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I work 14 hour days about half the time. I often must heavily sedate myself to get enough sleep. I took ambien, antihistamines and a glass of wine. Tried to WILD but passed out almost at once. I slept 7 hours and barely have fragments of recall. I do not have a way around this on certain nights. Darn!

Well, I went to bed last night fairly drunk from red wine and having taken a few small hits of JWH-250. I'm sure this had some effect on my dreams but it's hard to say, though there was something pretty interesting at the end of the night!

Fragment - I remember being in some hotel filled with water and a manatee swimming around, and you had to get to some other private room above the main one I was in by climbing along a ledge on wall, but that was also where the manatee mates and it gets mad at you for being up there so it tries to attack you while you're doing it. I also remember that when I reached the room there were voices of Family Guy characters saying really random stuff. I also recall hearing the phrase "twelve year olds without sex".

Fragment - I just remember being in a chat room with Seroquel and OldSparta.

Fragment - I'm looking after some guy (perhaps handicapped? he seemed incredibly child-like) and trying to be buddies with him, I was showing him some anime movies which weren't real but looked pretty interesting. The only other thing I remember is that the TV had two separate volume systems that you had to make work together to control the sound. >.>

#1 - A Crazy Night [Non-Lucid]

This occurred almost immediately after the last fragment, I was awake for probably a second or two. I was walking through a store with O and talking to him about getting drunk and losing my clothes and how I'd probably never find them, and O says "Yeah, I think the neighbors saw you." During this this one guy I knew in high school came by and asked us if we worked there but we said no, so he walked off.

#2 - The Patrick Effect [Non-Lucid]

I was in my dad's car with my family (but my mom was driving) and we were driving down what I perceived as our alleyway, but it was actually nothing like it, it was like a dirt road with bright green grass hills on each side and a bunch of little shacks with cars parked all around them, and no fences of any kind. The car breaks down when we pull off to the side, and we stand outside with a bunch of other people for a minute, then it jumps forward to that night at my house and we're having a huge party. I think the party is centered around me somehow, actually. I get tired of being in the den and kitchen where most of the commotion is, so I go into the living room to hang out with O, a random girl I don't know, and another DC that frequently changes throughout the rest of the dream. We started talking about music, and I'm trying to tell the random DC about one song that's really good but I couldn't remember what it was called, but the girl reminded me. (It's "Layla", though in the dream I thought of it as "Leila". )



I went out to the kitchen and den again to see everyone had gone outside so I wasn't too worried about playing loud music, and I tried to put it on by going to YouTube and typing it in, but instead I found... the most amazing thing I've ever seen in a dream. On the screen were characters from SpongeBob SquarePants, with an especially large focus on Patrick (and I think maybe Squidward). They were all quickly jumping all around the screen (mostly one character at a time, though) and ranging from really close to really far away and performing very random movements and actions, and muttering things that were definitely in their voices but completely inaudible, it was like total delirium. While they were doing these things, the entire screen was engulfed in gear-patterned-type kaleidoscopes of sky blue light distortions and tendrils that pulsed heavily and emanated from a blindingly bright white vortex in the center of the screen. The characters and background scenery were dragged along with and twisted and bent by these distortions, and overall the scene was just like some unbelievably massive acid trip. Staring at it for too long caused a grid of Pokémon to form in my vision, and I looked away to see everyone else in the room staring at it in awe. My dad had also come into the room and sat down at the table and was marveling at it. I looked back at it and just stared some more because I couldn't bring myself to look away, it was so beautiful. The Pokémon grid thing started happening again, and suddenly I realized that I was shirtless. I went into my room to put something on, and started thinking about how I was going to spend countless hours watching the screen and seeing how far I can dive into my mind with it, but then I woke up.

I am now officially dubbing this "The Patrick Effect" and making it one of my lucid goals to recreate this effect in a dream. I never expected my mind to create such a powerfully accurate psychedelic effect in my dreams, I must use this subconscious ability as much as possible!

02.27.2012

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Zhaylin???

I was riding my bicycle randomly within my University, and I saw Zhaylin or someone who looked like her inside some huge vehicle, probably a Hummer or something of the sort. She was smiling at me, and I don't know what I did after that.

However, the dream shifts to where I asked Zhaylin if she wanted to mix Dragon Bones with something. I think she didn't want to do anything else with me anymore, but I don't know the things we did exactly.



The last thing I remember was thinking to myself that it would help get her Prayer up in Runescape if she did want to use Dragon Bones.

I think she giggles and wants to get out of the area that we're in.

Dream 2: Someone Tricks me

Apparently, I'm choosing things on some screen, and apparently they were being saved, and at the end of the little test I had to do, I've been given a horrible score on one part of the exam.

I've been given a 1, but I forgot what part it was, maybe it was on Morale or something of the sort. Then a DC that looks a lot like my father's friend. Let's call him "Rupe."

He was explaining how what I entered would affect my performance somewhere, but I can't remember what exactly, all I know is that I was panicking like mad.

But to make sure that the DC didn't pick up on me being paranoid to potentially saturate my mind with more worries, I immediately shifted to being neutral in my demeanor and asked him a random question.

At first I wanted to say how long it would take for me to obtain a Bachelor's Degree, but I immediately pause before saying Bachelor, and asked him how long it would take to get another degree (I forgot what type I asked him about).



He said that it would take me 7 years to get the degree that I forgot I asked him about. (Of course, this is assuming with undergraduate studying (4 years), I'll get it in 3 years after).

I guess that might be a good thing since I'll be getting whatever it is early? But I'm also concerned about the validity of this random test that I took on the screen.

I saw components like dream recall, which led me to assume that this was probably just how I remember my dreams and how I apply them to certain fields of writing/typing them down I guess.

Dream 3: Science Review Game

I'm sitting on the top level of a large lecture room with some random DCs. I see a blue screen in front of me, and the teacher that I can't recall their facial features, was about to start a review game for something.



Some random questions came up and the teacher had a horrible method of verifying if a certain team got something right or not, people simply raised their hands, and I guess he took that as a right answer or something when he asked "Who had this?"" etc.

I asked the DC to the right,

"What team are we on?"

He replies, "Blue."

After that, I look at the environment a little bit before waking up.

I was pretty glad the second dream was just a dream, because it felt like it was related to college, and I was this close from going insane for some reason, even though I tried to fake my calmness towards this DC.

I checked the definition of Morale again just to make sure the dream wasn't too random:

mo·rale/məˈral/

Noun:The confidence, enthusiasm, and discipline of a person or group at a particular time

Well that explains things, I guess this dream was basically telling me that I'm not motivated to do great things now.

Maybe it's a sign or not, I'm not too sure, but I have been thinking about giving up a lot lately. I just don't see myself anywhere good in the near future.

There's something strange going on. People are dying and nobody knows why it's happening. Something like "the happening." I'm at home with my brother and his girlfriend. There's this big ape trying to enter our home. I'm throwing a bone or something to distract him. He can't help himself from getting the bone and I have time to lock the doors. It got really close locking the second door: the ape almost got in. I'm still scared that he'll get in by smashing a window or something. I'm convinced that he'd kill all of us if he gets into the house. I see him racing around the house through the windows but then he suddenly disappears. My dad, mom and sisters arrive now as well. We have to hurry up to get out of there. Everyone is packing his stuff together. Mom tells me not to forget my jacket and I take my old sisters ski-jacket which was hanging on a chair. Then Anso, Isa, my parents and myself get into the car. My dad tells us to hurry up. We have to go to the pharmacy to get the remedy or something. I'm worried that if we come back that it'll be too late.

I had a dream that was related to school, (I’m not there anymore so it could definitely be a dream sign for me!)

What I can remember from it was that it was another period, P.E. I remember going in to get changed, but then my bag went missing. My bag had my P.E clothes in it, so I had to find it. I went into the toilet where I found it had been flushed!

Luckily it wasn't small enough to be flushed completely, so I pulled the end, and got my bag back out.

I decided to try using aniracetam as a sleep aid last night, I'm not totally sure if it had an effect yet but my dreams did seem different than normal. I took 750 mg, maybe I'll try 1500 mg tonight. I did manage to remember a good few more dreams than normal, but I think that's mainly because I decided to stay in bed and keep falling asleep again for longer.

#1 - The Water Slide Accident [Non-Lucid]

I'm at some public pool working as part of some "water-raising" experiment. (Like literally... I think all we were trying to do was increase the water level in the pool. ) There was a gigantic rectangular tent at the top of a long water slide on one end of the pool, and I climbed up the slide (somehow) and into the tent. In it was Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory, a couple other random people (maybe other characters from The Big Bang Theory but it's hard to remember), and my middle school orchestra teacher. Sheldon was doing something to conduct the experiment, and we all stepped forward to look out the window to see if the water in the pool was rising, but we shifted too much weight in the tent and it started slipping down the slide and into the pool. It was completely closed in and we were all freaking out thinking we might get trapped inside of it and drown. We hit the water and I expected to die, but somehow I made it up and slowly I saw everyone else popping up out of the water as well, including Linkzelda41, actually as Link! (For those not game-savvy, the character in his avatar.) I made sure everyone was okay but noticed that my teacher had never come up, and when he finally did he wasn't breathing. I went over to him and we dragged him out of the water and I started doing CPR, though without the mouth-to-mouth, just the chest thing. (The dream switched to third-person around this time, too.) I did it for a long time but it wasn't working, and I started crying but I didn't stop doing it. But he finally gasped and woke up! When he did I gave him a big hug and wouldn't let go. The dream jumped forward to me being in the hospital and getting prescribed some random drugs for... something, I guess mental trauma? :T I don't know, but the dream ended at that point.

#2 - Trapped In Darkness [Non-Lucid]

I'm home alone watching a movie almost totally in the dark, and the darkness is starting to creep me out a bit. I read online (or maybe heard from someone, or something...) about how some secret FBI agent or some other government agent on a plane accidentally stabbed someone they were sitting next to by activating a lightsaber unwittingly in his bag because it was built with an on switch that was too easy to access because the designer was lazy. I also remember that the lightsaber was red, because I actually saw it happen in a third-person kind of way. This had revealed to the world that the US government had successfully created lightsabers, so I texted J (who's a big Star Wars fan) about it and then read something about how they were launching a new moon into the sky to make up for it. I looked out back through the glass doors and saw a plane in the sky, so then I went out front and saw a rocket (really tiny) launch off in one direction across the sky, and a HUGE, absolutely gigantic moon launch off in the other direction, but from the same source. It went behind the house so I went back in and to the back yard, and looked straight up in the sky and saw it there, still enormous. All of the stars in the sky were constantly scrolling across it like the night sky was just a huge spinning wheel, but that didn't really seem to bother me much. The darkness outside was getting really thick though and it was still scaring me, so I went back inside and walked into the bathroom. I tried to turn on the light switch, but it wouldn't work. () That made me even more freaked out, so I ran out into the living room just generally frightened and hoping my mom and dad would be home soon, but then I woke up.

I'm never going to get better at doing RCs.

#3 - Dreaming About Sleep Paralysis? [Non-Lucid]

There's some presentation going on at my house in the den by some orchestra guy, with lots of orchestra teachers there sitting in rows of chairs, including my high school orchestra teacher. My friend J (the one I texted before) and his mom are also sitting way up at the front, right by the TV. The guy puts on a song and each of the teachers has a music sheet where they're supposed to be writing down the notes as they hear them, but almost none of them do, instead opting to wait until the end to just jot them all down, which I find pretty impressive at the time. After they all finished and walked away, I walked up to J and told him I thought I'd have some awesome news to tell him about lightsabers being real, but that turned out to be a dream. () He laughs, and we go out into the living room to hang out with some random girl and OpheliaBlue. We start watching a movie, and I can't remember what I was wearing but I just remember thinking of it as something really informal to the point that it would be embarrassing to be seen wearing it, and then the doorbell rang. I didn't want to answer it like that so I went into my bedroom to change, and that's when things got weird. My room was dark, and my fan was sticking out of the wall to the left of me when I walked in, but still running. My movements became incredibly jerky and snapped back as if I was in sleep paralysis with my eyes open, but honestly... I'm not sure if I actually was, or if I was just dreaming that I was. Part of the reason I think that is because I "realized" that I was in sleep paralysis, but I don't think I was really lucid about it, and I never realize it when I actually do wake up into it. I don't know though.... It was incredibly vivid, so maybe I was and I just realized it for half a second and then started hallucinating. Anyway, after the realization my vision switched to a third-person view from the perspective of the road in front of my house, looking up at a bunch of trees hanging over it (which aren't actually there). These trees were very mystically mechanical in their movements and had something that I call the "IMAX 3D" effect, which is something I get when I'm tripping really hard where everything is more detailed then anything in reality actually is. I started to wonder if I was on DXM, but then I started thinking that the doorbell ringing was probably just my parents coming home (since they were still gone from the previous dream, I guess) and I could've just answered it how I was. I saw that playing out in my mind's eye, but after that I woke up and noticed that my fan wasn't exactly in the same position in my view as it was when I thought I was in sleep paralysis, so... I just don't know.

#4 - Testing A New MMO [DILD]

I'm at my aunt and uncles' house. I don't remember much of the first part of the dream, but I end up going in the little kids room and slide across the floor in the weird way I do in dreams sometimes, and that warps me back to the front of the house. Some MMO has come out where you play the game in real life and you use these rifles that shoot green plasma bullets. I get one just to see how it is, and S ends up getting one too so he comes over to play it with me. We run around the house shooting at each other, and then I run back into the little kids room and end up doing the slide again. I say "Oh, this is a dream, isn't it?" and become lucid. Unfortunately, after this dream ended I didn't wake up enough to write it down, I fell back asleep and had some other non-lucid dream, and when I woke up again I tried to write down this one as quickly as possible but I still can't remember what happened after I became lucid, though something did happen. I also don't remember the other dream, either. Oh well....

#5 - An Intense Argument [Non-Lucid]

I get a hotel room for some reason with an old friend J (different J than before) and some guy who's just a random DC, but apparently a very close friend of mine. I'm trying to have a good time talking to both of them, but there seems to be a lot of tension between the two. (I know what this is based off of, it has to do with J. :T) They end up getting into a big argument and both strip naked to show their dominance. And then they start wrestling! One side of me is like, come on guys, don't do this, you're being childish.... :\ And the other side of me is like !!!! They break up the fight and the guy tells J to get out and not come back, so he does. I'm planning to go drop J off and come back to hang out with the guy, and I tell him it'll only take me about twenty minutes but he says he has to be at a football game in that same amount of time. So I say goodbye, and shake hands with his girlfriend (who just randomly appeared, and apparently I had just met) and hug him, and they left. J is texting me to hurry up, and I'm trying to switch from shoes to sandals for some reason but my socks are being illogically weird feeling and won't come off. Finally I just walk into the hallway, which is actually the music hall in my middle school (and the hotel room was where the orchestra room is) and I hear D's voice telling me we'll never make it in time because the middle school is right by the football game and the traffic will be terrible.

#6 - The Secret Codes [Non-Lucid]

This one shifts back and forth between first- and third-person a lot. I remember Hank from King Of The Hill talking to a group of kids about some (fictional) famous singer and guitarist's weird-sounding name and he corrects them on how to say it, and when they ask him how he knows he sighs and says "He told me." Somewhere in here there is a discussion about some gum or candy that you're supposed to chew if you're freaking out or having a bad trip. I remember that but not the visual of it. Then my dad and I are at a movie theater seeing some movie I can't remember anything about and it switched back to Hank, now in a flashback, walking around awkwardly at a concert or rave of some kind. He meets some young guy that turns out to be that musician who tells him how to say his name, then some weird "secret code" used in the gay community (I think specifically involving politics, which was definitely not real and very bizarre sounding, though I don't quite remember it). He walks off past John Redcorn who is on acid or something and freaking out, and he sees Hank but clearly isn't sure whether or not he's actually there and he says to himself "Where is that candy!?" Back at the theater, the movie's starting and my dad tells me more about the secret gay political codes claiming that the guy told him (I guess carried over from Hank) and I'm like "Uh-huh...." >_> Then back at the concert, John Redcorn is chewing on some of that bad trip candy and looks really happy, and he sees Hank again and they talk and he says he'll help Hank get out of there, because I guess he's lost somehow. Once again back at the theater, my dad is still going on and on more in-depth about these secret codes, and I'm like, seriously, I'm trying to watch the frickin' movie. >_____> And that was it lol.

Whew, that took a while to type up! At least a I was able to recall a lot, though.

LD11: In this one I had a very long running vivid non-lucid/ lucid mix. The dream went on for about an hour. In my real life I was contacted in a friendly manner, by an old friend who has been giving me nothing but contempt for 7 years. My brain wanted to fret over the subject in my dreams, even if I wanted a nice pleasent LD. In the dream I would be with him, his new wife, and his loyal friends. I would worry he really intended on poisoning me or what ever. Then I would do a RC, gain reasonable lucidity and fly away from them. I would screw around for about 3 minutes, then there they were again, and I would fall right back into a non-lucid full of all the mental anxiety. That cycle repeated 5 times! So, in an hour long dream, I am lucky if I got 15 minutes total lucidity. My brain wanted to work out its issues in a non-lucid, and fully intended on battling me for the right to do so.
I think it would probably be un-natural and bad for someone to "always be lucid" because non-lucid dreams seem to serve an important function. High points from the short lucid bit. I flew along the top of the Boise River and drug my feet in the water, kind of like water skying. I also had a part where I spider climbed all over some huge buildings. High points in the non lucids. A very vivid explosion and burning building scene, and looking at his new marble floor that was ultra HD. Lucid duration ?~15 minutes (5x3minutes)?

02.26.2012

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I decided to sleep earlier than usual. I probably slept for like 10-12 hours. I had so many chances to become lucid, and some of the dreams felt like days.

Dream 1: Blood Tube Gagging

I'm watching a soap opera that looks like the The Bold and The Beautiful. Nick Marone is in tears, telling a killer why they murdered a woman. The "killer" revives the woman by getting blood from a random tube.



The lady wakes up and is gagging while the tube is down her throat. I think I end up having my private parts being sucked by her to help keep the blood in her mouth. (WTF?!?!?)

Some person tells me to hump 2 times, and I do so because I'm worried that this woman might die, and things were just too chaotic for me to rationalize this random dream. I have no clue what I did would do to the women, I just do it.

Dream 2: Chibi cartoon

I think I'm doing some voice acting for some flash animation or a cartoon show. I end up doing something random, all I see is a random clip of me and some other dudes as Chibi cartoons. We're rotating in a square formation in the cartoon.



Dream 3: Computer Lab & Random Tennis Teammates

I'm inside a computer lab, and this feels like a High School type of dream. I believe I'm with some random tennis team. The coach tells us that we should make our opponents feel welcomed, and then things get weird.



We started to say "Howdy" to each person coming in from the other school (just another word for "Hi" at Texas A&M). We keep this up until all of them come in, and most of them responded with "Howdy" as well, but there was this one guy who just ignores us completely and heads for somewhere to sit.

The dream shifts to where I'm with more DCs that look like tennis teammates. Some were familiar, but I didn't pay too much attention to them. I think my pants were coming off, and some people were laughing at me. I quickly pull up my shorts before more people saw my underwear.

I knew some of them snickered, but I just look at them and they stopped giggling.

Dream 4: Asian restaurant and Starbucks clone

It was probably 1 AM in this dream, and I wanted to get something to eat. I go to this place that looks like it sells Asian food. Then the setting shifts to where it seems to be early morning. It's still gray and misty outside, but wasn't too bothered by this abrupt change.

I think I met an Asian girl. She was a little chubby, but that didn't bothered me at all. I think we were talking, but I couldn't remember what, so I assumed we had small talk. Then I find myself in another retail fast food that looked like a Starbucks clone. I go up to the cash register and asked what stuff they sell.



The person showed me the meal prices and drinks as well. I asked him what type of drink/coffee he liked (because this place was new to me), and he pointed to the one he prefers.

I think I ordered sausage biscuit with it as well. The drink tasted minty, which kind of bothered me because I'm not really much of a mint lover, but I just bear with it because I already paid for it.

Dream 5: Code Lyoko and Grocery Store/Supermarket

I see Sissy from Code Lyoko going somewhere, and it seemed she was sneaking around. I get closer to her because I see a small portal near some icy spike in the Ice Sector.



(It didn't hit me that if Sissy was in the Ice Sector with me, obviously she would've found out about the Supercomputer and Lyoko itself...I'm just oblivious throughout this part of the dream).

I use my body to conceal the small purple portal and I see Yumi in her original Lyoko warrior outfit playing along with my plan to prevent Sissy from finding the portal (at least that's what I thought Yumi was doing). We just act quiet, and I see Yumi look up somewhere, her body was at a side angle, and I didn't pay attention to look up to where she was looking.



The dream shifts to where I'm probably at HEB (grocery store/supermarket). I near the Produce section, and I still feel like I'm trying to hide something from someone. Eventually, I stop doing that and keep walking.



I try to find some meat, and I eventually see bacon that isn't wrapped in a package. It looked like it was thawed out, and I didn't pick it up, but I just touch it to feel its smooth and wet texture.

Then I go to the Baked Goods section, and saw these delicious pine tarts that were big and really soft and warm. I wanted a piece, but I didn't see paper holders to wrap it and buy it.

It was so tempting, I could just imagine how it would taste if I took a small bite.

Dream Fragment:

I don't know where this part started, but some female was giving me a white paper to copy stuff. I believe I had a red sheet turned in, but I didn't know for what exactly.

I just copy it down quickly, and that's all I remember for that.

Dream 6: Abnormal change to Northgate Traditions area

I wake up (FA), and I'm wearing a maroon polo shirt and black pants. I get out of my apartment, and I head towards a dirt road that saves some time walking since it cuts through the normal route diagonally.

This dream was really vivid, and was almost perfect in replicating the area I live at Texas A&M University. I was walking awkwardly, trying to balance myself. I keep going up, and there was something wrong with the area in Northgate.



It seemed the parking lot that had many levels was gone, and was replaced with another entrance to get into the rooms. I go in and find a bathroom, and apparently there's this secret entrance on the wall in the Men's bathroom.

I think I had to duck my head a little and then press on the rotatable part of the wall to go somewhere.

I know I had more dreams, but it's because I slept so long that made them too hazy.

Last nights dreams were a mess of fragments and crazy, completely random stuff I could hardly remember any of it. This entry isn't going to make much sense

Dream One (fragments): I'm watching in third person as my son and his friend O are in a time machine going back in time to year 0. They look older, like 7 or 8, and I wonder why I'm not actually there. The time machine arrives in a desert looking area with lots of huge rocks, like you see in SUV ads sometimes. The boys don't seem to know what to do, they say they were sent back in time to do something important, but they can't remember what. So they decide to buy themselves sometime by going back in time again to year 0 because they are afraid that standing around thinking about it wasted too much time. When they go back again, I start feeling light headed, dizzy, and like I'm going to pass out in general. I think to myself the time machine might be dangerous and they shouldn't be using it. Then I try to force myself into the picture to set the time machine to send them home where they'll be safe. When I try, the only option I can select is Lunar something or another. My mind immediately thinks of the new sims world Lunar lakes, and I wake up.

Dream Two (Fragments): We're baby sitting my husbands ex's kids for some dumb reason. My husband is complaining that He didn't want to watch them because he hates his ex, I'm saying to stop complaining he may hate her but she's nice to me. The kids are playing in the living room with our kids, and we're in the back room with the door open so we can hear them, cleaning up legos. There are tons and tons of Legos, all over the floor. I can't believe the sheer number of them. It's like the number of legos my brother and I had growing up after collecting them for years, I have no clue how my kids could have amazed so many, especially since my husband usually refuses to buy toys with lots of small pieces because he worries the kids will make a mess. After we clean up all the legos, my husband is fussing because the kids parents hadn't come to pick them up yet and they were late. I offer to call and ask them why they're running late.

(Missing time)

There's a girl who looks like Aqua from Birth by Sleep. She's claiming to be a shape shifter. She is bragging that the original girl thought her father had died when she was a kid, but the truth was the father died right after she was born at the shape shifters hands. Then the shape shifter changed into her father to use his political influence to her advantage, then when she no longer needed his form, she made it look like she/he died in a mud slide. I see the mudslide scene in my dream. Then, the girl opens my closet and moves all my clothes, to reveal a secret area. Inside the secret area there's a really big plastic tote. She opens the tote and the real Aqua/girl is there. She's wearing a lacy wedding dress and looks like a doll. She falls forwards and then comes to life and catches herself on the sides of the tote.

(Missing times)

I'm a pirate, but my house is the pirate ship. We're being attacked by other pirates. They're firing at the walls, but from the knee level down only. We're jumping around like crazy trying not to get hit in the legs by these shots. Then a short bald pirate bursts in, he reminds me of Schmee from the Disney version of Peter Pan. He's really mean though, not a push over like in the disney movie. He bursts in and starts trying to kill me, we grapple on the ground a bit, and then I manage to wrestle him out the front door. Suddenly he turns into the neighbors kid and I'm yelling at him, "We don't want you around anymore! GO AWAY!" he starts crying and I tell him that we don't want him around because he'd mean. He needs to get lost, and I'm sorry we ever took him in! Then he suddenly looks like my son and I feel really sad because I feel like I'm telling my own kids I don't love them. I wake up nearly crying.

All I can remember from this dream was an argument with a friend. What struck me as odd was that this person is someone we always sort through any disagreements. However, in this dream we just didn't even try to sort things out.

2/25/12

DILD

Notes: I was napping and using some binaural beats. They were 15 min clips and after the first I came really close to SP. Right as it ended, my arms felt like they were floating up and I could start to see HI. There were some lines of text in my vision that were bending around. Soon I lost it and felt really awake. I tried it one more time and then just went to sleep. I had a small lucid and then a bunch of FAs. Eventually I became lucid again.

I am trying to make a dream scene appear after everything goes white. I decided to pretend it was a snow drift and suddenly I could move my dream body. I climbed up and there was a huge slide. I go down head first on the ice slide and lose the dream again.

Eventually I can get back into a dream from the FA. I start to see my surrounding so I decide to sit down and have a lucid pill. I dig through my pockets and don't feel any. I see a packet of my cold medicine on the counter. At first I didn't want to take that because I knew it was just some sleeping pill, and it wasn't what I needed. However, I couldn't find anything else so I take it anyway. I try to focus on my surroundings for a minute. I then stand up and walk down a hall. Eventually everything went black.

I can still feel my dream body so I try and make the darkness into a dream scene. I think that I am a ninja creeping the the dark. So I start "stealth walking" around and suddenly I can see again. I am in a hall facing the door to an elevator. It beeps as the elevator approaches. I am still in ninja mode so I try and climb up the wall and hide so I can jump the guy who comes out. There isn't much room but I hang on the wall by grabbing this tiny ledge with my finger tips. That seemed kind of lame for a ninja so I wondered if I could just rotate gravity. I look closely at my hands and stand up on the wall I am hanging from. Suddenly everything is sideways. I am walking around on the wall. The is really disorienting in a small hallway. Things start to get blurry so I sit down on the real floor and try and focus.

I take a real lucid pill this time. I reach in my pocket and can feel it right away. I break open the pink pill and dump the contents into my mouth. I sit and kind of meditate for a minute trying to stabilize the dream. Everything looks good so I get up and go outside. It is a beautiful red autumn day. I fly up hundreds of feet above the red trees and a quaint town on a hill. I can get good height flying but no horizontal momentum. Eventually I fall back down and try to find a jet pack. I wanted to use some DCs to help with passive control.

However, there were only dogs around me. A steady stream of huskies were walking past. I tell one to go fetch me a jet jack. It runs into a house and comes out with something else. I ask a different dog to do the same thing. This time I tried to visualize more. The dog didn't even come back though.

I give up on that and decide to try and find some girls. I walk into a house and remember the TOTM. I run around a corner and find this painting. It is about 4 ft by 6 ft. It depicts another beautiful red design. It was kind of an abstract scenery. In the bottom corner there is a menacing hooded face. I decide to go in the painting and thwart that asshole. I put my hand on the painting. It is like jell-o. I then slip my arm and eventually my body through.

I come into the gray walled room. It was tiny. I thought that was pretty anticlimactic. I look around and see elevator buttons on the walls. It is an elevator! Lets take it somewhere. The buttons are scattered randomly around the walls. I hit three that seem applicable and we start moving. We go down and the doors open to a floor of cubicles. People are all hard at work. I slip by undetected. I need to find the boss. I find another elevator on the other end of the floor. There is a secretary watching it. I have to wait for the elevator so I walk by the desk. The secretary is kind of hot so I grab her ass I also feel up another woman standing there. The elevator opens and there is a hot asian girl there.

Perfect! Now I can walk into the elevator and people will not question where I am going. They will just think I am a creep after that girl. I hit the top floor button and we go up. I joke with the asian girl that she is really hot.

The door opens and there is some empty hallway. I get out and walk around. (my recall is failing here but not much happened). I forget about the evil guy and remember that I have to bring something back from inside the painting. I dig through a closet and try to find something that would incriminate the company. I get a sheet of paper that looks like a concert poster. It has a few names on it. In big letters it says, "Sin City." I decide that is good enough, grabbed it, and turned around. There are 2 guys in suits playing catch with a ball. They told me they knew what I was doing and I wasn't going to succeed. I walk back to the elevator to retrace my steps. The door won't open. I look to the window and jump out. There is like a 50 floor fall to the ground. I get up and lose the dream soon after.

I have a pet green lizard. It suddenly turns on me after being my loving pet and tries to bite me. I put it outside in my little fenced in yard. I look back through the glass doors and can see it still wanting to attack me, trying to bite and claw through the glass door.

Noelle and I are watching Zooey Deschanel's Wedding on the tele, then suddenly we are actually there. Zooey and the groom are saying their vows, then both accidentally fall into the 6ft tall wedding cake. Somehow, we fall in too. I eat some cake off my hand and vividly taste chocolate and coconut.
I wake up soon after this with the aftertaste of the cake still in my mouth.

Noelle and I are in a hotel room constantly doing small bumps of coke. I start to feel a little to fucked up and stop. (...btw doing drugs in a dream is always a very weird experience for me) Then, we are looking through a window to my grandma's farm. I see a huge brown horse with brown, eagle wings - a Clydesdale Pegasus - flying through the air. Everything is incredibly vivid and I wonder if I am hallucinating. I ask Noelle to look out the window to see the horse, but it is now gone. I miss the dream sign and conclude I hallucinated the horse because of the drugs we have taken.

After WBTB, I had a second short lucid the same night as Strange Conversations With Sharon.

I become lucid in a small bedroom. There is a large bed with tall wooden posts and a white, fluffy duvet. I climb up to the top of one of the posts then jump off and float down to the bed very slowly, like a feather. I plop on the fluffy duvet and a pillow and the dream ends.