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Hi! This is my first dream journal entry. I couldn't remember last night's dream, but I do remember a dream I had earlier today when I took a 2-hour nap. It was a dream about lucid dreaming... guess that shows what's been on my mind!

My friend S and I were in this alternate dream world; it was a dark world with really out-there architecture. I don't remember why, but S wasn't happy with how the "dream" was going and wanted to reset things. So he decides we should commit within the dream to "reset" the world. He grabs my hand and jumps off of this really high bridge-thing into the water below, which was surprisingly detailed. There were rocks and such around but we didn't hit any. I didn't want to reset the world so I resisted things, and instead we swam around exploring for a bit. Eventually we did jump into the water and drown ourselves, and ended up back at the "start" of the dream world. The beginning was this small room-like thing, I couldn't see any walls though. It was like what you would see in a picture book; the edges of my vision were black. There was this black blanket thing in the middle of the hardwood floor, and scattered around it were things that looked like toys and various trinkets. These were the most colorful things of the entire scene, though I remember most of them being a shade of pink.

So I get this idea that I want to make love here, and I think about suggesting it to S. Then my brain goes through this cycle about the repercussions of cheating on my girlfriend T, and I decide to suggest it to her instead. Not sure how she got there but the next thing I remember is she's there instead of S and I suggest it to her. She says no because her family will see; it doesn't make sense now that I'm awake but in the dream my mind automatically knew that she meant there was some tear-like thing in the dream world that made parts of it visible to the real world. So basically her family would be able to see some of this particular part of the dream world.

Then I woke up, or I can't remember the rest.

Had these dreams last night, but now I can hardly remember any of them. Still wanna record them though.

First part: I was shooting a gun. It was really big and silver, but had glowy purple streaks on it and the bullets exploded when they hit things. I was at a target range but instead of shooting at the fake paper-people I was shooting at real people. But they just kind of stood there like they were drugged up or something.

Second part (There was a lot more, but I only remember this part): I was like this lion-thing, and my friend was like this deer-thing. I was normal colored, but my friend was dark grey. We weren't exactly those types of animals but that's as close as i can get to describing our appearances. At first we were regular people, though. We were standing in a wheat field talking about something, and I don't remember what, but my friend was getting really angry at me. She was giving me these death glares for whatever reason, and I felt like I didn't deserve them. She turned around and started to ignore me. Then a group of people came running at us. They were all decked out in tribal paint and had on hula skirts and stuff, and they wanted to kill us. We ran away and managed to get a good distance between us and the people, but then I tripped over a bump in the ground. When I stood up we were the animals I mentioned earlier.

There was fire everywhere, and I was about to run through it and hope I didn't die when my friend pointed out that the 'bump' I tripped over was actually a hole. We went down the hole to an underground cave. It was really big, and had a green glow. For some reason I kept calling it a limestone cave. There were all sorts of dangerous ledges and paths, and below us was pure blackness. It looked like if you fell of you'd keep falling. We wandered around for a bit until we found a ladder back up to the prairie. Somehow, even though we were still animals, we climbed the ladder. When we were above ground again, instead of being on the field, we were climbing up the side of a canyon. There wasn't any ground anymore, just the bottom of the canyon, and I don't know what happened to the cave, so we had to keep climbing the ladder.

We made it to a ledge and got off the ladder, so it was behind us acting as a 'guard rail' so we couldn't fall off. There was a split in the canyonside in front of us, and it looked like rocks had tumbled into the split filling it up. It was really narrow, and almost vertical, but we were still able to climb up it. My friend had made it to the top where it was flat, but I was still climbing when the tribal people showed up again. I couldn't really defend myself where I was so I just kept climbing. One of them wearing this weird moosehead type of hat started stabbing me with his spear. (His hat looked like moose antlers, and was about the same size, but it was made of gold.) One time when he stabbed me his spear got stuck in me, so when he tried to yank it back he fell off. His hat fell off too, and landed on my head somehow.

When I got to the top finally, all the tribal people gasped and started clapping and cheering. I just looked around like 'wtf', and my friend told me the moosehead hat was a symbol to them or something. I said, "well I guess they don't care that i just killed that guy then", but then the original moosehead guy popped up from where we climbed and was clapping too. His head was really gross; it was all lumpy and disfigured like the hat was hollow and his head had grown into it, leaving it the shape of the moose antlers. Which makes me question how the hat came off his head in the first place... Anyways, we were back to being people now. I gave them back their hat and we ran away (on the field again now) in case they changed their minds and wanted to kill us again. Then I woke up.

Wednesday, June 29th

I. Basketball Games

This is the first awkward naked dream I’ve had in a good long time. I am in the house on BHI that I lived in during the Patsy Cline gig. Alone in the house with me is E.S. I don’t recall most of what happens in his dream, only that at one point she comes down the stairs, mostly naked. I believe the point where I suddenly become completely naked is while I’m standing by the front door. I walk into the living room, see her suddenly and immediately cover myself up, not trying to come onto her although I’d like to. She says something along the lines of “I’m not even into that stuff.”

This may not have been during the same dream but the next thing I remember is sitting in front of a very large tv screen flipping the channels. There is nothing on except basketball games. I stop and watch one for a small while then, thinking my dad is behind me (?) I start flipping the channels again quickly. I cannot quite explain this thinking.

II. Jazz Band

I am outside a building I don’t think I recognize. There is a group of us that is presumably the jazz band for the coming school year. However this is my high school jazz band director in front of me; I graduated three years ago. One of my friends from college is also standing right next to me. J.B, the band leader, is greeting all of us giving high-fives. I see him offer one to somebody and I foolishly stick my hand out immediately, out of turn and disregarding the people between myself and him.

He says something like “Looks like M.B has showed us a part of his personality, huh?” He is evidently talking about M.B but as he says it he gives me a strange look. I realize he’s inadvertently calling me an asshole, as he should. I look to my right and M.B is giving me that smug “I know something you don’t” grin that I get so often from dream characters.

I was in my grandma's trailer looking out the window past the christmas tree. I knew I was dreaming from the beginning. It was dark outside. I looked around the room and seen my grandma and cousin sitting in the floor raping presents. I spoke to them and said "I'm going outside to look at the stars.". My grandma responded "Are you sure?" I replied "yeah" and then they looked at each other and then back to me and scoff like it was stupid I wanted to do this. I then turned and walked out the door and went out all the way to the middle of the yard before looking up. The sky was fuzzy black when I first looked up but thne skies clarity came like a flash. It was violet purple. The stars were a neon blue. I turned in a circle so I could take it all in. While turning the moon came into view. It was 100 times bigger than our moon and high in the sky. So close it seemed to be in the same atmosphere. The surface was gaseous in texture and moved like waves. The glow from the moon was not from a reflection but its own. Its main color was pinks but had hints of other colors in the ripples of the waves. Shades of yellow, white and green. Then I turned to the stars to study them. I did not recognize any constellations. I did not. Then I became happy. So happy about this beautiful dream. I lost vision, became weightless, felt a tingling sensation all over my body and floated up. These feelings remained constant. I lost track of time while I was like this. No thoughts. Then after idk how long I came out of it and said out loud "oh, I'm still dreaming. I floated back down and my visual came back. The tingling was gone. I seen the above view of where I was before landing. It was at a crossroads with houses all around. The ground was snow covered. I became close to the ground and floated to this garage area. I turned and looked back. There was a black fuzz. I looked at it curious to see what was behind and then a shape of a body began to emerge. As it approached me I could see it was JR. I became excited. I told him "I'm dreaming right now and I'm lucid. I don't know if your a dream charter or jr but you need to remember your dream because we could be dream linking.". Then I told him "I want to experiment with sex in a dream". So I began kissing him. While doing this I noticed the fuzz was back. I stared at it and wondered what was going to pop out of it this time....then as it got closer once again the shape of a body. Even closer I could tell that it was a mannequin with hands like javelins. I felt that if I tried to make it go away it would hurt us. So I pushed it behind me and held it there one handed. I chose to ignore it but JR wouldn't. He didn't want to fool around anymore. I woke up. Jr was laying in bed with me. I asked him if he remembered his dream and he said yeah. Then while cooking and eating breakfast with simon we discussed our dream linking experience. I wake up as I start to put food in my mouth. I really wake up.

Dream 1: (fragment)
I remember being back in band and the new school year had started. I was moderately ebarrassed because I hadn't practiced all summer. What little bit I remember was very vivid and my thinking was clear and logical (but not lucid enough to become aware of the dreamstate.)

Non-Dream/Lucid/Non-Lucid

I dreamed that I was a pirate...
I and the other pirates had a meeting with the captain, Blackbeard. He was claiming that one of us is a traitor.
Through I wasn't the traitor I just felt like he is going to say I am the one.
He was asking us a lot of questions (I couldn't remember them) and was threatening us, telling us that he will kill the traitor.
When I saw that they actually stop the judgment and they started joking arround and stuff like that I though it was my chance to escape. I tried to stealthily walk to the exit door. (the funny thing is that the meeting was in my sis' room )

I wish I could had remember my dream in more details...it seemed like a pretty much interesting one

Flee to tranquility

My first memory is of a friend and I getting shot. His condition was dire, and I laid him upon the couch, and turned around to go call an ambulance. I was very conscious, but had not yet realized I was dreaming. I hobbled out of the room and into the hallway of an apartment--what appears to be the second floor.

I remember thinking "Just call 911...," my hand gripping the bullet wound at my lower left abdomen. A twinge of what seemed to be pain shot through my side. I remember reciting my address, preparing for the call to 911... I realized however, as I remembered my address, that I was certainly not at home, and that despite the gunshot wound, I wasn't actually feeling any pain.

Halfway down the hallway, I decided on impulse to make it an action packed dream. I armed myself with a .45 handgun from a conveniently placed holster at my side and ran into the nearest door, ready to fire. I pause, however, as I see two guys stealing from someone's apartment.

I ran up and grabbed the nearest guy in a choke-hold and held my firearm at the other henchman--who I recall had blonde dreads. I was trying to coerce them into telling my what was going on when a man in a trench coat, much larger that the other two, rounds a corner. He was obviously the head-hancho, the brains, etc.

As I was about to interrogate him, he yells at me to get down on the ground as a dark, grotesque figure bursts through a window, sending glass everywhere. He was mostly covered in shadow, but it had a look of raw, decaying flesh-- similar to a zombie or demon, etc. At this point I'd forgotten about my gun and we were running out into the hallway to escape; I had a feeling my little gun wouldn't do much anyway.

But, unfortunately, the dream was destabilizing, and I was losing lucidity, and didn't think to to do anything innovative as I started to awaken.

Don't want to post my dreams today, so I'll just jot down some notes so I don't forget.

1. mom waking me up
2. ian is 12 (dani)
3. quinn turns into a girl

June 29, 9:44 PM

I have read many articles now about Lucid Dreaming, and I believe that will help me to have a lucid. I have many doubts on what I would do if i had a lucid, yet I must not give in to those doubts. I learned that you must stabilize your dream and do a reality check whenever you are in a new dream. I will try to appeal to all my senses before going around and see what I can do. I am very excited about this, because I have never had a lucid where I could remember my senses and how it felt when I woke up. I will make sure to write everything down after my dream, specially details and sensory details.

I hope I can have a lucid in less than 2 weeks, seeing I am excited as I could be. I will try many methods, but my first one will be DILD.

Wish me luck

Joseph

Type: Regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

I was in my school. The school has a theatre with a big stage and a long backstage area with two doors (one on either side) that leads out to the two wings of the stage. Slightly colorized, hard tan flooring with beige walls and lighter, pale blue accents around the door frames. It was clearly rectangular, and in the dream it was about twenty by fourteen feet.

I came through the left backstage door. The room was lit by a few lights, but it wasn't as bright as it should've been. I walked a few steps and looked around; one of the teachers from my school was walking towards me. She was shorter than in real life, probably only 5 feet, and had very dark brown hair down to her shoulders. She was wearing a thin black cardigan and a black shirt with a pink, pale orange and pale red floral pattern around the shoulders. She walked right up to me and put her hand on my shoulder.

"There's something here that you shouldn't see," she told me in an informative tone. She tried to turn me around, using her hand to force me to turn around, and I walked a few paces with her. She then took her hand off my shoulder and just kept walking, opened the door I'd originally came from, and closed it.

I turned around and looked down the backstage, towards where the door opposite was. There was a big bloody stain on the wall next to that door. It looked like the stain you'd get if something had been sandwiched between two walls and the gunk started to seep/bleed through the two walls. It was darker red, which gradated to a regular red, and then had what I'd like to call "cloud-shaped" linear blobs of orange and red around it. It was just a realistically-shaped blob of color, no splatters or anything (because I assume it came from something in between the walls), but it was definitely blood.

I remember thinking, "hm, that's weird". Not as in the "I could be dreaming" type of weird, but just the general weird. And I wasn't unsettled either.

I exited the room and entered a much smaller one, almost like a broom closet. This room was tinted with lighter, pale blue lighting, and was probably only seven by seven feet. There was a C-shaped countertop in one corner of the room, extending down three adjacent walls (one end didn't go along the whole wall and stopped halfway), and cabinets above them. The top of the counter was white laminate, while the cabinets were pale brown wood. There was a square, light-colored laminate wood table with grey trim in the middle of the room. Two of my classmates were sitting on the counter, side by side, and one of my teachers was sitting cross-legged on the table. He was looking at papers in an open binder, which was positioned on one of my friends' laps.

I looked at the paper on top and "knew" it was chemistry, but they were calculation problems that looked almost like trigonometry.

"Do you need help?" I asked.

"No, [teacher's real name] is helping me, but thanks anyways".

I can't remember what happened after that.

I have recently had several dreams that I was unable to journal.

I remember seeing a girl of about 12 or 13 walking with her mother drinking milk from her
mother's nipple. They were just walking like everything was normal.

I had a dream the next night or the night after that that my boy was grabbing these button
things. There were so many, he couldn't get them all without putting some in his mouth. I may
have recommended he put them in his mouth to hold them, and then to grab the rest with his
hands.

I then realized he could choke on them, so I told him to just open his mouth and let them
fall out. He started to let them fall out, but he choked on one. I tried to hit his back to get
it out of his throat, but it didn't work. He quit moving.

There was another dream where I was in a college environment I think. There was a girl who
was OK looking, but I found her to be incredible in my dream. I was going to kiss her. She pulled
away, but implied that later in the evening we would sleep together.

I had taken some B vitamin's 2 nights in a row that I had vivid dreams.

I was going o travel to the "city." An unknown city. A "city that never sleeps." I'm looking for someone, but not quite sure what it is. I hitch-hiked on a car. I saw the busy streets from a strange perspective; it was as if I was a third person watching everything like a movie.

I arrived at a hotel at night. There were people. We were outside the hotel. Huge tiles on the ground. Something is hidden under one. Then I realized/was told that others are hidden in "both worlds." I need to find them.

Ideas: "opulence disappears" and (SE)

I have a sense of mission or quest. I'm not sure for who or what, or why. It's just that "I have to." This sense of mission distracted me from trying to check.

NOTES:

Listened to lucid dream induction mp3s before and while asleep.
Slept telling myself I will remember my dream.

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quest/mission
parallel worlds
strange place
strange perspective
huge tiles

6/29/2011.F.hs.paulasMissedRC
5:30 AM

... I'm in hs rushing between classes. I don't have time to smoke and I'm pissed.

Stairwells. Hitler? Secret books? Escaping by eating our way through a giant pancake?

Later, after waking up and trying to mild...

Paul and I are looking into a doorway, watching his mom (Paula) look at her hands to see if its a dream. Her hands are huge. Paul doesn't seem to care. The dream continues and I soon wake up.

I can't believe that I missed such an obvious sign...

The dream starts off with me walking through a field. There is a thick and heavy fog and I cannot even see the ground under my feet but I can feel it - it is very bumpy and unstable, like I am walking on frozen pillows or something, if that makes any sense. I am walking up a slight incline and the fog recedes a bit when I reach the top.

The unstable ground I am walking on is covered with thousands of bodies as far as the eye can see. There are so many bodies and they are piled on top of each other so high that I cannot see any natural ground at all. Most of the bodies are men in green or grey uniforms but there are also women and children laying about. Despite all of the dead bodies, many of which are in various states of decay, I don't remember smelling the rot around me.

In front of me is a small pond. There are bodies in the water but not as many as on the ground and the water is a dark reddish brown because it is filled with blood and rotting flesh. I walk past the pond and to the other side of the hill, but it is slow going because stepping across the mounds of bodies is difficult. The fog has lessend, but there are still bodies as far as the eye can see and I cannot get away from them no matter how far I go.

I was in the woods walking down a gravel road that had a few houses on it. It reminded me of where my sisters grandma lived and what I have always known as the "holler" I was with reece and his girlfriend of that time along with a few other people I don't know. I went off by myself for a while. There was a house at the top of the hill. I felt I shouldn't go there but did anyway. I went in and started cleaning. Reece and his gf came up to the window I was looking out of while doing dishes. They asked me to come with them so I did. We walked back down the gravel road and got on a bus heading for I don't know where. I sat down in a seat alone. Reece was sitting next to his girlfriend. I wanted to talk to him but wanted not to show him I had a crush on him. I respected her and him and didn't want to show my feelings on that for I still wanted to be able to be a friend and valued his opinion. I wished he sat closer. (I feel odd in groups of people as well. I felt I didn't know her so that made me uncomfortable along with the weirdness from trying to hide how I felt too). Then to my amazement the someone came up and asked for his seat. I felt guilty for wishing for him to sit closer. ( I manifest things I want sometimes even in life and felt bad for her because of what I wanted ) then reece sat next to me. I looked over at her and I felt she was giving me the "stink" eye. I was so distracted by my feelings of guilt. That I forgotten what I wanted to say to him. I don't recall saying anything at all. Then he got up and went to the front of the bus. I began feeling sad. Then I wanted a reason to go up there and not be back here with her giving me the stink eye. I then notice there is a cigarette in my hand that needs to be put out. I then went up to the front of the bus and passed reece on my way to the ash tray. He was talking to a few people. I watched the bus driver put his cigarette out. The ash tray was in a weird spot. Behind the steering wheel on the dash. I asked the bus driver "can I use your ash tray?". He gestured for me to do so. As I reached over to put it out the bus hit a bump. I fell and dropped my stuff. Reece helped me gather up my stuff on the floor. After picking up my stuff he handed me my things and asked me "why are you upset?". I was surprised he noticed and responded "I'll get over it one day so don't worry". And I thought before running off the bus somewhat embarrassed "I don't want to touch him in any way" then I noticed I had a rolled up paper in my hand....I patted him on the head with it, got off the bus, watched it drive away and woke up.