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I am walking up the stairs form my parent’s basement. I pass by my mother and some of her girl friends. Her friend, that knows I’ve been to rehab, stops to give me a big hug. When she pulls away she looks at me judgmentally and says in french “so you didn’t go after all?” I am surprised with her comment because I just came back from my program. I respond “I did go, I just got back.” She says “no you didn’t. You smell like you’ve been using.” I get very upset and start to yell in english now. I say “Who the hell do you think you are? You have no f-ing right to come in here and accuse me.” I go on but I can’t recall what I say.

I wake up.

I would never speak like that to my family or their friends. I have not used in two months. I think this dream was brought on by fear. I had a fear of relapse coming out of rehab even though I did not want to use anymore and didn’t feel any physical compulsion to it anymore.

Throughout this dream, I am flipping back between two worlds.

This World

I am watching a horrible made-for-tv movie propaganda flick about flight 93, (the one the US shot down on 9/11. My friend's uncle died in that plane.) Instead, they call it Flight 2. The title is: [I]Whatever happened to Flight 2?[/I] They show three good looking actors standing with contrived serious facial expressions with their arms crossed staring into the camera on the commercial for the show.

When I flip back to This World, I keep getting sucked into the beginning of the movie. There is a car sitting on railroad tracks. [I]This has nothing to do with what really happened![/I]

FLIP

Other World

I am suddenly on another version of Earth. It looks exactly the same, but the sentience has evolved differently.

[IMG]http://www.williamstout.com/wizards.jpg[/IMG]

I am riding on a two-legged steed like this creature from the old movie Wizards with some others. We discover a small broken artifact on the ground. It looks like a concrete container. Our enemies ride up to us. They refer to the artifact as a child. They have crossed a small stream which marks the border of their land and our land. They are very violent and our people are peaceful.

"Hey, you bunch of weak herbivores! Get your child out of here. Just because we have a temporary peace does not mean your children can come close to our border. Tell it to leave, or get it out of here before we destroy it, and eat it."

I think of our beautiful peaceful village in the trees, and these evil traitors to our race on the plains, riding around, hunting down small creatures, eating bigger and bigger ones until they started eating their own kin.

"You think we're weak? You think we don't have the same savage animalistic killer genes you have? You think it's been bred out motherfucker? We have it, but we choose not to engage our savage side."

I teleport from off my steed to right in front of the man that was talking. I slam my first into his solar plexus, penetrating his body cavity, then rake claws down his abdomen, spilling his guts. I uppercut him with a spike on my fist, puncturing his head from under his chin to his brain. I grab his guts, and tear into his flesh with my teeth.

[B]"It's OPEN WAR, MOTHERFUCKERS!"[/B]

I am at an indoor pool, semi lucid because I've never seen this pool before, I swim for awhile, then get out to dry off.

I spot Raven Knight in the pool, and call out to her. I go over and sit with my feet in the water at the edge of the pool, and ask her something about dreaming. unfortunately, I don't remember what it was, nor her response.

non dream - dream - lucid - semi-lucid - false-awakening

Last night I decided I should give my effords a break, because the night before I was unable to sleep (not a dream, I can assure you that wasn't a dream) and slept only 2 houres in the end, and because I had a very big dry spell and thought I was just trying too hard. But guess what happened? The night I decided to stop trying for a while I actually had a lucid! so here it is:

I am at school, everything seems normal so far, but I decide to do a reality check, I try the nose-pinch RC and it turns out I'm dreaming! I am surprised, but don't get overexcited like the last time. I decide to try the finger through hand RC, just to see what it looks like. My finger bends and it hurts like hell, I am surprised that it hurts so much, even though I know I am dreaming. Than I get an idea, even though I know my DCs aren't real, I want to scare them, and what better way to scare a bunch of DCs than comitting dream-suicide (also I wondered what it felt like to die in a dream...)? So I decide to jump from the staircase, because it's higher in my dream than in reality. Before I jump I do a final RC, I breath a few times through a pinched nose and try the finger through hand RC again, with the same result as before. I also stare at my hands to see what they look like and to stay stable. I jump, and hit the ground, it doesn't hurt but it feels really strange and then everything went black and blurry and I wake up. I'm now sitting on the long bench we eat on at school sometimes, and I am sittig next to two guys from my class.I still have a little bit of an idea what is going on, and do some weird dream-control stuff. Than one of the boys asks me to do something, and I say I can't, because the DC of the guy I was going to do it to was too weak/blurry. Then my English techer walks in, and someone (might have been me) asks him what his patronus looks like (:-|) and he says red and like a jellyfish or something simular to a jellyfish. I think this is a weird situation and realise that I get FULLY lucid.I think of what I could do next and forget to stabelise myself. I wake up with some sort of a weird euforic awesome feeling, and whisper 'Wow, I just had a lucid...'. Then I am considering writing it down. I first decide not to do it, because I was taking a break. But I then realise it's a shame to forget this expirience and write it down.

Dream Signs: 6 fingers, slight change of enviroment, patronus-weirdness

Dream Lucid Me DC

Dream 1
I´m sitting on top of an very, very tall tower located in the middle of jungle. The roof is really narrow and if I move even a little bit, I will probably fall to my death. I was left there to throw something at someone to slow them down, but I was told there´s only one person who has actually managed to do this. There´s a door under me, but it´s, well, under me and somehow thinking about the 200 metre vertical fall which will occur if I move a single inch just doesn´t make me want to try to open it. (And that, kids, is called irony.) I´m really scared. (For obvious reasons.) Then I start to became more optimistic. (Hey, at least it´s not raining...) They didn´t left me here to die. They´re probably coming back to get me at some point. Right? Then I start to think about how did I get here. Can´t remember coming out of bed, brushing my teeth and getting thrown on some random tower in the middle of nowhere. This must be a dream. The dream starts to fade away. Damn.

Dream 2
I either had an FA or then the dream just changed. I do the nose check and it works. I´m in my house. My mom is doing something on the kitchen table and my sister is playing with the computer. Nothing unusual. I talk with them for a while. Later there´s some woman I don´t know, saying she should probably leave. I look outside. It´s so dark, someone must´ve painted our windows black. I think of going out and start to find a weapon to hit things with. Can´t find or summon one. Plus the dream starts to fade again. I wake up.

I remembered two dreams last night.

1. I went shopping with my family at a grocery store called Superstore. Only in my dream it had more than one floor. We went up to the next floor and it was a clothes store. I tried on a lot of dresses.

2. In the second dream, I lost two more of my baby teeth. I thought that was strange since I have only lost 9 baby teeth and I'm 18 years old.

Non-Dream Non-Lucid Lucid Hypnagogia

I had a false awakening, and I can usually realise when it's a FA or when I've actually woken up, but I did an RC just to make sure. There was a list of goals written in red writing on the side of my bedside table, although I can't remember any of them. Everything was still very vague, so I tried to stabalise. For some reason I closed my eyes to take in all the sounds and feelings, but the vision started to fade.

I could feel both part of my real body, but knew I was still asleep, but was on the verge of waking up. I tried to remember what I was doing and imagine it again, but it wouldn't work. I decided to try and induce a False awakening, and sent a sort of shock through my body as a jump start.

I woke up in my bed again, and straight away knew it was a FA, since that's what I had intended, but I knew it was a different dream. As I got up and started walking to the door, a little text box appeared in front of me (Sort of like how it appears in the film Sex Drive) and telling me that in order to increase vividness I had to teleport into a different body (Not transform, actually jump to a different "dream plane", if you will). The person's name was something like "Michelle Michaelango Messerdo", so I accepted. I just sort of seemed to appear in their body, didn't feel much of a teleportation. It didn't work however, and it faded away.

I find myself in the same state, and wonder if I can induce another FA.

I wake up again, and do an RC check. It's similiar to the previous ones except now there is a man standing in my room. It's still very vague and he says something like "It's because you're afraid, you need to visualise". For some reason, I had my eyes closed. I open them, and everything is fantastically vivid. I look outside the window. It isn't the normal view from my window, but I think I've seen it before. There is a lush green field across the road, and I can even see the rough terrain of the road. But for some reason I continue to think about my real body, and go to the hypnagogic state again.

However, this time I hear a noise around the house (It's about 7:30am at this point) so I don't bother inducing another FA, and I wake up.

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was in a forest, possibly a snowy forest. There was an animal like a wolf that would eat humans. I may have seen it.

I was then at the house or apartment of an old friend of mine. My friend had me go into some bedroom. The bedroom was dark. There were clothes all over the floor. A mattress lay in the middle of the room. The mattress was also covered with clothes.

My friend kept insisting that I try on some of the women's clothes he had. But I felt like he was just trying to put me into a position where he could do something bad to me. I also felt like he wanted to do something bad to my family as well.

I was then watching some show on a stage. The show had an old variety-show feel, but it was somehow related to an anime. There were some really hot girls dancing around on stage. They were dressed in jeans and tight shirts, just casual clothes, but they had something to do with the anime, too.

At some point I came to understand that the plot line had something to do with lesbianism. This really turned me on. The show was now controllable, as if I were watching it on YouTube. I did all kinds of frantic forwarding and rewinding, trying to get to the point where this assumed hot lesbian scene had occurred.

But suddenly, the screen went blank. I realized I had been watching this on my computer the whole time. My computer's screen was black, with only a cursor blinking in the upper left corner. I started to smell a plasticky, burning smell. I could tell it was coming from my computer's disk drive.

I knew I had burnt out my computer. I was pretty sure I couldn't get a new one for a while. I wondered what the heck I was going to do.

~ In a house that looks like Dean's house in West A, a middle aged couple have 10 children, 5 girls 5 boys, on the landing I look into one bedroom, bunk beds line the walls in a blue room, there are kids wandering about looking at me like I am out of place, I walk into the kitchen, smells like breakfast, the parents are trying to get all 12 meals made, I then go into the bathroom and sit on the edge of the bathtub just to think, I see 2 women sitting in front of me, one with a camera, I look down and I am naked I cover my breasts, it seems tv showy, woman with camera (long blondy brown curly hair wearing glasses) asks 'would you strip off naked and have sex on camera?' I think about my body and how self conscious I am then think f**k it and say yes and walk across the room naked.

~ Kind of in West A, I get on a bus, Rebecca D is on it and Coralena H (not seen them or 6 years or spoke, were never close) the buss is full of girls who I am not sure like me, I sit near the back, feeling awkward, I walk to the front of the distorted bus, but on my way a blue peacock starts attacking and biting me, I'm shocked at the assault but not that there is one on the bus, it's a male peacock and it's feathers are blue and shimmery green, it is amazing to look at inbetween trying to subdue the big bird. I press the stop button on the bus and bird disappears I look out the window and there is a beautiful deep blue sky nearly night time, I see a waterfall but on top of the waterfall next to a bush I see a dead womans body, bloody (I blame watching seasons of Medium for this) I realise this is what the bird wanted to show me.. the bus driver calls the police, they are swarming the bus taking details from the other girls, and they are proud of me for spotting it.

~ In a weird dark room and a PC is on, there is a white cupboard under the computer near the right side, I go in trying to find some goodies, I see a white tub with SD10-K written on, inside are medium sized white pellets perhaps 300 of them, I put one in my mouth crunch it slightly then realise it could be anything, I go on computer onto google and lysergic acid pops up, I think wow this is awesome, I then have 2 more tablets and the dream ends.

~ (again I blame Medium tv show for this one) A woman befriends people drugs them and then offers to take them home to safety conving them they've had too much to drink, she then kills and robs them, I find out she is going to target me and take my dads store of gold. I pretend to react from what she gives me in the club, and then act drugged leaning on her the way home, in house I collapse between two big red chairs, though open my eyes slightly to watch her, when she turns her back I jump on her but she is strong, I run out of the house into the back garden screaming trying to wake up the neighbours, she tackles me so I put my fingers in her eyes to cause damage, she then does it to me hurts me, I hear my dad shouting she gets off me quickly and tells him she brought me home concerned and that I attacked her, she is playing innocent, he believes her and offers her the spare room, I am outraged and argue with him.

~ I'm then in Mr Rossi's art class in my old sec school, and pick up someones art sheet, it shows different peoples eyes drawn and coloured in paint, on each eye there are 3 outer rings of colour, they aren't really neat as I look closer, each colour had a cool name, ingredient of ones eye colour, think one was called calladium? weird wonderful names for each colour.

~ I'm out shopping in a mall with my parents, I see Martyn H (ex bf) he looks slightly different but smiley, my mam speaks to him, I pretend I haven't seen him, with it being awkward I then think fk it and we give each other a huge cuddle our groins touching, it's nice, he then whispers to me 'remember when we had sex in the chair watching that dvd?' I then see the scene he is on about and smile (though in reality that never happened).

I'll use this post to summarize my efforts and achievements.
I am trying lucid dreaming since october, up till now I had 6 lucid dreams. 5 of them weren't really special, although I achieved some tasks in them.
In January I had a very long lucid dream, in where I attempted to speak with my unconscious. It was a partial success, and now I am trying harder and harder to get lucid more often. That is the reason why I am writing this dream journal from now on.
Thanks to Hyu and WakingNomad, their awesome dreamlife made me very envious...

February 8, 2011
Lucid Dream 177: Dark Streets
Series: Meiseki na Yume, Episode 1
around 10:00am
DILD

Category - Exploration


I was in a room planning strategy with several people from the anime, Blood+. We were discussing ways to kill Diva (a queen chiropteran from the anime). Saya was in the room with us, as well as Haji, David, Kai, and Lewis. Suddenly, the door burst open and James "Ironsides" walked in. He stated that he wasn't there for blood, but there to give a warning. He said, "If you pursue Diva, you will all die. However, if you turn Saya over now...your names will be forgotten." I laughed and began making fun of James. I was trying to provoke the evil within him. He also wanted to acquire a large dresser that was in the room with us. It was a vanishing cabinet (like the ones from Harry Potter). He walked up and knocked on it to see if it was hollow. I laughed again and started talking shit. His eyes glowed red with fury, and he stormed out claiming we made a fatal decision. We got back to strategy talks. I was getting bored so I started molding balloons. I was slowly forming faces out of the balloon with my hands. I made a few and then started making a Mega Man face. I looked away at one point and when I looked back, the Mega Man face had changed into a Washington Redskins helmet. I performed a RC and became lucid.

I stood up, turned, and dove headfirst out of the window, taking flight in the process. I was flying over a city. It was dark outside and I heard voices from behind telling me to wait. Saya and a few of the others had apparently became lucid as well. I landed and we all began free-running (parkour). The city was dark and there weren't many street lights. I noticed there were many owls flying around in the city and a lot of homeless people. Several times I performed tricks/stunts over sleeping homeless people. After running around the city for a while, I spotted a chiropteran (human/bat monster hyrid). Me and Saya began battling chiropterans in throughout the city. I cut several of their heads off and Saya finished them off with her blood (her blood is lethal to them). We entered a building and began exploring a crawl space/ventilation duct. I came upon an alternate vent and entered it. The others told me I was going the wrong way, but I ignored them. There was sunlight coming through the vent up ahead. I came to the end of the vent and it opened up onto a beach. I stood on the sand and felt the wind blowing across my face. I could smell the saltwater and even heard/saw several seagulls flying above me. It was a beautiful site indeed. I felt myself waking up, so I immediately prepared to DEILD...

Series Details
"Meiseki na Yume" is Japanese for, "Lucid Dream." In this series, I take my passion for anime and combine it with my passion for lucid dreaming. Join me as I explore the world of anime the best way I know how, in my dreams! Stay tuned for more entries to the series!

I had this dream 3 times in the past. Recently, my dreams have gotten a bit boring so I figured I'd mention this dream that happened 3 times in the past few years. The last one is even more memorable.

My husband is driving the car with me and he takes a wrong turn. He turns into a tunnel of some sort, very dark. It is only at the last few seconds that I realize he has turned into a train tunnel and the train is headed full speed for us! The first two dreams, I woke when the train hit. This time, I screamed "BACK UP!"

I see it coming. It has a light. It is black. There is no way that my husband can back out and I know I'm going to die. I don't look away and then... BAM! it hits! Everything went dark but not my awareness. Everything was gone and all was quiet. In the darkness I woke myself asking, "Am I dead?"

Dream Type- Normal

This dream took place in a sort of hybrid location- what appeared to the hinterlands surrounding my home town but containing architecture similar to what you would find in the poorer districts of Rio De Janeiro. I wandered the streets of this location for awhile before spotting a gift shop. Somehow I managed to shoot the owner of the store when he came out to tell me that I couldn't come in. I instantly felt terrible about murdering the man from a mixture of fear of being caught and also the fact that I had committed murder. And some point in the dream I did feel like turning myself in (this guilty feeling followed me throughout the dream from this point). I entered the gift shop and began to look around at it. I remember vividly that it contained multiple shelves holding t shirts. Each wall bar one had a window, at several points I would run to the window and look out, perhaps fearful of approaching police. I began to obsess over a particular pile of t shirts on one of the shelves. The shirts were all pertaining to my home state of Tasmania. None of them grabbed my interest. By this point a large crowd had gathered over the body of the owner, but once I approached them I realized all they wanted was to come in and shop. I allowed a few people in, three girls I believe. One of them had a tape player. She sat in the corner and started to play it some Ryan Adams. I instantly recognized the song and pointed this out to her. We discussed the good points of Ryan Adams music for awhile. I even made a quip about how people confused him for the horrifyingly more incompetent Bryan Adams. At this point I decided to exit the shop, past the growing crowd of people.

I made my way through the slum like areas of the town with the intention of finding a bus and making my way home. Still the guilt of my murder followed me. I progressed upwards through the streets, eventually making my way up to a mountainous pass. I realized at this point that I had gone the wrong way. When I looked out I could see city of the gold coast in the distance, with its distinctive skyline. I turned around and began to run back through the slum areas. At this point I awoke.

Interesting points: The immense feeling of guilt is something that I can still recall now as I write this. Makes me kind of pleased to know I don't enjoy murdering folk. However there was a slight foggy notion of everything being okay as I was in the dream- like somehow I was slowly becoming aware that I hadn't actually commited a murder. At some points I even remember thinking 'It will be alright, you wont get caught, I am certain'. I now believe that this sort of immune feeling to what I had done was a semi-attempt at my brain realizing the falseness of my scenario. I have notice that recently I have become more logical in my dreams, even when not lucid.

I have only had 3-4 dreams with my (possible) dream sign. I keep seeing a girl(of various age) in my dreams. I first saw her in a non-lucid dream. she was just standing in my back yard looking at me. as soon as I saw her i stopped and began to feel vivid. I just ran away from her and continued nonlucid dreaming.
the second time I saw her, she was trapped inside a complex safe located in the middle of my back yard and I was frantically trying to save her before she ran out of air. I failed to save her and dream ends with me sobbing over the safe.
the next time a saw her was the first time I became lucid. I walked into my room and found her sitting at my computer desk, and she just looked at me. I imediately turned around to look at the other rooms and realized everything seemed off and I became lucid. she disappeared after I went lucid.
the next time I saw her I was already lucid. she was older than before(around 16-18). she was soaking wet(because it was raining in my dream), sitting on the floor in the center of an open hut, at night time. I walked up to her and as focused on engaging her, I wake up.
im unsure why I have trouble talking to her, I don't think she resembles any person I know in reality.

When it started out, I was with my friends Abby and Heidi (plus a bunch others, but I don't remember who). We were on a school field trip, and I don't even remember what happened but Abby did something to deeply betray me. Heidi took her side of the argument, and I was angry at the both of them throughout the duration of the dream.
On our field trip, we went to this dojo/nursing home thing, and we went to the pool area. Suddenly, a bunch of old guys wearing bathrobes shot up from the water and started doing synchronized swimming. Really ninja synchronized swimming. If it weren't synchronized swimming, it would have been really cool. In the dream I was really impressed, but when I woke up I was laughing at myself for having such a strange dream.