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bylam w duzym budynku pelnym ludzi, cos jak hotel, architektura wiktorianska albo cos w tym stylu, kamienne schody, itp. Wszystko bylo niesamowicie wyrazne, jak w zyciu, wyostrzone kontury, struktura przedmiotow, kolory, do tego stopnia,ze w pewnym momencie zaczelam sie zastanawiac,(z jakiegos powodu, pewnie ze strachu) czy nie jestem moze w spiaczce, i od razu gdy o tym pomyslalam, sen zaczal znikac, robic sie ciemny, jakby na potwierdzenie ze tylko snie. Wtedy szybko pomyslalam, ze nie chce sie jeszcze budzic, ze jest swietnie, i ponownie wszystko zrobilo sie wyrazne. Caly czas mialam szeroko otwarte oczy w moim snie , az czulam sie obudzona, chociaz spalam- smieszne uczucie. Polazilam po tym miejscu, nie wiem w ktorym momencie ale chcialam zobaczyc sie z P. bo wiedzialam, ze jesli go chce przywolac to moge, ale niestety, pojawial sie rozmyty, nie wygladal jak on, byl pod prysznicem, weszlam zeby z nim pogadac ale mnie olal, trwalo to bardzo krotko i zniknal...chodzilam po budynku i zaczelam wykrzykiwac jego imie, nawolujac go (mialam wrazenie ze krzycze 'w prawdziwym zyciu', i cieszylam sie ze nikogo nie ma wdomu). Nie udalo sie, nie pojawil sie, ciekawe czy to moja blokada psychiczna, czy cos wiecej? Moze w takich snach naprawde 'widzimy sie' z dana osoba, i musimy miec jej mentalne przyzwolenie na widzenie?
Potem szukalam faceta, o ktorym albo pomyslalam, albo ktorego zobaczylam tam, mialam wielka ochote na seks, ale nie w wulgarny sposob, czulam do niego bardzo cieple, pozytywne uczucia, i bylam bardzo podniecona. znalazlam go w koncu w wielkiej sali z ludzmi(sala konferencyjna?), wlasnie cos sie konczylo i mogl ze mna isc, mial na sobie garnitur, krotkie wlosy i klikudniowy zarost. Szukalismy miejsca ,gdzie moglibysmy sie kochac, ale wszedzie bylo pelno ludzi, weszlismy do jednego pokoju, ale byla tam jakas laska, co ciekawe, ja zaczelam przygladac sie scianie, byla na niej jakas ramka, zaczelam podziwiac, jak niesamowicie prawdziwie wyglada, jej struktura, kolor, wrazenie 3d, nie jak w normalnych snach. Przeszlismy gdzie indziej, stanelismy naprzeciw lustra, widzialam w odbiciu jak stoi za mna, dotykajac mnie w intymnym miejscu, widzialam sama siebie zupelnie jak w rzeczywistosci, (czasem w snach mam zaburzony wizerunek samej siebie), bylam bardzo podniecona i na granicy orgazmu, ale on przestal zanim doszlam. Mam wraznenie, ze to moja wewnetrzna blokada, czesto w snach szukam zaspokojenia, ale nigdy nie moge dojsc, bo albo sie budze, albo ta osoba ze snu tego nie robi, ciekawe i irytujace. Potem kojarze ostatnia scene, rozmawialam z tym facetem, nie pamietam o czym niestety, wtedy obraz zaczal znow sie zaciemnac i znikac, powiedzialam 'im losing you', i obudzilam sie. Bardzo chcialam ponownie zasnac, ale nie moglam...bylam taka szczesliwa i zrelaksowana, to bylo niesamowite, pozytywne, jak drugie zycie.

This is a dream that happened a while ago, but I was away from the internet, so I didn't mark it up. Decided I could just post it here now.
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I had joined a camp the purpose of which was to learn the art of using magic. Housing was a single big building with a living room type room in the center, with two hallways going in each direction, holding roughly 7 rooms each. Each room held 2 or 3 people.

Each night, the master would come to check the rooms we slept in and check if we could turn a mass of water in a bowl into a solid colour. The others succeeded, with some trying. I couldn't do it. So I tried to cheat for 3 nights straight. I took some color powder and put it in the bowl. The master detected this and always smashed the bowl in front of me.

Last night on the camp, I finally succeeded in using magic to change the colour of the mass of water in the bowl. I made it dark blue. I was happy that I succeeded, and somehow I think that my master was too.
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Wasn't a particularly long dream, really. So this is a short entry

I have no idea where I was, I was with jason and thomas. (Jason is an x of mine and thomas is his cousin). Thomas tried kissing me in front of jason. I didn't want to because of jason. Me and jason kissed before waking up.


Notes: I know it don't sound like that much of a dream but it was a very emotional one. When me and jason was going out thomas made a move on me to kiss me. I didn't stop it like I should have. I did stop him but not before I kissed him back. I told jason what had happened, but thomas lied and said more than that had happened. Jason believed thomas. Jason dumped me.

I am at the farm house. I knew that all my family was there. I talked to my mom about the jeep being broke down. She was wanting me to do something about it. I told her "I have no way of doing anything" then gary left to get me a car. I went up to my old room. There was stuff there I knew to be mine and some how missed it when I moved from here. One was a piece of furniture that matches my bedroom set. The second thing I found was a fancy art isle with many draws and also matched my bedroom set. Gary returned with a car for me and I wanted to load the stuff up to take home. Then I notice I'm in a dress! It was sleeveless, maroon, with black stones and flowers on it. I recognize it but can't place where I had seen it before. I wake up. (Its the same exact dress I dreamed of before that was white)

Normal Dream part:

I woke up in my dream as a dirty 16 year old girl with huge ass braces, I guess I was homeless because I kept going to these weird underground locations where all these bums lived. They all knew me and talked to me, I was trying to hide that I had new clothes and was getting help to get out of this place. So I gathered my things and told them I'd be back later though I was telling a lie.
I was now enrolled in school at Brentwood it was an elementary school. Although everyone I saw that was going there was not elementary age, there were little kids going there also. People kept calling me Derrick even though I was this disgusting home less girl, and I thought to myself why are people still talking to me when I look like this? At that point I morphed back and became semi lucid, because I knew that morphing is impossible. So I started to walk to my car to drive home.

Lucid Part:

I got into the car and performed a reality check, it was positive so I was in a dream. I started to drive away and it felt like normal driving, I stopped for lights but they would always turn green instantly I shouted while I was driving "Dream guide show yourself" nothing really answered but then I got a txt on my phone. It was complete gibberish but it had two numbers and then two words listed after them like a list.
8. Purple
9.
Like that, so at least I know my dream guide exists now. The name that appeared on the caller ID was Chris I think. I was too caught up in the dream to change the scene I'm not used to DILD's everything is already going on but in a WBTB you make everything happen and appear at first. I didn't have much time before I woke up so that's pretty much it.

I was traveling down south with my mom. I asked her if we could stop by tyler's house. We did. We didn't have much time. I felt rushed. We talked about stuff but don't remember what. Then before leaving I asked for his number. He seemed hesitant...then I said " you don't have to worry about your girlfriend. Just don't answer the phone if she's around. There's no reason we can't just talk. I have few people I want to talk to and I'm lonely". He wrote his number down. When I came home I told jr and then tried to call him but I had lost the piece of paper. I woke up.

Notes: the number I dreamed of I remembered when I woke up. I won't write it down cuz it is a real number. Its not tyler's that I know of....I never called it to test out. Tyler said it was his friends cell phone when he called me from it earlier this year. It was the same number.

I was standing outside next to a house looking out into the yard at all the different flowers. I was hiding there from Jacob"s family (guy from twilight) For sme reason they were murdering mad at me for having his baby. Jacob was gone at this time and I knew his family wasn't far. I also knew the house had some sort of protection charm. Some one was with me.....I didn't talk to them for I got distracted. I had looked down the hill and seen Jacob standing there. I had become so excited. I wondered why he hadn't noticed me while walking closer to greet him. As I got closer I noticed he looked angry. Then thought "why hasn't he noticed me yet, I'm on my period, he should smell me know more than ever. Then he smelled the air and looked directly at me. I then knew it wasn't jacob because he still looked angry.. I ran to the person that was with me to warn him. As I reached him I pushed him under me to protect him. I looked up and I don't know how many people were in the air (like they had jumped or flew over) fixing to land next to us. Then they were each individually surrounded by a big water droplet. They fell to the ground with this surrounding them and turned to stone and fell into pieces upon impact. I then gathered my stuff to leave to a new hidden location. I felt sad for Jacob wouldn't know where to find me now. We left and found a house abandoned not to far from where we was. We decided to stay the night. Then when we were about to lay down to sleep, someone starts banging on the door. It was Jacob. I was hesitant, for last time it wasn't him. I could see pain in his eyes....I didn't open the door until he yelled at me "would you just open the door?!" I did but as soon as I did I could see his family attacking us again. This time all of us went up into the air with water droplets around us. I became scared. The last time every one hit the ground they fell to pieces. They did when they reached the ground...me and jacob were ok. I woke up.

06.27.2011

Portal Problems (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I sudenly was sitting on the couch in the morning and then I felt a rush of sensation as the dream set in and I became lucid. I stood up and went to the center of the room. I rubbed my hands together and my senses felt a little numb. The dream was still stabilizing. Once I felt more stable I looked at my watch and it pointed to 10:55. I new I had atleast untill 11:55 before I should even worry about waking up. I went into the kitchen and picked up one of those really good sugar cookies with the icing and sprinkals on top. I ate it and it was delicious!



I went back out to the family room and wanted to try making an enrgy portal again. I am trying to get back to my dream guides tower but my mirror has been very unreliable and kees waking me up. I have made an energy portal before but It accidently took me to somewere other than I ment to go. I tried to get energy flowing into my hands and raised them up together to focus it. I was suprised they were already glowing. I got a tinny ball of blue energy to form and I tried to make it bigger. Instead it only seemed to get brighter and spin faster. Last time I used a basketball sized ball of fairly dense energy to make the portal so I knew I needed to get it bigger. I kept trieng to make it grow in size instead of density but it didn't work and I took a break from it. I really should have just kept trying. I looked at my watch again. 15 minuites had passed.

I walked over to inspect the mirror. My reflection looked normal. I stroked the surface of it and got it to fluctuate like it was a liquid. The surface felt firmer than usual though. I pushed my hand through and felt around. I wasn't getting destabilized this time. I imagined it showing a reflection of my dream guides room instead of my family room. Nothing happened. I stuck just my head through and didn't see anything on the other side. It seemed like it wasn't linked up to anywere.

I think I went back to practice building up the energy for a portal and woke up into a new dream and lost lucidity.

Later I woke up at 8:59 less than a minuite before my alarm was suppose to go off.

Nonlucid, Lucid, Partially lucid

June 17, 2011: There are giant rhino people, each maybe 10-15 feet tall, running fast through things. They destroy everything in their path, without slowing down. I hurry to get out of their way.
They sort of replicate and radiate outward from their original path. I comment on how they are big, noisy, and scary.

They spread out, then meet again at a single point, where they crash together and form a star, just a few feet off the ground. The star gets bigger as more rhino men jump into it.
Lots of people are walking away from the star. I ask a woman how she feels about the end of the world. She seems OK, or doesn't care.

I suddenly become lucid. I am floating along with a lady who has a toy-looking cell phone. I ask her where she lives (thinking she might be a person from the waking world who is also dreaming). It sounds like she says L.A. and something about lemonade.
I tell her where I live. She doesn't understand and thinks I said something else. I tell her again but she still doesn't understand. I laugh and say "You need to work on your lucidity." Then I take her phone and leave.

I fly to a tree that has electrical things on it and power lines. I am less lucid, and afraid of being electrocuted.
]The scene fades and I think I have woken up. I pinch my nose to reality check anyway and I am surprised to realize that I am still dreaming.

There are several men around me. One guy says he can check if I'm dreaming by stabbing me with a pocket knife. I tell him that is not a good idea. The guys keep bothering me and I am starting to get scared. I make it stop by doing a dance. The men then go away.

Then I make out with Zoe, a nurse from the show Nurse Jackie.
I see a lady I recognize from waking life that I haven't seen in a long time. She is at a desk in the middle of my grandparents' (father's side) living room.
I say to her "Why are you working at a desk/doing paperwork in a dream?" meaning, she could be doing something more interesting. I start to read a piece of paper. It makes no sense and I decide it's a waste of time. Then I toss the papers in the air.
I point out that a train is driving through the house, straight towards us. It is moving very slowly.

I walk around the house (now my old house), and remember my task to attempt telepathic communication.
I say aloud that I will find my girlfriend, the real one, and not a dream representation. I walk into the living room and find only cats. I try to make her appear behind me, but she doesn't.
I yell out her name. I yell that I wish to "sense what she senses," or "see what she sees." I say that I want real information.

I yell out "I know you're not at work. What are you doing?" (or something like that). I listen for a response, but the TV is on, so I turn it off. I think I hear beeping and wonder if my phone is ringing in waking life. I make myself wake up.

I am in bed, but I reality check and I am still dreaming. Then I really wake up.

Notes: I wish I had thought to use the TV in the dream to communicate, or to make her appear.
I must have been in a deep sleep, since I had two false awakenings, and had a hard time waking on purpose.

Awake Non-Lucid Vivid

I'm in a shed. The wood is dark and splintered, with white salt marks down it. The shed is cramped and filled with forgotten objects that no one cares for anymore. I turn my head to see a dusty dvd called Cheaper By the Dozen 5.

Someone calls my name. I turn around to look out of the door. Two men are lying in awkward positions on the sandy floor outside. They look as though they've dropped from the sky and broken all their bones when they landed. "Cheaper by the dozen 5?" I say slowly. "I thought there were only a couple of those movies."

The men shake their heads vigorously. "No no. There are much more!"

I go outside. I'm on a small strip of sandy land, surrounded by the sea. There's a rough breeze, and a few wind and salt worn straggly trees sprouting from the ground, their bark the same colour as the shed, with the same white marks. The sky is grey and everything is all together bleak.

Suddenly a wave passes high over head. It's going to cover the whole tiny island.

I jump onto a meter sized bit of bark. It's picked up by the wave and I struggle to stay on the board as both myself and the wave travel higher and higher. I see mountains all around. This is a disaster. A second wave comes up behind me and threatens to crash onto me. I grit my teeth and try harder to rise above the wave.

As we go higher, both waves begin to freeze. I hear chinking sounds as the water suddenly freezes with deathly jagged spikes. I throw myself from the ice and land with a crash into cold, salt water.

I come up for air, exhausted. My vision flickers as I dimly register another little sandy island, with the same dark wood as the other island. There are little wooden log houses on this one, and people bustle about. There are a variety of wooden ships surrounding the island, and fishermen out catching their dinner.

I don't have the energy to swim. I float, unable to swim to shore. It's so close, yet so far. The island fades from view and I pass out.

I wake up in a bed with a log fire crackling away beside me. It's a small two roomed cabin by the looks of it, with plain wooden furnishings and knitted cloths. There is no technology at all.

An old woman comes into the room. She's small, with grey wavy hair tied back and a kind, wrinkled face. She gives me a smooth wooden bowl and spoon, with what looks like soup in it. She says it's potato. I tend to only like tomato soup but i'm hungry and eat up eagerly. It's tasty and spiced with other things too.

When i'm feeling better she takes me outside. It really is a small place, but everyone is busy bustling about. She explains to me that there are two groups of people. People who fish and people who keep ships. They are happy to live side by side as long as the fishermen provide the ship people with fish, for boats in return.

As I look around I notice that the only thing people are eating is little bowls of soup. I get i'll have to get used to that. It's cold, salty, and the sky is still grey and bleak, with the white freezing mountains in the backround. But I feel oddly content and at home. I feel like I have found my place, even if it almost killed me getting here, with the ice dagger waves.

I am not sure if it was stress or I was just trying too hard but at last after a week of non-lucid dreams (at least that I can remember) I had one last night. Just a standard DILD but I needed that. My recall is still for shit but I am trying to keep this dream journal updated to better my memory.

I remember the dream starting with me and a bunch of my family and friends together, I don't remember why. We were all in a line formation traveling to some place, all I could remember feeling was that we needed to get to our destination as fast as possible. Then I remember having that realization feeling when you find out you are dreaming. I began to fly over my friends and family and began guiding them forward. I remember lots of light (could be the sun coming through my window in reality) and me having to fight something but I could not remember what exactly.....

Then I woke up because my roommates' cat decided to meow in my face...

I quickly tried to remember what had happened but with little success...I then fell back asleep for a second small lucid dream

I was in one of my old elementary schools....and actually retaking the 5th grade because of something that happened to my grades. I was talking to the principal explaining to him that I was in college now when i remembered the nose plug technique to tell if you are dreaming. I tried it and of course I could still breathe so I discovered I was dreaming. I began to have fun at my old school, flying around on the play ground and picking on the people who used to pick on me. Shortly after that however I woke up.


So again not a whole lot of detail but I am getting faster at becoming lucid I feel.

Monday, June 27th

I. Back in High School

I am younger and living with my parents again, or at least I have drawn this conclusion because I am relying on my mother for a ride.

I am going to a show in Boston (I dimly remember that it might have been Wayne Krantz) with several friends, I remember K.S and C.H but no one else.

I have apparently bought C.H’s ticket and she is driving from her house, about 45 minutes away, to meet me at mine. I become distressed over the fact that all the seats in the car are taken and there is no room for her despite all that. My mother makes some pseudo-prophetic remark about someone changing something (?) and I tell her “No one’s ever changed anything” thinking this to be a statement of the law of conservation of energy. My dad recognizes this quote from a book we have both read (and therefore I assume in the dream is Kurt Vonnegut). This makes much less sense to me upon waking.

My memory skips to being in my old high school, presumably the next day. C.H finally arrives to meet me, in the middle of school. I attempt to apologize, but she says something to me quickly that I don’t quite make out and she walks away. End of recall of this dream.

II. 2 Brief Lucid Dreams Involving Songs

Unfortunately, the only thing I can clearly say about these dreams is that they happened.

I am sitting in my old high school cafeteria, but not at a table, I am in a chair in the corner of one of the hidden bathroom hallways with 2 other girls I don’t recognize who are also sitting in chairs. They are playfully singing some song with a melody unfamiliar to me in weird voices. I become lucid nearly the moment after I become aware that this is going on. I join them, making up my own lyrics about how “this is a dream, I am dreaming right now,” etc. I start trying to stabilize immediately. I’m decently sure that when this happened I had just woken up briefly and fallen directly into this dream and it was therefore very unstable from the beginning. I rub my hands on my knees and look at my feet, then start touching the walls (and I think the 2 girls stopped singing and just stared at me), but I don’t make it more than 10 seconds or so lucid.

I wake up and have this dream right afterward. I am at a house I’ve never seen before that belongs to K.S; it is just the two of us there. I am there for awhile I think, but I don’t remember most of what happens.

The only clear memory I have is standing in the backyard, which has a pond at the edge of it. I look and see a fiddle and some other strange looking string instrument (I think it mostly resembled a cigar-box guitar) floating in the water. I look for K.S to tell him about this, but I see him come outside right after this with a fishing pole.

Not long after this I become lucid again. I am either running around in the backyard, which must have suddenly been stepped, or on his rooftop. I am singing a familiar song to myself (that I did not know I knew the words to) quite loudly, thinking for some reason that this might keep me in the dream. I don’t remember what the song was but I remember that I didn’t make it through the whole thing.

III. Ask More Questions

I remember being in the Jazz rehearsal room of the arts building watching J.C and some other people playing. I walk out, I think I may have been a bit discouraged.

Suddenly I’m sitting with them all in a room, looks like a finished basement and we are watching T.V. J.C says something about how he requires all students to ask questions, and I haven’t been doing so at all (which to him I often don’t; I still have a very hard time not being intimidated, or maybe just cripplingly humbled, around him.)
He tells me that I should ask him more questions, and T.S says something about being more acknowledging in the hallway and not closing up so much. End of recall from last night.

I don't remember
when, where, or how I became lucid, but I remember wandering around a dark room.

I find myself at my apartment development. I'm standing out in the parking with the one and only, annoying, asinine, Jimmy(From School DS) He acts like a total prick all the time. He's currently using a purple bow and arrow to kill chickens running around the area. I decide, what the hell? and join him. We both have purple bows and arrows and we start shooting. Soon, I have to go inside. I am with a different family. I have an understanding Mom, a few siblings, and an asshole Dad. He always seemed so pissed about everything. He made me really pissed(can't recall how), so I went outside to stay away from him. I ran into some random blonde chick. I wa talking to her about how I'm really pissed off right now. I started to talk to her about school(DS), but then I realized I was dreaming. Yay! Time to leave this shithole. I now fly up into the air leaving the blonde behind. I landed on a rooftop, where I saw a person shape shifting. He was trying to attack a girl. There was a large hole in the rooftop. He then transformed into Super Baby Vegeta 2. Shit! I now jump up in front of the girl. I quickly do the Final Flash formation.
"Final Flash!" I shout. I now fire a blue blast at Baby. It has no effect. Dammit! He now transforms into Great Ape Baby. Fuck! I extend one arm.
"Big Bang Attack!" I now launch a large blue ball at him. No effect. Damn! He now flies up. Shit! I'm no match. Then, someone lands by me. He asks me to do Fusion with him. I agree. We do the gay Fusion dance.
"Fu...sion...HA!" We say simultaneously. We are now one person. We're ultimately stronger now. Time to kick some ass. I fly up and am at the same height as Baby. I put both of my hands out.
"Big...Bang...Kamehameha!" I shout with two voices. Then, a large blue blast fires out and hits Baby. It kills him. Got that fucker! Then, I soon awake.

Your body has a natural clock in which it gradually wakes you up every day. Go to bed during this gradual period of wakening. If you dont have a natural time in which you wake up wbtb will give you one because your waking up around the same time every morning. The general idea is to skip the deep sleep phase in which the logic side of u shuts off and only fall asleep during the hours of awakening before you physically wake up. namaste.