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Bad night...

Before falling asleep I was clearing my head big time.

As I woke, I only remember big.. messy sounds around me.. like some sort of train was passing by right next to me.. Nothing else.

Lucid.

I guess you would call this WBTB. I was trying to call asleep consciously and it kind of worked, my husband almost interuppted me because he came out into the living room to get something, but he said something and I'm pretty sure it was real. I was in the middle of transitioning into a dream. He walked off and as he was walking down the hallway all I could see was darkness but I felt different, felt like I was hovering.

I knew it was the beginning but I couldn't get anything to really form, I did for a minute and I instantly started rubbing my hands together and I shouted clarity for the first time in a dream. It faded though, I don't understand this. I almost lost it and woke up but at the last second I decided to sit there and wait in the dark and that's when I was suddenly in my house. I can't remember much, but I got up from the couch and I think I said something to the dream, like be vivid, lol, since clarity hadn't worked. It seemed to work. I went to the door and turned the knob, it came open, much to my surprise and I shut it behind me as I stepped onto the porch. Then I jumped back like Spiderman to give myself a boost off the door and started to float, but I ended up grabbing onto my house and climbing on top. I knew the roof would only be hot if I let it, and for a second I was trying to feel it's warmth. I got up on the house and woke up. The whole time outside was very vivid and the sky was a dark yellow, but very vivid. The sky as I approached the roof was different somehow, I just don't remember why it was.

Ok, so after this lucid, I had a dream. Kind of a nightmare for me.

I can't remember every detail... but I was called into work at McDonalds, where I used to work while I was prego. I quit though and now I work at Wendys, anyways, I was working both jobs I guess, and this was my first day back at McDonalds. The manager was talking to me like she wanted me to come back for good, but I told her I could only work Thursdays and Fridays (The two days I don't work at Wendy's.) I had driven a moped to work, and I do remember doing this and leaving T at home, but when I got to work I wondered why I didn't just take the car. This is when some weirdness happened. I kept flashing back from being home to being online to being at work, all the while, having a huge fight with T because he wanted to sleep with other girls. I was very emotional in this dream.

There was a moment when I was at home and sitting on the couch scraping up a bowl of coke, cocaine. (I've never done this in RL.) T was talking while I was doing it, telling me he was going to this town and fuck some girl named Tex. He wasn't breaking up with me, he just wanted to fuck someone else. I was so pissed I picked up the bowl of coke and I had been putting baking soda in it, for some reason, anyways, I picked it up and slammed it right into his face. He couldn't believe it and I felt so bad, started apologizing, then I told him he needed to flush his eyes out with water, this worried him, he got up immediately to do this. We both went to the sink and were flushing our eyes with water.

After this, the girl showed up and was walking around and talking to T about all the things they were going to do together, while I was there. At many points, I told T I was leaving and he went into the bathroom and started throwing out my make-up. I followed him into the bathroom and not even a second after he'd walked in the entire bathroom sink was clean and glistening. I told him I WAS going to clean that eventually and he just scoffed.

There were these video tapes that this girl had brought with her, and she had rented them, hoping T and her would watch them together. I decided to hide them after debating on whether I should destroy them. I started hiding them around the house right before they walked in the door. They were talking about this place they were going to go. This is all I remember about this part.

Way on earlier in the dream, I was at my house, which was also a store called Third Planet (actually exists.) My friend J shows up to sell some clothes, he seemed hesitant when I answered, I was like come on in, and I finishing a cig. He comes in and sits down on the couch. Just then I see a mouse run from the closet door. I freak out and tell them and two of the guys that were hanging out, K was one of them, was going to kill it. I told him if he killed it I would beat his ass, told him to let him outside. He went over to the mouse and almost smashed it, but I stopped him and then he opened the closet door and there were three more mice, I started to scream. (Mice in real life don't scare me, Idk.)

Well, wish I could've remembered all my dreams from last night, but I just took this nap and this is all I could remember.
From last night, I keep getting deja vu though about the dream, just these feelings from it keep popping up like flashbacks and fading real quick before I get a glimpse of anything tangible I can actually write down. I just keep thinking about this Tall man.

I believe the 25th was during spring break.

First thing I remember is going to dinner with my mom. Not a lot of recall there, other than the fact that the place we ate was close to the place where the dream took me next. After dinner, I went to a huge rock concert with my two friends who were kind of like Bill and Ted looking for their big break. There was the ticket booth guy who was cool. I think he was the orange-haired fella who works at Cam's. His overseer was a bitch who seemed to be based on Dolores Umbridge from Harry Potter. She's like the perfect antagonist for my Bill-and-Ted buddies. The concert was being given by some famous rock star with long blond hair. The concert hall was HUGE vertically, like the seat rows went up really fast like a Broadway theater, but even steeper and higher. I also brought my girlfriend to the concert and I remember us buying tickets. During the concert the curtain closest to the ceiling caught fire and an evacuation was called for. The band fled so Bill and Ted ran up on stage to take over, seeing as how there was now an empty stage and still a number of fans that could watch them make their debut. I joined them, helping some little Asian dude play drums with bass drum mallets. The fire concern is apparently gone, and people stay to watch. Bill and Ted become famous and the overseer bitch is defeated. Hooray!

Dream 1-- Debate Chase

It's night time. I am on my college campus and I find myself running away and I don't know why or from what. I start to cross a street and head toward a grocery store. In the middle of the street, I realize I am running away from one of my fraternity brothers, as if it were some game of tag. Oviedo is chasing me and I'm thinking about making my escape inside the store. As I near the store, I turn around right at the automatic doors and decide to run away from the store.

Suddenly, I'm on my high school campus and I'm still running away but the person chasing me has turned into my debate coach. I am running at a really fast pace, actually creating a large gap inbetween him and me. Then, as I turn a corner, I find myself in a chair trying to go up and down stairs. This is nearly impossible and it takes me a long time. As I am climbing the stairs, I look back and see my coach just now running into my line of sight from behind a building far off.

This sends me into a panic. I start to sweat and breathe heavy, knowing that if he catches me I will lose. I get frustrated that I am stuck in this chair and start to struggle to get down the stairs. As I descend, I realize that these stairs lead to an opening where there are circular tables with people eating a formal meal around them. The tables have white clothes on them and the people look very serious. Good posture, expensive wine (and wine-glasses), the whole deal. This only registers in my mind for a second, as I jump out of my chair and start to run away again.

It's almost too late at this point, as my coach has basically caught up to me. So as I round a corner and come to a glass door, I stop, standing in front of the door and looking at my own reflection. My coach runs up from behind me and pushes me aside. My point of view doesn't move. My perspective still sees the door and my coach, who is now standing there, but I am off-screen (so to speak), fallen down. There is a general silence and sense of worthlessness.

Dream 2-- Drug Pier

I am walking down this pier very late at night. There is almost no external lighting from the moon or stars to be precise. But the bushes that are growing all around this pier are very colorful and glowing anyway. There are two friends behind me, talking to me, but I never look to see them. I only listen as they describe these bushes as dope and shrooms.

I am stunned and rather skeptical, but continue to almost robotically walk forward. As we proceed, the bushes clear away from the pier at the pace we are walking. At the end of the pier, there is a house to our right, so we climb up the house in a second nd I climb through the window. There are many people here, none of whom seem to notice that I have just entered the building. As I walk around and look at everything, still people fail to realize I am right there, so eventually I exit out the window.

In the next instant, I am walking in the sand with my old friend from high school, B-lake. I notice that we are in the same beach as before and I try to guide him to where the drug pier is and the house as well. As we walk to the left, we reach a shore, but only see a very small pier that leads to nowhere. And there is no house either. We turn around and walk back.

Dream 3-- Bleacher Talk

I am in my old school gymnasium, talking to this old woman. She tells me to walk up the bleachers. So naturally I do and sit down next to this old man, who I recognize as Mr. Livengood. He begins to ask me questions about singing and my voice.

"why do you want to join choir?"

"because I really enjoy singing and I want to get better at it." I say this while stumbling my words and looking around.

There are surprisingly other people around us, also sitting and talking. As I say this phrase, I begin to judge and criticize myself as to whether I would be good in choir and really enjoy singing. This brings me into pass obs and ushers me out of the dream.

Dream 4-- Talk with doc

I am in my old school boy's locker room. I am walking around, trying to find a shower. There is no one around and it is completely silent except for the noises whirling around in my head telling me which way to go and what to expect.

As I look around, I find a shower-head, but recognize it as a chemical shower to be pulled only when you are on fire or have acid spilled on you. As I try to exit the locker room, I see shampoo and so I decide to shampoo my hear, even though I have not found a shower. Now I want to exit stealthily to cross the lobby so that I can get to a real shower. As I get out, of course, there is my 1st grade PE coach Doc leading a line of other first graders across the door I am trying to exit out of.

I step back in fear of being recognized and wait for them to pass. None of them seem to even look at me until Doc comes through the door and sees me. He starts talking to me normally, asking me if I want to play frisbee, and I say OK, sure. Then I walk out the door and find my mom and sister sitting down facing away from me at a table. So I pull up a chair on the other side of the table and start talking to them. I think now I am fully clothed.

I don't remember what was said, but I remember looking around a lot and being more curious about the environment than the conversation.

Dream 5-- Procession in a church

I am sitting in the back pew of a relatively crowded church. I am watching as a Lord is commanding a knight or somthing to bear two children. The Lord is saying that it's the knight's duty and he must follow these orders.

The knight responds first by saying No I cannot do it! When the Lord repeats the orders, the knight says "no tiempo". A procession of music starts up and the knight begins to dance in a line with other people who are holding the instruments. As they dance around, the people sitting in pews begin to clap in a syncopated rhythm to the music, which I equate to Jewish tradition in the dream. k

I've had a fair number of dreams that I've written down but haven't posted. There will be a lot more posted in the near future.
Fragments:
1. A vacation house in a cemetery with a canal flowing alongside it. Only one part of it is haunted, and that's the hot tub.

2. Post-apocalyptic. Images of a barren landscape, partially destroyed, but more just battered. The land and the damage still pretty fresh. If I recall correctly, it was like waking up in 28 days later having missed the whole thing and trying to figure out what's going on and why the place was uninhabited. No imminent threats, just loneliness. I find one survivor and hang with her. Later, we find a whole bunch more and I remember packing my bags to go with them somewhere.

3. I'm in a video game and I get to a boss level, I have to move a small fantasy-style army across a mapped out green landscape to these mountains. We get there and I beat the shit out of this midget-height boss (a goblin, I think) in SLOW MOTION. I remember grabbing him by the feet and swinging him head first into a ledge.

Was in desert, cannibals present, they had kill a fat man and dragged his body to where they had women in a group. There were tigers tied up surrounding the women and the women were half mad as children had been killed. I was teken to a caravan and was a third eye to a man who wanted to escape. The chance came when a huge cross was erected outside and everyone started going nuts. People running blessing themselves. I ran in opposite direction screaming and blessing myself. Ran through a makeshift wooden village people running towards cross. Found myself at mansion with road outside that went left and right and a small wall over which was a sea. Ran right and found road destroyed by age. Turned around and saw child also making escape. We were both shot by guard dressed in black. Woke up

Dild

Today I was blown away as the true potential of lucid dreaming was revealed to me.



As I rested in my bed early morning, In hopes to go back to bed and possibly have a lucid dream. As I slowly drifted in and out of dreaming, I became aware of it, and gained lucidity. Initially, this lucid dream felt like the majority of my other lucid dreams- hazy, boring, detached, possibly on the verge of waking up, more of a daydream were I have to push myself to be creative.- but then things started to change. I grounded myself, and let the lucid dream slowly sink into place. Overtime, the dream continued to gain clarity and focus. Two aspects of this dream that I had only dreamed of having (no pun intended) were also slowly becoming present:

1. A dream that keeps on creating itself.

I found this interesting that I was still surrounded by huge ever-changing plot lines; normally it's like my creative dream mind detaches.

2. The world felt magical and peaceful with such vivid and inspiring colors.

I have had only one lucid dream that actualy carried this feeling into the dream, all of my others have felt dull, boring, and slightly colorless

This was a huge step for me, because these two aspects are what I truly love about dreams! The dream I had was roughly and hour long, so I'll just jot down some of the interesting events. Basically, I was in a house trying to ground the dream and not wake up. Now here something happened that has never happened before. I started spinning, as fast as I could, a quick close of the eyes, astounded upon opening them that I really did in fact teleport! It finally worked! Not only that, but I also manipulated my environment. I would close my eyes, count to three and then point as I opened them. I don't know why I did this, but for some reason it worked! I decided to slow down from all the dreams I'm having, and think about my dream goals, I honestly think that I completed every last one. One that I'll mention, was looking in a miror. This held a lot of significance for me, because of all of the symbolism that a miror has. I heard that mirrors can be scary, so I was interested to see what my subconscious portrayed me as. As I slowly walked towards the mirror, I saw two black and white objects slowly merge into one. It was my brothers face, with a surprised look on his face, head and eyes fixed on something above me and to my left. Really an amazing experience, and I'm trying to find significance.

Like I said, I really just wanted to capture the achievements of this dream then the experience itself, which to say the least was the most successful LD I've ever had!


Edit: I just realized that this is most likely due to the fact that I was on a rem rebound cycle tonight. The day before I only got an hour of sleep. It was worth it

The Full Moon, as usual for me, effected my dreams and recall.

Fragment
Society had crumbled and there were only two major 'countries', neither of which was I part of. Me and mine had a separate and very isolated city.
Standing with several people in a large room, the was one man I thought for whatever reason was a reporter. He wanted access to our fortified community. He was a tall white man, maybe 165 pounds wearing a blue business shirt. I didn't think he had any good intent for us..so I said I thought he should go on his way back to where ever he came from. The next thing I knew, he was slung over the shoulder of another man. This..bothered me. I said to the man " I really hope you are not planning to use him for a blood sacrifice".

WTF?!

On a funnier note, night before last I had intended to do May's dream task. But once I was IN Dream, I thought that it was not such a good idea for me to crash Luna into the Earth. (maybe this was in part due to the almost full moon..dunno)

No dreams recalled -_-

***UPDATE***
Wow , randomly recalled....TOO BAD ITS A FRAGMENT!

I remember me and my mom were in the kitchen and then she told me that she's signing me back to my previous school. She looked as if she were happy about it , which should have TOTALLY make me lucid. My mom would NEVER be happy because of that. I told her "OK but sign me up to a different private school" and for some reason I was excited about the idea of me going back to my previous school....It's like my subconscious tried shouting as loud as possible "YOU'RE DREAMING!!!!". I can't believe I didn't realize its a dream.

Dream - Lucid

I was at some art show/contest. I remember wondering whether or not I should enter, because I don't paint or draw, but I take decent photographs and I write. I was wondering whether or not it would be ok for me to enter a poem or story. I remember knowing that the show wasn't just for paintings and drawings, but for all forms or art, even written art. I believe I did enter a written piece.

I also remember I had just started a new job at some restaurant, even though my boss was the same as she is in my waking life job. I remember coming into work and putting an apron on. It was my second day on the job, and I remember asking my boss what I needed to do. I rang someone up on the touch screen register, but then I went in the back and did some stuff. I knew that I was supposed to be back there anyway. I had to learn all the stuff back there before I learned register.

~

My mom was taking me to Ryan's (I guess for some reason I couldn't drive myself?). It was nighttime, and I had decided to get back together with him. My mom pulled up into Ryan's driveway and I got out of the car. I saw him through a window. He was wearing a forest green apron. I started getting a sinking feeling, the same that I had been getting before we ended things.

I entered the garage, and Ryan was in there with tons of food all lined up on a table. He had been grilling.
"You've been out there grilling in the rain?", I asked.
"Yup.", he said.
The sinking feeling in my stomach only got worse. I knew I couldn't really do this, as ideal as it may seem.

I said something along the lines of
"I can't do this, Ryan."
He just kinda smirked at me and said that I should probably take off, and that he was going somewhere too.
"Where are you going?", I asked.
He looked at me with that sick smirk on his face and said
"Don't even worry about it."
I asked him to please tell me, but he just repeated his previous statement.

I then remember being outside. Someone else was with me, asking if my mom was coming back to pick me up. I told them yes. I remember many people being in the front yard. I saw my mom's car approaching the house from the right.

~

I remember being behind some counter. I have no idea where I was, but it looked like a cloudy day outside. I remember seeing lots of girls all dressed up to go to prom. One girl walked up beside me. She looked like a girl I knew back in high school named Emma. She wasn't too dressed up, just wearing a nice top and a skirt. I remember it was my high school's prom night. I saw some marker board outside that had all this stuff written on it about the prom.

I then remember I was doing something behind the counter, when one of my professors walked up next to me. We still haven't met in waking life, but we email back and forth about a class I need to take to graduate. I remember looking at my phone and seeing that she finally had answered all my emails. I remember the first part of one said "(hurry)". I don't remember what else it said though.

I didn't think the professor had seen me, but she turned around. She had a white mug of coffee sitting by some papers. I almost spilled it, and apologized to her. She was nice about it and said that was alright. She then recognized me and asked me how I was. I told her I was alright and asked her the same. She then started talking to me about how I needed to hurry up and get the class approved by my advisor. She was saying that I needed to hurry because my advisor would give me some refund if I had everything approved by a certain time, I can't remember what it was anymore though. I told her thank you, and she left. She approached another lady and they had accidentally switched coffees.

Then, I remember sitting down with my mom. We were eating some pasta dish, but instead of regular noodles, she had used rice noodles, and she had made the sauce with soy instead of dairy. My mom was complaining that it didn't have enough flavor. I agreed with her. We still kept eating.

We ate in silence for awhile, and I started to let my mind wander as I thought about how I needed a new bike. I remember seeing a flash of some bike rack that was attached to the side of a big drainage ditch, right above the hole where the water flowed through. I remember many bikes being on it, I specifically remember a light pink one being on the very far left side. I knew that was where Kacey usually kept her bike.

I then stopped thinking about that and was still eating the pasta. I told my mom
"I forgot I was even eating rice noodles and that there's soy in the sauce!"
My mom said
"Me too!"
The pasta really wasn't that bad after all.

Last night I dreamed I was in bed with an attractive, long-haired blonde. She was in a tight sweater. Her family was all around us.
It was like the bed was in the living room or something.

It seemed I had wanted her for some time, and it would be understandable for me to touch her, so I put my hand up her shirt.
I felt her breast including her nipple, but then she told me to stop. I tried to pull my hand out, but her sweater was too tight.
I tried to tell her "OK" that I would stop. Eventually, I got my hand out.

The dream ended there.

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I also had a strange dream of complex emoticons that created a whole body including stitching on pockets and stuff.

In waking life I've been chatting too much on DV.

In school, took bus home, in house, watched TV with friends, Son going down back with me, fell into mud which had glass, woke.

On Run, had psychic powers, Russian taking me and companions threat from USA, when realized Russia up to no good was able to knock people out, first 6 (was surprised), then 7. Then Giant Slug cat came bursting down corridor. Dodged into side room. Side of cat as wall. When touched it expanded into room. Escaped through hatch in roof. On roof Woke.

Seen aliens on mountainside, then back home, me and person acquainted with wanted by usa. Ran through neighbours, workers tried to stop USA. I had to run, woke up.

attempted to remember my dream for the first time in awhile and I was successful. THey were quite weird though.

The first one was in an unclear house (for some reason in my dreams my house or friends houses are always more grand, it has been a recurring theme in my dreams all my life) and I was playing castleania game, but it was super awesome and different. My firends were lying around and for some reason my friend justin has a cat with the really large curly tail (like 5ft long). Then my dream shifted.

This one was a little different, as I havent had a lucid dream yet, im not sure if this was or not. I was walking around in a city at night, it was a large city with several entrances on the street, and I realized its the large city from pokemon black. I smile and relaize that I am in control, so I fly up and see the entire city (it was very vivid and real-like) then I fly along the buildings and notice a lng haird guy with sunglasses. I flew down ontop of the roof of the building and walked up to him. I touched the ground for some reason and I could sorta feel it. Then I talked to him and he said something about how pokemon trainers and stupid fools who make more powerful beings fight each other. I had now realized that this was the sunglasses guy from Duel Masters (heres a pic of him http://images.wikia.com/duelmasters/.../f3/Knight.JPG) He was much more realistic looking though, kind of reminded me of todorov in a way (my friends justins character in a pokemon rpg game my friends and I ran a few years back) thats where I got my username from actually, my character was tsukiomi. Anyways I then woke up with the duel masters theme stuck in my head

GET IN THE BATTLE ZONE! (duel masters...)

I am at the mouth of a huge expanse of caverns, preparing to lead an expedition to find these mystical sources of power. The entrance to this cave is very small but once I crawl through the tiny hole, I find myself inside of a giant chamber with several passages leading out of it. There is no source of light but somehow all of the rock has a dull blue glow. The cave is also chilly and damp. There is a faint odor of mildew. I choose the hole to the far left and begin following a maze. After a while of randomly choosing passages, I end up in a chamber with these statues of ogres holding hammers. On the wall behind them is a blood red war hammer bathed in a bright white light. I walk up to the hammer and touch it with my left hand. I can feel a surge of confidence from my arm to my whole body. I grab it with the other hand and the power is coursing all through my body. As I feel this influx I can see the hammer fading away in my arms. Soon it is gone and I am out of breath; my hands are hot from the touch of the hammer.

A door on the wall opens up where the hammer was before it. I walk through it and I am led down a narrow twisting corridor. Now I am running faster, excited and confidant. There is a slight wind at my back as I run. I find myself in another room. This one smaller than the room before. There are white wooden pillars set where the statures were in the previous room. Hanging from the pillars and forming an arc is a thick eggshell ribbon and behind the ribbon, mounted on the wall is a white sledgehammer similarly bathed in a bright white spot. I walk to the ribbon, step over it and then stand very close to the hammer. I pause for a second before grabbing it off the wall. Again, I can feel a sensation running through me as the hammer fades away. This time I can feel a calm pass through me, like a peaceful assuredness, and rather than fade the hammer was almost absorbed into my skin.

I did a wake back to bed and induced a wild. The dream began with a swift falling sensation and all the sudden i was in an area that was kinda like outer-space but instead of stars there were neon lights everywhere, very bright neon lights. I just flew around for a while checking out everything to see what i could find... nothing but a bunch of neon lights that had no patterns. the next thing i remember i was landing down onto earth. as i looked up i saw the moon in the distance and the task/goal of the month came into my head (crash the moon into earth and see what happens) So.. i start willing the moon down toward the earth but it had no chance of hitting hard. I then tried to make a command for the moon to hit the earth but it woke me up. I instantly did a realitly check and saw i was still dreaming. I then stood up and flew around the house, trying to fly threw the roof many times but with no succes. I woke up again did a r.c i was still dreaming so i decide im going to use the front door but i just couldnt manage to get the door open. it was like some force was holding me back. i then tried to fly threw the window but i had the same problem. I also tried to fly into a mirror with little succes (only my feet went into the mirror) I gave up and just flew around the house for a little while. I woke up again! i realize im still dreaming when i try to take the blankets off of me to stand there is an identical blanket underneath it, everytime i would lift a blanket there would be another blanket. the last couple of blankets were all elmo blankets with a creepy elmo face looking at me each time i pulled a blanket off...WTF? frustrated, i kick all the blankets off me with my feet, i realize my feet are leaving trails when i move them. I played around with that for a minute and stood up. My girlfriend walked out of the room and she was pregnant, I said to her (your not really prego, this is dream land) she looked at me with a digusted face and walked away. I woke up again, I layed there for a minute recalling my dreams then thought HMMMM... am i still dreaming? Indeed i was, at that point my G.F walked out of the room and started doing dishes. Totally amuzed, i walk over and watch her wash them. i then started taking her clean dishes and laying them on the floor she didnt seem to care, she was calm and just picked them off the floor and re-washed them. I woke up again and looked down at my hands, HOLLY SHIT im still dreaming, will i ever wake up. and right when i thought that i woke up for real.

many more things happened in these false awakenings, one time we had sex another time i was shape-shifting. its really hard to remember exactly what happened and in what order. all together it seemed like a good 30-45 minutes of being lucid.... my best run yet!