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I am sleeping incredibly too much. I took 50 mg Seroquel and 200 mg Caffeine before going before the Magistrate at 10:15 this morning.
When I got home at around 11:30 I was so stinking sleepy that I took another 200 mg Caffeine. By 12:30, I gave up and laid back down. I fell asleep right away.

My dreams started off sort of strange. I was in some sort of large garage/house, though I left several times with my ex-hubby. I was assembling a video game and was looking for pictures from nature to integrate. A lot of the images came from clouds, but I traveled islands of the world which looked more fantasy than real and I found many clues about my quest.

I was assembling all the data at the garage/house. Downstairs, some man was reclining in a chair with his head out a window. He seemed annoyed, at first, by my ex and I talking. THen 5 pitbulls got loose. They were being kept somewhere downstairs by the owner, bt a door had been left open. Ex, guy and I tried rounding them all up to put back. I was afraid of them at first, but they were giant pussycats.
The guy said he had to leave soon because the dogs were setting off his allergies. Then he wondered aloud why his own dog doesn't both him.
In some wide, open area a guy was laying down holding layers upon layers of wood paneling above his chest. The dogs were under the wood, surrounding him, laying down with him, but the weight was too much and his grip kept slipping. I thought they'd all be squashed.

Then the dream changed somewhat and as I was assembling the game (or whatever it was), I found a webpage by my 15 yo daughter. Strangers were concerned and told me to get ahold of her regarding some of the info she posted.
But then I was beside her. We spoke about her goals and she wanted to work at some particular restaurant. At first I was against it and I told her she would never be hired because she's too young to serve alcohol. But then our roles were reversed and I explained her age didn't matter because the company could have another person sell such beverages. Then I tried explaining I wouldn't be able to visit her because my license was suspended.

At some point, I was in a tunnel and a great crowd was passing. At the end, I noticed some in the crowd were holding up a coffin. THen I noticed a suspicious character and right before a bomb went off two officers shielded my ex and I.

I woke up to my phone ringing. My 15 yo was calling me I had to repeat everything I had told her in the dream lol.
My license HAS been suspended since January for failure to pay Court Fines.

I've been awake now for almost an hour and I'm still so sleepy I can barely keep my eyes open. WTH? It's been like this for a couple of days now. I feel like I'm still dreaming- in fact, it feels like I'm stuck in a dream that I need to fall asleep in, in order to wake up. The world goes so slowly. I just cannot keep my eyes open.
It's actually pretty freaky.

I woke up in my bedroom and my husband was lying next to me, still asleep. A voice told me that they would explain why I no longer had the vivid dreams that I had most of my life. (IRL I have had frequent, vivid dreams my whole life, but a few years back, I stopping remembering all but some very lame dreams with no plot. I want my dreams back) Then, a transparent screen appeared in the middle of the room that took up most of the room. The voice said "This is the dream your husband is having now. Then a small screen appeared right in front of me. It was about the size of a computer screen and had several small pictures on it like you might see in a google image search. The voice said "These are the dreams that you had last night." "Notice how much smaller they are than his dream." I looked over the images and put my hand through the image of a golden retriever. The dream played and was over in a few seconds. There was nothing worth remembering in it. The voice then explained that because my husband was now having such large dreams, there was not enough room for me to have large dreams too. The dreams that I saw in front of me were as big as they could get next to my husband's big dreams. The dreams that I used to have were even bigger than the dream that my husband was having and that is why they were so vivid and real to me. At that time my husband could not remember any of his dreams.

I float up out of my bed. I see a bunch of demons around me. They look benevolent. hmmm..

I walk to the mirror, and see my demon face in it. I laugh. He reaches through and grabs me. I am yanked into another dream... a Colloseum in Hell.

I battle my demon self, and kick his ass, then I absorb him.

I go to the Hades where Raven, Angel, and I (one more person, I forgot who) are rulers of it.

I make the templars pick more flowers for a hellish bouquet of DOOM.

Raven reminds me we are supposed to go see the Big Guy.

We go, he says I am infected.

We do healing in the Glen.

A bunch of red and dark energy parasites squirm out, and are eaten by lizards and toads.

I was in a museum in front of the entrance to an interactive nature exhibit. I noticed how worn the entrance looked and was prepared for the whole exhibit to be run down. Once I entered, I was delightfully surprised how nice it was inside. They used real plants and it was landscaped like I was really outside on some country trail. I was my bike and looking around at all the wonderful detail. Then I spotted some grapes growing on the side of the path. I turned my head back to look at them while I continued to peddle my bike forward. Then I realized that I was off the trail. The bike fell out from under me and I grabbed a handful of vines so I wouldn't fall as well. The vines had covered a cliff. I thought how careless it was for me to let this happen. I tried to climb back up on the trail, but the dirt from the embankment crumbled in my hands. I was only able to hang on by the vines. Just then, someone on a bike was approaching. I asked him if he could help me. He peered over the cliff and asked me what I needed. I told him I needed help getting back up on the path. He said " Then why aren't you screaming for help". I told him that I thought I could get up by myself and when I realized that I couldn't, he came along. He said "If you really need help, you should be screaming". I asked him if he would help me. He said "OK, but I doubt it will do any good." He then shouted at some bikers up on the ridge. "Hey, someone is hanging from the ridge and can't get back up. Can you help!" One of the guys on the ridge shouted back "If they really needed help, they would be screaming." then they disappeared over the ridge. The guy then said "You see, I told you!" I said "Will you help me?" he said "I already did." I reached my hand that was not clenching the vines upward. "Take my hand and pull me up" "Why would I" he said "You still aren't screaming" I said "so you will only help me if I start screaming." He said "I never said that I was going to help you at all, but someone might." By now most of the vines had pulled out of the ground and the few that remained would be out any second. I looked around and there was nobody around accept for this guy. I tried harder to find something else to hold on to, but there wasn't anything. Just as I started to fall, I woke myself up.

I was at my 6th form, everyone was there-even my sister.

It's been established that we're being taken somewhere by these aliens, they're pretty much what you'd stereotypically expect one to look like-human like figure, grey skin and huge head with bulging black eyes and jeez they're so bossy.

We all have to stand and listen to them in the cafe,
"You might want to empty your bladder now because where we're going and on our spacecraft there are no toilets", one of them explains.

what the hell?... I patiently tell them that humans need to go to the toilet otherwise we could get very ill. They ignore this and tell me to hurry up. I go to the toilets because I really need a wee, the loos are really packed. After I go and find my sister, I don't like not knowing where she is. One of the aliens tells us to go wait in the dining hall (the cafe) ready for boarding the ship. For some reason we are now on the moon- the aliens must have moved the building while we were in the loos.

My sister and I decide to go to our cabin and get some belongings before we leave. We have little possessions as the aliens dislike us to own things. I open my drawer and put a lipcil made out of syrup into my shoulder bag, I was trying to be practical because I get very sore lips. I find a ribbon and pack that too, to remind me of Earth (I don't know why), I leave my favourite stuffed toy dog. I also leave my dream diary, if I take it with me they may confiscate it and realise I've written about them, better to leave it for someone else to find, then maybe they'll track us down again.

Suddenly we hear a hovering noise, we look out of the window to see the UFOs take off and fly deep into Space... wait a sec they left us behind!... "They forgot us!" I whisper exitedly! We're so happy and relieved...but then hear some footsteps. The door slowly opens and a guy steps through looking postively confused.

"Um hello?" he says
"Hi, we're humans, you can take a blood sample as evidence" I say and hold out my arm towards him because I think he's an alien in a humanoid figure and I don't want to get in trouble

"Um er thanks but not right now" he says, "how come you're here? I thought I was the only human on the moon. I thought I'd sensed some disturbance so came out looking, nearly got lost on the way but I'm glad I found you"

I explain everything to him.
"Good thing I found you then. You can come to my house, it's safe there. We need to be quick incase they realise you're missing and come looking for you" We step through the door, cold wind blows moon dust about, similar to sand in a desert. We walk quickly and approach a cheerfully strange house. It a roundish shape, yellowy/orange and made out of some sort of metal. There's complicated piping winding all around it. We go in and are greeted by his friendly wife. The guy tells her our situation. We sit in the front room watching a cartoon about gnomes or something. All the time I'm afraid the aliens are gonna come back. Our two new friends seem to recognise this and suggest we get back to Earth as soon as possible. I suddenly remember my other belongings, particularly my dream diary, which will be important as evidence to people on Earth about what happened. The wife starts preparing for takeoff while us three quickly set off back to the cabin. We find it in good time and my sister and I empty our drawers quickly. I make a smiley face in the drawer with some rubbish as a message to the aliens to show we've outsmarted them.

We rush back to the house. The other two make sure the door is shut securely. The woman shows us into their bedroom, we put our bags down. The guy sits at a computer desk and pulls some controls out of the wall, the woman shows us some seat belts attached to the wall and tells us to put them on because we’re going to need them. We sit down and strap ourselves in, so does she. The guy straps himself into the controller chair and types some things into the controls. The house moves, I see through the window we’re heading towards another similar looking building. Turns out it’s a rocket type thing. The house connects to it and we’re ready for takeoff.
It’s an amazing feeling. As we travel faster I feel the gravity pressing me to the wall. Once we’re past takeoff the speed settle down and we’re allowed to take the belts off’ like when you’re on a aeroplane. My sister and I lay on the bed and nap, the woman wakes us up as it’s time to put our seatbelts on for landing. We land in a field in a secluded part of the country. We go into a near building, it’s a secret agency HQ working for the government about things like alien attacks.

We fill them in on what’s happened and file a report on the missing students. Police then escort us home. We’re driving for a while until we reach home. When back we explain everything to pur worried family, then we all have a picture taken together!

For the first part of the dream I remember watching watching Obi-Wan Kenobi battling this big droid with 4 lightsabers, like from Episode III. In my dream, Obi-Wan was wielding 2 lightsabers, and the battle was taking place in this dark circular room, with a bunch of people gathered around watching.

[IMG]http://i.imgur.com/biaZ9.png[/IMG]

This battle went on for a really long time, and my perspective was always changing, like a movie. Obi-Wan would turn off his lightsabers a lot to try and confuse the droid, and then turn them on when he got close, and they'd go into the droid's sides. I woke up at some point during all of this.

In my next dream I found myself on a ski slope, with skis on. Which is odd because I haven't skied since I was little, I'm a snowboarder. Anyways, my mom was there and we were skiing down this huge never-ending hill together. I was going so fast, and I could do all these crazy tricks like skiing on one foot and doing a 360 as I'm flying down the hill. I remember there was this other section where there was a bunch of little bumps in the snow and I could get crazy air off of them, even when I was going slightly uphill at parts. Eventually I was going so fast it was insane. I was in a third person perspective at this point, and was leaning really hard in order to turn. I was starting to get afraid that I would fall and get really messed up, due to the speed I was going.

I see the road approaching as I'm coming down the hill, and there's a frozen lake off to the left of it. I aim for the lake, and it cracks under me, but I'm going too fast to get wet. But I fall over to my side and skid out onto the road. Then I tumble like crazy (I'm still watching this happen to me from a third person perspective), and I when I stop rolling I can see my mom coming down the hill towards me. My body is pretty limp, but I start mumbling something. She picks up my head and there's a bunch of red snow under it from the blood. I could feel my dream fogging up and coming to and end at this point, and then I woke up. ~

Snakes

I was in a dark room watching TV. I noticed there was a large boa snake crawling on the floor. I was a bit startled and then I noticed a tray on the small table beside me there was also a smaller snake crawling. I stroked it's neck a bit. but I was still kind of scared.

Portal

I was waking around in a large building that appeared to be under construction, much of the drywall was hung up. i wandered up and down staircases trying to find my way. I eventually walked through a door and found myself in a seemingly familiar place. An old man walked past me and I asked him where I was. "Diagon alley." He replied. I looked around and noticed the place was in a similar layout as diagon alley from HP. I had to find a class And I thought it was in the construction building so I turned around to find the building but it wasn't there.

I was walking down a street thinking about what i was going to do that day. I see a red truck with no top it looks similar to a smart car. I remember my friend michelle talking about getting a vehicle. She is being hastled with the driver behind her because she is a "new Driver". She pulls over close to me and says "are you coming? well Hop in ". As i get in she guns it with me standing it felt like there was no back and we're going to tip. We don't Fall and i sit where she tells me to. Michelle tells me to hold onto the bar. The dashboard looked like a seat at a theme park which has a bar to hold onto in the front. I go to hang on but grab the wrong one and switched gears. She fixes what i did quite easily as I grab hold. It seems were going to pick people up now.

After, all of a sudden i was with an asian girl or my dream girl friend. When i was with her i had a feeling it was my Ex girlfriend. We were walking together holding eachother when we come across Harland & Murtaza (some old friends from School) they are walking along a hill of a main road in Calgary called 16th ave. We stop to say Hey, They tell me its been too long since we've seen eachother. I told them about some party i was having later and they should come they tell me they'll be there. Me and my Girl say goodbye and start walking away from my old friends.

Next thing i remember is, I found myself in my brothers Silver Dakota sitting in the back seat my arms around my dream girlfriend and the feeling is wonderful everytime i tighten my grip i can feel she does the same. I seen my friends johnny and michelle in the truck with us as well as my brother driving. All of a sudden I'm in the passenger seat beside my brother and everyone is gone but him and I. He was talking to me but i gave him no attention i cant recall what he said. Instead i was looking out the window at this red shirt man staring at me from the car next to us. In my mind he looked like a physical being of Chef from South Park. I look foward and notice the lights changing red my brother says something then Guns it through and turns the corner. All i could think was WTF is he doing ?!

The next thing I can remember is walking down an ally with my friends hehind me, there was a plastic santa decoration in the middle of the way so i picked it up and threw it in the air. I hear My brother Steven laughing saying "did you see what he did". I ignore him and continue we soon came to this house with a weird hill connected to the bedroom windows. It seems like we're going to try and get up there. I tried to get a running start but fail. It seems really hard to run up an incline. I tell myself I cannot run up this hill. I soon find myself in my Kitchen looking out at my brothers truck in the ally. i walked to the living room where im on the phone with James telling me he'll pick me a 10 dollar ticket up. He tells me to come meet him and mike but i asked him about a party which i was having at my house. I see an old friend named Ali get out of a car infront of my house and i start to yell on the phone "ALI IS HERE". He brought a friend which looks familiar and they come to my front door.

All of a sudden i was with James and Justin walking when we came across this little shack in the middle of no where. Inside was two big comfy chairs and a miniture grand piano. I sit at the piano and start playing, i wondered why i sucked
I look down and notice the foot pedals and james is hitting it with his foot. It sounds like an Organ i said. I turn and ask if this was their place and they both denied. I then am laying in my bed thinking what just happend? did i have a party , I hope no one stole anything, then I awoke.

non dream - lucid - non lucid

I'm on Teraluna with Yuya and Liv.
Liv is here for the first time.
The gates would usually prevent any demons from getting into the city, but they let her through because
she has no dark thoughts.

Even though everyone is super nice to her she's still extremely shy and clearly feels out of place.
But she's happy to be here.
We're sitting at the table in front of Yuya's place talking about all kinds of things.
There's a bowl with sweets on the table, and I keep sneaking stuff from it because everything is so delicious.
Lemon marzipan surrounded by black chocolate, yum!

During the conversation I notice that something is on Liv's mind.
There's something bothering her, she wants to ask something, but she's too shy.
I offer her a cookie from the bowl.
Yuya realizes that there's quite a bit of stuff missing from it.

"Hyu...?"
"Yeeeees?"

I chuckle as she throws something at me. (I think it was a hairpin)
Liv realizes what's going on and laughs out loud.
There we go, loose some of that shyness.

"So Liv, what is it you want to ask?"

She turns red.
It takes some time to actually convince her to tell me.
She finally ends up explaining that she is going to a ball.
She has to for some reason, and her sisters will be there.
But she's very uncomfortable going there, because it is common for succubi to seduce someone
rich or powerful to go with them. She doesn't want to do that though.
She's known for being shy, which is a bit ridiculous since she's a succubus, and she'll be laughed at if she comes without a 'date'.

"I don't really see where the problem is."
"But... I don't..."
"You could just ask someone to go with you, you know."
"Nobody would go with me..."

She's not biting, but I can clearly see it in her face.
She wants to ask me to go with her.

"You could ask me for example."
"But..."
"..."
"Would you.... go with me? ..."
"Yes, absolutely."

Yuya says: "See, that wasn't so hard, was it?"

"So, where is this ball anyways?"
"..."
"... it's in hell."

Wait, what?
I look at Yuya. She doesn't seem concerned, so it probably isn't as dangerous as it sounds.
Whatever, it'll be an adventure, it's probably going to be awesome...


... Liv and I are standing in line... to get into hell I suppose?
I'm wearing a red and white kimono, as is tradition for dragons according to Yuya.
Liv's dress reminds me a bit of a prom dress, it's cute, it looks nice on her.
We're at the entrance... it says "Club Hades".
I ask Liv:

"Seriously? Hades?"
"You know him?"
"No... he... what?"
"The club is named after it's owner, he's called Hades."

I find it funny, but Liv obviously doesn't know about Greek mythology.

The inside of the club is actually quite awesome. It's in a huge cave, and the place is lit up by pools and fountains of lava.
I hide my energy at first, because there's a lot of demons here, but that quickly attracts the attention of some predators.
Some bird-like creature looks at me with an appetite.
I quickly change my aura and emit some energy to show that I'm a dragon.
The creature quickly looks away.
I decide to act confident, as if I have nothing to fear here.

There are all sorts of creatures here, most of them look humanoid.
Not all of them appear to be demons though, some clearly aren't and some may very well be human.
During a conversation Liv explains that this club is some sort of a neutral zone.
Hades is insanely powerful, nobody would dare to cause any kind of trouble here.

At some point she introduces my to her sisters.
There's 3 of them, they're all older than Liv, and clearly not as nice as she is.
They seduced some men to come with them. The men aren't even aware where they are, they're under complete mind control.
Her sisters are extremely surprised that she's with a dragon.
The oldest of them asks how she managed to seduce a dragon.
I say in a serious and dark voice:

"She didn't have to."

That's gonna leave an impression.

...I'm a bit surprised that nobody's causing trouble, some creatures look quite aggressive.
I suppose this place is quite safe indeed.
Liv is still very shy, but she doesn't show it to the other guests.
I ask her for a dance. She's quite happy and we go to the dance floor...

I have bought 3 bags of candy and a 1,5L coca-cola. Im in front of our music classroom and J's friend comes to me and asks me to give him some coke. Hes a big guy and hes like threatening me, but I say no and I start to beat him up. Then YV comes and starts to settle the fight, but suprisingly he doesnt give any detention.


Then Im at home coming down the stairs. N is sitting on the bench there and asking me to give him some candy. I say "Well ok" and I take my shoes off because the candy is there. He takes some candy from my sweaty shoes and I say something "Well If you like candys that have been in my shoes, then ok..."


Im collecting some garbage in some hall with JR.


Im playing a videogame with N,J and some other guy. We are at the 'computerclass'. In the game we are jumping over fences and running, possibly away from something.


Then Im in the field behind the ice rink with S. We are either standing or sitting. I watch some leaves drop from the trees and suddenly I start to think how Im lying down in my bed and this is a dream, but I dont do any RC's and I dont become lucid. I was just thinking about myself sleeping in my bed.

That was pretty weird...

I saw Symphony standing in front of me. I blinked, and then there were two. I blinked again, and then there were endless clones of Symphony as far as I could see in the incomparably large room. My heart started racing. I blinked again, and it was just one Symphony again. I started to calm down.

“Complete me,” she said in her flat, high-pitched voice.

“I will as soon as I can,” I answered. She reached forward. I blinked, and she was in front of me, gripping my shirt.

“I am already complete,” she responded. I didn’t understand. “I have waited forever, and I will wait forever. Time is not a hindrance.”

“What do you mean, you’ve waited forever?”

“Forever.” She stepped forward, fusing with my body. I felt a rush of energy, and then it all vanished. I looked behind me, but Symphony wasn’t there. Chunks of metal started falling from the impossibly high ceiling above me.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Didn't recall much when I woke up, but after a bit of probing and thinking of random names and songs that were stuck in my head during the morning, I actually managed to recall four fragments.

21.30: Sleep

05.20: Fragments
*I'm standing on a street in the middle of the rain. I've got my hoodie up and people walk by without taking any notice of me. I enter the building to my new apartment right next to where I work. There's a cupboard right next to my door, and my computer's in there. I do some stuff on the computer and lock it all up. My sister asks me where I've moved to. I tell her where and she gives me a jealous look.

*I'm watching a plastic tub full of small fish. I try to find some silvery fishes to use as bait. I grab the smallest of them all and hook it. It wriggles as I pierce the fish over and over, the damn hook won't stick. The small fish dies and I throw it into the water, and starts floating. A few ducks nearby attacks the fish and I have to pull it in. One duck has brown teeth and refuses to let go until it's right by me.

*I arrive at a villa. Two fires are roaring and my sister and brother greets me. "Oh hi" they say, a bit uncertain, like they're hiding something. I look at the fires and realise they're way too big for just a regular dinner. "You're going to have a party right?" I ask them. They blush and tell me I'm right. "I'm sorry, but there's no room for you" my sister tells me. I can tell she really is. A friend of my brother shows up with a chocolate drink. He slaps me on the back, clearly drunk already.

*My friend Jonas has changed his appearance. He doesn't look anything like he did before. I know it's him, but a girl doesn't believe him. "It is me, I even removed my annoying habit of blinking too much" he tells her. I can tell he doesn't blink as often as he used to.

05.20: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 7½ hours

Supplements: Nothing

That's it! I'm thinking I'm gonna try to let the next lucid dream just go on as if it's another reality. KingYoshi is doing exactly that, and since you have to turn your focus away from your real body to stay in a dream longer, it's quite logical that just accepting a dream as another reality will prolong it. Instead of activating your senses actively (reminding yourself you're in your bed, dreaming), you do it more out of habit. Sure the complete control might not be there, but I'm ready to try something new!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

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non dream - lucid - non lucid

I play starcraft2. I'm quite a bit better at it than most of my friends, but I'm nowhere near as good as to play in a tournament.
I do watch some casts though, follow some of the tournaments, so I guess that I have some idea of how these things work...
After waking up I noticed that this dream lasted for a really long time and there were a ton of false memories.
The gameplay mechanics were also spot on as far as I can recall, although the maps were quite weird.


False memories:
After getting my masters degree I moved to California, LA to follow my career as a game designer.
I suddenly had a lot of free time on my hands, so I started to play sc2 quite intensely.
I got to know a few people, and after some time I ended up in the pro-gaming team "ROOT". (Probably because I watch Destiny's stream who's in root?)
Some worldwide tournament is happening in LA, the biggest one in the history of gaming, with an insane prize pool.
I not only managed to qualify, but I actually got into the semi-finals.


I'm sitting in a glass cabin, in front of thousands of people. I'm wearing sound canceling headphones, I can't really hear anything besides
the sounds of the game and my own breathing.
I played really well in this tournament so far, I'm quite proud of myself.
I somehow managed to stay quite calm, even though I'm playing in front of a crowd, but things have taken a different turn now.

I have to play one of my teammates. It's currently 3-3 ZvZ, the next game will decide who's going to the finals.
I want to win, but I don't want to knock my teammate out.
Without my team I'd still be a random master league player, but thanks to them I'm playing here, in this huge tournament.
They taught me to play this game at a competitive level, I'm this good only thanks to them.

We're 20 minutes into the game. We're both maxed on roach infestor.
The map is quite open and huge. This game will probably be decided within a split second.
If anyone is caught out of position he'll probably loose right away.

I can't take it... the pressure is just too much. My heart is pounding, sweat is dribbling onto my keyboard.
My hands are shivering... I'm loosing it. I have to get my hands under control or I won't be able to micro properly.
My emotions are burning me on the inside.
I don't want to knock him out. I don't want to give him an easy win either, or we'll all feel bad.
I take a glimpse past my monitor. I can't see well due to the spotlights, but there's so many people cheering.
I don't want to disappoint them either.

I see his army approaching. I have to pull myself together, now!
I take my hands off the keyboard and close my eyes, just for one second, in the hopes that it'll calm me down.
And for some reason it does.
We're fighting. Any mistake can cost the game now.
None of us makes one, we trade army's pretty evenly, but then I can see it.
His reinforcements are running into the fight, but they somehow balled up.
I barely manage to catch them with a fungal growth.
He fucked up, I push forward, hard and relentless.
A few seconds later he gg's out. I won.
I can feel the pressure suddenly disappearing. I take a few deep breaths. I'm in the finals...


... I'm at the hotel. The finals are tomorrow.
My whole team is staying on the same floor. Everyone is offering me practice matches.
But I don't want to play, I want to chill so I'll have a clear head tomorrow...

It's the next day.
My finals are against a Terran player... It's my worst matchup.
He's very popular, I doubt I'll be able to win against him.
But knowing that I made it into the finals in my first big tournament makes me stay calm.
Even if I get steamrolled in the finals... I still accomplished a lot.

... He's leading 3-2. I have to win 2 games in a row to take it. I doubt I'll be able to.
But somehow in the 6th game, I manage to pull off some insane nydus play and barely manage to win the game.
3-3 again, well fuck me...
Suddenly I feel a chance of winning again, and the pressure is back.
I'm so nervous, my hands are shivering again and the final match hasn't even started yet.
Then I see the map he's chosen. I'm fucked.
The map is extremely terran favored in TvZ. Unless he makes a massive mistake there is no way to win this, and he won't
make any stupid mistakes...

I can't take it, I have to leave my box to catch some fresh air.
The organization decides that there is a 20 minute break before the final match due to some technical issues.
Well lucky me, 20 minutes to calm down... I feel like throwing up.
The crowd is cheering... I wonder how they would react if I threw up on stage.
I see my team mates waving me over. I walk to them, I can really use some encouraging words.
I notice my girlfriend is with them... huh? did I have a girlfriend?
Of course I do... silly me. (No, you don't...)

She immediately says "come with me!"
My team mates are a bit confused as she drags me away to the restrooms.
She's probably gonna give me a pep talk. The crowd is too loud, we can't have a conversation in the main room.
But she has something different in mind...
She explains that she knows the best way to calm down. I only know what she's on about once she starts undressing.
Right... this couldn't end up badly at all.
But I am way too nervous about my next match to think about this.

We have sex... in the restrooms, just minutes before my final match.
I can't believe I'm doing this. But it really does make me forget about the match for a bit...

... It's time... I'm coming out of the restrooms. The crowd is cheering.
I walk onto the main stage facing my opponent.
I'm calm... perfectly calm. I'm ready!
I shake my opponents hand "Good luck!"
I say this with absolute confidence.
He knows the map is strongly in his favor, he knows that he's the better player, me being so confident is probably fucking with his mind.
He doesn't know what to say and goes into his box.

I sit down in mine and stretch. I'm so ready, I got this.
I look at the map, and suddenly, I know exactly what I'm going to do.
There is one completely insane tactic I came up with recently, which may actually work on this map.
He's probably never seen it before, and I just broke his calm.

I smile... I got this!

I am in a house, no lights are on. I am with some friends and I have digital
files for the PS2 game, Armored Core. I go downstairs and some friend, my
brother and I are all playing Armored Core 4.The friend had deletes my data
or mods or whatever I have to sabotage me but I had them on a flash drive so
I still have them. My dad then walks in and says something I don't remember.
We then start watching a movie. After a while, the dream changes to more of
a half-lit rec-room scene. There are three people now, the friend, my brother
and someone else. They are wearing black suits with leis. I am looking at the
friend and it is almost like a character select in a game. His head, hands, and
feet have PlayStation buttons superimposed over them like I am selecting
button assignments. A short while later, the dream ends.