Sooo.....since my first Journal entry, I've attempted to lucid dream and not only failed in those attempts, but can't seem to remember any dreams at all. I don't know if I get too little sleep, or what exactly the problem is. One thing could be that because I have a 10 month old daughter, it doesn't exactly work out to just lay in bed upon waking up and try to let my dreams finish or try to let them come back to me. I'll try going to bed earlier tonight and see if that helps. Anyone have other suggestions??? --S
This is my first dream journal entry, so hopefully I am doing it right. Mostly, I am just procrastinating from my 30 page paper, the one thing that is much more of a nightmare than zombies. The Ring girl: Seriously, if anyone has dreams with the ring girl, please respond! Don't even read the rest of my crappy post-lol- I am just curious what she does in other people's dreams. I have a pool in my backyard, and in my dreams she lives in it. I cannot go swimming, or in the backyard, without seeing her standing on top of the water. When I am lucid, I fly over the pool to avoid her. Sometimes, I swim up to her and touch her face, or I try to hold her hand. Whenever I see her she makes me lucid, but she is still creepy. In my dreams, the pool is a source of evil. It is beautifully blue, and dark/endless at the same time. The water grabs hold of you and drags you to the bottom. Sometimes, I try to walk on the water but she suddenly appears in front of me. She never does me any harm, she just stares at me resentfully with her eyeless eyes. Zombies: I know a lot of people say that they love zombie dreams because they go all badass on them, but zombies are a huge source of anxiety for me. It isn't like "Left for Dead", it is like "Night of the Living Dead". They walk slowly towards me and yet they never do anything! If I swing a knife at them, it just slices their skin. If I try to shoot them, I miss. They don't even try to fight back, they wait patiently while I try (for what seems like forever) to hack them apart. And I can't do it. When I am lucid, I tell them to wait by the door or leave my house and they listen. But they still stand there, watching me and it makes my head spin with anxiety. I realized that if I just join them, then I wont have a conflict. So I become a zombie, but then I spend the rest of the dream hiding from humans. When I am a zombie, I still stay away from them-they say that I smell delicious. They turn to face me when I walk by, and they don't believe that I am one of them. Dolls: I have the same problem with Dolls. Dolls are more scary though because I have a childhood fear of them. They never do anything either, and yet they are 100 times scarier than zombies. They come out of my mother's room and walk down the hall. Sometimes, I just see a sliver of their hair, their face or their arm as they lean into the hall from my mother's room and peek into the hallway. They are mute, and they look like American Girl Dolls (those things are pure evil). Sometimes I hear them claw at my closet door, or even worse, their little hands begin to slowly move the door open. All they want is love and affection, and all I want to do is avoid them like the plague. I am afraid that they will lock me in the closet with them, and will force me to play with them forever. (Background Info: When I was a child, I used to lock my dolls up in my closet, so that they couldn't get me. My mother used to tell me that my dolls were real and all they wanted was for me to love them (that evil bitch, lol). I felt horribly guilty because I hated them, and I began to believe that they hated me because I didn't love them back. I would become so sleep deprived as a child that I would literally imagine that I could hear them scratching at the door at night. When I looked at them from the corner of my eye, it seemed like they were moving ever so slightly. Moreover, when I was at sleepovers, I would wait until my friends went asleep and would lock their dolls in the closet too). Vampires: Oddly enough, now I am now having vampire dreams and it is plain silly. I am not even scared of vampires! When I think of vampires, I think of Buffy the Vampire Slayer or Twilight. So I have no idea why I have started having nightmares about them. Even in my dream, I think to myself "man, this is plain stupid!". My mind has decided that vampires are like super zombies; they are faster, smarter, and more devious. I always outsmart zombies, but I can never outsmart vampires. They can always find me because they can smell my fear. If I am not afraid, then they think I am one of them. They always trick me, and then boast about it when I am trapped. They taunt me before they eat me and show contempt. Sometimes my father is a vampire and has turned my entire family into vampires. He promises me that it won't hurt when he bites me, and he promises that if I become a vampire that I can live happily and safely. But in his eyes I see hunger, I sense he is just trying to use me. Plus it is very awkward!!!! I go into the street looking for someone else to turn me into a vampire, but everyone just wants to use me for their pleasure -nobody wants to help me because they are good. I don't want to be used. This is kinda how I feel about relationships too, lol X__x.
Once again I was unable to journal when I woke up this morning. I had a lot of dreams last night, but I can't remember so much of them. Food I am in a big building, which I think is my former college. I go to a little cafe to buy some supper. I get a pizza or something. It seems to be a big decision. More food My family and I are somewhere, in a hotel or something. My parents want to buy a trailer/camper. They spend a lot of money on something, and we go to check it out. It turns out that what they buy is a little box, or a microwave, or something like that. Meanwhile, we look at a girl's pickup truck. The paint job on the pickup truck is weird, and has a strange texture that looks really weird close up. We go to a tire store. In this store, there are cookies for sale. The cookies look really good to me, so I pick a few up. We go to check out, and the person behind the counter starts to add up the total. With each cookie (I only bought about 4) the price gets higher. The total comes to about $30, at least. It may even be more like $100. I get a little annoyed, but there isn't much I can do. I don't have the money, so I leave the cookies at the counter until I can come back with it.
12/11/2011 Shadow Worlds I am in school, taking a few CD's worth of data in to class for a presentation. I have completed the first level of a new video game I have been working on entitled Shadow Worlds. I go into the classroom, and it seems the instructor isn't pleased with me. She indicates I am late and I am getting special treatment to be able to give my presentation late. I figure it had better be good. I tell the rest of the class how I have been building the game using the Unity engine, I tell them a bit about the game which has to do with a dark cloud consuming everything and turning it into a vast expanse of dead nothingness… the player's goal is to restore the world to a natural state. Save forests, clean out lakes… I am giving a demonstration as I talk. I am thinking it came out pretty good. I tell everyone I have the first level completely done, so go ahead and play it if you want. Dallas Cowboys Football I am one of the members of the Dallas Cowboys football team. It is pretty clear that a lot of the men on the team aren't pleased at having a woman on the team at all, and they don't seem to think I will accomplish much. I am one of the offensive linebackers, my primary job is to block and create openings for the rushing back. I am actually doing pretty good. Between the strength my dream body has and the fact the opponents seem to automatically underestimate me because I'm female, I am walking all over them. They don't seem to learn, either. Often times no one bothers picking me up at all, leaving me wide open to do what I want. The game is almost over, and we need one more field goal to win the game. We are way outside of field goal range. But I am also a kicker. There are only a couple seconds left, so nothing to be lost by kicking. I use a computer in my helmet to help me aim the ball and make sure it splits the uprights, my boosted strength drills the ball all the way, a 75 yard field goal. Never been done before! Everyone is cheering, though I wonder if the computer might be considered cheating. I ask the coach, he says it's not cheating… but don't tell the refs. That says to me it is cheating… some of my teammates are still unconvinced that I am an asset to the team. Disney Land I am at Disney Land, and they have a new attraction. It is a water game of sorts. It is done in the water, and the goal is to throw small balls into whirlpools to score points. At the end of the round, whoever has the most points but has not gone over 200 points wins a prize. I go over 200 points very quickly. Damn… There is a way to reduce the score. I am trying to do that, it involves tricky maneuvers through a rocky underwater cave. I get the swim suit all ripped up. When I come out I am in rags. The people running the attraction are pissed. They tell me I have to replace the swim suit for $350. I say no swim suit is that much. They say they will also accept a replacement suit if I can find one. I go shopping. I find a matching suit for $75. I take it back. I briefly wonder if it is the right size… it is XXXL, looks like it would fit a small whale. They say that is no issue, it will shrink to fit whoever wears it, and stretch to fit the larger people. One size fits all swim suits. Um… whatever. A woman the size of a small whale is still having problems getting the suit to stretch enough to fit her.
I'm in a lake with a few people who look like they're dressed up like Storm Cloaks. The water is really muddy at the shallow end where we're at, and we're about to head out and kills some people. Someone warns us that the enemy is near by, and we all duck underwater and start swimming to our objective. I notice that I have scuba gear, but no mask and decide to take a few breaths. I don't think anyone else has this stuff, and it seems weird, but not noticeable at the moment. We reach our destination, and there are a few people in the lake... for who knows what, but we all pop out of the water at the same time for a surprise attack. My group has all the people in dispatched, and I'm the one who is running around killing each one of them. I have this curved blade, knife in length and I'm going to work with it. The knife is very thin so I have to make sure that I'm holding it horizontal to get between the ribs. Each strike, I can feel the blade rip through all the layers of tissue and give way once it enters the lungs. I remember one person didn't die right away on my account, so I had to stab her again, and I told her to accept deaths cold embrace. And just then, I heard a voice in my head claiming she was the goddess of death. We had this conversation about everything that was going on...and I think I made a few jokes with her, but at the same time I started getting a little scared. The whole killing people, while talking to her, thing was getting really weird. Once I finished my handy work, I headed on shore, and started looking for her. There was a parking lot full of vehicles, and I kept holding the conversation while searching the area. Finally I came across this one guy who was at my computer class, he was talking into a mic and sounding like her. I still don't know how he was making that voice in my head though.....so weird.
Cay's Dream Azra, two guys my age or younger, and another girl with longish black hair were holed up in my house in the middle of a zombie apocalypse. We tried not to go outside too much. I carried a gun at all times. At one point the two guys decided to troop off in search of supplies and I didn't see them for the rest of the dream. I got shot by the strange girl after coming around a corner and surprising her. "I used to be a zombie slayer, but then I took a bullet to the knee," I growled, prying the thing out with needlenose pliers.
Cay's Dream First I'd like to apologize for not getting this in yesterday, my Internet was down. I'll search for synchs this evening. Dream 1 My house was in the middle of some sort of zoo. When I stepped outside I could see the iron bars of large cages in my driveway, but blocking my path were glass boxes filled with straw. A man came up behind me and placed his hand on my shoulder, startling me. He looked like the Doc from Back to the Future. He showed me each of the cases in turn. Each one contained tiny newborn animals, two orangutans, a litter of puppies, a nest of baby birds. The strange thing was that they were all sort of translucent. You could see the muscles and the paths of their veins, like the gorilla in Hollow Man before it completely disappeared. They all glowed with some sort of warm inner light. Dream 2 Azra and I built a theme park. Problem was, neither of us were engineers. I test rode two of the rides, both of which were extraordinarily unsafe. The first was designed after the movie Tron, and though it dipped very close to the ground your feet were free-hanging. The seats on the second one didn't seem to be attached at all- they were sitting on a sort of conveyor belt.
MischiefManaged Dream Dream 1 I’m in a big shopping mall. I’m wearing different shoes on each foot, both are very high hills, I never wear hills, so I’m surprised how comfortable it is and how I can see everything higher (my actual thoughts in a dream X)) I’m holding 3 full bags in my hands as if I stole them. I’m walking really fast all around the mall, trying to find something. I look in every store, on each isle – somebody left something for me somewhere in the building and didn’t say where… Dream 2 I’m sitting in the class in my old school. It is middle school and I’m surrounded by my classmates of 12 years old. The girl that I’m sitting at one desk is my current dorm roommate. At some point during the class she starts arguing with one of the boys, then gets up from her seat, hits him really hard and runs away crying. All the people ask teacher to do something with her, because she can’t get away with this, but teacher says it’s not a big deal and she’s just a girl. At this point everybody is terribly shocked by this statement and the whole class turns into a university lecture with kids transformed into adults arguing about harassment issues and how faculty doesn’t want to deal with it. Yep, fascinating dreams today, I know X)
These few dreams were pretty interesting. I feel like my recall is starting to maintain consistency. Space Battle This was the shortest one. It started with only a few ships exploring a red nebula and ended up with them firing at each other. The details of the ships are hard to remember, but all I know is that it was short. Space Colony I think this one might be connected with and with a future dream in some way. It starts off as a mutual program set up between the United States, England, the USSR, and China to create a space colony on some planet. They send only a few people to test how the colony would work out in an effort to determine whether or not it will be a profitable venture. At this point, I'm not sure if I'm a person, or a ghost watching things unfold. Nevertheless, as things continued, the colonists began to create factions against each other. When accidents would occur, people would point the finger at others as a result of different political philosophies being forced in one area. It got to the point where the people from the US suspected the Chinese and USSR were spies sent to steal American technology. In all actuality though, I'm surprised I even dreamed about this in the first place since it was so coherent. Sadly, I don't know how it all ended. Ancient Caverns The only thing that stuck out in this one, was the setting in some cavern. There were two sides, in between there was a deep chasm that looked as though it went on forever. I remember jumping across it and landing on some sort of stone floor with designs carved into it. Though, I don't remember how I got there, or what I was supposed to be doing. English Class I was in my English class, except, the class was in a place that looked like my room. There were tables instead of desks that we sat at and the bell had yet to ring. A few of my classmates walked in and we all began chatting with the teacher. As we kept talking, he decided to scrap the journal prompt in favor for a new one for no reason. He then told me he couldn't get the idea out and needed help. So as I threw out some thoughts about my first dream as he began writing them on the whiteboard behind me. As I checked the time though, I noticed it was almost time to get out. Nevertheless, the teacher told us that we had enough time to write it out. He then moved to another whiteboard and drew a few different groups that we would center our story around. The prompt had us write a story on what it would be like to live in a space colony involving a certain political system. The first group was called the "T" group. Two people were assigned to it meaning they could write about whatever they felt like. Then there was the "Corrupt Authoritarian" group, which I and a few others were assigned to where we had to write about life under corrupt authoritarian rule. The last group was naturally the "Democracy" group that everyone else was assigned to. The Story For the sake of organization, I've split it into two sections even though they are apart of the same dream. So as I was writing in my journal, strange things began to happen. For one, I could read the texts, but made the dream unstable I think. Because after I read what wrote, the scene began to change around me as if it was teleporting me into the story. But when I wrote a couple lines I didn't like and erased them, I was teleported back into the pseudo-classroom. The first paragraph was about a man who woke up, lived, and felt, the same things everyday. It talked about the repetition in his life and lack of economic opportunities that caused him to be apathetic towards everything around him. The second and third paragraph talked about how he was making his way out of his house, however, at that time I was still in the classroom and I checked the time once again. It was dangerously close to ringing. What's frustrating is that the clock maintained it's consistency. Though, if I studied it longer, I'm sure I would have found something off. Nevertheless, I continued to write, but soon the dream engulfed me into the story. As the man was leaving his bland block-housing, another person, a women, left with him at the same time. They didn't acknowledge each other and waited for a while for some guards. Since it was about authoritarianism, the guards had to escort them back and forth as to make sure they run or something. I remember the guards were dressed in blue and wore helmets with black visors. The two guards walked side-by-side with the two people and began to head downhill with them. The got to a clearing were some fight was occurring between guards and a local rebel group. There was also a special agent among the guards, but it ended badly for her. She was grabbed and tossed off a long cliff where her entire body scrapped across the coarse rocks. But in a twist, she was actually an android, and she hobbled to some government base to get fixed up. And that's where the dream ends. Dream Journal *Phew!* Almost done. This one was real short. I was sitting some place at school during lunch when a friend of mine approached me and saw that I was writing in a journal. She asked what I was doing, and I told her I was recalling this dream that had occurred that previous night. As I looked and wrote in the journal, I remember having two columns, but I don't remember what was in them. I had some weird conversation with my friend, but everything just kinda fades from there. Conclusion I think I'd have to say these dreams have been the most convoluted connect dreams I've had this year. Still though, I think it's good that lucid dreaming is starting to leech into my dreams. So it's really just a matter of doing those reality checks and hammering down awareness and recall. It's pretty interesting the creative stories our brains can come up with when we dream. Happy dreaming!
I was very excited this morning when I had 3 separate LD's (very short but VERY detailed thanks to a week of the ADA practice. 1st LD: I was in a hallway and saw a lightswitch and just became lucid for some reason, I immediately tried to flip the switch (it looked broken) and the switched kept moving so I could not flip it- I then moved into a room with 2 monks who were assembling/unpacking firearms and they threw one to me, I just laughed and said I did not need one as I can do whatever I want. Then bam, went black. 2nd LD: I was walking through another hallway looked like a subway that was bright blue, I became lucid and immediately yelled "INCREASE LUCIDITY" then bent down and ran my hands on the concrete to feel the texture hoping to stay in the lucid state, moments later it went black/blank. 3rd LD: I was outside a random building when two men dressed like swat began to open fire on me, I realized that could not be possible and became lucid, the bullets and one grenade passed right through me as I laughed and tried to relax. I immediately decided to try to teleport to the Chichen Itza for the project- I spun around (Wonder Woman style, even though I am a dude) and I teleported to right near the Chichen Itza- I was behind the building that is adjacent to the Chichen Itza (in the picture I have been studying) and could see the top of the Itza and there was no beacon, as I moved around that rectangular building to move closer to the Chichen Itza I lost it and I ended up waking up... I was soo excited to get near the target place, I did not see anybody but I was a ways away so I did not make it into that big field in between the Chichen Itza and that other building. This was my first teleport that put me near the right location, my only other teleport I tried for the Eiffel Tower and ended up in front of a church in Italy ( I have been there). This is a picture like the one I was studying where you can see the adjacent structure I was behind-
I woke up last night (actually this morning) and dozed off again, as i was falling asleep it felt like my leg was moving towards my head. Almost like i was going to knee myself in the face! Not fast or anything just a slow deliberate movement that I wasn't making. I then realized I was laying in the opposite direction on the bed that I was seconds prior! I did a nose pinch and could breath! (Actually I did 3 and a pinch on my leg). I remember not knowing what to do, and then I awoke. Kinda mad at myself but i guess it is progress. Should I have just sat up in the bed? What exactly happened to me?
There was a bee. And there was something about this bee that made me fall madly in love with her. The bee was in a sort of castle. The interior had chairs arranged like a church. She spun herself into a cocoon. I was so obsessed with her that I was telling someone how great she was. I brought a woman with me to the church and showed her the bee sleeping in her cocoon. I said: "Look. Isn't she perfect?" At some point i was in a cocoon some feet away from her. I think i had a hamburger inside my cocoon. Out of the bee's cocoon flew a wasp, she was her spawn or something. Eventually me and the bee where reunited and we moved away from the castle. Onto a bridge over a river. The bee turned into an action figure. It was a masculine action figure, with silvery metallic colours. She carried me with one arm and used her other arm to crawl across the bridge. I was feeling very happy. In the meanwhile her wasp was flying around us. Then this woman from earlier came running out of the castle and yelled: "You forgot ur hamburgerrr!" . And she threw it to me. I catched it and said thank you. Then i telepathically told her "Ur sweet, i love you." I was moving on my own two feet now and i heared her yell again, she said: "I love you too!" . I was suprised to get a respond. I got excited and yelled: "That's right! I LOVEE YOOUUU" and kept walking. Later in the same dream I was in an unfamiliair neighbourhood walking 3 dogs. We have only 2 dogs. But in my dreams there's always a third dog. I wasn't carrying leashes and there where loads of people walking there dogs. So there's a bit of a chaos with my dogs harassing all the others. They started running down the street and frustrated I was swearing at the dogs. This man that did have his dogs on leashes was swearing too. As if in perfect synchronisity we yelled the exact same thing. It was pretty weird. He looked at me with a face like, What the fuck? Eventually my dogs walked themselves back home. Then i woke up. I woke up with a buzzing sound and a sensation at the top of my head. In my closed eyed vision was patterns of different colours. Quite faintly but i did. There where little white stripes coming in and out of focus. Like a damaged tv set or something. I refrained from writing this dream down to see what might happen if i kept focusing on the sound and colours. Eventually i did write it down. I checked the clock and i slept for less than 2 hours. Quite a lot of content for only 2 hours of sleeping. I went back to bed and the colours where still there, so was the sound. The colour turned into "white noise" type of visual. I slipped into unconsciousness. If you got this far I advice you to stop reading any further if you are underaged and prudish. I post if cus it's funny I dreamed of meeting a woman somewhere on the street. She was a white blonde/brunette. She had nice curly lips and beautiful eyes. Her body wasn't bad either. She looked mid-twinties of age, about 5 years older than i am. I flirted with her and she liked it. We went to her bedroom and we cuddled a little on her bed. I went to finger her a little. I gently played with her cunt but she kept telling me i'm not doing a good job.. She said not to touch the "long part" or something. I was like okay, and i went over to her clit. It felt like i was touching a little thin toothpick of sorts. Not quite natural. . Then she said with an annoyed voice: "Noo. ur still doing it wrong". Goddamnit. Okay, and i went down to lick her instead. But she didn't like that either. Then she said, go sit on that table. She was making ready to give me a BJ but then i started to slowly wake up.. I don't know why I always wake up in these dreams when things are just about to get good for me but it always happens. I got back to sleep and i was hiding inside a small building with no windows, only a door with a window. A man was shooting out of the door's window. He got killed tho and I picked up his gun and replaced him. I was holding a Battlefield3 style machine-gun and placed a bipod thingy on the door and shot everyone that seemed to be rushing toward our way. There was a lot of pressure and i was having trouble. I shot bullets to my heart's content and woke up eventually.
Updated 06-18-2012 at 05:23 PM by 39772
I only remember a small amount of this one. I was outside at some sort of camp, and i remember being told something is coming for us. Next thing i now I get grabbed and dragged away by some sort of dog thing. Thats all I can remember. :/
There was some sort of game/competition going on in this dirty underground place with a lot of trains, which involved hanging onto the side of a train as it moved and seeing where it went. It was like a maze, and whoever found a certain point first won. Hanging onto the trains felt dangerous, and I was afraid of hitting something, but I eventually made it to the end. Someone mentioned Matt Engarde. It may have been inspired by a game of Crossfire I played last night where I was in a place with trains.
I don't remember much of the dream sadly, but I will put what I remember. There were 3 witches in the dream and they were all anime girls. I can't remember what they looked like because I don't remember any visuals but one looked around 13, one 16, and one 18 or 19. I remember the one who was 16 telling me that they could give people powers using unique words, each word or phrase granting a different power. They rarely did it though cause they didn't want people abusing it. She told me she would give me powers if I wanted it though cause she trusted me. I told her that I would not abuse them and that she could trust me. So she said a few strange words silently and I felt a little weird and it was over. I don't remember what power she gave me, but I think it was to control fire. And I remember the youngest witch giving someone else a power but that's about it.
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