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So.. I was really unsure about posting this just because it's sort of.. intense. But I decided that it's just a dream and I've posted so many other not-so-pleasant dreams on here so I guess I'll post this one.

Rape
This is my third(I think) dream about a rapist but the first one that involves.. me.

I was in my house when some guy around my age barged in and started chasing after me. I tried to find a place to hide but he chaded me down and found me right away.

Spoiler for a bit graphic:

He dragged me into a room and I laid down on the bed and he got on top of me. I didn't put up much of a fight because I didn't want him to hurt me any more than he already was. I don't remember this part very much, but I know he did the deed and then got off me. He did this twice during the dream.

Afterwards, he acted like nothing had happened and so did I because I wanted him to trust that I wouldn't tell anyone so that he would leave. Unfortunately, he was too smart to leave right away. I tried to get away again but he would chase me down right away. So I just tried to be calm and casual and then he saw the hot tub in my backyard. I asked him if he wanted to go in it and he said yes. I told him I didn't feel like going in and that I would just stay in the house. I promised him that I wouldn't call or say anything to anyone or try to get away, and he actually believed it. He thought we were 'pals' then. So he went out to the hot tub and I quickly locked all the doors so he couldn't get back in. I ran to a room to find somewhere to hide but decided I was safe enough to stay where I was and call for help. I called 911 and told them everything. Then someone else was there with me, maybe a neighbor or something, and the guy was trying to get back in the door as the neighbor or someone blocked it. I was terrified that he would get back in so I held the door shut until one of my parents, my dad I think, came home. I told him what happened and we got in his car and sat there until the cops showed up. It seemed to take forever for them to arrive, but when they did come there was around six of them. I finally felt safe again..

Shopping
I had another dream about shopping for a birthday gift for my friend and I went to mayfair mall with one of my other friends to shop. I had a gift card to Victoria's Secret, which happened to be just a small makeup stand in a Khols, instead of a whole store. I had no idea what to get and my friend was helping me pick stuff out but I didn't really want to buy any of it. Then she just sort of ignored me and walked off to shop for some clothes and I followed her. I went to try something on so I sat in a waiting area with some other people from my school. They were laughing a little at me, I think because I was dressed in a hoodie and jeans while everyone else was dressed all fancy and 'cool'. I laughed to myself then and thought, "Yea well atleast I don't have to go shopping all the time and spend 1,000$ a month on clothes." I was happy the way I was.

Morning of Sun 06/19/2011

200mcg huperzine-a
4mg nicotine
1mg melatonin

Wake @ 2:30 am
Bed @ 4:00 am (so annoying that it takes me so long to get back to sleep)

Dream 1: I was talking to a baby with a really round head, blonde hair and startling blue eyes. At first I was going to pass it by, but I turned back and asked the baby to tell me something about myself. It said, "You are inquisitive and (something about awareness)."

Dream 2: I was moving into a new apartment, in a special complex. My mother was asking about the phone installation (IWL she use to be a telephone cable repair tech.) and I asked her why she wanted to know, because she's retired. She told me she gets called in for special contracts because she is the only one who can do certain types of work...I didn't want to tell her where my new place is, I didn't want her to mess with my phone and there was something with an image of Taylor in my mind when I was talking to her. I was evasive and annoyed because it felt like she was being smothering or invasive.
(***note - later in the day, I felt emotionally vulnerable. I saw some dragonflies over the fence, and my sister remarked that my grandmother had loved them. I didn't know that, and several thoughts of how dragonflies are a meaningful symbol to me and a particular experience with one just before I left the state all converged and I felt my grandmother's caring, guiding presence and burst into tears...my sister was really surprised by my display of emotion. Also, later, my mother came to me in the kitchen and said, "Thank you for being my daughter." which is really different from her usual "thank you for putting up with me."...and we hugged and kissed and I felt very tender toward her (VERY unusual, my mother and I have never been close)..and I spontaneously said to her, "Thank you for being my mother, nobody else could have done it like you." Which seems related to the "special contract" part of the dream. I'm quite pleased with the integration and processing work that seems to be happening!!***)

Snippet: I remember doing an RC by pinching my nose shut and realizing I could breathe but apparently I either don't remember what happened or the lucidity was very brief.

(I know there was something before this but have no recall of it)
I am sitting on the side of a pier by the sea, with my friend kasper and two other boys I have never seen before. We are all in school uniform (DS). We are just talking about nothing much and then two girls approach us and just stand there looking at us, they are also in school uniform (DS). Suddenly I start headbanging for no apparent reason.

All amount to a bunch of really awesome dreams.
If only my daughter hadn't kept waking me up and I remembered it all. Now I'm left with mostly snippets.

There were 2 groups. One was new and made up only of werewolves. They hated the older group which consisted of both. They felt the werewolves should be with them (with the older group, a vampire was the leader).
There was also some sort of infection going around that drove people insane. I guess it turned them into a sort of zombie. The only way you could tell was by having sexual relations with the males and looking at the semen. If it was bloody, they were zombies. In the dream, werewolves and vamps could procreate.
The new group was tested against their will once they were overpowered. They were all clean. Someone got into the head of the new groups leader and showed him that there WAS a better way. Peace could exist between everyone.

A human was with the old group. During a battle she nearly died but the leader saved her. The leader was asked why- the attacker said she would make the leader a perfect mate in the next realm. The leader told the questioner there could be no such joining in the next realm because the vamps are of a different mind and such complete knowledge would completely kill the essence of a human.

A member of the old group was diseased however. He disappeared, taking the young daughter of the human with him. He went back in time and set up raids, killing all he chose. But then the leader eventually found him, some years later. The leader dug a hole and disposed of the body of his former friend.

That's all I recall. I had a role in the dream, but I don't recall what it was. I only remember the gist of an awesome story. Parts I skipped over include a female vamp causing trouble for the new group because he denied his son. He said spirits cause pregnancy, not joining where werewolves and vamps are concerned. He said another made her pregnant but the child was obviously his.
Before the new group was tested, time passed in slow motion. And one of the new members was upset because the woman testing him was like a mother to him.

I don't recall much of the flying dream. There was an accident with an RV. I got lost trying to lead some people to it. I was flying to get a better view.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Woke up and felt pissed off for some reason. I was in a very bad mood and I knew it had to be because of something I had dreamt. After a few minutes of probing I only got flashes from random dreams, but when I was visualizing myself being lucid it came to me. I had been lucid and I had done something I haven't tried before. I guess I was pissed because I knew I had forgotten it.

22.30: Sleep

05.10: Fragments
*I'm already lucid and I'm flying. I know I will lose the dream if I don't focus on anything so I decide to fly as low as possible. I keep my eyes downwards and soon I begin to tumble around. I land and look around. It's a barren meadow, like a steppe. There's a tree that has been cut off next to me, I sit down at the remaining trunk. "I'm going to try to meditate" I tell a guy nearby. I have no idea who it was, but he was a smiling fellow. I sit down and begin to levitate. I can't sit in a meditational pose in real life, but here I can do it with ease. I just sit there, breathing, watching the peaceful landscape around me.

*I'm with my friend Henrik in a big building. We're going to a party on the top floor and we take an elevator each. I reach the top and a second later he walks out of his.

*I climb up a tall shelf or something like that. From up there I can see a few puppies. They're whining because they have lava on their paws. I jump down and tell my dad we have to relieve them from their misery. I grab an axe and intend to end their suffering. My sister starts yelling at me, I yell back.

05.10: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 6½ hours

Supplements: None

That's it!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Length: Quite a while
Lucid: Only in some parts
Accuracy: Well, it was mostly clear, but parts fadded as I woke.

I was taken to a town. It was a renncoance type town, and very pretty. There was a stone path way with different buildings and stores. Lights hung from building to building like Christmas lights. It was night time. The whole dream was night. Now, I don't remember who took me, but I remembered why. They said I was a were-wolf. That I could turn into a wolf, and this place they would keep me^ forever so I could train to shift and work for them. I joined a group of about 20 kids, all my age at a carnvial type stand. Like when you go to a carnival and you see all those carnival games? That type of stand. They wanted a health-check to see if I really was a were-wolf and they checked my teeth of all things.

So I passed and then we were all taken to a feild. As we left town the area became more like the country. Big corn feilds we passed as we hiked down a dirt path. Soon we stopped at a huge feild. Just a huge green grassy feild. A small ruin castle was near us. We were to begin training as wolves he.

Our first assignment was to build a fort and crouch behind it. I remember thinking how odd that was considering it was a feild and I didn't have a fort by time, time was up. The man training us was very stern and cruel and he said pretty much that I sucked and to bad.

The next assignment was A game of tag. It wasn't like normal tag because when the other person found you, you could fight them. It was to "help our wolfish senses". The game of tag I remember was extraordinary because you could run as long as you like without faltering or tiring and you could do these flips over people. When I got raged I easily fought off my opponent in the ruin castle. I was invincible! Now by this point in the dream, I had fully excepted that I was a shape-shifter and I would be staying there for life.

The last thing I saw before my dream came to end was another group of older kids in the corn feild. It was another group of were-wolves and we watched them shift into wolves and it must have startled me so much I woke up around 10:00AM

I'm not into twilight and all, by wolves are my favorite animal so I think I might have an idea where my mind got this one from XD

Shit! Don't move, don't open your eyes! Stay...stay...
Back to sleep.

Alright! I'm back in my old house, and fully lucid! Time to go! I think about Spartans and head down the hallway. I go into the bathroom. But, there's no bathroom. I'm in Sparta. Shit! I need to think more specifically when I use the door method! I now head out, and see an absurd door. I go in, and there's a dark, dark room. I go in further. Then, I hear giant footsteps. I then, awake! SHIT! I hear real footsteps now. Dammit! It's my damn brother. His obnoxious footsteps woke me up. I try to DEILD again, but it's no use. I don't feel the leat bit tired. Damn!

I find myself at school(DS). I'm sitting by Red, and Sean. We're sitting at an unusual table set up, in a classroom(DS) we've never been in(dreams do that :rollseyes: ). We are all waiting for class to start. I oddly have a giant tin filled with Pokémon cards(odd). Red sees them. He then takes the tin and opens it. He looks in it, shaking his head pitifully.
"That's just sad." he says. He's really starting to piss me off now. I take the tin back and close it. I then hide it under my pencil pouch. Although, the pencil pouch isn't good cover though. As you can clearly see the Pokémon pictures on the sides of the tin.
"I'm trying to sell these so I can get money to fix my guitar." I say(Let the record show, my Epiphone Les Paul Junior does need a neck adjustment.). He shakes his head like he thinks I'm lying. Whatever. Be an asshole Red. So now, class is in session. The teacher assigns us partners(I have no damn clue who the teacher is...I've never had her). We now go sit down by our partner. I take my things and set them down at my new seat. Then, they just like magic, spill everywhere. Shitpaste! The tin now slides off the table and all the cards spill out. SHIIIIIT! Now, Aaron B. picks up the tin. He begins to laugh. Shit! Shit! Shit! "I'm just trying to sell the fucking ards because I need money. For God's sake! I don't even watch Pokémon! And I haven't collected cards for years. Yea, I play the games...but asstons of people do!" I say(not my exact words, but very close). Then, Brandon M. sets down five dollars.
"I'll take them." he says with a chuckle.
"Five dollars is NOT worth all of those." I reply. So, he takes his five bucks and goes away. Aaron starts to clean up the cards.
"This day just keeps getting fucking worse!" I say(those were my exact words that time).
Now, I just leave. There's conveniently a door in here that leads outside the school(DS). I get on my knees and start to cry. Why the hell is this happening to me?! I just ruined my life in under a minute. As if my life wasn't fucked up enough(I'm currently experiencing real life divorce, and my mother is a cheater)! Now, Lauren M.(DS) comes outside. Oh fuck! This really sucks now! I can't let her see me balling(Thank God this was a dream...but of course, I don't realize it...yet). See comes over to me. Go away! Please don't look at me like this! See pulls me up from my fetile position, and hugs me. I settle down. Why is she hugging me?! Does she feel bad for me? Wow. I feel lucky to have such a close friend. Now, she brings me to her home(I honestly don't know where she lives). The inside of her house oddly resembles the FCS classroom(DS).
"You should take a bath and relax yourself." she says. Okay. I go into the bathroom and start the water. I unclothe and sit down. At first the water is really cold. Shit! Cold water! My Jusenkyo curse! I now turn into a girl. Oh crap! Not here! I get out and reclothe. I see there's a window. I jumps out. Shit! I left the water running! Then, before I go back in, I hear knocking on the bathroom door. Shit!!!
"Hey! How's it goin' in there?" Lauren asks. "Um...hello?" Now, she opens the door. I run away from the house now. She screams, and it's really loud. I now run all the way to my old house. Phew! Safe(Odd, my house is probably miles from hers). I now go to the back yard. I see the back yard has been converted into a beach. There is currently a party happening. Hm. I'd like to go swimming. The water feels really good. Good thing I was already in girl form! This water is cold! Soon, the waves start pulling me further out. Shit! I resist and try to walk back to shore. These waves are fucking strong! Then, I get knocked over by a wave. Damn! I dig my hands into the sand underwater and pull myself in. I eventually reach shore. I walk over to a big basketball hoop that's set up. Behind it, is about a 6 by 6 pit that's about 45 feet deep. What the hell is that there for?! Now, a little kid, probably about 6, starts playing by it. Me and some other dude start bitching at him to get way from there. So, we now find a bunch of objects and place them around the pit. There, now he'll be safe. Now, I go inside to see what else has changed. Well, new furniture and arrangements, but oddly, all the rooms are in the right place. I go into what was originally my parents room. I sit down on a couch with some party-goers. I begin to think about the horrible events of today. School(DS), and Lauren(DS). Then, it hits me. What the hell?! This...is a dream! Ha ha! How convenient! I now smile. I head back outside. Everyone is talking about two NASA ships that are about to take off. And not to far away either. Cool! So, we now see two ships fly up into the air. I notice an oddity though. The two orange jets and the big white jet that are attached to them both aren't working! Now, both ships fall back. Oh son of a bitch! Now, we see two HUGE explosions. Oh fuck! Now, the explosions rage through the houses towards us! No dammit! No! Not now! I need to do the 300 TOTY! I need to fly! I get ready to jump, when the flames sweep over us. I awake. SHIT!

6-19-11
Bear's halloween costme is a dog and owner. Large elaborate dog costume mostly gray and black body paint and a dog collar. People wonder if there some kind of psycho-sexual compnant to it. I have the song 'city of new orleans' stuck in my head.

6-20-11
Lost Oakleys
Riding in the 4runner with R. He is driving. My wife is riding in the back seat. He puts an expensive pair of sun glasses back there and later can't find them. Later, he calls her to tell her that he has to help him pay thousands of dollars for new sunglasses. After he gets off the phone with her. I find the sunglasses on the floor of his truck. He takes them and puts them on without saying a word. It pisses me off that he won't say sorry or thank you or that he even tried to get her to pay for them in the first place but I just seethe.

New House
Driving through a neighborhood for the possibility of a new house to buy. The one we look at is very cheap but a hole as been blown entirely through one side. The hole looks like a wrecking ball has come through. It's white on the outside and the inside has an unpainted light brown/gray look to it. The house was formally owned by a former friend who abandoned his wife after she got pregnant with her first kid. Though you can see sunlight coming in through holes in the ceiling, the house is fully furnished with stuff that looks like it came from other old houses. There is a poppazon chair and a matching set of old green love seats. Also in the living room is an empty Entertainment console with a few wires that connect to nothing.
I walk into a second room and there are several bookshelves, half full. On the shelves are several novelizations of comic books and a few special edition comic books, including a signed edition of the death of superman from 1997 and full bound set of X-Men novels that don't exist, including the first 2 movies and then Wolverine the movie, and the sequel, Wolverine Unbound. I start putting a few of the books in my bag.

I took the kids to school and decided to try the Drop and roll technique or whatever its called lol

I'm in a house, there is a Jamaican lad there, i am waiting with my eldest daughter for my hubby to come home, he came home at one point but then he went again , i ask her where he went and she says she doesn't know, anyway another man comes in , he has a dark complection and long blonde hair, i look at him and for a minute i think he is my hubby, i say "what you done to your hair" ((didn't even mention his skin colour had changed)) he says "its always been like it" then i realise he's not my hubby!! This man was like a king or something in Jamaica and he was throwing a party, i went to the door and lots of people all came into the house, i say "look there all coming to see you" they go outside and i follow them, there is lots of food on tables, i look and see small pieces of bread and can see ham on it i'm hungry and take some and eat it, it was nice, i said "heres some ham ones" i look at the others, its like cracker stuff with black stuff on it, maybe fish or something and something else mixed with it, i try some and it tastes bloody awfull. I go back inside and i say to my eldest "there is a party outside you coming" she says "it's not our party were not allowed" I take a gulp of horror and feel bad and sit down. The king bloke stands infront of me and says something, i chuckle at him as he is funny and say something back, a woman by him says to another woman "fancy talking like that to someone as important as him" by this time he is now bald, i look and think "knackers to ya" he walks past and sings and i chuckle again, i get the feeling he likes me and doesnt mind how i speak as he himself is down to earth. We are now in the garden and i see some dogs, a large white one, a large blacky-brown one, and 5 small white puppies, i walk to them and try and stroke a pup but the brownish one , the male, snarls at me and bites my hand, it didn't hurt but scared me. I back off and he keeps snarling so i move away.
((DREAM SKIP))
I am in bed, my eldest is trying to wake me up and suddenly i see her under the duvet with me i jump and say "what you doing here" quite amazed she got in without me knowing, she giggled and says "i don't know" ((DREAM SKIP))
I am back in the house and there are some more puppies, they are black and i pick them up and hold them, i feel very safe with them, they are very loving and enjoy the attention, the big black one comes along ((the mother i suppose)) reminds me of my Ellie ((our dog that died a few weeks ago)) she cuddles me and she feels just like her and i give her a big cuddle and stroke her and give her pups back to her. ((DREAM SKIP))
I'm lying in my bed and have my eyes closed, i could hear crunching noises mixed with some other odd noises and i thought i was still awake trying to get into SP, ((not sure if i actually woke for a few seconds or was still in a dream)) i felt a spinning sensation and twisting, i then remember what i have read on DV about rolling out of your body into your dream body, or rock forward and backward, not to physically do it but imagine yourself doing it ((only read about that last night)) anyway, i imagine rocking back and fourth, i could hear real crunching noises as i tried, very odd noise, i then stop, open my eyes and sit up, I hold my nose and try to breathe and TADAHHHH!!! I can breath, it is the weirdest feeling ever. I can hear like pots etc. claniging about downstairs ((i now feel my body in bed and quickly divert my mind onto my dream so i don't get pulled out..very odd feeling lol)) I get up and make my way down, i pass my daughters room, i see a small purple coat hanging from a blind in her doorway, i touch it as I pass, i can really feel the material. I turn and make my way down the stairs , i look down and can see beautiful crafted wooden frames at the bottom, they are all around the ceiling area, like small wooden windows, the detail is amazing i can also see the sun rays through the glass making it shine.. I remember thinking "maybe this is what it will look like in years to come" I carry on down and get to the bottom, I look around, it is alot bigger than my house, not like it atall. I need the loo so i make my way to look for the toilet, my eldest came out of a room to my right , it looked to me like the kitchen area, she looked at me and begins to yell out "ohh my god, its my cousin" i giggled inside and thought "yeah, sure i'll go along with being your cousin" I really did think this was soo funny. she hugs me and i say "look i need a wee" she looks at me with a serious face and says " you can't go" i then think to myeslf "shit to what you say, its my dream and i'll go where i like" I look at her and say "ahh, thats ok, i'll just fly up into the sky and take a piss there, no one will know" She opens the door and i walk outside. It's night time, and it's raining, i look up to the dark sky and put my arms up like superman and push myself off the ground, up i go, it's amazing, i had my wee and chuckled to myself about it I then land on a path, i look to my right and see 2 ponies, a white one and a brown one, one was a little bigger than the other ((these were in a few dreams i have had now and have spoken to me before)) they were standing on a corner just watching. I look up again and see lights, big blue ones hanging from a piece of wire, i decide to take a swing on one, i fly up to it a little and hop on..i begin to swing and get aroused from the feeling of it between my legs, i thought "i'mnot waisting my lucid having an orgasm" so i jump off and land on the ground. I decide to take a walk, i'm a little chilly and wet from the rain but i don't care ((never thought to change the scene..dohhhh!)) I decide to fly again but this time don't get very far, it is like a crash landing!!! lol, I decide to keep to my legs for now. I'm walking along a wide path and pass a few houses, the dream is very clear but for the hell of it i rub my hands together and call out "CLARITY NOW" The dream stays as it is but my voice is echoing, i don't like it and don't know how to stop it so i randomly call out "STOP ECHOING NOW" lmao then i say "echo" and it is still echoing, i then was back in bed, i can hear the crunching noises again and feel the spinning sensation, i concentrate on it but it goes then i wake up. Not sure if this was a WILD or a DILD anyone????

NORMAL DREAM
LUCIDITY
NOT VERY VIVID
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At the beginning my mother was around and her car I think was there. Then I was in a petrol station and was stroking a horse’s fur; Horsepower , there were these other people there too, one of the women looked at me as I was stroking the horse’s fur. I would not really go near a horse in real life and to add that it was in a petrol station.

I then woke up lucidly so I decided to go outside. I went out the back door at dad’s house and outstretched my arms and started to fly. I did not need to flap my wings or anything; I did move my arms flexibly around however. I saw the sun and it was huge, there were massive sun spots too. The sun was at least 8 times the size of the moon.

I thought about it and then decided to teleport to the sun, I said "take me to the sun". I was almost immediately in the orbit of the sun. I got a bit excited and decided to get back on earth but I only got in its orbit looking down on it. The earth looked slightly electronic with glowing hexagons on the surface.

In between teleports it was like travelling through a wormhole with the dream space/time whipping around into a vortex. I decided to go on a mission, my lucidity faded here.

Other dream characters were telling me not to go. I came to a conclusion there was something wrong with the planet (earth) so I decided to teleport to another one that did not belong to humans. I took note that I could teleport into trouble. As in in-front of a being that would not friendly towards me. I decided to go to a lab as a spy, to change something I felt was needed. I affirmed, along the lines of: 'take me to the lab hidden from personnel with access to equipment.’ As if i was an infiltrator on a secret mission.

There were loads of people running around in this building with loads of stairs leading up and down. I decided to go down, because of other peoples opinions. People where running in both directions. The stairs were made of metal and there was lots of wire fencing so the people could not escape. The atmosphere was quite Eerie. The people had mixed opinions saying they were coming from the top or the bottom. A grenade appeared flying from apparently nowhere and destroyed some of the stair case. Loads of vermin where inside the stair case and a green wriggly tentacle were also there and were now visible as the grenade blew a hole in the stairs. I still decided to go down as the explosion exploded the adjacent wall so the aliens were no coming from below. I got to the bottom of the staircase and I saw a room with vermin and loads of pigeons, there were cages and wooden structures like shelves, it was very dark down there. A pigeon occasionally pooped, it's as if nobody really went there.
The scene changed, it was as if I was in a video game because I missed a ramp and my 6% below average turned to 12% below average, the percentage was shown on my dream like a HUD display on a video game. I was not in a car. It was kind of like monsters Inc. PS-one game. I thought I had to average well again to get my score back up.
My brother was around. My Brother/someone else commented and said that I have been dreaming for about 3 hours, I said I should wake up now. I looked at the time and decided to end my dream and wake up (it seems my lucidity fluidly came back). The hand positions on the clock read about 5 minutes to 11:00, but the numbers were messed up, the time numbers showed the time at around 2:00.

I falsely woke up and saw the time and the hands were positioned further anticlockwise, but each hand was the same distance from each other (I failed to notice the sign however). The clock was about 2 feet diameter and was outside by the way, to add to that, it was light outside and not dark. I then talked about how dream time must be faster than real life and I got people to help me write, I got a person to write whatever I say down, I was going to write key words. I said "right” (as in ‘Right, let’s get going’) and my scribe quickly jotted down a note.
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Symbols (http:\\dreammoods.com) :

Petrol Station - "You need to reenergize and revitalize yourself. You may be running low on energy and need to take time out to refuel. Your ability to convert outside resources and use it for your own needs. Alternatively, you need to reach out to others and offer your help."

Horse - "Strength, power, endurance, virility and sexual prowess. It also represents a strong, physical energy. You need to tame the wild forces within. You may also be "horsing around". Alternatively,you need to be less arrogant and "get off your high horse". "

Woman - "Nurturance, passivity, caring nature, and love."

Flying - "A sense of freedom where you had initially felt restricted and limited."

Sun - "Peace of mind, enlightenment, tranquility, fortune, goodwill, and insight. Radiant energy and divine power. Abnormalities and peculiarities to the sun's appearance represents some sort of pain or chaos occurring in your waking life.
+ Spots - imperfections, but OK.

Vortex - (I Don't know)

Electronic earth - "You need to be "grounded" and realistic. Perhaps your sense of stability and security is lacking. Consider the consistency of the earth for additional significance on how you are feeling (electronic - robustness). Wholeness and global consciousness. You are interconnected with the world."

Teleportation - "Your desires to escape your current situation or to move more faster and easier through it. You may be expressing some frustrations with how your waking life is proceeding and the slow speed that it is moving at."

Spy - "Your mistrust of others and your tendency to be in everyone's business and affairs. Perhaps you have recently stumbled upon some information that was not meant for your eyes."

Going down stairs - "Your repressed thoughts. You are regressing back into your unconscious. setbacks that you are experiencing in your life."

explosion - "Your repressed anger. The rage that you have been holding in has come to the surface in a forceful and violent manner."

vermin - "sickness and trouble. You will be faced with many disappointments and obstacles. Alternatively, the dream refers to some dirty situation."

Darkness - "Failure in some work that you are attempting. Darkness is synonymous with ignorance, the unconscious, evil, death, and fear of the unknown."
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Interpretation:
You need to reenergize and revitalize yourself. You may be running low on energy and need to take time out to refuel. You need to reach out to others and offer your help and stop "Horsing around" and be less arrogant. You need to tame the wild forces within to become Strength, power, endurance, virility and sexual prowess and have a strong, physical energy, Nurturance, passivity, caring nature, and love, and to have a sense of freedom where you had initially felt restricted and limited.

Imperfections are covering the great Peace of mind, enlightenment, tranquility, fortune, goodwill, insight, Radiant energy and divine power. Perhaps your sense of stability and security is lacking. You are interconnected with a world which is modern and high tech Wholeness and global consciousness.. You need to be "grounded" and realistic. This is shown in Your desires to escape your current situation or to move more faster and easier through it. You may be expressing some frustrations with how your waking life is proceeding and the slow speed that it is moving at. Your mistrust of others and your tendency to be in everyone's business and affairs. Perhaps you have recently stumbled upon some information that was not meant for your eyes.

Your repressed thoughts and setbacks that you are experiencing in your life, and your repressed anger. The rage that you have been holding in has come to the surface in a forceful and violent manner. Which will cause sickness and trouble. You will be faced with many disappointments and obstacles or another dirty situation which could lead to Failure in some work that you are attempting, or ignorance, the unconscious, evil, and death.

Very assuring Hope you liked this. If you've got any improvements regarding the structure of my journal I will be willing to accept. Thanks.

cant remember any dreams over the weekend.

i can remember a big spider in a dream last night but that is ALL i remember.

So I 'woke up' in the dream about 15 minutes after I went to sleep, I hardly felt SP besides a little spinning in the head which was weird. I had the lucid dream at first in my room which is very normal for me. I did like five different reality checks because I couldn't believe that I was in a lucid, they all came out positive of course. Yet, I still didn't believe I was in a full lucid so I tried to close my eyes again and get deeper which is where the craziness starts. I visualized a new scene which was my full upstairs and kitchen. In real life I was about to bring some alcohol to my friend Nate's house so I had it sitting on the counter. So in my dream I pictured the alcohol there also, and it worked I appeared in my kitchen and my mom had just got home. She asked me why I had her alcohol on the counter. At that point I had the weirdest feeling I ever had in a dream I felt like I was super, super drunk. I was passing out everywhere I went like I was too tired and drunk. I couldn't answer any questions and I knew it was a dream so I felt no need to. I stumbled over to a wrap around table and laid my head down while she was still talking to me. She grabbed my face and started lightly slapping me and say Derrick come on wake up... What should I make for dinner tonight? I couldn't even respond I was passing out but I was still fully lucid the dream was not fading.
I then appeared in my bed again, with some crazy sensations. By third eye area was going crazy with tonsss of pressure my body was waving like I was smoking weed, I was hallucinating like I was on shrooms and I still had the drunk feeling all at the same time. I also felt SP hitting me while I was in the lucid don't know how that happened, but the waves were going through all of my body, and certain pressure points hurt really bad. I tried to stand up in this false awakening which at the time I thought was reality, I managed to stand up but then I fell STRAIGHT on my face directly on my nose. At that point I knew I was in a dream because I felt like I floated before I hit the ground so I wasn't hurt, but it was a complete loss of muscle control.

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was at my mom's house, which was in an apartment complex. A family living upstairs from my family was really noisy. It was really getting to the point where my family couldn't take it anymore.

We were all now down in an underground parking garage. The walls were really clean and white. The fluorescent light was kind of bright and really white.

Something had been done about the family upstairs. It was like the police had kicked them out.

Now we saw an old man from the family. He had grey-black hair and a big, grey-black mustache. His hair was really sloppily done. He had a pretty big belly, which his white polo shirt barely covered. He wasn't the father of the family. He was just a member of the family who should have moved out a long time ago.

He had come to ask my mom for some help. I told my mom to stay away from that guy. She had finally gotten free of him. Why would she let him back into her life? But my mom decided to help the guy.

The guy needed help on a test. When the police had kicked the man out of the house, they'd told him the only way he could come back was if he could pass a test with a lot of questions about American society and history. But the man couldn't understand most of the questions. So he was getting help from my mom.

Dream #2

I was in a bedroom. I'm pretty sure I was at someone else's, possibly my family's house. I was playing some kind of white Game Boy that had a clear purple case around it. Then I left the bedroom.

Before I'd left, I'd seen an upstairs neighbor, an old, black man with a really skinny bony face, pale skin and blonde-brown hair, peeking in the window at me, as if the bedroom were in a one-story house and not an apartment.

I came back to the bedroom. I realized that I'd left my Game Boy just sitting out on my bed, where it could be in plain view of the old man. I wanted to put it in a less visible place. But there was a girl standing in front of the door. She wouldn't let me in. She was a pretty, Latina girl in a colorful dress. I knew she was the old man's friend.

I pushed past the girl and went into the bedroom. The Game Boy was gone. Only the purple case was left. I walked into the living room, upset. The living room was like the one in my great-grandmother's old house.

Just as I walked into the living room, the old man walked in. He was grinning like he knew just what was going on. He was wearing some kind of suit, maybe beige or tan with a white or blue shirt. I yelled at him, "Where's my Game Boy?" But he just sat down in a chair and kept grinning, like I couldn't do anything to hurt him. I think I got really mad and shook him.

Dream #3

I got something in the mail that looked like a greeting card mixed with a letter-sized envelope. It opened on the long side, and it was supposed to be opened so that it flapped upward.

There was some printed information inside about how I'd been drafted into the Army. Below the printed information were two handwritten numbers, both long, and involving both letters and numbers. I think they each began with an A and a dash.

I hoped there was some way I could avoid being drafted. I thought, Well, I have a job already. Then I thought, No, I don't have a job. Well, I better get one quick.

Vague memory of dream fragments. I remember sitting with my father. He wanted to wear my socks. I thought it was weird cus my socks are dirty but he did take them on.

*fuzzy*

We have arrived at our grandmother's house with the car. There's some kind of party, we go inside and my granddad is sitting in his chair. The furniture was moved tho, the whole building looked different. it wasn't the real house. I kissed my granddad in the cheek and as i did that i realized... My grandfather is dead. This can't be, it's a dream. I try to pinch my nose not really sure if i could breathe. I COULD BREATHE!. Holy cow this is a dream. My heart starts pounding. I say to myself relax, don't get too excited just do what you have to do.
I want to go outside and i mentioned this. My neace wanted to go with me so i took her with me. We walked down the street and i thought i'd try to fly. I take a sprint and i lift off. I can barely fly, i floated a little but fell to the ground. My neace and passer-by's didn't seem at all suprised that i was able to fly. (barely)
We are riding a bike. My memory is vague but we arrived in my own town. There where loads of people going around their normal business. It was a busy street near the mall. I remember looking around and thinking. This is so real. This looks exactly like it does when awake. I wasn't even sure if i was really dreaming , nothing was really different than when i'm awake.
I remember i wanted to go to the moon. So i decided to try and draw a portal on the floor. I moved my nails and tried to make a circle. I was a little bit embaressed doing this in a public area because goddammit this was so real. All those peope that pass by must think i'm a lunatic. Well... no portal ever appeared. There was a drain in the middle of the circle. The one u find in cities. I thought maybe i can push it like a button and a portal will appear. Nothing. In retrospect maybe i should have opened it and went inside . how dumb.
I thought about my body lying in bed. I was suprised to be still dreaming. But i woke up.

Jumped out of my freaking bed to write this shit down. Loads to learn. But this was exactly what i needed. It was actually my birthday yesterday so i suppose this was the best birthday gift i could ever have. Saw my granddad AND i went lucid. WINNING!