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It’s sometime near Christmas. But there’s this Halloween movie coming out … which kind of looks like The Nightmare Before Christmas, only less Christmasy. And my mom is complaining like, “Why would there be a Halloween movie on Christmas?” But then she and I decide to go see it anyway.
While we’re getting ready to leave I write down a bunch of ideas I apparently have for poems. I don’t remember what they all are, but one of them was going to be about Nicolas Cage. Ha …
My mom gives me and my little siblings these chocolate milk box things. I start drinking mine, but it tastes funny. I look at the label to see if it has an expiration date on it. I can’t find one, but it has this thing on the back which tells you what color the milk turns when it’s rotten. Apparently if it’s rotten, it turns yellowish green or something. But it’s still a normal color, so I figure I’m safe.
And yeah. That’s about it.

Last night, I had a dream about my old neighbors dog dying. Then my Mom stressed that our dog would die soon. (That's all I can remember though)

I am sitting on my back porch looking into the woods when I see an INTENSE white light descending from the sky. My first thought is UFO, but as it settles on the ground I think that it looks more like the moon rising. I think to myself "How would i be able to see the moon rise through the trees?"Holy shit I am dreaming!!! My heart started beating extremely fast and I woke up

I am on a search and rescue team with my family in the middle of a forest. they are in a lower areas and I am on an elevated part. I climb down a wooden wall-thing, and see a spider in the dead center. I feel a tinge of fear, but I hold on and keep climbing down.

we regroup, and are about to call it a day. I don't want to give up yet, I look inside myself, and feel the presence of someone in a southwesternly direction (assuming I am facing north.) everyone agrees to seach there and then call it a day, we head in that direction.

I am the last to arrive. one member of the group is calling on what seems like a cell phone. the missing person answers and says something like, "Be quiet! the spiders are fighting and it's getting good!" I tell him to count his fingers, he might be dreaming. he says he counts 11, is he dreaming? I tell him not to jump off the cliff, but he might be. try throwing some fire or something. he tries, but if he did, I didn't see it. I tell him to count again, he counts 12. I tell him I want to see this.

When we meet up, he is a bald midget with chubby fingers. I try to count his fingers, but he keeps waving them around in strange ways, and I can't keep focused on them. I tell him he must be lying, but then I start waking up. he shruggs, as if saying, "Tried to tell you" when I am almost awake, my first thought is a friendly, "Oh you little bastard..."

Ok so the dream began with me sneaking out in fron tof Lady GAGAs house and then I heard noises in the background going "she crazy go away, get out of there" but i didn't listen then she jumped out of her window and started shooting me with a gun, then I woke up in a hospital bed. and whats funny is they gave me a mechanical eye then the next second I found myself in school, then I told my friends thats weird I dont remember getting here. Then the dream ended and I woke up.

I'm awake several hours before usual because my little girl had nightmares as well last night and just couldn't get back to sleep. As a result, I only have two dreams to share right now, and the first one is merely a fragment.

All I can remember of the first dream is an outdoor maze. It's made from stone just taller than my head, and it's outside in some sort of garden. There's broken stone and grass creeping up all around it. Also, the colors in the dream were really bright and cartoony. Thinking back, it's very similar to the garden walls when you go through in The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time to meet Princess Zelda in terms of colors. There's also a girls face that was in my mind when I woke. She's not someone I recall ever seeing before. She had chin length blond hair, and was smiling with her face tilted to the side like anime/video game characters ofte do, and that's all I can remember.

The Second Dream: My second dream is more of the type I usually have, where everything seems super realistic, but I'm not aware I'm dreaming and there are all kinds of fantastical things happening. It starts out I'm in a local historical town with my best friend Ambies who in reality lives several states away. The town is small, only about 5 blocks, and the buildings are all about 2-4 stories high made of brick back in the early 1900's late 1800's. There's an courthouse in the center of town that now serves as a museum of the towns history. The lighting and colors in this dream are very creepy, like the Legend of Sleepy Hollow movie with Johnny Depp in it. Ambies is walking, but I am on this big zero turn lawn mower that makes a ridiculous amount of noise and vibrates like crazy. We turn left around the corner of the court house, and I see a man in a suit with a grey bird perched on his finger posing for a picture. The photographer is my step dad, and he's using an old looking tin box type camera. The bird flies up off the mans finger, and hoovers at the mans hat until the man lifts his finger higher and the bird perches again. I can hear the man and my step dad talking about the picture, just typical "Almost finished" and "this bird and I go way back" type comments. I stop the lawn mower to avoid scaring the bird, and tell Ambies, "That's Brad, lets go talk to him when he's done talking to that man." When they are done talking, the man tips his hat before turning around and walking off. My step dad bends down and picks up a bag off the ground before turning around and walking off himself, in the opposite direction. I start up the lawn mower and starts to follow him. I call out to him, he turns and looks at me, then keeps walking as though he doesn't know me. I stop the lawn mower and tell my best friend that it's weird he didn't recognize me. She says that it's been almost a year since I've seen him, he probably didn't recognize me because of my hair cut. I nod and tell her she's probably right, and we follow him around another left corner. I catch up to him, and yell his name again. He turns around and looks at me again, and says, "Oh hey! I didn't recognize you with your hair so short!" Then he turns into my biological dad. He says he is taking pictures to test out this neat old antique camera he found and asks me if I'd like to have my picture taken. I say sure, as long as I don't have to hold still for long because holding still is pretty much impossible for me. He laughs and says, "Yeah, you've never been able to hold still, ever since you were a kid, all you do is run run run and get into trouble like a little monkey!" we all three laugh, then he says he will take my picture in a moment, but he needs to use the bathroom first. He asks if we need to as well, and we say yeah. He leads up to the right this time across the street and where the bank is is normal life, there's a big bath room building. All I see is a ladies room, I don't see a men's room, and my dad walks into the ladies room. I kind of freak out internally thinking he's not supposed to be in here! Then I wonder if it'll make Ambies uncomfortable that if she has to pee my dad will be in a stall nearby. Then I realize Ambies isn't there anymore. I hear a flush, and my dad disappears into the first stall just as a lady walks out of one of the stalls towards the back. The lady is one of my aunts. She says, "Hey! I didn't think I'd meet you here! What are you up to?" My dad hisses from his stall, "Don't tell her I'm here!" and apparently I'm the only one who hears, so I try to lamely make something up and tell her I am just walking around looking at the scenery. She nods, and then changes the subject to the baby clothes I recently gave her daughter (my cousin) for her little girl since my own daughter has outgrown them. She tells me how lovely they were, and that they had so much fun going through the bag and looking at them and how cute her grand daughter is going to look wearing them. Then she tells me she has to get going and tells me to have fun, I thank her, say I will, and bye! Then As she leaves, there's a flush and my dad steps out of the stall. We start hearing a lot of noise outside. It's really loud, like a roaring sound, so we rush out to see what's going on. We don't see my aunt, but what we do see is crazy strong wind, big black clouds in the sky, pouring rain and the streets are flooded up to my knees. Also, the buildings have changed, they've stretched three times their height and become real "big city" type buildings. The courthouse is the tallest building of all, and strongly resembles a real building in a city about a hour from where I am. There's nothing behind this row of buildings though, no other buildings or trees or anything, just black clouds and grey sky as far as I can see. Then a boat is coming in from the Distance. A fairly large tug boat looking boat. The bottom of the boat is black and rubbery looking, and it is blown into the building that was once the courthouse. All at once the wind blows even stronger and literally lifts the boat up, scraping it along the back side of the building until it reaches the top. It teeters at the top, upside down for a moment, then there's a loud moaning sound as it starts flipping again and falls towards us in front of the building. I duck ad dive forwards, and the boat crashes behind me before somehow being carried away by this water that's only knee deep. I sigh in relief and tell my dad that was crazy! he nods, but then says, "Watch out!" and points to the building. This time there's another boat, but it's HUGE, like cruise liner sized, and it's blown against all of the buildings. The wind keeps blowing it, and the water surges beneath it, slowly pushing it up the back sides of the buildings, until it too reaches the top. I think for sure we are screwed, there's no way we can dodge a boat that big and as heavy as it must be it'll probably land closer to the buildings than the tug boat that just barely missed us. There are several creaking sounds, and the tops of the buildings begin to collapse, then the wind blows extra hard and miraculously blows the boat over us so close that if I hadn't been ducking in fear I could have reached up and touched it. The water splashes behind us, and I see myself in third person for a moment and notice my hair is shoulder length again (in real life it's not even past my ears) then I'm back inside myself and standing up. I'm shaking, but before I can be relieved again, I look up at the buildings, and they are blowing to pieces. Beams and windows and panels of some kind are raining down around us, I'm leaning left and right and forwards and backwards, avoiding the debris like Neo from the matrix, only no where near as calm and confident. As the last of the buildings collapse, my phone starts ringing. I think it odd that my phone is ringing, with all the crazy things going on, a ringing phone seems too normal and every day. I answer the phone, and it's my grandmother. She asks if I'm alright, and I say yeah, we're in the storm, but somehow we aren't hurt yet. She tells me that the whole town I'm in is being evacuated and that I should come to her house about 20 minutes away by car to seek shelter. I thank her, but tell her I'm going to find shelter closer to where I am because I don't have a car and I don't want to be out in the open during this insane storm. She tells me that she understands, and to just be careful. I tell her I will and hang up the phone. I turn to my dad to tell him we need to find shelter, and that's when I was woken up by my daughter screaming in her bed because she had a nightmare with a "Vewry vewry scarddy monster"

No dream recall.

I even asked my mind to wake me up at around 3:45 AM instead of relying on the online alarm I use as a backup, but it wakes me up around 5 AM instead....then somehow, I dosed off and woke up around 6:45 AM but slept again and woke up around 8 AM.

I just had images in my head, but now I forgot them....damn it...

Good morning, everybody.

Dream #1

I was in a museum with enormous rooms. The paintings were also enormous. The walls of the rooms may have been twenty or so meters tall. The paintings were just as tall.

I may have been with a group of people, possibly a school group. But I had broken off from them for some reason or another, and I was now walking around by myself.

But I was afraid to go into any of the rooms very far. The paintings on the walls were so gigantic. I was afraid they'd fall on me and smash me. So I could barely go beyond the threshold into rooms.

One room was kind of dimly lit, like from a dirty set of windows in the ceiling. I saw a pair of paintings in the room. The paintings were, I told myself, either by Goya or El Greco.

The paintings had the same subject: a young man in rich attire, something like pink, satin pants and a white shirt. The paintings stood opposite each other in a kind of side niche in the room. I wanted to examine the paintings closer, but I was too afraid of them falling on me.

I left this room -- I think -- and went into another room. The paintings were also huge in this room. But I may have been getting braver about being around the paintings, and I may have stepped quite a few meters into the room.

But now I looked up and saw that there were also paintings in the ceiling, the rest of the ceiling being made out of thick, ornate wood, like in the Rose Reading Room of the New York Public Library. I was now afraid of the ceiling paintings falling on me. They seemed like they'd be heavier than the wall paintings.

Dream #2

It was a greyish day. I was either treading water in a river, moving backwards slowly in a small boat, like a rowboat, in a river, or standing on a walkway through or at the edge of a river.

I may at first have been with a group of older, well-off people, like a tour group. But I'd broken away from the group a bit. The group were all walking along the walkway.

The river was wide, and at the other end of it was a big, kind of square, building. The building faced the river directly, starkly: it may even have been a bit cantilevered over the river.

The building was made of some kind of white stone, but the front of it, or the side facing the river, was of slightly tinted glass. This windowed section curved around the sides of the building as well, giving the white stone of the building a kind of backwards "C" shape.

I knew that the building was an art museum. It was the Art Museum of Mexico or the Mexico Museum of Art. It was a very good and nice museum. But it was also used -- especially the enormous room overlooking the river -- by drug cartels for arranging certain deals.

People liked to visit the museum. But people who went there were always afraid. You always had to be careful not to hear things, or at least not to act like you heard things. And you couldn't offend any person in any way. If you offended someone or acted like you'd overheard some drug deal being arranged, you could be killed.

But for some reason I was feeling defiant. I was going to go into the museum and I wasn't going to act afraid at all. Besides, it was the Mexico Museum of Art. It was full of great works of art. I'd be really disappointed in myself if I didn't see the art works there.

Dream #3

I was in some building. I was near a staircase. Apparently I'd always come here to this place to read. Other people did, too. But I'd come to have a favorite spot for reading on the staircase. And I'd read there all the time.

There were some guys who'd decided to follow me around. They thought I was really smart. They were jealous of me. They wanted to figure out everything I was doing and studying. They thought if they read everything I read, they could get smarter than they thought I was.

One of these guys was an old, kind of tall, white man with a big belly. He wore nice slacks and a nice button-up shirt. He saw I was heading toward the staircase to read. So he either took the place I always took or took a place a few steps higher than my place. Wherever he sat, his plan was to look down at what I was doing, so he could do it, too, and hopefully beat me at it.

I tried to figure out what to do. I didn't really care if people knew what I was doing. I tried to be open about that. But I felt annoyed. I may have thought I'd hide whatever I was doing, just to annoy the man back a little. Or I may have thought I'd just act unperturbed, like the man didn't bother me, or didn't exist at all.

14.02.2012

This is a dream. (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Moon: Waning
100mg b6 taken

Massive Lucid Dream!

I'm with Breah in a mansion and I know that I'm dreaming

I look at her and tell her that she's dreaming too, and she looks around a little bit and says,

"Really?"

"This is a dream, this is a dream, this is a dream.."
I say.

"Look at your hands. They're not yours."

When she does, she looks baffled!

"They're purple!"

I look at my hands too and they are all bent and twisted.

Finally she believes me.

I want to show her something cool, so I grab her by the hand and try to open up a portal. It doesn't work the first time, but the next try it works!

I open a portal to a wheat field, and the sky is yellow and has many nebulaes and galaxies in it.

I start flying around really fast and she follows.

We fly all the way to this "Secret Base" type place that might be on the moon, I'm not really sure.

I'm standing with Breah in front of a huge TV screen when I notice that her body is fading.

"You're waking up now, remember to write down your dreams right when you get up! Wake up and remember your dreams, and write them down!"

"Bye!"
She yells.

I start levitating and sit cross-legged in the air. I notice a very bright yellow-white light coming from my right, and I think about meditating.

Just then I remember Hukif's Gravity RC, and sure enough when I feel the weight of my legs, it's warped!!

Suddenly I look around and appreciate how stable this dream is. I didn't have to do anything. It's like reality!

I look up at the screen and a huge menu appears. On the left hand side of the screen there are 3 separate buttons that have info on them. Each one represents a different dreaming task or problem that I can accomplish. The first one is about a stupid monkey that's kinda like Mojo Jojo.
I can't remember the second.
The third is an evil mastermind that wants to conquer the world.

I can scroll through these using willpower alone and it will give me a speech and text on the screen telling me what is being said.

As I'm listening, I summon a wand and start shooting energy bolts around, and start playing with various spells.

I end up flying around and loosing control and following a path on a harry potter rollercoaster ride.
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I'm at a huge house party, on every story there is a different party. I help an Asian lady get away from these creepers at this party and stand with her in an elevator. We start to make out. Later on I webcam her.
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I'm a chef and I'm in this kitchen. There are about 5 other chefs there and we're all a team; we have a task to do and we have to make great food together.
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Someone offers me a kitty cat, and says that it's great in florida and that it's good if you have a Nintendo 64, too. I say Yes! and take it. It's cuuuuuuuuuute
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With Zac. We have to defend this area from attacking enemies. There are 5 bosses attacking at once, one of them is Lord Dredmor

I was in gym class. The period was over so we went ringer changed. I walked over to my backpack and found the luggage bag I bring to my dads on the weekends. I couldn't find a t shirt tu wear underneath my sweatshirt, so I just put it on anyway. Then I saw that I was already wearing a t shirt, which made me lucid.

Everyone was gone except my gym teacher. He was standing by me. I decided to try something different, transforming other people. I asked him to stand in the middle of the gym, and he listened. I thought about what to transform him into, and decided on a crocodile. I put my hands out and concentrated, and he dropped to the floor and became a crocodile. He looked more like a mix between a crocodile and one of these, though:


After that, the scenery began to change, and I was at some kind of zoo. I'm pretty sure this is where I lost full control, because I went around doing random things. I turned a monkey into a fish, but then realized it couldn't breathe so I switched it back. And then I lost lucidity completely. Inside one of the tanks was a plant that had golf balls attached to it, and it was on the ceiling.

Only fragments from last night but I believe I did accidentally set myself up for REM rebound since I didn't get to sleep until about midnight when I usually get to sleep at 10. Is that setting up for REM rebound? Not sure

Anyway the fragments are:

-There were some kids getting off of a minibus next door and they were all staring at me, then someone pulled a curtain across so I couldn't see them.

-The 4 lightbulbs in my room had blown so I went to ask my mum for some more

-Some kind of battle going on next to a huge pit

I saw mice in the wall, touch one of them,DILD, mice began to bite me and it was painfull,I jumped in the portal thinking to eskape from the mice. I landed somewere and began to look for a valentine to make the task of the month, and awoke.

mon February 13th 2012
0:00-5:00 ; 5:00-9:00

All in all, a rather special night to look back to.

1. I've been playing on the computer the whole night up until 7 am. My mom walks into my room and tells my dad I haven't gone to bed all night. I mention something about needing rubber bullets from my mathbook to play the game. My dad gets really upset, comes into my room and starts hitting me with the mathbook while I'm in bed. At the last hit I scream (irl) "AAIEE" and wake up.

This was a vague one
2. Me, my dad, mom and brother exit the subway. We cross the street, my brother is looking straight at his phone not noticing the car driving by him. There was no real threat to get hit, but we all freak out at him anyways. We blame the phone and take it away from him.

3. I'm making out with some girl on her bed when her pillow suddenly catches fire. It's glowing like charcoal with an occasional flare of fire. We try to smuther it and continue to make out. The fire pops up again and we rince-repeat. Then we try to dig down to the root of the problem. Seems like there is a half-opened computer case short circuiting under her bed. It's burning. We smuther that fire too. I mention "it would be easier just to cut the wiring to prevent the short circuit", she says "that might have been dangerous".

The art of relaxing the mind and the body while remaining aware, meditation is. Yeesssssss.

Crucial to learn to control the force, to keep the mind free from worries and concerns is.

This, Dooku learned to do, but his fear and from fear the evil grows he still had. Hmm..

Important to rember this is, to be feared, nothing in life is. Only to be understood, it is. Yesss.

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Yoda told me to be aware and the exercise he gave me was simple. He told me to sit on a rock with closed eyes and just focus on my breath. It sounded easy at first, but when I was sitting there my thoughts started to distract me and I lost focus on my breath. I even fell asleep on the first attempts of trying this...
Yoda felt my concern and said "Try to do it, do not, do or do not, there is no try. Try another word of doing not it is."
I thought I understood, but the key was to not judge myself, and to think of myself in thirdperson like I were the one teaching my other self. So if I started to think thoughts like "This is stupid, Yoda is wrong this doesn't help me at all" just be aware of yourself thinking that and neither like it or dislike it, I just regain my focus on the breath. That includes all thoughts even if they are positive like "Yes I am doing it, I am meditating without caring". If I am doing this I am still thinking, but the goal is not to stop thinking that's impossible, the goal is to be aware.

Figure out what made Dooku afraid later on I can not, but something physical from this would I am sure that it was not.

Prepared him more, should I have. Hmm..

First

There is some free japanese course video that I’ve found online. I’m watching it with F, but not really learning much. The stuff seems familiar and the course is in Swedish. It’s good to review, though.

Second

This was actually a rather long dream, but with nothing much happening. I was mostly just looking out the window and walking about.

I’m in a conference center. I’ve been watching a video in one of the seminar rooms on the third floor. When I look out the window I notice it’s late. There is a tall building opposite to the one I’m in, on the other side of the yard.

I go down the stairs to find someone. The lobby is very high and grandiose. I don’t find them, but I notice that the building on the other side of the yard is not visible from the first floor. A waiter tries to offer me a drink, but I refuse. I go back up to see if the building is still there, but don’t get there before I wake up.