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[This is a catchup post. This dream is from the night of April 8-9, 2011.]

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while awake]

I'm in my current bedroom. I have my mom's purse, and I'm on my way to take it out to the living room and put it on the cedar chest, where it goes. I think I must have just woken up normally, so as I walk to the living room, I'm thinking something like, If this is the real world, then that's fine. But if this is a dream...

By the time I get out into the living room, I've figured out that it is a dream. No specific trigger or dream sign tells me this; I just recognize the feel of the world around me, and what it feels like to be in a dream. I set my mom's purse down on the floor next to the cedar chest and turn to walk out the front door. As I move my hand away from the purse after letting go, I can see that no part of the purse or its strap is touching my hand, and yet I feel resistance on my hand, as if the strap were caught on my wrist. I realize, I can't just carelessly set it down and walk away, like in the real world. I have to think that I'm setting it down. My mind is controlling everything, and I didn't think about wanting to put it down, so it feels like I still have it. So I consciously think about letting go of the purse, and the feeling of the strap goes away.

I turn my attention to the front door. The main door is open, but the screen door is closed. It's a beautiful, sunny day outside. "This screen door..." I say to myself. I decide to take this opportunity to work on my goal of becoming intangible and walking through things. I concentrate on the ideas that door is not solid when I will it not to be, because this is a dream, and I am able to pass through it, and start walking through it. It works! I get part of the way through it, but I'm so pleased to find that it's working that it takes some of my concentration away from those ideas, which immediately causes the door to become solid again. I end up with the door stuck around the middle of my body. The door is now parallel to the ground, and my body is sticking through the hole I've created in the middle of the door. I can feel the ends of the metal wires poking me in the stomach and back. I feel very silly.

I give up on that for now and decide to just go flying again, since I know I'm good at that and it's fun. I turn back toward the interior of the house, take a step inside, and kick off the floor with my ankles, like always. I launch myself toward the ceiling and find I can easily stay up there, flying just under it in a lazy arc. I laugh out loud, feeling contented, pleased with myself, and so happy to be back in another lucid dream.

[Dreamskip.] My mom and I are riding on a train through our old town. The train runs along Church Street, which is lined with very large, elaborate church buildings in a variety of different architectural styles. [In real life, that street only has one, fairly small church building on it.] Some of the churches are still open, but others are empty and closed, and still others are now being used for other purposes. One of them is now a Ralphs grocery store. My mom says something about how our church is still open, even though several of these are closed.

The train comes to a stop. I say, “Isn't this our stop?” [I think I was still aware that I was dreaming throughout all this, but it completely didn't occur to me to do anything other than follow along with the dream plot.] We get off the train and walk through the high-ceilinged train station until we get to the entrance of a bird exhibit. The exhibit consists of a series of crooked, jointed tubes through which visitors have to climb upwards. There are chains hanging down from the ceiling of the tube near the entrance. There are windows in the tubes so that you can see out into the birds' habitat.

I start climbing up into the tubes. There is a guy climbing in front of me. There are lots of small handles attached to the walls in convenient locations for climbers to grab on to. As I climb, I notice that one of my hands [my right, I think] is partially numb. My ring and pinky fingers, especially, feel like they've fallen asleep. This makes it more difficult to get a solid grip on the handles with that hand, so I have to rely more on my left hand and arm.

[Dreamskip.] I'm now in this shop/museum exhibit place. I see a procession of people leave the room through one exit, including Willy Wonka as portrayed by Gene Wilder. I turn back to the interior of the shop, and see that my mom is at the checkout counter, buying something. There are several other people gathered around it. I ask an employee standing in the middle of the shop for directions to the exit. She makes a sarcastic reference to flying to get there. I reply, “Besides that.” She gives me directions to another exit. I follow her directions into another room of the shop. [At some point during this sequence, I don't remember when,] I see a page with lines from a musical written on it.

[Dreamskip.] I'm flying through an area where there are a whole bunch of big rectangular swimming pools, each with giant humanoid robots designed to look like sports players standing at either end of the pool.

[Dreamskip.] I'm flying up into space, flying backward and watching the view of the Earth below me. I go up high enough that I can see the entire round Earth at once. Then I decide to start going back down again. As I do so, I pass through a field of light-brown, rocky asteroids that surround the Earth. I see the ground getting closer and closer as I descend. I'm heading toward the center of North America.

I end up someplace in Kansas. I find myself in a large room with a bunch of other young women, all of whom are wearing old-fashioned green-and-white dresses with aprons. I tie a green cloth around my waist in an attempt to blend in with the crowd. A white pattern appears on the cloth as I watch.

The group of young women walks out of the room, and I go with them. The room proves to be underground; we exit it and go outside by walking up a sloping tunnel into the sunlight. When we get outside, I see that we're in a very well-done historical theme park with a richly detailed environment. I decide to start flying again, and I fly over the theme park, admiring the view of it from up high.

[Fragment – not sure where in the sequence this was, but I remember dreaming it.] I'm in the ocean, with waves moving around me. The waves are washing me up on to a shore. I think, Oh, crap. Is this the shore of my own subconscious? [I don't remember what came next, though.]

[The next thing I remember,] I find myself back at the area with the pools and the giant robots, still flying. I fly up in front of a robot who looks like a giant football player. He throws a football to me, and I try to catch it, but miss. He says something like, “That would have been complete for 10 yards!” I answer in a smart-alecky tone, “Yeah, it would have been complete... if my feet were on the ground!”

[Dreamskip.] I'm now in an airplane hangar, still flying. The hangar has very large windows that can't be opened. I decide to try to fly through them. I succeed.

“Holy s***! I did it!” I exclaim aloud. I've finally successfully gone through a solid object without leaving a hole in it! I'm very excited and pleased.

I fly around a bit more outside. I see that the hangar is one of many like it, all painted tan on the outside and all built in a big, dusty lot.

I woke up to discover that I'd fallen asleep with my forearms still resting against my ribcage, thus cutting off most of the circulation to my right hand and forearm. I realized that in the dream, when I had been climbing and noticed that one of my hands felt partially numb, it must have been because of the sense data coming through from my real body.

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Side notes:

Wow! This was a really long, elaborate lucid. The dreams that I remember probably lasted a total of between 15 and 30 minutes. I accomplished this via two means:
- setting a WBTB alarm for about 6 hours after I'd gone to bed and staying up for about 5 minutes, reading entries in my paper DJ
- MILDing for longer and with more tenacity than I have been lately, using phrases that included "I will have a lucid dream tonight," "When I'm dreaming, I realize that I'm dreaming," and "I bring awareness and clarity into my dreams."

When I woke up and was recalling my dreams, I made a connection that I hadn't made while I was dreaming: I've passed partway into mirrors in dreams on two separate occasions before. I always know that they're going to be intangible to me, and they always are. Mental techniques and expectations similar to the ones that have allowed me to pass through mirrors should also allow me to pass through other solid things, like walls. In fact, going through the screen door worked similarly: I knew that it would be intangible to me, at least when I first set out to go through it. In the future, I just need to sustain that thought/belief/knowledge for long enough to get all the way through the object.

12.04.2011

Army's Hotel (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Can't put this together!

- Referrals from bosses.
- Hotel.
- Two folks.
- One did not want anything.
- Asked to join the army.
- When I left I said I was recording them.
- I helped the other guy to open his third eye???

Dream (part 1): got to ride horse in exchange for cleaning out stables.
One of the sons of the owners of the "farm" "likes" me. So we take a trail somewhere. Somehow after going past some bushes we end up in what looks like a Wild West town. (we too were dressed up like cow folks).

In the Western style town we stopped at a saloon. We passed some men playing poker
in the building and I kind of mentioned "Don't have your back facing the door". Than after a shot
(with everyone ducking flat on the floor.) the boy and I leave and the next thing

I know we are in another town, this one fantasy
I somehow was dressed like a knight and so was the boy. I realized why in a second. I was riding "regular" instead of side saddle.

So I went back to the bushes to change to a side saddle
This is where it get creepy. As I was changing the saddles, a Lee-Enfield Jungle Carbine gun pressed my back.
Whoever the owner was (I didn't see him) said to go the back way to the castle w/o the horse and when I
reach the castle to go to the top most tower. SO I went (even though I know I shouldn't-but It was like I was bewitched and yet
at the same time I wasn't) and at the top most tower there was a room. In the room, was a chair. That owner less voice
told me to sit in the chair. I did and ropes and a handkerchief/rag came out of nowhere and the ropes starting snaking up my arm
and the handkerchief/rag ended up over my mouth. I thought "oh bother got myself kidnapped again". I somehow got aware that
the Scooby Doo gang was in the building.

part 2: Still in the castle's topmost tower tied in/to a chair. I started doing a SOS using my high heels. Shaggy thinking
it was whatever "monster" they were after started to leave. But Vemla first said hold your pants on Shaggy, I don't think the
noise is the 'monster' we are after since it sounds like he/she is in trouble". Velma
has some kind of laptop which could translates (only word
I could think of) morse code and also could send morse code in return.

She was about to ask through Morse code when Daphne said: "Anne (me) got herself kidnapped again and she's up there?" (they were directly below me-besides they were in a (previous dream of mine). I stomped my foot very hard when I heard my name. I also send a Morse code telling them to get out of
the building and if they see a boy on a horse, and is leading a riderless horse to send him toward the castle.

I was at my Uncle's house. The house had grey colored rug. The walls were covered in rug like fabric, which was also grey. I remember feeling miserable. Like life wasn't worth it anymore. There was a love seat, a rocking chair, and a 3 person couch. and in front of the rocking chair was an ottoman.

Well I remember my dad, my uncle, and brother was in the front room. They were watching me. I felt more cold as I watched them glare at me. I closed my eyes, sighing deeply, trying hard to make myself feel better but I couldn't.

I saw this black carrier on the floor. It was made of plastic. I snapped open clips that kept the case together and saw what was inside..

[IMG]http://i58.photobucket.com/albums/g256/shadowgurl9231/450_800pxSpringfieldXd45acp.jpg[/IMG]
A Springfield.


I grabbed it... my hand shaking from the weight of it. I felt how smooth it was.. and I felt a sense of relief. I looked up at my family, all was quiet. I loaded a bullet into the chamber, cocked it back.... and rested my finger on the trigger.

I leaned over the ottoman, turned my head to the side... closed my eyes. Warm tears gently glided down my cheek as I put the gun to my head.

I shot myself and fell off the ottoman, onto the floor and bled out.

My family still glared at my corpse and then...






I woke.

I'll probably post this in Dream Interpretation later because I always feel my dreams are symbolic, but am not clever enough to make sense of them.

When I became aware of myself, it was night, and the moon was full but golden in color. I was in the middle of an abandoned, dirty city. All the windows and all the glass was broken and scattered across the streets, and the street lamps flickered on and off occasionally. Blue wisps of fire darted around me and through the empty streets and buildings, and they made a soft ringing, like a small bell. I remember walking along, unsure what to make of the strange landscape, and checking for any sort of person or thing that I could recognize.

Suddenly, there is a loud crash behind me, the ground shakes, and I lose my balance. I turn to look and I see a large, black bull with pitch black, cracked horns and a lizard's scaly hide instead of fur. He had burning coals for eyes which were buried deep in his face, and they burned away some of the flesh around his eye sockets. His breath was heavy, and he exhaled smoke and embers. Then he reared up on his back legs and charged at me. I scrambled to get out of the way, but he was too fast--he was so fast that as he passed, all the debris in the city would fly up into the air. The bull impaled me on one of his horns, and lifted me above his head before he shook me off and tossed me aside. The bull then let out a bellowing howl and almost all the buildings save for the tallest one were torn apart and thrown into the air, then engulfed in bright, white hot flame.

I laid there, staring at the burning city, bleeding out and unable to move. I turned my gaze up to the tallest building, which had not been destroyed and saw a figure standing atop of it, looking at the golden moon. This figure has been present in all my dreams since before I can remember. She is a woman with black hair down to her ankles, bright red eyes, porcelain skin, and usually dressed in an elegant red and white ballgown. When I caught sight of the woman, she filled my vision, and was the only thing I could see. She then turned to me suddenly, her red eyes catching my own, and the golden moon turned red. Then, I woke up.

I was in a fantasy world. Like Elder Scrolls Oblivion or Demon's Souls. My dog Bear was with me, roaming around the caverns mostly out of sight. An old man was doing experiments with rocks there and quantum entanglement, at least to the best of my knowledge that's what he was doing. He caused an earthquake which shook the caves and made rocks fall everywhere. I tried to use my powers to keep the cave together but I couldn't keep it up. I couldn't find Bear but we ran deeper into the cave through an ornamental gateway into a tunnel or hallway. I didn't have any weapons but found a health potion in a glass ball within metal grating attached to a chain. I didn't need the health right away and decided I could use it as a weapon as the metal around the glass was pointy. The dream turned even more like a video game when we attacked and defeated a few monsters. I was legitimately anxious about these fights since I had no real weapons. I seem to remember seeing a life bar and going 3rd person at this time. Shortly after the fighting started I woke up.

The first half of the dream I was sitting on a green couch next to a window with a moderately dirty cloth covering the window while drinking beer and smoking pot with some friends. We hung out through the entire night and then the dream fades out.

The next part i remember i am lying in my bed and think to myself "Why is (Girl i know 1) or (Girl i know 2) here?" what felt like 3 seconds later one of the girls (the more attractive one) walks into the room and gets into bed with me. We start doing "things" however, unluckily my mom walks by in the hallway and says something like "Stay in the hallway" just then my mom calls from downstairs that i need to get ready for school and i awake.

From this I hope to use that if i think I want something to happen and it immediately happens to train myself to reality check right after

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4-12-11

Nap

Dream 1: Old Grumpy Guy

I was at a hospital watching a family visit a family member. There was an old grumpy guy with them that kept on saying sarcastic comments every now and then. They left the sick guy bandaged all up saying “see ya” and the sarcastic old guy mumbled “yea on the other side!” Then outside they all got in a white school bus. The bus was driving along and everyone was sad feeling bad leaving the guy back there and one of the older woman said “we should send him a card.” The grumpy old timer said “Card; you put it in their hand or put it on their bed cuz their dead.” All of a sudden I realized a few men were carrying this old guy in his wheelchair to the front of the bus! He was supposed to get off at the next stop but the bus kept moving slowly so they still pushed him off and remarkably he was still outside the bus’s door and didn’t fall. As our bus picked up speed I could see he had been pushed onto the back of a pickup truck and his wheel had gotten caught between the tailgate and the truck but the pickup truck he was on was still moving down the road! The grumpy guy was pushing back deep into his chair so he didn’t fall out onto the street and a kid in the truck looked back to see this and screamed “Aaaaaahhhh” like in a cartoon when crazy things happened. The scream was so funny and the grumpy guy looked so funny I started to laugh. I woke up trying not to laugh.

Dream 2: Laser Printer

I was watching a laser printer work. The red laser was burning its image into the page with 2 blue lasers going behind it to cool the burning. I thought this system could let the laser print onto paper without a film and could be darker or lighter.

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4-12-11

Dream 1: Meat Processing Plant
I happen upon a factory and go inside. It looks old and a bit run down but still operational. I see big machines and climb up on one to see a lot of meat on conveyor belts going into a huge grinder. [I had this dream before and this is where the dream ended because I felt drawn to the danger in the meat grinder.] Climbing down I felt that I worked there and started to clean things up like taking a tree branch out of one of the machines. I walked outside and it was raining very hard now so I went under a covered walkway and thought about all the trees that needed to be removed away from near the factory for food safety. I imagined an inspector telling me that is a good job. I felt like I owned the meat processing plant now. Then I walked into a cafeteria and saw some female workers who were moving tables and chairs to the back. A guy came in reluctantly to help them but he was not supposed to because he already had too much overtime. Then I took a huge fire hose on the ground and helped them wash down the floor so that the place would be sterile.

Dream 2 : Underground

I am walking in an underground hallway to my room. The place looks like it is made of sandstone and the rooms are small. Mine is off to the left, there is no door. Once inside I notice that the wall between the door and the room that gives the room some privacy is still letting the candle on top of my dresser shine out into the hallway. For some reason this bothers me and I check it twice to make sure that the candle is in the right place but it isn’t. I move it to a small candle shelf carved out of the stone.
I decide to read now standing up and pick up a book I thought was Jules Vern’s 2000 Leagues Under the Sea. Upon opening the book I realized it was written in something like Sanskrit on pages with blue wavy colorings and it is all in poetic verses like the Iliad. I no longer want to read this book.

I was around OS St. and Bl. St. with my mother. We were walking around for some reason. We went behind some tall buildings. The area doesn't exactly have the best reputation, so me and my mother were very wary. We wanted to get away before dark.

There was something about a woman in the area that had a gun. We ended up seeing her in a window of one of the apartment buildings. She had a blonde bob, was fairly tall, and wearing pink and black shoes and skirt and top with zebra striped leggings. We were extremely scared of her and ended up running away from her.

We eventually ended up on the QU and OS. St. to our relief. We were walking back home on the sidewalk. Dark was starting to fall, and there was construction on the street corner. I remember vividly the orange pylons.

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I was at some sort of assembly. Me and my mother were still trying to get home, but somehow had ended up wandering through a random building. Eventually we got to an area where there was some sort of recital for string instrument players. At one point I was trying to tune a harp they had there, but the pegs had turned into violin pegs, and I had to remove then and put then in again because the strings kept slipping.

After seeing some of the little kids perform, I was backstage sitting in a chair. A random band walked in. They were all completely dressed in red. There was one blonde woman who had a baby with her, and she was showing off her baby to everyone.

Eventually I was somewhere on the stage playing a viola with some others by my side. It had something to do with Asia, but I can't remember the rest.

First off the reason some of my dreams are out of order is because i haven't started publishing them till now here is my 6th lucid dream the dream started off and i dont remeber that much before this but i was having sex with this girl and she my brother was in there talking to me but i knew it was a dream then i went to the downstairs of my house and i saw a huge bus out side and i looked in it and asked a girl if she wanted to have sex then she said yes after that I went over to my house and found a longboard so i got on it and started riding it. it was a weird longboard it looked like a sniper with wheels on it. then i found a go cart- golf cart thing and got in it then a weird person drove into my driveway on a little hot dog stand and a person in a cool mustang. i decided to go smash the hotdog stand with my go cart and the guy was really scary and kind of like a carny then they started chasing me and i was on this little golf cart thing and then i drove far away and it became sunny out and i saw some mean looking cajuns fighting some people with machetes and stuff i got them to come with me on their four wheeler down the rode while the people where still chasing us. then an 18 wheeler was turning and i ran into it with the four wheeler and knocked it over then i saw a really nice old corvette drive in on the right side of a bbq place (58 corvette that was red and white) then i saw the exact same car drive in on the other side. so i drove in there and i saw all the ribs and it looked really familar then i noticed it was sunnies bbq. i walked by a counter at the back of the restaurant to try to find the car and i noticed a whole stack of napkins saying sunnies on them and i saw a lady sitting down at a table and grabbed her boob to get her attention andi said are you a dc and she said yes then i asked her if she could make me really awesome at longboarding or do anything cool and then she just looked up and did those little angel wing things and said only he can do that and right as she said that the dream ended and i woke up, it was extremely weird. then i woke up with a cold sweat. In the very begging of this dream i was at an outlet mall at a place similar to pigeon forge or gattling burg. i dont remeber if i knew this was a dream or not.but anyways i remember i got in trouble for doing something and i was in an elevator and couldn’t get out then when they came to help me out they charged me money. so when i got i didn’t pay them and i ran to the rental cars which where smaller than smart cars and got in it but you couldnt get out until you returned it so i was stuck in there and dont remember if i returned it or what but then i also forgot to include that in the dream one time while i was outside at night running from the carny the dream got really dull and the edges of my dream where getting closer to the middle so i just let that happen then i opened my eyes really fast to see if i was awake then i closed my eyes and started doing phantom wiggling and looking in ,or something like that and it worked, i did this twice in my dream. this was also the best dream i have ever had and it was very vivid and fun i also completed on of my dream goals. Ps this was a wild i did at 9 in the morning

I am at church. I look at my iPhone and the screen is half melted and the back has popped loose. The whole phone has expanded. It is also very hot to hold. If it was any hotter it *would burn me. My mom is next to me and I show it to her.*
She laughs and say "oh no".*
I say, "this is no laughing matter this is serious!!!"*
I am outside in the parking lot. As I walk to my car I hold my phone flat in my palm. It is nearly burning me and it stings. I think I need to cool it off in a hurry. I get in my car and turn on the a/c. The cool air makes the phone cool too fast and it pops to pieces. The screen comes off and it looks like hot glue was holding it on. Then I see some strange keypad and I play with the button wondering how that was under the screen.*


Non-linear existence.
I vaguely remember reading something online about "why are you living a linear life in a non-linear existence?"

Dream 1:

I am at home and see my cat and feel sorry since my parents took him to get his nads removed
I go back to my room and play a game, some mario like racing game, and come in last
I just get completely raped in the game for pretty much the whole dream

Dream 2:

dream centered around my brother and I

FRAGMENT: I have two clubs (both with spikes on them) and don't remember what I did with them but it probably would have been epic, have some type of class, get in a fight with my brother at some point and for the first time every I had a fight where it was fair and not in slow motion

Go to a store and for some reason I can't find the path to get around the cash registers and a cashier makes fun of me
My brother and I are at a store fighting with toy swords, then go doing something else in the store
We need to leave so we run to leave and scare a few kids while running towards them to leave
One little girl that got scared and telling some woman who felt important to me that something is wrong
We have to sneak out so the woman doesn't see us
The woman sees us and starts talking bad about us
We get away and go into a ditch in a woods where we live under a tree
While going to enter I find that roots grew to cover the entrance so I rip them out, one of the roots is the thing from Alien that rapes your face
Wake up

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Multiple connected dreams
Just working my way up talking to someone higher up every dream until I finally meet the leader

Really wish I knew what the guy was the leader of, figure with at least five dreams of the same thing I would remember at least one...