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First DILD since a very long time, I have been listening to lucid dreaming audiobooks and doing reality checks for a few last days, truly the daily practice is the most important thing in lucid dreaming, and not a particular technique, especially considering that I was trying WILD's unsuccessfully for a few months without much day-light practice..

The dream was too personal to relate, but I'll just add that I slept listening to LaBerge's ETWLD, woke up at 4:00AM and went back to sleep at 5:30, during the dream I just realized that something was wrong in the scenario and became lucid, I used that opportunity to truly connect with someone, I really needed this, it felt so good.

Only recalled 2 dreams this week.


Dream 1

Was walking in a strange town and got home. I was with some nerdy guy who claimed to be Jamie's new boyfriend. He kept going on about her and had a book where he was writing her as a character. The guy was more weaselly and cringy than me. It's almost like she gravitated towards a replacement for me. He seemed friendly though. At some point we transitioned to my house and I sat down with him. I was leafing through his book to skip to the parts about Jamie. The "new boyfriend," then mentioned that Jamie suddenly had stopped talking to him for some time. I was like, "yeah... She does that."

Jamie then stormed into the house followed by Asuka and Data. She was glaring at me in anger and maybe a little hurt. Nonetheless in my mind it was years since I had seen her and I was overjoyed just to see her. I had a big smile which she probably took as something negative but I was just happy to see her. Asuka rushed Jamie into another room probably for some healing of the dark cloud that was over her and maybe a talk about why she's so upset (I still don't know why.).

suddenly Bill Hodges was in the house looking for something. The guy from ,"Mr. Mercedes." a show I've been watching on Amazon Prime. He was yapping about something but I don't know what. I kept making fun of his accent to the new guy and we gad a laugh over it. For some reason I started loudly saying, "How Dare you." making fun of Greta tunburg... honestly that's a bit of a meme now. I thought it best to give Jamie and asuka privacy in the house So I Invited the guy to go out to get some drinks and a Pub burger or something. He seemed to like the idea when I woke up.

Honestly, I miss the big dream hugs from Jamie.


Strange bugs

I went in my backyard for a smoke. I saw a bunch of giant hammerhead ants crawling around so I went inside and went out the front door. Some woman in the house said my dad had left a bunch of strange bugs around. I went out the front and encountered hundreds of tiny bugs where the heads of them were the head of my dog... WTF. They all jumped on my leg. Time to give up smoking.

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Caught on a time loop with some people who are also aware of it. We are at school, the afternoon class was canceled and I am not sure if I stay and eat at the canteen or if I go lunch at home. Out of nowhere there is an explosion and we all die and go back to half an hour before and relive the moment. It seems we can't get out of it or change it and I watch each and every one of the others losing it, going insane. But I also start noticing small changes in the history every time we relive it. I start exploring the moment from other angles. Until I finally find the bomb and the guys who set it up. It won't be easy to disable it but now there is hope, so I go back to my friends and tell them the news just before the explosion happens again.

I was looking for this girl...but I didn't know where to look for her.
then at a point , in the dream I was in this village that for some reason felt a bit like those dangerous neighborhoods, and also knew that she lives there
at a point someone told me that she goes to this psychologist who conducts crazy experiments with her on some rooftop in a warehouse
me and and some other guy from the village went around ,we didn't know what to do, but then we looked up the places in the village on google , and there was a private detective office
we went there , and the guys spoke a scandinavian language, which I could mostly understand somehow... We asked whats the address of the psychologist and they quickly found it on the internet ,gave us name , number ,and address too ... So we paid them and went on our way to find out what the hell is going on there.
We stumbled upon an abandoned looking warehouse, there wasn't really a roof ,it was open to the air , there was a ramp there instead that controlled two panels that seemed to be the roof
we went up there and we found nothing.... I thought there's no session ,or this place is a fake address....but then I saw a control panel on the ramp ,and pressed it .
The roofs moved and there were perforations in it, little protrusions or holes on which you can climb up or down. And the two halves of the supposed "roof" could be moved in different ways ,but it was really dangerous , if you were to let go of it , you would've fallen into the lower floor of the warehouse. There were only two stages that you could land on if you jumped ...
And then it clicked, this is the experiment, the psychologist uses this to challenge the patients in physical challenges and place them in danger in order to harden their mind in critical situations...I could see in some kind of vision that sometimes they even threw off bombs into the deep and watch them explode in the air .
Then somehow I found myself on the wall, some cartoon characters appeared and fired bombs on me to get me off the wall... I somehow managed to evade most of them and get back on the ramp on the top..
And then we booked it . I was planning to observe the place from somewhere else ,or come back when they are there .... but then I woke up.

So I did my WBTB + MILD and it yielded me two lucid dreams this morning. Again, I focused more on my intention to remember to have a lucid dream. But I've noticed something interesting about my successes so far, they are more likely to happen when I intend to "just do it". Similar to act of speaking in waking life, when I make my intention I don't get caught up on the 'how' of lucid dreaming or over-think things. This was always a problem before, given that I - like most people I assume - wanted evidence that the technique was working or was going to work at a later time. We do our big technique (WBTB + Meditation + Mantra + Visualization) then fall asleep hoping a lucid dream will happen. It appears that this approach was incorrect. It could also be that my prospective memory has developed from Dr. LaBerge's exercises and my repeated attempts at MILD. Lucid Dreaming this past week has been almost seamless for me.

I told Zad I would try out a method of stabilization he mentioned. Here it is: DILD, I am dreaming and realize it is a dream. I think this was based on observation of the dream like nature rather than an RC. I focused on my hands and then remembered I wanted to try this task (look in mirror and state I am -your name-". I look around and am on a dark street at night. Well summoning a mirror is stage one. Cars have mirrors, right? I go up to a motor cycle and it does have a round rear view mirror on a movable bar. I turn it so as to reflect my face. It was cool watching how my brain had to rush to figure out how this should all look. For a split second the images in the mirror had to shift and morph, but quickly showed my reflection. This was interesting as I have always used either bathroom mirrors, or the kind on large stands. This tiny 3" mirror created interesting challenges in the visuals as only a tiny part of the field was dedicated to the image in the mirror. I stated loudly "I am Eric." Nothing much happened, but it work well as a stabilization method and I see potential in it. Will try again with a much larger mirror.

So I had woke up from a dream and was checking the time and could see I've been laying in my bed for some time now. I wanted to get back in to the dream world. I close my eyes and lay there and not too long I felt myself get suck in to something with my eyes close. But I wasn't sure if I was in the dreamworld or not. I continue laying there for another minute in till something started pulling my arm. It had enough force to push my arm outside of the bed. I thought this was strange and wondering if I am already dreaming now.

I then felt my head begin to move on its own. I felt my head glide across the small dresser next to my bed. Once this happen I knew I was in the dreamworld and decided to open my eyes. As I did so the force was done by no one in the room that I could see. I continue to to be toss out of my bed and on to the floor. My body started to feel a lot of pain everywhere as the force became stronger. I kept my mind calm as I remember reading Robert Waggoner book about trying to call out for love and peace.

I decided to do that while remaining very calm and at peace. However none of the things I said did anything. I called out for clarity now and everything felt more focus. I then again tried to call out for love and compassion but the dream made my voice sound like a whisper. I then was hurl upwards to the ceiling in pain. I then shouted compassion now. I felt the force let go of me and I drop down to my bed.

I then said to myself, is it over? All of a sudden a stronger force than before lunge my body up to the ceiling and cause me to moan in pain. I was then hurl across the closet door still up on the ceiling. I tried to move my arms but the force was too strong. I could feel the inside of my body being damage and tight to the point where my bones would crack. I then said to myself that this is enough. I am taking over now, I raise the brainwaves that were flowing in my head and focus on the force holding me up.

I broke it and drop back down to the floor. I got up and quickly ran toward the window and slip through it. As I slip through it I began falling down from the 3 story apartment I live in. And felt the wind zipping through me till I hit the ground. I then woke up to a false awakening.

House Guest

It feels like I'm in my old room at my parents' house. I'm in the room to start off, and there are string lights strung across the ceiling, but only over the bed. The walls are white, and I think all my furniture is there, like my two dressers. There's someone in my bed and they're waking up. It's Lane that I worked with at my last job. I told him that I needed the bed linens to wash them, and I'll get him a different set of sheets. I sit down on the edge of the bed and start talking to him, but what about I don't remember. I laid down and got comfortable and looked up and said that I think I could use more lights in the ceiling as I'm staring up at them and talking. They're doing a nice criss-cross across the ceiling. I notice that I don't have the ceiling fan anymore.

Blockbuster Video

I'm at my old job at Blockbuster Video. Could have been Hollywood Video, but I don't see any logos pointing my in either direction. I feel like the rental boxes may have been black and white, though, which would indicate Hollywood, but there is someone working there in a bright yellow polo shirt, which would indicate Blockbuster. I suppose I'm at work and not just renting a movie. There is a counter in the center of the store, kind of circular, with people in the center checking people out. There is someone at the front entrance asking people if they need help and greeting them on the way in and saying goodbye as they leave. There are some people that want to get checked out that somehow made their way to the inside of the checkout area. I ask them to get out and stand on the other side. They have five videos. I start opening them each up one by one to make sure the right one was inside. Go figure, there's one that isn't correct. I told them, "that's why we check when they come in and check when they go out!" Someone must not have checked this one on the way in. The outside said Aladdin and the movie inside was The Coin which I'd never heard of. I start to look for where it is on the shelf so that I can see if Aladdin is in one of The Coin's boxes. Everything is alphabetical, so it was easy to find. But all the movies were gone from behind the boxes for The Coin. Julia Roberts stars in it, her picture is on the cover box. There was one row of regular movie, and one row of a special edition, two tape version, but they were all checked out.

I must have gotten distracted from finding the right movie. I see some folks heading out the door. It's a breezeway entrance, where there are two sets of doors. The greeter was saying goodbye to three people. Two guys have small skateboards sort of attached to one foot, held on by a rubber band. On the outside of each of their one foot strapped on by the rubber band is a pack of Wrigley's Doublemint gum. Not just one pack, but a whole box. I pointed it out to them and they said, "well, it's hard to carry this in one pocket, so this works." I figured they stole them from the store, and didn't think anyone would either see it on their feet, or would see it and just not say anything about it. I didn't do anything about it. Whatever. Take the gum if you need gum so bad.

Outer Space

I'm floating in space, and it seems like I'm on a mission. I'm with a guy, and he's in a suit like Starlord from Guardians of the Galaxy. There's something up ahead and it's ever so gradually shooting pulses of energy at us. I can feel it coming on waves. There are three silver orbs about the size of a basketball with different color lights in a ring around the center. All I have to do is think about where I want to be and my body floats over there. I float over to one of the orbs and it has green lights. The others are orange and yellow. I start talking to it, like, "hey what are you?" and I can feel what it's trying to say to me, not hear it. Or I hear it in my head, but it's not out loud. I feel like this could have been really cool, but I woke up. Ugh.

I am in what must be a casino with about two other guys (that I don’t really know, but seem to know in the dream). This casino seems fairly small. They are playing some slot machine against the wall - one where a button is pressed and the reel of options spins for a possible winning combination. They seem to come close but do not win anything. Against my better judgment, I insert some money (a low amount) to play. I haphazardly press the button and wait for the spin to finish. It lands on a winning combination, and we all excitedly exclaim. I ball a fist in exuberance. At first, I think the screen shows a winning of $1,000,000, but then I see that it actually says $2,000. Still, I can’t believe I’ve just casually won that much money.

I am outside somewhere with Sage. We are on the bank of a wide and seemingly shallow yet rapidly flowing river. It’s width (~50ft?) is broken up by protruding rocks and the resulting rapids. I think we are trying to cross it but end up coming back, because we never do get to the other side. When I attempt, the water reaches up to my lower thighs. Despite the depth, the strong current makes each step a task. Back on the bank, Sage is casually talking about some gecko club she’s created. I think she’s trying to get me to join. I ask what it entails, and it seems like a lot for the low monthly payment. I’m just not sure I’m that into geckos. Dad is now here and sort of ridiculing us for trying to cross this river. He doesn’t seem to appreciate our trying.

I am at work when Susan calls from upstairs. She starts describing someone, and I ask if it’s the lady with purple hair, noticing her on camera near the escalator. Susan says yes, so I say I’ve got her and hang up. This lady is shorter and chubby, with a bob cut of a faded purple. She’s pushing a cart that has a handful of items in it. I noticed her earlier and only got a slightly weird vibe, but I guess not enough to watch her. She starts going down the escalator, so I go out there. She is making a beeline for the salon doors, so I try to hurry without being seen. When I get up there and glance over, she is standing in one of the shoe aisles, the cart facing me, now empty. I look to the right and see a man with short red hair carrying some clothes towards the doors. I hurry to catch up with him, asking if I can take him to the register. He doesn’t look at me and mumbles that he already checked out. I say “they didn’t give you a bag?” and start grabbing the clothes. I have to stand in front of him and call Bobby on the radio before the guy gives it up. He lets go and then starts running in the other direction. I walk back in from the vestibule and see that the girl is still here. I walk up to her and tell her not to come back here. There’s a somewhat younger looking boy with her now, and I tell him not to come back either if he’s with them.

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In the future, our society collapsed, but my dad is still pissing me off about how I failed his expectations!!!
I point out that his expectations were never appropriate for the world I grew up in and that I am very successful in my adaptation to it. And he is alive purely by luck and because I have saved him quite a few times. He is out of touch with reality. At that very moment, a horde of alien monsters who roam the streets is heading towards us. We get an early warning from seeing other people on the run. I chose a path they probably won't take and I push my father into that direction. He keeps on bitching. Something about me trespassing a property, as if that mattered in that circumstance. We escape the alien monsters, which as I expected, keep going through the main avenue. But then we encounter 3 creatures like sheep but who talk. They seem fairly innocent, but I sense danger. It happens they are also dangerous killers and one of them is an assassin who had tried killing me in my bed before, but taking up a different shape. I am not sure how it goes, but I manage to escape from them.

I was lying in a double bed in a large room. Can't remember too many details, but I became vaguely aware that I was dreaming and decided to try to project. For some reason I had a feeling that I was going to get interrupted by my parents and was nervous.
I fell out of bed (I remember reading about someone feeling as if they had fallen out of bed when they tried to project). I shot out of my body and felt myself floating in the air. I had a strange uncomfortable tingling in my whole body just the same as when I have projected in the past, and I couldn't see anything, again just the same as in the past. This time I said 'Visuals now' and suddenly could see a small metal ball in front of me. I was quite happy with that and started throwing it between my hands.
My memory is a bit vague but I continues to feel uncomfortable and tingly and was very aware that my body was lying in the bed. i felt myself losing focus and started to rub my hands together which brought me back, but my body continued to feel very uncomfortable.
Then I was standing at the doorway of my bedroom when I was a child looking out onto the landing. It looked rather dark and a bit different, and I thought to myself that it is what would be expected, and it was just a representation of what I remember things looking like. I looked at the window and decided to try flying out of it. I flew through but couldn't concentrate enough and lost the feeling of flying and all visuals.
I started to get more uncomfortable, and I think aspects of the dream I came from were affecting me. I was worried my parents would come and disturb me thinking about lying back on the bed and that combined with feeling so tingly made me wake myself up.

Morning of November 27, 2019. Wednesday.

Dream #: 19,336-02. Reading time (optimized): 1 min.



In this dream, Zsuzsanna and I are living in the Cubitis house (a one-floor single-family home) in Florida, though the layout is different. There is a storm approaching from the west. When I look outside, I see it is night. A few equidistant rows of tornadoes are coming down on the other side of the highway, directly above the orange grove. Nothing happens, as they disappear before reaching the front yard.

I go around the side of the house that now features the south side of the Loomis Street house (a two-storey residence for two families) in Wisconsin (which is facing north, the opposite direction it should be by compass direction in respect to its integration with the Cubitis house in this new amalgam). People I do not know are living here. I tell them how the tornadoes disappeared after crossing to our side of the highway.

Later, I am standing in the front yard, looking up. The entire sky looks like a giant motherboard, though there are pairs of what look like satellite dishes and observatories (directed downward). I am puzzled and start to think about how people could have made something so big and so high, and I have a vague wariness about its architectural stability, though I am mostly unconcerned. The Cubitis house now seems like a skyscraper (holding up part of the motherboard sky) and where an orange grove should be is another high building holding it up on the other side, though most of it is expansive.

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Visiting a cathedral in Spain. A catholic nun takes me on a tour and shows me a secret chapel behind a rock wall. She opens this rock and shows me the little chapel. She says a miracle makes appear Jesus Christ's image on this rock sometimes. I look at it and I see it, but it doesn't stay still, it changes into a woman, then a baby, then at very high speed, I see like the whole evolution of life on Earth, all animals and all plants species morphing from one into another. I tell it to the nun and she says I must be hallucinating.