make an example of me, they start with a beautiful ballad-style song, sung by a lovely young-church-lady soprano with shorter, conservatively coiffed hair, about how important it is to be selfless and giving and to show the Lord's mercy, especially toward anyone who was different.

I get up and leave at that point, done with the hypocrisy. I go into the hall and realize I don't have my shoes. I see myself in a mirror as a beautiful older woman, but without shoes. I start to slide along the hallway and I suddenly have some kind of skate on. Then the floor becomes a kind of video game and there are images of electronic bricks getting in the way of my skates and trying to trip me up. Circumventing these bricks increases your score. I start skating expertly around the school - as if the hallways, which form a square, are a track - and one of the people watching says they'd love to see the blooper reel of when I started.

At this point the revival people, who are now ancient Roman rulers, come out and start a show. One of the exhibits is a man who has had a uterus implanted. He's four feet tall and they call him "Little Man". I open my big mouth and dare to ask why they'd told me a kidney implantation was impossible with me when they'd managed to implant an organ into this man that clearly didn't belong there. Then the uterus-man starts to skate too, as well as all the other spliced people, and they take over the track. I have to circumvent them while I'm skating.

Ok, today I'm having issues with dream recall, so here is what I can remember.

Dream 1- I was wearing skinny jeans

Dream 2- I was at the store with my sister and I bought some shiny silverish lip gloss.

Dream 3- I was hanging my drawings of the Skillet people on the wall, but suddenly they were dressed in the Beatles' Sgt.Pepper outfits. (I used to really like the Beatles, not so much any more )

This is all I remember. Maybe it's cause I took some allergy stuff before bed but I dunno.

This LD started off in a wooded area on a dirt-covered road. There were a few people involved but I can’t really remember the LD well. I realized I was dreaming and looked at my hands that were missing the tops of my middle and index fingers. I was on the side of the road and I was feeling the texture of a strange white looking rock. It was a large rock maybe 2 feet in diameter. I decided to do something that I have never done before, I licked the rock…It tasted salty and was relatively pleasing. I’m not sure where the transition took place but that’s all I remember of the woods dream. I transitioned into a room where there was some sort of meeting going on. There were maybe 6 people in the room most wearing suits. We were sitting around a table and discussing something I wasn’t interested in because I knew I was still dreaming. I began feeling all kinds of different things and was completely amazed at the level of texture I perceived. There wasn’t much strangeness going on and I began to question whether or not I was dreaming. I said to myself this must be real, I can feel and see everything perfectly. I looked down at my hands again and saw that my hands were still missing the middle and index fingers. I tried to change them to normal but couldn’t so my level of control was low. I sat down at the table and began rubbing my wifes upper thigh. She was wearing a short skirt. To my surprise no one seemed to notice at the table. I smirked and was delighted at the level of realness and lucidity in this dream. A noise woke me up just then.

I had set the alarm to ring at 6. I had planned to do a WILD, but I just fell asleep again. Still, I became lucid when I found myself in a room in my old school. My friend was there. I asked him if he knew he was a DC. I don't remember his reply, but I wanted him to join me through my dream. I told him to get on one of the two swings that were in the room. We got on each our swing and started swinging very fast. As we were swinging, we wouldn't collide with the roof or the floor. Then, the swings detached and we were launched through the wall to and into the sky above vast, green fields. Ahead was a perfect square of big city. My friend wasn't there anymore, I forgot about him or didn't really care as I remembered the task of the month. I landed with my feet on the ground while my head was still very far above the ground, so I had grown in mid air. There were little fireworks coming from the city. I stepped right into it and started crushing buildings with my feet. There were no sounds from the city. I felt that it was too easy and that I wanted to be smaller. I closed my eyes, and when I opened them, all the buildings were repaired and I was smaller. I could push buildings over with my hands, and I did. I started running buildings over as if I was playing rugby. I gradually grew again. The city never ended and there was little change to the buildings. When I was big enough to step on buildings again, giant rats (but small compared to be) started running through the streets. I ignored them. I tried to remember the other task, but I woke up from a "don't think about waking up".

09 Jan 2011

I find myself in some sort of an office building. There's a computer nearby, with a file on it that I apparently came to retrieve. It appears to be an audio file pertaining to the ego. As I'm trying to access the file, an attractive woman emerges from behind and asks what I'm doing. At this point I realise that I'm dreaming and am infused with a sense of confidence.

"I'm trying to de-limit myself," I tell her, symbolically freeing her long hair from its clasp. We then embrace and begin what I believe is termed 'dry humping'.

Moving on, I proceed down some stairs into a darkened room containing a single desk and chair. As I sit down, 'Agent Smith' descends, holding what appears to be a syringe. "Welcome to my office," I say, hoping to engage him in some kind of philosophical discussion about the nature of reality. However, he seems intent upon injecting me with something. A physical struggle ensues, during which a second Agent appears, also holding a syringe.

A few moments later the Agents back away and I realise that they 'got me'. Feeling no different, however, I briefly surmise that their actions were meaningless. Alas, I also woke-up at this point, sensing that I had, in fact, been 'neutralized'.

8-9/1/2010

Non-lucid

So the dream started in a random car and i asked to my mother:"Where are we going?"

my mother answered:" We are going to friends."

and when we arrived we just step out the car and ring the bell they opened up (i didnt knew them :\ only the kid sometimes i see him on school)

We where going to eat soup with lots of leeks :\ and noodles
(i at the noodles yesterday! < it wasnt noodle soup :p)

so i still know that i sat next to two girl in front of my mother and next to my mother was my father and next to my father was my sister and next to my sister was the mother from the kid and next to the 2 girls was the kid (thats alot :p)

we where sitting at a japanese table a low 1 with a pillow under us.

and when i eated my soup the dream ended. and i came in a new 1

it was new year and we were making a boat ( I see more and more such boats <- most times in Minecraft <- its a game)

atleast we were making a part of the boat it was almost finished.

After that i was going inside the boat and we heared some fireworks
( There was another guy wearing flip flops and a green shirt with weared letters on it he was a bit fat :p )

after we heared the fireworks we where going to the side of the boat and we lighted some of our fireworks.
after that i got the feeling that i needed to go to our car and the guy from the other dream was sitting in the CAR!

my dream was over




Hey i remembered 2 more!

Here we go:

So i waked up (in the dream) and walked downstairs to go eat and drink something i was going to brush my tooths and then i got to school while it was midnight!

end XD short but this 1 is shorter:


I was complaining cus it was the last day of vacation

09.01.2011

Skating fragment (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm with an asian girl in a city. I'm helping her do some stunts on her skate, which had videogame-like controls. She doesn't want to continue but I tell her that she's just quitting without really trying. Then we hold hands in a really weird way for the next stunt. After that I vaguely remember dreaming about some guy who killed people who told others about lucid dreaming to keep it a secret.

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09.01.2011

In which man pays for his mistakes (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I went to a place with my family where they had a virtual reality program that let you experience what it would be like if man had to pay for all of his mistakes (yeah, that's what the dream literally said) Don't rember mut about the actual experience but after it happened I started a new job as a bathroom cleaner. My aunt was also working as a bathroom cleaner and she told me everything about the job. After I'd learnt everything there is to know about cleaning bathroom a middle aged lady entered and refused to flush her toilet. She was also very rude so I started being a smartass and saying weird things about her shit.

The lady left angry but returned somewhat later as the head of the customer association and I had to go to the bosses office, where I was reprimanded.

After that I sort of wished that man really did have to pay for all of his mistakes and that's whenthe whole world really did go to shit (I think at some point of the dream I or my hole family had been given wishing powers), the apocalypse started to happen, buildings started coming downand some other things happened which I cannot remember. After that I vaguely remember getting into a gunfight with my family. Then we got into a car and had to drive to safety before the sun came up or we'd all burn to death on the way a car from the gunfight started shoting at us but we managed to avoid it.

We arrived at a weird factor where a man stole our powers and did a jedi mind trick on us to make us forget. After some more driving we arrived at a safe town where there was no technology. At this point my family momentarily became the simpsons family and Lisa complained avout the breakfast that was some kind of weird vegetable but Bart said it was good and homer agreed.

In the end it turned out that I'd never left the virtual reality program from the beginning and that It had all been part of the experience. On the way out my brother told me that the whole adventure had been just like a movie he saw where the same sort of thing happened to two astronauts(here the dream shifts and I'm watching the movie)

Two astronauts hadn't made the cut for the next space mission, which had only places for eighteen people, but they'd been good enough that they were selected for special training for the next one. They had to live together for a while and they were told that they needed to have as much trust around each other as they did with their loved ones. The male astronaut said goodbye to his loved one, a beautiful tall blonde woman and entered a train with the female one, who happened to be a girl I'd seen around high school and I thought that I'd never known she was an actress.

Notes: Longest dream yet!

I woke up at 4 in the morning and wandered around my bed until i got sleep dazed
tried to grasp to reality by thinking of a red dot but it kept going away through the sides of the blackness
out of the blue i started listening the lost woods (saria's song) and it lasted - or at least seamed to me - for hours
everything turned green and i was inside a wooden house exploring everything inside
kooking pots, windows, the material of the floor, the technology in general

I jumped around from scene to scene, quite erratically. There seemed to be no explicit connection between locations, but I had felt that I was running important errands, like I was gathering necessary items, or accomplishing simple and seemingly mundane tasks. Although the tasks themselves looked mundane, I felt a deeper importance behind them. For a while I jumped between errands, none of them really stuck out in my mind. That was until I stood at the counter at some type of retail warehouse, and payed for some items as I spoke forgotten words to the female cashier. As I placed my items into my backpack, I noticed that my short red bong sat on the counter top a few feet away from the cash machine. I'm pretty sure the cashier noticed as I quickly rushed to hide the bong from sight, and placed it into the backpack before leaving the store. I felt worried that I could somehow be arrested or in trouble, just for having a bong in plain view.

I would be writing it here.

Man, I am pissed off. I had such a good experience with that first WILD I attempted, felt like I got pretty far and was excited to try again. But these last nights I am getting nothing.. I know I am dreaming but I have little to no recall. I wake up just remembering the barest of fragments, not even enough to write two sentences with. When I attempt WBTB, I fall asleep every time

It's like that one episode was this wonderful shining oasis in a desert, and now I'm dying of thirst again. I know I must be patient, but it's SO not one of my virtues!

Me thinks I needs meh a new technique... or... something.

On a side note, lower doses of B6 (50mg) seem to be working better. No night terror last night. Woot!