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Several times, I have had this scary and disturbing dream where my great uncle M would be sitting in his house and as I walk in and look at him, he would begin laughing and his bottom lip would drop really far down and curl up into a freaky/creepy smile.

On one of these occasions however, he done this and I grabbed him and then realised I was dreaming. I went outside to the street and rubbed my hands together to attain lucidity and once outside, I began jumpy from car to car in the street, floating slowly.

It then cut to a house where my father was beside me and we were looking out to a street where a few people were playing and I remember a red car parked oddly there. I looked up at my dad and said "Your not real y'know?" and then proceeded to make a pile of leaves float around using telekinesis with ease despite being a new Lucid dreamer.

End

I couldn't sleep on christmas Eve in 2003 and looked at my pepsi watch and saw it was 1:05. Angry and bored I threw my head down on the pillow and in what felt like 2 seconds, I looked back at the watch and saw that it was now 8:03. Im pretty sure I didn't knock myself out when I hit the pillow, but who knows.

17/july.2012

A few night ago I had an amazing dream where I could fly. I remember standing on the craigavon bridge which was quite different, much more like the new bridge. A group of people were watching me so I floated upwards and began flying really fast over the river foyle. It was night and the city looked more futuristic, but not vastly and the lighting was very bladerunner, with a green light from a big building cast along the foyle and a purple light radiating from another building near-by.

The dream cut to a city where a group of people were caught in an unknown building disaster. Even though I was feeling more villanous, I flew up to help them out of the building and then went to the ground and began to float in front of a guy with a grey shirt and hat. Suddenly, the guy in the hat (white beaked) began to float to my surprise, and showed me he was a superior flyer by quickly blasting off into the air. I think I began to follow him.

The last part of said dream did not involve any flying but was more so a strange piece of the dream in what looked like where Mc, Donalds or KFC would be, only with a fair ground next to it and it was the evening sun hanging in the sky, ready to set.

Me & my mom were at this place late at night that for some reason had this playground. All of a sudden I turned around and saw my best friend. I haven't seen him in a long time so I was really excited to see him & he had his skateboard wit him so he boarded to the swings as I ran alongside him.

Non-dream Dream

Lots of tiny fragments today:

Fragment 1:

I am making my major league baseball debut with the Angels. I am playing right field for some reason (SS,3B,P in real life) and I am doing very well. I get an outfield assist after backing up an errant throw to first base.

Fragment 2:

I am at my wedding and everything is going very well. I look awesome. I am snowboarding at the wedding with my brother and AC, and I am doing well. The venue is MG but it changed to the Anaheim back yard. We get put on the spot frequently throughout the wedding but we don't give a sh*t.

Fragment 3:

I am bowling and Em is there directing / coaching people.

Fragment 4:

I am talking to Obama.

I got up today and moved (apparently you loose memory of your dreams by doing that). Anyways, I was quite disappointed at the fact that I didn't remember any dreams from last night. Before I want to start trying to lucid dream I wanted to compile some entries in my dream journal to prepare me for what is to come.

After a couple of hours, I suddenly remembered a small segment of a dream I had last night. I was explaining lucid dreaming to my mom (or at least I think it was my mom - she was to my left) and I tried to fly by raising my hands and jumping. The thing was I actually went pretty far up and forward.

It was so crazy because I am constantly thinking about this and I almost convinced myself I did this in real life, but it is not possible! My mind tricked me into thinking I wasn't dreaming... I think that lucid dreaming may be harder than I thought.

I woke up on phone and I Wonder where I am. then I accidentally all over the phone and on my Dog. I Was very disappointed when I see that my Dog dead. And my Phone break. All over the kitchen floor my mess there. So I Had to pick it up and it very dirty in side. I Drank the soda and juice and reestablish connection to netwok and accidentally all over your face this time. Was not happy.

More work for the challenge my school was making me do. I had to get something, there was this guy who really annoys me, he stroked my face, I shouted "Never do that again!" and then this guy asked where he could buy tickets for something, so I directed him to one of my teachers. Eventually it went all weird, with the police being after me, Sanguine from The Elder Scrolls was a good friend of mine, and he helped me out! And then The Reapers invaded.
Then I woke up.

Im on my sister roof it baby blue and I sliped and fall im bearly hanging on the roof with both arm hanging on and my right leg tucked under me and my left hanging of the roof. im scard and start to wonder why I came up here, and thats when I realize im dreaming so I pull my self up easly . I see squirls on the roof but im not scared of getting bit anymore I jump off the roof and fall in slow motion .

Whiel im falling I rub my hands togather and yell stabilize now I hear a airplane and see one flying realy high up I see billionds of stars and it beautifal when I hit the ground I yell stabilize agian but I wake up

Moving to a Moon
Non Lucid: So I have finally arrived at one of Saturn's many moons to settle with the rest of the pioneers. It's like an earth mixed with mars, but instead of a small white Moon, there is a giant gas planet with rings and all that nice stuff. The sky is tinted orange, and while it looks like there's a dust storm up there, it's completely clear down here. I'm in my "hut" which looks like something from Red Faction: Guerilla, I ask someone (I don't recall who it was) whether or not I can fly back to earth and rejoin my people (perhaps I haven't thought this journey through, but it sure is lonely up here). I look up to see the sun "rising", it's coming out from behind Saturn, which I can see almost all of, including the rings. But the sun is actually larger than it appears here on Earth, and you can look straight at it (The dust cloud must just enough light, or you know, maybe it's a dream). One day on the moon (meaning day AND night) lasts 40 minutes. A look around at the ground reveals an orange soil with some small weeds covering it, much like my front yard. The terrain (outside of the settlement) is rocky, which leads me to believe that this dream is heavily influenced by the same game I mentioned earlier. I then go for a walk, on my way back as I am passing some car dealership (A car dealer ship on a moon on Saturn that has just been settles? I really need to recognize these dream signs) and am antagonized by two men in suits. They steal 600 of whatever currency is used here and run off. I only got a good look at one of them, who when appeared again on my walk back. He materialized in front of me for around 3 seconds. In a business suit, coarse brown hair, parted on the right (his right) jogging slowly. He looked a lot like Jason Batemen in "The Ex" now that I think about it. He promptly disappeared and I continued on my way home. When I got home I found my house was the scene of a murder. Much of it was blocked off by yellow police tape. I talked to one of the officers (The chief I think) and asked him if there was a lot of mugging going on, he said yes, especially in front of that car dealership. (I wish I could remember the name of it, because it was important. I believe it started with an I or an L)

If you are reading this journal and you have experience with WILDs, then I hope that you might be able to see what I'm doing wrong or what I could do better. That's one of the purposes of this journal; to get help from other, more experienced individuals. The other reason is that through lots of data I might be able to better analyze my failures. By keeping track of them and never failing for the same reason twice, perhaps I can reach success faster.

I'm going to do a quick outline of my technique so you, the reader, can be aware of what I'm doing (wrong). Maybe I'll notice things too, as I write things down.

- Set alarm to 4-7 hours after current time
- Tell myself that my intention is to WBTB, and then perform a WILD
- Wake up by the alarm
- Sit up for 5-15 minutes, until I'm thinking clearly again. Grab water or go to bathroom if needed
- Lay down in usual sleeping position, try to relax. This is done by relaxing tense body parts one at a time, and just feeling the relaxation
- Start counting from 1 and up, while I see the digits scrolling through my inner eye

This is as far as I have reached so far. What has happened is that I either fell asleep during the relaxation phase, fell asleep again before I could WBTB, fell asleep during counting or got tired of counting and fell asleep in frustration.

So if you have any thoughts on why I don't have success WILDing, please post a comment. It would be very appreciated.

Date: 16/07
Alarm after: 6:30
Brief description: Couldn't fall asleep at 1 am because I had slept until 13:30 the day before. It took a good hour or two to fall asleep, so alarm was closer to 5:00 instead of 6:30. Realized I have to adjust alarm times according to how much sleep I got the night before for things to work out. Maybe one could create a personal formula? I'll try once I get some more experience/success. Anyway; stayed up for 3ish minutes before WILDing, because the day before I stayed up for too long. Counted to around 30 and fell asleep.
Why it failed/succeeded: Messed up sleep schedule, 3 minutes WBTB wasn't long enough, alarm not kept in synch with how much sleep I had gotten, not enough focus due to short WBTB

I got up around 10:00 and fell asleep around 2:30 which leaves me with 7:30 hours of sleep. I'm well rested. Tonight I'll WBTB after 4:30, stay up for 15 minutes and then hopefully reach lucidity. I could also use better mantras or something before bed, because I feel I'm often not sticking to the plan when I wake up in the middle of the night.
By the way, I'm not sure how long exactly went by before I fell asleep, but I guess my alarm was after approximately 5 hours which seemed like a nice balance between sleepiness and being too wide awake.

All I seem to be able to recall is something about a glowin blue or green cilinder, about 4ft. Long being inserted one by one into some sort of machine in a panel.

i am recalling many hours after the dream bu its beter to get something in then nothing at all

so i drempt at one point about a cop car that pulled me over. There were kids drinking in the seat next to me. i was worried that the cop would be mad i was driving with kids after 8. The cop ended up prancing around saying threatening things but i got lost in thought and eventually the whole seen dissapatiated. Perhaps more will be revealed to me later

(Note: I'm not sure what time span this is supposed to be in, considering there are objects intermingled and situations from various years of my life.)

From what I can remember, it started off with Leah getting these weird phone calls at like 3:30 in the morning and wouldn't tell me who it was or where she went.

After awhile, while our mom was at work, and I was still somehow at home, she'd bring them around. They were thugs of the worst kind. She started drinking again, and convinced me to drink too, even though I didn't want to be around those guys. Apparently I was being my usual drunk self and pissed one of those guys off.

Leah came and woke me up the next morning with a GUN, and she said "If you don't wake up, I'm going to fucking shoot you right now." She tapped me with the end of the gun to really rouse me. Then she said "I know you've been talking shit about me and my friends and you're going to tell mom what I did." I swore up and down that I wouldn't and was like "Are you seriously threatening to kill me??? What the hell? Why are you doing this?"

I'm not sure I remember her answer, but she walked out of the room.

Somehow it transitioned to Leah and I following my mom walking in our neighborhood or something. Leah was threatening me again telling me that she had 3 different kind of guns and that she wasn't going to hesitate to use them if I told mom what was going on. I started to freak out and then she pulled one out. Then she said, "I'll shoot mom right now if you don't stop."


I don't know what happened after that. Maybe it transitioned into a later time period. I'm not sure if Leah was present but I remember walking up to our driveway and supposedly Leah's car windows were all smashed in. And then oddly, Donn's old Porsche also had the windows smashed in. My mom's was the worst. Not only were her windows shattered, but it looked like someone took a hammer and bullets to her car and just had their way with it. My mom practically collapsed in tears and I tried to get her to walk to the house so we could call the cops. We saw the cats outside the door, and my mom said "Thank god! The cats are still here, they didn't get hurt." I secretly thanked god too, cause I don't know what I would have done if any of them got killed.

As I walked through the door, I noticed my car (which happened to be my old Toyota Corolla) was left completely untouched. It was also parked on the other side of the block, for some reason, but close enough that someone could tell it belonged to the house. I was perplexed by this but also slightly relieved.