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I wrote down notes for this a few days ago, but I never fleshed them out into narrative form. It would take a lot of work to do that now, and I'd probably forget some details, so I'm just going to post the notes:

[INDENT][RIGHT][SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"]09.01.2011[/COLOR][/SIZE][/RIGHT]
[SIZE="3"][COLOR="Black"]1/9/11 - 2[/COLOR][/SIZE] [SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"](Non-lucid)[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"]NON-DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#1E90FF"]DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#DC143C"]LUCID[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[COLOR="#808080"][/COLOR][COLOR="#1E90FF"]

1) at desk on computer talking to some guy

2) Mr C's place looking for LD stuff see people I know look for Rockies jersey? get food put it down can't find it later write note about my dad Mr. S yells at me I wait for NBA and BS to go to school but it's 7:55 and they don't I'm afraid of being late can't find my school stuff but run out anyways hitchhike get a car outside of grocery store another car drives along and helps the driver is a scuba diver I tell her that's cool I get to school on time see genitals on the ground in a puddle of fluid must've been cut off disgusting i go into main office ask for stuff there are funny secretaries there kind of like BF and I I'm afraid to in public I'll get laughed at I go on computer to input information but it asks if I'm from Hull[/COLOR][/INDENT]

I wrote down notes for this a few days ago, but I never fleshed them out into narrative form. It would take a lot of work to do that now, and I'd probably forget some details, so I'm just going to post the notes:

[INDENT][RIGHT][SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"]08.01.2011[/COLOR][/SIZE][/RIGHT]
[SIZE="3"][COLOR="Black"]1/8/11 - 10[/COLOR][/SIZE] [SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"](Non-lucid)[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"]NON-DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#1E90FF"]DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#DC143C"]LUCID[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[COLOR="#808080"][/COLOR][COLOR="#1E90FF"]

1) middle island trolley ask fastest transportation suburban town synagogue

2) video game AG KD NT JD waterfall BG pokemon

3) returning cross a bridge NL

4) continuation of 3?? see NS ask him to join we walk around I get kicked off a ride

5) bus goes around ride we're mad it won't stop

6) store dad offers me War of the Worlds?

7) at ride with HC etc. someone of the 6 has to sit out

8) in a video game destoying a city at night shooting lights get up high to spike think about entering a shop

9) Enterprise is to Detroit as Providence is to Boston, go onto ship criminal there on bus we're driving home where's my FT bobblehead FT's there had AIDs twice

10) with HC AE, H brings me back/reverses time its funny I was making pizza before making pizza now then I'm making spaghetti but was I evil before I make H the best pizza[/COLOR][/INDENT]

★★★☆☆

01/09/11

I just found a Star Wars game for my phone. I decide to try it out, so I'm tilting it left and right, figuring out the controls. Spacebar is jump.

I'm in the game. My surroundings are a dank green, covered in vines and rot. This was a school once. I try out the jump command, disappointed when I realize I have only first-level force jump. It doesn't matter; I'll be able to get around just fine.

Obi-Wan's shade appears beside me to explain my mission. This is strange, because I'm pretty sure I'm a past version of him. The force ghost fizzles out and disappears, exploding into four green blobs of goo. They reform and immediately begin to scuttle about, taking shape as Gravelings, mischievous reptilian creatures that arrange the accidental deaths of the people around them.

I strike with my single lightsaber, v-stepping in and twisting away after I cut through the torso of one of the gravelings. The creature goes still in shock, before it disintegrates in a flash of red sparks. With a sweep of my lightsaber, the others are scuttling away. I finish them off with force lightening.

Later, alone in an empty room, I suddenly realize that I'm dreaming. It feels like waking up. I try to remember my goals, but I come up blank. Fine - I'll run. I love to run in dreams. I take a running start and leap from a four-foot ledge.

In one reality, I can feel myself flying.
I drift away, into the blue, blue sky, heedless of the ceiling that used to be there. Simultaneously I'm falling, landing. I can feel the remnants of the other reality until all four of my limbs slowly reach the floor. I lay my forehead onto the cold cement and just breathe.

I see Zoe, walking away into a crowd of faceless people. I call out to her, chase after her. Her blonde hair swishes as she half turns, keeps walking.

We're sitting side by side, looking at the massive crowd milling about through the mall. She's counting the cash in a till.

"There's something you want to tell me," she says, flipping through a pile of five dollar bills.

"Yep."

She scowls, but doesn't turn to look at me. "Well?" she asks, "What is it?"

"You could say," I smile faintly, "That I have slightly more than platonic feelings for you."

Her hands go still. "Oh."

"But that doesn't matter," I say, leaning back.

"And why is that?"

"Because," I say, and I stretch my hands out in front of my face, "None of this is real."

And the dream dissolves into static.

Running. Scare Factor: 3.

A man plays an Old West guitar… or “gee-tar.” He plays alongside a small band in a typical run-of-the-mill saloon. Like everyone else in the building, they chew and wear chaps and cowboy hats. Dust covers everything. I am an outsider, (from the town, and literally outside of the saloon) riding my horse through this future ghost town. My horse suddenly collapses and I spill into the middle of the road. My horse is dead. I look around the road and town’s buildings and see countless other horses have died.

I look at my horse and watch it go through the entire decaying process in a matter of seconds. My horse is now just a skeleton. All of the other dead horses are also skeletons. I look on at all the dead horses, still in shock, holding the reigns of my skeleton horse… and tie it up to a post. I enter the saloon, the band still plays and I order me a drink to clear my head. A large cowpie jerk of a man starts shit with me and antagonizes me because I ain't from around here. Chaos ensues.

A large, full-scale old-fashioned wild west bar fight breaks out of epic proportions. All of the classic Western moves are there: man falling off balcony, the Madame’s girls screaming, some guys too drunk to fight; and on top of that adding a healthy dose of classic dream power: telekinesis. All the while the band never stops playing. Finally, at the climax of the fight, the song ends and I am left the last man standing. Exhausted, I am clobbered over the head by the singer/songwriter by his gee-tar, and he is deemed REAL last man standing.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! I slept through the night! Although I woke up around ten times, I did manage to get some hours of sleep. Disturbingly tired still, but my anxiety is gone. I had a couple of random fragments.

21.00: Sleep

04.50: Fragments
*I'm talking to my friend Eric about the most amazing flavoured herring we've ever had. "It's mustard herring..." I say and he agrees halfway. "No, no that's not it..." I say. "I know! It's chanterelle herring!" I remember it being amazing. We're about to go on a herring tasting, and Monica wants to join us. "But, you don't even like strange foods" I tell her. She realises that's true and takes it back. Felix gets on Facebook and clicks on a video on one of our old friends. She's wearing strange clothes and is dancing on a club. Her breasts are enormous. I get a bit embarrassed even though I can't see much.

*I'm in the "Snow White and the seven dwarves" story. Everything is a cartoon and the colours gets mixed up and it shifts from high speed to slow motion. Very weird.

*Me and my friend G are smoking these round, dried flower buds, wrapped in white paper into small balls. I light it and suck on the tiny piece of paper sticking out. "How did someone even come up with this?" I ask. The smoke stings my throat.

04.50: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 7 hours

Supplements before bed: 2 x Omega-3

That's it! I haven't taken B6 in quite a while, and I'm thinking of trying it out tomorrow or something.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

i AM IN THE ASTRAL.

I AM IN SP.

Someone or something is fucking with me. How can i be paralyzed?

I make my face grotesque, like a devil mask. i feel my face changing shape in the physical.

i awake to sleep apnea, and see a little white thing flutter across the floor.

fucker

I can hardly remember my dreams last night because I went to bed so late. But I do remember a bit from this morning.

I was serving cups of coffee, talking to my ex-boss about when I worked at Sonic. I remember some negativity coming from some people I knew.
Not sure if this is part of the same dream, but this guy and girl were trying to kill me...

Dream recall is just not working right now.

January 12, '11,
Sometimes I remember dreams that I don't even know how to describe.
Like last night, it started out with me playing with a female dog with puppets on my hands. A male dog showed up and was trying to mate with the female dog. I thought that I was probably suppose to keep them from mating, but I didn't do anything about it. The owner of the girl dog appeared and I was afraid he would be mad. But the girl dog was wearing something around her waist to keep her from getting pregnant.

He stuck his finger into a hole in the dog's belly, and pulled out some of her intestines. They were really long and thin. And then this is when the dream gets hard to describe.
I was helping with operating on the dog, but it didn't look anything like a dog anymore. It was like a two-dimensional representation of part of the dog's intestines, laid out on the ground, big enough for us to stand inside. We were trying to move a string/chain that was somehow suppose to go inside the intestines, but was partially hanging out. Sort of. Even that isn't a very accurate description of what was going on. I was standing in the way and the string/chain was caught behind my legs.

Then I had a ball of some sort, like a small basket ball, and I had to find an empty place to put it with all the other basketballs on the ground, in a large field. There were also people sitting in chair and tiny frozen animals in the grass that I had to be careful not to step on and break. This was all still part of the operation.

I grabbed onto someone's leg and slid down a hill, still holding the ball and trying not to touch the ground.

And that's all I remember. What the heck was all that?

Non-lucid Partially lucid

January 11, 2011: I went upstairs in my Grandparents' house (the non-living ones). There was a ghost up there that started talking to me.

I don't remember everything that happened while I was up there. I got increasingly creeped out and went a little crazy.

I chased a noisy vacuum cleaner around, trying to turn it off. The noise was really bothering me.
Then I somehow ended up back home. It was dark in my room. There was a glowing blue light coming from a digital clock or something. I was still scared of there being ghosts.

I said "Let's do something else until we forget about it and it goes away. Because this is a dream and that's how it works."

But I did not become fully lucid. The dream continued for a few minutes longer and then I woke up. So that was kind of disappointing.

I didn't get enough sleep to have any dreams. :(

[INDENT][RIGHT][SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"]06.01.2011[/COLOR][/SIZE][/RIGHT]
[SIZE="3"][COLOR="Black"]1/6/11 - 5[/COLOR][/SIZE] [SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"](Non-lucid)[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"]NON-DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#1E90FF"]DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#DC143C"]LUCID[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[COLOR="#808080"][/COLOR][COLOR="#1E90FF"]1) I'm posting on DV that I can only recall 1-2 dreams per night. Everyone is sympathetic and understanding.

2) I'm late for school! The GPS in my car isn't working. I put "[last two letters of my street's name]" at the end of "[the beginning of my street's name]" in the row of cars stopped at a red light, hoping that it will make my street. However, I'm too late and frantically drive around looking for a way to get to school.

3) I'm playing a video game. I look into the distance and see a beautiful landscape: a shimmering lake before a majestic mountain encompassed in fog. The fog only added to the tranquil environment. I was alone and perfectly comfortable. Everything was perfect.

I want to lucid dream. I stare ahead and don't move my body, hoping that I'll be able to lucid dream and fly across the lake. Unfortunately I fail, being unable to lucid dream.

I'm somehow on the other mountain. I walk around and the landscape appears to be made of Minecraft blocks.

4) I'm in a rather dim room. I'm playing a game with BS, Darth Maul, OG, and OC. It's a water gun? fight, but it's officially regulated. I think you go to this place and pay them to have parties or something.

5) I'm with SS, running around a house/cabin? [/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"]This was a really long dream and a lot happened, but I can't remember the rest.[/COLOR][/INDENT]

[INDENT][RIGHT][SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"]05.01.2011[/COLOR][/SIZE][/RIGHT]
[SIZE="3"][COLOR="Black"]1/5/11 - 5[/COLOR][/SIZE] [SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"](Non-lucid)[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[SIZE="1"][COLOR="#808080"]NON-DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#1E90FF"]DREAM[/COLOR] [COLOR="#DC143C"]LUCID[/COLOR][/SIZE]

[COLOR="#808080"][/COLOR][COLOR="#1E90FF"]1) There's a lacrosse stick in my trash bin. I want to give it to someone as a Christmas gift, but someone takes it. I watch them take it but don't chase after them. I don't want anyone to know I'm giving it to them so I'll just let the person take out my trash. Running after him would let everyone know.

2) continuation of 1??? I'm walking along the wall of a high-rise. I can see that I'm many stories above the ground and am in some kind of office building. I deliver?? bags of clothing to Mrs. M. NBA and I go to the doorway, which is an entrance to the game where you skate down a long slope to cut pizzas. The entire slope is lined with pizzas and the goal is to slice as much as possible. We skate down, turning and curving to cut the pizzas as much as we can in one trip down.

We get to the bottom and look into the door to the kitchen. Our boss comes out and gives us our next task??? He goes back inside and we can see a girl sweeping the alley we just came down. She has long dark hair and is singing as she works.

NBA? and I fly to a building a few blocks down and we walk down a hallway? DM? JT? Go go up a ladder and embark on some sort of quest.

At the end, we're all in the parking lot of a concenience store and it's time to go to college. One kid says he's going to Cornell and the other one is going to the University of Nevada. We walk down a long farm road and see a New Hampshire? license plate. We talk about "B Fad Pump Control," which is a wiki I actually like. The movie ends and the title appears on the screen: Eni & Enoi.

3) I walk into Toronto with my parents. It looks just like Chicago - the streets are similar and the buildings rise high. I think Giordano's is just a block away and I mention this to my parents.

4) continuation of 3?? I'm in a basement somewhere (Mexico???????) with KD, NT, and JD. They're all lying in a large bed, and I go and lie down too. One of them asks to swap places with me, which we do.

We go above ground and have to cross the street. There's a Kentucky Fried Chicken???? [/COLOR][COLOR="#808080"](I think we might be in the same city as the one in 3.)[/COLOR][COLOR="#1E90FF"]

5) We're in a van driving by the ocean. A huge wave comes ashore and spreads across the land, which is pretty cool. It's only a few inches of water that goes under our van.[/COLOR][/INDENT]

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING PRECOG SHARED

00:40

Loafs for the poor
I’m at the office where my mom used to work. It was a strange building with office rooms along two parallel corridors and I’m going back and forth on these corridors, looking for something, I think the kitchen, because I’m hungry. I encounter Beta, a lady from my childhood, but I try not to be noticed by her. I go after her, quietly and she eventually leads me to a lobby where a huge pool with bread and cookies is set to be delivered to hungry people. Well, I’m hungry so I think it’s ok to take a loaf of bread, which I do, but then some young guy also decides to do the same and he is picky, sorting the whole grain bread, sliced bread and so on, to chose one he likes. I think maybe I could also choose a nicer bread, but in the end I feel bad, because I'm not supposed to take anything at all.

Giant parasite wasps
Then I meet my friend Top Gun who offers a ride somewhere. I accept and he drives me while we talk. I find out he is now father of a baby girl, but when I ask about her mother, he says they aren’t together. He still has a crush on me and is not in love with her. We’re going uphill and we cross a funny bridge made of lava, over a river. I fasten my seatbelt when I see we’re entering a strange and rough terrain. On top of the hill, on the other side of the bridge, we then go through a stone paved road with a steeply sloping downwards. The environment here is completely different, moist and warm, and I spot exotic animals all over, like giant orange butterflies and strange birds. In common they all seem to have one thing: they all have giant wasp-like insects parasitizing them. The poor butterflies have to carry around a bug which is their own size. Unfortunately one of these wasps decides to parasitize me to. It flies into my face and nails itself to my nose, almost like a piercing. It hurts and freaks me out. I wake up.

3:00

Magic battle I
Can’t recall the beginning but I’m inside some castle which is under attack and I’m someone important, like a princess, because everybody is protecting me as I am the main target of some evil forces who breached the castle. I am being escorted by maids and body-guarded by some knights. When going down some hallway to a safer place, we’re attacked by some warrior mage holding in his hand a narwhal’s horn as a spear. He pierces through a knight that puts himself in front of me to save me. Me and a maid are cornered and trapped between the dying knight and this attacker, and he is trying to push the horned spear deeper through the knight, trying to pierce me to. He almost gets is way, but this brave knight is using his last bit of energy to pull him away from me so I can escape. I manage to escape that corner and I fight the guy and steal his narwhal spear. I use it to kill him. It is so sharp that it cuts through flesh as if it is butter. The guy dies but with an evil grin on his face, as if he found some delight in the way I surprised him and killed him.
The maids and knights are again escorting me down this hallway when we sense a dark energy above our heads and we run before it attacks us. They then push me up some spiral stone staircase that goes up to some more private chambers, where I should be more protected, but as soon as I arrive up there, I find an Hawaiian witch (don’t ask me, I just knew she was Hawaiian) who tries to kill me with a curse. Luckily I react pretty fast and I throw back the curse at her. After all, I don’t seem toned that much protection, I can protect myself very well. The witch runs from the reversed spell and flies out of the window on a nearby balcony. She is a bit disoriented, so she falls down on the ground below the balcony. I run to the edge of the balcony and I attack her, pointing my hands at her and using some magical powers to hold her down and inflict excruciating pain on her. I’m pulling her body parts in all directions (that must hurt) but without ever really breaking it apart, so she doesn’t really die, ‘cause we must interrogate her. When she is finally under control, I leave her to the knights.
I turn back to see my maids all looking at her. They seem scared with my powers and I feel maybe I’m not such a good soul, if I can inflict so much pain and suffering to someone. But they all smile timidly, trying to show me it’s ok, because it was self-defense and they are the bad guys, not us. I guess...

5:30

Magic battle II
I’m walking up some village, holding two tiny bottles with some potions on my hands. I pass by some old guys sitting on some church stairs and they seem interested in the bottles, so I hide them in a pocket and decide to fly back home and avoid exposing myself longer to the outside dangers. I fly high so I spot my home – it’s a fortress by the sea. When I arrive there I see strange pot-like structures floating in the waters around it. I grab one or two and they don’t seem threatening, instead they look like beautiful works of art, some raffia pots with contemporary shapes. I take them to my maids and they love it, they want to put some plants inside it. Then we keep taking strange objects from the water, like a never ending knitted thread that reminds me of Joana Vasconcelos’work of art.
Then I have a gap in my recall, but soon after we’re under attack again. We run to inside the castle and we try to lock the gates. Some warlock with an army has come to try to kill me again. Man, they really don’t like me for some reason!
The gates are barely holding and some brave knight is holding it shut with his own arm strength. I try to help him but he tells me to go away and save myself. But the warlock outside sends a shot of electricity through the gates and the knight is being electrocuted in front of my eyes. He holds the gate for as long as he can, but he eventually falls. I then see this warlock with the army breaking in and about to start killing any person they find on their way. I think I must stop it and I try to shoot fireballs from my hands. I then remember I just read and discussed on DV about this during the day – how rationalizing too much blocks it from happening successfully. Of course, by now, I’m lucid. I then concentrate, but not in the actual design of the fireballs, but on the gut feeling of wanting to shoot them and I form the most amazing fire blows I’ve ever been able to shoot. I feel their warmth and their power and I see the army and the warlock burning into flames. It’s a resounding success.
Free from the immediate danger, we all go up the ramp behind the gates that lead to the main entrance of the fortress on highest ground. I fly to pass all the maids and knights. We’re then looking over the castle walls to see if there’s any other imminent attack but we see no one, so people celebrate.
I think my work is done here and I should try to do the ToTY while I’m lucid. But in the hurry I forgot to make it very clear in my mind. I simply jumped from the castle walls to the ground below, wishing to dive in the ground and exit on the “other side”. But when I was going through the “wormhole” I realised I hadn’t yet formulated my destination. I tried to think of a yellow brick road and Dorothy’s red shoes but it was too late.

Pissed off for being (falsely) awaken
I feel myself waking up and I try hard to stay in sleep. I hear someone knocking the door and my BF getting up to open it. It’s really early morning and I wonder who it is. It’s my mom, aunt Lisa and my dad. What do they want? My BF left the door open, so the cat comes inside as he always does in the morning and tries to wake me up. I still fight to stay asleep and go back to LDs. But they are talking loud in the corridor and my mom and Lisa eventually come inside and sit on the bed, trying to wake me up. I feel pissed. I give up and open my eyes. They are fired up with conversations but I feel grumpy. My aunt decides to leave again to speak to my father and I stay with mom. I tell her please not to do that again, because she knows how my sleep is sacred and I tell her I was just having LDs and they interrupted it. She says she is sorry, that she didn’t remember that but she knew how important it was for me, so she would be more careful next time. OK. Now I’m getting up to dress myself and I listen my father and Lisa outside the room talking. He is happy to explain her his theories about killing ants and eliminate this plague from her home – he has not been successful convincing me, ‘cause I don’t want to exterminate the ants in my home...
Then I really wake up and I am truly surprised that before I was still dreaming.

8:00

I remember my mother telling me to go outside and play in the rain. I argued that I'd look silly and if I saw someone I knew I'd be embarrassed.. Anyways.. I ended up frolicking in the front yard. Until Paige, Kali, and Lance walked by.. I froze until they were out of sight. There was about half a foot deep pool of water covering the entire surface. And the rain was soothingly warm? It wasn't very well lit either.. At the time I was sort of obsessed with Paige..

-Kali
-Paige
-Lance
-Rain
-Dark

Jan. 11th-12th*
There was a school in my dream and a flag pole...can't remember much else about the dream at all...I've been staying at my mother in laws the past two nights due to snow storms and sleeping in a strange bed. That could be the reason for the lack of dream recall