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Morning of January 28, 2020. Tuesday.

Dream #: 19,398-03. Reading time: 1 min 6 sec.



In emerging from slow-wave sleep near the middle of my sleep cycle, a dream sometimes starts with the association of something having been underground, a natural precursor to consciousness emergence. It is more likely to occur when the beginning of my sleep cycle has countless vivid images of sand or dirt flowing over and into various rocky formations of inexplicable beauty and realistic detail, nearly as appealing as water-related renderings (which have been at the beginning of every sleep cycle since earliest memory). Both types of induction sequences become more populated with sightings of cave entrances, which signify my anticipation of entering deeper sleep.

My dream has a simplistic reinduction narrative. It seems to be nighttime, and about seven soldiers in military camouflage, who are passive to my presence, are here to do some digging. There is no waking process personification or a sense of intrusion here, as it is not near the end of my sleep cycle. Instead, the process focuses on reinduction by summoning water.

Even so, a thread of emerging consciousness results in a defined association with the color yellow (rare in dreaming in this mode, occurring mainly in later dreams of my sleep cycle with a more defined waking directive). I look down into a hole in the ground and see a yellow pool pump with a black cord attached. I anticipate the soldiers and I will uncover a large swimming pool, though I neither contemplate how the swimming pool will eventually be at ground level nor the impossibility of such an outcome. I wander around the area with emerging thoughts of dream state reinduction, but my dream fades instead, without the presence of water.

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Dreams weren't as good this week. I remember some more dreams but they faded from memory quick.

Jamie

A dream we were at a restaurant. we were clasping our hands over a table as if we had just decided something. that or i was proposing something and she said, "yes." The feeling was happy and exciting. That's all.

Dog

Was walking my dog through a forest. He actually started talking to me. He said he was walking funny because the ground was poisoned so I should be careful where I walk him.

Guns

I was in a house with someone. Another guy broke in with a gun. The other guy said for me to put my gun down or something because it was going to cause a legal issue. I did and my friend shot the intruder from behind.

I wish I remembered more...

I went to sleep at like 1am and woke up at almost 4 am. Dreamt the following:

• I was in my grandparents house, in the backyard. My dad was telling me something but i realized he has lied to me (about whatever he was telling me. It was something like he blamed someone else for something, but actually it was him...) so i walked away from him. [Dream fragment ended there]
  
• I'm on the streets with my dad. He's receiving some checks and gave them to me to store them. I get on an elevator on the street, kind of like Willy Wonka's elevator, but instead of being of glass it was like a gates capsule. So one of the 6 to 10 checks flew away... It was worth about $11.000 pesos (about 140 dollars). I was a bit upset about it but everything in the streets was so rushed, like as soon as i stepped into the elevator it began 'flying', that i felt that it wasn't my fault. Also i put the checks in my pocket and i suspected one of them would fly away and that's what happened... but shouldn't have happened... (so i could have become lucid by that if i was paying attention to logic XD).
  
• When the elevator lands i walk towards this restaurant in open air. It was a good restaurant so there were medium-high class people having lunch there. I overhear a conversation about Hedera Hashgraph, how it will start being coded next year and i smile and say out loud to them as i walk by that it's already coded XD, but i was kinda happy to hear people talking about it because i had expectations with it.
  
• The building i was going to was across the street. So i enter the building, hand in the checks or something. Meanwhile the business had sent a "magnetic drone" that stole confidential information (kind of like the programs Snowden took with him when he walked out of the NSA) and when the drone landed the company became successful and billionare just like that. So the company people started celebrating! What did they celebrate with? Well... there was a lot of alcohol and sex all night long. It was madness.

I did a short WBTB (short being 5 minutes or less), tried to notice as i fell asleep but just felt asleep unconsciouslly and i dreamt the following:

• I was in a beach with friends from highschool. We were on a trip. Actually we didn't have many resources... and i was kind of disoriented and bored. Half of them already went in a bus (idk where, to the next scheduled stop i guess) and half of us were still hanging around. I guess i was disoriented because there were a lot of other tourists and shops, so it was kind of chaotic. But it was like nobody was buying anything and the place was poorish. Then a friend starts spraying me cockroach poison spray to me... he was angry with me for some reason. I told him to stop and he did. But i felt how the spray started burning me, and it was a kind of burn that felt so different. I unconsciouslly related the kind of burn to radiation burn and in the dream i consciouslly related this product with being carcinogenic (which of course it would be since it was poison).

Two dreams, turned mostly into fragments after getting up from bed. I think there was a third one, but I must have forgotten it.

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Dream Fragment 1:

I don't know where I was, it wasn't a familiar place at all, but there was some kind of square and a market. There was a town or city feel to the place and I remember it was day time, although everything looked a bit dark or murky somehow.

There was this woman with blonde-ish hair and a fit look (V) whom I know online from a game, though I've never met her in person. She was showing me around? I remember her grabbing me, by the arm or hand and for some reason in the dream this made me visibly uncomfortable. V noticed and asked me what was wrong or whatever. I explained that where I was originally from, physical interaction even with strangers was commonplace, but since I have been living elsewhere for some years now, I had sort of become estranged from the feeling and it was a confusing situation somehow.

Next thing I remember is something about a big cruise ship. I went down some steps, avoiding a queue for said ship, with no interest at all in getting on, having passing thoughts about a waste of time it looked like, due to how crowded it seemed like it was going to be.

There is then a transition of some kind.

Dream Fragment 2:

I remember being with H. We're on the road, H is driving; it looks like the type of countryside I'd expect to find here. It was day time, but the sun was close-ish to the horizon, I think more setting than rising, and it was also cloudy. Everything looked a bit desaturated.

There is a transition and now we're at some sort of lodge. My mom and my dad are there and we're having a look around. Nobody else is around, and the place is littered with what I can only describe as cultural artefacts from many different places. For some reason I take no particular interest in them however. I remember my parents talking, probably with me, but don't remember the content of the conversation.

There are stairs that go up and next thing I know, I find myself going through several upper levels of this lodge. One of my siblings (L) is here and we are both going up the stairs up to a point when we're not inside the house anymore, and it's a cliff. There are still steps, made of rough and weathered stone. As we go up the steps, the incline gets sharper, and this random girl with a massive backpack is also climbing these steps. At first I get past her but as I get nearer a flat bit at the top of these steps, she overtakes me.

Next thing I know, I expect to be at the flat bit and that there would be more to climb. I expect that the cliff on the other side would be gentle based on what I felt the formation was like, but no. This was the peak, and it was like a sharp peak.

Up here, there was a large but flat rock, on which L sat in a precarious way as always and I could see lots of things below, fields, towns, other mountains. I felt the height we were at was impossibly high for the amount of climbing we'd done, but my legs were shaking and I felt giddy from my irrational fear of heights. At first L tried to get my attention so I wouldn't look down, but that didn't last long. I remember seeing parts of this mountain we were on, looking toward the left. There were large and ancient man-shaped stones along certain parts of the ridges, almost like steps but which were really more like foundations for fortifications.

I couldn't let go of the rough stone steps. The way the flat bit of rock was connected meant that there was an extremely narrow part of dirt or rock and I just felt it was risky to try and get there. I wanted to go back down and eventually I did. I remember being at the main part of that lodge again, but the rest of the dream is missing.

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Some notes:

• V looked exactly as I would have expected but though we had some conversation, I have no idea what her voice was like, or if it was accurate.
• H's presence in the second dream was quite short, but so was the presence of my parents and the random girl that was doing the climb too.
• When I was at the peak of that mountain, there was a cold feel to being there, although I don't remember actually feeling cold. But everything was quite bright, it was clear and sunny and I enjoyed that on some level, but the sort of physical stress I was feeling due to the fear of heights made the experience remind me of several situations in my childhood.
• During that part of the dream where I was climbing, I remember clearly thinking; "I'm sure I've dreamt of a climb like this". In actual reality, I don't think I have had a dream like that before, but again, the experience was similar to some I had in my childhood.

Remembered this fragment much more clearly earlier on but wasn't able to write it until now.

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Dream Fragment:

Was in Wintergrasp from WoW; I remember the snow on the ground felt a bit "real" and I think the atmosphere was a bit more blue-ish than it probably ever was in reality. The battle was going to begin in just over a minute and the place was more deserted than I expected; but as the timer finished the place was crowded. For some reason I got teleported to a cave like the starting cave from AV and likewise there was a large metal gate in the same style. I could clearly see outside was still WG however, and I was going to be defending. I remember the gate opening but some details are missing now between this part and the next.

The next part I remember is next to one of the east walls of the fortress. I remember fighting outside the walls for a bit but can't remember exactly what class I was playing; either a warrior or a death knight with a two-handed weapon.

I got on one of the rocket turrets mounted along the east wall and pointed it quite directly at a few enemy players fighting some of ours on the ground below. I was mostly aiming at one of the sloped areas, where most of the fighting was taking place. I don't remember seeing the siege vehicles at this point. I can remember seeing the characters in much clearer detail than would be possible in-game, especially when this area was current content - I think there was a mix of horde and alliance in the enemy forces.

I remember during the dream I was feeling a bit of allure (pre-lucid?) towards the player characters in general as I could see them in quite clear detail.

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Edit, some side notes:

Back in WLK I did play death knight, warrior and paladin classes a lot, the latter two especially compared to the previous expansion and the original game where I mostly just played rogue.
Though the snow had a more real quality to it, as I could sort of feel it crunch like it would if it was fairly deep, nothing else about the environment seemed more realistic.
The focus I took on the player character models is not uncharacteristic of something I would do when actually playing anyway, as I always liked seeing the different equipment on all the characters, but in this case it felt different because the characters I took more note of felt like they were “zoomed in”, in terms of detail. I remember I had felt it was odd/different.

So this dream's a little off

It started with me and these guys in a podcast, and we were talking about furries. From what I can remember they were talking about drawing furry porn and I think trolling with it or something like that. In the dream however I was literally painting a drawing of an dinosaur, riding an ape. I don't know either. I also remember this part being long because I spent about 5 - 6 minutes fixing the leg of the ape and specifically trying to shade the genitalia on the ape correctly, apparently I was attempting it with the colour purple that I had a thought in the dream that 'due to the opacity and the colour it was being added onto, it had looked like a pink..' It was not anatomically correct, the dinosaur, as the genitalia was females but it just looked like a huge rip going into it's chest. I have no idea why the hell this part was vivid but oh well. It was a pretty good painting unironically though, it ended up turning out super well and shaded. Thank god it wasn't real.

Next part of the dream is a little messed, but I think I went outside with the same guys on podcast. These guys kind of reminded me of Smosh (early 2010 - 2013) but I 100% don't remember their faces. We were having an outing and this other guy showed up and so did this other girl, she was kind of fat, she had blonde hair and was wearing a jump suit and a denim jacket (I think). She seemed pretty shy and I was glad she was, knowing my anxious personality. after awhile we all sat at this picnic table (there were two parallel eachother). Our one had been loaded with food and we began to eat, or specifically me and the other girl. The whole weird thing about this is that from the men I had this huge 'abusive' vibe coming from them. They all had moved to the parallel table, but then the girl came back and started eating with me again. We hadn't talked so this was basically a really boring filler.

In the next part of the dream, I was back at a youth home I used to go to when I was younger, and all my washing from the last time I went there was still there, and it all had gotten dirty so I was putting it back into the washing machine. weirdly enough I remember a possum being in the washroom and just thinking 'ah so that's probably why'.

I had went back to school and it was snowing, like really heavily!. for some reason we were literally meeting in this desert of snow! (we don't get snow in the area I live so this was kinda fascinating.) but for some reason we were being told we're going on camp again, last time I went to camp at school I remember getting heavily depressed since I had nobody to talk to, so I threw a tantrum in the dream and cried about it since I didn't want to goto camp again lol. in reality I didn't have a tantrum, I just sobbed about it in all honesty. However I remember just bouncing in the snow (convenient) and accidentally sitting too close and onto people without realizing and feeling really guilty.

Warning: contains violent content.

I went to sleep at about 11:30 pm yesterday. Couldn't sleep until like 1:30... I woke up twice. At 5am this is what i've dreamt:

- I dreamt with my cousin Jess. In the dream at that time we were close but not very confident with each other. So there was a lot of rumouring behind our backs from other family members that would have created discord if i wouldn't have sat down and talked with her. We were in my grand-aunt's house, who has long passed away but i still got a feeling of the morning time when she used to go to church. So my cousin was leaving but i stopped her so we could chat. His brother was there too, whom i'm not really close with. We talked about holidays, we planned going to the beach and having a vegan style. After we finished the talk we were happy, and realized that all the discord the rumouring provoked was just that rumours and nonsense (i knew it beforehand but she didn't).

- I was with some friends in a restaurant. I congratulated two of my friends for getting girlfriends. Then i went a floor up through a ladder. I sat in a table with other friend (whom i used to hate in highschool but we're grown up now) who was talking with some nordic or russian businessmen about business. When one of them started speaking it was just him, and he was saying how he bought all the buildings nearby and that the other businesses (looked like sillicon valley businesses or something) rented his property. All of this was confidential because he was talking about how he actually bought the buildings with credit, with money that wasn't real, and he was charging ever increasing rents and thus building his ever growing empire. All of this was a big scam (like global wide) but it was all legal, just that people didn't realize it was a scam, so that's why he was successful. At some point he doubted why i was listening... like if i was a reporter, to which i kinda felt like a spy while i listened to him, although i really wasn't and wouldn't have done anything anyways. But him reacting to that, taking us in his porsche to the airport driving quite fast but confident, made me think i was a cop.
Next scene is i walk down through the landing track and i see two big houses, in which crimes committed by the joker happened. There was a hanging man, who should have been hanging from his head but he was actually hanging from his testicles, and then in the other house i see the joker walking towards the stairs through the edge (could have fallen to a precipice) and then up. I just looked at him from outside while i was walking, didn't care about what he was plotting. I just knew he was alone.
Then i was in a bathroom, taking a shower. But i was a 9 years old girl, brownish skin with green eyes. I looked like if i was both my sisters combined. I was with my dad, and i wanted to recall when i was a baby. So i focused and... succeeded! I wasn't lucid, but i just wanted to do that in the dream. So.. i recalled when i was 9 months old and it was like i was a siren because my parents layed me in water when i was a baby, water came in through my ears and ever since i had like clariaudience. I looked at my dad at the bathtub, he was old but i wanted to recall how he looked like when i was a baby, so i told him to be quiet and just looked at his face. His skin was much brighter and smoother and he didnt have a few spots? in his cheecks (the kind old people have in their heads XD).
Then there was my mother inside the bathroom too. It was like we were having a picnic while i was taking a bath... By then i just wanted to take a shower alone.

Then i did a short WBTB and woke up at 7:30.

I dreamt i was a cop. This dream was more vivid. I entered the airport. Went upstairs. Talked to a cashier. I was actually making time, so i flirted with her. She got angry because she thought i was harassing her and was about to call security or the police. But i was there because i wanted to catch a couple of killers that were supposed to be there soon. So i began talking about harassment laws (doing kind of reverse psychology like i was being harassed) and trials, and she went friendly again like if she realized that it was just flirting gone wrong and there was no need to overreact. Anyways i walked away because i was bored of the conversation and i saw downstairs that the police were taking a couple of people into custody. I saw the man, he looked like a bad guy, but i realized they had the wrong guy. So immediately i ran back towards the cashier and i realized that the 2 men had infiltrated. I got down. Besides me there was Paul Rudd as my partner, with blonde hair. So the two killers were at the other side of the counter in what would be the kitchen. Paul decided to go all in, like crazy, and take one down gutting him with a knife while the other was looking somewhere else. I realized that we were against the clock so i had to move in and take the other guy down. The other guy was like twice this guys size (he was really big and looked like he wasn't going to go down so easy). Even though subconsciouslly i didnt want to go through this course of action, i stabbed him in the guts and he turned around, grabbed the knife and threw it to Paul. The knife just bounced back, so he was lucky. Then i go on and try to stab him in the neck or something to take him down. Then he grabs a knife and throws it directly to my head. I manage to block it with my hands as if it were a metal shield, so the knife just bounced too (i could have become lucid if i realized what had just happened). Then I grab his head and smash it like 30 times against the kitchen counter and then i give him a final blow... I looked at his cracked skull lying in the floor and knowing it was all over but i was deeply regretful of all of it. [I just didn't them to continue killing people, because i knew they would have, but i didnt want me or us to get to kill in order to stop them. The main problem is that i havent agreed the terms of our partnership with my partner, so when he went in he naturally expected me to have his back, therefore i went in too not to "betray" him, but i betrayed myself. Anyways i could have gone in, defend my partner but without needing to kill. That could have costed my life but i guess i was defending that too, even at the cost of getting to kill (which i'm not okay with). Well now i know for next time that i don't neccesarily need to rush, i can always think what i do]

tonights dream was not interesting.

So i was at school again and this kid (he kept on switching into two people) asked me to take the bus with him, and I agreed to do so, during this dream I kept on losing things and trying to find them again. I vividly remember going through my bag to find things I have lost and finding a Garfield toy in it (I'm neurodiverse and Garfield was one of my weird hyperfixations at one point and I was talking about it that night beforehand lol.)

The only weird part was that he kept on hugging me whenever i was walking to leave school, and at one point in the dream.. he took his shirt off and hugged me??. And then once we went outside, me, him and my friend Minecraft kid all sat in a circle and another student from my school was throwing bullets (yes, with his hands) at me but they all landed beside me lol.

Anyways, I'll try to get back into the swing on sharing dreams again, hopefully I'll rememeber my dream tonight. See ya'll this afternoon! (cause I messed up my sleep schedule like it's 1:17 am right now LOL)

I am at work (though it looks nothing like it - it almost seems like office spaces next to a parking garage). I think I park and walk in, noticing two men that look like they would steal. One is wearing a backpack and heads upstairs. The other stays apart, possibly trying to make it look like they’re not together. I head to the office and see him unknowingly standing not that far from the door. I see the label on his blue jeans, trying for some reason to memorize the size, before I hurry into the office.

The dream was in my town. I was with Moo and we were walking to his place. I believe it was raining, we decided we were going to cut through this giant house that was my older sister's and her boyfriend. The house was expansive. I looked up when we walked in the front and saw several staircases and paths leading above to different floors, it almost looked like a 3D maze. Her boyfriend was talking to us about something, he mentioned we had dug up something outside and we told him we had dug up an old gaming system. There was a TV in the kitchen with animal crossing or some other cartoon game playing. I look over at a door and there's a dog door with our family dog Boru laying through it looking at us, I called his name and was really excited to see him. Something about sauce and toss too, Robert was there at some point too.

I had a dream last night where I was a first class passenger riding in the upper deck of a Boeing 747 flying to Atlanta from London.

When we were about an hour from our scheduled arrival, the captain came on the intercom and told everyone that we would be experiencing really heavy turbulence on our approach to Atlanta and for everyone to get up if they needed to because he would be turning the fasten seatbelt sign on.

I got out of my seat and asked the really pretty blond fight attendant for a strong triple scotch on the rocks so that I would be mellow for the approach into Atlanta and handle the turbulence better.

As I was asking her to make the drink, the captain came out of the cockpit and grabbed the flight attendant and I by the arms and told us he needed us to land the plane.

He then led the fight attendant and I into the cockpit and motioned for me to sit in his seat. The first officer then got out of his seat and told the flight attendant to sit down there.

The captain then gave us some quick instructions on what we needed to do to safely land then plane, told me I was in charge, and then he and the first officer stepped out of the cockpit and closed the pretty flight attendant and I in.

I was at the flight controls, flying the plane while the flight attendant was talking with the control tower and letting me know the heading and altitude I needed to be flying.

We descended through thick clouds and I could see lightning flashes as the turbulence started to shake the large plane as we descended.

As the flight attendant kept giving me new headings and altitudes, I kept maneuvering the plane to get to them.

We finally touched down on the runway and then I taxied to the gate the flight attendant told me to go to.

I woke up from the dream while I was looking for the flight manual to shut down and secure the plane with the flight attendant still on the headset talking with the control tower.

The first fragment was from yesterday, I remembered more yesterday but didn't have a chance to make note of it. The other two were from today; lost most of the dreams' information due to how the morning went.

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Dream Fragment 1:

Something about four commanders. Was supposed to meet them? Not sure. Dream took place in some concrete parking lot type structure.

Dream Fragment 2:

Taking a bus, it didn't look like a normal bus and only me and someone else were in it (H?), no driver, that I can remember. We got out just before a road intersection. There was a church-like building to the right, across the road, but in the dream I knew this was in the context of a university campus or something; there were a few buildings but it mostly seemed like a village area more than anything. It was quiet outside, it was day time.

Dream Fragment 3:
Possibly related to the previous fragment. Cooking or preparing food whilst inside a train, but generally darker than the previous fragment. I remember distant cliffs at a lower altitude but nothing specific other than a generally arid landscape. Vague memory of desaturated blue tones. Sort of day time but not very bright.

Somehow, I had made it to heaven. My suspicion is that I was able to peek at it when sleeping. I find that heaven is a beurocratic, authoritarian regime and everything is constructed in the style of a renaissance-era town/city. The first thing I remember noticing is that there wasn't a single racial minority there. I remember overhearing a conversation from the higher-ups about the hazards that my arrival would bring and that no one is to know about it. At the same time someone from a slightly lower rank heard about it and started planning to sabotage the system. Later, me and a friend from real life who was also in heaven with me apparently found Leonardo DaVinci as he was entering his house and started asking him some questions. He looked less like DaVinci and more like Adam Jones from Tool, but that's not important. We asked him was his least favorite part of heaven was and he said "eh... the food" as he opened a compartment in his wall to reveal a large stick pretzel. I asked if it had anything to do with food shortages and he seemed a tad confused. I was talking about how I felt anxious and my friend said it could be because of my current sleeping position (I must have been asleep inside of the dream). I pulled out a phone screen with an unfinished verse of a rap song I was working on and my friend was shocked by how little I had finished and if I was okay. I then woke up. What I have noticed is that the best dreams are cut off by school days.

I might see if I can write a short story about this beurocratic ethnostate idea of heaven, but for now I have other stuff in life to worry about.

The idea that it was the last day of school, maybe college. I was w/ Kol in the mountains, the scene was very steep. Kendrick Lamar is there and I try to take a picture of him w/ Kol but we're on this very steep cliff and I'm afraid of falling down, I think end up falling off the cliff.

I'm in my father's old house in my sister's room laying in bed, there's someone in bed with me but it turns into Pennywise or the idea of him. He busts through the door, I close my eyes in fear. I can feel the vibrations and weight of him stomping slowly towards the bed.

The dream scene is at a summer camp. It feels like we've been there a while. Peck is there, we're in some sort of lodge. It's daytime but people are trying to sleep. I'm moving on a path throughout the camp that's surrounded by woods and a river. I keep thinking that I'm trying to leave the camp but it's not time yet.

Another dream where it's the last day of high school. There's also a football game going on.

Youtubers

Had a dream I was visiting some paranormal youtubers. Jamie was with me and she seemed in good spirits. We were trying to talk to this guy called John from exploration unknown on youtube (personally i find his channel boring). He seemed like he didn't want to talk with us. I suddenly had a hard time speaking to him and couldn't get my words out. Woke up with a really dry mouth, luckily i had a glass of water still on the nightstand.

Haunted

Dreamed I lived in some haunted house. Kept having false awakenings there and some ghost girl would get into bed with me. False awakening again and i was in darkness. I heard some fake paranormal youtubers outside trying to get in. I waited in the darkness while they opened the door. i jumped out to scare them, and they looked shocked. They couldn't believe i lived in a haunted place. I said everything was fine.

FA, I'm in bed, It's daytime and I'm looking out a window. i' see and old fashioned fancy rooftop and it seems to also be a picture of where i live. I notice a top rail on the roof top and a man walking down it. It's night time now and the man shines his light in my face.

Suddenly, I'm in this room with an open hallway passing by. I'm sitting with two people a girl and a guy. Fake celebrities pass us and shake our hands. Me and the guy comment to eachother how the celebs seem to ignore us mostly but are overly nice to the girl seated with us.

anyway, I found a little trick for thsi bit of recall so I'm going to keep trying it.