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Cats

I briefly remember Asuka being a cat. There was a neighboring cat she didn't like much that kept trying to get in our house. I remember opening the door and seeing the cat running up to the door and mewing. I told it to go away and slammed the door in the cat's face.

Weird game

I was in some sort of strange #D video game watching from third person perspective. The floor looked like an ancient meso american temple checkered with various shapes. There were figurines moving about on the floor and they all glowed with a distinct color. I was trying to organize them around on the floor as they were moving about on their own. I wound up almost falling onto the game floor and getting run over by one.

Apartment

Just a vague dream about being in an apartment building with my grandma and a few other people.

Phone wtf.

I was walking around an inner mall trying to fix my phone. In the dream a weird sticky substance was on the phone and I was trying to clean it. Then a similar thing was happening with my glasses. One of the stores in the mall was opening and I recognized one of the guys from McDonald's working there. He was teasing me about something but I forget.

Went to bed 11:30
Goals: Eat something, teleport
4:52 I rem chris and rachelles friends coming over for a bbq, I rem when they leave we are talking about it, we say something about them getting on facebook and them being in the car talking about how well the trip went.

*I rem being outside some strange big house and its some kind of social event. Me and llissa are watching my bro lean against a pillar and he has a beer. In the dream we know that he is drinking a whole lot and are worried he may have too much and even be violent. I rem later in the dream sitting in what looks like my room and he comes in and sits down. He starts talking to me about something but doesnt seem too drunk at all, in the dream i am much less worried about him at this point.

6 Rme talking to my brother

*Rem pooring dog food into my dogs food bowl out of the bag.

Couldnt get back to sleep so got up for a few hours...
9:28 In a classroom with my logic teacher. At first we are all joking around and im standing by the door as people come in. There are two people, one standing by the door and the other sitting in the nearest desk. I pretend to kick the standing one and then do a double kick from the sitting person to the standing person. This time the standing person looks like ethan and he grabs my foot and pushes me onto a desk. He looks like hes gonna start punching me but i know in the dream its all for fun so i start putting my arms up and acting like im trying to fight him off. Everyone in the class starts laughing.

Class starts and we are talking about our stories despite it being my logic teacher. Someone asks him a question and he says that he thinks that story would be a real flop. I commented that if i had used a specific character; that in the dream i was joking about, my story would have been a flop as well and the teacher agreed. Then for some reason he reveals to us that he has some kind of sickness. I cant rem what but when he was talking about it his face got really red.

BTW throughout the dream i was sitting in a desk right next to the teacher. He then talks about how he has lived the last twelve years here and that people have advised him to move somewhere new, perhaps it would help with his depression about the illness or something. He keeps mentioning twelve years, i rem at one point looking at his teeth while he is talking, the way they looked gave me a strange feeling in the dream. Dont rem past this

11:OO I rem watching like a movie, sarumon from lotr watching over a modern city with security cameras placed all over. He zooms in on a fight between a uruk hai and an orc. The orc has the uruk hai in a choke hold or something, i think saruman blasts the orc with the camera but am not sure.

I vaguely rem walking through the woods with a bunch of random people and someone who is supposed to be friends with chris. I rem we were talking about lucid dreaming. I know the convo was longer than this but all i rem is chris' friend asking who had the worst lucid dream, and i said he did jokingly.

22.06.2011

4 and counting. (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This time, I don't remember much from the first part of the dream. The non-lucid part, I mean. I woke up right after I had my lucid experience and while I was still conscious I seared the images from my dream into my memory.

I do remember looking up to the sky, through the window and seeing dark blue clouds that were nearly black around noon. Then I thought to myself "There's no way it's that dark at noon. I have to be dreaming." I did my reality check and it came up dream positive. I was excited but I didn't want my excitement to cause me to wake up so I put my arms down, I took a deep breath and started rubbing my hands together to keep the dream stable. I was then in total darkness. Even the window had disappeared. I felt fine though, there was nothing to be afraid of. I just rubbed my hands together, kept my eyes in front of me and slowly spun until I ended up somewhere new. I didn't have anything particular in mind but I did end up in a comforting, blue-green aura. It was very wavy. The dream felt very stable.

Out of nowhere, the nicotine patch I was wearing caused my heart to start racing and I woke up. The patch helped me remember my dream and helped everything seem more real but I was sick for the rest of the day, even after taking it off right after waking after my next dream.

NOTE: KingYoshi's All-Day Awareness technique is working out great for me.

This is an old Harry Potter dream that I had which dates back to [I]October 12th, 2009[/I]. I thought it was quite funny since I'm usually not this violent. So here it is:

(ps:keep in mind that I was only 15)

<< I had this dream where I got another iPod touch. Okay now to my reparo dream. I dreamt that I was at the entrance of my house and Peter Pettigrew was trying to kill me so I had this knife, slit his stomach and cut his head off but in doing that, my left leg split open so I had to keep saying "reparo" to fix it. Then I walked out of my house and met these other witches/wizards and we were on a hunt for an evil wizard. Next, I don't know where they went but I was in this land called Arcadia and Dumbledore was with me and we were in this kitchen with the evil wizard! Dumbledore then turned into a dog and the evil wizard was trying to lure hiim with treats so I had to do the same. He was going to the evil side and I couldn't stop him. Then, I woke up. >>

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20 Primary Universal Laws

"The Universe is perfectly balanced by natural and moral laws with regulatory vibrations to maintain order, when you work within the laws you can be assured of an eventual positive outcome. When the laws are transgressed you can be assured of suffering; the only purpose of this is to teach you a better way." -Dick Sutphen's book Lighting the Light Within.

1.
The Law of Harmony. This law supersedes even the fundamental law of Karma, for harmony is the supreme potential of balance. The purpose of Karma is to attain harmony. If you through a rock into a pond you disturb the harmony of the pond, you are the cause, the effect is the splash and the ripples that flows out and back until harmony is restored. Similarly, your disharmonious actions flow out into the Universe and back upon you, lifetime after life time, until eventually your own harmony is restored.


2.
The Law of Reincarnation and Karma. Until you have resolved your Karma and fulfilled your Dharma, which are the deeds you must do, you will continue to reincarnate into sequential lifetime upon the earth. Neither God nor the Lords of Karma bestow suffering upon you during these lives, you and you alone decide what you most need to learn and in your earthly sojourns, and for each life experience you seek out other souls, often with shared histories, and always with Karmic configurations matching your needs. Whenever you act with intention you create Karma. Actions are considered to be thoughts, emotions, words and deeds, and the motive, desire and intent behind each. Disharmonious acts must be balanced in the future in this life or in a future lifetime, to have Soul growth.


3.
The Law of Wisdom, wisdom erases Karma. If you have the wisdom to learn your lessons through love and wisdom you can mitigate your suffering. Sadly, we seem to learn the fastest through pain, through directly experiencing the consequences of our actions. As an example, you greedily take from others, and instead of learning through wisdom and love that this is wrong, you have to experience from others someone greedily taking from you, whether later in this life or in a future lifetime.



Example 1: In your last life you were married to a Soul who is your mate today, and whom you cruelly left far another in that previous lifetime. Before you were born into your current life, you agreed to be left by your mate, under similar circumstances—this will allow you to balance your Karma—and directly experience the pain of abandonment. If through the wisdom of Master-Life-Awareness it is easier to detach consciously from the relationship with love, you will ease the pain of parting while also passing your own test, and thus absolving Karma and evolving from within.



Example 2. Assume that you have Astrologically destined a severe relationship test for May of your 35th year. If you have learned through past life awareness, as well as present life learning, to be positive, non-judgmental and without expectations in your relationship you may only experience an argument with your mate on that fateful day in May, but if you haven't learned your past lessons, and have intensified your disharmony during your relationship you might experience a divorce in may of your 35th year.


4.
The Law of Grace. Karma can be experienced to the letter of the law or in mercy and grace. In other words if you give love, mercy and grace to others, you will receive the same in return.


5.
The Law of Soul Evolution. Everyone on Earth shares the goal of Soul evolution whether they realize it or not. We have reincarnated because we desire to evolve spiritually. By rising above all of our fear based emotions and in so doing learning how to express unconditional love we raise our vibrational rate, and move closer to a state of harmony. Even where it appears that we are not evolving we are in reality making progress. We learn through the pain of our disharmonious acts, which can be viewed as our mistakes or failures. This is the law of Soul evolution.


6.
The Law of Bodhisattva. Bodhisattva is a Sanskrit term commonly accepted by most Metaphysical adepts today. It means one who has transcended the need of Earthly incarnations but who has chosen to return to the earth to support others in achieving enlightenment. A Bodhisattva knows he will never really be free until all souls are free. Most serious students of metaphysics have entered the Bodhisattva Development Stage of their evolution.


7.
The Law of Vibrational Attainment. The entire Universe operates on the same principle of vibrational energy. When Einstein discovered that "matter is energy." he opened the door to merging science and metaphysics. The scientists have proved that energy cannot die, it can only transform (reincarnate), and, by its very nature, energy must go forward or backwards, it cannot stand still, for to do so is stagnation, resulting in transformation. You are energy. Your skin, which appears solid, is actually trillions of swiftly moving molecules orbiting each other at a specific vibrational rate; a physical life rate you have earned in the past as a result of how harmoniously—or disharmoniously you have lived your past lives and your current life up until this moment in time. When you are harmonious for a lifetime, you will have attained the highest vibrational rate—the God level.


8.
The Law of Free Will. The law of free will operates in three ways.


1.
Although many of the major events in your life are Astrologically predestined, you always have free will to mitigate the impact of the event, or to transcend it entirely. This will result from how you live your life up to the situation you have destined for yourself to experience. If you give grace and mercy to others, are positive, loving, compassionate, and demonstrate by your action that you have learned past lessons, you can minimize disharmonious experiences!


2.
As you obtain Master of life awareness and develop conscious detachment, you will be far less affected by worldly events than in the past. A Master of Life enjoys all the warmth and joy that life has to offer, but detaches from the negativity by allowing it to flow through him without affecting him.


3.
You always have free will in how you respond to any situation. If you respond with positive emotions, compassion and integrity, you have probably learned your karmic lessons and will not have to experience a similar situation in the future.


9.
The Law of One. Every Soul, living and discarnate, is connected at the level of the collective unconscious, deep within the Higher-Self. We are all part of a great energy gestalt called God, and because we are part of God, we are God. It is the goal of the gestalt to move the energy forward, creating more energy. So, in living harmoniously, we each increase our vibrational rate and intensify the vibration of the entire gestalt. When we are disharmonious, we decrease the vibration of the entire gestalt, because we are one, everything you think, say and do, affects every other Soul.


10.
The Law of Manifestation. Everything manifest begins as a thought, an idea. Ideas and experiences create beliefs which in turn, create your reality. If you are unhappy with your current reality, you must change your beliefs and your behavior. Beliefs can be changed when you recognize those that are not working for you, and begin programming what will create success and harmony in your life. The unlimited creative power of your mind, through dedication, awareness and training, can be the wisdom to rise above your Karma. Within physical and spiritual laws, you can manifest any reality you desire to experience. In regard to changing your behavior, you must decide which disharmonious behavior you want to eliminate. Then be aware that you don't have to change how you feel about something to affect it, if you are willing to change what you are doing.


11.
The Law of Conscious Detachment. Buddha's earthly teachings are best summarized with one of his statements, "It is your resistance to what is that causes your suffering." and by suffering, he meant everything that doesn't work in your life; relationship problems, loss of loved ones, loneliness, sickness, accidents, guilt, monetary hardship, unfulfilled desires, and so on. When you accept what is, you accept the unalterable realities in your life without resisting them. Some things are facts. They exist, and no matter how much you resist them, there is nothing you are going to be able to do about them. Change what you can change, but have the wisdom to accept unalterable situations as they are, without wasting mental or physical energy attempting to change what you cannot change. Out of acceptance comes involved detachment. The ability to enjoy all the positive aspects of life, but to allow the negative to flow through you with out resistance and without affecting you.


12.
The Law of Gratitude. From the perspective of Karma and the Law of One, the more you give, the more you will receive. The more you assist others, the more you will assist yourself. The power of this Law also works in your day-to-day life.


13.
The Law of Fellowship. When two or more people of similar vibration are gathered for a shared purpose, their combined energy directed to the attainment of that purpose is doubled, tripled, quadrupled or more. This esoteric awareness has been used by covens, esoteric religions, healing groups, and recently, worldwide meditations for world peace.


14.
The Law of Resistance. That which you resist you draw to you, and you will perpetuate its influence upon your life. Resistance is fear, so it is something you need to Karmically resolve. The Law of Resistance assures that you let go of the fear by encountering it until you are forced to deal with it by learning conscious detachment.

Example: You may have a strong resistance toward people of the Asian race; Black race, Jewish race, your mother-in-law. Your resistance is fear. The quickest way to overcome that which you fear is through direct experience, thus you will reincarnate as an Asian, Black, Jew, or mother in-law in a future lifetime. When you attain Master of Life awareness and stop resisting [your fear] by consciously detaching from the negativity, the problem will be resolved. Most disharmonious situations are solved through a change in your viewpoint. By changing your perspective, you can usually eliminate the effects of a problem, and if you are no longer affected by a problem, you no longer have a problem, although nothing about the problem situation may have changed. Another aspect of the Law of resistance states, that which you resists, you become, if not in this lifetime, in a future incarnation.


15.
The Law of Attraction. "Where your attention goes, your energy flows." You attract what you are and that which you concentrate upon. If you are negative, you draw in and experience negativity. If you are loving, you draw in and experience love. You can attract to you only those qualities you possess. So, if you want peace and harmony in your life, you must become peaceful and harmonious.


16.
The Law of Reflection. This Law says that the traits you respond to in others, you recognize in yourself, both positive and negative. It has four primary manifestations:


1.
That which you admire in others, you recognize as existing within yourself;


2.
That which you resist and react to strongly in others is sure to be found within yourself;


3.
That which you resist and react to in others is something which you are afraid exists within you; and,


4.
That which you resist in yourself, you will dislike in others.


In other words, you have chosen to incarnate upon the manifest plane to learn to rise above the effect of fear. Those fears will always be reflected in your reactions to others, Thus your goals are very obvious once you recognize how to perceive them. As you let go of the fear, you automatically open to expressing more unconditional love.


17.
The Law of Unconditional Love. The expression of unconditional love will eventually result in harmony. Unconditional love is not romantic love. It is the acceptance of others as they are without judgment or expectations. It is total acceptance of others without attempting to change them, except by our own positive example. The law of unconditional love says, "If you go out of your way to express unconditional love, you automatically rise above fear, and, as you transcend your fears, you automatically open to the expression of unconditional love.


18.
The Law of Magnetic Affinities. By Astrologically choosing the time and place of your birth, you determine the nature or the effects you will experience in your life. On the other side, before we are born, we make decisions about the lifetime we will be entering into. You chose your parents, other souls to interact with you, and the Astrological configurations of your birth which determine your character, personality, abilities, restrictions, and timing for strengths and weaknesses. If all of this seems too complicated to be real, be aware that you are only using five to ten percent of the capacity of your brain. And the brain-mind researchers say the human brain has 200,000 times the capacity of the greatest computer ever built. Such calculations as I've just described would be no problem for such a computer.


19.
The Law of Abundance. You have within yourself everything required to make your earthly incarnation a paradise if you choose to accept that which is your divine birth-right. We live in a Universe of abundance, although the majority of those populating our planet appear to view it as a Universe of scarcity.


20.
The Law of Divine Order, If you seek to understand the Law of Divine Order, study the natural balance of nature, for it works very much the same way. Everything is as it should be, although mankind (our energy gestalt) is far from experiencing its potential of total harmony. There are no accidents. Your energy, translated into thoughts, words, emotions, and deeds, causes all your experiences. This assures that you always have the learning opportunities you require to resolve your Karma, and, as with you, the collective thoughts, words, emotions, and deeds of mankind create the environment for us all. If enough souls focus their energy upon peace, we will have peace. If the majority of souls are filled with anger, we may all have to experience war. We are all one, and like the many sub-personalities within you, the dominant traits of mankind (the entire gestalt) will emerge to resolve our group Karma.


namaste

Dream - Lucid

I remember something about an ex, Brett, recalling us going on some trip. He said we stopped at some old boat. I remember us exploring the boat. It was kind of like the Titanic. He seemed annoyed that we had stopped. I had "remembered" that while we were there, we had sex.

Then, I remember being in my kitchen. I saw a bag of those Butterfinger Snackers. I picked one out of the bag and put it in my mouth. I didn't know why I did that, because I don't like peanuts or peanut butter. But I ate it anyway. As I chewed it, I noticed it didn't really taste too much like peanut butter. I chewed it 50 or so times before I swallowed it.

At some point during my dreams last night, I realized I was dreaming, but quickly forgot.

My recall=horrible. Hopefully after a vacation I can get it back up to par. -_-

Dream Lucid Awake

I wake up after 5 hours and do a 20 min WB2B. I take a Galantamine + Choline pill, right before falling asleep

Riding in the passenger seat of my friend tom's car. We are heading down a two lane road with trees and bright green fields all around us. I ask tom if I can put on a book on tape about serial killers/ghost stories. He says it's fine. We put the tape on and as we listen about this evil woman who haunts families and kills children Tom starts freak out.

We pass over a rickety two lane bridge and then he makes a U-turn. He starts driving fast in the other direction and I ask him what's going on. He won't talk and I ask him where he's going. He drives the car off of the road and down by the river under the bridge. He looks very freaked out. I tell him that this is only a book. That's when I realize that this is a dream. I take a deep breath and I'm ok.

The dream fades to black and I'm back in my body.

I hold still til I DEILD and I'm back in the car with tom. He's still freaking out quietly and staring at the steering wheel. I tell him we can turn off the book and ask him if it's ok if I drive. We walk around the car and I get in the driver's seat. I ask him if this is one of those flying cars and he says of course. I push a button in the center console and say "this is the lift off button right?" he says sure. The car goes up on the air and I get excited. I fly around in the car for a while and pull a couple of barrel rolls.

I see a cute girl on the ground standing by her boyfriend and I think I'd like to make out with her. As I go to land near her I misjudge and accidently land on top of her. The guy starts yelling at me and I'm like "oh Shit" and pull the car back up into the air and fly away again. I land outside of a small corner shop. The shop is like an all old timey wooden seven eleven. Two girls and a guy are inside.

I walk in and kiss one of the girls. She pulls back disgusted like what the fuck are you doing? I grab her shirt by the collar and tear it in half. She has blue flower pasties over her nipples and I pull them off. The guy pulls me around and takes a swing at me. I see it coming in slow motion matrix style and dodge it. I punch at him but my swing is in slow motion and when it hits him it's too slow to do any damage. I look at the other girl and she winks at me. I take her shirt off and I wake up.

The first one that comes to mind is being a very heavyset man. He measured my butt and then told me how much I weighed (131 lbs) and how much of that was fat. Then we went somewhere and was eating something (saltine crackers?) but I ended up hiding them in a drawer so we wouldn't eat them all at once.

I remember something about running across a busy street with someone (my ex or my hubby). One of the Elders was on the other side and the person I was with rushed over to say hi. They shook hands and I was jealous the man with me wasn't shunned (ignored).
We were on a date or sorts and I kept almost ruining it by talking about serious things (The oppression of women was one topic lol), but I ended up turning the date around.

In another dream, I was riding in a car with my dad driving. I was speaking to him about religion and what spirits were/were not. Then I talked about the "afterlife". I closed the conversation by telling him that some of what I said weren't Biblical, but I knew they were correct. I also said, they were my own ideas and not to hold it against any Jehovah's Witnesses he might run across. (A lot of what I told him was stuff I don't believe IRL lol)


>>The religious dreams came about from seeing former Congregation members these last few days while out and about.
I spoke to my mom last night about my dad and my ex
I feel fat
My daughters friend thinks our house is haunted, lol, so the bit about spirits came from there.

I'm surprised I remembered anything at all. Very early this morning, the rabbit woke me up thumping his feet. My daughter has a second friend staying with us and he doesn't know how to close the bathroom door when he's done. Animals ventured in the bathroom which scared bunny. Judging by the water on the toilet seat and the lack of water in the bowl, I'd say both dogs ventured in. Thankfully, they were more interested in toilet water then the rabbit. Needless to say, I brought bunny into my bedroom.

06/21/2011

1mg melatonin

- I woke up with an image of watching two people merge into one. A blonde-haired, blue-eyed "good" guy merging into a 'twin'. A narrative was running through my mind about how the one I was watching was a "man who visits brothels". I slipped out of the dream as my alarm went off and I received a clear message (it may have been in text on a dream-ticker) that "One is part of the All."



06/22/2011

1mg melatonin
200mcg huperzine-a (pm)

- I was walking down a street that looked like it was by 3rd and Pike/3rd and Union area in Downtown Seattle. To my right was a "JCP" department store (JC Penney?). I was surprised that there was one "just down the street from me" and I had only just noticed. (IRL there is one just down the street from me but I don't live in Seattle anymore.) I walked in and the merchandise was all really inexpensive, and extravagantly beaded and glittery gowns and hats mostly in black and gold. I had an idea to buy it all and then resell it "next year", for 99cents a piece, then realized that didn't make sense, I wouldn't make a profit because it cost more than that.

- I was in a kitchen talking to a woman who looked like Heather P. I think we were disagreeing about a philosophical view, emotional tone was more as though I were being lectured. She was kind of ranting about life being a long string of moments and waiting for the NOW that never comes. I was thinking that she probably wasn't making sense. I may have gone into
a small bathroom to hide from her.

- I was in a kitchen washing dishes with a female friend, telling her about the website Baggage Reclaim and how much it helped me when I realized I was emotionally unavailable,
dating emotionally unavailable men. I even shed a few tears. (This was related to a conversation I had with a friend the night before who seems to me to be pretty delusional about her marriage but at least on the right track to sorting things out. I wanted to tell her about how much the information on the site had helped me but it didn't seem appropriate.)

Note to self: I want to remember to process the emotional stuff (a la Ryan Hurd's suggestion) BEFORE I go
to sleep so my dreams aren't doing the crappy processing work.

I usually only post lucid dream online. But this one was different. Almost like being lucid.

I am with some CIA group and we have the power to meditate on who we want to be and we awaken as that person or thing in time. I was trying to control a toy doll for whatever reason. There are other with me. we all lie down. I wake up and there was something about Bill Clinton. I said something funny to him but I also failed the mission by doing that I was jerked back.

This time I am to be this young African American woman.
I am free falling. I am with a woman. We are in transition or leaping. Some man appears and he is going after the same one I am. we argue and I say this one is mine. I surge forward to beat him there. I wake up and check my laptop. I look at the profile and see a picture. I look in the mirror and sure enough. I look just like her. Assassination is my task. I rig stuff up and plug this thing in and I realize I am missing something. An explosion goes off outside too early. Someone is coming. I realize too late I am missing whatever it is I am supposed to have. I grab a large picture and kind of hide my body behind it. I have a large combat knife in the other hand. I figure I can confuse and surprise the person and attack quickly. I am behind a door it opens and I come around with knife held high. It is a pretty young woman and I cannot stab her. I don't want to kill anyone. I know I must. I hesitate she screams and cowers. I am taking too long. I should have don't it already. I am failing the mission. I step forward. I don't want to do it. I suddenly wake up

I am living with Jack Black and I something happens were not getting along. I think maybe he has physiological problems. My mom comes I talk to her about it. Then I go outside and find him tied up. We have to go get the guy that did it.
Something happens at this point I realize I am dreaming.
I find myself in a large room of people. I am walking down the hallway to go in the room and I am telling myself I am dreaming. I feel my hand rub together and I think I should do something funny to scare all the people. I decide to hover and fly in and. I make my face as distorted and scary as I can imagine. I feel my teeth grow huge fangs. I fly in and make an inhuman roar. EVERYONE in the room screams and runs away. The room is totaly empty. I think geez I guess I over did it. I laugh. I walk around the building. And realize I am in a mega church. Everyone everywhere has ran away.
Then the dream shifts and I find myself in the middle of some church play. Its confusing. I see people from tx that I haven seen in years. I am walking down the hallway again and I remember I am dreaming.
I remember that I decided to create a light-saber. I look at my hand but its empty. I keep trying to imagine a light-saber hilt. nothing. I see a mirror and try again. The room gets dark and I see myself with a red light-saber. I twirl it and spin it around like in the movies with all the sound effects. Then I see someone else come at me with a green light-saber. We clash for a moments. The figure fades away then back. It has no light-saber. I wonder where it went. I guess it threw it. I hear it coming. I put my light-saber hover my head behind my back. I deflect the figures light-saber at the last second. Then I force throw my own light-saber at the robbed figure. I see mine past right through with no damage. Like it was a ghost. I see him clearly now. It is a dark skinned man with a green and white robe. He is just standing there calmly with arms crossed in a very sage like stance. I see my light saber return to me but I realize I have no idea how to catch it without getting injured. I see the blade pass through me. There is no pain or sensation. Everything goes black. Death by my own light-saber. What a shame.;)

I tried to DEILD by putting my ipod in a sock then my hand in the sock. then keep my finger on the button to turn the alarm off. It didn't work. I set the alarm for 2:00 and didn't get up till 2:45. My ipod was on the floor. I was just flipping out over the sound for 45 minutes? I turned off the rest of the alarms thinking, this is not going to work.
I went back to sleep and my brain exploded with dreams.

Vividness: 6 mostly. 8 when i started to get lucid.
Lucidity: 7.5 when i was.
Lucid = this
It all started out in my second block class, Mr.P. We were looking at the projector going over some paper that was handed out by some program from a website. I used my Ipod and just told the teacher i was trying to save paper.
-SKIP
I was hiding behind what looked to be like 3 blue bathroom stalls lined up, but it was just like 3 doors leading to this section of the room. There were chains hanging from the bottom to ensure nothing could get through. I was with a friend i don't remember who, but i turned to him and was like "This would be great for zombies."
He looked back at me and said in less its Jeremy(6 ft 7 monster).
-SKIP
I was in my third block class and we had to turn a paper in, i remembered that i gave up in this class and didn't care.(AP, underestimated the work) then i remember going into another room where we keep our things.(not in rl) I went to look for my book bag through every ones things knocked down this one girls purse along with her slushy, She walked in right afterward. I picked up her purse and handed it to her and said "sorry." i grabbed 3-4 tissues from a tissue box and it seemed to be enough to get it wiped up. Then i left the school.
-SKIP
I was at my house looking out the window when i saw my class walk by from school. I thought to my self i thought school was out? How did i get home?(I punched my self in the mourning) I looked at the time it was 2:13. "oh shit, i accidentally skipped school, oh well." some time went by and i looked out my back yard, me and all my neighbors yards were much bigger and had savanna like terrain. There were HUGE black white wolfs running around. I remember walking out on my deck and seeing a horde of them pouncing on something, not sure what. My neighbor Patrick back yard was diagonal from mine and i remember him wave his hand frantically, I was just thinking, what does he want? I turned and saw a big black wolf heading up the stairs. I turned around and ran inside with him almost biting me, his head was about up to my shoulder! I turned around and started punching the sliding glass door taunting him. My dad walked in "I almost got killed by a wolf" i said."Yeah rick(neighbor) over there shot one the other day" he said. I went to turn out the light cause there was a glare on the door. It turned out perfectly. i thought it was too dark so i went to turn on the chandelier. The light didn't turn on (another punch). I told my dad "I think the light burnt out." I turned and looked at the chandelier and a false memory was created that we got a new one.(PUNCH) I looked out the window and looked at the wolfs with my dad. Then i started waking up. I thought to my self DEILD DEILD DEILD DEILD!
I was lying in bed and suddenly my body got a suggestion from itself just to imagine my arms flailing in the air like a concert or something. I was in a parkour(free running) gymnasium. I started walking down a stair case into the lower level rubbing my hands together. i remember hitting my watch remembering. I never wear watches? it was one of the fancy ones with 3 clocks under the clock. i ended up in a room surrounded with these black bars that were connected vertically and horizontally with tubing around it like a noodle for a pool. There was a radio going on I sat there and i listened to it, it was really interesting. There was a news report of a guy that had a sexual urges to rape torture and kill his room mate. She wasn't suppose to be home till the next day since she was spending the night at her sisters. Well the guy wanted to get a rush. So he sat on the stairs acting if she was coming home with a rope and a belt. He wanted the rush to be as real as possible so he acted as if he was serious about it, replaying it in his head over and over. Acting as if he would stand up and look to see if it was her car coming in the drive way. She ended up getting into a fight with her sister and coming home. You know the rest. I started to fade out..... nooooo....
I woke up in my room, i didn't even do i a RC i was just like, brain? i know what your up to? I wanted to see how real it could be so i turned on my Xbox and started to play brink i was looking at every detail. Probably the most vivid dream i had. I looked and was on a map that seemed to be in Rome or Madrid. I remember the fountain in the middle and old styling houses around the side. with random shaped bricks making the road. Then i was like "I can play Xbox in RL!" i stood up walked out side and began walking to my friends house. I turned to go on the next road and saw a black car, it had just rained and the mist was shooting up from the back of it. I remember staring can cause you to wake up so i tried to bounce my eyes from each side of the road and back to the car. It passed and i crossed the road. It was the one my friend lived on so i thought, this roads long so i'm going to fly. I jumped up and fell back down thinking "well fu....." I then took a second and thought ITS MY DREAM i jumped up and started making fast race car noises and ZOOOM. i went to fast and the area began to look unfamiliar. I went back to see if i could reconnect the pieces, But there was a trailer there. I walked in and they had 2 dogs. there was a girl her husband, and a old man. i suddenly imagined my self as the guy from 7 evil X'es or youth in revolt. I was suddenly part of the family and lost my lucidity. I remember asking if i could consider the short haired golden lab as my dog. the old man said no. the other dog was a mutt, lazy sleeping dog. suddenly 2-3 years jumped and the old man had passed away. I asked the girls husband if i could have the golden dog, apparently he used to be a award winner and i wanted to get him back in his game. I remember waking up and seeing the mutt crying from his owner passing. the girl said "she was crying in the bedroom too, i think it was just she was sleeping in front of the oven."(made sense at the time?) I then woke up, i looked at the clock, i went to sleep at around 3:30-4. It was only 4:45.

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was looking through some kind of magazine like the New Yorker, although a lot of the formatting for the magazine seemed like it was for a popular men's magazine like Maxim.

There were three articles by Joyce Carol Oates in this magazine. I wanted to write Oates a letter to tell her how much I'd appreciated her articles. But I realized that I hadn't actually read the articles, and that I'd look like just some kind of "autograph hunter" if I wrote the letter, expecting a response, without having read the articles.

So I flipped through the magazine to find the articles. I found one of the articles, which seemed like a two-pager, on the front and back side of one sheet of paper. The article was all in some kind of grey text box. I figured this article would be the easiest to read, since it was so short. But even it seemed too long.

I got a little confused as to whether the article was one pages or two pages. I then came to the conclusion that the article was written on both sides of the page, but that the second page was partly taken up by an advertisement. So the whole article was less than two pages long.

The article, I could probably tell, was about Oates and her "new husband" taking their honeymoon in Italy. But the place they'd rented for their honeymoon seemed to me more like a place they'd just bought or rented for the long term.

The first paragraph mentioned something about how the apartment was just perfect "for allowing us to tatertater (an expression which means very much the same thing for us adults as it did when we were children)."

I couldn't figure out what tatertater meant. I just figured it had something to do with making tater tots "out of the can" (?).

So Oates was apparently pleased at first glance with the place. But she said that there ended up being a lot of faults. Mostly the place hadn't been very well cleaned after the previous occupants left. There were plenty of signs of their still having lived here.

One was that, "For close-drivers, a guard rail had been put right up against the edge." I couldn't quite figure out what close drivers would be doing in a house, or what kind of edge Oates was talking about.

But there was a picture, a kind of half-impressionist oil or pastel painting of the place. I looked at it and saw that there was some kind of babmboo fencing, still green, fastened all around the breakfast bar.

I realized that the "close-drivers" were people who pushed their babies in strollers everywhere and had the habit of bashing into everything with the strollers. The bamboo fencing was put up to protect the wood of the breakfast bar. The apartment seemed to be a living room with the kitchen inside of it. The breakfast bar and the kitchen counter seemed to be the biggest parts of this room of the apartment.

I was kind of worried. I didn't think I'd be able to get through this article. There was so much new language in it, so much current speech that I couldn't follow. I also felt bad because Oates, a few decades my senior, knew all this current vernacular, while I had no idea what it meant.

I continued reading the article and looking at the painting. Oates complaints were then that there were empty food cans strewn all over the place, as well as newspapers. I looked at the drawing again. There were newspapers and cans strewn on both the kitchen counters and the floor.

I thought, Did the landlords here bother to clean this place up at all when the last people left?

Ok so I started last night(again) to dedicate myself to being more into my dreams and lucidity. I had two recalled vivid dreams last night but I didnt write them right away. All is not lost though. Remembering that I had two dreams and some of the details of one right after I rededicated is fast progress for me. Things must be improving. This dream was a little scary. I had a knife and was accepted into some group(my knife was special) and then later in the dream the 5 or so people decided not accept me any longer and they were going to outkast me as they were making this decision. They as a group also had a knife(symbolic as was mine) and they were going to use it to "cut" me from the group. As I prepared to secretly defend myself they also prepared to secretly cut me from the group. I had another dream and it was longer more vivid more intenst but I forgot it.

Red = WILD Blue = DILD Green = DEILD


so i was up for around an hour when i WILD i am running lots of thoughts about what i will dream about and when i start to think of fast things, im suddenly rushed into a scene where i am floating across tables . at first i want to stay off the ground but as i lost lucidity that way last time i was concentrating on landing i do a couple of RC's on realise that a very small figure is at the top of the hill throwing things at me but i just wanted to concentrate on making the dream stable, i try to make my way up this hill but its distracting me from the dream so i start shouting (which was strange as all the talking in my dreams are normally in my head, weird to explain but this was actually full on shouting). then suddenly im in a car park with my brother except this is a FA as i had to think to myself i never actually woke up from the WILD so when i do a RC i expected it to fail but no it works and i see a DC and for the first time i decide to smash them up lol. after this i was lying in my bed and my eyes hadent even opened, i could still feel i was just dreaming so when i started to think about my dream im suddenly walking through a big grass park with my fiancee i do a RC and it confirms this but then i spent the longest i have in a LD and all i was doing was all the picking things up and touching things and just really feeling things around my. and more shouting

It was really good!!!!!