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I am hanging out with co-workers and getting to know somebody who’s apparently just been hired. Her name is Marie, and she’s from Canada. In addition to working here, she’s a grad student working on a music degree, which she's now almost done with. She's currently working on the composition that will be her thesis. She shows it to me – via some sort of electronic device, I think.

The music is notated on manuscript paper, but instead of the usual note shapes, there are little horizontal rectangles that stretch out for as long as the note is held, rather like a midi display. The inside of each rectangle is patterned in ways that indicate something about the music. I hear it in my head as I read, with the patterns calling up images and connotations in relation to it.

The first bar begins with two long Gs an octave apart played by instruments in the violin family – I don’t identify them explicitly in the dream, but given that it’s written in the bass clef, almost certainly cellos. The rectangles contain the patterns signifying darkness and light. The impression this makes is hard to describe. Poignant, maybe – a suggestion of a cavernous space vast enough to hold them both at once. It continues, but I can’t remember the part after that so well.

16.5.20

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hey what a nice place

*candles blown out*

GAHHHH ITS SO CREEPY

"just kidding"

WTF

Black men pray for something so I bless the rains down in Africa. Except in Chinese style.

Normal | Dream | Lucid Dream

Same routine, screens off at 10, mindful bed time routine including taking melotonin, raw honey and MCT oil drink, and mindfulness meditation on Headspace (Free year for the unemployed!). I made a dream plan, slept on my right side (which actually helps!) and by 11 I was already asleep.

I'm with Ivy, hanging out. We settle in to watch a movie and I lay my head on her lap, she strokes my hair. I kiss her softly, her lips grazing mine felt very real. Dream fades.
I'm in my apartment, doing something in my bedroom. My waterbottle was scewered by something and is leaking water. I take it to the kitchen to pour the water in the sink. The sink is full of dirty water. I drink from my bottle, the water is dirty. I think thats not right, so I do a RC. This is a dream! I announce CLARITY a few times until I'm satisfied with the sharpness of the dream. I walk around my apartment, knowing I had a plan to fly tonight. I see my cat Elton trying to get my attention and following me; this is the first time I've ever seen him in a dream but I ignore him, worried he might do something freaky if I pay too much attention to him.
I visualized a beautiful dreamscape that night before going to sleep, so I try to close and open my bedroom door to lead me there. I try a few times but the door keeps opening to my room instead. The dream starts to fade but I stop what I'm doing, and restabilize by rubbing my hands together and looking around me. I try the door a few more times and still nothing.
I wake up in bed, Elton wakes up next to me. He's very energetic and excited considering its 3:30, and cuddles me and starts purring, and I wonder if he was really there in the dream with me. I take my usual supplements (galantamine, red DreamLeaf pill). I decided to try Niacin as I saw it listen on DV and had some on hand. WHAT A MISTAKE. Before I'm able to fall asleep, I'm already burning and itching all over. My remaining sleep is troubled.
I'm in my apartment, I get up, go to the freezer for icepacks. I lay back in bed with icepacks all over my body to relieve the INTENSE BURNING AND ITCHING I feel all over.
Another dream, I check on Google how long a Niacin flush lasts.
Last dream, three teenagers are sitting along a fence in the sun. They took Niacin, like they were doing drugs together. The girl in the middle is freaking out because of how hot and itchy she is. Me too, girl. Me too.
I wake up at 6am, can't sleep any longer. Niacin was a terrible idea. Since my only LD came before I took my supplements, I'll try only honey and MCT oil tonight and see what my results are like.
Also, what do you call it when you LD but you're in your apartment and it feels like real life? OBE? Astral Projection? False Awakening? This has happened before, and leads to some very boring LDs.

I’m coming home to Mom’s after having left Melissa’s. Ryan’s car is backed into the driveway and I see him out front. I think I get mad and yell at him, causing an altercation. I’m still in my car and he is on foot, so I start driving after him. He sprints away, which I find funny, but I am genuinely trying to hit him. I think he is now gone and I am on foot and picking up some things he has left by a mailbox. Now, I’m in the house and at the table with Mom and some unknown dirty blond girl probably a few years older than me. I can tell that her personality is not all that attractive and somewhat prude and priggish. I think they’re discussing legal matters regarding the situation and I can’t tell if they’re on my side or his.




I am going to a Flowing Tide with the family. It seems to be in a room off of the main area of a casino or something. When we get in, the place is empty. I notice a sign saying that they open at 7 and at 8. I guess we’ve just missed the 7 o’clock cutoff, but a female server lets us hang out while she cleans. This room has all of the tables and chairs pushed against the walls. I notice all the crumbs on them and on the dark carpet. One of the staff hesitates for a moment, looking it over, looking exhausted. We’re now sitting, and Sage is here. We’ve both ordered beer. Mine is a pint of something autumnal? that is really not all that great. Sage’s is a bomber of a dark/strong beer. I try it, needing two hands to lift the dark bottle, and it is good. It is bitter, but that seems to be the point, and I end up wishing I got this instead. The family is going on a hike after this, but Makayla and I have gone to the wrong spot. The correct spot was right above the Flowing Tide, but we went a little ways away (I think I drove). There is something about Makayla still wanting to do this hike and me just picking her up later. I’m trying to stick to the plan/just go with the flow, and this just seems like an inconvenience.




I am in a bathtub with two men and two women around my age, all unfamiliar, all nude. I don’t think there is any water in the tub, and it’s also just big enough for us all. There seems to be some kind of glass partition around the tub, and the tub seems to be in a bar?room where there are other people. I think we can see out but they can’t see in. I am touching one of the men now; his penis is thick but very short, not sticking up very far past his patch of pubic hair. I seem to be mostly pulling on the skin, and I don’t think it feels that good for him. I touch the other now; his penis is a bit larger and I think I do a better job. Now, a new blond and slightly pudgy girl is here (and I think the others are gone). I’m still naked as she coats my flaccid penis in some black liquid and then sucks it off. I don’t think I like her or this.




I’m in bed with Melissa and we’re talking. She asks what kind of science? I like, and I tell her dreams, music, and space.

Brittney is looking to rent a house with me since I think I have expressed that I’m looking. She’s wasted no time, and we are pulling up at the house. This house looks more like a school building it is so large. There are two separate buildings, the smaller of which we are parking directly in front of. The main building is off to the left a bit. I think this one in front of the ~4 parking spaces must be a guest house. Both are of a darker brown wood, angular and modern but not gaudy. From this parking spot I can see up into a space in the main building. It looks like a giant pool room. The walls are an antique looking white stone and vast; the ceiling is thirty or so feet high. The far wall has a large mirror that reflects a chandelier. I am taken with it and take a quick picture. We now go inside to tour the place. There is a middle aged black lady wearing some kind of headwrap who has 1-2 boys and is still currently living here. This house has an absurd amount of rooms, but they are all decorated modestly. It is almost an odd juxtaposition to the opulence of the house itself. I begin looking at rooms more thoroughly. I notice a few bathtubs. One room has a circular nook and tub with currently drawn curtains, which I like. It seems this entire room is just for the bathtub. There is an area that looks like a hallway, except it dead ends at a wall with a small, square window.it is inclined at 10 degrees or so, yet there is a long, dark wood dining table. Intrigued at this, I pull a chair out to envision how this would or wouldn’t work. I notice the lady watching me down at the other end and become self conscious, but she’s probably thinking it’s good that I’m involved/invested. I know that she is going to bed soon (even though I think it’s only around 9pm) so I quickly look at one more room (a bedroom with a walk-in closet and tub - almost like Dad’s) and we leave. I think the plan is for it to be me, Melissa, Brittney, Carlos, and Kestlie, so the rent will be manageable.




I’m on what looks like an apartment balcony with Laynie and I think Melissa and Laynie’s mom. Laynie’s baby is here too, only about six inches tall and playing around on Laynie’s shoulder. Laynie is completely topless, which strikes no one as odd, if we even really notice. The kid goes to give me a high five and I raise my hand to where she can’t possibly reach, then bring it to rest on Laynie’s shoulder because it is the closest thing. I think for a second we both thought I almost set it on her breast and both make a jokingly relieved face.




I’m up on a rocky outcropping on a hill, right at the crest of where a small river/stream becomes a sort of flume. It seems natural, but I think there are three different channels of stone. There are two other men here, somewhat older than me and Asian, I think. We are finding certain stones to send down the flume. These stones are tan and somewhat translucent (kind of a tan quartz) and they float. I’m breaking them off a larger section of stone, I think having more trouble finding the right ones than they are. I think they float down to a town and then do something. It seems dark out.

I am in my bed at Mom’s. I am going to sleep or have been sleeping. I think Ryan lives here. He comes in here, and it is so dark that I barely see him but rather sense him. He exudes malevolent sarcasm as he says something to taunt me. He then leans over and kisses my arm, his lips sickeningly wet. Smiling as he thinks he’s won, he leaves with another remark. Now I think it is the next day. I am going to covertly find some boxes, pack my things, and leave within the day.

I am driving with Sage to see Tool in Arizona. I know I am going with her, but it looks like I’m in the car alone right now. The scenery is nothing immediately familiar to me, but it is the typical arid landscape I would expect. This two lane desert highway meanders through some scrub and brown hills. It is dim, but at one point dark. I drive past a silent scene of carnage. Strewn across the road is a creature (maybe a human?) that has suffered an attack on its head. There is a chunk missing and a trail of blood and remnants. Since there is a hill right nearby, I assume that whatever did this must be up there. It is light again, and I am looking at some dark rock outcroppings atop a hill. There are small farmhouses at the base of the hill and openings in the rock pile that look clearly inhabited by something. The openings are almost as large as the structures, and it freaks me out slightly that they exist so close together. I then realize that they are actually barns or sheds, but still don’t like the thought. Only a little ways to the left, surrounded by some trees, is a house, still too close I think. I think we left at 4 pm, which I’m thinking will give us plenty of time (I’m thinking it takes 2-2 ½ hours to get there). We have arrived, a typical large indoor arena, and I think our seats are apart. I conclude that it shouldn’t be too hard to find someone willing to switch. The place seems pretty full and all of the lights are still on. I’m telling Sage I’m sure they’ll open with ‘Aenima’ (thinking of the Fear Inoculum tour) but it’d be cool if they surprised us with something like ‘Flood’ (I think we were listening to that in the car - I remember seeing the dash display with the track time and hearing the intro).




I’m in some house with some others, one of which is Krissy from work. There is also a child on the brown couch that might be mine.




I’m looking at the full moon and watch as it looks like something is shot through it. The ‘something’ is small compared to the moon, but it leaves a trail of particles. I tell someone and think they don’t believe me until it is publicly announced that the moon has been shot.

I was in the house and realised that I was dreaming again. This was the third dream of the night but I had not ben able to get out of the house because I was distracted. This time i had set the goal of exploring and flying around. So this time I got out and found I was in the back yard of the 5 acer house. So I ran twards the back yard. I jumped up and phocused on the wind and felt it flowing around me and I flew up and by phocusing on the direction and wind currents I was able to fly up. I flew above the clouds and saw a map like a game map but real. It had like the fog of war on the land. I was able to tell there were 4 buildings placed at the heart tips of a heart shaped 4 leaf clover. I had come from the north leaf. About 30 mi from the sandstone asteck pyramid. That leaf was to my left and to my right was the south leaf and on its lower right heart bump was a brown desert with rocks and a carnival. Later I learn that lucidity is kept difrently or rewarded difrently in each leaf. In the lower it was an pvp rpg system where you got rewards for exploits. There was lucidity packets and rewards that could help you phisicaly (odd but it seems to be a recurring theme in my dreams stuf there can give you wealth in a certain aspect or talent in skills). Later when I saw a rich person's house where I apparently went to perform a counsltashion for the mother who married a non natural lucid man and where wondering about how to make him more natural at it. Theas people were rich and they had paid for a stairway to heaven. This was basically where they built their steps to cultivate lucidity. This was built with tiles that interlock that had difrent gradients and give. Basically to make yo pay a certain type of attention when walking the stairs. Every step was difrent.

Two nights ago I had a semi-lucid, I was in my mom's old house, my view traveled from her room down the hallway to my room. The room was a slightly dark and blurry so I brought my right hand in front of me and said "Clarity Now" while snapping my fingers, bringing the room into clarity and making it bright. I was seated on the floor and started to become aware that I was dreaming. I took my right hand and slowly pushed it through my left hand and it went straight through, unfortunately this did not send me into a full lucid dream.

Last night I dreamt I was in a location that was located in Richmond but it was also shifting to different layouts too, it was closer to my apartment building. I was walking down the street which looked like the aisle of a Target or Walmart but the roof was open and the lighting was similar to being on the street at night. There were different sections where people were stopping off at, I stop at this sort of run down shop that in my mind is a bar. There are tables with people sitting at them, I see one guy with glasses and a plaid blue shirt on and I'm thinking this is someone from my work but he didn't see me so we didn't acknowledge each other, he's there with what I think is a tinder date. I'm sitting on a couch and I remember playing some sort of racing game on a TV, there was a bar to my left and a pool table in front of me. At the pool table is a group of girls, it was strange because they pulled their pants/underwear down to their ankles and were dancing to music playing, they had sort of teleported to the couch I was on and then were back at the pool table.

I left the bar and wandered down a dark street, to the left of me was the Hof which is a rooftop bar, there was a crowd below and I heard PUP playing, to me it was around 1:45AM in the morning and they had just ended their set which was disappointing but I thought I had caught one of their songs. Eventually I'm with Liz and Aly and a few other people in the group, I tell them about the bar I was at and bring them to it. We were there for a little bit but that eventually ended.

Next I was outside of Target near my hometown, a lot of people from my high school were in there. I was running into some of them in the parking lot including a friend Grace and when I called out to the person next to her it was not the person I thought, another person was in the car. I greeted other people I knew inside the Target, in my mind I had been looking for Liz but couldn't find her. I was eventually back on the sidewalk and it was people from my highschool walking past me going to their respective classes. I had long hair and I could see out of the right corner of my eye a family friend with a long hair too, I made a comment about how "the flow was back in style" or something, another older family friend walked by but he seemed indifferent when I said that to him too, I muttered something like "well that was a stupid comment" and walked back towards the Target. Inside was a class going on and I was sitting on the outside because there wasn't enough room inside, at some point the teachers comes out to me and asks me a question.

I'm inside the Target which looks like an open lab, at some point I'm on the ground in a SP situation where I can't move a muscle but I can hear this electronic song in my head and thought Grant had made it. The dream is now outside at this town on the beach, I'm thinking something about family guy and being with those characters in rivers/sewers going through the town.

I am with a friend and we're trying the racing simulation Assetto Corsa Competizione then the car turns into a horse and the game turns into a GTA game and i turn into a savage and decapitate a knight with a very shiny armor.

The dream changes itself into a role playing game. There are three characters. It's about a family thats working in a motel. This dream was just a very bad acted soup opera i shouldn't even write it down

Before going to sleep i had set an alarm but this dream was so bad, it woke me up anyways so i cancel my alarm because i don't want it to ruin my LD that i'm gonna have right now. I take a sip of water and get into my sleeping position, i am seeing some vivid images and as i'm about to fall asleep i get excited and wake up, then try it again and again.


At last, i'm in a dream. I'm in a dream! I'm in an industrial area with lots of buildings and i'm near one of them. There is a car beside me but everything is so low res, it's GTA:Vice City level. I want it to look better and it does, now the graphics looks like GTA:V ! I don't worry about it too much and get inside the building. There is an office with two people in it. Now everthing looks like real life or maybe more sharp. One old guy and one old lady. I remember my goal about eating a chocolate cookie in an LD because i was very envious that KatBee did it and that old lady may give me what i want! I ask the lady for a cookie and she says "grab a file from there and follow me." I do as she says and we're going inside the factory.

It's just a dirty old factory i say to myself while following the old woman. I see a mirror on the way and want to check how i look in LD. I was almost the same except for my eyes, they looked smaller. I remember about the cookie and run to the old lady. We go up some stairs and now we're in another office but this place looks so much nicer than the rest of the factory. She gives me the cookie, and it's very good! The crunch, the taste, awesome. But i remember something, my plan before going to bed was go to Adventure Time world and get a cookie from Bubblegum. Even though i ate a cookie, it's time to go there!

The office i'm in has a balcony, i step outside and look at the view, there is some parks with trees and after that it's sea. It's a good view but i need to go to Candy Kingdom! I turn around and imagine the Candy Kingdom behind me and when i turn back, it's there! Now i need to fly, i try to levitate of the ground but i hesitate and fall to the ground. I remember what i read about dream control, if you fear something, it's probably gonna happen. I just jump from the balcony, i lose some altitude but manage to fly!

I fly towards the Candy Kingdom. I'm doing some cool moves like a fighter plane, the view is amazing, the feel of flying and the wind, smell (smelled like cherry there), taste in my mouth from the cookies, it's just so much! Started to cry in my sleep because it was just so beautiful.

I wake up feeling very light, happy and energetic, even though i just slept for 5 hours tops.

This was my longest and grandest lucid dream by far. Used WBTB about 6 hours after I fell asleep, telling myself that I would remember to ask if I was dreaming and visualizing becoming lucid.
I appeared in the CHS softball fields, totally aware that I was dreaming. It was night time, and there were many people on the field; the scene was bustling, with a busy road where the sub-lot should be. I immediately went to the cars and tried stopping them in their tracks, but failed twice. They just honked, and the dream characters in them threw up their hands in confusion! Then I went over to a parked car, put my hand under the front, and lifted it up! I walked over to the people, and saw one of my college student advisors and made out with her for a bit. She was SO cute. Lastly, I went over to where the weight room was because I somehow knew there would be an ice-cream shop there. I didn't see an entrance, so I thought, fuck it, I'm gonna phase threw the wall. I ran at the wall and appeared on the other side, Harry Potter style! I looked around and saw that there were few good selections, and decided on a Friendly's tub. I got to pay, and realize I don't have my wallet. Even though I am FULLY aware I'm dreaming, I get nervous; I don't want to make a scene! By the way, the track guys are standing next to me, presumably back from a workout. Anyway, I make up an excuse about paying and run out of the store. I go back to the field with the crowd. I see lots of people gathering to look at something, and my HS friend Natalie tells me somethings going down. As I fix my gaze to see what is going on, I wake up!
The fact that I broke two different laws of physics in this dream, and told myself it would last (which it did) was so so exhilarating! In the dream, I told myself it would last 20 minutes (which is what I planned outside the dream). I'd say it felt like around 10 minutes, but I wasn't really thinking about time. Amazing stuff!

LD 120 - Gliding and Flying Again
After struggling to fall asleep again, I sink into my thoughts about my sister keeping a vlog on youtube, which happened in a previous dream. While thinking about commenting on the videos and stuff, a dream has formed around me. I’m gliding on the floor of an empty apartment and spinning too. I’m in a resting position like in waking life, but just spinning and gliding. Suddenly I’m outside on a sunny day, gliding on a street through a city. My thoughts rationalize slowly that I must be dreaming.

I continue to glide down the street until a store stops me. I don’t want to go inside again, I remember struggling to get outside in previous lucids. I stand up and start flying over the city. I cross over a small river and notice there’s a dark spot covering half of my vision. It’s my waking life hand that’s resting on my face. I try to ignore it and make it go away, but I focus on it too much and wake up.

Fell asleep at: 11:00 PM

Woke up at: 3:30 AM


No dreams to report. Had a nasty headache before going to bed, while also having listened to Silent Hill 1's main theme earlier in the day. I don't know which made it harder to fall asleep.