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Had a rough one last night.

I can't exactly recall what perceiving it was like. But I remember my mind being in tatters, like I was going crazy. All I knew was that I was going crazy. Or that I was dying, or something; I just knew that something was very wrong and that nothing was what it seemed. Of course, I was dreaming but I simply could not quite figure that part out. I wanted to escape to the real world but was unsure of where I was in relationship to it, or was unsure of what the real world really was. This dream was fully inspired by the few-and-far-between deep Salvia Divinorum trips I had in my youth. It was exactly like an experience that played out almost completely similarly, in which I knew that something was very wrong but could not figure out what it was.

I was in my old house living room when me and my family are all try to become lucid it was a dream on becoming lucid i go to mykitchen and rub my hands and look around then bam im really lucid so i go back to the living room triping over stuuf on the ground it christmas and there lot of presents every were in diffrent shapes. i start to rip them open but there just clear balls in diffrent shapes like i open a circle present and it was like a clear beach ball so i go oit the front door worried i get in trouble for leaving in the mddle of the night but i new i was lucid so i went i jumped of the porch and look at the sky there million of baby blue stars and it amazing i start to rise and rise then i look down and see my mom come out the house i dive and gluid down.she like get back in the house it late at night i say im lucid but she dosent listen and i lose my lucididy and get back in the house

August 16, 2011

Dream fragments this time.

Before I get to the dream itself I notice the past few days that I been waking up in the middle of the night without being able to recall anything. This was the case last night but I was lazy and fell back to sleep to quickly have this fragment.

Anyway:

Middle of a forest and there was a Blastoise on his back. He oddly enough didn't have a shell which I didn't notice til I woke up. I rub his head and he seem to enjoy it then I put my hand on his belly. (He lack a shell but the color was the same.) He nodded and approve it. I rub his belly and somehow I knew he was willing to grant a wish.

His wishes was VERY limited...He can transform me to a Pokemon...That it. If lucid I would pick Haunter for his powers, abilities and looks. My dream self pick my favorite Pokemon though so it wasn't all bad. Spent a few secs being a Charmander then woke up.

- I was going to meet up with N because he came to visit. I was wearing a big fluffy black jsk wth shorts underneath. I had to stop at some store on my way there to use the bathroom. But they didn't have any toilets, just these weird public seats with a tiny hole in them you were supposed to try to use. There was a blonde girl with her dad at one, but then I realized the holes were taped over anyway, so I just left.

Then I met up with "N", but it somehow turned out to be E instead. He hugged me and then kissed my shoulder. He was wearing this purple lightning shirt. We went and did some sort of school thing even though it was still summer. I think it was an adventure but I can't remember it. At the end we were outside my grandmother's house, he had to go and I said "okay, wanna hang out tomorrow?" He was like "er okay" sounding like he didn't really want to. I started talking about what we could do and he was backing away slowly, then finally said "okay I wanna get to my home now..." so I let him leave.


- My mom was going to make me drive somewhere even though I didn't know how. I sat in the passenger seat and the car had some kind of semi automatic turning and driving thing, so I just had to steer once in a while. I soon realized I couldn't do it, so I turned around to drive back home, making several cars have to swerve out of the way, and drove on this really wide bike path. Somehow I made it home and was like, "I can't do this".


- There was this HORRIBLE bathroom I was supposed to try and use. It was so dirty, the water went right up on the seats when you flushed and more stuff would appear in it sometimes, all the toilet paper was soaked, and there were slices of roast beef in a bucket you were supposed to use as toilet paper. :| I somehow managed to use it, then came out and it was full of people. I started talking to someone and we both said at the same time, "that was the worst bathroom experience of my life!".

Then I saw a door at the end that said "ANYTHING-KEI" (I understood it was supposed to be like fairy kei) and went in. It turned out to be this nice, empty, clean bathroom that was covered in rainbows and furry things and everything was animal themed. I was annoyed I hadn't discovered it before.

I was having a hell of a time falling asleep last night but after about 3 hours I finally did.

Dream 1: I was in some sort of IRL world of warcraft school. we were learning to fight by facing bosses as if I were in a raid with a class of people. I dont remember much of the fight but it was quite fun. I later after class ventured out into the land. There were lots of monsters in a fantasy landscape and I had a quest to achieve. It isnt coming to my memory right now but I can remember venturing through this land and fighting a few easy beasts and joining some fairy lady or something for the quest. At that point I woke up and went back to sleep

Dream 2: Lucid: I kept waking up and falling asleep IRL but all of my dreams were linked together somehow.
First I was at some club wth a bunch of hot girls, i started to grind with some of them and it was awesome, I ended up back in my neighbourhood and took my little sister to the plaza a couple of minutes from my house to go to the dollar store. while we were in there i made some small talk with her and then i saw that this dollar store was selling xbox 360's! I grabbed one and i dropped it into the band of my sweat pants. I quickly rushed my sister to the front telling her to distract te cashier while i waltz out with the console. It looked pretty obvious I was hiding a huge box under there but i thought I could get away with it. When I got to the cash something didnt seem as it normally would in taht store. I quickly realized "YES! Im dreaming!" I started to run out of thedoor and my sister yelled at me to come back she had no way of getting home. I knew this meant nothing she was just a DC so I kept running, I walked out of the door skipped a RC and just started spinning to stabilize. I started walking down the strip of the plaza and since this was my fourth successful and longest LD I thought I should try flying. I jumped and expected to float but I fell basically as gravity would normally pull me down. I then said out loud " I will fly!" and jumped again with my arms outstretched in front of me and began a very slow drift through the air, this wasnt satisfying enough so I thrust my arms to my side while tensing them in a shape kind of like this /l\ I instantly picked up a ton of speed and blasted throgh the air while the surrounding began to blur. While I was in the air I used the thought of dragonball Z characters flying to help me actually achieve the speed and flight> I thought about it so much that while I was flying I started to sing " Dragon dragon balllll dragoon ball Z!" Soon I found myslef non-lucid and walking back to the plaza because I had just left my sister there alone. as i was walking ther again I quickly said " hold up, Im still dreaming what am I doing?" Instantly the whole scene turned blurry I collapsed and let a huge fart rip (or what I thought was a fart ) I tryed to look at my hands to stabilize but I couldnt make them out theough the haze I ended up opening one eye and waking up!

It was incredible all my other LD's lasted seconds while this lasted for a matter of a couple of minutes. I cant wait to do this again tonight. I will attain lucidity again!

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Didn't recall much this morning, only a dream about getting Magic the Gathering cards.

22.30: Sleep

05.10: Fragment
*I'm opening a bunch of envelopes, I guess it's my birthday. I get a few Magic the Gathering cards in one, and I check them out. They're red/green, and mythic rare. One card gives +12/+12 to a creature which is imba. I thank everyone around me for the presents. All of a sudden I'm in a store with my dad, we're getting new cards. "This is such a waste of money" he tells me angrily. I don't care.

05.10: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 6½ hours

Supplements: None

That's it!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

I was in a dream, and I randomly became lucid. I was standing in the middle of a random open area with a few trees. It was snowy, and the sky was grey. I scream "CLAIRTY!" a few times and rubbed and clapped my hands together. When I looked around, I was just stunned. Everything seemed so real and vivid. I touched a few objects, and it felt so strangely sensual.

I had totally forgotten about any dream goals I had, but I was trying to remember them. I decided I should start by getting away from this area. I tried to jump up and fly but it didn't work. Then I spotted a giant fallen over tree. I decided I could use it as a broomstick like in Harry Potter. I hopped on to it, and then I was flying on a giant dead tree.

Steering the thing was quite a task. It was really hard to balance on it. Eventually my dream faded.

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I was at summer camp like I used to go to when I was younger. We were lined up against the wall of that gym and the counsellors were doing something. We were all wearing the orange uniform shirt and waiting for something to happen. I looked around and saw ZA and JU among all the orange shirts. I was really confused as I thought they were too old to go to camp by now. I wanted to go talk to JU but something was holding me back.

Suddenly I turned around, and this gorgeous guy was standing in front of me and smiling down at me. He had tanned skin (really tanned, the only thing I objected) and brown hair that swooped over his brown eyes. He randomly took hold of my hand, and I went right along with it.

Then we were randomly in some forest area on some sort of trail. We were climbing a huge wooden staircase that went up this cliff. The random guy was still with me the whole way. At some point I started making out with him, and he grabbed me and carried me up the stairs. Then the dream ended.

Had a great zombie dream, woke up, and it was so awesome, I had the dream again when I went back to sleep. That happened a few times. Makes recall difficult when you have several versions of the same dream.

Zombie Fun
Recall: 6/10
Sleep: OK
Sleep Position: Unknown

Zombie! I'm running from them and fighting them off with my group of survivors. We use guns, but ammo is scarce, swords, axes. Great fun. These aren't your average zombies, they are tricksy. At one point they use a little girl as bait to lure people in. There are also other evolved zombies that have grown into larger monstrosities.

One version has a post apocalyptic government to deal with the zombie menace, and of course they fuck things up making it worse. A lot of running, fighting, hiding, scrounging for supplies, my fellow survivors getting eaten. A good time was had by all!

Woke up from a dream in the night where I was driving my old friend's dad's Camaro, but it could fold into a motorcycle. Don't really remember falling asleep and couldn't rem the dream at first so was sitting in my room not really sure if I was asleep or dreaming. Read for a bit, then said "I will lucid dream tonight or very soon" once then went to sleep.

I'm in a nice house in the dining room with a girl. She looks pretty punk, with some bright blue hair dye I think. I realize I am dreaming, and things start getting heated with her. I say "stablize!" to the dream, finally remembering to do this stuff. I rub my hands together, as well as rub my arms and legs. I lick a cabinet, and try to smell the room to ground me. It helps, and it was more stable than my other 2 second lucids but I was still thinking "Don't think about waking up..oh shit I'm thinking about it". We start floating up to the ceiling, and there are older men wearing monacles and top hats watching us. I get to the ceiling and start to go through. I either woke up or entered a non lucid.

Dream - Lucid

I was in an airport I think. I saw Chris walking by, and we met eyes. We both couldn't stop staring at one another. I didn't think he was going to want to talk to me or see me, but he came up to me and hugged me. I hugged him back. I felt the old, familiar feeling of my arms wrapping around him, but not all the way because he's big. I was so, so happy to be in that moment! It was a beautiful feeling.

More things happened, I walked somewhere with him and talked to some other people, but I can't remember any more details. The main thing I recall is the feeling of hugging him and the happiness it brought me.

~

I was sitting on the couch in my living room at my house in my hometown. I looked to my left towards the entrance to the room, and saw my friend Jase and some of his friends standing there. More of them started to come into the room. Jase was apparently having some sort of get together with his friends at my house. I felt a little irked, because he never asked me if it was ok for him to do that.

Then, I was sitting on the other side of the couch. Jase and his buddies were all in the living room. I remember Jase sitting on one of the chairs with someone else. Jase saw me and said
"Krista!" He then gave me a big hug.
On the other side of the couch sat my mom. I leaned over to her, pointed to Jase and whispered
"See that guy? He's my communist friend. He didn't ask if it was ok for him to do this."
My mom then started to talk to Jase and ask him questions. The one that I remember was
"Do you still keep up with your journal?" (journal=blog in this context). She said something about reading his journal.

Then, I saw something on the TV. It was some sort of indie political movie.
"Typical," I thought to myself.

Then, I looked at the coffee table, and there was a Scrabble board on it. It was totally full of letters; there were no empty spaces. I started to mess with the letters, taking some of them off the board, and then figured I should ask Jase if his friends and he were done with the game. I asked, and he said yes. As I asked, I noticed that I kept sniffling and my throat was sore. It was like I was coming down with a bad cold.

I then started to play with the letters on the coffee table. I was, for some reason, trying to spell the word "FULL". I couldn't find two L's. I thought I had at first, but realized I had two U's instead. I thought about using a blank tile in place of an L, but then thought that was silly, since I had all the letters right in front of me. I finally spelled it. The tiles looked something like this:

[F]
[ ] [ ] [U] [ ] [ ]
[L]
[L]

I then was in or playing some sort of video game where it was like I was in space trying to jump onto a swinging platform, and I kept falling because my timing was wrong. When I finally made it, I had to talk to some woman and show her a key. I showed it to her, and it looked like this ceramic knife my mom bought in waking life. She took the sheath off of the knife, which looked like a ceramic key now, and said that it was the wrong thing. She gave it back and I re-sheathed it.

I was in some sort of large building, similar to a mall. There were quite a few people around and I, along with several other people, were standing around a kiosk of sorts. Apparently we had signed up for a race, in which we had to write our names using various creative ways. The first one was using a code, but was in the what seemed like a store right next to us.

we all ran inside and noticed there were a bunch of trees. Not small trees like you might see in a landscaping project, but huge, full grown trees over 60 feet high. Some of which were turned over on their side. We started to climb up one of them and, at the top, were various letters and buttons. We had to spell out our name using the buttons, but it was in code. We were each given the translation of the code before, so I pulled it out of my pocket. I set it on the ground right next to me and started to press the buttons in accordance with the code. Instead of spelling out my name, i spelled out "herp mah derp" (Thanks IRC ) Apparently I passed and was able to move on, but the person in front of me, who looked eerily familiar, had spelled out Izaya. That was it! He was a character from an anime I had been recently watching.

Unfortunately, this didn't get me lucid, but the dream went on. We kept climbing the trees and eventually got to a group of them that were hanging outside the store. There were a few pine trees and platforms right below them. I instinctively tore off several branches, enough to spell my name. I was in front so I figured I was all set and could win this no problem. I walked up to a ver elongated branch that overhang the entire hallway of this mall. I figured that we had to spell our name by throwing the branched across the hallway and onto a sticky board on the other side.

I threw the first branch and it stuck to the wall just fine. I figured that would be one line in the B. I threw another, but it didn't stick. Then i noticed that izaya guy was right next to me, and threw a branch himself. It stuck, but he changed it somehow, to show "I <3" and then a window. Apparently he loves windows? I figured that just spelling "I" wasn't good enough to win so i kept going, but now matter how many, how hard, or how soft i threw the branches, they would not stick. Izaya just sat there laughing at me, and it was then that I woke up.

Hey guys! Sorry I haven't been as active in the DV community as of late, I was (and still kind of am) going through a bit of a dry spell so I am focusing on meditation and WILD technique.

So this isn't really a dream entry but some stuff I thought would be cool to get down about my experimentation with sleep paralysis. For the past couple of weeks I've been allowing my body to go numb and enter into sleep paralysis while keeping my mind awake. I have been doing this successfully by laying flat on my back on my bed and allowing my body just to get taken by the feeling of the paralysis. I haven't been able to fall asleep in this state however. I mean its good for experimentation but sucks when I can't go to sleep. I don't usually sleep lying on my back so my mind doesn't want to go to bed when I do this.

At first I just would lie there and let my mind wonder and let my body just slip into SP. I would feel like I was in that roller coaster ride "The Gravatron." (where you are pinned to the wall and can't move) I was pinned to my bed and it almost felt like my bed had flipped over and I was stuck to it as if it were the ceiling. I would be hanging over a bottomless pit. I would do this nightly. Eventually it wouldn't take hardly any time at all for me to get into SP.

Last night I had sort of a break through of sorts. I have been researching into occult practices, and I had read of a practice that if you meditate while laying down, and you place a crystal in each hand, and one on your chakra point on your forehead (your third eye) you would "charge" or enhance your psychic ability. I tried such a method last night. I even had a particular crystal that is supposed to help with dream vividness and recall. I placed this one on my third eye.

The SP felt like normal at first, my limps going numb and everything. But I started to feel a weight press down right on my rib cage and my stomach. Then I felt a weight on my head, ( I could actually feel my head sink into my rather firm pillow). I didn't think anything of it til something just kicked in. I am not sure what it was or what it means but I was just lying there thinking about random thoughts (I.e. what I have to do before work the next day..etc) Then all those thoughts went silent, in fact ALL of my thoughts were cut off and my mind was completely clear. And it was like my thoughts were cut off mid sentence. Right after my mind just cut off my thoughts I immediately began to hear a low "hum" or more like I could hear a vibration. A few seconds after this started a high pitched ring was layered over top of the vibration. I had no control over this and I couldn't really think of anything else, it was like all my brain wanted to do was listen to this hum.

I opened my eyes and could see the air swirl in spirals above me. And that's when the ride started.....my body began to feel like it was stuck to the bed again, only this time it felt like I was never going to move again and I felt like my entire bed was rotating and spinning while I was strapped down. The crystals felt very warm and almost hot in my hands. The crystals almost rolled out of my hands (or at least it felt like this while my bed was spinning) and I had to enclose my fingers around them to keep them in place.

I think this went on for a good half hour to 45 min before I snapped back to this plane, put the crystals away, and went to bed.

Went to bed at 5 am put alarm at 10 am. I woke up naturally on 8 am. Still tired, headache and i didn't recall a thing. Then i did nomad's trance recall and i remembered fragments from this lucid dream i just had. :O

Dream #1

I recall myself doing very short mantras last night. And visualizing practice. I kind of recall doing a reality check in my dream while riding a bike. Took me about 2 minutes to determin if i was actually dreaming or not. I went flying. At first i fell like i was gonna fall but then i just remembered to float instead of fly and it worked. I flew around little houses . I remember being on the ground again and prowling around looking for stuff to do. I climbed over a wall into a backyard and as i was doing that i was thinking if sex would really be the same in a dream. The last thing i remember is that there was a naked girl with tiny titties sitting across of me. She gave me instructions on what to do. She said, touch my right boob like this and say Yes. If you touch my left boob like this you have to say No. And you have to say it like this ; Noooooooooooooo.
I touched her left boob and said Noooooooo. And i woke up. i think.


Went back to bed after a shower. fragments again.
Dream #2

I was riding my bike and i ran into my friend's dad Hassan who was also riding a bike. He told me "It's about time you get a job already. You can come work at my place we need you there." I said "now? I'm just headed to school right now i can't go with you."
He hesitated and said well it's up to you but we could really use you. I said fine. Nevermind school let's go. I was still contemplating in my mind if i really wanted to do this cus he does have a big restaurant now and they almost only serve meat products. Not sure if i'm up for frying them all day.
Anyway i joined him and the next thing i recall is riding my bike coming from the restaurant's direction towards school. I thought i was with Hassan riding besides me but when i'm thinking of this scene i remember a really big and broad black man riding besides me. Possibly with sunglasses.
There was something really cool about this guy and when i was riding on the Boschdijk there where youth's from school walking around the sidewalks and i saw a lot of people looking at him in awe.

I remember fragments of being at school once. Taking a seat in the middle of the class. Alone.
I was at home and i was telling my mom about my dream with Hassan. I said that he got a job for me. Even tho i only dreamed it im pretty sure he really wants me to work there.

Then i remember going into class again. We where outside going into a Bus. Our classroom was located in a bus. (not 100% sure.. but i think so, atleast something like a bus) I went to sit next to Inge. One seat behind where i sat last time. Atleast i thought i was going to sit next to her cus then i realized i sat next to another girl and Inge was sitting next to her.

I go lucid in my bros room when something happens with my cat to make it obvious, i get really excited and start running around the house frantically. When i calm myself down i take a good moment to stabilize the dream, rubbing my hands together and controlling my breathing, everything feels really stable and looks good, like waking life, my pinky and ring finger look quite unnatural and sometimes nonexistant, i also rem seeing a random stranger in my house but i just ignored them.

I quickly try and think of my goals, i actually have a really hard time remembering them in this dream but i finally remember i am supposed to use super powers. I go outside to try to fly, I start flapping my arms like wings and jumping in the air like an idiot, it doesnt work despite trying for quite a lot of dream time, for a moment i was hesitant to act so silly outside but a few more reality checks gave me the confidence.

After trying for a while i hear someone call me, they say hey. I turn to my right and in my yard is this dude i used to know from high school soccer, frank. He has no legs and is sitting down in the grass with a collection bowl for money. He tells me that to get it to work i have to go visit Arsenal, in england. I had no idea what he meant but i just said ok, when i did i rem seeing a bunch of dudes in arsenal jerseys in my minds eye, when i stop seeing them i am back in my house, while in my house i can hear a song by rishloo playing, cant rem which one but i was jamming to it in the dream.

I am excited and making a lot of noise, my bro yells at me from his room, i tell him were dreaming, hes no longer upset but starts asking me if i rem dreams like this every night. I told him my recall has been bad lately and not every night. I head into the living room and decide to try and play with some guns. I go get my airsof gun out of the garage and try to imagine its real, i point and shoot it at the back of my house but nothing.

Next i go into my living room and try to grow dragon wings to fly with, doesnt work no matter how hard i imagine. I rem my bro, who is sitting on the couch now, said i just need to try harder and had some other shapeshifting tips. At this point i decide to try pyrokenesis. When i get the idea i grab a lighter from my pocket, its blue, i light it, i move my hand over and around the flame and then take my hand away from the flame, a flame follows my hand and then goes out. I try again, this time i get a nice flame in my hand and throw a fireball across the room, at my bro who is now sitting on the couch, the firebally was pretty small but when it hit it flared up. It hit his shirt and had no effect on him or the shirt. I continue to bend the fire for a bit.

I cant rem what but here something causes me to close my eyes and i quickly lose the dream, i think to myself, ok lets just wake up so we can write this down. I focus on waking up and not going into another dream, this starts a quite long fa.

I remember waking up and its already past 10( i have to do something at 10 today) I am with jessica and we are getting ready to go. Shes telling me about her dreamss and i tell her i had a pretty nice lucid one, i especially mention the succsesful firebend. We are sitting in my living room eating some weird wraps with red tortillas. I keep trying to find a way to write down my lucid dream in the fa. At one point i was gonna write it on some napkins but finally i tell jessica im gonna go get my computer to write it down. I think i may have one other fa after this before finally waking up. Still remembered the lucid quite well though.

I was outside gathering lettuce for ma. As I went inside, I became lucid inside the kitchen. I tried my best to calm down and observe my surroundings as I attempted dream control. I was looking around and saw fruit on the kitchen island. I walked over to the door leading to the basement and yelled out "I want to go to the forest of Denn!", then I opened the door, and nothing happened. I think I got pissed off that it didn't work, so I walked outside and decided to go through the back woods area. It got really dark over there. I remember seeing police car patrolling this miniparking lot. Lucidity was getting hard to control by now. I walked in the dark area when the policeman left. Another car drove in, and I *MADE the car come out, and a guy say I'm going to rape you, and I said that's fine. Not getting into detail.*I think lucidity was lost after this. But I ended up in this guys house or something with all of his friends. They were doing weird things, like playing duck-duck-goose or something. I was sitting at the corner, just observing the other people fiddling with this thing on the wall. I got bored so I got on the guys computer to finish something, but I saw he was updating Elder Scrolls. Then I decided, eh why not and played the game. I was then IN the game and I had to pick out who I wanted to be (never played It before) but it did look like WoW. I saw a skeleton looking class, the slutty blood elves, etc. I picked the female skeleton. I walkee over to the guy, I guess his account. Everyone was waiting for something. I guess for the tutorial. We began walking someway. This was really weird, because after the tut, I don't remember it, we sat down in this auditorium and the guy next to me said, how come were not clapping. Then a minute later I began clapping and everyone else did. Then something infront of us started and it was this weird animation of a spider, i guess a cartoon spider, rolling up this one famous cartoon. Spongebob or something. Later on I was with Emma Watson and I was Daniel Radcliffe. The red head was there too. We were watching the captain of the other team (still in Oblivion) was getting competetive. We all sat down and watched. The scene looked like a pirate ship, and the guy was wearing a red trench coat. I told Emma to ask him if he killed Voldemort. Something like that. The bleachers then moved and they were going to do a play on Harry Potter. Emma moved up and got a clear view of it, right infront of me. I stayed and listened to the eoementary choir, and oh god they were terrible.