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Low recall due to some stressful days. Found some semi steady work today through a Didsbury temp agency. Felt really good to have work with some people who aren't my family.
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Only fragments to record.

Face

I was doing my daily prayers for myself and Jamie and half fell asleep. Saw an HH image of Jesus peering over some clouds and smiling. It was as if he was happy with what I was praying over Jamie.

HH

Quick HH dream of me asking Jamie if she's the real Jamie. And I was using her full name.

Last night:

In the middle of the night I went out for a smoke. I was having an intimate and funny conversation with her voice and I was thinking if this is really her, I would marry her. Just then I saw a shooting star... As if confirming this thought. Second time this year that has happened to me.

Weird phrase

Another HH flash of a friend's girlfriend who was visiting our house. She looked at me and said, " There's cash registers in your soup." I woke up and thought the phrase was hilarious.

In light of recently reconnecting with an old school chum in waking life, I found myself in his presence within my dream. He was sort of guiding me along a path on some island where he lived. We came across a ferry that took us a short way across a very narrow river. On the other side, we met up with a few of his friends, some of whom I seemed to know, others I did not. I remember having packed an excessive amount of clothing, and fussing over what I would change into. I think my little sister showed up at one point as well. There was some important crux to this dream I am forgetting, but I really hope to start journaling regularly again. I need a greater sense of spiritualism and synchronicity in my waking life, and I used to obtain often those from my dream life. Here's to hopeful, consistent Dream Journaling once again.

Can't load this website on my laptop says security error. I'm using my phone to type. Seemingly rough couple days with her voice. I went to Karaoke at the tavern with my brother and all their friends in Didsbury. I remembered having dreams of Jamie either hanging out or working across the street. So I kind of asked the Jamie voice what is the right thing for me to do should I accidentally run into her somewhere. I heard a really cutting response like, " Don't even look at me, or try to talk to me." That got me kinda upset. Okay, a lot upset. I mean; I'm not going to anyway especially if she looks like she doesn't want to be talked to. I can respect space and privacy. But why be mean? Who knows if that was really her voice or not. Eventually we both seemed to resolve it where I just let her say something if that were to happen, but before saying something just let her linger nearby until she feels safe to say something. Smile if she smiles. Wave. Or am I allowed to wave first to test where she's at? IDK.

Later on her voice said something like, " Don't talk to me in my head anymore." Repeated a few times. I just apologized and said I'll be quiet. A minute later we seemed to work it out. And later she said, " please don't try to break up with me anymore. " I was all confused because I heard it the other way around. So I talked to her voice some more and ran it back. Apparently she heard the phrase that I heard from her, but me saying it to her. So we both agreed that we both hear "false voices." Sometimes.
We also talked about her being afraid to even say anything to me. That was her reasons, not mine. And I do remember when we used to hang out. How a part of her seemed to really want to move things want to move things forward with me. But also there was another part of her that would not let it happen. MUST not let it happen. And I remember thinking in those days that she seemed genuinely TERRIFIED of getting too close. I would watch that war go on in her daily sometimes.

Anyway dreams. The karaoke night I was up so late I couldn't recall any dreams. That was also an exhaustive night with the voice with a lot of confusion but I won't go into detail.

Last night

Quiet

I was in a white room and I was shackled by my arms to the floor. Jamie came in and unshackled me. She looked exhausted to the point of looking way older. Her face seemed thinner than normal. We began walking somewhere but she was keeping her distance. My dad was suddenly with us. And she was lingering closer to him than me. I remember feeling down about it, feeling that she should be closer to me than my dad. There goes my BPD brain again, finding rejection where there is none.

Handful of Jamie flashes.

One where we are both in a car . I'm holding her hand while driving.

Another flash she is just holding me and we both seem happy.

Last flash was just a sex related one.

Had a few non lucids without Jamie. 2 of them were McDonald's related. Dreamed I was working there again temporarily.

Last flash I was in a courtroom where a lawyer was talking to a judge. They said something about Jamie so I was asking about how they knew her

Not much dreams.

Dock

Just me standing on a dock with a bunch of water.

Last night had some trouble sleeping. After normal prayers it seemed like that guy was trying to get between me and Jamie during our time. ( I've touched on this before, with "twin flames." Many people report sensing their partners beside them. This combined with the head voice can create a vivid experience.) Her voice asked for more prayers to fend this guy off. Had a HH vision of him cutting an astral chord between me and Jamie and I couldn't sense her or her voice. Prayed right away to Jesus that he restore it. I felt her near me again instantly. After half an hour of prayers and me and the Jamie voice telling him to leave us alone. It finally stopped. Am I getting schizophrenia? After all this fell asleep . I think he got the message and gave up

Jamie

I'm floating up to some clouds. It's like heaven. Several people are standing on white pillars. I'm floating up and notice Jamie standing on one. She smiles at me and extends her hand. When I'm close she grabs my hand and pulls me to her. We start making out violently.

Can't remember much after but micro dreams where I'm with Jamie. We are holding hands, or she's hanging off my arm and we are just walking somewhere and talking.

July 16th, 2024 (Comp Night 10)

Fragment 1

At my grandparent's former house. I'm walking around the outside of the house, and come to the "side entrance", which looks more like a different "front" entrance.

Fragment 2

In a small boat at a family vacation spot at the lake. I'm trying to get around a rock outcropping. Once I get around, the current is very strong, and keeps pushing me back toward the shore.

Fragment 3

I was banned from a site because people thought my post was racist. But what I had been posting was something that I had dreamed...

...Something involving building things out of plastic pieces. There are little rectangular objects that fit into little slots on the side of a transparent plastic container, and I want to put these back in place...

Fragment 4

Something about my niece.

July 17th, 2024 (Comp Night 11)

Fragment 1

There is a building. Inside this building is a hallway, with rooms off to either side. The rooms are fitted with pipes, and mud can be piped into these rooms to make them into a sort of mud bath. I think I am in one of these, but instead of feeling nice the mud has a weird feel to it - it reminds me of loose stool somehow. Then there is something about people hanging from a ceiling.

July 18th, 2024 (Comp Night 12)

I put this one off a little too long, I think. I don't remember too much about these notes.

Fragment 1

Something about boats. This might be the one where I was supposed to paint boats, but that dream seems like it happened longer ago.

Fragment 2

There is a test about a story. I think it's one of those dreams where I haven't prepared much for a test, and it will soon be time to take the test.

Fragment 3

We have a nice sized garden. There might be a lot of weeds in it though. Then we go to a garden center, which seems to be a place that we used to go when I was little.

Dream 1

In the men's room. I notice that there are women in the men's room. I start walking around wondering about this, and then I remember that this is a dream sign. I try to count my fingers, but I don't seem to be convinced that I'm dreaming. For one thing, the restroom is really cluttered - it seems to be part of a store. For some reason, this seems like it would explain why there are so many women in the men's restroom, and I don't become lucid.

July 19th, 2024 (Comp Night 13)

Fragment 1

Watching a movie starring Audrey Hepburn. She is singing. Something about Paris, I think.

Fragment 2

My advisor has snakes at the university. One of them bites me. It isn't poisonous, but it kind of hurt. I have gone down the hall and want to go back (to the lab?). I decide to go a different route, because the snake might bite me again. I go up through some corridor...I have to teach...

Fragment 3

Something about my niece swearing...

Fragment 4

I need to put on some pants to go somewhere. Someone is watching me, so I think I try something odd where I put one pair of pants over top of another pair of pants, or something.

Fragment 5

Somebody took too long of a bathroom break...

apparently using a dream journal means using it frequently.

yeah.

i should do that more.

The Reservoir:
I'm at my Grandma's current home in the basement with my niece. She wants to show me "the reservoir".
I have no idea what she means, but she is gesturing toward a small crawlspace door on the wall. I follow her through.
Feeling is definitely creepy in here. A ladder leads deep down below the house.
When we get to the bottom, it resembles the basement we just left, but darker and more decrepit.
Over in the living area, there are some wizards having an argument.
Each of them has a staff with a jewel of a unique element (Fire, Ice, Electricity).
There is a sort of alert, and everybody has to hide.
I stay out, and try to get stock of the situation.
The situation resolves, and I try to indicate to a group hiding nearby in alcove that the coast is clear.

Note: There is a guy staying at our house (hopefully temporary). Who is a half native guy. He's into new agey stuff and is very experienced in dream sharing. He's also gay. I have told him previously about my experiences with dream sharing. He seems to have his own biased view on dreams. I have not told him about Jamie. And I will not. He seems to be the guy who was interfering with me and Jamie in my dreams, causing the false break up from the previous entry. I also don't trust him because when I was alone at the house with him the other day, he blew up at me out of nowhere. He started yelling and cussing me out over a minor disagreement ( because I didn't want to listen to him or his advice on certain things.) in any case, I have ceased discussing any dreams or spiritual stuff with him. I have prayed daily that he can no longer interfere with our dreams... Jesus has been silent in the dreams so... But I have enlisted Raven to help. She says she wants to do something while her mother spends her last days in hospice. Just keep in mind she may not always be able to help if she's too stressed out or depressed. To Jamie if she reads: if you are dreaming about me being mean, or "breaking up." Or being abusive in dreams. It's not me. I don't know what this guy is capable of, or how long he will try to interfere. Just pray about it if it can help.

Forgot one dream from last entry:

Jamie 1

Me and Jamie are working on a hairdressing head working on braids or something. Nice.

Girl

Just a flash of a young girl barely older than a toddler picking up grass and handing it to me.

Jamie 2

Sex dream with Jamie. In Asuka's garden of all places. We were somehow in mid air and teleporting a few feet every few seconds... Wtf. Funny tho.

Annoying guy 1

I was in a strange hotel area with a big room or something. People were sitting in cubicles. I was on a person train riding tricycles. Behind me was a fake Jesus with a pride flag. Jamie was in one of the cubicles. I think I was trying to do something to impress her. Can't remember what I did. I had a feeling like it was that guy's inner world.

Annoying guy 2

A dream of Jamie's face in the black space. She's being mean and cussing me out badly. But inside the Jamie image is another face... That guy, and I can see his facial hair.

Wake up and her voice seems upset with me. I tried to calm her down and she said. " What is going on with our dreams lately?"

Annoying guy 3

Sitting in a chair across from the guy and having coffee. I look to my right and see a giant hole in the wall.

So he's breaking in now?

* 2024-07-17 00:00 Weds comp night #12
* Includes 2024-07-17 #312, 313 DILDs (LD #17,18 reboot '24) [13, 18, 16 [2], 0, 5, 9, 1, 9, 1, 5, 8, 10, 9, 8[2], 4[2] ]
* (f) [hypnopompic] "Machetes -- nobody can use except $1 people from the bargain store"
* Demo for family in (computer?) store
* (f) girl playing music on a blow keyboard ("hot cross buns"), see a large array of instruments in a room
* 2024-07-17 LD #312
* I come to consciousness sitting on the edge of a bed in a corner of a bedroom, and I hear the sound of rain falling on to the roof and the side of the house. I'm looking at something (magazine, tablet) with the picture of a man dressed in red. I notice I'm wearing a watch on my right wrist and see that the face and part of the red color is visible also filling the face of the clock, which I think is odd, so I nose pinch, and become lucid. I stand up and go to the door of the room, I want to enter the main house. Things get hazy and blurry, I move through doors and find myself in a large living room. I look to the left, and see wife E sitting at a long table on a laptop. She looks young and healthy with that thick, luxurious brown/black hair. I'm really happy to see her, and come up to her and offer a warm greeting and a hug, but she's very stern and is all business. "I have an important message for you [from heaven", and I feel fear, I think they know about some of my secrets, and I think that's stupid, of course they know, but I'm still waiting in trepidation to listen to what she says. She says that she overhead others talking about this. Then she tells me that of our two children (me and wife L), one will die, and one will have very hard times. I'm confused by this message because both L and I are too old to have kids, and we don't have any now. I think it doesn't apply to me. Wife L enters the room and moves to a corner and fiddles with a cabinet, she's wearing a white outfit made up of criss-crossing straps. She doesn't really look like her waking self. I think this is probably the first time they've ever been in a dream together, so why not introduce them. I ask L "what's your name?" And she answers "L" accurately. I go over to her and touch her briefly. She leaves the room and the house through the front door. A standing stove over by the fireplace catches my eye and I go to it and tell E that hey it looks like an old Soviet model. I also see a green Christmas tree. I want to go after wife L I want to talk to her some more, I run out the front door and there is a night-time suburban hilly neighborhood stretching out before me. L is in a car and taking off, "come back!" I call but she drives off. I fly after her but I'm too slow, I will myself to fly faster and I get a big "turbo boost" at high speed but she still drives away. I forget here and notice a convenience store just up ahead, and a young woman standing outside it. Then I notice a convertible car driving from right to left up a hill, top down, 4 people driving in it, some girls in the back seat, I fly after them, slow at first then again will high speed and shoot forwards at high speed, land in the car in the back seat. I decide I want to return to the house and score some comp points, maybe teleport there, I wake up.
* 2024-07-17 LD #313
* Get lucid in a room in a house, full of clutter and objects, and a ton of kids hanging around. There are some people sitting at a table including an attracting young woman, I go up to her, stand behind her, and massage a part of her. I decide I want to see her skin and her body under and around becomes visible. I remember the competition and want to store some points so I look around and with all the kids around decide to do mass DC control. First will them all to become cats, and most of them do! Then I gesture and TK them all to the couch in the middle of the room, and this works as well. I go to the couch and then see that I missed one who was hiding behind some piece of furniture and so avoided my TK. I walk away from the couch and turn around to face it and call out to them, "What does a cat say?" They answer in a group, unison voice "WOOF!". I chuckle and then ask them again, this time applying control so that they'll answer "meow", and they do answer "meow." The kids want to watch TV so I take off flying around the room, looking for a TV. The room has a very high ceiling and there is a wide ledge running around the perimeter of the room at the level of a 2nd floor. It's full of objects, furniture, I notice a pool table. I return to the couch and there's a TV, I switch it on and notice a brief image appear. I move to the kitchen and as I pass a refrigerator on my left, an unseen DC behind me asks, "is it worth it to sell your soul?" I stop and say "absolutely not, no pleasure is worth an eternity of pain and suffering". I turn around back towards the couch and notice a container of chocolate ice cream on the counter, I take off the lid and see the partially melted brown ice cream, pick up a small spoon and eat a spoon of the ice cream, there is no flavor or texture, I wake up.

* 2024-07-18 00:00 Thurs comp night #13
* Some fragments/recall weaker several scenarios, recovery night
* (f) Run after fat woman up stairs
* (f) delivery/receipt of box/shipment
* (f) S1, S2 and a car outside

* 2024-07-19 00:00 Thurs comp night #14
* DannyD in StP, explain my house
* his dad ND (offer shake hands, refuses, see odd growths on his hands, ND will sleep in a bed which is behind a curtain, lock on the door,
* pool/billiards explaining side English
* 2-level bathroom see under stall doors
* Procession outside including girl w/super bulging eyes

almost not even worth it to put this here

- I was walking outside on a sidewalk noticing a piece of my tooth was loose and i eventually pulled it out, i was uncomfortable because i hate tooth issues and then remmebered that i have those in dreams more often than irl so i did a nose plug and became lucid (+1), instantly tried to teleport but i just ended up spinning faster and faster and got dizzy with a brown blur all around me

Before WBTB

Ghost Data:
I'm playing N64 with brother. It's Mario Kart.
We're playing against ghost data, trying to win against difficult race times. They had been set by Youtube streamers.
He hands a controller to me and it is sweaty and coated in Cheeto dust.
My brother couldn't beat them, but when I try I start doing well. This excites me.

After WBTB

Time Travel:
I'm floating in the air above a living room setup in what may have been JH's basement from my childhood, it's a tense situation.
There's a limited time to make a time travel portal work, or else we will the stuck.
There is a thin grocery bag tied around my leg, that needed to go into the portal.
But I'm all jumbled up and can't get my body to move the way it needs to.
I pull off the trick, and then I see a potential future.
It involves an alternate version of my Dad, but then it stabilizes into the current version.
I'm through the portal, fall face first onto the floor. A girl says "Oh we don't mind this guy!"
The world has been saved.

Road Trip:
I'm in a neighborhood waiting in the backseat of a big car. It's a family road trip.
My Dad's friend has offered to drive us with his car on the trip.
Something is wrong with the car though, so we are waiting around.
My Dad, Mom, My brother, his wife, her Grandpa, my sister, nephew, niece, Grandma and some others are there.
Eventually, the car gets running, but somebody had stepped out of the car.
We start driving to go to where he is. I roll down the window and say "GET TO DA CHOPPA!"
He looks like J from high school marching band.
He fits into the car, but now it is pretty cramped. I'm curled into a ball shape to fit between the seats near the back.
My brother and sister are fighting about something, and eventually my brother comes to hang out in the back with me.
My parents give him some shit about getting along and my brother says "nah it's fine, I'm just the grumpy grandpa!"
"Yeah, me too." I say sarcastically. Peace ensues in the back seat.
...
We're driving through a mall-area, and my Grandma points out a Chuck-E-Cheese to me.
I wonder how old she thinks I am.
Eventually we end up at a ninja-themed Barcade, and apparently it has been decided that this is a suitable place for family dinner.
There is a girl there that I think is cute, so I'm focused on her.
I'm handed some drinks in a plastic bag, some monsters.
For some reason I decide to dump water in the bag with the monsters.
Later I regret that and find a way to dump the water and just keep one monster.
I go behind the bar and do that, and then weasel my way around, apologizing for bumping staff as I go.
I found a bathroom, and the girl tells me there is a small one and then a big one for me.
I don't know what that means, but I go and find out.
The "big one" is a urinal game where you shoot your pee into targets for a score.
Apparently somebody can see me and says "Ah, I didn't think somebody would try it...go for it!"
I hit some targets, but I don't have that much ammo in me. I resolve to start chugging some monster so that I can be better prepared next time.

Dream #1:
Vivid imagery of large wooden ships stuck on the shore. Something else (gov?) had took their moorings so they were stranded. I could see each wood plank starting to buckle under the weight as waves crashed over it and pressed it into the shore. Hundreds of barrels of alcohol were lined up next to it, some tumbling and crashing into the boat. Another large ship crashes into the first, and hits the sparking electric panel which causes a massive explosion.

Dream #2:
I’m in some sort of social experiment. I am the ‘fake’ outcast and I’m sneakily moving supplies into a building. When I see another person I hide, since I must not seen. It’s a forced situation, and the rest of the group is supposed to catch me if they see me, but they also know what I’m doing is actually helping the group. As I’m hiding I feel small like a house cat or a mouse.

Dream #3:
There is a larger earthquake and I’m part of a team that is looking through the rubble for things to return to those who had lost them. Another reason for the team to go is that we got to keep some of the items for ourselves. I dig through the rubble and find a rock collection. The main things are ocean jasper hearts. There were also rhodolite garnets in clear quartz. Finally, a couple other specimens pieces that I decided to keep.

Summer Competition 2024 - Night 14

1. The Late Alley (LD)
I continue swimming underwater and soon break the surface. I become lucid. I look around, noticing that it's night time and head toward the shore. Once on the beach, I look on either side of me and notice interesting stone structures with cream coloring. The one to my left captures my attention as it has an arced balcony on an upper portion with small statues lining it, appearing almost like small cupid figures. It has somewhat of an eerie feel to it due to the reddish glow emanating throughout it, yet it's captivating nonetheless. There are glowing reddish letters toward the top and I have the feeling that it's some type of lunge. I see several people standing on the edge, all of which are seemingly female attendants of some sort. I approach a lower stone ledge and climb on top, beginning to think about what I want to do as I climb across. I really like the area and figure I'd want to come back. I sense that mom is behind me, so I ask what they name of the place is.
Mom: "Late PM Alley". I find the name interesting and draw closer to the attendants, noticing that they're wearing black formal wear. I approach one of the attendants on the right and notice she's wearing a mask.
"Do you need to be wearing this?" She looks at me.
Girl: "Yes"
I simply let it go and ask if I can pass. She lets me and I begin walking. The dream begins to go to void. I hold my awareness, ready for a new scene. I soon find myself standing next to a one story home on the edge of a large waterway between what appears two sections of homes. On the far right, the homes are enormous; they're several stories tall and have intricate, high tech structures on the outside. One home contains a massive blue and silver orb, the function of which I'm not quite sure. I look beyond and see a massive tribal looking structure in the back right, standing several stories tall. As I turn back to the mansions, the structure appears to change somewhat and there now appear to be rollercoaster behind them. I continue to float down to the right, exploring boardwalk area on the edge of the water. I haven't really done any control yet...I should do something. I see a large piece of machinery ahead of me and go for TK, yet it just wobbles a bit before I turn to my right. I quickly see a large, pink spotted animal figurine appearing like it's right out of a carnival. I extend my arm and TK it up with ease. I make my way down to the right, thinking of finding some warglaives. I imagine the base of the blades, yet don't find anything right away. I decide to basic summon something to eat and float over to a shack area on the edge of the water I float up to the window and snap to go invisible. I see a lady working inside as I float through the window. I continue to make my way around to the back, undetected, and look for some hotdogs. I quickly find a couple of paper plates and reach for them. As I focus more, there now appear to be two small hamburgers on the nearest plate. I continue to look, willing them to change back to hotdogs. They quickly revert and I grab the plate. I begin grabbing ketchup and putting it on as well. The lady looks in my general direction and pushes a plate forward. I take a bite and its great! The flavor is accurate I begin floating out of the store. I wake up.


2. Warglaives And Temple Ruins (LD)
I continue to put the sandwich together on the sidewalk. I'm lucid. I see that it's late in the evening and I'm outside of some type of shop. The sandwich looks pretty good so I figure I may as well finish making it and eat it anyway. There's not a top bun, but I don't mind.No summoning, but I'll just do that later. I put some type of condiment on the patty which seems like some type of fried fish and take a bite. It's really good! I walk over to my right and notice some type of small tent with a conical gray top, appearing like an outdoor seating area of some type of cafe. I enter and notice Anth sitting next to mom. I may as well interact a bit. I grab a couple of books off of the table and turn to Anth who has a stack in his lap already. I place mine on top.
"Here you go!" He looks up at me with a smile. I start heading off and notice that the sandwich isn't completely filling my mouth as usual. I notice I actually feel hungry. Maybe having some dream food will actually make that go away for a bit. I continue down the sidewalk at a faster pace and notice a young man sitting at a circular table, seemingly finished with his plate of food as he reads something near his lap. I see a small portion of his burger left, so I grab it off the plate mid-run and begin eating it - he doesn't seem to mind. I begin to think of what I want to do next and run through some control in my mind. I don't clearly see any good options for TK so I decide to play with gravity a bit. I turn toward the tall, light blue wall to my left and slowly place my feet toward the bottom. As I step forward, I mentally begin rotating gravity 90 degrees and find myself standing with the wall now flat, the rest of the dream rotated. I get back down shortly, reverting the dream and jogging toward a couple of young kids at the edge of the walkway. I see a large blue desk to my right and quickly 'wall-run' up it, rotating gravity before landing and reverting once again. Super strength time. I run up to the kid and kick him about ten away and five feet up and zip around the corner. I should at least heal the DCs. I turn, seeing if he's busted up, but he and his friend seem fine. I extend a hand for heal, but they don't seem to need it. That won't count. I continue to run down to the right and see that the path now diverge around a large ovular opening in the center. It remind me a bit of some of the airships in warcraft. I head around the right side, looking for some weapons. Maybe I can find a warglaive. I head pass a desk to my right, not finding them right away, and continue to jog around the walls to the right edge of the room and notice some toy swords. Nice - that will count for the theme. I don't want to wield any of them, however as they're small wooden swords. As I progress, the swords gradually become more realistic with the shape and become larger as well. As I continue around the back and toward the opposite side, they slowly become metal, with larger blades. The ones on the far end seem to have glowing edges. I already have one, so there's really no point in getting another. I make way way farther down and enter a room to the right with some people gathering around a table to the left with some items on it. I'm not interested, so I begin leaving. I male begins calling after me, explaining that they're not finished and they need to do some alcohol tasting. I may as well see what they're up to. I enter and begin to think about how long the dream has been. I should dilate time a bit. I begin meditating and float up a bit. I begin to freeeze the scene mentally and everything stops. I feel about being in stasis, in this state of consciousness for a long time. I don't notice and frost around the periphery of my vision, but I come out of meditation and the dream action continues as normal. I approach a large pot in center with may items simmering inside. It appears to be some type of soup. I'll try to change everything to...potatoes. I focus for a bit, yet nothing alters. I go for color next. I look at one of the large cubes and change the color to green. Nice! I look at another, goin for blue. I only get small portions at first, before saying 'blue' loudly at forcefully, yet not getting a perfect response. I then try a calm, patient tone. It quickly changes entirely to blue. Awesome! I guess that's the trick for me.I notice that the female to my right looks like Han, so I pick her up and give her a big hug and kiss. We hug for a moment, but I don't want to risk destabilizing the dream at all. I turn and exit the room. I should look for some warglaives again. I approach a small kiosk just outside the doors. I anticipate finding some warglaives on the walls. I notice small, plastic looking halves of the glaives. I turn to the woman
"Do you have any warglavies?"
Lady: "I think we may have some in the backroom". She looks to the other side of the room, seemingly ready to look in that area.
I continue to look on the wall and soon find larger halves of the blades, made of metal. I then see figurines who appear to be demons wielding the blades. Finally, I find a fairly large, silver-gray warglaive. I pick it up with excitement.
Nice! My personal goal! I continue to walk down the nearby corridor with it, yet the dream begins to go to void. I maintain awareness and imagine a new scene forming. I soon see pillars of some type of ruins appearing in the far distance, a red color emanating from between them, and float off toward them. I get the feeling that there's some type of fire nearby and a portion of the temple area is collapsing. I think about how long I've been dreaming and how my attention is sustained throughout the states. I begin to think of omnis as well. I begin to encourage myself to dream for very long periods of time.
"Eric, dream all night". I say a few times, mentally conceptualizing what it would be like to stay lucid in the dreamworld for massive periods of time. I float up to and past a few of the pillars of the temple ruins and carve to the right. I get ready for super speed, but don't a a straightaway. I go up to some massive stone pillars and knock on down with a sold bunch. I begin reaching the edge of the temple and a slope which heads down a hillside to an area below. i go for fireball, yet don't see anything very clearly. I reach the bottom and a guy begins grabbing at my feet in somewhat of a mindless state. I kick him off hard and continue to the bottom of the hill area. The scene becomes quite dim as I make my way around a large strucutre that seems like some type of unoccupied vehicle. I Wake up.

Jamie 1

Just Jamie smiling at me. She has a bunch of photographs of herself and she gives them to me. But we're in the black space and the photographs are floating towards me. I don't couldn't see what was in the pictures because I woke up.

It's really too bad all the SEARS shut down. Those corny photograph setups they had for couples and families would be perfect for me and Jamie. :p

Last night:

Black sky

Everyone was in this weird lockdown. Something was happening in the sky. It was all black with black clouds. Suddenly everyone was released and we could walk from our homes. I remember going outside and going into a car.

Following

Might have been a part of the previous dream I was walking with someone towards a mall. I think Jamie was following behind us but she looked like some Jamaican girl I used to work with.

I turned and said, " stop following. We're broken up now. Please respect my decision." The girl kind of vanishes.
I say to who I'm with , "I don't like this breakup. You get so used to someone and doing things together..." The person I'm with just kind of nods. Suddenly Jamie is with us again...

I wake up and her voice asked me if we're broken up? I'm like: no, we're not. I have no desire too. I nodded off for a few more minutes.

Driving

Jamie is driving in a city. People are in her car saying things like, " he doesn't deserve you! How could he? Remember to date up."

Hm. I don't know why we're dreaming this. I'll pray about it. The dreams don't reflect my will. I'll ask raven to help, but she's dealing with her mother being possibly close to not getting better.