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February 10, 2012
Last night was a little better than the night before, but still not very good :/ I can recall a couple of minor details:

1) This was the more vivid one. I was in my room sitting in my bed- it was dark. There was a white sheet hanging from my ceiling where a projector was shooting a movie on. I remember thinking: "Wow! This is a great idea if I want to have any of my friends over." I cant remember what movie was playing though...

2)The second is more of a flash of something, and I cant really recall whether it was from last night or the night before. All I can remember is my sister's boyfriend's face- he was over our house for some reason- most likely to see my sister.

Drawings?

I was in a room with a couple people. at first i was reading a shared dream journals and noticed that two different entries matched. Later a woman (asuka?) was showing me some drawings she did on some computer screen. there was another man in the room (data).

Dream One Non-Lucid

I enter the dream in a room inside of a RV. The room has a blue carpet and a wooden table that is in the middle of the room. On the far left corner of the room is a bed. The bed is setting on something wooden. I hop onto it- this is where it gets confusing-I fall asleep. I start dreaming that I was in a wheat field with a cat. There was something wired about it though. I looked around and saw a person, in all red, dive into the wheat. Before he could get his body fully in, I took a picture of him. I wake up-still in a dream-and I see a picture next to me. I turn it over and what I see makes me gasp. It was the picture I had taken, but instead of the man in his all red clothing, the man was made out of bones. On his cheek bone was writing in blue. It said "His death" and it had a date underneath it. The date was too blurry to tell, but I remember zooming in on the date. Next thing I know, I am asleep again. I am standing in the same spot as I was in the first dream, but instead of one cat, there was two. The new one was obviously younger than the first one, and this time the cats went into the wheat field. I felt like I should follow them, so I did. Although, I didn't go the same way they did. I hopped onto the top of the wheat and it felt hard and prickly. It also did not collapse when I crawled on it. I wake up before reaching my destination, but there was still a new photo. This time it was on the table. I walk over to it and I see a person that looks completely normal except for one of his hands. It was made out of complete bone and it said "His Death" on it was well. Just like the first one, I remember seeing it, but it was too blurry. I look up from the picture and there the guy was. I try to look at his hand for some reason, and what I saw shocked me. His hand had a completely new face that was smiling. I woke up after that.

Dream Two Non-Lucid

I start by watching Tobuscus playing The Sims Three. He was messing around with the camera angles and found a way to look under the map. I now have control of the camera. I look under, on the sides, and on the top of the map. I got bored with it, so I stopped watching the video. When I exit the video, Steam pops up saying "Jake is playing WoW," I tried to play with him, but I got distracted by the time. It was 1:23 PM(lol) and I get angry. I stormed into the living room and asked my dad, "Why didn't you wake me up for school?!" He looked confused and asked me what I was talking about. "Do you not see outside? Do you not know the time? It is way past time to take me to school!" I yelled at him. "Calm down, you will go to school." I got confused by the, but then I woke up and I headed to school.

I had a lucid last night, but I can't remember any of it. It's all just a blur now. Here's what I do (vaguely) remember doing:

-flying
-jumping through something (my window?)
-some kind of energy blast, but I don't remember what I was aiming for.

in this journal i will be posting dreams, followed by the meaning.

i figure every aspect of every dream has significance, and as i study them i can see all my fears, ambitions, desires.
i think a dream journal is more personal than a traditional journal/diary.



-hitchhiking in belfast (fragmented)-

i am on the road again, hitchhiking. im wearing a military backpack. i suddenly realise i am in 'IRA' land where being in the military is very dangerous. i spend the dream attempting to get out of belfast unseen.

MEANINGS: (worry + desire)
-i do a lot of hitchhiking, and i am in the biritsh army reserves. iv recently started using my military day sack for hitchhiking, because its smaller and versatile.
the desire is that i return to ireland, my favourite place for hitchhiking.
the worry is that there are places where openly stating that your in the military can be very dangerous, and wearing that backpack could get me into trouble

Luke's Lessson

To focus on the senses to be aware of yourself falling asleep last day I talked about how. Going to reveal that the same way that I use to be aware of the force, that is.
So what I ment by focusing on the force, was just a joke, and that means that, to do just like everybody else, have I. Yes, hmmm. Herh herh herh.

With jedis through my training, aware of most of the obstacles that you will face along the way, I am. But to understand the mentality you need to have watched this video, and understand that the only enemy, is yourself, you have. Hmmm...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3A_uOaA3e_0

About dissolving your feelings to become a jedi is not, about controlling them, is it. For you making them work when you need them to instead of giving into them completely.
The same, is it when it comes to be aware of your dreams. Yes Hmm..

Look at my eyes in the video, about changing the frequency of matter with the help of a strong intention and a strong belief in the force, is it.
No different, to dream awareness it is.

Tell you how to pracctise this now, I will.

To develop the force you need to augment your state of attention such that, aware of yourself looking, you are. In other words, of looking include yourself in the act you have.

Do this right now, you can: As this screen you look at, of yourself looking at it become aware. If successful, you are, notice a very subtle sensation or presence, you will which, with over many months and years practice, develop into the force. Hmm..

But for now, just use it to be aware of your dreams, you can.

If unable to become aware of yourself looking simply by intending to do so, you were, couple of alternative approaches, there are.

Your eyes slightly raise. Your head not, your eyes just. Notice your field of vision appears to be more expansive, you will.

Or, your eyes rather than raising, to the shapes and colors in your peripheral vision simply pay attention. Again, notice your vision appears to be more expansive, you will.

With eyes open do this when you pracctise the force, with eyes closed do this when you pracctise awareness of your thoughts and dreams yes. Closed eyes for both, yoda have.

But you approach it however, yourself to maintain it over many minutes, the key to this change of attention is to will. Difficult for most people, that is because they lack will. Yes, Hmm..

But as you struggle. Remember Yoda's advice you must. "Do or do not there is no try"

I told you last time that, talk about my adventures, would I, instead I talked about Luke's.
My part another joke from. Herh herh herh. But by reading you learned, yes.

February 9, 2010

Synopsis: It's an all out gang war in a huge house and I try to fight back with fire. Later, me and my dream husband escape but we leave our kitten daughter behind. Slightly abstract dream bordering lucidity with dream control.

Fire Fight
The dream started out nice with a large group of people just hanging out in a huge house. But then a pecking order started and that turned into a gang war leaving half the house torn apart. The other gang was hostile. We turned to fire to defend ourselves.

Being an old house we found these brass and iron antique items. I'm not sure what they were, a mix between a rod and a candelabra. Either way, they lit on fire nice. We got oil, paper, sticks, whatever we could to start the spark.

But the other gang was winning. They cornered us to a single room. At first the kids thought they were safe. But I knew we were just rats in a cage in here and there was a second door to the room that no one was guarding. I grabbed our iron fire stick and thought using sticks and paper to make fire was way too slow. So I tried to fire-bend instead.

It worked! But I'm not good at this fire bending stuff and I'm having trouble making it grow. The bad gang bursts through the side door. I try to create a wall of fire but its not working so well. Its like I'm only imagining there's a wall of fire but my imagination isn't manifesting in the dream. Still it held them back long enough for my gang to escape.

The dream transforms. I'm in an All-Generic-Building. It looks like a cross of a suburb smushed inside a warehouse with gardens inside of stair rails. Me and my imaginary dream husband are trying to escape from an enemy I don't even know. There's a concrete ravine in our way, on the other side is the exit door. At the time I was carrying my daughter, a black kitten. I put her down and fly my my husband across the ravine.

The bad guys were right behind us, so we hid underneath a table. My poor kitten cries from the otherside. Then I woke up.

I start to skateboard to the corner store from my home. I get to this skate spot near the shop where i see these two lads, I start to talk to them. The fatter lad stars to argue with me, he says "i know your buff but i will still take you on c**t", i reply "i will f**k you up, i will drive my skateboard into your head". His friend just stands there and watches, the fat lad stars to threaten me more, so i start to back away and start to surrender, i then turn to walk home........

Had a dream that was intensely realistic, it's hard to arrange these memories as its almost like they have no order. I was walking around a street when I got a strange feeling, like I was in a dream, I jumped up and down and realized that I could jump higher than normal. So I flew around this neighborhood but I woke up in a classroom wondering if I was dreaming again, but was conflicted about that because of how real the classroom was. The teacher was talking to some students as I walked out of the classroom. I walked through a hallway and saw a window, realizing that I was in a skyscraper by seeing the landscape through it, I jumped out the window, shattering it. I started trying to to fly as fast as I could.

I can't remember anything else other than some tiny fragments about this guy eating fast food and slowly turning into a frog.

#6

I'm trying to find somewhere. For some reason I go to the house of a kid I hate to get directions off the back of a shirt. I have to be quiet as not to give myself away. The place I'm trying to go is a long drive completely on interstates then a short walk. I drive this distance and somehow end up like inside the walls of the interstate. I meet a girl and we go inside her mind inception style. We are now searching for a place inside her mind. She has to attempt to forget everything about society and civilization for us to find it. We float around in search of this place but we keep ending up back on the top of the interstate sides, and the girl gives me a pack of cigarettes. Eventually we take a break on the side of a cliff, overlooking a city on the edge of the lake. To our left are two huge machines incinerating houses and knocking them down. To our right is the lake. Everything becomes super trippy. The lake changes colors and the grass becomes super bright. the houses all flash iridescently. I see a turtle on the cliff and it flys lazily around with brilliant purple tracers and green and purple moving around its shell (like visuals on lsd). I take my pack of cigarettes out but whats left have all been broken in half. I look around and find another one full and lit sitting next to me.. Me and this girl discuss the scene. I ask her why the machines are necessary, but she can't seem to answer me. My alarm goes off and I wake up.

So given this is my 30th entry and my DJ has now at least a decent size I guess it's time for some general details about my dreams as well as the tags I use. Should anyone happen to care to ask a question in the comments I'll include the answer per edit in this post.

Recurring themes:
Boarding schools: During my life I went to 2 boarding schools (I usually refer to as first and second in my DJ). The first one which was called Talenta was one of my favorite places and I have a lot of good memories about this place, I met all the friends I really care about there. The school was located in a beautiful huge landscape, and the fact I spent 5 years there makes Talenta one of the commonly recurring themes in my dreams.
The second boarding school I was at was actually a really crappy place and nothing particularly special, which is why the second one barely appears in my dreams.
Swimming Baths: Why these keep occurring in my dreams is unknown to me, it might be due to my second boarding school where I went to a swimming bath each week and the fact I enjoy swimming.
Buildings: Most of my dreams include at least one special building, mostly huge complexes with normally impossible twists. I have absolutely no clue why this is a recurring theme.

Fragment Collections:
All posts labeled as Fragment Collection [Number] include 3 small dreams and are also in the dream fragment category, but they are only fragments in my own definition. By strict definition most of the dreams in there are still full dreams I can remember, which are however to short and/or uninteresting to deserve their own entry. Since I usually am able to recall all dreams fully by just a few tags or the fragments I decided to go with my own definition of dream fragment within my DJ.

Tags:
Here I will give some details about all tags which aren't self-explanatory.

Ryuuko: She is my Dream-Alter-Ego, if you're interested in details or want some context for dreams where she appears follow the link
Building: This tag is given to all dreams that involve the rather typical abnormal buildings occurring in my dreams. Usually these are abnormally huge or complex buildings. This tag isn't given to dreams which include only normal buildings.
1st person/3rd person: It is what it says, whether the dreams involved my doing stuff out of my own perspective or just observing.
Mission: Given to all dreams where I have an objective of sorts, which also involve me doing stuff to achieve that objective.
Exploration: Given to dreams where I actively explore unknown things.
Sex: Given to all dreams with sexual content of any kind, doesn't make a statement about the level of explicitness.
Street/City: Like building these aren't just given to any dream involving a street/city but rather only to those where the location does also play a role.
Apocalypse: Given to all dreams involving the end of the world, the aftermath or an exceptionally dark feeling of ending.
WSS: Given to all dreams where I'm lucid and try to stabilize with my own technique.
Lucidity Visor: Is an experimental device I want to use in future dreams.
Distorted Laws: Only given to dreams with obviously heavy distorted laws like antigravity, floating water or anything even worse [or better for that matter].
Other Planet: Denotes that the dream isn't playing on earth but rather a totally different location. Only given when explicitly known.
Dark: Given to dreams with a generally dark feeling. Usually not negative
Death & Resurrection: Only given to dreams where a person dies and resurrects during the same dream.
Special Person: Denotes the existence of a person that doesn't quite feel like other DCs.
Anime: When things don't look like IRL but rather animated.
Rejection: Given to dreams with situations where someone is being rejected or mistreated.
Forsaken: Given to dreams with a distinct and likely positive feeling of solitude.
Unknown Voice: Whenever there's a voice without anyone talking around.
Danger: Given to dreams with an explicit or implicit feeling of danger, whether the source is known or not is irrelevant.
Bedroom: Isn't given to any dreams involving a bed in a room, but rather to all dreams were I appear in the room I sleep in currently.
Flying: Given only to dreams were I somehow fly myself without using a vessel of any kind.
Weapon: Given to dreams which include somehow unusual/special weapons.
Extreme Weather: Given to dreams with tornadoes, thunderstorms, meteor-storms, etc...

The Black Hand [5-8-2012] - I was awaken by a darker than black hand attached to a darker than black arm that was knocking on my forehead. It pulled itself into the wall just behind my head when I opened my eyes.

[5-7-2012] - "It's in the middle of the ocean." I have no idea what or which ocean.

Feeling People's Fear [4-28-2012] - So I went to my niece's birthday party and as I was sitting at a table eating, a lady walked over with her kids. She looked at me and I literally felt the fear run through her for a split second. It originated from her brain and went down through her neck, chest and faded as it entered her abdomen. Usually I can tell if someone is afraid of me by their actions but this is the first time I've ever felt it. People often tell me that I look mean or I look like I'd kill someone without giving it a second thought. I'm not like that at all...

[5-6-2012] - "The Baltic Grey."

[5-6-2012] - "I saw that movie 24 times."

Cloaking Boomerang UFO [5-5-2012] - As my brother and I were working on fixing my car today, I just happened to look up above the trees and catch a boomerang shaped UFO uncloaking and then recloaking. It this process was extremely fast and I don't think I saw it for no more than a second. The craft was moving very slowly from my left to my right and it wasn't very big. From wing to wing--it was probably about the length of two pickup trucks.

The Children [5-5-2012] - Heard a voice this morning upon waking that said "two of the children were here."

Who Am I? [5-4-2012] - So I asked my subconscious "Who am I?" as I lay awake in bed right after waking this morning. My eyes were closed. I immediately went into a minor trance and it was as if I was watching TV. I saw and heard a congregation of people singing a beautiful song and they were swaying back and forth. It looked like they were in a church or a similar building. My attention was specifically focused on a young girl of perhaps 12 or so with long blonde hair for whatever reason. I don't think they spoke English.

Meldoras - The White Planet [5-5-2012] - I had a vision as I lay awake in bed this morning regarding the White Planet I had dreamt of previously. I heard a voice say "Meldoras" two times.

E.T. Friend Invitation [5-5-2012] - I felt and heard an electric shock in between my eye brows when I received a friend invitation as I lay awake in bed this morning. I saw a flash and an image of a large I.D. Card with the face of a Tall White in the lower left hand corner. There was information written on the right side of the card but it faded before I had a change to read it.

Mass Download Overload [5-5-2012] - I saw a flash and a vision of the cosmos when someone attempted to upload an insane amount of information regarding the universe and all intelligent being types to my brain. I was forced to cancel the transaction because my brain couldn't handle all the info.

[Unknown Date] - You will be leaving this Solar System soon.

The Holy Grail [5-4-2012] - Many collectors claim to have the real Holy Grail in their possessions, however, the real one is in Algeria, Africa. Whoever has this one is the true bearer.

Strange Sound [5-3-2012] - Ever since Sunday or so, I've been hearing a strange sound inside my head. It sounds like a rope that's been overly tightened. As I'm laying down, I can hear and feel this sensation sometimes behind my left eye, my right eye, inside my ears, or at the back of my head.

[5-3-2012] - "The Earth is 17 Billion years old."

Me: "I wonder if every single individual human being on Earth has their own E.T. Guide."
Response: "You're about to find out in a moment."
The Following Day: Then on the very same day [5-2-2012] I saw an apparition in front of a window that was right next to me. It looked like a large transparent vertical oval shaped thing that was flashing really fast. That experience lasted about a good two seconds.

"Dahreb" - I was this guy during my battle with the giant cavemen.

"Frank Jacobson and Robert Johnson" - I don't know these people.

"Cambrian Johnson" - think this guy has something to do with the government.

"Worsons. It's the Worsons." - I had a dream that I was this tribal member named Netelus. I wanted to know the name of his tribe. I heard this the next morning.

"3,000" - Something to do with aura levels. I forget.

"Earth's magnetic field shift is real." - I saw this sentence flash before my eyes and either I or somebody else read it.

"Today, not yesterday, I received a good grand of wealth." - Which I DIDN'T! I saw this sentence while my eyes were closed and someone read it to me. "Not yesterday" was italicized.

"7-3-1" - Still don't know what this means. The voice spoke each number slowly as I was lying down with my eyes open. I guess it kinda sounded like a woman.

"Oda Nobunaga" - I had been reading about a guy who claims to be in contact with an E.T. named Milton. IF this Milton character exists, I wanted to know if he played the role of a human here on Earth in the distant past. I heard this the next morning.

"God, that's not going to work on me." - I heard this one morning as I lay in bed immediately after waking up.

"Leave me alone, Medina." - I think this 'Medina' person is the blonde girl I keep dreaming about. Possibly my spirit guide. I heard this immediately after waking up one morning.

I saw the name "Lucifer" flash while I had my eyes closed. I doubt it has any relation to the one mentioned in the Bible.

Subconscious Voice #1 - "Dragons are not justice."
Subconscious Voice #2 - "Dragons ARE juustice!"

I recall a scene from the Game of Thrones where Daenerys Targaryen (Dragon Lady) was telling a merchant guy that if he doesn't let her and her people into his city, she will burn it down when her dragons are grown.

Couldn't tell if #1 one was mine but I think that #2 was even though I had no control over it. I just listened. Then a gush of air poured out of my nostrils but it didn't come from within. It sounded like a damn serpent, lol. I was like "well, that's interesting."

I dreamt about being in an ancient city that had its own pyramids. A "Super Atlantis" of sorts. When I woke up, a subconscious voices told me that that city was called Béruléyra (sounded like "bay-ru-lay-rah").

Something about me being a Shinigami. [Too much Bleach?]

"You're one of the Dark Seven." - Heard this as I lay awake after waking up one morning. Too much Bleach I guess.

I heard laughter after I woke up from a dream and felt as though someone poked me in the eyes right before I opened them. It didn't hurt at all though.

After I awoke from the "Learn Fear, Use Fear, Control Fear" dream, I heard the voice of what sounded like a regular guy. Perhaps a military man. He was saying that "the economy is really messed up right now. The E.T.'s are the sad ones." I was half asleep the whole time as this was going on. Then I heard sort of a metallic voice speaking and it was saying something but I didn't quite catch it. And then it said "Call out to the grave from within."

I tried to share dream with Wana and Hukif. I think I failed, They may of been in my dream, But I don't know what they look like.

Anyway, Here we go.

I dreamt I was on a plane, A jumbo commercial jet to be exact. Terrorists had took it over and flew it up in the sky, towards space, And me and someone else where fighting them. At one point in this fiasco, The plane went into a nose dive and everyone was floating from such a dive. So some person gave me a wrist gravity controller. I put this wrist gravity controller on And the person whom gave it to me said "Be careful with this, Because the wrist gravity controller can screw up your personal gravity" I put it on anyway,And I headed towards the planes cockpit.

Now the plane was heading towards space again. I remember feeling pressure from the plane rising, And the plane made a sort of sonic boom as it entered space, The journalists in the seats made no expression, They were all still, Soulless, Which I thought was strange. I went to the cockpit and it was empty, I used my gravity wrist thing and automatically knew where the person was, He was invisible. So I swished my arm about and he went flying banging against the cockpit walls. But it was all in a computer game manner a banana and orange appeared on his body, to let me know I had hurt him, If that makes any sense? That was it, In that dream.


The dream before this one, was me in my old house, My sister had just brought it, It was back to it's former beautiful self. I remember the neighbours being noisy. So since my sister had all this money, I asked her why doesn't she buy the neighbours house so we can have a peaceful neighbourhood. She started shouting over something like how how she has bad credit now, For making a insurance claim. Before she could buy that house, She would have to wait 20 years. I was happy about this house, My mother started shouting saying the new house wasn't home, and she wanted to move back to our current house in waking life.

There was one dream where I was in my bedroom of this old house, My sister brought and I had some poster and it had and on the poster it had something that someone wanted... I folded it up, Which was a pain, And hide it. ii remember the result of me hiding it changed the scene of the dream to a transformer as it was jumping out underneath the sand and did it's transforming, I know it wasn't happy. That's all I remember.

Now to the first dream. In terms of vividness, This was the best. I went to a corner shop, In the city, Where it was cold and raining I went into the shop, where there where lots of Muslims in it. I then remember the shop keeper said when I went to pay for the sweets and drink I wanted was said : On the house for your sister" I was happy, As it was a full white bag. I went outside and went to the apartment building where we lived. The guy at the apartment doors opened them to me, He had a reddish hat on. When I entered it, It was pure glistening clear cream marble, Which reflected the artificial light from the light bulbs. It was vivid. But a dream non the less. Men and women where in black suits. It felts like this building was a business area, as well as apartments. I just sat outside the elevator because I forgot what floor we lived on. People looked at me as if I was crazy that I didn't know what floor I lived on, Then I seen the old fashion elevator arrow pointer dial that was gold move towards zero from the seventh floor. The elevator doors opened, My sister ran towards me to grab the bad of food I had in my hand. As well as giving me a hug. She said: "You idiot, What you doing down here?" I replied: "I forgot what floor we lived on" She had a weird look on her face as if she thought I was a weirdo.

That's all I remember!

I was inside my house, and I became lucid but forgot how. I went into the washroom and drank some water out of the tap and did the nose pinch RC to make sure I was dreaming. I then proceeded to run up my stairs while wondering why I wasn't flying to the top. I got outside on my balcony and started swinging on something and singing a song about the night, and how I wish it was bright and sunny out.

I then saw my car and a bunch of other cars in a parking lot, and went up to them. Before sitting in mine, I decided to check out the white truck far away from me, and I believed it would open despite being locked, and it did. I went inside and went for a drive, and purposely crashed into a car which lead to many other crashes and a wreck at some plaza. I then RC'ed again to make sure I was still dreaming

Type: Regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

I was in some kind of warehouse that was filled with boxes, and it almost looked like a location from the Halo games. The lighting was very good, because the large windows let in lots of light from outside. (From my vantage point I could only see blue skies outside the windows, so I didn't know where I was supposed to be). There were a few people around whom I didn't recognize, just minding their own business, not really doing anything. I was walking towards the center of the room, where a large wooden crate with metal trim was present. It was rectangular in shape, a good 10x5x5 feet in dimension, and it was propped up on its end, so it was very tall. It was surrounded by a few other metal crates which had large chains wrapped around them, each complete with the a large silver padlock.

"I know who did it!" I yelled, supposedly to someone who was sitting on top of the rectangular crate, although I couldn't see them up there. There was no response, but my dream-self believed that the person did indeed say something, so I continued. "What this man did was wrong and vile, and we must do something!"

I looked on the left of the crate to see my sister walking towards me with a disconcerted and fazed expression on her face. I walked towards her, and we hugged each other. Somehow, I knew that she had been kidnapped and made to perform very bad acts in front of a camera, held of course by the kidnapper. Her friend was also forced to do this stuff, but they had run away at an inopportune moment.

"It was [my boyfriend's name]!" I shouted after we let go of each other. "He is a sick person! He must be killed!"

The dream fast-forwarded a little. Now, I was sitting on a very short wooden crate in front of one of the large windows, and my sister was nowhere to be found. I looked into the center of the room and saw that the large crate was gone. In its place was a very clean, neat drawing of a large black circular ring, which was probably five feet in diameter. My boyfriend was standing in the middle with his hands behind his back, and he looked at me pleadingly, but didn't speak. I scowled at him and said, "you really think I'll tell the truth?" At this point in the dream, I knew that he didn't actually commit the crime against my sister and her friend, but I was mad at him for some other unknown reason (a petty one, though), so I wanted revenge.

I don't want to describe what happened next. All I'll say is that a man with an axe came in, my boyfriend got on his knees, and there was blood. Albeit the blood was more like dark powder that burst and dispersed into the air, fading away.