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Good morning! Had no real intentions of getting lucid last night, and my sleep was shitty. Woke up every hour or so during the later part of the night, but that only helped me with my recall and I got a little LD just like that. Seems like Tuesday to Wednesday night is my new LD night.

22.30: Sleep

05.00: Fragment
*My friend Henrik is at my place. He's got very short hair and he keeps messing with my computer. I have no idea why he's being such a jerk, but I slap him in the head hard. We almost start a fight when he punches me in the balls. I can feel the pain up into my stomach. I hold his arms down and tell him to stop. "I can pick you up if I want to, I'm that much stronger" I tell growl in his face.

05.00: Boat ride
I'm with my mom outside of a shop. We're looking at some kind of clock for her. It's got the colour of burnt clay, and she tells me she wants it. We enter the store and a girl shows up and starts showing some big vase to my mom. I look at a clock hanging on the wall. It's 9:10. "Mom, I gotta go" I tell her. I hand her all the money I have. Exactly 105 euros. Actually I'm late for the boat and it should have left already. My phone starts vibrating and I check the display, it's Monica.

"Hey babe, I'm on my way, let's meet halfway" I tell her and hang up. I run towards the apartments we had and she come scrambling down the steps with a few suitcases. I grab one and we head off towards the boat.

The dream skips. We arrive at the boat and my friends are there. I spot a couple who I recognised earlier on our trip to the country we're in. I walk away from the boat to do something, not sure what. On my way back I spot the couple ahead of me, smoking weed. I know how fucked up I can get on it, so I try not to inhale anything. I start to feel dizzy and my steps become incredibly slow. I have to struggle to even move. After a minute or two I reach the boat and get on, my friend Felix comes up from behind and tells me he was looking for me.

As soon as I enter our cabin, the boat starts moving. "Close call hah!" I say. All my friends are in the cabin there with me, and I lie down on a sofa. It's not comfortable at all.

05.00: Evil and good DILD
I'm standing near a bridge, looking at a sleeping man in the tree. Above him is a cat that is wiggling its tail. I grab the tail and tease the cat with it, trying to make the cat attack the sleeping man. I can't get it to attack him, but I have some fun with the cat. I completely forget about the cat and feel that I need to take a pee. Two girls are heading over the bridge, but they're far off and I figure I can make it. I unzip my pants and start peeing behind the tree. They walk a few feet behind me and doesn't seem to care.

Peeing that long makes me go lucid. I walk down the road while taking in the scenery a bit. It's dry out, but the trees around me looks like jungle. I try to recall my tasks. To do a good and evil deed, that's right! I've visualized giving someone money as a good deed already and I feel my pockets while walking towards the two girls who had stopped by some stone structure.

One of them has dark brown hair. I grope around in my pocket for a while but I can't feel anything that feels like money, I do feel two lighters though. "Hey, want to see a cool trick?" I ask them. "Yeah sure!" they say as I pull out a lighter. I light a flame in my hand, it burns blue.



I shoot the flame out from my hand onto the dark haired girl's hair. She gives off a shocked expression but I make sure the flame quickly goes out. I can smell burnt hair. "Sorry about that" I say. They don't seem to mind much though. The three of us starts walking down the road, I keep trying to find the money in my pocket. Soon I find something interesting and bring it out. It's a big money clip. We arrive at a boat with alot of people around. I give the money clip to the girl. "I wouldn't hurt cute girls like you for real" I say. I feel her butt. She compleltely ignores me after taking the money.

05.00: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 6½ hours

Supplements: None

Tasks completed
NORMAL BASIC ACTIVE BASIC PASSIVE ADVANCED PERSONAL

Do a good deed and a bad deed.

That's it! I completely forgot to DEILD... Anyways that lucid was nice since I completed the basic passive task for my class. Sweet!

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

Recall is a bit shoddy throughout, so I'll just start from what I remember....


I was with my cousin, and we were doing or discussing something that I'm not totally sure about when this psycho arrives. There are two helicopters heading for these skyscrapers, and this guy plans on destroying the towers himself. One of the copters had a rope hanging from it so I ran and grabbed on to it. I anchored myself to the ground and watched the helicopter crash into a nearby cow pasture. The psycho guy just showed up, and he knew I was going to stop the other one, so he pulls out a box cutter, and my cousin throws me one and we square off.

I thought back to my JKD training, and tried to stay relaxed. The guy trusted at me with his box cutter and I slapped his arm away, while grabbing it one motion, and went to cutting up his entire arm. He trusted again, and this time I was able to disarm him. I grabbed the other box cutter, and he punched at me. I cut off all the fingers of his hand, and he said "are you just going to slice like that all day?" Then I went and cut off the ones he was holding out on the other hand during his little statement. He tried to kick me, and I grabbed his leg and stuck my box cutter in as deep as it could go. And the guy actually cheered for me.

I knew this was some sort of odd distraction from the other helicopter, so I headed off and there was some huge gun trying to shoot lasers at me. I used eye lasers to counter and destroy it. The psycho guy said he could do the same thing, and started shooting lasers at the last remaining helicopter. He did it over and over, and eventually the helicopter crashed right on top of him...killing him.

Going to bed 12:30
Goals: Recall
9 Had a dream that i was driving down a rural looking road at nighttime, im driving and i see a car parked on the side of the road, next thing i know i run over some stuf and have to pull over. The car on the side got into a reck and ther is debris under my car. I get out while the owner and a cop are looking around. The owner is some dude with an orange shirt and really short hair. When he walks past me he smiles and looks at the cop. I know in the dream he can smell weed on me and i just hope the cop doesnt. The dudes car door is under my car i notice as well as a handle, i consider trying to drag them out but just wait.

They figure out what to do with the guy in oranges car, and he has another dc with him now. Im leaning on my car when the cop comes up to me and without saying anything turns me around and starts checking me for stuff. I say excuse me can i ask what you are doing, he says something about weed, he continues to search but doesnt find anything. In the dream i am so relieved not to have anything. I rem the other dcs kind of laughing and i know they ratted me out. I tell the cop, i dont have any weed, you cant do shit. I walk to my car and get in, i tell the dcs, fuck you guys, way to stick up for a fellow stoner, as i drive off.

*Have a flash of walking into the living room, my sister and that girl tara is there, they are eating some sandwiches and are dressed for like a soccer game. When i see tara i keep trying to walk back and fourth past them, trying to get her attention. I go into the kitchen to get some food, i see the wrappers and stuff from their sandwiches and also see some pizza boxes on the table. I considered getting some food but all of it is covered in meat, my brother offers me part of his sandwich, i just decide to heat up some rice and veggies.

*Have aflash of hanging out with jessica and getting ready to tell her about my lucid dream from last night.

*One last flash of being out at a soccer practice for some younger kids, i just rem hanging out with alexis there, at one point i kick a ball to him.

*One more flash of walking through a school hallway, halfway through there is a class sitting in the hallway with huge pieces of paper, they are drawing full size pictures of themselves. I rem as i walk by this one big dude pushes me further down the hallway, i just keep walking and laugh about it. On the way back i wonder if he has some kind of problem with me but he is talking to someone and i walk by.

i had a really weird nasty dream that i was at some long table inside the movie theater. I was with some weird people who i felt were judging my every move and we were watching like saw 12. In this one a man had to eat out a half dead girl with no skin on her face just skeleton. i let after and then my friend yu yu showed up outside the movie theater, and i got my ticket for like 3 other movies . I ended up trying to take a curtain from a stage home and i called it anight

This was a very short dream. I first imagined myself playing madden and then all of a sudden I did a put and I caught it and realized I was dreaming however my mom had woken me up.

did a short wbtb by just sitting up for a bit until i felt awake. recalled a long hyper real dream although the order is screwed. was at home with family and for some reason our house is on the next road down. its christmas and we have people over and have loads of food and drink about. dont remember the first time i got lucid, but was doing a bit of general floating around.

some guy comes up to the house and nicks a bottle of something. he stes off as if i will never catch him and at first it feels like one of thise dreams where you cant move well but somehow i overcome it and catch up with him. i have some kind of stick in my hand for security. its pretty obvious that the guy is in a bit of a state so i offer to take the bottle back but go and get some more stuff that he can take on his way with him.

i go back to the house and get some food for him, then try and find a water bottle to fill up and give to him. at some point he bites me on the arm right on my tatoo. i think im fairly lucid by now because it doesnt bother me much despite someone else hinting at the possibility of infection and stuff.

anyway im back in the real house and recalling the past dream to my dad. its still christmas but by now ive lost lucidity because everything feels as real as day. it doesnt even strike me as odd that fabio capello and his wife are sat in our front room joining us for the holidays. it just feels so normal as fabio sits and chats to my dad i just get the feeling that this is the kind of thing he would want to do with his spare time. he's a bit dll but his wife was quite fun although i cant remember why.

at some point the weirdness of it hits me and i exclaim oh shit im still in the dream arent i. i dont bother with stabilising techs as it feels like thers no way it will fade. i fly off for a bit and remember flying over the local river while these kids watched. i kept getting up to about 30 feet high but could never get higher than this. it was a little frustrating so i landed and tried to just stande there and charge myself up for a wile for my next attempt. the dream went on from there but im not sure how for now

I was in a club with some friends and one of the girls that i had pulled in town once was there, i ended up going back to hers and sleeping with her, when we were lay in bed she tells me she wasn't really on the pill and wants to keep the baby.
I sat and i begged her to get an abortion or something and i felt the horrific "oh fu**" feeling creep up inside me.
I told her i can't cope or afford a kid because im going to uni, i opened the curtains and it was sort of light outside, it was very cloudy and dull and it was raining, even though i was looking through a window i could feel rain on my face.
I asked her what times do the buses start, i felt i had to get out of there as quickly as possible.
I woke up and it was raining with dull clouds, the dream was mimicking the weather outside from the noise of the rain.

IMPORTANT DATES
08/31/11 -- Started my Dream Journal!

CURRENT GOALS:
[ ] Find a lucid-inducing technique that works for me
[ ] Attain Lucidity


7th Entry:
Date: 09/07/11
Sleep Times: 11:00-UNKNOWN...6:00-6:30.
Lucid Technique: WBTB
Recall Technique: Subliminal Messaging / WBTB
Attain Ludcidity?: Possibly???

I'm not sure if the only drean U cab recall is really a dream at all....I was doing a small excercise I call 'Setting the Scene' where I pick a random 'cast' and let the scenario into play. Usually lately, my dreams have taken the form of my worries and inner-struggles both spiritually and in the waking, physical world. Tonight, this was no exception.
Though the night prior I dreamed of the perfect(ly odd) ending to the story that is a fight between friends, in the waking world we are still on the long road to love....But I'm nor here for therapy. I am here to journal down my dreams. This time, the cast taht decided to show to the party besides myself was my friend Colton who, previous to this stupid quarrel, used to protect me in every single one of my dreams! However, behind me and waiitng was Twisted!Colton, who seems to do the opposite of his original copy and want nothing more than to tear my mental sanity apart. Some close friends and I theorize it could be a manifestation in my subconcious of hurt feelings between the two of us from the last life and possibly this one. I implored with Colton to forgive me, that I truly was sorry and just didn't care about whether or not he and my beau ever got along- that I cared about getting back the only family I had ever truly known. However, he proceeded to tell me that our 'family' and 'friendship' wasn't worth any sort of dramatics or the effort. I tried telling him I never had started this drama, that he was lied to- I never said a bad word about my one and only brother...And that I spent my entire summer on this effort, so it was worth it to me if he would atleast see me to the other side of it. However, unlike yesterday's happy ending, this one ended badly....He merely said goodbye and walked away from me. I began to scream and try to give chase to my best friend, however this didn't result well. Instead, Twisted!Colton pulled me back against him and whispered in my ear, "You're mine, now....We can be together forever, Autumn...." (Autumn being my name from my previous life.) At this point, he held fast, practically dug his fingers into my skin, and pulled me into a coffin behind him with him while I scream after the real Colton to save me again like before.
But this time, he didn't come...
I fell into black sleep after this point.

i was driving down a road i was going over a low bridge and then suddenly i was on a broken part of the bridge my car went in the water i shot out of the car and was airborn for about 30 feet and hit the water. In most of my dreams i always have a problem swimmnig but not this dream, in this dream i could swim perfectly.

james hetfield was one of the movers that helped me move from a second story apartment. he found an old cell phone in the sofa he was moving. it still worked and my wife and i listened to some old messages from people from texas that we had not spoken to in some time. then james and i had a gutiar jam.

I had several dreams last night, the last of which was my first ever lucid dream. Finally!!!

All I remember from my first dream is standing on the front walk of what I know in the dream is my ex in-laws house. But no such house exists in the real world. Another strange thing is that the house, it's foundation and even a layer of soil, is sitting on the ground (kind of crooked) like it had been pulled up from the ground and set down somewhere else. I also notice a trail of ants running up and down the length of the front walk.

In my second dream, I found myself in a large cavern of some kind. There seems to be some kind of community living here. There is one man whom everyone calls "the bird man" because he raises all kinds of different animals as pets. I walk over to his part of the cavern and see a small pool. Then I see a small dinosaur, like a baby, about the size of a large swan or goose. It looks like a stegosaurus, except that it has light purple fur on it's body and the plates running up and down it's back are brilliant shades of yellow and red. When it first sees me, it swims away across the small pool. But then the bird man enters and the dinosaur comes running to me as if for protection. It's rubbing up against me like a cat does.

After I awoke from this dream, I laid in bed, briefly considering jotting down some notes in my dream journal. But I decided to go back to sleep and try to re-enter the dream. This is when I had my first ever lucid dream:

I'm sitting in the waiting area of a small office. The door to the office is open and I can see my oldest daughter sitting in there. I'm talking to her about dreaming and telling her how to to a reality check by holding her nose and trying to breathe. She does it, but is able to breathe. I'm thinking that she's not holding her nose tight enough, so I decide to show her how to properly do it. As we're doing this, two men walk into the waiting area where I'm at. I look at them and say something like, "We probably look pretty silly doing this, huh?". I keep trying to show my daughter how to do the holding your nose reality check, but I'm thinking I must be doing something wrong because it's not working for me either; I can breathe. Then I look at my hands. They're all blurry, not like an out-of-focus picture but like a pastel drawing that has been smudged. It finally dawns on me that this must be a dream! I get up and walk around, looking at everything. I enter another room that looks like some kind of call center, because there are desks everywhere with people sitting at them and talking on phones. The walls seem to be made up of panes of blue glass that are illuminated from behind. I pass by a middle aged woman sitting at a desk and nod in greeting to her; she smiles and nods back. I decide to continue exploring and walk back out of the room. But now I'm in what appears to be a grocery store. I walk by one of the check-out registers and decide to look at my hands again to see if I'm still dreaming. My hands are in perfect focus, but both hands are misformed. There are only small nubs where my index and pinkie fingers should be. I remember that one thing I wanted to do in a dream is find "the girl of my dreams". I look around, wondering whether to ask one of the dream figures or just ask the dream outright to show me the girl of my dreams. Just then, I notice a woman walking up one of the aisles towards me, browsing the items that are on the shelves. She is wearing a white dress, has blonde hair, pale skin and is wearing red lipstick. I walk towards her and as I approach, she looks up and smiles as if she recognizes me. I want to ask her if she is the girl of my dreams but she is talking to me. She says in an excited voice, "Oh my God, I didn't think there was anyone else here who wanted to dance!" Before I can reply, these two guys appear out of nowhere. I can tell by the look on the woman's face that she doesn't like them. She asks, "What do you want?". One of the guys pulls her to him and says, "You said you wanted to dance." But before I can intervene, I lose lucidity and wake up.

September 10, 2011

Non-lucid

I and some friends are playing a small show outside from on a flatdeck trailer with a roof strung over it. Directly behind us is a deep forest carpeted with fallen leaves. We do repeat performances of the same song or songs. We come across a problem with something and I head off into the forest to discuss it with a bandmate.

Scene change

I am at a party or gathering outside in the fall, perhaps a wedding? I am part of a team looking for a female killer. We have been told she will be wearing a flower in her hair. I come across a woman in a red dress with a rose, but come to the conclusion that she cannot be the killer, so I go back searching. As I move through the crowds of people, I spot someone with a multi-branched white flower, and approach her. After brief conversation, I am relatively sure that she is the one we're looking for. Without letting on as to what's going on, I gather my partner and we begin walking with our suspect, chatting the whole time. The white flower has now become a red one, and as we walk I notice her hair is a brilliant gold/red color. She is tall, and wearing red and white. Then my alarm clock wakes me up.

I am so out of it right now. I just woke up after an amazing 6 hours of uninterrupted sleep (thanks to 1/2 a Seroquel). But I ache all over!!!

What I recall of my dreams is fragmented. I'm not sure how they all fit together.

I had 3 kids in one part of the dream. They were toddlers. One of the toddlers (a boy) was somehow dangerous (or would become dangerous). I had a long talk with him and he finally consented to being killed.
He seemed to become MUCH smaller as I laid him across my lap. I tried snapping his neck, but it didn't work and only caused great pain. So I then smothered him (with much difficulty) with my bare hands. I was upset but didn't cry. I knew I had killed the other 2 but I didn't actually dream it.

Then the dream turned religious. I was explaining to someone the Kingdom of God and the future Paradise Earth when some woman entered the area with much opposition. I tried explaining the details but she didn't want to hear it. She kept ranting about how religion keeps women "down" and how my husband- an Elder- should be ashamed. I told her my kids were from a previous marriage, but she still wanted to blame my Elder hubby.

Then my hubby became my ex-hubby and we were in the parking lot, picking up trash and patching holes. There was our house on the edge of the property and I worried people would find the dead bodies in an off building which was partially underground like a basement or bomb shelter. There was a little pothole right outside that building. I started cleaning it out and found some poop and what looked like a finger.

The Witnesses were having some sort of strange 2 weekk event that sounded a lot like Vacation Bible School. My hubby was still patching, so I told him he could take a break and enjoy the event with the mens group. I was still disfellowshipped though, so communication was difficult with my group.

Next thing I know, I was in a house- supposed my house- and my friend Roxanna showed up. I was about to tell her I killed my children, when they came running out of their bedroom. I was very confused to say the least lol.
Then I woke up to my alarm.

Other dream things: a toilet with something white and large in the bowl. I visited the toilet a couple times in the dream and the white thing scared me evertime I lifted the toilet seat.
The basement/bomb shelter thing is something I've dreamed about a llot. In every dream with it in the dream, it has dead bodied bring in the deepest corners. It's little more than a hole in the ground.
In part of the last dream, the area became larger and one of the Brothers was sweeping the floor lol

Interpret later... must go back to sleep now...

I woku up pretty often tonight, so I can remember pretty much every dream I had. In addition, yesterday I reread some entries of Hyu's adventures, which probably caused me to have a few of the following dreams.

I am facing Hyu in a dream match. The game goes like this: We both have small items with us, and place them alternately on a plate. Whoever has more items on the plate at the end of the game wins. Of course, it is not that simple. You can't touch the items directly or use physical force to kick the other items out, you have to entchant your items with magical power, so they do it on their own. People on the internet are cheering us on. I can't remember most of the tricks used, however, Hyu was using items with enforced gravity, so they won't tumble down easily. In the end, I use a hair which cuts everything it touches on Hyu's tower of items, they fall apart und tumbledown, more than half of it goes off the plate. I win.

It is night, I am in the deep swamps at some church. With me are Hyu, a woman (Yuya?) and an old small man. We go to the second floor and await an enemy attack. The old man decides to go first, and casts a trap. A big, floating octopus made of water appears. The enemies appear, they are about 10 people. The octopus gets them by surprise, grabbing most of them and throwing them around. Only 3 or 4 persons remain, now Hyu, the woman and I charge in. I shoot fire balls out of my fists, and cut though the wind to avois enemy magic.

Still night, the three of us and another woman which looks kinda like Zelda are at a hot spring. Hyu and the woman go somewhere else, I don't really care because the other woman is too beautiful. I try to talk to her, but she is just standing in the moonlight and looking at me.

I wake up, it is 6 o'clock now. I do a few WILD attempts, but they fail for the usual reasons. I have to make a thread about it sometime.

I wake up in a room I don't know, but I think I am on vacation somewhere. A tiny black cat is with me, I decide to tease her a bit. She plays with me, getting annoyed and lightly biting my fingers. It doesn't hurt, so I continue a bit. From the side my hamster appears, and the cat goes after it. I quickly catch it, being afraid that the cat might eat it. I go downstairs, holding it in my hands. My father and grandma are there, I ask them what to do with the hamster. They don't know either, but then I notice that the hamster and the cat are about the same size. I conclude that the cat is a very young one, so if I let them play together, maybe the cat will grow up to like the hamster.

I am in the living room with 5 other people; PR, J, J, LB, and another guy I don't know. I have to play a duel monsters match at 12 o'clock, but it is still time, so I decide to play against PR. A few turns in, I notice that PR has no clue about the game, so I wonder where he has the good cards from. They belong to the person I don't know, so I challenge him. While we are playing, I notice that J has sneaked away some cards from my graveyard, and I get nervous (J,J and LB used to try to bully me in early highschool). My fears come true, J rips the cards apart. I get furious, and punch J in the face without warning. He falls to the ground, I jump at him, punching him in the head until he doesn't fight back anymore. I get up, J and LB are ready to fight me, they drive me onto the balkony. LB comes first, I simply throw him over the rail (I think we are on the first or second floor). J gets scared and runs away. I look at the clock, and notice it is too late to make it for my match in town.

I am not a violent person, but I might do something like this for real if someone rips apart my cards in front of me.

I am guts from Berserk, traveling through the woods with Puck. Puck is a pig right now, though. We avoid main roads because the authorities and monsters are after us. After a while, we arrive at a weird place. From far away, it looks very empty and liveless, the trees are broken down and rotting, the earth is grey. But after we approach further, a red light engulfs the whole place, and an old town appears. The trees are back to normal, and the town looks ancient. Still, many people are running around. Puck says that time forgot this place. Looking closer, the people are ghosts and the buildings aren't real too. Everything has to perish, but the meaning did remain.

I am at vacation again, this time outside the house. There are too big swimming pools. Some girls on a bench call out "Hey, you!" I turn around, but they say "Not you, sorry." I decide to hit on them anyway, engaging conversation. I notice that two of the girls are wet, while two are not. I say "So some of you were already swimming?" "More like we were forced" Turns out the other two girls have thrown them in. The two girls quickly try to get away after they see me grinning at them, I run after them and throw them into the water. While still at the edge, I get pushed too, but I can still hold my balance barely. I get pushed again, but while falling I grab the hand behind me and draw the culprit with me. We both get out of the water, and he yells at me for dragging him with me. He claims not to have pushed me in, but knows who did it. He shows me the person, but it is a really big guy, so I leave it at that. Another guy asks me if I am good at swimming, I deny it, but he wants to see me taking a header. I somehow manage do do it without stretching my arms in front of me, and dive to the ground. I quickly try to get up again.

07-09-11 I am in an airport with a woman on a raised walkway that leads out to the gates. It is nighttime and the walkway we are on is very narrow and not surrounded by railings, which disturbs me and makes me wonder slightly.
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I am in a car with a woman. She is a vampire and has hostile intentions either towards me or someone else and I plan on stopping her. However I have some sort of relationship to her and don't want to hurt her.

She might be Pam off True Blood. The way I subdue her by holding her by the neck but she refuse to lay off. In the end I start calling out for Xavier, who is her maker, telepathically for him to come and pick her up.

I manage to get hold of him, which is a weird conversation taking place in utter darkness inside my head. He comes to pick her up and as he does so he stuffs the car full of duvets and mattresses and then procedes to shove her in.
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I am in a house unpacking speaking with my dad. As we are unpacking my parents' neighbour's cats emerge and start making themselves comfortable.

They don't particularly want to go back to their owner though they are supposed to. Castello, though a darker and leaner version of himself, start climbing up a closet.

Clyde is lying on the floor under a table.
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Speaking with my dad, he is drunk and he is talking about the amount of stuff Freddy bought in a shop.