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I dream a lot about work. I really should do more RC while I'm there. Something to work on.

A random dream at work which led me to a room with about eight of my coworkers sitting at a round table. I asked if anyone knew what a lucid dream was and no one said a thing. I was astonished and a little baffled so I started to explain dreams themselves which most if not all of them could understand and I was going to slowly lead up to lucidity but was woken up. On my way to work now so I'm going to try to RC more often there starting today.

07/11/2011
Dream Fragment One:
I was with two of my ex-girlfriends and some other gorgeous chick who looked like EH. The first thing I remember is laying on the bed and talking/flirting with EH. Before too long, we were all hugged up on each other, and things were just going great. I was kind of resting on top of her, and she actually lifted me up in the air with her feet, like one would do a child, and kind of 'flew' me around over her. Then she let her hands go and I was suspended by nothing but her legs on my stomach. I remember being amazed at how strong her legs were. It was then that I realized I was only in my boxers, and my, uh, 'infatuation' was fully exposed, through the unbuttoned hole in the front; pretty much just hanging down right in front of her, and everyone else. More than just a bit embarassed, I had her put me down so I could 'adjust.' Shortly after this, I got up from the bed. She quickly followed - jumping off the bed and onto me, wrapping her legs around me and holding on with her arms around the back of my neck. Playfully, I carried her around the room like this, resting her back up against one of the walls at some point.

Don't really remember much else from this dream.

Dream Two:
"All Hands on Deck"

I was a crew member on a military ship. A frigate, maybe. My earliest memory of this dream was my unit being poised to attack an enemy ship, not too far from us, at night. Apparently, everyone was waiting for me to fire the first shot, and kick off what was supposed to be a covert attack. I had this huge, cumbersome chaingun, which had two joysticks and an array of buttons on it. I just looked at the thing, really having no idea of how to work it. The enemy boat was far enough away that I couldn't see what I would be aiming at, in the dark. There had to be some kind of sight on this thing. Fumbling with the buttons, I flipped a switch and mistakenly turned on a huge spot light, which shined across the water and directly onto the enemy ship. Well there went any chance of a surprise attack. Quickly, I tried to recover, hearing the hushed curses of the guys in my unit. I flipped another switch and a night-vision display came up, between the joysticks. Not having much time to adjust to the image, I just opened fire at all of the little blips on the screen. Following my - quite embarassing - lead, the rest of my team opened fire as well, kicking off the full force of the attack.

The next day, I was having to report to my superior's quarters, presumably to get chewed out for making such a mess of what was supposed to be a precision attack. On my way across the dock/harbor area, which seemed to be a mixture between a dock and an airport, I saw my best friend just getting back home from his trip. Completely surprised by this, I went over to greet him. A crowd of our family and friends were around, including JD, MR and I think JS. We all gave him a huge group hug and welcomed him back - with a few tears of joy throughout the group - but I knew that I didn't have time to stand around. I told him I had to go, because I was about to get reamed out for what had happened the previous night. I jogged off and continued my way across the dock and onto the ship, trying to find my way to my CO's quarters. The ship was basically a labyrinth; just an endless maze of tiny compartments, suffocating hallways and ladders. I rounded a corner and came to a wide area, within the hull. On the outside of the room was an Autobots symbol, and inside, there were dozens of giant robots, many of them identical, practicing drills. Apparently, we were in the midst of a joint operation with the Transformers. They were going over tactical transformations and timing, repeatedly transforming and de-transforming in unison.

Moving on, I finally made it to where I was supposed to be. Just before stepping in the door, though, I noticed that I wasn't wearing any shoes or boots. I knew that it would be unacceptable to show up like this, so I had to run all the way back to my own quarters (wherever that was. Can't remember). On the way back across the deck, I remember weaving through some male and female soldiers that were doing PT; mainly pushups. While running across the ship's deck - not too far from the edge - it became hard to run. It's that old, dream scenario where, no matter how hard you're running, you just don't seem to be getting anywhere. It didn't quite feel like I was running underwater - as it usually does. Instead, it felt more like trying to run into a hurricane, and the wind was just so strong that it was holding me in place. After trying to run for a bit, I would slow down, and the sensation would completely go away. And then, once I started running again, it would come back again, and this imaginary wind, which did not affect anything around me, would keep me running in place.

This strange sensation caused me to realize I was dreaming. I tried to confirm this by focusing on a window a few yards away and motioning with my hand, toward it, trying to break the glass from a distance with telekinesis. I could almost 'feel' an impact, from afar, but didn't really seem to affect the window at all. Still, I knew that I was dreaming. There was a cargo net in front of me, which I would have to climb, to get back to where I needed to be. It was elevated onto a platform, at the far end, and I took one high jump toward the center of the net. It was maybe a good 20ft jump, and I could hear some soldiers gawking and gasping in amazement. I made a second jump, bounding maybe another 30 feet in the air and landing on the top of the platform, skipping most of the obstacle. I had to walk along a slender catwalk, after that. It was somewhere around here, where I lost lucidity. And the last thing I remember is just going back through the hallways and trying to find my CO's office again.

Ok so it all started in the school corridor lol and someone said "Wee" but I was so scared of the word that I ran away and had to hide then there was this big epic adventure while I was wearing camo gear!

Sorry, cant remember this one very well. lol

Wednesday, July 13th

I. Apocryphal

I remember little about this dream but the theme seemed to be that I was attempting to separate my apocryphal beliefs and also the ideas that I've absorbed from others from the "real" ones.

The only events I remember are seeing D.N at my house on his way to class, looking extremely intoxicated. This happened twice.
There were also two fireworks displays I was at.

There was man in a cave. For some reason it started turning into a monster type figure, though he
wasn't evil.

He slowly started walking out of the cave. In the middle of the cave was a kind of cave doorway
without a door. As the creature approached the cave doorway, sideways stalagtites grew like
cave teeth to block its passage.

Trapped in the cave now, the creature turned around to go back in the cave. With his back to the
toothy, sideways stalagtite protrusions, the creature grew wings on the outside of the new cave growth
while he was on the inside. He was now trapped exactly in place.

I thought there might be some way to free him just by busting up the rock.

This was about the strangest dream I've ever had.


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Someone had robbed a bank. I ended up with the get-away car with two bags of money in the back.
An old ex friend stopped a truck in front of me so I couldn't get away. He knew I had robbed the bank.

He pointed a strange gun at me and told me not to move. My windshield fogged up and I thought about
my situation. I decided I would rather die than go to jail. As the fog cleared, I told the guy my decision.
I backed the car just waiting to be shot, but he never did.

I drove away and drove into a warehouse. Dream skip ~ The dock door was shut behind me.
I saw a trailer from an 18 wheeler outside. It couldn't fit in the warehouse. This is residue from my last job driving a truck. I didn't remember driving the trailer, and wondered if it was full of money.

All of a sudden, it was like a bedroom, but I was still in the warehouse. Someone had set up there bedroom in the warehouse as if they were going to live in it. Then they came around and I was hiding.

Dream skip ~ I am knocking on a door and opening it to see if it is OK to come in. It is my grandparents house. They are very old. I shouldn't have been bothering them. They are gone in real life and I think my subconscious was incorporating that into my feelings.

They were so old that they couldn't enjoy grand-kids. The end of like was a great burden and they couldn't
enjoy other things.

I was with a friend (i never saw him before) and we were gong to a different state for awhile. We got to this weird place and they were having a party in the back. people were dancing and everything. Me and my friend went in to the house and we went in to a room that looked like my moms (i didnt know it looked like it untill i woke up). I was on the floor next to this bed like thing. he jumped of it and tried to stab me with a knife (one of those knives that you use for cutting foam installation and cardboard and etc.) and he got me in the arm. Then this is what scares me. His mom took the knive from him and then tried to stab me but some how she stabbed her baby (like 2 years old) in the forehead with the knife. I tried to pull the baby away and she ended up having a cut about 4 inches deep all the way across the forehead witch killed her and the mom blamed it all on me for killing her. She kept me and was torturing me. I finally made a dash for it out the front door (it looked like my front lawn and had the same porch) but some one was standing there so i pushed them and ran but my dream made me slow so a cop (a dirty cop) that was working form the lady caught me and threw me back into the house. I was tortured even more intill both of them were occupied (paying the pizza man and grabbing the pizza they bought) so i ran out the door again there was a hooker and i said to screw off and i ran like no tomorrow. I was even using my arms to help me run then i saw my moms car at the end of the drive way all messed up (i thought she was dead) but i got in the back and she was under the seat (wtf?) and she started driving but i started to know it was a dream because she was driving from the passengers side (like a right hand drive car) and then i closed my eyes and i woke up.

7/13/2011

Talking Non-Lucid

I was going to go down a waterfall. The scenery was very basic, with the dark brown rocks with a few tropical flowers. The water was crystal clear, when I jumped into the water from a pretty high point, it was like being transported to another area. I can’t remember much of this dream because everything was so quick I guess.



Suddenly I’m at the same location again, and apparently this anime chick that’s named Avon is my wife, but I know that’s not her name at all. (I think she is that white haired chick that came from Outlaw Star or something, oh it's Aisha haha).



And one of the characters from King of the Hill (The guy wearing a white vest and blue pants and has a bald spot with hair on the side of his head) was threatening he was going to kill Avon.
His name is Bill Dauterive




I didn’t care, and I continued on riding the waterfall. That’s all I could recall.


Then another dream was where I was trapped in this room with a few random DCs, and we had to do some nonsense to prevent us from being killed. Something was banging on the door I think, but that dream was short because I realize all that everyone was doing was just panicking for no reason and doing random things lol.

Goals: Gone With the Wind TOTY, visit the Dream World Academy.

I dreamed that Cedar Point had been moved to a nearby city to mine. So, my Dad takes me and my brothers to Cedar Point. We are now at Cedar Point. [SPOILER][/SPOILER]
We go in. The place is awesome. My older brother and I go over to a newly installed ride. We get on. It is an orangish-colored coaster. We ride the coaster, and there is some sort of mission we have to do. We end unfailing the mission(I can't recall what it was). But we still had fun on the coaster. We get off and go to play a real life game of Super Smash Bros. Brawl. I forget exactly what happened, but I do recall kicking some major ass. So now, I believe I saw a dream sign. So I became lucid! Oh hell yeah! Time to do some serious business! I recall having to do the Gone With the Wind TOTY. Time to do it! I now ki speedily my way to a house that looks fancy. It's a brick house.
[SPOILER][/SPOILER]
I see Rhett walk out very fast with a black suit case. Scarlett follows close behind.
"Wherever shall I go? Whatever shall I do?" Scarlett asks Rhett.
"Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn." Rhett harshly replies to Scarlett. He stops when he sees me.
"You don't give a damn, huh?" I say. Rhett knows I mean business. He brakes into a sprint, and Scarlett tries to chase him. I break into a sprint too. I'll give that bastard a piece of my mind. I begin chasing him. I easily pass Scarlett. After about running a whole block, I reach Rhett. I grab him by the shoulder and turn him to face me. I punch him square in the face!
"Just take Scarlett back or you'll be a worthless piece of shit for the rest of your life Rhett!" I snap(not my exact words, I can't recall them exactly). Rhett recovers. We're now under a brick bridge. A lot of people notice the scene happening. Now, Rhett gives Scarlett a super romantic speech(I sadly can't recall any of it). I realize that we're near a church. What a place to make a romance scene, eh? So, now he's done, after a literal three minute speech. The two kiss. Yucky! LOL. Anyway...I must have put some damn good power into that punch. If Rhett was able to forgive and forget that easily. Oh well. Yay! My eighth TOTY is completed! Four more to go! Now, I need to go visit the Dream World Academy. I start to fly over the church, when I see George Lopez sitting with the Priest at a white table with a white umbrella.
[SPOILER][/SPOILER]
I land by them.
"What's up George?" I say. I notice he's making something. "Making pot? Haha. Just kidding." George laughs too. The priest doesn't notice me. I walk past him, then ki speed fly away. I fly past some trees, and then there's the Dream World academy. It's set up is like what insideout drew in his DWA dream. Two bed post towers, castle in the back, village up front. I land and there's a gate the reads "Dream World Academy." the castle looks cool.
[SPOILER][/SPOILER]
I proceed through the gate, and like twenty armed Templars come at me. Oh shit! I pull put two Westar-33 Blaster Pistols and aim.
"It's okay! I'm a lucid dreamer!" I say, rest to fire. They stop.
"You may go in." One guard says in a deep voice. They have cool armor. All black, with spikes and stuff. The helmets had two black horns bent like an L. They had giant-ass black swords too. You could see there eyes in the visor, which were just blue circles. I proceed into the castle. The castle is all black on both in the inside and outside. I walk in, a man walks up to me. He looks a lot like George Washington.
"Are you worthy enough to wander in Dream World Academy?" he asks. I quickly beat him down and put one blaster pistol to the back of his head, and the other to his chin.
"Is this worthy enough for you?" I ask, applying pressure with the blasters.
"Yes. Please let me give you the tour." he replies. I let him go.
"One second, I need to carefully observe the castle." I say. I look around. A hallway on both sides of me, and one in front of me. A red carpet leads from the door to the first room in front of me. Down the left hall, I see another hallway going both ways, and a set of stairs going up is at the start of the hall. The right hallway also has two more halls going each way. This place is pretty awesome. We now go the the room in front of us. The red carpet leads down about a fifteen foot hallway. There are lit torches about every three feet on both sides. At the end of the hall, the carpet ends. We proceed into the kitchen. The first room. It has white-tiled walls and floor. On the left are stairs going down. On the left, is a gas stove and oven. Then past that is a countertop and sink. I notice another exit on the parallel side of where I am. It leads into a dark room. The guide now leads me down stairs. The room is semi dark. A few windows are here. There are multiple shelves, and tables all over here. There everything you could ask for here. The ground is solid grey brick. As well as the walls. The guide now stands in a far corner of the room. I notice a vintage drum kit, and go over and sit down and I play a blues beat.
[SPOILER][/SPOILER]
They literally have everything down here. I go over to a table with hand guns on it. There's a price tag that said something around $9.00. I'm surprised by the low price. It's a real hand gun! I now go back to the drums. A girl comes down the stairs. She has an old Revolutionary War pistol. She shoots me in my left shoulder with it. And it actually hurt! What the fuck, bitch?! I jump over the drums as she runs into a corner.
"Kamehame...HA!" I blast her with a large blue ki blast. There's nothing left of her. Oops. Shit. I didn't mean to go THAT far. I go behind the drums now. Harry Potter, Ron Weasley, and Herminie Granger all come downstairs now. [SPOILER][/SPOILER]
Harry fires the death spell at me!
"Avada Kedavra!" he shouts. What the fuck? I easily deflect it with my hand though. Wow, I stopped an "unstoppable" spell! Haha! Mike Dirnt now comes down with his bass guitar. Holy shit! Mike Dirnt!
[SPOILER][/SPOILER]
He now throws his bass at me. I dodge it. Hey! I feel betrayed by my favorite bassist now! Now, Billie Joe Armstrong comes down with his guitar.
[SPOILER][/SPOILER]
I run over an hug him. He's my idle! Now, everyone is grabbing weapons and getting ready to kill me. I better go. I run outside the castle now, and the Templars are coming in fast now. What the hell did I do to deserve this? It was that bitchy girl who started it! I keep running and I get away. I land in the village, where I'll be safe for now. I soon awake.

so i dreamt i was in my house and i looked out the window to see people taking stuff out the boot of my car, i instantly ran down the stairs and outside. the car was gone but the were young boys running down the street away from where my car had been. i ran after them and caught one at the bottom of my street, i pinned him against a fence and kept asking who stole my car but he kept telling me he cant say and it was best if i didnt know so i told him if he didnt tell me i would be taking it out on him. he then spilled the beans and it was someone that i use to go to school with and in my dream my brother knew and spoke to this person so my brother was trying to gwet in touch with him and all he told me that if i didnt get the car back i would get the money for it and i was telling him i didnt want the money aqnd if i didnt get the car back i was going to deal with it myself and at this point my 2 cousins walked in and when i was in the middle of explaining this to i woke up in my bed...... i was gutted i had not gained LUCIDITY but very glad i had not lost my car lol

I think i recall dreaming about a TV talkshow. And they where hosting Shared dreamers to come tell their shared dream experiences on TV.

Took a nap this morning.

I dreamed i was in a park talking to people. I was thinking about lucid dreaming and i hopped on my bike to ride away. Then i noticed this huge billboard sign saying : "NOTHING BEATS LUCID DREAMING, DV FORUM"

I'm like.. wow how didn't i notice that sign. I guess lucid dreaming is getting populair if there are billboards like that noawadays. Wait a minute ! I pinch my nose and i'm able to breathe.
But fuck.. i'm back in my bed. I was vaguely aware of that the whole time actually. Seeing both scenes at the same time. I didn't bother pinching my nose in bed. I was pretty sure i woke up. I just tried to get back in the dream, without success.

The last couple of nights I have been trying something like "In the next hour, I will reality check." Trying to activate the goal seeking part of my brain. Then visualized preforming reality check. Still only hitting about half of my goals in the prospective memory exercise. Sometimes less. Not sure if this is for me.

Dreams
I am at a convienience store near where this old video store used to be. Someone in the line asks for milk with something, and the guy on cash says he's leaving soon so he doesn't want to go get it. He also says it will be like $1.50 more. He goes to get it, and I talk with the guy about the bad service. A big guy comes back too, and says to me "You're gonna buy that shit?" I am holding already made cold coffee in a jar. "yeah." Now it gets scary. There is a woman in the shop screaming. She is on the wall like a horror film, and she is about to see herself for the first time. Her face is darkened, there's something wrong with it. There's this demonic blackness on it. I see images of her as a child with the darkened face screaming. I see her trying to punch the image of herself in the mirror with the darkened face. I wake up with my eyes a bit watery because I was scared!

--WBTB--
Decided just to go with the mantra "I will lucid dream this morning or very soon", and visualized the girl screaming and realizing that it was dream. Decided to try WILD a bit as well, but after about 25 mins just wanted to fall asleep so I moved. Can only ever get to a point where I start to see flashes, but then get too excited and it goes away.

Dreams
I'm on the bus and there is a really attractive girl on it too, and she periodically bends over. This happens a lot, but her dad and family is right there so I don't want to check her out which is difficult not to do. She gets off the bus, and the next thing I remember is being at school looking for some attractive girls. I see some of my friends' sister's friends up this circular ramp. I am in a parking lot near my house now, with my dad. I am in the car, and I see this girl from my martial arts club, but she looks older and more attractive now. My dad and I are walking home but he is running now, and I ask him what is wrong. He says nothing, but he just feels the need to get home. He starts losing it or something. He says "In case you snap, I can tie you to this." I am creeped out, and get into a fighting pose. I try to throw a few strikes at him but nothing can land. He tells me if I try to fight him he'll hit back like a wrecking ball or something.

I am thinking that I wake up, but then go to my window. It is wooden with portholes, and I open them up. In my tree in the backyard is a basketball net box, and a huge sandbox filled with cranberries! I remember asking myself if I was ever going to wake up. "This is just too weird to be real." I thought.

The dream started at my cousins house. Except my cousins house was my house, but in the dream, it was my cousins. my bro and i were in our bedrooms using our laptops and stuff like that happened......

Soon we we in the future looking at a large building which we entered. It had purple hallways and red carpets. We were killing gaurds there like it was a video game. Soon we were in a GIGANTIC room, probably about 20x the size of my school gym. We walked around and exited the room and stuff like that. soon i remember being in a steel room with a gaurd we were trying to sneak away and trying to go into the backyard. When we went into the backyard of the mansion/LARGE building, i realized i wasnt wearing shoes, and there was mud in the forest in the backward. My bro already ran into the forest and i called him to come back. He came back. Soon i said, ''do you think we are going in circles'' and he said ''no, look at the big room again. We were back in the big room 20x the size of my gym, except now, there was a LARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGE stairway leading to the top. Each of the steps were larger than me...

I climbed the steps very easily, Soon everything became DARK! I walked through the floor on the top and it led to a stairway leading down. At the bottom, there was a flikring light. When it was off, it was almost pitch black. We went down. We walked in almost pitch black and soon there was a stairway on both sides. We went left. The stairs were breaking and twisting but we continued walking. Soon the stairs ended and below me was an endless fall. There were floating platforms we had to jump across. we jumped across them.

When we jumped across them, I was at 'my cousins house (IRL it was my house but in the dream it was my cousins) and everything was exactly as i left it in the beginning of the dream, my laptop was angled on a desk, My bros laptop was angled, the tv was showing the grey blur screen. I was immensely horrified, eyes widened, trembling, ( i was in the future about 1000000000 years.) Everything was the same in the room. I immediatly left and the dream ended.

I had this dream the night of July 12th, 2011

M and I are in his car. We're driving along a bumpy, dirt road. It is dusk. I ask him to turn his lights on. As we are driving, a group of younger boys are running alongside the road. They have a red/blue/white soccer ball and are chasing it. Dust is everywhere. One of the boys kicks the ball and it hits the car. He keeps kicking it and hitting the side of the car by the front tire. M tries to drive around them but I tell him to just stop, they'll go around us. They do.

We continue on and its getting rather dark now. We come to an intersection of sorts. On the other side of the road is a darker man in an older, 'souped up' SUV. He has really shiny, silver rims. Someone makes a snide remark, either the SUV owner or M, and they start to get hostile toward one another. They are talking about racing or showing off their cars. I am uneasy and don't like this guy. I tell M to keep going. I plead for him to just keep driving. But he doesn't.

I get out of the car and start walking along the road. There is a dark tunnel. It is not reinforced. It is very narrow and difficult to traverse for larger vehicles. I decide I'll wait here for M. But then a series of big-rig trucks come along and as I'm sitting there (maybe I dozed off) I see that they're going to smash me into the tunnel wall because they're so wide. I try to run to the mouth of the tunnel, but its too late. I push mysef back, against some branches, but realize that these have been crushed already and are broken off of the tree. One truck misses me, but the next doesn't. I black out.

I wake up and its daylight. Closest to mid-morning, by appearance. I am bound and in the middle of nowhere in the desert. The sand is red here. There are bluffs behind me and I am seated on a wooden stage of sorts. A man is there with me. He looks like a local, dark hair, dark eyes. He rolls a net out over the bluffs- it is a sheer drop with jagged rocks below. The netting sways in the wind and doesn't look sturdy. He comes over to me and tells me to climb onto it. I immediately refuse, am overcome with fear, explaining how unsteady it looks. He tells me again to get on. I think of M and wonder where he could be. How he could have just let me walk away. Then I wonder where I am.

The man sneers and tells me to look over the bluff, down to the road below. I see emergency vehicles flying the wrong way down a highway (its paved) and up ahead I see complete obliteration. Destruction. Vehicles are upside down and inside out. Many of them. The man sneers again, as if to know who I'm looking for, and I feel very sad. No one is coming for me. I am alone. And I feel bad for being upset that M didn't come for me. I imagine it was all part of a plan.

Dream - Lucid

I was in a room, talking to a psychiatrist. I was looking over his shoulder a his notes, which he was taking on a yellow sheet of paper. I told him something about thinking I was an addict, and he wrote down a prescription for Paxil on his notes. I felt funny about being prescribed meds, but I wasn't upset (I feel like I might be a little irked or uncomfortable about it in waking life).

I was then in my brother's room. I think I was talking to him about weed. I had my pipe there. It was dark in his room.

Then, as I was walking through some house, I remember Kacey's brother hitting on me, and then my friend Josh. I remember offering one of them a cigarette. I was going to take the tobacco out and put it in my pipe, but then I thought that might be a little silly, so I just offered the cigarette. One of them tried to get me to come into a public restroom with them, beckoning me in as they entered, but I didn't go in. I told someone about it, I think it may have been Kacey but I can't quite remember for sure.

I was facing a girl with brown skin, wearing tribal clothing (middle eastern style). She flashed a few cards with various images on them in front of my face. The one that I remember was one of a large eye. I looked closer, thinking at first it was a photo of a whale's eye, then realizing it was an elephant's eye. It seemed meaningful to me at the time (I recently read a story that had elephants in it..).

I walked outside to go see the elephants - the first one I saw was HUGE, and deformed, something was weird with the trunk...and it was behind a fence made of what looked like railroad ties (horizontally placed between fenceposts).
Someone was next to me and we walked along the fence, and saw more and more ENORMOUS animals, which I understood to be dinosaurs.

I wondered how such a small fence could keep such huge creatures out, and I remarked to my companion that they were just so huge it was hard to believe they were real, but they were! Further along the fence I noticed a velociraptor approaching. I stepped under a white plastic awning that covered a section of the top tier of the fence. The velociraptor was exactly where I was, and I felt/saw/heard it hop up on top of the plastic thing I was under, and over the fence.

I thought I would be safest staying there, then thought better of it. I noticed now there was a crowd of people rushing back into the building I had just come out of, which now looked like a Church of Christ building I went to when I was a kid. Someone handed a baby to me and I don't remember what I did with it....

I made it in and went to the wall, where there was a line of elevators. An authority -type person (minister? pastor?) was trying to calm people down by giving a sermon on the ups and downs and tragedies of life, saying something like, "we ask ourselved, how COULD this happen?"

I was thinking...really we could be questioning our thoughts here...and I pushed a button that opened all of the elevators, and light poured into the room.

The crowd of people turned toward me and chastised me for bringing in the light, that it was going to attract the velociraptor. I felt bad, thinking, "Oh, I made another wrong decision, I keep making the wrong choices."

***Yesterday my purse was stolen from my car. I did (and am continuing to do) a lot of self-inquiry...I felt the feelings of fear really deeply...I questioned my thinking about the whole thing. I am practicing the model that THIS is a dream, is a hologram, and anything that really rattles me is a reflection of what I am attached to as being real, and identifying as a small self, separate from "God" or "Source".

I blessed the person who stole my purse, took responsibility for my part, acknowledged that *I* created the whole situation.

I did beat up on myself a bit for being stupid and leaving my purse in the car, and for suspending my phone service so quickly (I fantasized that maybe I could have caught the person if they used the phone...).

Before I went to sleep, I asked for a dream to show me what I could learn from the situation. My take on this dream, is that the dinosaurs that seem so huge and terrifying and real, are fears...that are NOT real. Also, dinosaurs represent the old, the ancient, the extinct. Not sure what is up with the deformed elephant and I'm open to suggestion.

The elevators reflect to me taking action that brings in the light, that other parts of me fear, because bringing in the light seems to attract those scary monsters. I second-guessed my actions last night, but the dream shows me that I made the right choice and that the pushback is just fear, and the fear is of something illusory and unreal.