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Last Nights Dreams

I'm in my house but it's a little different ((I don't realise this at the time)). There are a few people in the kitchen with me and I also have 2 dogs ((different to the dogs I have in RL)). I look at the big dog and think "awww poor thing, he doesn't like the way he is" I decide that the nicest thing I can do is to make the Dog the way he wants to be. I now get a hack-saw and say to the Dog "lie down" I struggle to get the Dog to lie down, he seems scared but eventually does as he's told. I now begin to hack off his front paw, it's strange because there's no blood and I think "great no mess" I now pull off his paw that is hanging on by a little bit of skin, I'm holding his paw in my hand and I'm looking at it I then throw it to the floor, the Dog is now left with just a stump . I now proceed to hack off his other paw , it's comes off and again I'm left holding it....I suddenly think "shit...what have I done!!" . The Dog now tries to stand up but he can't, he is standing with his 2 back legs but can't lift himself up on his front legs. I now think "ohhh crap, I'd better fix this, he's all uneven!!" . I now hack off his 2 back paws and the Dog can now stand but he's standing on 4 stumps and looks very uncomfortable . I decide I need to sew up his crotch area just to make him perfect and the job is done properly. I now go out of the room and I'm somewhere else, I'm feeling guilty about sewing up his crotch and think maybe I shouldn't have done that...I now suddenly look down at myself and realise its me who has had my limbs cut off I wonder how it's suddenly changed from the Dog to me. I look again and see that my limbs aren't actually gone, someone has had to cut my feet off but they have made me some new feet..my new feet are a lot smaller, there is still some skin missing and I think "ahhhh, that must be so they heal properly" I'm small now after the surgery, I'm like a midget but think to myself "I quite like my new look" . My new hands and feet are weeping and for a minute I think "ohh my god....what have I done to myself!!" ((DREAM SKIP))
There is a man with ginger hair, he is chasing me and wants to hurt me badly or even kill me, I'm terrified of him!! I'm now trying to hide but there's not a lot of hiding places. I now go into 3rd person and watch this man go onto an open top double decker bus, he is so angry and is trashing the top of the bus to look for me. Everything now goes in slow motion and the bus heads towards a bridge but the bus is too high to get under it. The bridge now crushes the top of the bus as it goes under and smashes the mans head to pieces!! Lol
((DREAM SKIP))
I'm talking to a group of girls, they are all being bitchy to me and say "why do you put make-up on?" I say "to look nice!" then they say "why are you wearing those clothes?" I reply "just because you like to look scruffy it doesn't mean I have to, now go and fuck off!" this makes them all really angry and they chase me, I leg it and I'm heading towards a main road, suddenly I go face first into an oncoming truck!!!
((DREAM SKIP))
There is a car parked in the street. As I pass it I see an old school friend of mine sitting in the car on his own. I stop by the car and say "hey.....it's been ages since I last saw you!" he smiles and I say "you and the rest of the guys were really good mates to me!" he replies "we all love you loads still...you take care ok!" he waves. I now walk off and turn to wave again and now the rest of them have appeared in the car, I shout "I love you guys!" and now go on my merry way

All I remember is flying a plane, and picking oranges. Pretty pathetic, huh? hehehe I love these things

Italics = False Memories
Bold = Non-Lucid

This Entry Contains Foul Language.

Storming the beach once again, it brought back memories. Memories from a decade earlier when we left this wretched planet. The planet dubbed DC24. I had been on an expedition of this foreign planet with a military convoy and my two cousins, Amelia and Ashton. We were looking for life and any resources that could prove useful to our home planet.

DC24 was not much different from ours. It had oxygen, water, and lots of plant life. The expedition uncovered several large aggressive animals. Nothing that couldn't be handled with proper preparation. The last expedition of DC24 was on an island that was about 200 miles long and 100 miles wide.

On the last day we had ran into a problem. An avalanche had destroyed most of the convoy vehicles. Leaving us with a long hike back to the extraction point. The automated shuttle ship was set to leave the beach at 19:00, so it had time to dock inside the starship that was set to automatically leave at 20:00. The group had made it back to the shuttle with 10 minutes to spare. Everyone was exhausted and patiently awaited for take off, while discussing the excitement of the expedition. The one minute buzzer rang. The doors automatically shut and the shuttle started to power up. Everyone let out a sigh of relief. It was the last expedition of DC24 before we made our 5 year trip home.

As the shuttle started to slowly lift off the ground, I glanced out the window. To my horror I saw someone running out of the tree line. “Oh My God!” I said. “Ashton is still outside!”. Myself and 3 others got up and ran to the shuttle door and tried to open it. It was no use, it was programmed to stay sealed shut until it docked inside the starship. As the shuttle lifted further off the ground, I could see Ashton standing on the beach, looking up. Not even waving her hands, she knew it was pointless, she knew there was nothing we could do, she knew she was stranded. I felt my knees get weak, so did Amelia. How could we have not noticed she was not on the shuttle, she had the loudest mouth in the group... We hated ourselves.

So here we are. It took 10 years, but Amelia and I were back. We were going to find her, or what was left of her.... This time the military wasn't going to send a convoy with us. They were going back out for other research purposes. They promised to supply us with equipment, and extraction. Besides that we were basically on our own. Amelia and I did have more help though, because loved ones decided to come for the rescue op. My brother Christopher, and my cousins Marcus and Kevin. We were all cousin, but we were more like brothers.

We were dropped on the beach by hovering gunships. Three of them to be exact. No automated shuttles on this trip. They were instructed to drop us and our supplies off, provide security until we were on our way, then resume with their primary objective. We were all lowered to the beach by rope, and supplies dropped from one of the hoverships. When we all hit sand, and cleared the ropes, the gunships backed off and hovered over the water to keep an eye on the tree line, so they didn't kick up sand while we were prepping. I immediately took the lanyard harnesses off the dogs. “Zeus, Apollo, patrol!” I commanded. (Yes, I used to watch a lot of Magnum P.I.) They ran to the tree line. Each taking off in a different direction, and began to scout. Meanwhile everyone else put on their gear.

Zeus and Apollo were gods amongst dogs. They were born from the same womb on the same day. Together their whole lives, they were as close as two dogs could be. They were Rottweilers each weighing in at 180 pounds. They were smart, loyal, and fearless. They were larger than some of our crew. They were picked up as puppies during the six month refueling/resupplying of the starship while docked at Earth. During the 5 year trip back to DC24, Zeus and Apollo were raised and trained on the starship. They slept in Ashton's quarters, this way they would be very familiar with her smell. They were virtually identical, the only way you could tell them apart was from one titanium tooth that Zeus had, he had lost the real one in a training session.

“Ready!” Marcus called. “Good to go” Kevin said. Chris and I were still putting on gear and loading magazines. Amelia was setting up a care package in hopes that Ashton may come across it. “Alright I'm good” Chris said as he chambered his rifle. “Kevin dig out the yellow smokes and the beacons” I said I was loading the last of my magazines. Kevin handed everyone a tracking beacon, and two yellow smoke grenades. No one was going to get left behind this time. “Amelia are you ready?” I yelled? “Yeah!” she responded. Marcus turned to the gunships, and waved them off. They were on their way, to do lord knows what. We were on a different planet, and still couldn't get straight answers from our government. As we took a last look around on the beach, we could hear biplanes. The military said they would send out some biplanes with banners instructing Ashton to head to the beach, and stay there. I guess they made good on their word. As they flew by, we all got a look at the banners. “You've got to be shitting me” Kevin said, my brother shook his head and looked towards the ground. I glanced at the banners... Orange juice advertisements... “These assholes could fuck up a wet dream” I said. We watched the planes disappear over the jungle. Knowing if she saw the planes, at least she'd still know we're back. I looked at the emerald green tree line again. It looked the same as the day Ashton was left behind, it was an eerie feeling. I whistled, “Zeus, Apollo, Lets go!” The dogs ran to us and entered the tree line with their noses to the ground. We followed.

Making our way through the dense jungle was a slow process. Everyone was as silent as possible, knowing that there are animals out there that would like to do us harm. I was right behind the dogs with a machete cutting vines, and clearing a path. Everyone else was right behind me. Rifles at the ready. All of us keeping an eye on the behavior of the dogs. They would know if there was danger long before we would. We knew we were safe though, because we were with each other. We were safer here together than we were on Earth separated. Vine after vine I cut. They looked like grapevines, yet when chopped they would excrete a strange glowing green liquid. We came to a clearing, Zeus and Apollo sat and waited for us to catch up. We all got to the edge of the woods, and looked out over the clearing. We were in shock....

It was a town. “What the hell!?!?” Amelia said, “This planet is suppose to be deserted!”. We all stood there at the edge of the clearing. Looking at this perfect little town in the middle of nowhere. “Well, it does look deserted” my brother said with a laugh. It did. The buildings looked modern, but also seemed to be unkempt. Grass was starting to grow through the asphalt. Vines were growing up the side of the houses. Windows were broken. “Let's check it out” Marcus said. “Yeah, maybe Ashton will be held up in one of those houses.” replied Kevin. I looked at the dogs, “Lets go!”. The dogs once again leading the way into the unknown town. All of us wondering if this had something to do with the secret objectives of the military.

As we walked the streets, something seemed eerily familiar about it. “This is creepy.”Amelia said. Everyone agreed. No one in sight, no cars, vans, or trucks anywhere. “I've seen a few bicycles.” Kevin pointed out. “Let's try that house” Marcus said. We walked up to the front door. Everyone made sure the safety on their guns were off. Kevin pulled open the storm door, my brother stood behind me. Marcus and Amelia kept their rifles pointed at the door. I slowly turned the door knob, then quickly pushed open the door. Marcus said, “I don't see anything”. I peeked around the corner, “I don't see anything either.” “Zeus, Apollo, clear the house!” The twin rottweilers ran in with no hesitation. Heads low, and noses to the ground. Room after room they checked, then returned to the front door, and sat down. “I guess it's all clear.” I said. We entered the house to have a look around. “Nothing, not even a piece of furniture” Moaned Chris. “Lets check out the rest of this neighborhood” Said Amelia. We exited the house and started up the street. Zeus and Apollo once again leading the way.

“I know what it is thats been nagging me!” said Amelia. We all stopped and looked at her. “I know whats been nagging ME” responded Marcus. He pulled out a cigar and started to light it up. “Nicotine fits!” my brother said laughing “Hand me one of those!”. I never took my eyes off Amelia, I had a feeling that she was on to something. I said, “Spit it out girl!”. She replied, “This town is exactly like the one Ashton and I lived in when we were growing up!”. A chill went down my spine, Marcus and Chris stopped trying to light their cigars and stared at her in disbelief. Kevin and I looked around. “OH MY GOD!!! YOU'RE RIGHT!!!!” I said. “If Ashton came here, she probably stayed at the house where we used to live.” Said Amelia. “Okay, lead the way” we all replied at the same time. Amelia started walking down the road. Zeus and Apollo right by her side with their watchful eyes. With Chris, Marc, Kevin, and I bringing up the rear, and still keeping an eye out for movement in case the dogs miss anything..

“This is it.” Amelia said. We all looked at it in disbelief. It was in fact an exact replica of where the girls grew up. We all stood in the street in front of the house. Everyone took a good look around. No movement could be seen anywhere. No one peeking at us through windows, or hiding in bushes. “Ok, lets do it” I said. We went through the same motions as before. Safeties off and guns ready. “Zeus, Apollo, clear the house!”. The dogs went in, and in under 2 minutes came back out and sat down on the front porch. “Clear” I said. We entered the house. We were in disbelief once again. It had been lived in. “Let's check around” said Chris. I walked through the kitchen, and saw Ashton's handbag sitting on the counter. It was covered in dirt. “She was here!” I yelled. I dumped it out on the counter. Her ID, a broken iPod, camera, first aid kit, and a granola bar fell out of it. I opened up the first aid kit, it was almost empty. Then I tried to turn on the camera, it wouldn't work. Batteries must be dead I thought. I took the memory card out of it and stuck it in my pocket, it might shed some light on what had happened during the past 10 years. None of the lights worked. We assumed there was no power. I walked by the fridge on my way upstairs. I stopped and opened it up. “Holy shit! The fridge works!”. I looked over all the shelves. The food looked as if it weren't spoiled. I opened up the containers, and smelt the contents. It didn't smell bad. I was dumbfounded. Could it be? Could Ashton still be living here, and just not home right now? I looked back into the fridge. Milk, I grabbed it and took a sniff. Slowly I sipped, it tasted fine. Wow, I thought, it's fresh milk. I looked around. “Zeus, Apollo, clear the house!” The dogs did a second sweep of the house as I walked down the hall. It was rare for them to have missed something during training, but it had happened. As I passed Marcus, I handed him the half gallon of milk. He opened and sniffed it just as I had.

I continued down the hall and went up the stairs at the end. They led to a bonus room in the attic. That's where Ashton used to sleep. I peeked my head up over the rails and scanned over the room. It had been used. Papers on the desk, bed unmade, cloths on the floor. I walked through the room, and glanced over everything. I knew she had been here at one point, but could she still be living here I thought to myself. Suddenly I noticed a small door in the wall, it was probably two feet tall and a foot and a half wide. I walked over to it, and could see lighting behind it. As I concentrate on this door, I hear Zeus and Apollo walk into the room. I turned around and saw them sitting down staring at me. All clear I thought to myself. I then unsnapped my rifle, and propped it against the futon. I focused on the small door once again. Something was telling me not to open it. But there might be a clue in it, I thought. I took a closer look at it, and tried to peek through cracks around the door. I could see soft light behind it came from a candle. I went to pull it open and felt a chill down my spine, I stopped. I was petrified for some reason. Suddenly I heard someone sit down behind me. It was Marcus. He was laying back on the futon and petting Zeus. He looked at me and said, “Don't open that.” “Why?” I responded. “Just don't.” he replied.

Suddenly there's a high pitched scream outside. Marcus and I jump up, and head to the window. We glanced down over the front porch. Standing in front of the house was Amelia. She's staring down the street. We look in that direction. “It's Ashton!!!!” I yelled. She ran up to Amelia and they wrapped their arms around each other. Marcus and I felt relieved. I dropped to my knees and felt like crying. It was over, we had Ashton back. It took 10 years, but we found her, and she was still alive. Then I heard Marcus, “We have company.” I looked back out the window. “What the...” Seven men walking down the street towards Amelia and Ashton. They were all wearing the same thing. White button up shirt, a tie, black pants, a backpack, and they were all pushing bikes. Mormons.... Sinister Polygamist Mormons... They claimed Ashton, and they weren't about to give her up. I stood up and looked down at the incoming Mormons again. I counted 9 this time. “They're going to fucking get it” I said.

I rushed down the steps slamming into the wall. Looked down the hall towards the entrance. I ran as fast as I could. I slammed into the front door. Turned the handle and pushed, nothing happened. I took two steps back. BAM!! I kicked it. It flew off the hinges and clear across the front porch. I walked down the steps and locked eyes with the Mormons. I started to walk towards them, they stopped. As I kept walking they turned around. Constantly looking back, to see if I was still coming in their direction.
“Run mother fuckers!” I yelled. They looked back at me and laughed. They all turned and gave me the finger. I reached down for my rifle. It wasn't there... I unsnapped it while I was contemplating opening the small door. When they saw me reach for a rifle that wasn't there, they all stopped. They then changed direction. They were now walking towards me. I smiled.. I waited until they got closer. I let out a loud whistle. “Zeus, Apollo!” The giant war dogs ran up behind me. I pointed at the Mormons. “Get'em!” Zeus and Apollo take off running. Chasing the Polygamist Mormons down the road. Their bulky spike studded collars shimmered in the setting sun. I turned around and saw Ashton standing there smiling. She walked over and gave me a hug, and said, “I knew you'd come.” Then she said, “Dad will kill me if he finds out that I missed the shuttle on purpose because I didn't want to see Jesse.”I was said to myself, “What the fuck did I just hear?” and “Who the fuck is Jesse?” Then I looked at Ashton and asked her what was behind the small door in the bonus room. She went to open her mouth to respond, and then some stupid mother fucker with subwoofers drove by the house at 4 in the morning with his shit cranked up as loud as it could go. Which woke me up....

All i remember is my Ex Girlfriend yelling at me with a purple coat on. (me in the dream = )

Lucid Dream

Night 44

I had a short LD that ended that I chained into a longer LD, it was too bad that it was one of my early dreams because I do not remember most of the conversations even though I remember them being interesting.

I. I was in my kitchen with a friend of mine, I remember the phone ringing and I went to go answer it, and I still can't believe it but I looked at the ID and it said "You are lucid.". I was like "what?" and I was like "this is a dream?" and I did a RC and it worked. I turned around and my friend was gone and there were like 2 women there now. I remember I was trying to stabilize the dream because I was more excited than usual, and I could feel the dream fading. As I was trying to stabilize, one of the women walked next to me and started talking to me, she said "So you want to stay here?". She then said something else to me, it was only one word but it was really meaningful at the time, I think it started with a P but I can't remember. As soon as she said it the dream ended.

II. So, I woke up when I really wanted to stay, so I was thinking about everything about the dream and the next thing you know I was back. I was standing in the same exact spot and the woman was talking to me again, but I was just stabilizing the dream so I wouldn't wake up again. I was more calm and relaxed so the dream didn't start to fade. I was just curious as to who this woman was, so I was just listening to what she were saying, and I cannot remember the conversation, but I started walking with her to my living room. We sat down and I still can not remember what we were talking about, grr. We then walked up to my parents room to their sink, there was someone there and he started shaving me face lol. She was still behind me talking to me, I wish I could remember just a fraction of what she was saying but I do not remember any of it. I remember looking in the mirror, it looked like I was dizzy and like I was about to collapse, but I was standing still, then I noticed the woman reflection and she had real distinct features. I do not recognize her from my real life, but she had dark brown hair just like mine, small like 5'4, brown eyes, and a large smile. We were laughing during our conversation, and when I was done with the shaving we walked to the door towards some other people and started talking with them. The dream ends around here. When I woke up I was debating getting up and writing down the dream so I would remember what she was telling me, but I decided to try to keep on chaining, which I regret now lol .

Autism school, prom is next morning. Matt go to prom. I want to voluneer. Moved to cali, missed the prom. Forgot about it, went to mt. Shasta. Couple having sex in bathroom stall next to me, I stopped in bathroom by cabins in the woods. Walk out see girl, smile at her nice warm brown eyes. Walk down see a ton of food trucks. Chinese music about to start playing on stage. Hat design business call I skipped out on. Talked to smiley, (with nick and liam), everything dieng I say. But also (or is it..) everything living. Smiley says, "but are you doing it?" "Whose living". I say im talking about human experience, drama. Scott, we are holy body. Just like a muscle on the organism. Talking to steven about fruit plants , all life dying. Free association with salt. Loved cali. Strings in hair, look like dredlocks in mirror. Kratom got flagged coming in. Heard helicopter. Had to compete in games to see if they would make it inside.

Saturday 4/21/12 bed 11:30
WBTB 3:24 - 3:50

DR 1 - Dragons
I'm in a huge courtyard of a huge mall, rather futuristic looking. There is more people with me, I'm part of a group. I look at the skies and see a huge bird. Skinny, long tail, I know he has no feathers. I'm thinking it's pterodactyl. There is more of them following the first one and I can see these better. They are dragons. As if they just noticed us, they start swooping down lower and over the courtyard. I think they are grabbing people, but I don't see it. I decide to go someplace else and walk to the elevator. It has no walls and I'm worried it offers no protection from the dragons. But it has a roof, so we'll be ok.

DR 2 - execution area
I'm in an area behind some low apartment building. There is a white wall separating backyards of this building with this area. I'm told it's an execution place. It's in Poland. Political prisoners used to be executed by firing squad there. The ground is mostly just dusty soil made hard by heavy use. I find some piece of uniform, like knee guard of modern soldiers. I show it to somebody and confirms to me it's Polish because of the polish eagle on it. We find some more stuff, one is Hungarian with hungarian language inscription - magyar... and one is Swiss with inscription Helvetic... Totally surprised to find the swiss emblem. There are few soldiers there. We see a rocket in the air and I think someone is shooting at us. But no, soldiers on the ground are firing rockets into the air. I look at the ground and move some dried weeds around to find the lid for the equipment they are shooting from. I don't want to be standing on one of those when they decide to shoot a rocket up. Then I see a mortar that has been fired from. I hear a countdown and I walk by another mortar, not realizing that's the one they are getting ready to fire from. My head is just an inch from the business end of the mortar and I can hear the sound of the projectile and feel the air being pushed by it in the barrel. People scream no!, ouch!, not there! I wake up.

DR 3 - yard
I'm walking in a backyard behind my house in NZ. There is a bunch of trees with bear branches, like in winter, that I feel were like miniatures, but they were normally bearing fruit. The branches were suppose to be nice and thin, but someone pointed out to me, that these are as thick as the trunk and they should be trimmed. I'm like, OK.

Woke up this morning and stupidly didn't write down my dream before falling asleep again, causing me to forget most of it. It was a really interesting one as well! Unfortunately I only remember the less-interesting parts, but fortunately I remembered a second when I woke up again.

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22/4/12

All I remember is exploring a deep cave with three others, where we become trapped almost like the Chilean miners. When we finally find a way out, we learn that the whole thing was a test.

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I'm in a smart suit and arrive at a big London building in search of a job. There are hordes of businessmen going in and out just like horrible swarms of ants and as I walk through the front door, my dad does too, which I had not expected.

We both walk through the ground floor room, which is busy and dirty like a cheap market. My dad enters a meeting on the first floor, and I continue alone up the stairs to find a job. The stairs seem endless, like a tower, and I check every room for potential work. However, all the rooms are empty and I figure I must be at least an hour early.

Briefly and faintly, I hear someone having sex, and almost check the bedrooms near the top of the tower, before suppressing my perverted curiosity. At the very top of the stairs, I find a blacksmith's forge. I begin to hammer the anvil a few times, but am swiftly told that this isn't my job, and shooed out of the room.

On the way back down I discover a shop that was definitely not there before, and I talk to the various people inside, Oblivion style. An old man gives me a phoenix feather, and I immediately realise its value and rarity. He tells me now that I have one, I will be able to find many more in my travels.

After this completely irrelevant digression, I find the shop owner: a stout, short-haired woman who seems to be in a rush. She notices that I'm wearing an employee uniform and a 'my name is ...' sticker [which I hadn't had before] and tells me to continue with my work while she goes on holiday for a few weeks.

Sweating from climbing the hundreds of stairs, I open some window, before noticing some friends. One has an unusually large bifro, making him look like a member of The Mars Volta. Their song 'The Widow' then blasts through the overhead speakers, and we rock the fuck out to it.

If the first sign of craziness is going crazy in dreams then I'm screwed.

Cut Cut Slash Slash

I was in Dread's room. Dread, Jin, and I were watching TV.

I start hearing voices.

They are voices of demons talking to me telling me that they are going to kill my friends.

What the serious fuck?

The voices of the demons tell me that they are coming. They tell me that there are three of them and there isn't any escaping my fate. They will kill my friends and then me.

I want to leave.

Dread and Jin ask me what's going on, but I'm too ashamed to tell them.

I look around the room. I'm seeing faces everywhere. They don't exist but my mind is picking up on patterns and translating them into faces.

I see the face of a burnt doll in Dread's closet.



I want to leave now.

The doll smiles wickedly and tells me that it is the first demon and the more powerful of the other two.

Dread and Jin take me back to my parent's house, sensing that something wasn't right with me.

When I come home, I find that we are celebrating someone's birthday. I look out the window of the front porch and see two little kids playing together. They are probably three or four years old.

When my mom sees them, she invites them inside. I instantly sense that there is something malignant about these children. The little girl is playing with a lighter and the little boy is just standing there strangely.

My mom puts the cake on the table. The little girl takes out her lighter and tries to light the candles.

I'm freaking out. I'm convinced that the little girl is one of the demons that the voices had talked about, and that she is a pyromaniac and wants to light the house on fire so that people die.

Everyone is telling me to calm down but I can't. I want the two little children to leave. I want everyone to leave. I want to leave.

I feel like there's something wrong with my brain. I can't tell if I am so delusional that my reality is completely warped or if what I am experiencing is true intuition telling me to leave. Nothing makes sense anymore.

After the birthday party, the little girl kills Dread and Jin. At least that's what I perceived to happen.

I run down the stairs and tell my mother that I am leaving now. I can't take this anymore! I don't know where I am going but it at least won't be here!

She gives me a strange look.

I try to explain what just happened but she looks completely perplexed.

I'm not even sure of what just happened, but I'm in a total state of disarray.

I get in the car.

But not before checking it twice.

I'm completely paranoid that the little demon boy is following me. I'm still seeing faces everywhere so I can't tell what's real or not. I catch a glimpse of a face in the trunk. The little boy was trying to come along with me.

I removed him from the trunk. He then killed my mother.

If I wasn't experiencing a psychotic break before, I was now.

I couldn't take it anymore. I didn't know what was real or not. Voices were screaming at me and luring me into places. Everything wanted to kill me. I wanted to kill myself before the last demon could kill me.

I took a bottle of sleeping pills and laid down on my bed hoping it would all be over soon. I just wanted to die.

I watch as the last demon comes up to me. She has grown from her original doll size to the size of a large child. Her face still looks burnt and contorted.

I can't tell if I am hallucinating or not.

With a small burst of energy, I shove the remaining sleeping pills down her throat.

Fuck this. I don't feel like dying tonight.

I don't have any weapons except safety scissors. That'll do.

With all of my force, I stab the safety scissors into her skin. I can barely rip her skin. The safety scissors aren't sharp enough.

She laughs wickedly.

I shove her to the ground and start stabbing her with the scissors. I want to cut her heart out. I don't want this to be the way I die.

She just keeps laughing maniacally.

She tells me that even if I manage to kill her she will just come back for me again. And again. And again. And again.

She has been partially disfigured by the safety scissors but it's not enough. I'm feeling the effects of the pills. Shit. The pain began to build up and I was going in and out of consciousness while she continued to laugh.

Fuck you.

With the only energy I had remaining, I shoved the scissors through her heart. She was silenced.

And so was I.

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream characters talking
Purple means possible shared dreaming person
Green means notes

Got it? Great! You know what to do.

Dream #1 Little Red Riding hood.


Im in my 2nd home fixing me something to eat, when i notice that im in my kitchen and it looks a bit odd. 1st of all i don't live here anymore..so why am i here in the 1st place? My doorbell rings before i even have time to question how i got here. I go answer the door, and what do ya know..ITS LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD!?
"Excuse me but can you please help me escape from these men who have accused me of murder?"
Uh..your wanted for murder..and...you want me to help you?
"Mmhm."
She nods her head so innocently, as if what she is saying is ok. Hmm...ok, i'll help you.
"YAY!"
Mkay, follow me. I lead her downstairs to my basement and tell her to go in the back and put on some fresh attire and i'll take care of the rest. I look in the mirror rubbing my multiplying hawk coin totem.
"What are you doing?"
Im goin to project as you and lead them on a chase.
"Wow really?" You can do that???
I can do anything in this world.

Getting prepared.

Im now putting on little Red Riding Hood's robe, And looking at myself in the mirror. Fully transformed into her now, I head to my back room in the utility closet and strap myself with guns and knives. Ok you stay down here in this basement ok? If anything happens to me, and i don't return back here in a hour, i want you to take this celphone and push the number 6 you got it?
"Why number 6?"
Because that stands for N, and N stands for Natalia.
"Ooh ok."

Dream #2 The chase.



Im walking thru this village, holding little Red Riding Hood's basket. and there are wanted posters of little Red Riding Hood all over the place. I walk into a nearby store to buy some stuff. This heavy set woman who looks russian or german looked at me, then looked up at the wanted poster on her wall. I smile innocently and ask her, "how much does this candy cost?" Lol The woman looks at me folding her arms and looks at her telephone and begin dialing. Not wanting to stick around any further to see whats goin to happen, i run out of the store. There are a bunch of men staring at me and talking to eachother whispering. I yell at everybody.. "COME AND GET ME!" And stick my tongue out and give everyone the middle finger. I begin running, I lead the men on a little foot chase and run thru this entire village, jumping over fruitstands, running under vegetable stands, and hopping over cars. I begin shooting at everyone who was chasing me then continue running.

I now lead the almost entire village thru a dark foggy forest, where you can hear frogs, owls, crickets, and other little sounds. I hide behind a tree and shapeshift into a rabbit and hide somewhere in a bush. I can hear the people chattering to eachother, saying things like.. "Where did she go? She was just here a minute ago?" Im hidden in the bushes as the rabbit and now flee thru another exit of the forest and shapeshift back into myself. I get to a payphone and tell little Red Riding Hood im on my way. I walk thru a door and mentally tell myself that i will be back at my 2nd home when i walk thru this door. I walk thru it and see little Red Riding Hood eating a bowl of cereal. Watching cartoons. I laugh and say.."Well i see you made yourself comfortable. She giggles and runs up to me and gives me a hug. "So do you mind telling me why you killed those men?" She looks down, "im sure you have a reason?"

"I don't want to talk about it."
"Alright." But just remember who saved your butt, and gave you a place to stay. "You up here eating my Cap'n Crunch cereal and watching cartoons." Just remembered who helped you. I walk over to my files and records and sit down at a table sorting thru stuff.
She starts explaining to me about how she is really a agent, and not really little Red Riding Hood. She mentions her real name to me (I forget what it was) and tells me that she is actually 18 years old. I tell her that me and Natalia can give her a place to lay low for awhile til things cool down. She thanks me, and i call Natalia on my celphone to let her know that im gonna need her assistance. The dream ends and i wake up.

Notes: Im fairly happy with my recall from last night. (Even though i went to bed at 3:30 am) Im surprised i was able to remember so much...though i only wish i could've remember Little Red Riding Hoods real name. But overall im fairly happy with what i got.

This week went by fast, quick and mundane. As did the dreams.
About halfway through the week my recall went downhill, I could still recall some dreams but they came to me later on during my first waking hours of the day.
A lot of them were like last weeks, not really exciting which is why I didn't post any dreams yet.
At the end of the week I got the recall back under controle. I really prefer waking up during the night for recall.

And I think I've had some first hints of attaining lucidity!
I was offered a drink by someone. And in my head I started thinking to myself; I have to remember to buy her a drink later this evening.
My guess is that the thought about remembering triggered something in my head.
So as I had this thought in my dream, it slowly began to dawn on me.
Unfortunatly the realisation came in whilst I was beginning to wake up. So when I figured out I was dreaming I woke up.
I've embraced this as a good step forward and motivation to maintain a good awareness of my reality in my waking life.

So the objective of this week was to keep up the recall, and I think I did succeed in the end.
My objective for next week is to maintain/improve the recall and I'm now adding awareness to my AL agenda.
I learned focus and discipline are very important these first weeks, cause before you know it, it all slips away.
Second thing I learned, routine.
The weekends really aren't any good for my sleep patern and the alcohol doens't help recall either.

But that's ok. My vision is to explore and enjoy the waking life as much as I can, without it the dreamworld is useless.
You must really experience the waking world to get the best out of your LDs right?

Well that's what I think at least.

Also, as a side note in a side note.
I created a new thread in the General Lucid Discussion.
It's about the experience and perception of time during lucid dreams.
The thread is still on the first page so I'm not gonna bump it yet.
But I'm very interested in the experiences and opinions of you, the forum community, about the subject.
So check it out if you've got the time and are interested in discussing it.

Goodnight,
Booney

04.22.2012

Where's Your Shampoo? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I took a nap around 10AM and woke up maybe around 1PM. Had some weird dream, not sure if it's one, or many...

I remember walking down a street somewhere, and seeing a girl mention something about images of a creature with a mix of angels and demons combined.

Then I have a dream shift where I'm with a group of DCs, things are kind of in a 3D Cartoon environment...not cell shaded though.

We're running away from some other group trying to catch us, and we all hide in a room (I think I'm of the group, but I'm seeing this in third person or spectating them).

We get out when the other guys go in the bathroom to shower, and we all come out.

Then one of the guys asked something along the lines of,

"Hey! How can you shower if you don't have your shampoo??"

He thought we were a part of them, goes back into the bathroom showers, and we run before he realizes we're the ones that he and the group he's with need to catch.


Typical for a nap to be random like that...

Uhh... hi, reader! This is my first post to dream journal, so I guess I really should write out all of my previous dreams here, all at once. Just to distinguish then I will write at the end of each one of them "The end." Hope you enjoy them (even through most of them will be like 1-2 lines long) !
Sorry for wrong date format, I am from Europe.


(Sunday 22.08.2010)
I was in 9th D class of my elementary school. Outdoor was cloudy and there was everywhere outside snow. There were people from 9th A and 9th B. We were going on school trip. I was talking with my classmates Jose and Mathew. Even through the mood overall was bad, I tried to lift it up. Then my classmate, Diana, has shown up with a bowling ball in her bag, because she was going to participate in Bowling World Cup (IDK how it is really named).

(23.08.2010 - Monday)
I was watching TV (I don't know where I was watching it). There was Martin, person, I know, in some kind of news report. He wanted to buy snake, and when he brought it, it has bitten off Martin's head. While he was talking about it, he has got big scar around all his neck as evidence. He was quite normal, nothing unusual about him.

(Tuesday 18.01.2011)
Title: Shortest dream ever
The rocket was starting to fly. Countdown was echoing everywhere "10, 9, 8... 3, 2, 1!" and rocket flew into the sky. The end.

(Wednesday 2.2.2011)
Title: My wedding
I was getting married. I don't remember anything at all with exception for some details: When we (Me and my future wife) were standing before altar, I asked her "Will you marry me?" and she said "No, but you can marry my sister Irene." And so I married her sister (). Then there was some kind of party in weird place, where there were stone circles on floor (between them there was water, but really shallow, like 5 centimetres), with round roofs above them, connected with 3 stone pillars (if I will get once good in drawing things, I will draw it). There was a little lucid realisation, which was like "Is this for real? Am I really getting married? Let's test something..." and I proceeded to Irene and kissed her. She kissed me back, just as I tought she will. Then I woke up.
Note: I didn't knew any of characters, and don't know of any Irene at all. But this name is stuck in my mind forever.

(Thursday, 3.2.2011)
Title: My First False Awakening
I just dreamed that I woke up and went to school, just like usual, however on PE teacher started competition - first one, who will arrive home, will win. I runned home (just as everybody else) and didn't knew if I won. But I was happy the school ended so soon (there were other lessons after it). It lasted 20 minutes, and I was tired after it.

(Piatok, 4.2.2011)
Title: Solution of every problem
I haven't remembered back then any details from before, but at the end I recieved a letter with title "Solution for all problems". When I opened it up, there was some text written in triangle (pointing upwards) and I have woke up at that moment. I wasn't able to read anything in that while, it was like second or two. The paper, on which it was written, was folded like top half over bottom one with text inside it.

(Thursday 10.03.2011)
Title: My awesomest dream ever
This was all about race in some kind of videogame and real life inventing of things running parallel one next to other, with me switching between them. Here is all from timeline (R - reality, G - game):
R - high chairs (high as large)
G - start of race
G - first invention - "Switcher", which can reverse some property of item. It has form of laser pointer.
R - testing of Switcher. I have aimed it on floor tiles (which are usually almost as mirror - you can see your sillouethe in them) and I have reverted this property, so it was suddenly opaque (correct me, if I am wrong, I am bad at English)
G - second invention - this has got form of welding mask with 3D googles on it. Sadly I don't remember what was it used for (probably something like forseeing future, but this is my guess after 1 year)
G - Third invention - "Centre of attention". This invention is my personal favourite. It took form of laser pointer and it's unique property was, that wherever I have pointed laser, everybody (except me) in room was looking on this red dot.
R - Fun with computer (I dunno what I meant with this, lol)
RG (neither I do know, how, but it really is on both timelines at the same time) - "I think I have four eyes." (No idea what was going on here)
And then I woke up.


I'd wish my dream recall would return for more awesome dreams...
Also, if there is anybody interested in interpreting at least one of them, PM me, I'd be really thankful, most of them sound confusing (namely Shortest Dream Ever, that one with rocket).

I suddenly realized I had been dreaming and looked around. A woman was sitting near by me and was teaching something. I tried to pay attention now that I am lucid. She is teaching mesome fine details about lucid dream reality. It all makes sense as she is teaching it, but upon waking the details have become vague. I ooften feel like things said tome in a dream make good sense, but can nott remember any details later.

I have had 0 luck these last few days so until I make some sort of progress I'm just going to make these little updates because I don't want to litter my DJ with 'no dream' updates.