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Awake - Dream - Lucid

I woke up at 7AM after trying to WILD for what seemed like all night. Once I got up, I knew I was still way too tired so I thought why not try to WILD now? First, I moved to the back bedroom now that it was empty for the morning and laid down. A quick realization set in that I wasn't going to get far because my mind was on hyperdrive. I was thinking of a million different things at once and I couldn't stop my mind from thinking. I gave up and get some cereal then a soda to kick start my body to the level my mind was at. After being up 7 hours and doing all my daily things for Grand Chase, I let Tony get on to do his. I knew I wasn't going to last for more than a minute and crashed nearly instantly.

This entire dream takes place as mostly a conversation or me describing something. I'm not sure what the hell the topic was on but I was mostly arguing with my grandma. She was on a fiery rampage about chores and how no one was helping her. I was getting extremely frustrated so I went into the bedroom. For some reason, the bedroom was twice as big, Tony was in it, and we had bunk-beds. I was telling Tony to watch out because Mamaw (the name we have for our grandma) was on a hurricane path of bitching. I moved the bed to the side (which was now a normal bed again) and laid down for a second before she came in after me. She started getting in my face about the bed not being made up right. I was trying hard to explain how it didn't matter because the sheets were tore up (which I don't see how that changes it). Tony was trying to explain it to her as well but she wasn't listening. My Aunt was in the doorway trying to to make us help our grandma as well. Suddenly, it's like I was at a presentation and I was comparing my grandma to types of sharks. My mom was listening to the explanation as well as a few other people that were in the audience. It was weird because the people in the audience were all Native American. We were kind of underwater but not at the same thing. I was showing the sharks on some kind of electronic canvas that was animated. There were about 12 different types of sharks that I was showing. The last shark was being compared to a strange type of cactus + venus fly trap type plant. Instead of being on the screen like the rest, this thing was on the ground next to me. I was telling everyone how it had enough crushing power that it could take out a whole wall of a building in seconds. While I was explaining, one of the children dropped her little toy train into the plant and I was screaming, "No don't touch it, you'll have your hand crushed". She only replied with a very innocent, "It no hurt". I reached into it's mouth and pulled out the toy and noticed that it indeed didn't hurt. Then it was like I was pulled out of the dream through my eyes, as if I was watching that dream instead of being in it. I was in my kitchen now, making a contraption. It was an inverted pyramid of lego blocks that had a small opening near the bottom. At that opening I had a small test tube full of cement. My plan was to copy the way the plant worked and compact all my trash into small cement cubes. I was testing out it would work when the first tube of cement fell into the trash can. I groaned and lifted it to pour it out over the sink then rinse it out. That's where the dream ends.

Interpretations
I know the beginning of the dream was about what was going on in waking life. My grandma has been nagging us non-stop the last few weeks and my mom warned me that she was going to bug me about a job that morning. I have no idea what the rest of it means.

Awake - Dream - Lucid

I haven't been writing in this for awhile because I haven't been able to recall anything at all. I know I should write my thoughts each night as well but I don't see the need to write that I didn't recall anything. I've been pretty distracted with playing Grand Chase lately. They've added a ton of stuff since Tony and I played a little over a year ago so we were enjoying the new content. I also stopped doing things like drinking Apple Juice (was making me sick), practicing ADA, and questioning reality regularly. I've been a little caught up in the game and I'm going to start trying harder now. I know I can do it.

I was up watching My Little Pony till 4AM. After forcing myself back awake several times from almost passing out with my iPod in my hand, I went to sleep.

I'm not sure where I was. It was a small room with around 5 people lounging around in it. I was talking with my buddy Jermey about my other friend, James. I was asking him things like, "Why don't we hang out more" and "What games are you in to now". Jermey was telling me how him and James were bros and I responded, "Yea he told me a couple times". He was telling me how he was bad ass in some new game now. I don't remember the name but it was some kind of hunting game. Then him and I were playing some kind of Alien game together. He was tearing threw the Aliens with an AK74u. We were near the end of the level which was located in a small cave. Inside the cave was some scaffolding on the side for us to get on and aim and a purple Alien ship near the back. We were shooting the cheap out of them before they could even get out of the door. Then out of no where, Jermey paused the game and we had to go kill ants. We were micro sized and had to kill a bunch of ants that were trying to steal all our stuff. They were carrying white chess pieces for some odd reason.

Interpretations
I'm positive this dream is the collection of thoughts that I have very often. That is, where did all my friends go? I used to have friends over every week and we'd play games together. I was the guy you'd come kick it with if you wanted to play that latest video game before anyone else. Now I literally only have one friend I talk to and I miss the people I used to hang out with.

Awake - Dream - Lucid

This is the second night I've been without antidepressants. Though there was a lot of arguing during the day, I was still pretty relaxed. Stayed up most of the night browsing the internet. Andrew came over and we enjoyed a few games before watching some "Stan Lee's Superhumans". I stayed up to around 4AM, trying to get as tired as possible. Finally I gave up and decided to sleep. Didn't bother trying anything because I passed out instantly.

Dream #1 - Castle Escape
I was in this dream with my little brother, Tony. it was almost like we were playing as characters for a game rather than our own bodies. The situation was basically that we were on an island with some kind of odd shape-shifting, evil queen. She had dozens of prisoners that she forced into attacking one another and play games of torture for her amusement. I was planning an escape and did some recon on the surrounding area. Turns out there was a way for us to hang-glide onto a small outer island where there were a few sailboats. The problem was that the water surrounding the island seemed to be designed to where you could only go so far. It's like your boat would automatically sink if you went past the boundaries. I know while I was doing recon, I died quite a few times and had to "respawn" on top of the castle where their was a bunch of chests. I also remember having a hard time coming up with a new name to use for my character each time and Tony being indecisive about the suggestions I'd give him. After awhile, we finally attempted out escape. We flew down to the island then got on our boat. After we sailed for a bit, we came across the next objective for our escape. It was either an oversized shelf with decorative bowls or we were ant sized. I think it's the latter. We used "Vine Whips" that are like grappling hooks from the game Terraria to climb up. After we were high enough, we started up what seemed like a big ass door frame. When we were at the top of it, about to go from a big ocean to what seemed like my front room, the dream ends.

Interpretation
I don't have the waking memories of what all I was doing that day because it was over a week ago when I had this dream. I can only assume it was because of a weird iPhone game that Andrew was playing where one part you have to climb on furniture to escape a fat, evil cat. Also, still playing Terraria so part of it was in my subconscious.

Dream #2 - Crayons
I was with my brother's friend, Andrew in this dream. We were in this odd L shaped house on the upper floor. There was some little kid around the age of 13 who was talking with a physic. She was predicting his "special colors" that he'd be using (I think in a website). They were specific colors just for him out of thousands. I don't remember why but Andrew stole the box that held the crayons and ran. The names of all the crayons were written on top of the box so the kid would know which was which. I think there was about 13 crayons total. Andrew handed the box to me and I took a hot pink crayon and marked over all the names of the crayons. Then I jumped out the window onto the ground below and proceeded to throw all the crayons sporadically around the place, scattering them. Someone sounded a silent alarm but I knew that they did because they had very loud dogs that came after me. I remember rushing forward and leaping over many fences while trying to get to a place where one of the dogs in the yards I was in wouldn't continue the barking and alert the ones chasing me. Finally, I got to a yard with two scrappy looking poodles that I gave the silent shush finger to and they didn't bark. After a few minutes the barking stopped and I was able to go back onto the street. Suddenly, my little sister shows up and says "Jesse, they're leaving" in excitement. I got a sudden rush of panic and bolted back to the yard where I originally threw all the crayons. There were half a dozen people looking around for them like you would during an Easter Egg hunt. For some reason, I knew exactly where they were and picked them up. The dream ends with me giving the box back to the kid.

Interpretation
Not sure what this dream was about. Maybe it's that I need more excitement or outdoor activity in my life. I can't really tell.

Woke up way too early. I think I got around 6 hours of sleep or less. I don't mind being up so soon because I'll be able to attempt a WILD tonight more easily.

Awake - Dream - Lucid

Before I being, I must note that I haven't bothered to type these out online for quite awhile. 10 days at least, I think. It's because I don't like my keyboard at home and my Laptop is broken. I'm at a friend's house now and his PC blows but the keyboard is new. I thought I'd might as well enter all these in while I'm doing nothing.

Tried to stay up late to have a REM rebound. I only managed to keep awake till 2:20AM before giving up. There was nothing to keep me up because there's no games to play. I tried to WILD but knew, deep down, it would be pretty impossible without a WBTB first. Before I knew it, I was asleep.

I'm not going to detail too much about this dream. Mostly because I don't want to. I know I should recall all dreams but some dreams you just don't want to remember. Basically the dream was an extended, much scarier version of Source Code. I remember that Stevens was still alive but like in the movie, only the small part of his body was there. He was quarantined because of some kind of virus that he carried and only one nurse could be with him.

I woke up around 4AM, went to the bathroom, took a drink of Apple Juice, then went back to bed. I tried again to WILD, more confident that I'd be able to seeing as I'd just woken up after sleeping for awhile. I laid there for over an hour before giving up. I mostly gave up because after laying there for so long, I wasn't really feeling the physical connection to my body anymore. I knew I had to be getting somewhere then out of nowhere, my legs jerked. Threw me back into reality and disappointment. I passed back out and woke up at 11AM for good but don't recall any dreams.

Interruption
I watched Source Code earlier that night so I'm not surprised at this dream. I loved the movie till they showed Stevens' body... or what was left of it. I even knew that I'd have nightmares about that so of course I did.

I was in our school in college. I am with some friends. I needed to pay the rent.

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Dreamsigns:

School in College (I'm not in school right now)
Needed to pay rent (I'm not renting anything)

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1. I'm talking about traffic density with one of my brother's classmates, Sam S. We have a nice visual aid as we discuss, a projected map of Earth with different traffic patterns as different colors. There are black/white and red/blue modes that show routes of transit quite clearly. Sam gives the example of dogsled races as an unforseen variable that brings lots of traffic to untraveled areas, and illustrates this with the map. The display changes to a 3-D view, showing the swath of tree destruction caused by tourists to the races. Obviously I'm disturbed by this, so I get my family to travel to Alaska to check it out.

Transition to outside the home of one of Alaska's most prominent breeders. We talk about the science of breeding; for whatever reason my parents call heritable traits "actions." Conveniently, the breeder has a poster that's basically an illustrated Punnet square for nose shape, with each genotype's phenotype shown and discussed. My dad talks about technique, and speaks of backcrossing by "taking the best female dog and getting offspring with her son."

We continue to walk to the breeder's backyard; I feel a cool breeze quite vividly. Finally we see the breeder, who is on a deck high above us. He pays us no notice, as he's managing an owl on his shoulder with an unusually big head. He releases the bird, and as it flies down to earth it seems to grow larger. It's practically human sized as it hits the ground in the neighboring yard. This belongs to an apartment complex, and two pretty girls clad only in towels giggle (and maybe flash us) as we look up at them. I comment to myself that it must be cold up there, but the owl has my attention. I marvel at the breeder and say "I want to be the guy!" My dad smirks and says, "You probably already are." Dream ends, but that's probably the best dialogue recall I've had in a long time.

2. I'm playing a Terminator 3 arcade game. It's quite high-tech, with Kinect type technology, but it keeps glitching and showing the body recognition data instead of the game proper.

I had just finished school and some friends asked me if I would go to their house for a 'day party'. I didn't know what that meant, but I said yes. They took me to their house, but on the inside, it was vast and infinite in all directions. He said he heard I liked Minecraft and designed a day party like it. I was too shocked to say anything, but he gave me a stone pickaxe. I went up some stairs someone built and found a chest. I saw a pair of wings in them and a backpack. I crafted the backpack with something else in there, a powered rail. It created a powered backpack. I had an idea, and put the pair of wings in the backpack. I said "Backpack, fly" and the wings came out. Instantly I was caught up in the wind and flew in the air. Strangely, the ground looked like I was looking in the air. I dived down and tried to swoop back up. My swoop let me land safely on the ground. I was somewhere in an arena with a strange giant tan monster in it with me that resembled a rancor. I was very scared at first. It rammed into me and sent me flying into a secret cave. In it were different suits of armor that allowed me to do different skills. I picked one that said "jet armor". Strangely enough, though, it was some weird robes and two lightsabers as well as a pistol. I charged the beast but the sabers did nothing. I deducted they were only for blocking. I held the blaster as well as a saber in one hand and a saber held backwards in the other. I jumped out of the way the next time he charged. I was suddenly floating. I shoot a couple times before falling. I landed and repeated the technique. One I used the sabers to block a charge and turn him around. It was mostly fragments for the most part, though.

Ok so I just wanted to share my dream from last night. I wrote it down this morning in my DJ that I just started. Unfortunately I was not lucid at all, It was a random dream!

It starts off with me at school, it was the last day of school, crazy and not doing work. Then we are all being put on buses to go home, they weren't really buses though. They were wide open and pretty much just a large circular tabel that was moving. It was just me and a girl from my school on the "moving tabel thing." The tabel had a big cover over it, that was flapping around like crazy and I thought it would fall off, I attached one of it's buckles to the thing it was supposed to attach it to. My friend commented on how it was starting to rain, but then we realized it was just water mist coming off of the flapping cover. Some how we ended up on Love Lane (a local road I will be referring to in this) and there was an annoying kid (i don't know who) walking really slow in the street and yelling at cars when they almost hit him, trying to act cool and make a statement.
At this point the dream randomly switches to me in my brother our mom's mini cooper, we go to love lane. On the way, my brother almost/does hit a person. When we get to love lane that kid is still walking slowly in the street, he causes a truck to swirve and almost kill us. I could see the whole front end of the truck coming towards us, it stopped though. Then we are outside of the car, and I hear my moms voice, it is coming from a vent on the bottom of a building. We talk about the traffic at love lane and about someone getting a haircut (I don't remember who) meanwhile I see the annoying person causing trouble in the street
Dream switches a little bit, I get back to my house and Dr. Bailey and the Chief are outside my house talking to someone like an interview. I didn't think much of it. While in the house I see them outside and I really want to take a picture with them, there is a very strong urge for this. Then I walk down the road and they are there and so is my mom. I ran up to Dr. Bailey and freak out (from excitement) and gave her a big hug! I was acting like a complete fan girl (even though I'm a boy...). Then my dog came out of nowhere and hopped a really high fence, he barley made it. Then my mom told me to pick up our neighbors mail which was on the ground, and put it in their mailbox. I did it, but it made me really angry.

And then I was woken up. Dream over

when I first woke up I was sad because I couldn't remember anything, then I remembered one little piece and it ALL came to me in great vividness, pretty cool!

I've had some dreams where DCs would speak languages I've heard a lot but don't actually know, like Japanese or Korean.

I recently had a dream that I was talking to a Korean singer that I really like. He was speaking Korean and I was speaking English. At one point I stopped and asked him how he communicated with his English-speaking fans, since he doesn't speak English, and then I said, "wait a second... how are WE communicating with each other?" Everyone laughed as if I had told a joke, and continued the conversation without answering the question.

Sometimes I'll actually see subtitles at the bottom of my field of vision... or just automatically know what they're saying, even though they're speaking a different language. I don't think I've ever seen someone speak Japanese or Korean in person, only on TV shows... so that would explain why I see subtitles, because it's what I'm used to seeing every time I watch someone speak those languages.

It would be some awesome if your subconscious could speak a language that you couldn't.

I remember walking on some grass that was on a mountain, near a house. A computer screen popped up and then I saw my mouse moving but I wasn't moving it. I didnt freak because I thought it was my friend Avery who is a big computer wiz and knows how to hack; I thought he was fooling with me. But I soon discovered it wasn't him and I started freaking out. I was then at my house and started going over how I would call the people who were hacking me and I was discussing asking my uncle for the phone and stuff (I know that doesn't really make sense but I'm trying to describe it as best I can). So then I went on the phone and was freaking out at them and then said that I would get my friend Avery to hack them then I troll laughed and hung up but it didn't really hang up so then I asked my uncle for the phone and then the hackers heard it and started laughing.

That's pretty much it.

So I only remember the very end of this dream, but it's ok, since that's the important part. I'm in my kitchen. for some reason there's a barbie doll on the counter wearing all black. I remember, in the dream, that I've seen that before in my house. I don't know why, but I run into the office to ask about it, since that's where my grandmother is always. The office is changed. There's a sofa along the right-hand wall, on which that woman is sleeping. Every time I've gone into the office, I dream-remember, she's been there. Then the dream goes black. I sit lying on my bed, believing I'm awake, and analyze it. I notice some characteristics about the woman. From what I can tell of her she's tall, like me, but that's the only similarity. She has short-ish hair, where I keep my hair long-ish. She wears clothes in scene style, where as I wear sorta nerdy clothes. I think she's thin, whereas I'm sorta portly. She's also really attractive, which is a quality I do not possess. At this point I realize she is like the manifestation of all the qualities I don't have. I think in my head. I think that's my anima. BOOM! I start lucid dreaming. I jump back to the office, and I have enough time to start to float before I see the woman's eyes open up. For some reason this startles me, and I wake up in my bed not able to move. But that's just sleep paralysis...

Talking with a girl bout bisexuality. She has a girlfriend i know that . And i asked her if she's a lesbian or if she goes both ways. She answered something but i forgot. I got kind of comfortable with her and i sat close to her so we touched a little bit. (i mean we touched out arms !! i do . ) i liked ^^, as close as im gonna get with her, cus she's lesbian and all.
She said something about the sex being difficult. Because one is doing all the work while the other one is just lying down. That's always so unfair and we fight about who'se turn it is now. haha.

I almost forgot to write notes down about this dream but i'm glad i did. I just can not for the life of me imagine i'm talking to a lifeless dream character in dreams like this. Such a personality and cleverness in her just like she is normally, she has to be more than just a DC. She is a recurring character in my dreams and i like having her in my dreams. I think these are either shared dreams or she is a VERY GOOD representation of herself in real life. Since i don't really talk to her that much i've gotten to know her real well just by dreaming of her. More than i could ever know....

WBTB
bed @ 11pm
wake @ 4am
bed @ 5am
wake @ 7:45am

8g galantamine
2mg melatonin
250mg choline

galantamine fail. could be due to previous nights huperzine use

I was at a party with some of the women from the 'scene', the 'other' April and maybe Ali was there. I just remember being on a couch hanging out, then in a room where April handed me two cookies and said, "Here, eat these." I did, and then I started to feel high. I asked her if they were 'special' cookies and she said yes, and I was upset because I have been clean for 6 months and didn't really WANT to get stoned (gee, galantamine, a little lucidity would have been nice here...).

Snippet of a guy being unhappy with his girlfriend, I remember some kind of rock n roll dude that picked his gf up like a doll and showed her to me, she was blonde with colorful tats along her shoulders, I was thinking something like they made a good pair.

At some point I was trying to find my shirt because I was sitting around in only my panties feeling exposed.

I was massaging a guy's neck and woke briefly from the dream to find myself massaging my right thigh.

K last night I had a dream I was in this drug house hiding for apparently no reason then I was talking to someone and I walked into this cafiteria and this girl I guess my friend had this blue car just like my old car and she tipped it over like nothing and of course I thought nothing of it and then I we took the registration out again flipping the car over and I tried to read it but she graves it from me and said it was not right so I almost got suspicious I was dreaming then all the sudden I was eating and I remember not liking being by all these weird people and then I false woke up and then finally woke up. That's all I really remember lol